“ TOO SKINNY!! ” …. whenever I upload a photo like this, I always get this comment. When I upload a photo sitting down it’s “awesome”, when I upload a photo of me flexing its “so strong” or “this is too much”. Just a reminder that I am the same person in each photo! If turn to the side, sit down or lay down, I look completely different! Photos show ONE part of you in just that moment. Just remember that. Photos on my Instagram are taken each DAY…not weeks or years apart. At the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter what you look like…. because deep down that is not what people care about the most. People will love you because of the person you are on the INSIDE… not for what you look like on the outside - THAT is what is most important!
Argh I am SO CLOSE to finishing this asshole, and then I went and dropped him and the tip of one of his horns broke off and I lost it in the carpet. >_< So I had to re-sculpt it from Milliput, bleh, which is why one of his horns has a white tip in these photos.
I’m still not happy with the back of the cloak, either - it just looks too busy to me, but pretty much everyone who’s seen it has said it’s awesome, so idk, maybe it’s just me being my own worst critic as usual or something.
Still gotta finish his base and actually glue all his bits on (they’re just blu-tac’d atm until I figure out if I’m gonna do anything else with the cloak), decide whether or not I want to do any freehand on the inside corners of his cloak, and touch up a few things. So close to done but also so out of steam, hnngh help.
Girl I love your drawing style, it's not fully realistic but realistic enough. And you catch emotions so good, the expression of hands. It's like I see photos but one knows that are photos that are created from scratch and not just a saving from reality. You inspire me. I really hope you have an awesome day - anon sheep.
akshdbaKHDB ANOn!! ur gonna make me cry omg thank you so much ;A;
Imagine you and Chris getting Sebastian to babysit your children.
A/N: I just really needed this in my life, I dunno. 🤷🏻♀️❤️
New York was where you and Chris had to spend your week due to production meetings and talk show interviews. The original plan was for you and Chris to leave Jack and Lola with your parents so they wouldn’t miss any school, but after days of them bugging the two of you and nights of discussion and planning- you decided they could afford to miss a week of second and third grade. It wouldn’t be the first time they’d missed school to travel with you and Chris, so a plan had been devised. You and Chris would meet with their teachers before you left, gathering the materials they needed to keep up with their classes. So far, so good; their grades remained high and their school remained happy despite their absence in class.
The only problem you had with taking them along was finding someone to look after them while you and Chris were out and about. Usually your meetings were at different timings; you went while Chris stayed and took care of them, and vice versa. But some days you and Chris were due at the same time, at the same place. It left you with the decision to either bring them along or leave them in the care of your contacts in New York. They were good children, so they knew they had to behave in certain scenes which made it easy for you and Chris to take them anywhere- even to a professional meeting with an important casting director. But at the end of the day, they were still children who would get bored after an hour of sitting quietly.
Today was one of the days where you and Chris were both needed, and the meeting was said to last at least three and a half hours. Chris, as always, was optimistic that they could pull through if ice-cream was offered at the end. You, on the other hand, weren’t pessimistic, but you didn’t want to overreach either. You and Chris sat your kids down and offered your propositions: a stuffy office where they could have ice-cream after three and a half hours, or three and a half hours with Uncle Sebba and Aunt Margo where they could have all the ice-cream they want. It was needless to say they went with your choice, the obvious and smarter choice. Chris argued that you cheated because you’d lied about having all the ice-cream they wanted. But you reminded him that they were out of your hair and you could now get through the meeting without them politely knocking on the door, asking “are you done yet?”
“Ah hah!” Sebastian grinned excitedly upon opening the door for his two favorite kids.
“Uncle Sebba!” Your children cheered at the sight of him, pouncing to hug his legs. You and Chris smiled because even though Sebastian wasn’t a dad himself, he was great with your kids. If the two of you hadn’t felt obligated to give the title of godparents to your own siblings, Sebastian would’ve definitely made the cut. “We’ve got the whole day with you!” Lola informed him, looking up at him with the same excited grin he had.
“No, you’ve got three and a half hours,” you corrected her. Both Jack and Lola’s faces dropped and they pouted, giving you and Chris puppy dog eyes. “We don’t want to take up Uncle Sebba’s and Aunt Margo’s whole day.” You and Chris waved at Margo over Sebastian’s shoulder as she made her way to the front door. “Three and a half hours, we’ll be back to pick you up.”
“Oh, hush. They are our plans for the day,” Margo told you, resting her hand on top of Lola’s head when Lola hugged her. “We’re more than happy to have them, you two go to your meeting then have a date night after. We’ll babysit, we don’t mind. You know how much we love these two, we’d steal them if we could.”
“Date night sounds amazing,” Chris whispered into your ear and you smiled, neither agreeing nor disagreeing. “Are you guys sure? I mean- that is a very sweet offer,” he tried not to smile when he lowered his gaze onto his children, “to look after our two little monsters.” Jack and Lola made a face at their dad, drawing laughter from the adults. “Look at those little monster faces. Honestly, keep ‘em if you want.”
“No, Daddy!” Lola detached herself from Margo and ran over to her dad, throwing her tiny arms around his leg. Chris chuckled, lifting her into his arms to hug her; her arms wrapped around and her head buried into the crook of his neck. “I just want to spend the day here, I want to come home to you and Mama.”
“You are going to come home to me and Mama,” Chris kissed her head. “I was just kidding, sweetheart.” She pulled away and leaned back in his arms. “You know I wouldn’t let anyone take you away from me.” She huffed, crossing her arms over her chest. “Aw, don’t be like that. You know I love you, baby.” He booped her nose and she cracked a smile, which turned into giggles when Chris tickled her.
“Okay, we should go.” You told Chris when you felt your phone buzz in your back pocket. Chris nodded and kissed Lola’s cheek before lowering her onto her feet. “We’ll call after the meeting, and if you guys are still okay with having them- we’ll go have dinner first.” Sebastian and Margo nodded, smiling. “Thank you so much, we really appreciate it.” You descended to your knees in front of your children and opened your arms; they quickly enfolded themselves in your love. “Be good, okay? Listen to everything Uncle Sebba and Aunt Margo tells you to do.”
“Are we okay posting photos on Instagram?” Margo asked, knowing how much you and Chris liked staying away from the limelight. “I say photos but I meant just one, a cute little group shot.” You looked over at Chris, who nodded, and you nodded. “Awesome, I can’t wait to see the reactions. It’s going to blow up the internet, you know how much the world loves your children.”
“We are adorable, aren’t we?” Lola looked over her shoulder at Margo, grinning. Margo nodded, chuckling. “I like being famous, Mama. Everyone is really nice.” You all smiled, trying not to sigh at the innocence of a child. “I want to be an actor when I grow up too, like Daddy and Uncle Sebba and Aunt Margo.”
“Do you?” Chris winked because he already knew that. The two of them were always having their own little chats, one of them being about her becoming an actress. It happened when you weren’t home because Chris knew it wasn’t a topic up for discussion until she was much, much older. You loved the industry you were in, but you weren’t a hundred percent about having her in the same limelight you and Chris were constantly in.
“We’ll talk about it when you grow up.” You kissed her cheek then Jack’s, releasing them as you got to your feet. “Alright, we’re going to go.” You slipped your hand in Chris’ and you both headed for the elevator. “See you later.” You called as you both waved, entering the elevator.
“Now that the parentals have gone,” Sebastian smirked. “Let’s go eat ice-cream!” He announced in a deep, monster-like growl making Jack and Lola giggle. “Ice-cream for lunch!” He cheered, catching each child under his arm and carrying them towards the kitchen.
“I am surrounded by children,” Margo laughed softly, closing the front door before she followed.
• • • • • • • •
You’d called Sebastian’s phone after the meeting like you’d promised to check in with them as well as their state of mind. Children were exhausting, and if they were ready to call it a day- you and Chris could head over to pick them up. But they were fine, Sebastian and Margo were more than happy to continue to have them while you and Chris had a date night. Sebastian even told you- after Lola picked up and passed him his phone that “we’re in the middle of baking a batch of chocolate chip cookies. Margo and I would be lost without their help, so we’re going to have to ask for another few hours.” You were about to argue that chocolate chip cookies didn’t take that long when you remembered you could have date night with your husband. You quickly thanked them and hung up, calling your favorite restaurant in New York for a last minute reservation. It just so happened that the restaurant was only ten minutes away from Sebastian’s apartment.
“We should come to New York more often,” you joked, clinking wine glasses with Chris. “Or maybe we should buy Sebastian and Margo a house in Boston.” Chris laughed, nodding in agreement. “That way we can actually have date nights instead of planning it, only to cancel last minute and stay home.”
“I know, right?” He chuckled, lowering to glass to reach for your hand. “I’m sorry we’ve missed so many date nights, I know it sucks having our plates so full.” You turned your palm up in his hand, interlocking fingers. “I guess it’s the price we have to pay for being so good at our jobs.” He winked and you smiled. “But I promise, more effort.”
“It’s okay,” you shook your head. “I mean- it doesn’t really have to be a night out for us to call it a date night. We’ve had some pretty awesome date nights at home too,” you reminded him with a flirtatious smirk and he chuckled. “I’m just happy as long as I get to spend time with you.”
“The feeling’s mutual, sweetheart,” he drew your hand to his lips and pressed a tender kiss on your knuckles. “Okay, so what are we going to order?” You both pulled your hands away from each other and looked at your menus. “I’m thinking we get something different each and share, so we can at least try something new. We have to-” Before he could finish, his phone rang. He sighed then narrowed his eyes when he saw that it was his publicist, Susan. “Do you mind?” He asked and you shook your head, you both knew Susan didn’t call unless it was important.
“Hey Susan, could you make it quick? I’m just about to have-” He cut himself off, responding accordingly. “I’m not surprised. Yeah, Y/N and I left them with Sebastian and Margo for the day. She asked if she could post a picture on her Instagram and we said yes. Wait-” his brows furrowed. “What do you mean there’s more than one? The photos are circulating everywhere? It looks like- Okay, let me just- I’ll call you back.”
“There’s more than one photo circulating?”
“There are at least a dozen photos on Sebastian’s Instagram, documenting the day they’re having.” He told you and you narrowed your eyes in confusion; Sebastian and Margo would never, and had never done anything to breach that trust you and Chris gave them when it came to your children. There was no way they would’ve posted more than the one photo you agreed to. “It’s not Seb and Margo who posted them.” He explained. “The photos look like they were taken by a child, the child being Lola.”
“Oh,” was all you could say before you both started to laugh. “Okay, well- we should probably call and give them a heads up. I’d say delete them, but they’re already circulating the web so there’s no point. Should we just-” you beckoned your thumb at the exit and Chris sighed, nodding. “We’ll grab some burgers on our way there.”
• • • • • • • •
You’d texted Margo instead of Sebastian because you had a feeling Lola was still using his phone from the photos being posted on his Instagram. As soon as Margo saw the text, she told Sebastian and he rushed out of the kitchen to look for Lola who was sitting on the couch happily taking selfies. He’d realized it was Margo’s mistake showing her how Instagram worked, but the selfie taking- she learned that from her mom.
“Sweetheart,” Sebastian walked over and Lola looked up, grinning. “Can I have my phone back?” He held out his hand and Lola pouted, hugging the phone to her chest. “Please?” She sighed and held it out for him to take. As you all suspected, Lola had been flooding Sebastian’s Instagram with photos. They were surprisingly good shots for a six year old, but it was definitely going to take a while for the internet to calm down. “Oh God,” he pressed his lips together, turning his wifi off altogether so he’d stop getting notifications.
“Did I do something wrong?”
“No, sweetheart. Not really,” Sebastian placed his phone down on the coffee table then sat down next to Lola. “You just posted photos you weren’t meant to post.” She looked confused and he chuckled softly, taking her hand in his. “Do you remember when Aunt Margo asked your mom and dad if she could post a photo of all of us on her Instagram?”
“Yeah,” she nodded. “Am I in trouble because I didn’t ask Mama and Daddy?”
“You’re not in trouble, but you should ask because you post anything online. Especially at this age, okay?” She still look confused so he gave her hand a gentle squeeze as he continued to explain, “you see, your mom and dad, and Aunt Margo and I- we’re all celebrities. People want to know what’s going on in our lives, but that doesn’t mean we have to share everything. Some moments are better off kept to ourselves, that’s how we keep the magic of the moment. Do you understand?”
“I think so.” She scrambled onto Sebastian’s lap and hugged him tightly. “I’m sorry, Uncle Sebba.” He smiled and hugged her back, kissing her head. “I didn’t mean to, I just thought because Aunt Margo did it- I should do it too. Are you mad at me?” Sebastian shook his head when she pulled away to look at him. “Will Mama and Daddy be mad at me?”
The doorbell rang and Sebastian winced, “we’ll just have to see. C'mon.” He popped her on her feet and took her hand, leading her to the front door where he knew you and Chris were waiting patiently on the other side. “That was my bad, I wasn’t watching my phone and-”
“You are a menace,” Chris teased Lola, scooping her into his arms. She giggled and hugged her dad, knowing from his tone she wasn’t in trouble. “I know when you become an actress you’re going to get lots of attention, but how about we keep you from that attention until then?”
“I’m sorry did you say ‘when’?” You raised a brow at Chris and Lola, who had the same sheepish look on their faces. “When did it become a 'when’? I thought we said we’re tabling it until she’s older, like- high school older.”
“Mmmm! I smell chocolate chip cookies,” Chris quickly changed the subject and hurried off with Lola. You scoffed and Sebastian tried not to laugh, beckoning you in with his head so he could close the door behind you. “Do you know who loves cookies?” You could hear Chris with your children and you smiled. “Cookie Monster, om nom nom nom.” He mimicked the popular Sesame Street character’s voice, making Jack and Lola howl with laughter.
“I married a kid,” you chuckled with a shake of your head.
“Funny,” Sebastian wrapped an arm around you and led you to the kitchen, “that’s what Margo says to me.”
Hey hey hey remember like the entire Reflekta episode? Where Juleka confided in Mari about the photo curse?? And then Mari was willing to commit theft and tresspassing etc to help Juleka break it??? SHE STOLE A PHONE FOR JULEKA LOOK SHE ALREADY CARES ABOUT HER SO MUCH
And she organized the whole class photo thing to make Juleka feel better and to make her feel appreciated and wanted in the class and that’s just the sweetest thing ever omg like when will your fave ever put in that much effort?? Dang
Also Juleka obviously thinks Mari’s really awesome too, she was practically too shy to even speak to her in the Darkblade episode
And also they hang out with each other outside of school too according to that one pic in the Reflekta episode (and also the webisodes)
Basically I’m just saying they’re already good friends and it makes me so happy that someone like Juleka has a friend as supportive as Marinette
Also please imagine Juleka doing Mari’s makeup and Mari designing cool clothes for Juleka aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
So you want to be the Winter Soldier at the next con. You have everything planned out from the jacket to the boots, but one thing on your list terrifies you: the metal arm. You want to make something perfect, but scared that you’ll mess it up somehow. You are on a budget and you don’t want to do just tin foil or duct tape. What can you do?!
Well fear not! This tutorial is here to help you. This Winter Soldier arm can be made on a (somewhat?) budget and will get you compliments. My arm took me a week and a half to two weeks total to physically make and much longer to plan how to do it. I suggest taking as long as I did, maybe even more. Patience is key here!
So how is this arm made and how can you do it? Click on the read more and find out everything (this is a long and detailed tutorial so bear with me)
Request: Hi :) I was wondering if you could write a one-shot,
where a fan faints at a supernatural panel and then one person or a few people
from the cast come to the fan’s rescue or something. It doesn’t have to be like
love at first sight but just a feel-good story :)
Unfortunately, I’ve never been to a SPNcon before, so I’m going to go off of
what I’ve watched on YouTube… Forgive me if it’s not completely accurate.
questions are done,” the announcer said to the group of you. All the cast
members had just walked off the stage. You were pretty sure that Misha had
caught your eye and smiled, but you weren’t 100% positive. Still, you were
relatively close to the front, so maybe he really had been looking at you.
That’s what you would tell your friends when you got back home, anyways.
booths will be opening in half an hour. Please presents your tickets to our
attendants before entering so that we can keep these flowing smoothly and
efficiently,” the announcer finished. There was a clicking sound after, letting
you know that he had turned off his microphone. Immediately, people began
talking and a low drone filled the room. There was slow movement towards all
the exits, and you picked a current and began walking out with the rest of the
Playing with my new investment! It went on offer so I jumped at the chance, been saving up for a year now and stalking the prices online :D
It’s sooo amazing ;_; I can already tell I’m drawing a LOT faster and it just feels so natural drawing directly on the screen. Exactly what I was missing, been just itching to go back to the feel of drawing on paper. I loved my old Intuos and it served me well, but this will make such a big difference in the way I work and I’m also able to sit in a lot of different positions compared to the older tablet (I got a bit bad back that wasn’t helped by my old job a few years ago)
Anyway lots more art to come soon :D it arrived today, and took a bit to get used to it after working on a traditional tablet for so long but now I just feel like I’ve been using this for a long time already.
I was slightly worried about the size and if it was too small, but I didn’t want the bigger one as it was so much more expensive (and HEAVIER gosh) and I’ll need this when I travel. The size seems really good atm, I’ve always liked working on smaller areas anyway!
Code Lyoko Warriors: Odd Della Robbia and Ulrich Stern
We revisited an old favorite for Tsubasacon 2014! We originally wanted to work on these before wearing them again (there is a lot to fix and redo), but it was just too hard for us to resist when people enjoy them so much! Thank you to all of the wonderful folks who took pictures of us! We had an awesome time.
Alright so everybody seems to be writing a halftime report for Healer and I’ve decided I should follow suit hahaha. I’ll try my best to give a comprehensive, purposeful write up but I’m pretty sure it will turn out as word vomit on how awesome Oppa is lol. Of course I will include loads of photos, but only of Oppa cos I love him too much and am bias like that yo. Photos will be placed randomly with no purpose whatsoever, but just for pure joy of eye candying. Enjoy~
** I apologise beforehand for any spelling or grammatical errors, or weird sentence structures. I hate rereading and checking for mistakes so too bad! >.<
First and foremost, I just finished watching Episode 12 a couple of days ago and let me just say this – OMG HUGEASS IRRITATING CLIFFHANGER. One thing I like about Healer is that it doesn’t disappoint. Every single episode is filled with just the right amount of romance, comedy, action and politics. All the essential elements needed to make a good drama are balanced so nicely and packed into enjoyable hour-long episodes. It has been a long time since a drama could grab my attention for this long, possibly the only one after You Who Came From the Stars (which is in 2013?).
Healer has brought out my inner fangirl; chasing episodes after episodes and staying up late every Monday and Tuesday to update spoilers on my Instagram. Oh yes, I’m not the least bit embarrassed to admit that I SPECIALLY created a Ji Chang Wook fan account right after Episode 6, just so I could post a whole slew of photos and videos of him without feeling guilty. Let me just say, 6 episodes later, I’ve garnered more than a 1000 followers/fans. Yes, that’s how popular Oppa is now. By the way I just have to mention how handsome he is. Looking at his face makes me verbally retarded.
The entire case (including the supporting characters) have really outdone themselves. It’s amazing how the writer and producer put together each script and film it with such splendour. The result is magic. The 3 main leads – Ji Chang Wook, Park Min Young and Yoo Ji Tae – play their characters spot on, and the outcome is just so fangirl-worthy. Let me just briefly talk about them.
Ji Chang Wook (Empress Ki, Smile Donghae) plays the role of Seo Jung Hoo, who is a night errand boy and goes by the codename Healer. As a young boy he suffered a tumultuous childhood, and thus doesn’t believe in family and friends, or any personal relationships for that matter. However, after receiving a job and disguising himself as reporter Park Bong Soo, he falls in love with Chae Young Shin. As the drama unfolds, Jung Hoo learns to love and slowly evolves into well.. a human being.
Park Min Young (City Hunter) is the bubbly, energetic Chae Young Shin. She was abandoned when she was 5 years old, and subsequently adopted numerous times. She suffered abuse as a child and hence has a phobia for violence. She meets Healer and falls in love with him, not knowing that he is Park Bong Soo. On the other hand, Bong Soo confesses his love to her and she gets all confused.
Yoo Ji Tae (no idea what his past works are and way too lazy to do a search lol) is Kim Moon Ho, younger brother to some news conglomerate. He is Chae Young Shin’s uncle (yes I know it sounds weird) and linking all 3 of them is a secret about their fathers (complicated..). Somehow, Moon Ho is seen as the evil guy by many viewers, but in my opinion I personally feel that he is rather real and sincere. We shall see how the story goes.
So there we have, the 3 main leads and a short write up on them. The best thing about this drama is that the love triangle is between Young Shin, Healer and Bong Soo hehe. This means lots of Oppa screen time and romance moments hehe! It’s fun watching Bong Soo being jealous of Healer and Young Shin getting confused about her options, when they are basically the same person. It’s just so fresh and entertaining. Talk about a well-written script!
While I’m happy and pleased with the cast, I have to point out that I’m really impressed with Oppa’s acting. Seriously, this guy blew me away. I’ve watched him in Empress Ki and the big hoo-ha that drama received was well deserved. But here, he’s on a whole new level. From the emotionally scarred Seo Jung Hoo, to the dark mysterious Healer, to airheaded somewhat dumb blond Bong Soo, and not forgetting the various disguises needed when he goes undercover, he plays each role with such skill and perfection. This guy, acts through his EYES. Look into his eyes and you can feel all of his emotions. Look at the photos, I’m sure you feel it too! Every single time I look into Oppa’s gaze, I sink into this big black hole. There were a number of scenes where there was so much pain and anguish in his eyes that it made it so heartbreaking to watch him.
To sum it up, I had such great expectations for this show and still have. To date, it has not failed me once, and I’m pretty sure it will not disappoint ever. The drama’s so good that I’m so afraid of it ending. I’m contemplating stopping at Episode 19 and never completing the drama, just so it doesn’t feel like it ended. Okay lol I’m joking. I will eventually watch it, and go on to rewatch the entire series for like what? A gazillion times or something? I’m really pinned down by the fact that Oppa probably has to enlist into the army shortly after this drama, which means 2 years of no Oppa.. The end of Healer plus Oppa enlisting – I’m gonna suffer some serious withdrawal symptoms. Really dreading the impending emptiness..
To end off on a happy note, there’re still 8 episodes to go, which means 1 more month of Oppa and happiness! Of course I’m hoping for extensions, since popular dramas always get extended. Oh and I’m predicting an OST from Oppa. Who else feels the same?? By the way guys, Healer finally hit #1 in their timeslot!! That really says a lot about how awesome this drama is. So if you are not already doing so, WATCH IT.
P.S. Really wanted to add in some Korean comments cos they are so fitting and descriptive of my mood, and also cos they are words not translatable into English.. But I’m guessing most of my readers only read English so..
hey there! i looked through your faq and didnt see this question on there so im sorry if this is something youve answered before! im on my 6th week of insanity, and i'm just kinda curious what your experience with it was? I've definitely leaned out, but would love to pack on some more muscle i was just curious if you saw a good amount of muscle gain..? i want to incorporate lifting but dont want to overwork my body with both that and insanity! any thoughts/experiences? ps ur progress is awesome!
That’s a great question :) I wasn’t asked this before!
You beast! Insanity is crazy hard, and you’d like to add weightlifting too? My body would not be able to handle that much stress, nor will my motivation.
Same weight, the first photo is from doing insanity, and the second one is from lifting weights. Truthfully, I did not see any muscle gain with Insanity. It worked great for fat loss though! I think it was partly due to the fact that I knew nothing about nutrition at the time, and couldn’t do any pushups whatsoever. Im so much stronger now both visually and physically, and I can do 20 pushups easily.
You can do weightlifting and add HIIT as cardio to get the best of both worlds, the only downside is that it consumes more time than Insanity’s 45′ workouts.
I’ve been meaning to send you a message forever, but i never really knew how to express what i had to say, but i think i got it now haha!
I kinda wanna say thank you, in some weird way for the job you do. Many of the bands you work with, are my favorite bands, and some of them, i have even found through you!
All these amazing photos really, like idk, makes me love the bands even more. I get to see pics from both backstages, which makes me feel like i was actually there haha, and also the stage pics, makes me so happy bc even though i wasn’t there, i can listen to the bands music and look at the pictures, and feel as much part of it.
I know it might sound a bit weird, but its really how it is haha!
Another thing is your positivity. In your videos, blog posts or descriptions you are always so positive, and honestly i don’t think life is positive at all, but whenever i read your blog or something like that, i get this vibe kinda, and i see lighter through the things that seems so dark. I sound like something from a movie or something, but like it’s just how that is haha. Also a picture of you smiling never fails to make me smile! So yeah, keep being positive please, because i know I’m not most of the time, and i really should.
You Adam has become as much as an idol for me as the bands i listen too. Your persona, but also the photography part. I’m not one to pursue the dream of being a photographer, but i still think it’s so cool, and if i ever need a hobby, i think taking photo would be so awesome, but not for now, school is calling haha.
But yeah, just keep being you Adam! Change but only for the better and all that. Thank u loads and i hope u see or hopefully meet you one day!
Lots of love and good lucks from Denmark!
Troye Sivan’s music deserves to be taken seriously. With his second EP out and debut album “Blue Neighborhood” on the horizon, the teen Youtube sensation is rapidly maturing both in lyrical content and in sound. After his sold-out show at The Sinclair, in which many avid fans were seen shedding tears over the artist, we spoke on the phone with Troye to discuss his inspirations, fans, and the skepticism surrounding his transition from Youtube fame to musical fame.
We saw you at your show in Boston, and you had the chance to perform a couple of unreleased tracks off your album “Blue Neighborhood” to fans who had never heard them before. After getting the chance to perform them, which are you most excited for the general public to hear now?
I started playing this one song called “Youth,” and it’s now the last song in the set, because everyone really really likes it a lot, well at least from the live version they do. I’m really excited now to release the studio version to the public.
From social media and on your tour, you get a tremendous amount of interaction with your fans. Have any interactions really stuck with you?
I think, for example, in L.A. I did three things. I had a screening of the “Blue Neighborhood” trilogy, and then I played The Roxy, and then I played the lyrics videos the next night, and to be able to see familiar faces at all three – I saw some people all three nights in a row – and so by then it was literally just like seeing friends. I dunno, it felt like we were just hanging out. It was really nice to finally be feeling this connection in person rather than just online.
That’s awesome. Are you ever afraid to open up to your fans on stage when you sing songs that have personal relevance to you?
I think so, yes. Sometimes, I’m just nervous – my number one nerve thing is that I’m gonna think about what I’m singing about too much and just get emotional on stage. So yes, that’s my only worry while I’m up there. Other than that, no not really. It feels a little bit therapeutic to be sharing these moments with everyone and I’m just really hoping that everyone in the audience feels it – like feels their own moment to that song.
Photo by Wesley Stiles
As your lyrical content delves deeper into adult matter, on “Bite” for example, do you feel as though you’re alienating your younger fans?
Maybe it is becoming a little mature. In a little bit of a selfish way, I make all of my music for myself, completely and honestly, without holding back. I feel like I’d be doing a disservice to myself and to the people who are listening to my music if it wasn’t 100% truthful and open, and so I write for those reasons, and don’t really think about it too much while writing. Hopefully, the music will find its audience that it resonates with and people will connect with the music whether what they understand what I’m singing about or not. So I don’t know maybe the younger fans will find something in it, maybe the older fans will completely understand I’m singing about and be like “yup, that’s exactly what I’ve been through, too” and connecting with it on that level. I don’t really mind, as long as people are listening to the music and enjoying it for whatever it is they’re enjoying it for, I’m happy.
And speaking of your audience, since you’ve primarily derived your fame from your YouTube videos have you faced a lot of skepticism as you delve further into your musical career? How do you confront that?
Definitely, yeah. I think that theyre’s a lot of doubt surrounding the way that I’ve come up, and the way that other people like me are coming up right now. I get it, it’s just because it’s really new, and I think people don’t necessarily fully understand it yet. At the same time, it’s not as much self-doubt as it is doubt from other people just because I know that I feel this music in every single part of my body, and I know that I have always loved music, and I know that I have been singing since I was four. My first YouTube video, even, was me singing when I was twelve. I don’t know, this has always been it for me. Sure, I made a lot of YouTube videos, and I make a lot of YouTube videos, and I understand again that because that is such a new phenomenon maybe people get a little nervous about it. At the same time, I make music because I have to, personally. It’s what I need to do. I’m not gonna let anything like that slow me down or stop me.
Yeah, and a lot of people don’t in fact know that you were singing before your YouTube videos, starting when you were four, and becoming something of a child star in your town. Have you always known that this was going to turn into a career for you, and that you had to do this, or was there some sort of moment of epiphany where you realized that this was what you wanted to do for the rest of your life?
I’ve always been a little bit silly when it comes to how ambitious I am. I’m 100% one of those people who has always wanted to do exactly what I’m doing right now. I’m so thankful that it’s actually working out so far. It’s the perfect combination of right place, right time, and right people and hopefully a certain amount of talent, and all of that stuff working for me. But as far as me actually wanting this, yeah 100% for as long as I can remember.
Photo by Wesley Stiles
That’s awesome that it’s working out! The production on a lot of your tracks has a very forward-thinking electronic sound, partially due to the fact that you kept the same production team from your first EP together for the Wild EP and album. Did you originally envision the tracks to have synth accompaniment? How did you originally decide that you wanted to pursue that futuristic R&B sound in your music?
I think that a lot of it is reflective of what I have been listening to in the last couple of years, and what I’ve been enjoying – everything from “Channel Orange” by Frank Ocean to “Pure Heroine” by Lorde, “My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy” by Kanye, Flume, Hermitude, or whatever. I think that there’s a lot of interesting production sounds out there that have been out there for a couple of years and that’s what I’ve been listening to. I knew that I wanted to reflect that in my sound, so it was just about finding people who I felt understood it and were also interested in the same thing. Like you said, I’ve been working with a lot of them from the beginning, and I have full faith and trust in them. I’m thankful that they’ve helped me craft the sound in the way that they have.
Also owing to the nature of how you became famous, you attract a very millennial, phone-happy crowd. How do you feel about people glued to their phones for the entire concert? Does it bother you that people are increasingly on their phones during concerts?
I mean it’s interesting, I haven’t really formed an opinion on it yet. Sometimes I see people just on their phones filming it and I’m like, “Okay, cool I guess you can rewatch it later?” It’s probably better to be just watching it with your eyeballs, you know? And then sometimes I’ll look up and I’ll see someone who is on FaceTime with a friend who’s wearing headphones and acting as if they’re in the crowd – like their hands are in the air and stuff like that that. That’s actually really cute, it’s adorable – every now and then I’ll look up and see someone like that. I guess it’s up to each individual person. When I’m at a show, I try to stay as focused on the actual show as I can and maybe I’ll do a little clip at the end for my Snapchat, but most of the time I just watch it myself. As long as you’re not texting, or on Twitter or something like that – as long as you’re not that bored, then I’m okay with it.
Last question. How do you feel about being described as an LGBT artist?
To be honest, it doesn’t make me feel much except pride. I think that for the longest time that was a fear for me, when I was growing up and I think for a lot of LGBT artists before this time that has always been a real fear – that was like a death sentence – whereas, now I don’t feel like it is that anymore and I don’t feel like it should be that. To me, it’s the same as being categorized as a blue-eyed artist, or something like that. It doesn’t make me feel much at all, it’s just the truth.
Hey guys! I'm trying to get into con photography and I know you guys are mostly on the other side of the lens so I wanted to ask your opinions: what do you hate when having to deal with photographers? Let's call them photoshoot pet peeves. Also, what do you think makes photoshoots go smoothly? I'm pretty comfortable with my camera I just want another perspective.
First off, be flexible! Cosplayers are naturally SUPREMELY picky. We have to be if we want to be as accurate as possible. Let your cosplayer direct you as much as you direct them. Of course– as a photographer you probably know better about lighting and angles, but listening to their suggestions and making helpful ones of your own makes the photoshoot feel more collaborative.
Communication is key. Some cosplayers hate being touched or directed. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. Some NEED it but they are too scared to say so. A nice “Is it all right if I move your hair for you?” helps distinguish the boundaries. ASK them if they have ideas for poses or if they need some for you.
ASK THEM ABOUT THEIR CHARACTTERRERRRRR. For reals. Especially with shyer cosplayers not experienced in posing, helping them flesh out the characters personality will allow you to form an idea about what the shoot should feel and look like. Nothings worse than people asking me to do cutesy poses for a badass character. I have to say “Uhhh they wouldnt really do that”
But sometimes you get a cosplayer who is inexperienced and can’t pose themselves. You may get a bit frustrated when they stand like a statue, for over 50 pics. This is where the “Do you mind if I give you pose ideas or help pose you?” comes in.
That being said, looking up the character on your phone is a good idea. Plus you get ideas for pose references.
IMPORTANTE PHOTOGRAPHER BROWNIE POINTS:
-ASKAKSKSKAKSASSKK!! “Can I move your hands for you?” “Is it okay if I touch you to move your hair?” “Will you follow me to a better location for a mini shoot?” “Can I tag you on instagram?” “Do you have a card?” Talk to me!! ;_;
-You ask and take me to a non-hallway spot for a more ‘on location’ shoot. SOLID. I am happy!!!!! Mini photoshoots are ALWAYS my favorite thing. Just be sure to ask me if 1.) we have time for one. 2.) TELL ME WHERE IT IS. If its far and I’m in heels I may not want to go!
-You show me a couple of shots and ask if I want a specific picture of some kind. (I always do!)
-YOU HAVE A BUSINESS CARD AND ASK FOR MINE.
-USE MY BUISNESS CARD TO TAG ME ON INSTGRAM/facebook/youtube/tumblr. A+++GOODSHIT++ I love you forever!!!
-You send me a message after the con just to say hi and thanks! This helps me connect with you so we can maybe schedule another shoot for the next con if I liked your work! I have a 90% shoot again with this photographer rate if you DO THIS!
-Timely photo returns. A couple months after is acceptable. But if its been a year, I’ve forgotten about you and wont go out of my way to shoot with you again.
- A conversation about photoshopping/prints. This is mostly for me. But I need to know whether or not I can shop the photos you took or if I can make them prints. Some photographers dont want their work edited, or they want to be paid copyright. Thats fine, but I need to know! I like being the one to edit my own photos, so if your handing them over to me, please be aware of what your own rules are!!!
-If you want a private shoot, messaging me BEFORE the con and asking me for a schedule time is great. ****especially if I am a guest cosplayer. we get hella fucking busy and I dont want to seem rude if I dont have the time to shoot with you if you just walk up to me at a con******
COMMUNICATION makes a shoot go smoothly. As does DECISIVENESS. Your in control in the end because you have the camera.
When your shutter starts going off I will start posing. I can’t see your screen – YOU CAN. Your the one who knows if I have a double chin, or the light is gleaming off my prop too much. SPEAK UP and tell me whats on your mind.
REMEMBER: We both want the same thing, an awesome photo.
I had vip tickets to the Akron, Ohio show and it was hands down the best thing I have experienced in my 17 years of existence. I met so many internet friends and everyone was so nice. At the meet and greet I was seriously so nervous to meet them and I was shaking so bad I could hear their voices and it was so crazy to see them outside of a computer screen (THEY ARE SO BIG AND SQUISHY I WAS NOT READY). When it was my turn to meet them Dan said hi to me and hugged me and he was so tall I literally was tearing up a bit he thanked me for coming than I hugged Phil who hugged me so tightly and they both smelled so good and their beauty hurt my eyes. Dan than asked if I wanted them to sign my book and he said it so nicely and they are just such genuine people. After they signed my book Phil asked if I wanted to take a picture with them so I said to him “I actually have a big question for you, can you put your hand over my face like you are about to hit me or something I saw Harry Styles do it to a fan once” and he just started laughing and dan was laughing too and dan volunteered to take the photo for us (MY PHone is fucking blessed) and Dan was laughing again and I remember him saying “What was Harry thinking when he did that what was happening”. Phils hands WERE SOFT AS FUCK AND THEY SMELLED GOOD AND THEY WERE ON MY FACE AND HIS ARM WAS WRAPPED AROUND ME I NEARLY FAINTEED. After that Dan said we can take a normal one too so he held on to my phone and we all took a classic peace sign photo. After that I hugged them again and I cannot really remember what I said because it all happened so fast but I think I just said something like “thank you so much oh my god i love you” and than no spoilers but that show was just so good. I was right in front of the stage and I could see Phil gleeking a few times which was really awesome. Also Dan was sweating and the hobbit hair made an appearance. It was the most fun I’ve ever had.