this is way too enjoyable

anonymous asked:

sooo i don't really have a question but i would like an analysis of the new amazingphil video if you have one,, or just your favorite moments, idk i just want you to talk about it, i love your "reviews"

hahaha of course i’ll talk about it!!!!! it’s interesting bc when i first watched this i was actually like not that into it??? it just felt like 10 very calm and chill mins of dnp hanging out which is obviously great but i think i was sort of distracted so i was like mmmm it wasn’t as entertaining as their usual collabs, esp bc on first watch i was like, dan keeps going for these weird dark jokes about torture n maiming and it’s all v Standard Fare but then i thought about it more and realized ,, if this isn’t the biggest evidence yet about how far they’ve come and evolved since last year then idk what is??? like i just can’t believe it’s gotten to the point where i could watch 10 minutes of dan softly playing around with phil’s hair and both of them being a bit calmer and more muted in front of the camera, freely touching each other and joking around about more Mature Themes (hats off to the dildo joke and the “safety word” bit) and have all of that feel completely STANDARD and unsurprising!!! it’s just crazy to me that they’ve normalized these behaviors so much that a video like this could feel so completely expected and ~chill~ 

but then i watched it a second and third time (bc duh) when i was less distracted and there really were so many little moments that stood out to me and so many cute smiles and soft lil jokes that made me wanna melt and it was all just so good. it’s nowhere near their funniest or most captivating video but it’s just vv vv v v soft and chill and natural. when comparing it to something like pastel edits which is probs a close parallel in terms of them playing dress up and touching each other a bit in direct response to a fan request, you can see how this one is far softer and a little bit less performed–they seem less ‘on’ for lack of a better term, and a lot more laid back, dan doesn’t spend as much time demeaning the idea or teasing the fan base for wanting it, and all of it is just so enjoyable to watch. i’ve included (way too many) timestamps below (plus way too many screenshots, as usual, of stupidly cute moments ugh): 

  • 5 seconds in this is already alarmingly cute w dan grumbling behind the pillow that phil wants to give him a creative nickname and phil giggling and looking down at him when he starts complaining
  • :17 dan gives phil permission to just call him dan and phil looks cute n happy about it
  • :27 dan needs to reiterate he was a nerd in school
  • :34 ‘japes’ k dan
  • :48 i live for the way phil looks so earnest and excited when he asks dan why he decided to ‘embrace the curls’ like he genuinely wants to hear dan explain this .. phil is genuinely obsessed w dan’s curls he wasn’t lyin when he said that in the pastel edits vid :(
  • 1:00 i hope phil was the one who chose that photo as an example of dan’s hair looking good in a pic,, phil thinks dan’s best look is his crunchy 2013 leather jacket n his scoop neck t shirt … #confirmed
  • 1:10 ‘you’ve left me alone!’ calm down phil he’s right next to u
  • 1:12 did phil pick that photo too ..  the one of dan in his tank top n hair straightened to within an inch of its life and silvery earrings making a pouty face ,,, lmao i love that he’s picking the cringiest emo-est throwbacks possible
  • 1:54 phil’s like ‘i thought we could eat 400 crusts to see if my hair goes curly’ and it’s altogether a lame joke but dan is staring at him like he’s the most beautiful person on earth. i’d be uncomfortable if i wasn’t so busy melting. then phil stares at dan giggling and it’s all a bit much for me
  • 2:41 ‘what’d happen if i balded you right now?’ dan is so concerned for phil’s well-being that he forgets how to grammar
  • 2:45 the fuckin dildo joke i s2g why are they making sly references to dildos in a g-rated hair curling video why did phil immediately follow dan saying ‘that looks like something else’ by going ‘ooo’ and shoving the curler near dan’s mouth why are they gross
  • 3:21 dan unnecessarily rubbing the curler all over phil’s shoulder and neck … ok
  • 3:41 phil sounds so serious when he asks dan if he thinks the curly hair will suit him, like he really needs dan’s Hot Take on this important issue but dan’s just shuts him down hahaha. i feel like this is reminiscent of the faceapp vid in which dan was completely NOT DOWN with any alteration to phil’s appearance whatsoever bc (vom) he thinks phil is perf jst the way he is (i might actually be sick) 
  • 3:47 idk why but i’m obsessed w phil saying ‘dan, don’t mess about with it’ and dan responding ‘i’m nOT’ in his whiny voice w his eyes all wide. cute
  • 3:56 lmao dan bringing up babuse (i can’t type that without thinking of ‘let me see that babussy’ i hate the fucking internet) and saying it was the last time he was on this bed, i am living for these bants and also phil’s expression of mock horror
  • 4:08 ‘curl me up, bess’
  • 4:11 dan’s going for ‘teen nick jonas but without the face’ his crush is going strong i see,, and then he can’t even follow through and tell phil his face doesn’t compare to nick jonas’s so he turns it into a joke about burning his face instead, nice save bro
  • 4:27 THIS KILLED ME THEYRE JST TALKING N DAN JUST BRUSHES ASIDE A BIT OF PHILS FRINGE FOR NO REASON AT ALL HE JST WANTS TO PLAY W HIS HAIR ITS CUTE N IM DYIN
  • 5:01 something about this bit when dan’s like ‘got a whole clump it’s undignified’ and their proximity, the way their arms are sort of pressed together and it looks like dan could be resting his hand on phil’s leg and dan is also sort of just looking down at phil ,,, Good
  • 5:08 when phil kinda squeaks and pulls away all of a sudden i feel like dan is legit actually concerned he could burn phil as evidenced by his voice going all high pitched when he’s like ‘you can’t do that!!!!’
  • 5:13 more completely unnecessary dan playing around w phil’s fringe n brushing it away. it goes on for like 8 seconds plus there’s a jump cut in the middle of it lmao,,, ugh the way he touches phil’s hair is so soft it makes me feel things
  • 5:32 ‘gonna pork you up phil’ does dan know the meaning of ‘pork’ as a verb ??  ? ? ??? ??????  for reference:
  • 5:36 ‘my life is flashing before my eyes’ ‘ooo is it really boring’ dan is showing yet again that he flirts like a five year old who pulls their crush’s pigtails in the playground grOW UP MATE. phil loves it tho
  • 6:03 omg idk why but i LOVED phil saying ‘i’m finding you so disturbing right now’ it feels so authentic??? something about the way he phrased it is so funny??????? like he genuinely needs dan to take it down a notch w the grim humor lmao
  • 6:47 ‘we need a safety word’ oh my god these boring vanilla fucks call a safe word a ‘safety word’ could they be LAMER hahaha (in all seriousness i can’t even believe that’s a joke dan went for at all let alone on this channel and that phil just chuckled n went along with it what the fuck what a time we live in honestly,, the flirting and touching and the whole premise of a dan-curls-phil’s-hair video is already so much but, like, let’s just add a fucking allusion to bdsm into the mix while we’re at it!!!!!!! wtf!!!)
  • the whole sped up montage of dan doing the curling is just rife w gratuitous hair touching so like obvi i immediately turned the speed down to .5 and just sat back to enjoy it (also @kay-okays uploaded a slowed down version here if ya wanna look at that or like bookmark it for ur own uses ,,  whatever ur into m8)
  • 7:18 those two gentle pats that dan gives to the back of phil’s head before phil looks at his finished hair … so fucking adorable bc it’s the way dan pats down his own hair when he’s fixing it pls save me
  • 7:29 dan obvi needs to make it a point to emphasize they have the same hair again as has been his constant refrain about their haircuts for the last like 3 years (tbh i’m convinced that he literally misses having the same hair as phil which is gross and just as sappy as i’d expect from him) and in order to demonstrate how ALIKE they are again he proceeds to mirror phil playing w his fringe bc why not .. 
  • ‘this was the only thing that was separating us’ PLS
  • 7:38 dan’s Hot Take 2.0: ‘you look like a cool australian surfer … like a weird goth one that has never been to the beach’
  • 8:14 dan asserts on phil’s behalf that phil ‘needs’ the edge of his emo fringe and phil immediately agrees. rip to anyone who was hoping quiff!phil might be on the horizon
  • 8:39 dan goes defensive about how he could’ve done a better job and phil immediately jumps in to say that he thinks dan did well in the most sincere voice of all time, accompanied w cute/soft smile
  • and then he cuts dan off entirely to remind him that he didn’t burn phil’s face off and to v fervently thank him (he litro NODS while he thanks him it’s so SERIOUS) and then dan does some weird touchy thing to phil’s chest or arm or both and phil decides to boop dan’s cheek and you should really SLOW IT DOWN bc when you do, you notice it’s more of like a lil squeeze as opposed to just a v light tap and it’s gROSS:
  • 8:59 then, since this video has far too much dan gratuitously touching phil and phil was surely feeling deprived, phil reaches over to give dan a ‘zayn curl’ and play w dan’s fringe a bit n at this point i’ve had Enough of this cute ass shit
  • 9:20 dan couldn’t just leave it there, he needs to take a moment to re-assert the ~dnp don’t go outside or go to parties or talk to people Ever~ branding just in case ANYONE forgot (but also seems like a low key way for dan to gently remind the audience not to get attached to this in any way bc it will probs never happen again)
  • 9:40 phil dubs dan the “original curly man” n idk how to feel about this but i suppose that is a fitting conclusion to this absolute roller coaster of emotions 

ugh. just a really great video. i’m sorry this post is massive,, there’s jst so much here and i needed to have pics of ALL OF IT

(dan curls my hair!

dating haz and being best friends with tom would include... 💘
  • tom trying to always be a reminder that he was the one to introduce you guys 
    • “alright, love, i’m headed off to the set with tom, love you” 
    • “hEY, I’M THE REASON YOU’RE SAYING I LOVE YOU” 
    • “piss off, you div” 
  • so !! many !!! sleepovers !!!!! 
  • they often happened at yours and harrison’s shared flat and the other guys of course would tag along 
    • “tom, can you please move so i can sit next to y/n” 
    • “why would i do that?? best friend tops boyfriend, it’s just best friend code” 
      • tom may or may not end up being shoved off of the couch and onto the floor once or twice 
  • haz getting a bit butt hurt over all of yours and tom’s inside jokes 
  • he knew you two had nothing but a platonic relationship, but he couldn’t help that little bubble of jealousy every time he heard you laugh at another joke 
    • “oh my god, haz, baby, isn’t that so funny?”
    • “fucking hilarious he is”
  • tom finding way too much enjoyment in watching you two argue over whose best friend he really was
    • “i knew him first” 
    • “yeah but he loves me more, isn’t that right, tommy?”
    • “ladies, ladies, there’s enough of good ole’ tom to go around for everyone” 
  • so. much. traveling. 
  • thanks to tom declaring you as his “second assistant,” you got to go everywhere with them and opted to take your college classes online 
  • with all of that traveling and assisting alongside harrison, it made for great opportunities to spend more time together 
    • “hey, y/n, haz, have you seen my-jESUS CHRIST NOT IN MY TRAILER AGAIN” 
  • don’t fight me on this, the two of them would actually argue about being your #1 best friend on snapchat
    • “tom, i’m literally in a relationship with y/n, why shouldn’t i be #1???”
    • “because, duh, number one best friend in real life and on snap, it’s logic, mate” 
  • wow you have the two greatest dorks in your life
  • where’s the sign up 

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“A Mermaid Tale” Supernatural One Shot

Title: A Mermaid Tale

Author: Lana (pineapplegirl123)

Original Imagine Link: Imagine Sam and Dean finding out a witch turned you into a mermaid when they find you sitting unhappily in the bathtub.

Word Count: 825

Warnings: none

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“Dean! Sam!” I yelled from the bathroom, hoping I was loud enough for them to hear my call.

It was the end of a busy, stressful day and I was just trying to relax. A nice, warm bath usually helped calm me. However, this was not my idea of relaxing.

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a lot can change in 20 minutes] montgomery x reader

pairing: monty de la cruz x reader

summary: y/n and monty hate each other but after a twenty minute car ride together they decide maybe they shouldn’t. 

warnings: swearing 

a/n: okay there’s probably a lot of grammar and spelling mishaps in this because my computer decided to attack me at the WORST possible time and i had to type and edit a majority of this on my phone. sorry about it guys, worst first impression ever. i’m new (to posting at least!) so fingers crossed it’s not so bad. requests are open!!

also i know the gif is small but i’m working with limited options here okay

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“You’re in my spot.” your glance up, raising your eyebrows before making a show of turning to look at the chair you’re sitting on.

Monty let’s out an impatient sigh. “What are you doing?”  

“I’m sorry, I’m just looking for your name.” you feign inspecting the seat. “Yeah, nope. Don’t see one. Maybe it’s on the back-”

“Okay, okay. Smart-ass.” he mutters, taking the empty seat next to you instead. Monty’s a jerk, and you don’t let him walk all over you, so: of course you annoy him.

“That’s for Sheri.” you inform him, flatly. 

“Don’t see her name on it.” he shrugs, clearly enjoying the flipped tables.  

“You don’t even want to sit there!” you complain. “You’re just doing it to annoy me.”

He mock pouts, tracing an imaginary tear down his cheek, which makes the guy in front of you laugh. 

You frown.”Gomery-”

The bell rings and you get cut off by attendance- which Monty finds way too much enjoyment in. You roll your eyes when he sticks his tongue out at you. 

“Monty’s glaring at you,” Jessica informs you lazily, slipping into the spot across from you. 

You crane your neck and he is, a furrow between his brows. You wave at him sarcastically until he roll his eyes and looks away.

 “Probably because Y/n was a mega bitch to him in math this morning.” Sheri informs her from beside you, reaching for a fry from your tray. 

“Was not!” you slap her hand away.”He was a mega bitch to me. I just reciprocated.”

“You two would be cute together.” Jess comments, swatting Sheri away from her fries too.

You scoff. “Exactly what part off this conversation made you think that?“

She shrugs.“I don’t know. Maybe not. I just think Montgomery’s underrated. He’s not so bad.”

“Right.” You nod sarcastically, which she laughs at.

“Fine, okay. Monty’s a no-go.”

“Thank you. Here,” you slide your fries to Sheri, who looks very pleased by this action. “I’ve gotta go get my notes from Zach before he leaves, so I’ll see you around?”

“Is Zach also a no-go?” Sheri questions, which makes Jess snicker and you roll your eyes.

Finding Zach was not actually as simple as he said it would be when you let him borrow your notes. You’d asked people who were all leading you in different directions until you gave up, texting Zach to just give them to you tomorrow during class. “Well, I’m screwed.” you complain when you get outside, taking in the pouring rain. Normally you catch a ride with Jess or Sheri, but since they left early for an away game you had to walk today. Lucky you. 

The only person you could see in the parking lot was probably the least likely person to help you. “Gomery!” you try anyway. He turns, eyebrows raising when he sees you jogging towards him. “Can you give me a ride?”

“What?” his brow crinkles. “Why would I do that?”

“Cause you’re nice?” he gives you a flat look. “And I’ll give you your spot back?” he looks no more convinced. 

“Please Gomery?” you pout, trying to guilt trip him. “Are you going to make me walk in the cold rain?”

“Monty.” he corrects. He looks at you for a second before sighing. “Whatever. My truck’s over here.”

You grin. “You’re the best, Gomery.”



 “Woah, your truck is fucked.” you observe when you get in, taking in the various wrappers and clothes tossed around. You look over at him, taking in his flat expression. You clear your throat. “I mean, nice truck. Really like what you’ve done with the place.”

He chuckles, shakes his head at you. “Shut up, y/l/n. Where do you live?”

“Maple Street.”

He frowns. “That’s like twenty minutes out of my way.” he complains. 

“And like a forty minute walk in the rain for me if you ditch me.” you add, which makes him roll his eyes. 

“Is that an offer?“

You laugh, about to respond when he turns a little too sharply, sending you clear into his lap. He sucks in a surprised breath. “Fucking fuck! You’re going to kill me.”

“Maybe if you don’t quit blocking my view.” he quips, and you flush at your placement, sliding back into your spot. You fasten your seat belt, tightening it as far as it will go. 

“I didn’t know you suck at driving.”

“I don’t.” he shoots you a look. “The roads are slippery- you know, you’re awfully picky for someone with a walk in the ‘cold rain’ in their foreseeable future.”

“Right.” you nod. You’re only quiet for a few minutes before you get bored. “Hey, Gomery?”

“Why do you always call me that?” He asks instead of answering. “It’s Monty.”

You shrug. “Cause everyone calls you Monty.”

“Yeah, because it’s my name.” He retorts, stopping at a red light.

“Well Monty’s too personal. Besides, I like Gomery.”

He looks at you for a beat longer than he should, before pulling forward when he realizes the light’s turned. He smiles. “I guess it’s not so bad.”

You almost have to do a double take. Monty smirks, he doesn’t smile. More importantly: his smile kind of makes you want to kiss him until your lips hurt. And you don’t want to kiss Monty. “Damn you like it?” You mock sigh. “Now I have to think of something else to call you.” 

“Ha-ha,” he’s back to rolling his eyes at you, but you can still tell he’s hiding a smile. You’re almost dispointed when he pulls onto your street. 

“That’s me,” you lift an arm to point. “To the right.”

He pulls up to the curb in front of your house. “Thanks,” you say, about to get out when you stop. “Hey, Monty?”

His eyebrows raise at your use of his preferred name. “Yeah?”

“You’re not as big of an asshole as I thought.” You grin at him, kissing his cheek before ducking out of his truck and running into your house to escape the rain.

Outside, Monty’s wearing another one of his uncharacteristic smiles, staring at your house for a second longer before shaking his head and pulling away.

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i totally didn’t accidentally delete the ending and didn’t catch it so posted it like that what (it totally didn’t take me six hours to notice)

posted 7/27/2017

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anonymous asked:

STILES AS A COLLEGE BARTENDER??? tell me everything

OKAY BUT LIKE??? THIS IS SO REAL AND I LOVE IT?

  • Stiles is at GWU and he wants to help with the money a little bit but also wants some pocket money. Solution? Get a job. 
  • But he knows he’s not patient enough to be a waiter, or coordinated enough, and he doesn’t want to do any type of labor work because he’s lazy. So he signs up for bartending classes the summer that he starts college and he gets certified. 
  • He gets a job a little bar off campus– one of the many in the area. 
  • It’s kinda dark, kinda dingy, but also he loves it there. 
  • Stiles is such a night owl that the late hours don’t bother him– he’s been living with insomnia for years, and compared to what high school was like, college is Insomnia Lite. 
  • He stands behind the long wooden bar in a tight black shirt and red jeans and black converse and convinces people to buy more booze. 
  • Stiles makes up new drinks when he’s bored. Freshman year, he’s terrible at it. By senior year, he’s really fucking good. 
  • Stiles seriously thrives under pressure (gee, I wonder why) so when the bar is craziest is when he’s at his best. 
  • The girls love him because he’s funny and nice and they always try to flirt with him 
  • The guys love him because he doesn’t give preference to the girls and serve them first– he’s an equal-opportunity Stiles. 
  • Whenever Lydia comes to visit, she always spends the whole night on a barstool in front of him, watching him work through the rush with a towel over his shoulder and an easy grin splitting his mouth in half. 
  • They both take way too much enjoyment from making fun of the college bands that the bar gets to play on live music nights. 
  • Stiles always tries to swap his shift out on karaoke night, and when he doesn’t succeed, he basically always comes home grumpy. He hates karaoke night. 
  • He becomes really, really good at making fruity, delicious drinks and basically vows never to touch scotch or whiskey ever again because… um… ew?
  • Stiles also makes it his task to always serve Lydia drinks that are as pink as possible. 
  • Whenever he goes home to California at Christmas or for summer, Lydia throws a big party at her house or her lake house and everybody chips in for tons and tons of booze and Stiles is designated bartender. 
  • He only hangs up the towel after he graduates and starts working full time, but whenever they have pack events or holidays, he’s still designated bartender. 
  • “You don’t want to get rusty, just in case you have to take up bartending again,” explains PhD Lydia Stilinski as she invites fifty people to their modest home for a summer soi·rée. “Yeah, seems like a very likely scenario,” replies Special Agent Stiles Stilinski, who knows so many secrets about national security that he’d probably get murdered by a hired hitman before they fired him. 

i love mass effect more than dragon age but if bioware were making one movie based off one game only, you can bet i would be fucking camping outside the cinema to see origins

anonymous asked:

lately i've found myself actively disliking wearing cosplay. i still enjoy making costumes and talking shop with other cosplayers, but the joy i used to feel while wearing what i've made has died a lot. have you ladies ever gone through this? is there a way to get that feeling back?

Absolutely. This was me to a T for a solid two or so years, from Madoka all the way to Fire Emblem just last year, which was weird considering I used to jump at literally any excuse to get in costume. Getting out of it is really about getting to the bottom of why you started to feel that way, though, and what your priorities are. For me, it was three things –– being so tired of a project that by time I finished it I loathed the idea of putting it on, starting to feel my age in costumes designed for characters in their early teens, and feeling tired of conventions in general. Here’s how I got it back: 

I decided to stop taking on projects I wasn’t really passionate about. After Overwatch and Inuyasha (which we committed to last year) we have no plans for big groups where everyone picks a character regardless of interest level. Since I do the bulk of the planning and sewing for our groups, I felt I had to lessen the load on myself in order to enjoy making costumes for myself again, so going forward we’re going to be structuring groups a little differently. A big part of this is not investing hundreds of hours into costumes I don’t care for, as it takes time away from the things I actually do want to make AND wear. I feel like there’s a huge pressure in the community to constantly have new finished costumes and that’s way too stressful and takes away my enjoyment of the craft when everything is about rapid turnover.

I confronted the fact that I am not a teenager anymore. I’m not youthful person and I have never looked young for my age, so it stands to reason that I didn’t feel convincing dressed as a fourteen year old. I took the “anyone can cosplay anything” philosophy too far and pushed myself out of my comfort zone when I really didn’t need to, and it had the adverse effect of making me feel like Sakaki in the swamp instead of feeling cute. As a result, I don’t do schoolgirls and idols and magical girls so much anymore. Now, I’m working on embracing cosplaying older or more mature-looking characters that I used to really want to do when I was younger. The new motto, spiritually jacked from Ratatouille: anyone can cosplay anything, but it doesn’t mean everyone will feel great in anything.

As for conventions: this took some finagling. One, it took starting to go to conventions outside of our usual haunts. After 10+ years, Anime North and FanExpo feel tired. Absolutely EXHAUSTING. It’s the same thing every year, and the conventions have stagnated so much that I feel like just about everyone goes out of habit rather than any real excitement or joy for it. I mean, if we’re going exclusively for a reason to dress up, why not go shooting for a weekend with friends or something? So we branched out and started going to American cons. It’s been phenomenal, honestly, and going to cons outside our area has made me relish conventions like new again. Going to Katsucon was the most fun I’ve had at a convention since my very first one, honestly! And a part of that is part two: meeting new people. I’ve been a hermit for yeaaaaars in the cosplay community, seldom venturing outside this tumblr and whatnot, but this past year I’ve started making a lot of close friends through social media and it really hypes me up to wear costumes and go to conventions again, as I’m sharing it with new friends whose vibrancy, passion and excitement is infectious. (Shout out here to Krista, Christen, Max, Bono, Tori, Mia, Tracey and the many others too numerous to name but all equally loved who have given me reason to love this hobby again in the past year!)

Anyway: I care again. I haven’t felt so excited for my upcoming costumes (Mercy, Luna and InuYasha!) in a decade.

- Jenn

If it’s a costume I don’t feel very good enough, yeah, I’ll be meh about it, but I try to find costumes I’m super passionate about because it makes all the difference! Like, I felt OK in Sailor Mars, but she wasn’t my favourite scout, so it was natural to not feel as passionate about it. But I feel amazing in Sumia because I feel I can portray her very well, so I find something I’ll feel so good in, and I had a hand in. I like projects that are my niche and that I’ll look so good in!

For me it was also the reverse for a long time –– I didn’t like making them because I was scared of learning to sew but I liked to wear them. Now that I’m learning to sew I’m a lot more excited because I feel that much more connected to it.

- Emmy

If you enjoy making costumes but just don’t want to wear them, you can take a break. Make costumes for other people for a while, or work on real clothes or something different from what you’re burned out on. That’s what I did when I felt it; I said whatever, I’ll just sew other stuff. The best thing you can do is try something else for a while until you find a project that motivates you again.

- Christine

The ladies have pretty much said everything that could be said perfectly, but here are some of my experiences. I’ve had a very brief stint with cosplay compared to others, but the ups and downs have not eluded me. While I had always wanted to cosplay, I guess I never wanted to do it alone. I was always timid to go to cons by myself and never felt strong enough to venture into making costumes on my own. Meeting my friend Erin changed that completely because I met somebody who wanted to be a part of it with me. Suddenly it was this wave of going hard on making things I never thought I would make even though I can look back on it now and see how terribly I made things hahaha. I started with my Cass Cain Batgirl and Chell from Portal. Two crazy starts for me personally as I had never sewed, worked with acrylic, vinyl, fibreglass and bondo. Making them felt invigorating! However, over time, my living and financial situations didn’t really allow for me to have creative space (4-6 adults in an apartment, yikes!). I also went hard into my work so my passions kind of fell to the wayside. Erin moved away to a different continent for a couple of years, but she’s back now woo! I didn’t have many other friends I felt close enough to and as Jenn previously said, Fan Expo and Anime North don’t inspire much creativity or a fresh, exciting environment so even if I went with other friends, it was just going through the motions. I wasn’t inspired to attempt to learn more. I didn’t feel like any characters really connected with me and the ones that did, like Shepard from Mass Effect, I was too scared to attempt alone. Little by little, I fell out of it. I didn’t want solo projects, I wanted to be a part of something.

Joining the Dangerous Ladies has completely rejuvinated my love for it. The first group project I joined was for Sailor Moon, how could I not be excited to do one of my first loves? Lucina has given me life, I could do version after version of her and wear her for years, I absolutely adore her. The thought of being Ana from Overwatch and doing an Inuyasha cosplay (Sango) excites me to no end. I’m more brave and have more opportunities and motivation to learn more. I’ve already learned so much in the few years being with them and WANT to learn more! The passion is back. My love for gaming and anime feels alive again in a way I can visually express it. The new cons we’ve ventured to have been phenomenal and the people we have met have been such an inspiration and so much damn fun to be around. Finding the right people to be around, work, and travel with has been so important for me to find my love for cosplay again and I am so happy that I found it.

All this rambling comes to this: Find out what the source of your distaste for it is. What drove you to love cosplaying in the first place? Find that drive and source of inspiration and love. Search for new ventures that will motivate you to try out new things! All the best!

- Shazz

Post 6x15 spoiler fic

I’ve decided to write this little fic after seeing sneak peek #2 for episode 6x15. My mind kept going to Killian and how he’d feel if he knew Emma had packed his things after his disappearance. The events happen some time after 6x15 or in any case, after Killian’s return. I hope no one takes offence at this, I’m a fan of both Emma and Killian, and I’m not overly worried about how the episode will end. Hopefully there aren’t many mistakes (it’s unedited).

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They’re eager to get back home, to have a glass of wine and maybe relax in front of the TV for a bit before retiring for the evening. She’s attached to his elbow and it’s the most homey feelings she’s ever felt. But then, he’s always made her feel this way, even when she was fighting with all her might against the idea of “them”.

As soon as they enter through the front door, Emma’s eyes fall on Killian’s chest. It’s still beside the couch, where she’d left it. She looks at it guiltily. “Maybe he won’t see it” pops into her head, but she’s not that lucky.

She knows the minute he notices it, because his muscles grow tense beneath her hand. He just stands there looking at it for a few seconds and his silence makes her grow weary. She’d like to tell him she’s sorry. That she’s still afraid to be left alone, even after everything. But that it has nothing to do with him. “Killian…”, she starts, trying to figure out how to tell him everything that’s on her mind at the moment.

He looks at her then, and the words get stuck in her throat. He’s looking at her with such a hurt look in his eyes, like a puppy that’s been kicked by his beloved master, and her heart clenches. It lasts but a second, because he closes his eyes then. He still doesn’t say anything; just takes a few steps inside their living room, sighing heavily.

She wants to go to him. To ask him for forgiveness. She knows he had planned to leave, to find himself - he’d told her everything that happened to get him trapped on board the Nautilus - but he’d changed his mind. He’d always changed his mind in regards to her. No matter what, he’d always come back, he’d put her first on countless occasions. And her first reaction (and second and third, if she were perfectly honest with herself) after she’d noticed him gone, was to believe he’d left. She takes a first step towards him.

“Don’t.” He doesn’t turn towards her, but he passes his hand through his hair nervously. “I know why you’d think I’d abandoned you - bloody hell, I was expecting you to - but, Emma, I hoped you’d see to the man inside like you’ve done so many times before.”

His words cut like a blade through her; she’s never been actually hurt by a sword before, but she imagines it would actually hurt less. And the worst thing is that he’s right. After she’d gotten over her trust and abandonment issues, she’d seen the truth.

He sighs again. “I know why you did it and it’s alright, Emma. I understand.”

His reassurances don’t have the intended effect, though. It just makes her feel even worse because he’s always been so understanding and gentle with her.

He turns towards her then and closes the distances between them. He cups her cheek then, wiping an errant tear away. His eyes turn gentle, then: “It really is alright, Emma, I understand.” His thumb brushes her cheekbone in a soothing caress, then he steps back. “I’ll be in the shed for a bit, love. I … I need to put some order in my thoughts.”

She doesn’t stop him as he leaves through the back door. It kills her that she’s once again done this to him. And not a few days ago she’d stood there berating him for letting old fears overcome  him. Some fine example she is. A regular case of the pot calling the kettle black.

No more. She’ll never let those thoughts get the better of her. Not where Killian is concerned. Next time her demons will decide to play with her, she’ll think of this day and what it’s meant for them. Killian deserves her trust - her absolute trust.

Sighing, she bends over to grab the chest. She’ll put all his things back before he comes back. And she’ll cook his favourite dinner. And maybe later she’ll sooth all his hurt in other, more enjoyable, ways, too.  

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Later edit: go to part 2

Headcanon #6

-After going good/cutting back on crime, Joker has come to enjoy giving Bruce long, soothing massages once he gets home early in the morning from being Batman. He knows his husband has many body pains from years of fighting crime.

-Bruce never asks for these massages but also never refuses when they’re offered.

-Joker prefers the masculine smell of sandalwood oil so that it lingers on Bruce’s skin for a few hours after.

-Bruce prefers non-scented oil but usually lets Joker experiment with different scents and massage materials.

-Joker always uses way too much oil and more pressure than most would find enjoyable but Bruce won’t feel it otherwise, due to his thick muscles and many scars.

-Joker’s favorite target spot is Bruce’s calves because he’s slightly ticklish there when he digs in hard enough.

-Bruce normally falls into a rare and deep sleep after these massages.

-When Bruce wakes up and stands, his bones sound like a box of rocks falling down the stairs but then he moves easily and silently for the rest of the day.

-Bruce once offered a massage in return when he was feeling particularly wakeful but Joker turned him down saying that he bruises too easily for massages.

-Instead, Joker normally waits for Bruce to wake and then he comes in to snuggle for a half hour with no morning interruptions.

carasauruswrex  asked:

My boyfriend admitted yesterday after finally watching 13.1 that Dean and Cas DO love each other. He has no doubt in his mind that if Cas were female, Destiel would have happened. BUT he sees Dean as straight and doesn't believe anything could happen with Cas in Jimmy's body. I told him that this is heteronormative bi erasure and that as a bisexual, I find it offensive that he makes that assumption. What if these sorts of casual viewer opinions keep Destiel from ever happening? I'm losing hope.

Hi there! And congrats to your boyfriend for seeing the love there. :D

First off, no offense to straight dudes, but the straight dude I’ve been married to for 20 years has absolutely no sense of bifi. Or gaydar. I mean, if he sees two dudes kissing at Pride he’d pick up on it (and there are a few famous people who came out that he wasn’t surprised at all about– George Michael, Rob Halford, he was shocked that anyone was shocked…), but when it comes to closeted bisexuals who deliberately do not want to be detected, especially the way Dean performs dudebro heterosexuality as well as Dean does especially in early seasons, he just has no clue.

*insert that gif of Sam telling Dean he’s overcompensating*

The things about Dean that have been screamingly obvious because I relate to them from personal experience just don’t register to a straight dude who has never once questioned his sexuality (like Sam, for instance). To a person who has experienced it first-hand, a lot of Dean’s behavior reads as signal flares as bright as day. If it were only used for the occasional joke, or rare random things that didn’t fit into a much larger pattern, or if it were just enough to make me sit up and notice once or twice a season, I’d assume it was just a coincidence. But… it’s not a rare random occurrence. It’s something we see in nearly every episode, more and more blatantly as the seasons progress.

I tell everyone to read this:

http://destielhiseyesopened.tumblr.com/post/102023741956/slash-and-subtext-series

It’s a lot to read, yes, but it’s incredibly thorough and the sort of thing your neck will be sore from nodding along in agreement the entire time. :P

As for whether or not the show will go there, which NONE of us can say for sure, the one thing I can say for sure is that it will not be casual viewer opinions that will influence Dabb’s storytelling. He’s said it multiple times, that he’s going to tell this story his way, whatever that might mean in the end. Dude’s not telling. I mean, look at him:

So while it’s great to have hope, because we DESERVE representation in blatant and clear terms, there is no guarantee that we will actually GET it. I mean, that is a very real possibility. It’s why I personally don’t watch the show with any expectation for ANYTHING, you know? Then every new hint that they are taking this somewhere is a pleasant surprise. For me, watching from the standpoint that I EXPECT a certain outcome is just not an enjoyable way to live. It’s just too much to stress about.

And as I’ve said over and over again, just like Dabb, I personally couldn’t give a flying fuck with the mysterious “general audience” sees when they watch the show. I watch because of what *I* see in the show, because I like analyzing the story, writing meta (with the friendly reminder that “meta” has exactly zero to do with predicting the future of the story… that’s speculation, and aside from being able to read obvious twists and turns in near-future plot points, or understanding general character development arcs and where they could potentially be headed in vague general ways, I DO NOT ENJOY SPECULATION, especially when it involves the sort of detail that a lot of more casual fans seem to expect of meta writers. I AM TIRED OF FOLKS HAVING THE IMPRESSION THAT SPECULATION AND POSITIVITY FOR THE FUTURE OF THE SERIES AND CHARACTERS IS “”””META”””” BECAUSE IT ABSOLUTELY IS NOT.

Sorry for yelling, I needed to put that out there. Comments of “I love your meta!” when referring to headcanons and speculation about endgame destiel is just… missing the entire point. The meta is the long academic character analysis, the comparisons with the current arc to past canon, the examination of episodes THAT ARE ALREADY PART OF CANON. Looking to the future to make guesses about what COULD happen in the future is SPECULATION. NOT META.

I’m so tired of people who do not understand that giving meta writers hate and dismissing EVERYTHING we’ve written because a “prediction” didn’t come true on the show exactly as someone wrote it… A guess of what will happen in the future that doesn’t quite pan out doesn’t invalidate all the ACTUAL meta we’ve all written over the years. Because just like pr is not showrunning, speculation isn’t meta.

*even when the speculation is attached to the bottom of a really long meta post. The speculation bit isn’t the tl;dr of the post. it’s the interesting and fun little bonus bit after you’ve consumed the factual part of the analysis. It’s the little blop of whipped cream on top of the pie that is the actual important content. It’s mostly decorative and just a bit of fun.*

Thanks, this has been a meta writer PSA.)

The point of all that is that none of us have a crystal ball, none of us have some secret insider information into Andrew Dabb’s brain. Despite the fact that we’ve been watching his storytelling over the last 8+ years (yes, he’s been writing for the show since s4, and has written more episodes of Supernatural than any other writer, so we have A LOT of history to look over, not to mention all of s12 and the back ~third~ at least of s11 after he silently took over the showrunning from Carver to look at when trying to understand his pet themes and how he writes), the best we can do is make educated guesses.

I’m not basing my hope for canon on some ability to read the future, I’m basing it on MY ability to look at the entirety of extant canon and be objectively logical about where the story started, where the story is NOW, and as far as individual character development arcs based on having watched them all evolve over twelve plus seasons already…

Well, let’s just say that for *me,* I can see the characters have been on a logical emotional progression over the course of the entire series (that would be the “meta” part of things). As new canon unfolds, and characters continue to develop and interpersonal storylines continue to evolve… here’s a metaphor. The writers are walking the characters down a long hallway with loads of doorways open to potential future development arcs. As they walk past each doorway and don’t veer off course, it’s like they’re closing off logical possibilities to detour into alternate routes. They’re slamming and locking those doors up forever. The closer we get to the end of canon (in whatever nebulous future that the series will reach its end, and NONE of us know when that will be right now), the fewer doorways are left to walk past, and the less logical any detour from what looks (again, from reading the meta and looking back at the entirety of past canon) like the steady progression of development would be.

Does that make sense? I mean, they’re writing themselves into a corner (or into the end of the hallway where there’s only going to be one last exit door to walk through). But again, as long as there’s still hallway ahead of us, they could take an “easier” route or just decide to stop walking altogether and just sort of set up camp at their current point in character development. It wouldn’t really be sensible for the STORY as it stands right now for them to do either of these things, because if they start backtracking looking for a different door the entire narrative falls apart. Whatever they do, they must keep writing forward.

*stops and scrolls up and cries a lil bit at how much I wrote*

Originally posted by you-wanna-kiss-the-girl

Point is, we just don’t know. I’m hopeful, I feel like we DESERVE to be seen and this love story absolutely DESERVES canon acknowledgement for what it is, and that every sign in past canon and every sign the writers are continuing to carry on down this hallway is pointing to it happening at some distant point in the future… but as of right now none of us have any idea what that eventual resolution will look like. What even is canon?

I mean, your boyfriend said he sees that Dean and Cas love each other. Is that canon? What would “qualify” as being legitimately canon? I love @bluestar86′s spec post about how easy it would be to make Dean’s bisexuality textually canon, but I have no idea if we’d ever get an episode stating it so blatantly. We might, though. We did have Dean asking a gay married couple what it was like settling down with another hunter…

The point is, even trying to speculate on what will happen in the future– especially something so unknowable and distant as “endgame,” is honestly impossible. We have no idea what will happen in canon between now and then in specific terms. In the meantime, I’m perfectly content to point and flail at what is actually happening in canon right now and paying exactly zero attention to what “casual viewers” think they’re watching.

I know exactly what I’m watching, and I love it.

Will they ever make it undeniably obvious and clear in canon? I mean, it is undeniably obvious and clear to *me* but everyone has their own personal biases and wishes and checklists of things they feel must happen, and no matter if the series ends with Dean and Cas getting married there will still always be people who deny it was “enough” to make their relationship obvious, you know? I just… don’t have the energy to deal with that level of denialism. It just stresses me out to worry about what “endgame” might look like specifically when as far as we know, “endgame” isn’t even on the table yet.

So by all means, if you can, take that small step back and try and enjoy the continuing story, and don’t put too much stock in anyone’s opinion of what may or may not happen in the future. But most of all, don’t put much much stock in what random straight dudes in the general audience think. Because Andrew Dabb doesn’t. :P

Wow okay that turned into a treatise…

Fuckwit on a Dragon Moment #1

Decided to do a list of these, because I’ve gotten way too much enjoyment out of them at this point.

Eragon accidentally discovers he can do magic.

Brom: Whatever you do, don’t cast strong spells. Your dumb ass will absolutely die.

Eragon: Sound advice.

Literally the next time Eragon encounters enemy mooks.

Eragon: Kaaaaaammmeeeee….haaaaaammmeeeee…HAAAAAAAA!!!

Eragon wakes up, hours later.

Brom: You are just the stupidest fucking asshole.

Eragon: YOU’RE NOT MY FUCKING DAD, BROM.

Love and Manuscripts (9)

I’m sorry about how late this update is! I hope you enjoy it. Previous chapters are listed here: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 

Baz

Kissing Snow was way too enjoyable for Baz’s own good. The anger had faded and all he could feel was Snow’s soft lips and his own heart pounding. Buttons were coming undone faster than Baz could count and the kisses were becoming deeper.
Baz murmured happily as Snow kissed his cheeks. Distantly he knew he shouldn’t be doing this but he felt so good that he ignored that part of his brain. The last of his shirt buttons fell away and then they were skin to skin. Baz shuddered; Snow was much warmer than him, like his skin was on fire.
“Baz…” He murmured.
“Hm?” Baz was lost in his own world.
“I want you…” Snow whispered.
Baz wasn’t thinking. All he could do was enjoy the feelings pouring through him. Snow went back to kissing him and Baz threw himself into it enthusiastically. Suddenly, he realized Snow was undoing the belt of his pants. Not knowing why, Baz froze. Snow, registering the change in Baz, stopped what he was doing immediately and pulled back.
“I’m sorry…I should’ve asked.”
Baz shook his head.
“No it’s not…don’t be sorry.”
Snow’s face was flushed in an appealing way and his hair looked as if a tornado had hit it. Baz wanted nothing more than to pull Snow back to his mouth and go as far as they could go. But he was terrified. Baz had never been with anyone else before. People had wanted him before but he’d always been too afraid to open up to them. Letting Snow in had been impulsive…and a mistake, he realized. Carefully rearranging his features he pushed Snow away.
“We have work to do.”
Snow’s face looked incredulous.
“Excuse me?”
Baz buttoned his shirt back up.
“We have work to do. I’m sorry if I’ve thrown your libido out of whack but we really don’t have time for any of this.”
“Libido?” Snow seemed completely confused, “Baz I don’t know what you’re talking about…”
Baz sneered at him, “Libido, as in sexual desire.”
Snow frowned, “No I know the definition Baz, you know that’s not what I meant.”
“All I know is that we have to finish this tonight or both our asses are on the line tomorrow,” Baz replied flatly.
“So we’re not going to talk about what just happened?” Snow’s expression was dead, as if he’d already given up.
“Nothing happened to begin with.”
For a moment Snow didn’t move but then after a minute he nodded and got to work silently. Baz felt both relieved and disappointed. But he just couldn’t handle someone as intense as Simon Snow breaking his heart.

Simon

Simon walked to his apartment slowly, replaying the night’s events in his mind. Kissing Baz had been without a doubt the best experience of Simon’s life. It wasn’t like he’d never kissed anyone before or that he had no experience, but kissing Baz had been different. It felt like he’d been burning and Baz was the only relief for it in the world, heavenly relief at that.
And then Baz had pushed him away. It wasn’t just that he hadn’t wanted to go further, no, he hadn’t wanted to admit that anything had even happened in the first place. Simon wondered what he had done wrong. It must have been the belt buckle but he didn’t get it. Simon had stopped what he was doing immediately.
What if you’re just a terrible kisser? A nasty voice in his head asked. Simon sighed as he walked in the door and threw all his stuff on the couch. Knowing Baz, Simon would never find out how he’d screwed up in that moment.
He looked down at his phone, weighing a decision.
After a moment he dialed a number and called.
“Hello?” Agatha asked, her voice sleepy.
“I know it’s late. I’m sorry I woke you up. I just needed to talk to someone.”
“It’s okay Simon, what’s up?” She murmured.
He picked at a broken nail nervously.
“I think I’m falling in love with him.”
“That guy I saw you with?” Her voice perked up considerably.
“Yeah, but…I don’t think he feels the same way Agatha.”
She sighed, “That’s ridiculous Simon, you are the most caring person I know, he’d be ridiculous not to like you.”
Simon thought back to the cold way Baz had finished the rest of his work earlier in the evening. Baz had always seemed like he existed on another level, a grander dimension than Simon inhabited.
“Maybe that isn’t enough,” Simon replied sadly.
Before she could protest he hung up and rolled over on his couch. Baz slept here once. With that thought Simon let himself fall asleep, clothes and all, chasing after the memory of Baz kissing him.

I don’t see Supercorp as a romantic pairing. I just don’t and haven’t viewed it in that light, and the show hasn’t given me a reason to think it’d ever be a possibility. But I love their dynamic. I love Lena Luthor. And I love her scenes with Kara. It’s a dynamic I look forward to seeing on Supergirl. 

Watching the cast make fun of of “Supercorp” in a song was very uncomfortable to watch. It felt incredibly disrespectful. And I just thought it was rude. As I said, I don’t ship it, but there are so many “ships” on TV that aren’t canon, or that aren’t together anymore, that I enjoy watching, and that I enjoy connecting with, and it just made me think about what it would feel like to see the casts of those shows do something like this for a ship that I like. And even though Katie McGrath was laughing along, it looked like that was pretty much all she could do. She’s been super respectful about it in the past, just like I feel Danielle Panabaker has been respectful about Snowbarry fans — she’s responded to questions about it by saying, “that’s not a storyline they’re doing right now, Barry’s very much in love with Iris, but I love their friendship,” etc. So I applaud McGrath for her comments about people pulling what they want from the “art” they consume, and interpreting things in a way that enhances their enjoyment. I believe in that, too (as long as the writers don’t bend their show to fit a specific group of fans’ perception of how it should be *cough* olicity *cough*). As for the rest of the cast, participating in this shit… I just feel so uncomfortable about it. 

I’m even disappointed in Mechad for getting up and dancing. Like people are mad about Jimmy and Kara not being together anymore (myself included) and are freaking out that the show has moved to follow Mon-El as the main love interest from here on out, and imagine if they did a song about Karolsen like the one they did for Supercorp. The whole thing just pisses me off. And Jeremy screaming about them just being friends… fuck, we had to sit through Winn whining about Kara not loving him back… Lena has more a chance with Kara than your character, buddy. I’m shutting up. Sorry for the rant. I just had to.