this is so much better than the last one

Thank you so much for your kind words.
Maybe living in another country has made it harder to realize that this part of my life is actually gone. It hurts that I wasn’t able to hug him one last time, and that dad had to tell me via phonecall. But I have my pictures and videos and memories to keep him with me.
I miss him so much. But I’ll keep my life philosophy in mind; it’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: Why do people talk about Jonathan Groff more than Okieriete Onaodowan? Jon left Hamilton months ago and is literally on stage for like 10 minutes. Oak has an amazing range and is the last original cast member. Why does no one talk about him. Why wasn't he nominated for a Tony. I need answers.
Episode 10 aka This Show Somehow Keeps Getting Better

Idiots swimming in winter

Phichit’s picture for Yuri on his phone is a poodle

Friendship

Victor’s sightseeing style (last seen in Hasetsu) has infected Yuri


Yurio’s fangirls are weird

But it’s okay because MORE FRIENDSHIP

Mari and Minako-sensei are adorable


And OH MY GOD

Is this why Yurio dislikes Yuri so much?!

Despite not getting a lot of characterization in this area before, Phichit acts exactly how the fans predicted he would

Otabek *serious clapping*

Oh yeah, so Victor and Yuri are engaged now. Can’t get more cannon than this

And probably the biggest revelation of the series…

YURI’S THE ONE WHO ASKED

Seriously though watch the credits they’re astounding

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(sorry i was too tired to make this…………good lol IM SICK AS HECK)

ANYWAY what if gon like. like he wants attention and killuas busy or whatever. so he says something embarrasing to get killua flustered

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I just finished my sketchbook, and every page is now full. I’m a little sad, I really liked that sketchbook.
But I had a few drawings of @thatsthat24 in there (which I already posted) and then I had these, one inspired by his song Birds and one inspired by Anything, both from Ultimate Storytime. Yes I know one of those 3 is not Thomas’s song, it’s from All Time Low by Jon Bellion. There’s a reason it’s included.
The 2nd and 3rd drawings are my first and last drawings in my sketchbook. The first sketch was a vent from a few months ago when I started in the sketchbook. I was feeling crappy and like nothing would get better and was extremely suicidal. The last one is from today, and I’ve been watching Thomas all the time and I’ve become much happier and confident and self-loving than ever before really.

I’m going to try to keep this post about Thomas relatively short (all of my posts about him are so long eek! He just means so much to me!!) but thank you to @thatsthat24 for just being great, I love you!

her lips are a spring morning. when she looks at you, time forgets you. 

a little kitchen where there’s nothing but your dog and the plants. she says she likes your new hair color, red like a sunset. you were trying to tell yourself you’d go to church more, be a new girl. but she shows up again.

you want to protect her but he’s better than you at manipulation. you’d never force her to do anything. you’re terrified one of these days she’s not going to be able to come back again.

where do good girls go? you look at her and know you’re poison, that if you corrupt her you’re destroying the last good thing to happen to you on this planet.

but if kissing her is a crime you’ve never craved jail so much. you go to sleep thinking of the smallest things: her freckles, her voice, the way she walks. she sleeps next to you when the nightmares get to be too much. you stay awake whispering prayers to a ceiling, your cheeks the color of rust.

you love her. and it’s all too much.

Spy is a dead beat dad and Scout surely spent most of his life wishing for a dad that was never around. With Spy telling Scout as Tom Jones that Tom is his father, and not him, was giving his son the father he always wanted. Spy wanted to give his son someone better than him, a father Scout could be proud of.

This coming from a man who is all about his ego, who is all about how much better he is than everyone else. This man admits he isn’t a good father and tries in his warped way to give his child someone better to be the man he wants in his life. Who has longed for.

I honestly believe Spy wasn’t trying to hide who he really was, just rather admit he’s not good enough and provided something better. Yes a lie, but that’s who and what he does, lie so skillfully to accomplish his goals. This time his goal was to make his son’s last moments a good one.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!

this year, my christmas ereri was much simpler than last one but i hope it still looks good =w=

i hope you all have wonderful holidays, even if you don’t celebrate it. 2016 is coming to an end (fucking finally) so let’s forget our problems for one night and enjoy the happy spirit going around!!

special thanks to @gootbuttheichou @connaweir @pureren @crying-abt-fictional-people @rchanscandy @hana-tox @raryu for being incredible cuties who made my 2016 much better with their kind presence

and a SPECIAL SUPER THANKS to @jedierenjaeger and @baegerbombtastic for being the BEST friends anyone could ask for. i don’t know where i’d be without you <3

AND thanks to ALL my followers for continuing supporting my dumb art TwT i love you all

MY PRE-TFP JOHNLOCK FIC REC

just assume they’re all explicit, most of them are. read all of these before tomorrow so you can enjoy some GREAT fanfics before TFP ruins us, either for better or for worse. ik some of these are long but i usually don’t feel fully satisfied with the 3k ones, and i’m not putting in any novel-lengths. however, if you want to read all of these together, the wordcount becomes a generous amount that can distract you for at least a few hours :^)

all of these i have read more than once, and have loved VERY MUCH. please find yourself this last sweet relief before death. beware i am an angst queen so this isn’t a fluff fix-it rec, but all of these have happy endings ; u;

so:

Between Friends by SilentAuror (18k) - sherlock is naked and tied up and john comes to save him, but sherlock’s body reacts… as does johns. some great john-in-denial, pining-but-frustrated sherlock, and it’s almost like a 5+1 because they keep getting into some compromising positions ;)

Drive by liveonmars (10k) - awesome little fic, it’s not a casefic or PWP or fluff but it has a bit of excitement in it!! basically the boys get stranded out on a deserted road with their car, and end up having to share body heat in the car to keep warm

Shadows on the Wall by AraSigyrn (18k) - now i went into this hoping for some specific/explicit johnlock, and while it IS a johnlock fic, nothing between them happens in it (but it reinforces that they belong together). basically, john becomes psychic in afghanistan. it’s a retelling of S1 and it makes you WISH john was psychic in canon, because it all makes SO much sense!!

The Thin Line by Odamaki (11k) - LOVE THIS basically both of them have to hop in a wardrobe to hide during a case. john gets an erection. it’s delightfully funny, my favorite part is when john is like ‘i need a…’ (moment) and then sherlock gropes him thinking that he was going to say ‘hand’ and john goes OH JESUS CHRIST NOT WHAT I MEANT

A Slowly Dawning Attraction by MitsuruAki (12k) - I HAVE READ THIS COUNTLESS TIMES!! it’s so in character and so so so cute. 5 times john and sherlock almost kissed, and the one time they did… the +1 is my favorite thing EVER my lordt

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder by cypress_tree (11k) - also known as how much freaking UST can you read in one sitting. for an experiment, john and sherlock can’t touch each other for one month. you can probably guess what happens

We Go Anywhere But To The Ground by geordielover (25k) - i am the biggest fan of john!whump. this is the most angsty rec on this list, john goes to a dark place after TRF but when sherlock returns, they both build themselves back up together. very lovely

The Detective and the Pin-Up by XistentialAngst (16k) - huehuehue this one is great. a secret comes out - back in the army, john watson posed for a pin-up calendar and it effects sherlock VERY MUCH. it’s so hilarious, like everyone at the NSY ends up becoming attracted to john lmao

Their Great Reward by BeautifulFiction (10k) - i know it’s a bit late for christmas fics, but this is too damn good. it’s boxing day, and the electricity is out and both boys are stuck in baker street. the love moment is honestly to great and this is wonderfully in character

A Satisfactory Arrangement by SilentAuror (18k) - now that mary’s gone and john is back at baker street, john proposes that he and sherlock start having sex. no strings attached, of course. really very good, it shows them gradually coming together (pun intended) and i love the fwb-to-lovers trope

More Things Than Are Dreamt Of (Series) by 1electricpirate (38k) - lastly, potterlock, but complies with canon (for the most part haha). the cutest little series. it addresses the thing i want to do EVERYTIME; when sherlock is going to jump off the roof, john yanks him back!! it’s one of the fandom classics, so even if you aren’t a fan of harry potter (i’m not the BIGGEST fan myself), it’s gorgeously written and my personal motivation towards how i want to write a magical realism fic someday :-)

**BONUS: kiss me on the mouth & set me free (but please don’t bite) by chrysanthemumsies (19k) - shameless self-promotion. five times john gets drunk and has sex with sherlock, and the one time sherlock gets drunk and can’t do the same. and if you want to read my other stuff and bully me into updating, then be my guest!!

i hope this helps y’all out. i don’t know how interested i’ll be in reading johnlock after The Final Problem, for whatever reason, so i’d thought i’d put together a little list while i still have the motivation. i hope this can distract y’all from the Fuckening for a little bit <3

Poetry about 2016

2016, boy what a year
It can’t get any worse, don’t have a fear
With Hillary and Trump neck in neck
And so many shootings, what the heck?
Everything’s red
Harambe is dead.
The world’s fighting terror
We did Brexit in error.
No longer Ebola we fear
But Zika fear is here.
Kim Kardashian was robbed
No one has jobs
Brangelia split
The world’s gone to shit
Flint still has no water
Each other we slaughter
Prince and Bowie are weeped for
We’re all invested in a silly war
Christina grimmie dead by gunshot
And the UK got too hot
What could be worse, in this fear riddled town?
Oh, I know, let’s throw in some clowns.

2016, you better not fuck up the last three months.

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Happy 2017 everyone! Lets hope this year goes better than the last one…

I’m making a commitment to be more true to myself this year. I have spent so much time putting others’ needs above my own, and the anxiety and depression is literally going to kill me one day. I don’t know if I’ll be able to do everything I want, but I’m definitely going to put more into my appearance! Anyway, on to the pictures :)

This is one of my favorite sets! I love the way this dress looks on me, even if it is a little short. And my poses here worked really well. 

I’d love to know what you think!

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KAI IS BACK AND HE IS BETTER THAN EVER

So tell me, was it easier to leave me last year, or last week. I should blame myself, I mean I was the one that thought it would be different. 

What a fool. I should have known I was simply a safe place to stay until you found a new home. 

You get so caught up in new people, the freshly polished ones, the ones that haven’t been around to know about the darkness you hide.

Maybe you want to be someone else. Maybe I know to much, which means you can never to pretend to be happy around me. Maybe you would rather pretend to be happy then let me try to help you become happy. 

I hope these new distractions treat you better than the last ones did. And I want you to know even though I said I won’t be waiting to pick up the pieces like last time, that I will be. 

I want you to know that despite my efforts, I will never be able to stop caring about you and I will not ever stop being concerned for your happiness. 

So I hope that this works out for you. I hope that they give you happiness I couldn’t. But I will always be your safe house, and I will always leave the door open for you.

—  I might see you again someday.
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LOL I’m so dramatic. Haha 

:’(

Text from Memento Mori, written by @war-studies yeaaaars ago…but it’s still so good!

Wow, this was a test of patience. But I learned a lot, which is always good. And at least it’s better than the previous ones, technically, haha. I hope I can do much better next time! :D 

My kids, Iris West and Francisco Ramon really shone in this episode and i’m so proud.

You don’t understand how thoroughly I enjoyed Iris being fun and reckless so much like her season one self, with Joe and with Wally even her last scene with Barry, I couldn’t stop grinning I adore her more than anything!

FUCKING CISCO AND CYNTHIA ENDED ME. This ship is gonna ruin me they better bring her back! I fucking love her what a woman.

WestAllen: Honesty I could write chapters.They’re THE MOST amazing couple together that I’ve ever witnessed I cannot with how supportive and endearing they are towards one another I want to cry!

Bonus

Cisco: “What are my chances here?”

Julian: “It’s a pretty solid 1 mate” I HOWLED