this is the best its gonna get for a while

I think, too, that part of the reason why this episode and this arc is hitting so hard is because it wound up being a really intensely honest portrayal of depression and substance abuse in a livestreamed D&D game. That’s… not something you necessarily expect to be signing up for when you start watching, especially since that particular character arc started off as purely comedic.

Sam has talked about how the whole cast has played the same characters for so many years that they feel a real responsibility to be honest and genuine with their choices, and he’s also said that he feels he owes it to the people he knows who’ve been through this not to take it lightly and to portray it as accurately as he can.

And the thing about that kind of honesty? It really hurts to watch, especially if you’re not sure whether resolution and catharsis are coming anytime soon. I had a rough time getting through 85, because both Scanlan’s lashing-out and understandable-but-unfair attacks on his friends and VM’s well-meaning but just-the-wrong-thing-to-say responses were deeply, personally familiar as the things you hear both from folks who have never been through it and from folks who know exactly where you’re at but whose depression manifested in a different way that happened to catch fewer people in the crossfire (Vax in particular comes to mind there—he was saying the things he needed to hear from a friend back then, which were not the things Scanlan needed to hear in the moment). It hurt because it was raw, because there’s no easy way to put somebody at fault for the conflict, and because the other players were reacting so genuinely with such a familiar combination of betrayal, defensiveness, anger, frustration, and above all hurt and concern.

For me, personally, the episode was cathartic in a strange sort of way, because Scanlan was able to remove himself from the part of his life that was the epicenter of his misery, and he was able to recognize that the only thing that had a chance in hell of pushing him toward recovery was getting to know his daughter as a person rather than as a symbol he couldn’t disappoint (sound familiar to his relationship with Pike?). Sam’s talked and hinted for a while now about how Scanlan’s been putting more and more pressure on himself to be something different since he met Kaylie, and you just know that a lot of Scanlan’s “how could you not recognize there was something wrong with me?” comments were directed toward himself as well as the group.

And to me, the thing that kept the episode from descending into a horrible morass of hurt feelings was the moment when everyone in the argument sort of took a step back and had that realization of “okay, this is a fight, this is a serious fight we’re having, and it’s because we’re family”. Because this show’s always, always emphasized the validity and importance of the family you make, and despite some very serious conflicts that come up between them, the love’s always there and no conflict is flat-out insurmountable. Some conflicts can’t be resolved with constant painstaking conversation, some wounds can’t keep getting exposed to the air if you want them to heal properly, and Scanlan recognized that things were just going to get worse if he didn’t have some time to himself for a while.

So… it’s rough, but one of the biggest strengths of this show is its ability to evoke pathos without wallowing, to find hope and humor and fun even in the worst places imaginable, and this whole mess with Taryon felt like the best possible way to keep that narrative going while still giving the characters agency and treating this thing with the gravity it deserves. It’s going to be challenging, and everyone’s gonna be raw and grieving for a while, but I honestly think the end result’s going to be worlds more positive and hopeful than what would’ve happened had Scanlan stayed on and continued to spiral. If nothing else, I have a whole lotta trust in these players’ devotion to giving their characters development that isn’t just pain for pain’s sake, so I have no doubt that Scanlan will return at some point.

I joked about how great it is that the group can now band together through their dislike for Taryon, but that’s actually really true—the worst part of 85 was the moment when it looked like the rest of the party might fracture over this loss. But in the end, they all sought each other out in ones and twos throughout the night and came back together in the morning. I’m honestly very excited to get to know the new Vox Machina that survives this (and also kind of wants to kick Taryon’s ass).

Change sucks. No question. But this, to me, felt like a change that was necessary but also hopeful. It felt like the only way forward that didn’t end with a body, and that’s something this show and these characters have always put in the effort to find.

anonymous asked:

On a scale of 1 to 10 how likely do you think is the possibility of Sheith being canon? - Sincerely, a very distraught Sheith shipper who doesn't know whether she should trust the overwhelming staff support for Sheith as something more or just bait.

oh i think theres a good chance actually! i wouldnt believe that if not for 1 korrasami and 2 the staff already voicing that lgbt representation is something important to them that they’d like to add. sheith has a lot of backing from staff, both the writers and vas. and its nice to see that, even with some fans demanding that staff stop “withholding information” and outright writing callout posts about even the showrunner and episode directors for supporting shieth, that they haven’t stopped. there seems to be this general sentiment that the staff owes those kinds of fans something when?? its the writers’ story not theirs? and im glad they’ve made it clear that they aren’t willing to compromise decisions they’ve already made in the writing to suit what’s popular (see: “space mom” allura). 

so anyway: what’s done is done. and from what we have, i think season 2 basically establishes two potential love interests for keith: Shiro and allura. both are kinda unpopular with a lot of the fandom, but based on character interactions so far theyre the two that make the most sense to me. so anyway, i think that sheith has just as good a shot as kallura, which fans are already recognizing as something possibly romantic. There’s a bunch of parallels in their interactions i really like: 

  • shiro and allura are both represented as opposite sides of the scale in reaction to keith’s galra reveal. or, on a scale of allura to shiro, how well do you handle keith being galra after youve gotten close to him?
  • they both hug keith goodbye in this private moment to see him off before a dangerous mission. these scenes also both relate to keith being galra—shiro showing his support immediately after bom, and allura apologizing for her (quite understandable) reaction
  • both ships have an episode where they’re separated from the team and get a lot of one on one character development—see arc of traujeer  and across the universe/blade of marmora 
  • keith is the one who reassures both shiro and allura that the team needs them–who would open wormholes? and Nothing is gonna happen 

so anyway, in terms of which pairing i think is most likely, its either of those two, and id be happy with either ;;    but some other things shieth has going for it: 

  • its the ship i can most easily see being lgbt representation 
  • they already have an established backstory, one that we havent even explored yet, and we know whatever happened it was monumental enough that keith says shiro literally changed his life 
  • shiro is the person keith most desperately wants to see. out of everyone, lying there dying on the floor, the person he wants is shiro. whether you see it as platonic or romantic, its obvious that 1 keith loves him and 2 shiro is the most important person in his life. he doesnt even stay for his dad, but he does chase after the fake shiro
  • seems like theyre fated to keep getting separated and then reuniting, i dunno that seems pretty fairytale to me 
  • keith’s intro scene being his rescue of shiro. right when we first meet keith, we automatically associate him with shiro 
  • shiro wants keith to pilot black, and they already both share a mental link with her 
  • keith’s first and last lines right now are both “Shiro”
  • shiro seeing keith’s hallucinations in bom is, to me, the most deeply interpersonal, intimate scene in the entire series. its one thing to talk to another character about your feelings, but its another to be right there with them in their head. shiro saw a part of him that i dont think anyone else ever will 
  • i talked about this in my hug post a bit but while keith kinda represents this galra side of shiro (he’s the right arm of voltron and shiro’s right arm is also galra) it seems like shiro represents keith’s humanity. keith is humanized by his compassion and vulnerability with shiro. shiro is basically shown to be the one thing tying keith to earth–his family was gone, and he really had no other friends. he was lost without the garrison. after shiro was taken he had nothing left. he’s one of the only paladins who never expresses being homesick. Whatever good memories he had of earth, im guessing shiro was a big part of them. and shiro is the one there when keith finds out he’s galra, is the first one to reassure him. 
  • they mirror each other in a lot of their scenes 
  • seems to get a lot of staff support 

anyway i think it has a pretty fair shot, but that’s just my take on it. as for queer baiting in general, im already seeing people talk about that, but like…we’re 24 or so episodes into a 78 confirmed episode series. major ships aren’t gonna be cannon for a while now, so i think its best to wait a little and give some more time for relationships to develop. korrasami wasnt even a thing until the very end. and while i dont think that will be the case here, i think we just need to give it a little more time. id like to believe theyre sincere about lgbt representation, and would rather them take their time to develop it properly than get something just thrown together and feel like my identity was just reduced to a stereotype 

anonymous asked:

Okay but when is it gonna be Louis' time? Can he be free too for the love of god? The way he's been treated is beyond unfair, it's so fucking unfair (disclaimer: I love Harry too, but I want the best for the both of them)

Yeah, I’m tried of Louis getting the short end of every stick. While I’m so proud of him for Just Hold On, it’s about goddamn time that his stunts end and he gets a team that actually gives a fuck about him so his music can be promoted the way he wants it to be and the focus can be on HIM instead of whatever accessory (food, clothes, human, or otherwise) they’ve decided to tack on that day. It’s beyond ridiculous that he’s still getting fucked over by his own team again and again because he deserves SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS.

soraa-s-doodles  asked:

hc about MC moving in with Saeran?? please?? (and is you're not lazy enough the RFA + V too??)

Slightly nsfw in like two parts 

Yoosung: 

  • He is so excited! 
  • you two had decided on waiting until he wasn’t living in a dorm room 
  • so both of you had been waiting for this for so long 
  • You started renting an apartment together 
  • decorating was so much fun 
  • he wanted to put LOLOL merchandise everywhere 
  • It’s a good thing he enjoys cooking 
  • you two share the chores and you both really hate doing them since its always a mess 

Zen 

  • MC moves in pretty early in the relationship 
  • you get nothing done in the first few days 
  • too busy hanging out without any clothes tbh
  • Okay but there are so many boxes you have to get to this  
  • you take so long unpacking because you keep getting distracted 
  • Like he doesn’t want to just unpack when MC is living with him now 
  • He just wants to spend time with MC! 
  • But as soon as you’ve unpacked its time to relax
  • He aims to do all the couple stuff together right away  
  • Zen please calm down.
  • Like MC just moved in you have so much time to do couple stuff 

Jaehee

  • since you two saw each other everyday at the coffee shop you were pretty close to actually living together 
  • So you two weren’t nervous when you were talking about it 
  • but when the day came you were pretty nervous 
  • but it was so great 
  • you got everything unpacked pretty fast
  • and Jaehee had made a lot of space for your stuff 
  • after unpacking you two just relaxed
  • cuddling in the sofa
  • and watching Zens musical 
  • it was really nice

Jumin 

  • Okay but MC practically lived there already 
  • Like when was MC not there??? 
  • But Jumin did bring up that MC should move in with him 
  • “You mean I don’t already live here?” 
  • he brings up that MC should officially move in with him
  • all of MC’s stuff is there and unpacked in like an hour 
  • how is that even possible?? 
  • Your first day is so nice 
  • I mean so are the other days 
  • But you have a really nice dinner to celebrate 

707/Luciel 

  • MC didn’t realize how messy his apartment actually is until they had to find space for their stuff 
  • Where is the floor??? 
  • MC tries to clean up some stuff but the mess never ends? 
  • Seven stops them from cleaning because they are supposed to relax 
  • MC just moved in!! They should enjoy that! 
  • Seven bets they can have sex on pretty much every corner in the house on the first day 
  • Seven you just told MC to relax 
  • they do tho 

  • He had been so nervous about asking MC to move in 
  • He had asked MC over a nice dinner and ofc they said yes 
  • his apartment is so beautiful wth 
  • It’s just such a nice feeling to be there 
  • A lot of his photographs are on the walls 
  • he was embarrassed about it and suggested taking them down 
  • No!! Mc wants to keep them up! 
  • MC and V spend the day unpacking together 
  • then they spend the rest of the day cuddling 
  • its so nice to just cuddling him for hours 
  • MC and V don’t even need to say anything to each other while cuddling 
  • its just so nice 

Saeran 

  • MC and Saeran had been dating for a pretty long time before they decided on living together 
  • he was way more nervous than MC was 
  • Since Saeran lives with Seven it was practically like moving in with both of them 
  • But Seven went out for the day so you two could spend this day together 
  • you are both pretty quiet while unpacking at first 
  • like he is so nervous about this and has a hard time getting close to people 
  • but he really wants to be with MC all the time 
  • You two finish unpacking after a while and you were too tired to put it all away so you two sorta shoved it in a corner in his room for the time being 
  • You were gonna cook but there are no ingredients here??? 
  • what do they live on?
  • Saeran you can’t live on sweets 
  • MC and Saeran go grocery shopping! 
  • yay
  • MC cooks for the two of them and this is the best meal Saeran has ever had 
  • After they had dinner Saeran is no longer nervous at all tbh 
  • He could sooo get used to this 
  • and he will 
  • MC and Saeran chat on the sofa while eating 
  • they end up falling asleep there too 
  • and its really cute 
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&& WE ARE OUTTA HERE! ✈✈✈

Girls I can’t believe we’re finally getting on this trip, I remember how we were joking about going to Rio for Carnival 2 months ago 😂 I’m hella exited and can’t wait to spent the best time with you guys.
YAAS WE’RE GOING TO BRAZIL! Please don’t get jelly about that - we’ll make you feel like you’re with us with posting our daily adventures 📷
So I hope the weather in NY gets better while we are away and you don’t miss us too much. Yours Truly @itsmishamisha @siobhanchap @amberphoenixx @caratempelton and of course me ✌💕 

ok for real im falling in love with rise against

im diggin samurai flamenco as a deconstruction of superhero/super sentai shows n tropes while still really firmly holding onto the boundless optimism and faith in humanity that characterizes the best of them?? its a bunch of goofball shit n suddenly hardhitting shit with dashes of ptsd, but like. it doesnt shy away from how much hard work it is, to do good things and try to be a kind and just person day by day, and it still says ‘here is why we do it’ and 'we want to,’ and its making my heart sing

also it has my angry bisexual daughter and her big-hearted gentle angel lesbian gf and their no-nonsense emotionally stable girlfriend. so. y'know.

jackofallpages  asked:

How do you deal with artist mood swings? I'm in a rut now where I feel like I'm moving through sludge, and writing garbage with the chorus of "you're a failure, failure, failure..." running through my head. I'm pushing through it, but it's still hard to create while you feel awful. How do you put the joy back into the art and quieten the negative voices? I know there's no easy answer... maybe there isn't any at all. Thank you for your time. :)

I’m gonna tell you something that might not help, but it’s the best I’ve got. When I wrote my first novel, the artist mood swings were incessant. Now that I’m writing my next novel, they’re super rare. The reason why? I learned through experience that it only gets harder.

While writing my first full-length novel, I spent a ton of time hating on myself. God, this sucks. You’re a joke. This is never gonna go anywhere. I LOVE writing, yet I spent half of the experience feeling like a mess. But eventually, I finished the novel. Then I had to move onto the professional edit, the marketing, the cover art, the publication - and all that shit is so. Much. Worse.

The professional edit made me feel like an idiot - all these mistakes, and I didn’t notice them? Marketing was boring and felt like a time-suck. The cover art was a nightmare, and my artist was flaky. And publication? I’ve never been more anxious in my life. And while I was going through all this shit, all I could think was I miss writing. Writing was so much fun. Which is kind of sad when you consider the fact that I basically ruined half of the writing process for myself by being my own personal bully.

So that’s how I silenced the inner critics. I gained perspective. I realized that since I love writing, I’m going to allow myself to enjoy it. I’m not going to worry about what people will think of my writing, because come marketing and publication, that’s all I’ll be thinking about. I’m not going to worry about whether or not I made stupid mistakes, because the professional edit will make me feel dumb all on its own. I’m just going to sit back and revel in the writing process, because writing is what I love to do. One day it will end, and I’ll be stuck handling business. Until then, I’m damn well not going to spoil the one experience that makes me so goddamn happy.

With that said, I’m currently in the professional edit, and I’m enjoying it as well - and I don’t feel stupid! Once you train your brain to think confidently and positively, it kinda sticks ;)

anonymous asked:

do u ship hoseok x seokjin? i think i saw it on one of ur tags. i dont think i've ever heard of that ship, so what are u fav moments to convince me? :P

oh my god YES dsfdjghsdhg there are maybe 3 people who ship 2seok and i dont??? know why??? its lonely over here but we manage bc its worth it,,, anyway, 2seok are pure, soft boyfriends who are just full of love and mutual support; they have the best time together, laugh a lot and joke around all the time all while having rly gross heart eyes for each other.. so lets get into this (under a read more cause i’m Passionate and this is gonna get very long)

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i’m glad that i don’t really get involved in fandoms anymore (aside from writing anyway)

YA’LL I JUST SAW WICKED FOR THE 5TH TIME AND IM INTERNALLY YELLIN BECAUSE I FORGOT ABOUT ALL MY GLINDA FEELS SO IMMA JUST VENT THEM COS IMMA EXPLODE OTHERWISE OKAY? COOL LETS ROLL

YO SO BASICALLY GLINDA IS LITERALLY EVERYONE’S 2ND OPTION RIGHT?

LIKE SHE FKN LOVES THAT FARERRO ASS HAT AND LOVES HER BEST FRIEND SO WHATS SHE GONNA DO WHEN SHE FINDS OUT THEY BEEN IN LOVE BEHIND HER BACK?? SHE CONTINUES TO LOOK STRONG FOR THE PEOPLE OF OZ WHILE ERRYONE ELSE IS SMOOCHIN AND FKN SAVING MONKEYS AND TREATING HER LIKE TRASH

AND THEN LITERALLY ALL THE PEOPLE SHE LOVES “DIE” AND SHE’S GOTTA PRETEND ITS THIS BIG FAKE ASS VICTORY WHEN HER HEART IS ALL SHATTERED. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? SHE GETS IN HER BUBBLE AND PUTS ON A BRAVE FACE FOR THE GREATER GOOD

AND WHILE ELPHIE AND FARRERO ROCHER RUN AWAY TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER SHE TAKES ON THE CHALLENGE OF RIGHTING THE POLITICAL CLUSTERPOOP OF OZ

MATE DON’T TALK TO BE ABOUT GLINDA TBH COS IM JUST GONNA AGGRESSIVELY SOB OVER HOW NO MATTER HOW MUCH SHIT GOT PILED ON HER, SHE GOT STRONGER AND IS ACTUALLY THE ONLY PERSON WITH ANY REAL POWER AT THE END EVEN THO NO ONE BELIEVED IN HER AND THE ONLY PERSON WHO ACTUALLY DESERVED THAT POWER BECAUSE DESPITE BEING PAINTED AS THE SELF ABSORBED BLONDE SHES ACTUALLY THE MOST SELFLESS PERSON IN THE GODAMN MUSICAL

ALSO

WICKED REALLY SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABOUT LESBIAN WITCHES DISMANTLING THE PATRIARCHY 

OKAY I FEEL BETTER

NIGHT YA’LL <3

“Boyfriend Wonwoo” moodboard

● he’d like someone he could sit in silence with and read with or something without it getting uncomfortable
● matching sweater paws (this is so cute)
● being cute sometimes
● waking up to him is the best
● always catching him staring at you fondly
● when you catch him he looks away all red and shy (so cute omg)
● dates are typically sitting together in a place which really quiet and peace and talk about deep conversation together
● or reading books together
● big bear hugs and when he’s really misses you so much its gonna very long
● wears glasses more bc he knows you find them sexy
● he cares a lot for you
● sometimes he’ll giving you a peck in the cheeks while youre talking
● not many talks but many acts
● you’ll so rarely fighting with him, but if you do he’ll give you silence act
● likes cover you with a blanket when youre sleeping
● bc he really love you so much

–nads.

screenshots of /everything/ that callout is literal bullshit

still pm me. there are still things i cant include publicly. pm me. pm me.

everyone is literally ignoring like everything i post so im big time -_- but if you can reblog this please do

read this first

these screenshots are weird, im “haruka” in all of them because theyre taken from vinces phone. i didnt have these screenshots because my phone broke recently and i lost all my old convos. karma is “unknown” in some of them because he deleted his kkt and remade literally so people couldnt screenshot him. notice how every screenshot is IN FULL, no weird selective cropping or suspiciously out of context things. you can ask for more screenshots regarding anything, or more context. we have all these conversations in full and can give you whatever

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Of Tea Parties and Princess Duties

for @cakeandpi as part of the @yjficexchange

Prompt: “Kaldur having Very Serious Princess Tea Parties with his goddaughter Lian, absolutely straight-faced, teaching her important lessons about ruling and politics. While Roy is a bit concerned that Kaldur seems to be teaching his four year old how to conquer the world.”

Basically ignores season two bc fuck season two am I right?

So so sorry this is a day late! I was having some issues with word on my computer and the fic’s file kept getting corrupted but I hope this is what you wanted!! (pls enjoy my attempts at pre-k playground problems lol)

Kaldur shifted on his feet as he waited in the cramped entry way to the small fourth-floor walkup. Early morning light attempted to seep through the shoddy blinds that covered the window across the room. He wanted to appear casual, but his tense shoulders and rigid posture betrayed him. Roy had not noticed, fortunately, as he maneuvered around the tight space, collecting his scattered things.

“Roy,” Kaldur tried, searching for words, “I… am not sure that this is the best course of action.” Roy moved in and out of Kaldur’s view as he quietly stepped, “Surely there must be someone else-“

Roy tossed his pack onto the coffee table in the center of the living room and began to shove his gear into it, he looked up at Kaldur and shook his head, “Afraid not.”

“What of Cheshire- Jade, I mean,” Kaldur pressed, “Or Artemis? Or Mrs. Crock? Ollie and Dinah? Even M’gann would jump at the opportunity to- uh, babysit.”

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↠plain black coffee?

genre: barista! au; fluff/romance; humor

word count: 2.5k 

authors note: well i wasn’t expecting this to be this long but here you go 


  • college can be tiring
  • and morning are not fun
  • and sometimes you regret not living on campus
  • because when you have a 9am lecture you really wish you’d chosen to live much closer where you don’t have to wake up as early
  • or alternatively you didn’t have to take 9am lectures
  • but when you were joining you found a nice apartment with two bedrooms going surprisingly cheap
  • and you kinda wanted to live off campus because you feel it’ll give you more independence
  • so you and bestfriend! Joshua decided to move in to this apartment
  • which you later realise is going so cheap because of the dodgy heating, on and off hot water and the crappy internet connection
  • but it’s kind of fun because you and Joshua have been friends since you were tiny and it always seemed like a great idea to live together
  • but anyway these 9am lectures are the bane of your existence
  • and every day Joshua would offer you coffee before you leave
  • because apparently this goddamn perfect child does not have a problem waking up early

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The Prank King

A conversation about Dean messing with Sam’s voice mail leads to a argument about who’s the best prankster. A bet is made, then its WAR!

Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, Reader

The three of you sat in a diner eating breakfast after finishing up your latest case.  You and Dean were finishing your coffee while Sam checked his voice mail.

“Sam are you ever gonna change your message?” You asked. “I left you a voice mail yesterday, and I still got Dean saying you were “waxing everything”.  That’s getting really old.” 

Sam sighed deeply.  “I’ve given up.  Every time I change it, he just changes it back.”

“Quite the prankster, aren’t you Dean?” You said with eyebrows raised.

“He thinks he is.” Sam muttered.

“I am the King.” Dean boasted.

“Oh please.” You rolled your eyes. “I can out prank both of you any day of the week.”

“Oh yeah? That sounds like a challenge to me. What do you think, Sammy?” Dean asked his brother.

“Y/N, don’t.  Just don’t.  It won’t end well for you.”  Sam said with a grin.

“Bring It.”

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Rabbit in a Snowstorm (Connor x Reader) Prologue

A/N This is Assassin’s Creed, so that means fun stuff like blood, violence, and cursing. Not excessively, but still just fyi.

Prologue

“There’s a boy in the barn.”

“What?”

“In the barn there’s a boy, Achilles.”

“Ugh it’s that boy from earlier. He won’t take no for an answer.”

“You weren’t mean to him I hope,” you said taking a bite of your apple.

“Not at first but he forced me too. What’s he doing?” You squinted through the rain, trying to focus on the boy.

“He’s just laying there. He’s not dangerous is he?”
“No, just a nuisance.”

“Achilles we might have trouble.”

“What’s he doing?”

“Hiding. From two men that just walked up. Thieves by the look of it. They’re talking to him. Looks like they’re telling him to leave……woah nice parry!” You watched as the boy dodged the men’s attacks leaping here and there and landing a few critical hits of his own.  You watched as more men came, none able to take the boy down.

“What’s happening?”

“He’s kicking their asses that’s what.”

“(y/n)….”

“Sorry…but it’s true.”

“We better go get him.”

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