God dammit I fucking hate crying. It makes me feel like a shitty little child who is manipulating people to get what they want. When really I’m crying because every part of me hurts and it is literally impossible for me to hold it in anymore.
Going out just makes me feel terrible about myself I don’t know why I do this to myself.
Being ignored or standing by while guys try to pick up your friends kinda sucks. It’s not that I’m even into these people I just feel so terrible like I’m not even worth anyone’s time and it makes me feel beyond ugly.
I wish I had of stayed home.