this is what happens when i listen to taylor swift's enchanted too much

Beautiful Speak Now Album Things:
  • TAYLOR WROTE IT COMPLETELY BY HERSELF AT AGES 18-20!!!! AND IT WON 2 GRAMMYS!!!
  • Like every fuckin’ bridge on this album makes you want to cry
  • And all the lyrics are fucking awesome. It’s a lyric-driven album
  • “Every time I look at you, it’s like the first time”
  • “You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter”
  • Opening “Mine” with “uh-oh” and closing it with the background vocals echoing “I can see it now” to show the emotional journey of the character as she believes in love again over the course of the song
  • “BRACED MYSELF FOR THE GOODBYE / ‘CAUSE THAT’S ALL I’VE EVER KNOWN / AND YOU TOOK ME BY SURPRISE / YOU SAID, ‘I’LL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE’”
  • The entirety of “Mine,” the best love story ever told
  • The fact that Taylor resurrected Sparks Fly from the dead and put it on her 3rd album because we asked her to
  • The fact that Taylor also rewrote Sparks Fly and took out the lyrics that made it more sexual and about performing in a bar
  • The fact that the original lyric (now displayed in The Taylor Swift Experience) was “brown eyes” and she made it “green eyes”
  • How she describes the love interest as “a full-on rainstorm” and later says “meet me in the pouring rain”
  • The juxtapositions of rain and fire and then darkness and light in Sparks Fly
  • BACK TO DECEMBER
  • How the entire song is just an apology without any excuses. It just’s “I messed up and you suffered for it and you didn’t deserve that” 
  • “you gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye” 
  • How the orchestra makes everything so fucking beautiful??
  • The use of seasons in the second verse to describe the rise and fall of the relationship
  • How she references the 2009 VMA incident (”how you held me in your arms that September night / the first time you ever saw me cry”)
  • Speak Now being about the Paramore relationship drama and how Taylor was actually at the wedding it’s about lol
  • Taylor singing up an octave in Speak Now to sound like a gentle little girl about to crash the shit out of wedding
  • “a gown shaped like a pastry” “fond gestures are exchanged” “a song that sounds like a death march” “she floats down the isle like a pageant queen” = so descriptive?? conveys the feelings?? Queen of conveying emotions through descriptions
  • “you need to hear me out and they said Speak Now” “Your time is running out and they said Speak Now” “I hear the preacher say, ‘Speak Now or forever hold your peace” “So glad you were around when they said Speak Now” = queen of altering her main chorus line
  • “I’m not the kind of girl who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion” –> What’s the kind of girl tho?? I never knew
  • The giggle in the bridge
  • DEAR JOHN. THE ENTIRE SONG. ALL THE LYRICS.
  • How Dear John calls out emotional abuse by a much older man onto a 19 year old without any apologies or sympathizing with the man but also has pieces where the victim blames themselves and calls out a pattern of abuse of other women
  • But it ends with the victim retaining their self worth and escaping and it’s amazing
  • “the girl in the dress cried the whole way home” –> have you ever seen such a beautiful conveying of a young girl’s loss of emotional innocence 
  • YOU SHOULD’VE KNOWN”
  • How the secret message of Dear John is “loved you from the very first day” which is a line on a bonus track “Superman” which is about how the love interest seems like the best guy in the world and a real life Superman 
  • That fuckin’ banjo in Mean
  • How Mean began about a critic who said Taylor ruined her “entire career overnight” at the Grammys and then Taylor performing Mean at the Grammys and wining 2 Grammys for it
  • The use of a big city to display one’s level success (which is what actually happened when Taylor moved to NYC)
  • “A simple complication, miscommunications lead to fallout” 
  • “I’D TELL YOU I MISS YOU BUT I DON’T KNOW HOW / I’VE NEVER HEARD SILENCE QUITE THIS LOUD”
  • Isn’t it weird how she says “and people would say they’re the lucky ones” then on the Speak Now Tour she wrote “The Lucky One” ?? weird
  • “So many things that I wish you knew / so many walls up I can’t break through” –> “So many things that you wish I knew / but the Story of Us might be ending soon”
  • That fuckin’ ramp up back into the chorus after the bridge in The Story of Us
  • How perfectly Never Grow Up conveys how scary can it feel to grow up
  • The bridge of Never Grow Up
  • How every song except Never Grow Up and Last Kiss use heavy production and background vocals and it makes those two songs that much more powerful in their simplicity 
  • “I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone” and how this line gets more powerful the more years that go by
  • How Never Grow Up starts as a song to a baby, watches that baby grow up, and ends with Taylor  looking back at her life and the passage of time and swearing to protect that baby from harm….you ever cry
  • Just take 5 minutes and listen to Enchanted again pls
  • “Wonderstruck” “Enchanted” “Passing notes in secrecy” “this is me praying” “the very first page, not where the story line ends” “your eyes whispered” “this night is sparkling” “blushing all the way home” “I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew” “this night is flawless” “dancing ‘round all alone” –> So much mystical and whimsical imagery that you feel like you could call in love with the next person you see
  • The guitars in Enchanted
  • The production of Enchanted
  • “Sophistication isn’t what you wear or who you know / or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go” 
  • “I always get the last word” “There is nothing I do better than revenge” “show me how much better you are” –> Taylor is v self-aware 
  • Also how “show me how much better you are” is a reference to that JoBro song “Much Better” lmao so much 2008/2009 Disney drama
  • How Taylor wrote Innocent about the VMA incident when she could’ve just told you-know-who to fuck off
  • How Innocent looks at the subject from the perspective of their childhood and how they had “monsters” and “demons” that made them do bad things later in life and how this doesn’t make them a bad person
  • Knowing that you-know-who was one of Taylor’s favorite artists growing up so Innocent is also Taylor reconciling with herself how someone she artistically looked up to for years hurt her 
  • The use of light: “time turns flames to embers” “your string of lights is still bright to me” “in your firefly catching days” 
  • How Innocent is Never Grow Up but applied to someone else through the lens of forgiveness
  • “I hope you’ll remember: today is never too late to be brand new”
  • The orchestra in Haunted and how it makes the song sound urgent and the situation dangerous
  • “holding my breath” “your eyes go cold” “something’s gone terribly wrong” “can’t turn back now” “a fragile line” “it’s getting dark and it’s all too quiet and I can’t trust anything now” “come on, come on, don’t leave me like this” “can’t breath whenever you’re gone” “you’re not gone, you can’t be gone” –> everything sounds dangerous and urgent!! Like she’s actually gonna die!! And it’s called Haunted!! You get haunted by dead people!! But she’s saying she’s haunted!! The Haunting is killing her!! Holy shit!!
  • Last Kiss
  • The secret message of Last Kiss: “Forever and Always” 
  • The breath in the bridge of Last Kiss
  • The use of time and the passage of time: “at 1:58″ “that July 9th” “you can plan for a change in weather and time” “your name forever the name on my lips” “I’ll watch your life in pictures” “I’ll feel you forget me” “I’ll keep up with our old friends” “I still remember” “L
  • “I’m not much for dancing, but for you I did” –> “I don’t wanna dance if I’m not dancing with you” (Holy Ground)
  • THE BRIDGE: “So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep / and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe / and I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are / hope it’s nice where you are / I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day / and something reminds you / you wish you had stayed /  you can plan for a change in the weather and time / but I never planned on you changing your mind”
  • LONG LIVE
  • How the secret message of Long Live is “For you”
  • How Taylor ends Speak Now with a song for her fans and her band that she wrote during the Fearless Tour
  • How Long Live because even more powerful and beautiful and even sadder the more the years go by and the more successful Taylor becomes and as original member of The Agency leave/are left go
  • How Taylor wrote “we will be remembered” when she was like 19 and was still on her second album and before she won AOTY for the first time and wasn’t even close to the prime of her career but she was proud of how far she had come already and how Long Live sounds like a song someone writes at the end of their career to reflect on their accomplishments 
  • How Taylor wrote “promise me this: that you’ll stand by me forever” and every band member she has ever had still speaks highly of her and defends her
  • “When they point to the pictures, please tell them my name” but now no one will have to because everyone knows who she is and will know who she is for a long time because of her accomplishments and effect on popular culture
  • “It was the end of a decade but the start of an age” Taylor literally had no idea how true this line would become 
  • HOW SHE ENDS THE ENTIRE ALBUM WITH “ONE DAY, WE WILL BE REMEMBERED”
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Dear @taylorswift ,

In 2006 was the first time I had ever heard of Taylor Alison Swift. We were listening to the radio, and I knew from that moment on that you were gonna have a special place in my life. From that moment on, I loved you. I got your first CD and played it day and night. Danced like it was going out of style, sang like you were right there with me. I named my barbies after you, acted like they were Taylor Swift going to her next concert of the night.

In 2007, I was almost asleep. I got this feeling in my head and chest, like I was going to be sick. I told my mom that I had to go to the bathroom, that my stomach was hurting and I didn’t feel good. I got nauseous and felt like I was going to throw up. I told my mom, and when I told her, I started seeing spots everywhere. I got lightheaded like there something riding starting through my throat to my head carrying bricks. My head started pounding like there was thousands of things smashing into each other, feeling like they was bricks. Then I saw one big flash. That’s the last thing I remember. I woke up, like I had been asleep. My mom was crying and my dad was freaking out. We went to the emergency room to find out what had happened. I was so confused, scared, nervous, and sick. I had no idea what was going on. My parents didn’t want me to worry. I will never forget how scared my mom acted. It was almost like I had done something scary, she said later on. When we got to the hospital, later on they told us that based on what my mom said had happened, I had had a seizure. At the time, I didn’t know what that was. I had heard of them on movies, TV, etc. I thought they were when people foamed at the mouth, shook all over, etc. I found out that they are different. However, they weren’t any cup of tea. Luckily, mine only lasted 10-15 seconds. They sent me to a neurologist to find out more about what had happened, and to see even if I had has a seizure. I will never forget the first day I ever went to the neurologist. I didn’t want to go, I hated the doctors anyway, I wasn’t wanting anyone to touch my head. We had to stay all night in a hotel because we lived quite a way from the hospital. My mom told me the doctor wants me to stay up as late we could, that it has to do with what they try tomorrow. I was so confused. Later to find out, they were going to make me have a seizure. I was so tired. My mom took my side and we went to sleep. She was so nervous and stressed, I felt so sorry and scared. When we got there, they had told my mom and dad before hand that they needed to do some tests. They put these gooey, sticky, wet dough stuff in my hair and head, which I later found out was called an EEG. The doctor was in a separate closed in room through glass watching my brain on a computer screen. They told me they wanted me to do some stuff. They got a mini windmill and made me blow on it as long as I could. I blew on it once and stopped. They told me I can’t take any breaks, to do it longer. My mom got really mad at them, saying I can’t do that, and asked them what are they trying to make me do? They literally forced me. I almost passed out from the torture they put me through. From holding my breath for minuets on minuets, breathing as fast as I could, then my parents said to stop. That they were not going to let them torture me. They later done a CAT scan on me to see if there was anything wrong in my body. They didn’t find anything from that.
Later on, it was time for the actual appointment. My mom and grandma took me. We had to tell the neurologist what all had happened, how it started, how I felt, etc. He told us that it was a seizure. My mom started crying, and I got so worried. I thought I was dying! I was so confused. He put me on some medicine that is suppose to make it hopefully not make it happen again. I will never forget how confused and scared I was. How nasty and dull tasting the pill was. My mom said I am going to be okay, and tried to explain it. I was so scared. But you know what I did? We listened to your songs. My mom knows how happy your songs make me, and her. You took our mind off of that for a while.

When I was in second grade, I had a seizure at school. I got made fun of my a girl, because of having one. She said “you sat/fell weird! Do you always pose when you puke?” But the thing was, I fell. I don’t remember how I even got there. It lasted until then. But you taught me to be myself. You taught me to not listen to bullies. You have taught me so much. You have helped me so much.

On April 29th, 2010, I saw you in Lexington, KY on the Fearless tour with my cousin, my mom, and her mom. I will never forget how happy I was to actually see my role model, and even though you didn’t know I exist, my bestfriend. I will never forget as long as I live the look on your face, even my mom was smiling, of how happy you were. You looked around at the arena, all the swifties that were there for you!! It was one of the best nights of my entire life. When it was over, my cousin wasn’t even talking about the concert. I was going on and ON about it, how great it was, but she told me to be quite, it was just a concert. I didn’t understand, I was so confused on why someone wasn’t freaking out. We JUST SAW TAYLOR FREAKING SWIFT! How could you not be freaking? I now realize it’s because of how much you impacted me.

On October 29th, 2011, you came back to Lexington, KY. Back to my little town. My mom got me tickets to see you on your Speak Now tour. I was so excited, I got to see you once AGAIN! I remember when you got on the platform and came right under my section. Little 9 year old me was so mad because I didn’t get to see you and maybe meet you. I thought to myself, “I will never get to do anything like that. Nothing like that ever happens to me.“ But then my mom reminded me that I am here. I was in the room with my role model. I was having a party with Taylor Swift. And I remembered you told me to always be happy. It felt like I actually knew you, like you knew me. Long story short, it was the best.

On April 27th, 2013, you have came BACK to Lexington, KY again!!! Me, my mom, and my friend and her mom went to the RED TOUR!!! Which was literal PERFECTION! Me and my friend had different seats, though. I was in really upper arena, and my friend had almost front row seats. She texted me and that said no one was sitting in the seats beside her yet, to come on down! Let’s just say I lost my sh*t ok. I got to see Ed Sheeran RIGHT UP CLOSE! It was almost time for you to come out, and I COULD NOT CONTAIN MYSELF! I had NEVER been that close to you!!! I was so so excited. I was screaming, and my friend thought I was a lunatic (reminding me again how much you mean to me). Next thing I know, the people that’s seats we were in showed up. I was crying and so devastated. I thought I may have a chance of thanking you for everything you’ve done for me. But when you told us that it may seem like you can’t see people in upper arena, but you can, I instantly felt better. I thought you may have actually saw me.

In 2014, I fell down my porch steps and broke my ankle. I couldn’t walk like myself for 6 weeks. It caused me to get depressed (not suicidal) and have some anxiety. That wasn’t me. I started having mini panic/anxiety attacks. I would cry myself to sleep and just be so stressed, and my mind was making me think my life was bad. Every little thing made me scream. I wasn’t Hannah. I felt like no one cared about me. I felt like no one understood what was happening, what I was going through. But you did. When I listen to your music I feel like you know exactly what’s happening. I feel like you are helping me, even if it isn’t physically.

Last Tuesday, I saw you in Lexington again, with my bestfriend Shania, my mom, and her mom. I was so ready. I had been waiting since June. I had made 2 posters that said “The MUSIC filled my lungs I scream so loud but you don’t hear a thing!” Like from Clean? Because I’m screaming for you to notice me? Hahaha! And the other one said, “I would be enchanted to meet you!” I had even made a face mask of your precious kitty Meredith. I was so pumped. Guess what I done? I forgot them in the freaking car. I FORGOT THEM IN THE CAR TAYLOR. THE POSTERS AND MASK THAT I WORKED FOREVER ON. GONE DOWN THE DRAIN. It was too late to turn around, we were halfway to our seats. I was closer than I’ve ever been to you before. I was in section 24, row V. When you came on the stage that was towards the very end, of the back of the arena (my section), I had planned to go to the railing and try to let you see me. I wanted you to see me so I could get a picture of you smiling in the background. So if I couldn’t meet you through loft 89 (because nothing like that ever happens to me), I would make sure you saw me. Well that never happened. There was a security guard watching every move everybody made. And me, the scaredy, worrier cat couldn’t do it. My mom didn’t want me to do it. So I didn’t get to. I was so sad, I felt like crying. But I didn’t. Because I was there. I was in the same room as Taylor Alison Swift. For the not 1st, but 4th time. That was a privilege. Most people have never even been to a concert. Let alone 4 of you! So I shook it off! I ended up getting a picture with you in the background, it’s on my blog. And you also WAVED AT MY SECTION! Let’s just say, you put on the absolute best concerts. Every concert is like a Broadway play. Just flawless.

You have been with me through the good times and bad. You’ve helped me through every bad event in my life. Your music takes my mind off my seizures. I continue to have them once a year almost. I hadn’t had one in 2 years until last year, when I had 3 in one night. I try to see the best out of it. People do not realize that seizures are a real disorder. They change people’s lives. Every single time I have a seizure, I either throw up or feel like I am. So every time I feel like I am going to be sick, I think I’m going to have a seizure. People at school don’t think anything of it. They don’t care, they don’t take time to listen to what I feel. Every time I worry, or get excited over something, I get to so nervous I feel sick. Seizure sick. But no one cares. They care, but they act like its nothing. And it’s starting to get worse. But when I know you care, and you help me. I can never truly get excited because every time I’ve had a seizure, I’ve ALWAYS been excited/nervous. Seizures do that to people. At the 1989,concert, I was trying to hold in my excitement. I can never show how I truly feel, because the fear of seizures. Please tell me you understand me. Your music hits me in places I didn’t even know were there. I could never thank you enough for all you have done. No doctor, no person, could ever help me as much as you have, and still are. People bully me at school. They throw stuff at me, laugh at me, say I am weird and need to be in a crazy house, push me, knock me down, etc. JUST for being myself. You teach me that it’s okay to be yourself though. “Clean”  really hits me. The line “I scream so loud but no one heard a thing”, gets to me in so many places. Whenever tell someone something they don’t understand ANYTHING. My mom sometimes does, but at times she doesn’t. I have always dreamed to be an actress. At times, I just feel like giving up because of how impossible it seems, and how I probably could never do it because of my seizures. But then I remember you didn’t give up! You fought for what you really wanted, and look where you are!! I need to know you have saw my story. I’m not one of those people who spams you for a follow, that’s not what I’m doing. Although I would absolutely POOP if you followed me. But what I am doing, is to please, read this. You don’t even know— wait yes you do, because you’re so smart! On my main blog, @actressie was my account for you, but I’ve just recently made a separate blog @enchantlyswift. I am praying that by the time you come back to Lexington, I will be popular on my blog and you may know me and I may get to actually see my role model up close in person (meet you and tell you in person how much you’ve helped me). With seizures, anxiety, bullying, and daily life, you are there for me. And I can’t thank you enough. I love you beyond words could describe (no homo lol)!!!

Love,
Hannah ❤️

 @taylorswift @tree-paine

Will Leave You in the Morning (But Find You in the Day)

A/N: this is the first CS Fic I’ve ever posted, so..be gentle ;) I also wanna give a shout out to euphoric-melancholyy and captainmeerkat for encouraging me to write again… Okay, here we go!

(I listened to “Last Kiss” by Taylor Swift and “In My Veins” while writing this, just thought I’d share in case you wanted to listen while reading) 

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It all happens so fast, a flash of light and an evil laugh, he calls out her name and then he’s gone. Vanished into thin air. And she’s frozen: can’t move, can’t breathe. She hadn’t expected the witch’s threat to be true but it was and now he’s gone: with no memories of her or Storybooke. He’s lost in some other realm with no way back to her.

She barely registers what happens after she falls to the ground. The faint sounds of the witch being taken out by Regina and the amulet Belle found in Gold’s shop. “Killian?” She calls into the air. She knows he can’t answer her, but she waits and waits until she can feel all their eyes on her and she screams. “Killian!”

*****

He falls the ground with a thud, his head spinning. It takes him a moment to register where he is. Tall trees and a large field, The Enchanted Forest. His mind tells him he’s home and he’s off to find his ship.

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