this is so shitty why did i make it

this is a terrible post stop reblogging it. also I’m sorry on behalf of it.

edit: to all of those saying why don’t i just delete this post:

after posting this I realized many things, things like the background of the photo and what’s really going on.

so a couple of years back snooki and the gang went out for a couple of drinks and this asshole was taking their drinks. after confronted once he denied their accusations, but was caught doing it again and snooki decided she had enough of him. she told him to stop and the guy proceeded to punch her (as seen in the photo)

now as to why i left this post up. so after all that’s happened since this was posted I realized I did something shitty. i would very much leave this post up so i can face the consequences of it rather than deleting it and pretending it never happened. i feel bad for thinking this was acceptable in any way and realized how traumatic this must of been for her and for me to make it into some “relatable meme” was a dick thing to do.

to all who were hurt by this because of the harassment, assault and just everyone who saw this on general. I really am sorry.

one of the most important things I’ve learned over the years is that what you allow will continue. looking back, the people that treated me like shit treated me that way because I allowed it. I can be upset and hate these people for taking advantage of me over the years, or I can accept that it was also me that needed to learn to not let shitty people stay in my life.

Suga Daddy: Part 8

Suga Daddy: 8

Word count: 8.3k

Genre/Warnings: angst, dirty talk, language 

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader

Summary: Yoongi tells you about his past but is terrified of how you’ll take it.

This came a little early than expected. Anyway, enjoy and thanks for reading.

Parts: {playlist} one | two | three | four | five | six | seven 

Everything felt like it was playing out and slow-motion and all you were doing was twirling the flowers in your hand. You were nauseated and your mind was racing with every possible scenario. You knew that Yoongi couldn’t have a squeaky clean record. Especially with his attitude and the way he talked to you sometimes. For some reason you still loved him, despite that.

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Do Something Bad, Too - Part 4

Pairing: Alpha!Bucky x Omega!Reader

Summary: It’s like every single Alpha on the planet won’t rest until they’ve confessed their eternal wish for you to mother their children, and it’s getting old. Luckily, that’s a problem Bucky might be able to fix.

Warnings: language, a/b/o dynamics, nsfw content (aka orgasms)

A/N: its finally here! sorry for taking like 30000 years but i got there in the end! happy new year, happy holidays, i hope everyone is well and i hope you enjoy this part!

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

When you were in the army, you decided that you would never, ever chose an Alpha as a mate. You were surrounded by the worst kind day in day out - and, sure, when you moved companies nobody knew you were an omega thanks to the suppressants, but that just meant they felt like they could say all their shitty opinions about omegas in front of you as if you wouldn’t be offended.

In your opinion, 99% of Alphas were pigs and had zero respect for you no matter how successful you were, or how many suppressants you took. The past few weeks, however, have made you seriously reconsider that percentile.

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interlude dream reality

smh and sneezing

this is a weird thing to headcanon probably but i have a cold and i keep sneezing and that made me think about different types of sneezing

  • jack: has an adorable sneeze, the kind that makes every single person near him go “oh my god, that was so cute!”. nobody expects that high-pitched “cheww!” sound to come from jack, but it does.
  • bitty: the quietest sneeze. people often don’t even realize he was sneezing; just “why did you randomly cover your face for a moment”
  • shitty: his sneeze sounds strangely like “uh-BRAH!”. how??? it is a mystery
  • lardo: the loudest sneeze. she’s the kind of person who shouts when she sneezes, and gets annoyed looks from everyone in the library.
  • holster: always sneezes in threes, but there’s a longer time than usual between his sneezes, so he always gets “bless you”’s for every sneeze and it’s awkward.
  • ransom: always has really long buildup to his sneezes, often he thinks it was a false alarm, but then the sneeze comes with no warning. “[moments of silence while he stares up at the ceiling but nothing happens]….sorry, i thought i had to snee-CHOO”
  • nursey: somehow always manages to be taking a sip of something when he sneezes, causing his drink to squirt out of his nose. it’s awful.
  • dex: nobody has ever seen him sneeze, but rumor has it his sneezes are legendary. every now and then a clip of strange sound will circulate with someone claiming it is a Dex Sneeze, and usually ends up being exposed as a hoax. can dex even sneeze? are they real? i want to believe.
  • chowder: really shorts sneezes, but really many of them..his record is 15 in a row
  • tango: always has those really excessive buildups, like “uh-uh-uh-uuuuh-CHOO!”
  • whiskey: somehow remains straight faced through his entire sneeze. seriously, he doesn’t even close his eyes. it’s weird.

I tend to fancy flowers too much. That is how I met him. I could see him through the window, watching as he sat outside of a shitty café shop I was in smoking a well finished cigarette. Snorting, I watch as he throws it into a rose bush beside him. This man wasn’t the known stereotyped bad boys that people read on a screen with face piercings and inappropriate tattoos on his body with vibrant eyes that looked into your soul as he held a smirk across him lips. No, this unnamed boy dressed with some sense of fashion, folded sleeves and slacks. He held emotion, only one which was madness.

This man, a indescribable human that was so unbearable that reached inside my body and ruined my soul breaking my heart in the process just by the snap of fingers. How we met wasn’t in a cliché way, not in the one that they show in movies where their hands accidentally touch and look into watch others eyes feeling all those sparks or something bullshit. Hell, we felt something alright when I orgasmed in his bed. I would always worry what people would say if I was seen with him in public, but he never gave a fuck about what others said about the boy. His motto was fuck everybody and be you. He was always blunt and honest even you never asked for his opinion. The way he did me, he’d make you realize who you’re and that nobody is really important so why give a flying fuck? I always disagreed and that’s what he liked about me.

One night when he found me drowning my sorrows in alcohol and smoking only god knows. That man shook something in me that sticls with me today. Instead of caring for me, he slapped me across the face and told me to stop being such a shitty baby.  He told me that if I didn’t like the way I was living was for me to go run away. He told me to find a city where nobody wouldknow who I was and to stop worrying about everything fucking thing that’s happened to me and to grow a pair to just get over it and to just start living life. To create something that only the people around us can remember. That we didn’t have to be famous to be remembered just be remembered for the people you love.

The boy that had eyes of autumn leaves and skin so smooth. Lips so soft I don’t think I could bare I could kiss another. Then man that stole my humanity and left like I was garbage. I didn’t want to believe that happened I’d feel this way. To feel something for a guy that I knew would never live a forever with me like I fantasized. I have and still will deny the fact that I was in love with him. I don’t think I was ever in love. I was just in love with the idea of him.

The thought of him is was ruined me. He burned a piece of him, scarring inside of my mind to never forget about him. I never had the chance for it to rub across his tongue and hear it feeling the vibration of my own voice from the back of my throat looking into his eyes to find his reaction, but never had the gut to admit it in person because the fear of his reaction would’ve killed me.

So I’m just have the memories. He never laughed much, but when he did he laughed like god. When he’d squeeze my knee I’d always jump at the odd feeling, I never got use to his touch, other than him pleasuring me. Sometimes he’d get me high before we fucked. Whispering in my ear that he’d fuck me silly. . I I’ve spent so many times in his bed I’ve lost count.

He always told me that I was changing him and maybe that was the way of him saying I love you? Who knows. He can’t tell me now, can he?

—  A chapter, from book Ultraviolence written by me, motelflowers on Wattpad.
(via atmospher-e)
shit grad students say, pt. 1

“i need to sleep 38 minutes ago”

“do i get a gold star on my diploma if i’m the first one to submit my thesis?””

prof: why did you choose to do a masters degree?
student: i’m going to be completely honest, i’m just here for the bragging rights

“i didn’t know you could use microsoft excel to do calculations! i did 138 standard deviations BY HAND!”

“i pulled an all nighter and i don’t even have anything to show for it”

“pho is like vietnamese gatorade. eat a bowl before you go out drinking, you’ll never get a hangover.”

“spanish is my default language. i went to china and i KNOW they don’t speak spanish there but every time i met someone i was like ‘HOLA’”

“i can’t tell if i actually have free time or if i’m just neglecting my responsibilities”

“i was so stressed out last spring that i bought a fish tank”

“sometimes i just need days where all i do is watch shitty mtv shows and look at my fish”

“man, you have to BUDGET your all nighters”

“i was grading lab reports last night and i accidentally spilled wine all over them so now my students know they’ve pushed me to drinking”

“i’m trying to see if there’s a correlation between the number of hours grad students sleep and the number of coffees they drink in a day”

“one of my profs wrote a book about hockey and they misquoted him on tv and now he’s internationally known for saying that all hockey players are homosexual”

“why do i come here? why did i make this my life goal?”

prof: we’re going to get started as soon as everyone’s quiet
student: guys if we keep talking we don’t have to start!

100 Prompts

1. “Close your eyes and shut up.”

2. “They hide paper towels in their room and I don’t know why.“

3. “Get over it, pussy.”

4. “He yelled yeehaw and I’m not quite sure why.”

5. “No playing video games together is not considered a date.”

6. “Give me anime or give me death.”

7. “Your mom texted to tell me you’re pathetic.”

8. "Do you ever look at your hand after you nut and just think “I’m so disgusting.” I call it post nut depression.”

9. “I think I have a kink for being made fun of.”

10. "I can’t believe you woke me up crying over a group.”

11. “You’re just naturally dumb.”

12. “Why did you take a picture praying to an anime character?”

13. "On a scale of 1-10 how bad do you not wanna do this?” “I don’t.”

14. “I’m going to my bed.” “That’s the bathroom.”

15. “I would have stayed if you asked.”

16. “You know I’d do anything for you.”

17. "Are you hurt?”

18. “Why do you have a duck in your bag?”

19. "Why are you listening to the ICarly soundtrack?”

20. “I don’t want to hear about your toe.”

21. “Why can’t we get matching clothes?”

22. “You were sick 5 minutes ago.” “But I’m not sick now.”

23. "I’ve lost my nose.”

24. "Why would I have a problem with you facetiming your cat?”

25. “Is this your dream?”

26. “I don’t understand why you’d think that.”

27. "I’m living life to the fullest extent!”

28. “What do you mean you won’t sleep in the empty bed?!”

29. “I’m part of the pathetic line.”

30. “It’s two a.m., why are you next to me?”

31. “Sex doesn’t make you any better at playing Overwatch.”

32. “No problem friend. I am meme share supreme.”

33. “I can’t go to Taco Bell for a while.”

34. “Can you con someone for group dessert money?”

35. “You look like the manager for Hot Topic.”

36. “Am I supposed to find you laying in my bed in a banana suit hot?”

37. “I can’t find my pants.”

38. “You know I didn’t mean that.”

39. “Who cares if they saw?”

40. “Please come with me.”

41. "Let me shower first!”

42. “What is that?”

43. “I’m not the one doing it.”

44. “I’m not him.”

45. “It’s a secret.”

46. “Did you read it?”

47. “What if I prove you wrong?”

48. “How do we get in?”

49. “Is something wrong with me?”

50. “That’s my theme song.”

51. “Let me stay. Please.”

52. “All I want is you and if I can’t have that-”

53. “Ask for permission.”

54. “Why did you say ‘Daddy’ in your sleep?”

55. “I put trust in you.”

56. “Stay.”

57. “You’re a filthy squid.”

58. "Do you really need those?”

59. "Would you be able to be happy with me?”

60. “Just come here.”

61. "All I was doing was looking for you.”

62. “I feel so fucking stupid.”

63. “I can handle myself.”

64. "It was your fault.”

65. "How did it take me so long to realize?”

66. “It was always you.”

67. “You bought my hip hop monster?”

68. “Don’t start with that again.”

69. “F-Fuck.”

70. “Disgusting.”

71. “We were just joking around, right? Please tell me you knew that.”

72. “Why are you sleeping?”

73. “Why do you want taco bell now?”

74. “Hey, what would my name be if I was a Pokémon?”

75. “All great stories started off shitty. Just like you. Now, fix yourself.”

76. "What’s your favorite meme?”

77. “I left the house today.”

78. “Does this make me some kind of hero?”

79. “You don’t need to know.”

80. “It’s just not that impressive.”

81. “I need some sugar.”

82. “There were two so I figured one was mine-”

83. “Please don’t go.”

84. "Just a bit more-”

85. “Are you subconsciously doing the dance?”

86. “You promised you wouldn’t fall asleep.”

87. "You’re not a bad problem, you’re a good problem. Not a problem, problem.”

88. “Don’t pretend I didn’t just see what you were doing.”

89. “We just don’t really talk anymore.”

90. "Do you think other species have their own kind of drugs? Like something that gets them high?”

91. “Stop stroking your plushie.”

92. "Look, it’s called Joppa!”

93. "You’re just a little baby.”

94. “Ow, my ass.”

95. "Please just take a nap.”

96. "But that was my best pickup line!”

97. "Would you still act the same knowing everyone’s eyes were on you?”

98. “You’re just a memory now.”

99. “Go fuck yourself.”

100. “It’s never gonna happen.”

Bigotry follows the 5 Stages of Grief

I had a Shower Moment ™ the other day where i realized that most if not all forms of bigotry follow the 5 stages of grief. here i’ve even provided some examples:

1. Denial

“Transgender doesn’t exist (in nature)”

“Gay doesn’t exist (in nature)”

“Female sexuality doesn’t exist”

“Black intelligence doesn’t exist”

“Pagan souls (and thus inherent value in their lives) don’t exist”

“Disabled people’s value to society doesn’t exist (ie. if its not monetary it doesn’t count)”

2. Anger

[Insert every slur and hate crime ever. I’m not gonna list them individually. Its too varied and too depressing.]

3. Bargaining

“I don’t have a problem with them calling themselves whatever gender they want, but I don’t want them in my bathroom”

“I don’t have a problem with gay people, I just don’t approve of that lifestyle”

“I’m okay with my woman wanting sex, but only if its with me and whenever I want it”

“I don’t have a problem with them living in my neighborhood, but I ain’t letting them marry into my family”

“They don’t have to go to the same church as me, but I can’t stand them wearing their pagan symbols in public”

“Yeah sick people need help, but only if they’re really truly sick (as I define it) and not faking like most of them are”

4. Depression

“You just can’t say anything now without offending someone

“Back in the Good Ol’ Days you could [insert bigoted action without social consequences here]”

“These [slur]s just ruin everything! Now they’re in my [media of choice] too!”

“Well [person or media of choice] bought into that politically correct crap, so I guess I’ll have to stop watching/reading/listening to their stuff”

5. Acceptance

[That long awaited day few seem to reach where they stop being as much of an egregious asshole about whatever bigoted views they once held]

why the fuck does this happen?

my bet is because bigots are grieving a worldview that was once comforting in its familiarity and assuredness that they have since discovered is outdated

is it still shitty what they do?

hell yes

then why the fuck did you make this post?

because understanding why someone does a thing can help you figure out how to convince them to not do the thing

but there is other shit bigots pull that’s not on this post!

yeah. sometimes (additional) abusive behavior gets thrown in. usually in the anger stage but can happen in any stage. all i can say to that is sometimes people have bad coping skills. or are incapable of things that help minimize the damage they do to others before it happens. or they just don’t care how much damage they do.

sometimes the additional abuse is an attempt to force things to go back to how it was before. those tactics don’t work. or at least don’t work in the long run, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t leave a pile of hurt, broken, or dead people behind in its wake. 

check please characters as crazy ex girlfriend quotes
  • bitty: [singing] "I have no underlying issues to address!"
  • jack: "I hope to be half the man you are someday." "You're gonna have to up your protein quite a bit, maybe start doing some squats, something like--oh, you mean metaphorically."
  • shitty: "Why should we root for someone male, straight, and white?"
  • lardo: "What MAN did this?"
  • holster: "Good job, you horny monsters! Oh, I'm sorry, did that sound judgy? GOOD."
  • ransom: "I don't want to feel this way. I reject this feeling. I respectfully decline this feeling."
  • dex: "So God is okay with you wearing that shirt?"
  • nursey: "I make my own candles so rooms smell like me even when I'm not in them."
  • chowder: "Boba is the drink...that you eat."
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Seriously. Everyone needs a little more anime man love in their life. Get Amnesia memories. IT’S IN ENGLISH PEOPLE.

Why you should play Code Realize: Guardian of Rebirth

AU where
  • NHL star Jack Zimmermann and long time girlfriend and tennis player Camilla Collins break up. Camilla starts dating Jack’s college friend Larissa “Lardo” Duan. 
  • And the media is absolutely awful to the girls.
  • “Jack how do you feel about your girlfriend becoming a lesbian?” Etc. etc. even worse things are said. 
  • Jack is so frustrated. “Camilla and I are still friends, it was a mutual breakup. And even if we parted on bad terms, you’re being cruel and that’s uncalled for. And she didn’t *become* a lesbian. She’s always been bisexual. I’ve always known that”
  • “Jack why did you date Camilla if you knew she’d eventually leave you for a woman?”
  • Jack’s so frustrated. So he impulsively announces “I’m bisexual too! I could date boys or girls or whoever!!”
  • And the media completely ignores him.
  • And in a queer rage, he calls up Shitty and is like “Pretend to date me for a month, I’m gonna fucking prove my bisexuality once and for all!”
  • Shitty can’t because he maybe just started dating Lardo a week ago.
  • “It’s okay brah. I got you covered. I’ve got this friend who is a literal ball of gay sunshine and exactly your type. Just make sad eyes at him and I swear he’ll do whatever you ask.”
  • “I don’t need a real boyfriend, just someone to date for the media for a month or two.”
  • “Sure, pal, sure. I’ll text you the address of his bakery.”

The Elementarium, by Isobel Winter  


What is it?

The Elementarium is a script based on the Latin alphabet that I created about three years ago.

What is it for?

Initially I created The Elementarium as a way to write down spells, sigils, and other magical words that had anything to do with the elements, or that I wanted to embellish with the power of the elements. These days I use it for all magical purposes. Is especially effective as protection and spell charms.

Who is it for? Can I use it?

Anyone who wants to use it! I’m opening it up to the wider public because I feel that they would benefit from a magical script to use that they know was written by a witch, instead of using one in which they are unsure of the origins or rules. I’d love to see what you use it for; please post a picture and tag me in it, or tag it as #elementarium.

Why use it?

Unlike conventional linguistic scripts, this one was invented specifically with magic in mind. It automatically has a deeper connection to your inner energy. I created the script by meditating and then writing symbols down with my eyes closed, visualising how they would fit into each letter.

A letter from my language isn’t on the script, what should I do?

Send me an ask telling me which letter this is and I will create it! When I wrote it I was learning Norwegian and Swedish, hence why those letters are present. But I truly believe that everyone should be able to write magically in their own language, so please don’t be afraid to send me a request.

Can I get a tattoo of it?

Of course! I have a friend who did so and it looks great, I’m waiting on her to send me a picture so I can show you all. Just make sure you don’t mess up how you’ve written it down; I don’t want to be blamed for a shitty design.

i can’t fucking stand seeing people say they think harry looks ungrateful or comes across like a diva by not posting on social media or attending events or breathing the way they’d like him to. because harry, aside from dunkirk and another man, really did take a break from the public eye for the past year, and somehow, even though he’s barely been seen, people still want to scrutinize him for NOT being seen and say that that shows he’s snobby or above everyone for not tweeting or some other bullshit excuse or say that him working on an album is completely implausible because he hasn’t talked about it and the rumors about an album merely existing make him look bad. and i just don’t understand this incessant need to tear him down when he literally, LITERALLY has not done anything.

because here’s the thing - he’s had his life on display since he was SIXTEEN YEARS OLD, and when he was younger, you could tell he was much less guarded. and you can see as he got older and saw the way the media twisted his words specifically, the way the media made him into the person they wanted instead of who he is, and the way the media ignored everything he actually did and said in favor of making him their punching bag, he pulled back and became more private, and can you blame him? if you had to try to justify WHO YOU ARE to the entire fucking world and no one would listen and would continue to print shitty articles about you when you’re only nineteen years old, i guarantee you’d pull the fuck back and want some genuine time away from everything, too. he’s never been one to post about every little thing he’s doing, and why so many of you are against him doing anything at all in the public eye is truly fucking baffling and proves you hate him even when you say you don’t, especially when people on here try to jump through hoops to make up stories about how awful he is.

to watch people consistently put him under a microscope because he doesn’t follow the plans they have crafted for him themselves that aren’t based on reality is ridiculous and infuriating. he doesn’t have to live up to whatever random career path people of tumblr dot com have come up with for him, and to get mad at him over some weird plan random people on this website have made up is beyond fucking stupid and i’m tired of seeing it.

13 reasons why is just a manic pixie dream girl™ making a post mortem callout post for anyone who did anything mundanely shitty to her in life and lumping them in with literal sexual abusers all while managing to gloss over any deep discussions about the effects of bullying and assault i never thought something could be so boring and yet so offensive

Her Holding Back Her Moans: GOT7

Mark:

He’d think that he was not good enough for you so he might ask whether something was wrong. After realizing that you were simply doing it to tease him he would smirk and go very, very slowly, to the point where you had to beg him to move.


JB:

;-)

Well…. JaeBum here…. Hehe… Oh Boi… He will make you scream instead of moan because of the fact that you kept suppressing your sounds. His hips would snap into you so quick you though you would pass out.


Jackson:

He will stop moving, completely. Watching you squirm in slight annoyance, though well hidden. Jackson liked it when you were vocal, so seeing you hold it back would eat at him; it was as if you were looking for a punishment.


JinYoung:

Tbh, he would start chuckling as he was going in and out of you, seeing your face twist with pleasure but your lip bitten to the point that he thought blood was going to ooze out of it soon. He would kiss you instead, so that you would moan into his mouth.


YoungJae:

He would become so. fucking. distressed. Like… Why is she not moaning? Did I do something? Did something happen in work? What? Honestly, he would become so lost in his thoughts that he’d missed when you started moaning from pleasure all over again.


BamBam:

Welp. His ego would deflate ;-). So he would try even harder to make you moan as he’d add a hand to the whole intercourse, rubbing at your clit with his thumb and sucking your nipple to over-stimulate you.


YugYeom:

He would just feel shitty about his performance, and it will be more noticeable since he would become sloppier, a bit scatter-brained. You’d have to moan quick to actually show him that you enjoy everything, and after the intercourse ends you better state a reason as to why you held back your moans because he might become insecure about having sex with you, since he thought he couldn’t pleasure you properly.

Shaladins are probably having a field day right trying to justify their shitty ships, so here’s your local nonbinary’s stance on this.

So even if Keith is 18, there’s still a 7 year age gap between Shiro and Keith. It’s still not okay. There’s still a power imbalance. I did some explaining here. 

I’ll restate what was said: Your prefrontal cortex is not done developing until you’re 25-26. K/L/H/P’s prefrontal cortices are still developing. AKA the thing that controls executive function, decision making, etc. This is why teenagers/young adults tend to base their decisions more on emotion. Their limbic system (controls emotions) is done developing. Shiro’s brain is fully developed. Even if unintentional, he would be taking advantage of Keith or the other paladins. They cannot consent to a relationship in the same way. They are at different mental stages in life.

Also he’s probably turning 18 and is 17 right now? That’s how I interpret this.

Before you say Klance is abusive for Keith (even if he is?) being 18 and Lance being 17: there’s a one year age gap. 

I’d like to end this post with: 

Crown of Flowers

Plot: You’re not feeling good with yourself and Draco notices it and comes to talk to you.

Warnings: Fluffy, body issues.

Word Count: 1.003

Author’s Note: English is NOT my first language, so if there are grammatical mistakes, you can text me and I’ll correct them. In case you don’t know, (h/c) means Hair Color, (e/c) means Eye Color and (s/c) means Skin Color. Hope you all like it. (ᵔᴥᵔ)

Originally posted by jupiter-fox

Originally posted by sharnah99omd

I sat on the grass in front of the Black Lake and took off my shoes. My feet were sore at the end of the day, but I wasn’t surprised. They carried all my weight, how could they not be sore. I sighed, running my hands through my (h/c) hair. In the last days, for some reason, I wasn’t feeling that good with myself, and I avoided mirrors like Devil avoids the cross. I felt so ugly, so fat… That thoughts were killing me, because they did not came alone. They brought other insecurities that broke me even more. One in particular was getting me out of my mind.

Why is Draco with me?

When I saw him talking to the other Slytherin girls, I started thinking that maybe he did not needed me at all. I mean, they were prettier, anyone could see that, so what did I had of spacial? Why did he picked me? What if he realizes I have nothing to offer and leave me? That questions were slowly depressing me, and making me get away from my friends and from Draco his self.

My eyes got field with tears, and I let myself fall apart, because I wasn’t strong enough to keep them from falling down my cheeks. I was so tired, I just wanted to be pretty, to be gracious like the beauxbatons girls… Truth be told, I was feeling shitty since they showed up, two years ago, but now, it was stronger.

Of course I did not wanted to feel like that, but how could I stop myself? Tears kept falling, and I sobbed. God, why am I so weak? Why can’t I love myself like a normal person? I kept asking the same questions, without finding the answers.

“Elena?” I heard a voice behind me and turned my head to see my boyfriend walking to me his tie loose on his neck, his blonde hair messed. I cleaned my cheeks as fast as I could so he wouldn’t realize I was crying, but  when he sat by my side I realized how useless it had been; his gray eyes showed how much he was worried about me, and I felt guilty for a second. This was not his fault, he shouldn’t be feeling like that. “What’s wrong?” He asked, his hand reaching out to my face, wiping a tear that had insisted on staying there.

“It’s nothing important, Draco. Don’t worry, please.”

“How am I suppose to not worry about you? You’re my girlfriend, I have to. Someone did something to you and you don’t want to give the person in, is that? If it was that guy from hufflepuff again, I swear I’ll beat the fuck out o…”

“Malfoy, it’s not him, ok?” I interrupted him. “It’s not anyone, it’s me.”

“What do you mean?” He asked.

“I… I don’t want to talk about this, and I don’t know if I’m able to.”

“You know I’m not going to judge you, right? Talk to me, Elena, I want to help you. What’s the point of dating each other if we’re going to keep secrets?” His left hand held mine, his thumb pressing the ring he gave me. I knew what that meant. His left arm had the dark mark. “We promised, remember? Nothing between us.”

“I… I don’t feel good, Draco. With myself.” I whispered.

“Keep going. Talk to me, Princess.” He used my nickname to encourage me.

“I don’t like the way I look, that’s nothing else to say about it.” My eyes filled up again, and I looked down, incapable of facing my boyfriend.

“It’s my fault, isn’t it?” He said.

“How could this possible be your fault, Draco?”

“I’m your boyfriend, I’m suppose to support you whenever you need me, but I’m just to busy with my own problems to pay attention on you.” He was mad, and I got to say, that scared me a little. “I should make you feel perfect, not worthless.”

“Malfoy, listen to me, you can’t blame yourself for what’s happening to me. I know you love me, I have the proof in your left arm, the problem is that I can’t love myself, and that’s nothing you can do to change this.”

“Will see if that’s true.” He said, pulling me closer to his chest. I could almost feel the determination on his voice.


For the next week, Draco wouldn’t leave my side. He’d walk with his arm around my waist, kiss my face and neck all the time and whisper “you’re beautiful” in my ear. During class, he would hold my hand and caress it with his thumb. In lunch time, he dragged me to an empty classroom and kissed me passionately. I confess, I enjoyed that a lot, and so did my ego.

After dinner one night, the blonde asked me to wait for him in the Common Room, even through everyone was in bed already. I did what he asked, waiting in the couch, reading to distract me. When he walked in, he had his hands behind his back, hiding something.

“Ok, what’s that Malfoy?” I asked, curious.

“I know you said this wasn’t my fault, but still I feel like I should take care of you. I love you a lot, Elena, I couldn’t leave without you, and I also know you think I’ve proved that join… You know what, but the truth is that nothing I do will never really show how much I care ‘bout you. They call me the Slyterin Prince, but you’re the real Queen of Slytherin and of my heart.” I smiled at his speech and he held out a crown of white roses. My favorite flower. “You deserve all the crowns in the world, love.”

I kissed him passionately, smiling and understanding for the first time that I did not had to be perfect in the world’s eyes if I have always been and will always be in the eyes of the one I love.