this is what happens when i'm away from school for too long

04/11/15 • studyblr photo challenge: “i’m proud of…” // so here is a selfie lmao bc i am proud of *drumroll pls* me! i’ve come a long way in the past 3ish years, what with recovering from severe depression and learning to live with anxiety and getting accepted into college and graduating high school after we all thought it wasn’t gonna happen and changing so damn much as a person, and i’m really happy with myself and everything i’ve done for me. most of the time i still wallow in this giant ocean of self-deprecation, but at the end of the day, i am grateful for and proud of myself, because i was the one who picked me up off the bathroom floor at 2 in the morning after having an anxiety attack, i was the one that wiped away my tears and told myself to nut up and keep going, i was the one who summoned up that tiny kernel of belief when everyone was giving up, i was the one who pushed me out of the darkest part of my life so far, and i’m still the one responsible for me and all that i am. I guess what i’m trying to say is that i’m proud of going through shit and coming out on the other side, and i’m proud of who i’ve become and how i’m always striving to grow as a human bean into a positive and constructive force in other’s lives, someone who thrives on earth rather than merely exist. when all’s said and done, i am damn proud of myself - and i hope you are too. :)