this is there every year and it's still funny to me

It’s been a while, Tumblr, but I could very easily slip back into old habits. Endless sleepless nights filled with gif making and reblogs. Finding ways to twist and shape different scenes into something new.
I miss it.
All this Victorious has really kicked me in the nostalgia.
It’s funny to think how far we, the fans, and the cast, have come since then.
Waiting up ‘til the early hours watching a crappy live stream on a tiny screen with every new episode.
Yeah. I still miss it.

Funny story, so me and my younger sister love How I Met Your Mother and one of our favorite episodes is the one with all the Barney Stinsons from the future that make the legendary joke and so one time on New Year’s we decided to say “Legend-wait for it-” and then we waited until the clock struck 12 the New Year’s after that to say “-dary” and now it’s a running joke that we do it every year on New Year’s and I’ve probably never been that committed to anything in my life

I Exist-- Some thoughts on Scraps of Representation

There is a joke among some of my friends that I don’t engage with media unless it has wlw in it. (I used to be able to joke back that I got into How to Get Away With Murder just fine, but then that show decided it loved me very much and can no longer be used as a counterpoint.) The point being, I demand representation pretty rigorously. I spent too long without it. I will not settle for erasure or scraps.

Except right now I’m reconsidering the scraps bit.

Recently, Diane Duane released Games Wizards Play, the tenth book in the Young Wizards series, which I have been following for about half my life. Now, YA fantasy is hardly a kind genre to people like me. You may be scrambling to say no, Malinda Lo’s books, no, this one book—but they are exceptions. You have to seek them out. As a teen, I didn’t know what I was, I didn’t want to be anything but a totally normal straight girl. I didn’t know what to look for, wouldn’t have looked for it if I did.

Back to Young Wizards—it’s an incredibly important series to me. One of those things that came into my life at exactly the right time, with concepts and themes that settled into my heart and stayed there.

And Games Wizards Play threw me some scraps. I rolled my eyes a little bit at the minor gay character, because I am a Connoisseur of Gay Representation, please, this is almost quite literally nothing. But then.

Oh, but then.

Page 528, US edition:

“Nope, I’m ace,” she said. Nita blinked.

Asexual,” Lissa said.

Cue the water works. Seriously. I was sobbing with joy over this minor character who got introduced ten books in. I can demand real representation for gay people, for wlw, because I have seen it before, I know it can be done. I have never, in my life, seen the word asexual casually used in a real, published, non-queer lit book. This minor character suddenly meant the world. This small, throwaway scene, ran me straight through the heart. I am real, I exist, I am right here on this page.

I am actually tearing up about it again.

It means so much to me now, when I am 22 and well-versed in all the labels I can use to define myself. If I had seen this at 11, 12, 16, when I had not yet found the words but knew I was not what people said I should be? It would have been world changing.

It makes me look differently at the minor gay character. When I had nothing, he would have been something.

LGBTQIAAP main characters are incredibly important, and we should keep demanding them. I don’t think we always have to be grateful for scraps. But I think it’s important to not discount them. I think it’s important to remember how we would have reacted to them before we knew everything we know now. A minor character might be the only light in the dark for a kid who doesn’t know what they are yet. And it’s incredibly frustrating that there are so many instances when we don’t even get those. There are so many series that I loved that gave no hint to my existence. Young Wizards may not have given me much, I wouldn’t even really call what it did representation, but it told me I exist, it’s telling some kid who just found it at the library they exist, and that’s not nothing. It’s a huge incredible something.

It takes one line. One word. There is no excuse to not throw one word to the people who need it. We can talk all day about good representation and what that constitutes, but in the meantime, just one word is going to make a difference. We need to know we exist. And when we’re children, or teens, we need to know there’s a way to exist when the way we’ve been taught feels wrong.

Everything makes a difference.

And that difference might mean everything.

Look at this. These were the nominees of 2016 Kid’s Choice Award for Favorite Cartoon. Since 2003, SpongeBob ALWAYS wins, expect that one year when Avatar: The Last Airbender won. I don’t know why that show is still on. It’s rigged. It gives the other cartoons (expect Alvin and the Chipmunks) less of an advantage of winning since Spongebob is a NICKELODEON cartoon. I swear, Gravity Falls and Steven Universe are WAY BETTER than that yellow sponge. No disrespect on SpongeBob, that show was everything to me. Band Geeks, best SpongeBob episode ever. It’s just the stupidity of the episodes and lose of original humor is why I stop watching it. Nick doesn’t give a crap about the other nominees. Look at the Amazing World of Gumball, IT’S SPELLED WRONG. Like, why do they have this category if SpongeBob is going to win it EVERY YEAR!

Sorry if this post is long. The point is I hate Nickelodeon and the Kid’s Choice Awards.

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TG: your point?

TG: its still good

EB: blegh.

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“It’s me. Lee Hongki. KEKEKE

It’s 8 years!! No matter how you look at it…time passed really fast. Even then, no matter how you look at it, there are so many things to do. That time seems to just go slow. Ah…even though lately, we spend time happily, so I think its a good thing. Um…even though it might seem funny, we are still young, aren’t we? KEKEKEKE

We still have so many times after this! Every year! In every year that passes, because there are problems that keep appearing, we feel upset. But we manage to solve them one by one. Let’s grow up together. While we live on, we express all of our feelings. A band that grows up together, that is us. In one word, a band that keeps on going. Also, even though I have always said it, but, thank you.ㅅㄹㅎ
Thank you.”

~Lee Hongki (cr.)

August is SMA Awareness Month.

For the past four years, you’ve seen me treat my disease with a healthy dose of sarcasm and humor. There’s nothing I can do to stop the progression of my muscle deterioration, so I’ve chosen laughter as a way of coping with the inevitable decline. My intentions are 1. to enjoy every minute of my time here, and 2. to teach the world that the quality of our lives is largely based on how we think about things.

But for just a minute, let’s put aside the joking and fun-poking. There is nothing inherently funny about being born with this disease. Over the course of my 23 years, I’ve watched my body slowly lose its ability to move, talk, eat, and breathe. Most of my muscles are still working (on a severely depleted level), but give it more time, and I promise you I will lose even the small amount of function I have left.

In the past week alone, I’ve read death announcements for three children under the age of ten who did not win their battles with this unfair, devastating disease.

I’m doing everything I can to make a positive difference in the SMA community with my pen and my voice, but nothing I can do will bring those kids back.

As we move through the rest of this month, and the months that follow, as we all continue to laugh and carry on in the face of our own respective adversities, I hope you’ll take a minute every now and again to think about what it might be like to be born with a disease like spinal muscular atrophy.

I believe that as long as we keep making ourselves aware of the struggles of others, important positive changes will continue to be made, and someday, kids like me won’t need to write posts like this.

anonymous asked:

Seeing how far your art has come in the last couple of years has really helped me see that if you keep at something, youll get better at it. And I know art is a process and that you have to keep doing it to get better, but its always really nice to /see/ that change, like in the older work of established artists, and see how much their art has improved from good to way better in just a year or two.

It’s funny because I just thought the same thing. I tend to look back at my art with a sense of horror, but every pic I did (flaws and all!) is practice.

I still wish that I was dedicated enough to really push myself, but I only do that for challenges usually. I feel a lot of my art is mediocre, but it’s art aimed to entertain myself and hopefully someone else. I’m still getting better, even if not at the same rate as some other artists.

And so far I got from here

to here

Though usually I’m doing simple things this:

So maybe the above doesn’t really count?? But I can do it.

Sometimes my art still looks wrong when I rush but that’s not too terrible.

I just need to remind myself to slow down and put in as much effort I can muster instead of trying to post as much as I can as quickly as possible.

But I’m happy if someone likes my art and take something positive away from it ♥

here are some gifts for some friends dont worry i still got more to come so i wont count you guys out.

1. the rabbit with a thousand blades, AKA @bladerabbit, justin even we don’t talk much i still consider you a friend. you make great stories and your art style is great and fluent. ever since i met you, you made me want to try new ways to make my drawing. i hope i did your sword design justice.

2. the warlock gator, AKA @glassesgator your a good friend Aley and you are a great conversationalist even though im not. you have such a great artist always drawing great and awesome things. we been friends for a long time and every year i get to know you more and more. thanks for being my friend.

3. the demon wolf who wears cute outfits, AKA @weeaboobabu, Deandra we dont talk much but when we do you say some funny stuff, even though its not hard to make me laugh but its the thought that counts. you have taught me always try to draw cute things. even if i cant draw cute thing. sorry if my drawing doesnt do you justice im horrible at drawing girls.

4. The fluffy red panda bear, AKA @masabearartwork, Masa ik we havent talk much but you were always a great friend to me and those you know. im glad to meet you and the others on hatena.

5. the mulit-colored leafeon, AKA @leafadee, leaf i say the same about you, i havent talk to you much in recent years but i still concider you an old friends,

6. the swampert samurai, AKA @rorytheswampert, Rory ik you a long time and you support me just as long. every time i post a picture i see your name liking or reblogging my picture. you even say hi to me on skype and im sorry i dont respond to you but now i will always try.

7. the pocky king, AKA @bukoya-star, Buko your a recent member of my friend list and im glad you became my friend and hope we can continue being friends. and sorry i do not know much about your character except Nekostar.

i still got more friends to draw but i will be done by chistmas so dont you worry i will get to you.