Originally, I was going to have this set this at their bench. Right now though, I’m feeling very sappy so
unremarkable house it is. (I also think
that we could use some sap after MSIII.) Thank you to everyone who encouraged me and helped me along the way!
It’s a slightly chilly late spring evening as Mulder drives
slowly home. He smiles, playing with the note she left on their desk as the
scent of flowers and fresh earth blow in through his open window.
“Meet me at home for dinner at 7:30 for a very
early or very late birthday present. – S.”
Yes, home, he
thinks. Things had been changing for the
better recently. They were back in the
basement, growing together again. She
spent more evenings at home than at that other apartment (he still refuses to
refer to it as hers), slowly moving back in as she waits for the lease to
expire. She’d slept over last night, but he hasn’t seen her all day; he’s
looking forward to whatever she has up her sleeve. The note was next to the
coffee maker this morning, on top of one of his ancient, beloved ties (ugly
ties, according to her, but he thought they had character). He decided to wear that tie to work today –
maybe part of her secretly missed his old wardrobe choices.
He’s happy, he thinks, finally seeing their gate ahead of
him. He’s almost surprised to think it:
25 years together and he’s…at peace. He takes a deep breath of fresh air, gets
out of the car, and starts walking. He
stops short when he sees her rocking in the swinging bench on their front porch. She has obviously been busy.
The porch has flower baskets hanging from freshly screwed-in
hooks. The banister is similarly
decorated with railing planters stuffed full with newly planted flowers of
different varieties. There are three balloons
tied to each end of the swinging bench, bracketing her as if she was either the
birthday girl or the gift. She even has food laid out beside her on a small
wooden table and her big overnight bag on the other side. As he jogs up to her, he experiences a
fleeting moment of panic, wondering if there was an anniversary or something
that he forgot about. Scully isn’t
usually this demonstrative and he feels a bit guilty for meeting her empty
handed, but the feeling vanishes when she looks up from fiddling the with food
to see him, and smiles that special smile.
“Scully,” he grins, at a loss for words.
She blushes and shrugs.
“I’ve been thinking lately that even though we’ve always considered this
house ours, I haven’t always acted like it was in the last few years. I thought it was time to officially reclaim
it. Are you hungry?”
“Famished,” he replies, his smile brightening even further.
“Dig in then.”
They eat in companionable silence, enjoying each other’s
presence – it’s Friday, they have the whole weekend ahead of them, and neither
of them are in any rush. The wind picks
up and Scully shivers, her hair blowing wildly in her face. Before Mulder has a chance to brush it aside,
she reaches into her bag and pulls out her old, big puffy winter jacket. Mulder laughs.
“I didn’t know you still had that!”
“I found it in one of the boxes at Mom’s. I thought bringing it over today would be
appropriate,” she smiles slyly at him.
“Oh, why is that?
Were you looking to recreate some of our early days tonight with
slightly different endings?” He leers at
her, leaning in closer.
Scully chuckles, kisses him chastely, then stands and walks
behind him. She wraps her arms around
his neck from behind and whispers seductively in his ear. “We could do something like that later, but I
had something else in mind when I left you that note.”
Mulder shivers, feeling his groin twitch and trying to
suppress the urge to turn and kiss her like their lives depended on it. 25
years and she still does this to me, he thinks. He feels her shift behind him and hears her
rooting around in her coat pocket.
“Close your eyes,” she whispers after kissing him behind the
ear. He obeys and feels her awkwardly
trying to put a pair of glasses on him.
She chuckles as she tries, then stands beside him as she positions them
better on his face. “OK, you can open
He opens his eyes, wondering briefly why she got him a pair
of sunglasses – she knows that he already owns several – when suddenly he
“What the hell?!?” He
scrambles up, looking around him, at the flowers, at the balloons, at the
trees, at the grass, the sky, at his beloved (and yes, godawful) tie. It’s so much to take in, it’s so…VIVID. He peeks under the glasses and then pushes
them back into place over and over again.
Scully smiles, enjoying his reaction. “I found out about these a little while ago
and decided to surprise you. I thought there
was no better way than to do this here, at our home, so that you could enjoy it
for the first time.”
Mulder looks over at her and sees… purple. And blue.
And pink. “Scully, did that jacket
always look like that?” She laughs as he
paws at it like it’s a unknown specimen.
He turns again to the flowers, seeing the vibrant shades of red, yellow,
orange, violet…..for the first time. He
never knew the trees were so…green. He
turns to Scully again and then freezes, his mouth gaping open and then closing
over and over again. Scully moves closer
to him, one hand holding his while the other caresses his face, wiping away a
tear that is slowly rolling down his cheek.
“Mulder, are you OK?
Should I have warned you first?
Is this too much?”
She nods, looking around at their surroundings. “I tried to bring as many different colours
as I could find. I even have some paint
swatches in my bag.” She begins to bend
down again before he stops her, shaking his head. She looks back up at him, the tear track
still glistening on his awed face.
“All these years…..God Scully…all..I….” he takes deep
breaths. She steps closer, wanting to
comfort him, not knowing that this moment would overwhelm him so much.
“Mulder it’s ok. You
can take them off if this is too much. I
shouldn’t have surprised you like that.
I should have…” she stops when he
shakes his head “no” earnestly.
“Scully, all these years and I never knew just how
devastatingly beautiful you were. …I
mean, I always knew you were so devastatingly beautiful but you’re so
VIBRANT. Your eyes are so BLUE. But your hair, your hair Scully…..I never
knew….” He runs his fingers through her
hair, marvelling at how the light glints off of it, making it seem alive with
colour. It’s gold, it’s red, it’s fire,
it’s … Scully.
They kiss, both of them emotional now. Mulder, slightly embarrassed, attempts to
diffuse the situation by asking her if she gave him this gift so that he would
be able to tell the difference between human and alien blood. Scully huffs a laugh, rolling her eyes,
quipping that she wants him to avoid as many hospital stays as possible.
Eventually, they sit back on their bench, wrapped up in each
other, Mulder pulling back every now and then to play with her hair. Eventually Scully looks to the horizon. She catches and squeezes Mulder’s fingers,
halting their thousandth progression through her hair.
“Mulder, look at the sky.
I want you to experience the sunset with me.”
He humors her, glancing at the light show in the sky and
agreeing that it’s amazing, but he can’t help his eyes being drawn back to her;
he kisses her forehead, and then rests his own there. “Nothing could
possibly compare to what I’m seeing now.”
They sit together on their bench long after Mars and Venus
appear in the sky.
Notes: I never liked
the whole red-green colour blindness being canon. I did think that this could be a way of
changing it. (If you’ve never seen it,
there are many videos on youtube of colourblind people being able to see colour
for the first time while wearing these special glasses. For example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TROCGz5qvmw and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJ6YV9-qxmg.) Please let me know what you thought! (@today-in-fic)
Please note that the author is not responsible for the
development of DM2 or cavities from the overload of sappy sweetness.
After they have developed roots and little plants, it’s time to pot them up…
I use a mix of 50% cactus mix and 50% volcanic gravel in wide shallow pots. When planting, I lay them at the edge of the pot so the parent leaf doesn’t touch the soil, and only the roots are touching their soil. They will work their way into the soil on their own :)
Usually I wait a day at least before watering newly planted props… it pays to be careful and only water the roots, and not let any water get on the parent leaf as they are prone to rot in the high humidity environment that young plants can thrive in.
Parent leaves will wither or rot on their own, there’s no real need to separate the babies forcefully. Sometimes they rot when the baby is only a few leaves big, but I’ve found that it’s ok to just leave them in mass prop pots and they might still grow, if very slowly.
Watering should be done more often than with adult succulents - don’t let the soil get bone dry, but don’t let it be soggy either. Constantly moist is good, with occasional deep waterings and opportunities to dry out a little more (let the top inch of soil dry out but not the whole pot).
Light should be bright shade-partial sun, no harsh direct noon sun but a few hours of morning/afternoon sun should be ok.
Different succulents grow at different speeds, some kalanchoes, graptopetalums and sedums can be fully grown in a matter of months, but most echeveria and others grow much more slowly ! I tend to separate the aforementioned three from the rest of the props, as they suck up water and grow roots very aggressively, crowding out the slower-growing plants.
That’s about it for how I propagate succulents with leaves ! Didn’t expect it to take so many posts, but I hope this helps :)
Be patient , good luck, and have fun growing your own lovely little forest of baby plants 🌱
Ok, imagine a universe where you can’t see things that are the colour of your soulmate’s eyes until you meet them and the first thing you see in that colour are their eyes.
So just imagine Magnus being so annoyed because of course he has had many mortal soulmates but right now he can’t see a lot of green and brown shades and then he meets Alec and looks into his hazel eyes and he gets his full vision back.
But then imagine Alec who cannot see dark brown shades which would be ok but he also can’t see orange/golden shades and that’s an unlikely combination. So when he meets Magnus he gets to see dark brown shades and it should be fine but there’s still the issue with the golden shades. He doesn’t tell Magnus about it though and one day when Magnus shows him his cat eyes he just starts laughing because that is a thing he hadn’t thought about but it made so much sense.
Cole Sprouse Talks "Riverdale" Season 2 and Archie and Jughead's "Bromance.
It seems that every episode of Riverdale comes complete with a fresh layer of drama — and at the heart of it all is Cole Sprouse, whose Jughead Jones serves as the show’s equally as dramatic narrator.
But season two of the hit series may bring problems even the sardonic Jughead can’t Truman Capote his way out of. Though Jughead’s voiceovers first served as a way to keep a smaller character in the series, his role in the mysteries that have consumed Riverdale has grown. Now with a Southside Serpents jacket on his back and a father facing charges for disposing Jason Blossom’s body in Sweetwater River, our boy Juggy needs to navigate Southside High — away from his best friends, who are all dealing with some major issues of their own.
By all accounts the industry veteran of the show’s core actors, Cole knows a thing or two about turning your life upside-down. After starring on the Disney Channel’s The Suite Life of Zack & Cody and later The Suite Life on Deck with his twin brother Dylan, he stepped away from acting, and attended New York University, where he picked up photography. And while he eventually stepped back in front of the camera — this time, with Jughead’s signature crown-shaped hat — he’s doing so with the knowledge that growing up famous can sometimes bring out your worst qualities. More than understanding them, he’s lived through them — and as season two of Riverdale continues Jughead’s journey into self-understanding, Cole Sprouse is still coming of age, too. Teen Vogue talked to Cole about exactly why he was attracted to Jughead’s pretentiousness in season one, and what is in store for the newly minted Southside Serpent when Riverdale returns on October 11. He also opened up about how this turn in the spotlight is different from his Suite Life years, and why social media separates this generation from their predecessors in the best way possible.
Teen Vogue: What initially drew you to Jughead?
Cole Sprouse: Jughead, to me, was reflective of a teen experience that made a lot of sense to me. He’s the narrator on the show, so that to me was interesting because anybody who thinks they can write about their own town with the people living side-by-side right next to him… that’s a super pretentious thing to think. And pretentiousness is kind of like the currency of the teenage experience. I think there’s something so human about that and so understandable about that, that Jughead became really interesting to me. He’s this character that strives for a kind of deepness in almost a cringe-y capacity, and that experience was really
TV: Do you feel like that pretension was a part of your growing up?
CS: That was definitely my experience. I mean, my brother and I were on a TV show for probably our entire teenage years, and we were also given this strange understanding that we had all this power. … When I was 15 or 16, it went right to my head, and it took a long time for me to get past that. And coupled alongside masculinity as a complex as well, and the arrogance inherent within that, it was easy to get lost within the power trip of it all.
I think for many teens, a fundamental fact of the teenage experience is that you’re in between this child-like state in which you’re told you’re completely unqualified for just about anything in the adult world, and this adult world where you’re being told you have to be responsible, and you’re just trying to figure out where you stand.
TV: You mentioned masculinity being a dynamic of the teenage experience, but on Riverdale, one of the best things about Jughead is his friendship with Archie, which is a really rare portrayal of teenage male friendship.
CS: It’s interesting, too, that “bromance” has been the word thrown around [for] it. To me, I mean, it has the word romance in it, which is inherently a sexualizing thing. I think the truth about male friendship is often left out of the media, and it’s that it has a million different shades, because masculinity has a million different forms.
I love the way Archie and Jughead’s relationship is portrayed: It’s very understanding, and there’s open communication. KJ and I are both in places of our lives where we feel very comfortable with who we are and our friendship. I think our show deals with that kind of dialogue really well. Male-to-male friendships, whether sexual or not, have so many different forms. [They’re] so multi-faceted … and I think that the show does a really great job with showing something that’s not so stereotypical and making it something that’s OK and understood and fun and interesting to watch.
TV: You’ve already spent your teenage years on television, and now you’re an adult playing a teenager on TV. Has that been jarring in any way?
CS: I think those aspects of ourselves always exist. I think the teenage sides of myself have informed my adult self. I think it allows me, as an older actor, to be able to look at myself in a more objective light as a teen, and go, “this is how I was.” I’m not trying to paint with a wide brush and say “all teen experiences are like this,” but I can pull from my own experience and try and put that on screen. As long as I stay looking young, I guess that will continue!
TV: So — Jughead season two spoilers, please!
CS: Jughead ends up joining the Serpents and he gets wrapped up in this world that forces his hand, forces him to play the game — which is something in season one he had a real aversion to. He ends up getting into a lot of trouble because of it. … He ends up a bit more of a damaged kid. He’s a lot angrier than he was in season one. He ends up coming off as kind of a … not necessarily to say a bad boy, but way more angry, which I also think is a fundamentally key experience. He gets himself into a lot of trouble because of his loyalty and honor to his family and friends, and it begins to make him question where his allegiance lies and what that means for his character — if it means stepping back again or if it means putting a foot back in.
One of the dilemmas he had in season one was, “how do I re-include myself back into this group of friends I felt very disenfranchised from?” Season two is him experiencing the repercussions of being close to people.
TV: Is it a matter of him going to the dark side, or him having his heart in the right place, but getting drawn into messier and messier situations?
CS: Definitely the latter. I think the dark side doesn’t fully come in as an idea. The core dilemma is often associated with crime. … and I think the idea that Jughead could even be getting mixed up in that, even though he’s always come from a good place, it’s more of a commentary about this society [in Riverdale] — his living there and the suite of issues that he’s been handed.
TV: How have you personally changed from season one to season two?
CS: I think I’m slowly but surely getting used to being on a successful show again. I mean, when we take a project like this, we work really hard to try and create a discussion around our show that’s successful, and we want our show to be successful without fully comprehending how that will impact our lives on a day-to-day basis. I came back into acting kind of in a spur-of-the-moment decision, and it’s been me trying to figure out if I still enjoy it or not.
I’m in a position now — and I’m very thankful for it — where I have the opportunity to choose and stay on projects that I enjoy from the bottom of my heart that fulfill me. And I’ll be honest in saying that I forgot how fame affects me as a human and how it has the capacity to affect anybody in the spotlight. I guess the way I’ve changed is I’ve tried to exercise a bit more meditation on the concept as a whole without letting it get to any of the work on set. I’m trying to become more patient.
TV: What’s the best thing about this generation growing up today?
CS: I think the best thing about teens growing up today is how connected we are with other teens around the world. The differences in human experiences are a much more understandable thing now, because of social media and the internet in the information age. I’m a firm believer that racism and bigotry of any kind, whether it’s homophobia or xenophobia or anything, is truly the product of a hate borne of unknowing and not being exposed to people who live different lives than you. Social media has the potential to truly reduce and destroy those concepts that pushed us apart — that’s the glory of the teenage experience right now.
live action dc comic movies: good & classic characters brought down by horrible writing, looks good but too many plot holes, some actors were bad choices for the characters, okay at first but starts to not make any sense when u drive home and think about it
lego batman movie: god tier, beautiful, outstanding, spectacular, funny and has the campiness of the 60s batman tv show but still has an overarching serious tone that batman should have, amazing and animated well, simply beautiful
ok but brown eyes are actually so lovely?? like there are so many different shades and depths to the color brown and it’s such a huge spectrum and just the way the light reflects off ur irises is so nice for example:
and maybe u have super rich brown eyes that look like melted chocolate:
or maybe u have eyes the color of the deserts and sand dunes from the books u read when u were young:
or the same flaming orange as a sunset or the sunflowers from ur neighbor’s garden:
and maybe u have eyes that look almost yellow, like sunshine, a little burst of bright happiness on a cloudy day:
and maybe ur eyes are so dark they’re almost black, so deep that people get lost inside and write poems all about how ur eyes drank their soul down like water:
or maybe u have hazel eyes with all different colors and ur worried that makes u weird or strange-looking, but actually it just makes u that much more beautiful because ur eye color is all ur own:
in conclusion: ur eyes are so beautiful and perfect little galaxies made just for u, please appreciate them.
A/n - Ok awesome followers, here by popular demand is part 2 of the fifty shades awkward as so many of you requested. Inbox me and let me know which way to go (it will be clear what i’m asking after you read part 2).
when doing a drawing like this i essentially pick a base color, add basic cell shading and then i start blending and add a darker rim for the shadow and then inside the shadow i put a reflective light such as blue or pink but in this case ur gonna see a lot of blue for this drawing
like right here u can see that i did the base shadow, the pink at the top, then i rimmed it with a darker shadow like the purple and then i did reflective light with all the blue
im sorry its kinda hard to explain but i hope this makes sense
u can prob tell more of what i mean wit this one bc its clear wit a lot less blending where i shaded darker and put blue lights in
someone asked about my process, so here’s how that last Cullen came to be. when i’m working in SAI, i work on one layer, and when i hit a point where i think it’s hanging together ok, i copy the layer and continue working, so that if i flub it up completely i can revert back to a previous layer copy instead of scrambling to fix it, which… as many of us know, can be a headache.
anyway, once things are almost done i usually do an extra layer for shading, another for colour tweaks, and another for bg or w/e? i keep beards and stubble on an additional layer too, in case i change my mind.
(tags are in order with the comic. so read the right paragraph!)
@herrmann thank you for being such a great friend to me! And honestly you were the first friend i ever made on tumblr. Your art is and always will be amazing. And i know you’ll improve and gain more followers! Thank you for encouraging me and talking to me. I hope you know how much i care and adore you. I hope you enjoy your day.
@outertaletrash oh my gosh sis. You have been here for me for so long. Your blog popped up and was my favorite Frans blog i ever found. Your art style is so cool and cute. I love how we both love Undertale. And who knew you were gonna be one of my best friends? You are so dear to me, don’t ever forget how much i love you. Thank you for being with this nugget(me) every day. XD I hope you have a joyful day.
@burebu-luxiu hey buddy! Thanks for talking with me and being there when im bored. XD You are a great friend and your art is just amazing. I know you love drawing and your so passionate for it. I know your gonna get better and better, buddy. Hope you know when we have our little chats, i feel better knowing your there and talking to me. Not everyone is willing to chat with me. Hope you know i care about you! Have a wonderful day.
@sanspar you are just a funny bean. You know that? You make some of the best art out there. I may not know you personally, but i know your a wonderful person. And that you always try your hardest. Thank you for posting tons of awesome art and entertaining many of us. You always make our day. If your feeling down or needing of a break, you don’t always need to post. We know you have a life, and want some free time. I hope you know we all love and care for you as a person. And not just a artist. I am hoping you will be happy always, and that you still love Undertale. XD I really hope your day will be well.
@glitteryandpeachy you are so cute and kind! Your art is so cute and well drawn! Oh my gosh I don’t think i’ll ever be that good! XD No seriously though, your so talented and special. You seem so kind to us, your followers, and I’m happy I got to know your blog. We may not really know each other. But can i say I still love you?( not romantically, don’t worry) Your so sweet, and all you drew so far is a masterpiece. I hope you know you make me and others happy to see your art. X3 May your day is filled with joy.
@nekophy YOU. Are by far the most joyful blog i have ever seen. Your always saying something kind about someone else’s work. You really make people’s day. And I gotta say, we all love your little Goth. How did you come up with such a cute little bean? I’m sure you know how amazing you are. And if you don’t. Please know that there are so many who love you and your work. May you have a lovely day.
@sichounlee aka Daystream, wassup bro. You are such a great addition to my life. Thanks for chatting with me for the longest of times. XD I know you go through hard times and all. But please know there are people who love and care for you. I hope you see this, and remember all the good times you ever had. Hope you have a fantastic day bro.
@owosa you are such a great artist. Your cute art style and comics are beyond what i can do. I love all the wonderful art you draw, and hope you know others do as well. You are a great inspiration, and I hope I’ll get to your level of skill one day. And I love that you stream! It’s always fun to watch you and others draw. X3 You make sure you know people love ya, ok? Remember that. May you have a glorious day Senpai.
@imjustalazycat you have also been an amazing friend. When I first started chatting with you, it was fun getting to know you. XD I still do now of course. Also all the artwork you draw is simply amazing! I don’t know how you get all that shading done in black and white. XP The story is really interesting as well. You got so many people hooked into your work. Man, with all the work you did, you deserve so much happiness and love. Hope I don’t bother you while you sleep.(lol the picture above) Also, remember we love you and your work! Stay determined, and make sure to be happy! The chats we had are really fun, and hope we can have more. I wish you a wonderful day buddy!
@cursetale hey there! Your work is just simply splendid! The au’s you made are also really cool! I know we don’t know each other, but i wish you an amazing life. You work so hard, and draw so wonderfully. How do you have the time to do it? Well no matter how you do it, your skills say you are talented. I hope you know that you bring joy and laughter to us, your followers and friends, with your work. By the way, making sure to say this I love all that you do. (also i drew Dre, because i don’t know what your sona is. ;-;) Have a fabulous day!
@alldrawnup wow. You draw amazingly well. I can’t describe how good you are at it. You draw digitally and on paper. It goes beyond anything I could ever do. Just letting you know, your loved and cared for by your friends, family and your followers( cough and me cough) Lol I am one of your followers. Also I’m excited for my key chain! How did you do it!? It looks so well drawn! I’m glad I was introduced to your blog. I hope your day turns out great!
@willowpower123 eyyyyyy, hey wassup friend? You are a great friend to have, Cat. I hope you know that you make me happy talking to you. And giving me info on your life and day and etc…(she my irl friend) Also for giving me info on the best thing I’ve encountered… UNDERTALE!!! If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have been able to see so many talented artists! Thank you so much for being an awesome friend, and giving me a new reason to live. lol Hope your day is swell, buddy.
@heavenfell-au and @huntertale-au you two are the one of the cutest couples out there~ Both your artwork and stories are amazing. Hunter, I know yours is still coming along, but I love it so far already. <3 And Heavenfell, “Their Wings” MMM!!! Such a great story! All the grammar and story are just simply amazing! Every chapter is very interesting! And man, you two are just two stars from the same sky. I love all the talk you two post of each other. Brings a blush and giggle out of me. Actually you both make me giggle, some of the posts you guys do are just simply hilarious! Make sure you guys remember you are loved and cared for. We wish you two a happy life, and blessed time together. Hope you two are having a wonderful day, and stay DETERMINED!!!
@hiimtryingtounderfell you are one of the first artists i have encountered. Honestly, I first saw your comic on Youtube. And I was so, as you say, surprised. Amazed, you got so much done. And it all looked so well drawn. The story was very interesting, and I wanted to see who made it. Your very talented, and determined to be doing such a long comic. I really hope Undertale stays in your heart. And if not, remember you got someone else’s heart. <3 Lol the pink ones I threw at you. X3( in the picture above) Remember you are very special and that people love you. May you have a very edgy day! >:3 kidding. Have a bright and happy day, Senpai.
@blogthegreatrouge Now…. YOU. Because of you I got tumblr. I was just so into your blog, and it was all very interesting! To know so many fandoms, introduced to many new blogs and your art style. YASS!!! Your art style is very fine indeed! Even the small sketches you do are far better than my shaded in canvas trash. Make sure you know you are loved. And know you were my first tumblr inspiration. Everyone and I love your work and your humor. May you have a great day.
There are many other Senpai’s I really do admire. But i just don’t have the time to draw you all… IMMA TAG YOU ALL ANYWAYS!!! NYEHEHEHEH!!!!
Also to all my followers! Thank you for being there for me! Without you, I probably would have given up! Make sure to know I love you all! And that you give me so much to do. Also shout out to @zoulubu who gave me the kindest words I heard from any of my other followers. Thanks to you buddy! May you all have a wonderful and magical day!!!
Note: I wrote about something that been in my heart because this week has been really hard for me. It has eating disorder mentions and I am in no way shape or form condoning it. I am not saying that Bill or any guy can fix the way I am. Also, if you’re struggling with an eating disorder seek help.
You had therapy today but you decided to skip it. Everything seemed to be a lot harder for you in the winter, you were definitely at your worst.
“ Do you think you could try today?” he asked. You could see the anxiety in his eyes. He’s been on edge ever since you’ve been getting worse.
“ I’ll try eating breakfast,” you said. It was an empty promise and you know you wouldn’t do it. It was like you couldn’t even control your own thoughts, anorexia was in control. It was like your eating disorder was another part of your personality completely.
There would always be plain old you, who laughed at awful puns, and then there was a darker side of you that didn’t deserve to breathe. You could never constrain the darker parts of your personality and you let it take control. It engulfed your thoughts and sleeping pattern and you wouldn’t be the same.
“ What are you making?” you looked out the window at the graceful snowfall.
“ Eggs.” You gulped, there were 92 calories in a fried egg. You imagined having to do more than 120 sit-ups after you ate it to stay afloat, but you felt weak and tired today.
“ I know it’s hard,” he whispered. You didn’t maintain eye contact with him and didn’t want to think about how he felt. You started folding the napkins on the table to keep from crying.
You smiled,“ I know what I’m doing.” Your therapist had told you about something called the illusory truth effect, repetition creates the truth in your mind. How many times have you lied to yourself?
“ My love, I have something to tell you.” He probably wanted to break up with you, you’ve imagined this a thousand times.
“ Go ahead.” The sky was thick and dark with clouds as the snow fell. You always wished to have the snow engulf your whole body.
“ You told me you were scared to losing control,” he recalled, putting butter into a pan. You nodded and rested your hand on your chin. You were not in the mood for this.
“ I think that you’re beautiful. You always cut me off when I say this, but you truly are,” he explained.
“ Shut up,” you grumbled. The best part was how people thought they could fix everything with kind words.
He looked hurt,” I don’t understand everything that you’re going through. But I think that you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for.
You shrugged,“ I don’t really have anything to say.” You shifted uncomfortably in your chair and looked at the ugly striped kitchen wallpaper.
He mixed the eggs in the measuring cup. You remembered your first date with him two years ago, the county fair. He made you feel dizzy with infatuation and you were full of all the empty calories. You were happier then, and so was he.
” I know you’ve been writing poetry about food,“ he revealed. You rolled your eyes, of course, he did.
” That means nothing,“ you snapped.
” I know it’s your muse right now. But baby, you deserve more than being tormented.“ He was absolutely correct but you didn’t want to admit it.
” I’m tired of talking about this,“ you whispered. His green eyes were filled with so much sorrow when he looked at you that it broke you.
” Green tea and three saltiness isn’t a meal,“ he exclaimed. Your cheeks turned a rosy shade of red.
” Ok, Bill.“
” You have so much talent and so much to offer this fucking world,“ he explained.
You shook your head, ” I’m a failed poet.“
He turned off the fire and slid the eggs onto a ceramic plate.
” You’re a New York Times bestseller,“ he said incredulously. It was amazing how many times you had the same fight.
” You have to stop trying,“ you sighed.
” You have to get better on your own because I can only keep this up for so long.“ He shook his head and turned on the hot water. It felt like you had tried to dry swallow a pill.
” I- I know this,“ you stuttered. You couldn’t escape the feeling that you were a disappointment to everyone around you.
” I love you,“ he said. ” I want to see you content and healthy.“ It hurt because you know he wanted to see you succeed.
” I love you more and I’ll do better for you.“
“No,” he interjected. “ Be better for yourself. You watched the snowfall again and wished you could rewind the hands of time.
” Don’t forget, I’m always on your side,“ he said softly. He was eating his eggs standing up and you felt bad.
” Come sit,“ you demanded. He brought his plate and sat across from you.
” One day, you’ll look back on this time and remember that you survived,“ he explained.
” It will be hard to get there, but yeah.“
He smiled,"You can do it, you’re a resilient person.”
i recently read a ff where jk is famous and jm is a fan and last night i was thinking about how cute it would also be if it was the other way around (jk going to a fanmeeting and being nervous and shy when he meets jm and jm being really cute and nice to him) and i kinda need you to write about this please
“You’re going to chew your fingers off at this rate.” Seokjin says in amusement as Jungkook keeps nibbling on his finger nails.
“H-How can I not?” Jungkook says as his hands go down to play with his camera, “I’m going to see Jimin Hyung…”
Jungkook blushes as he imagines finally seeing Park Jimin, Angel voice and amazing dance fairy in person. Jungkook was living in American during Jimin’s debut and Jungkook cries over the miss opportunity to see him. Now 2 years later Jungkook is sitting in a fan meeting with waiting to see Park Jimin.
“You’re so cute.” Seokjin, his cousin, coos and pats his head. Jungkook pouts at him and before he can reapond the lights flicker and Jimin suddenly appears on stage. Jungkook gasps as he freezes. How can a human be so beautiful?
“Morning everyone!” Jimin says with a smile, “did you all wait long?”
“No!” Jungkook and the crowd reapond’s. Seokjin chuckles at how enchanted Jungkook is with Jimin. The elder sneaks Jungkook’s camera away so he can take pictures for his cousin.
The fan meeting goes smoothly for the most part. Jimin is charming and makes everyone laugh. Soon the high touch starts and Jungkook feels himself sweating.
“Go on.” Seokjin says handing Jungkook Jimin’s album to get sign. “Tell him how much you love him.” Jungkook blushes as he moves away from Seokjin who laughs. Jungkook soon finds himself next in line to see Jimin.
Again, how is someone so beautiful!?
Jungkook is shaking when he gets on his knees in front of the table Jimin is sitting at. Jimin smiles fondly at him and Jungkook swallows painfully.
“Hello, you’re new.” Jimin says softly as he takes Jungkook’s album and Jungkook freezes when Jimin’s soft fingers brush against his. “W hats your name?”
“Jeon…Jungkook.” Jungkook whispers as his cheeks go bright red. Jimin smile brightens as his pen touches the album page.
“Cutie Jeon Jungkook.” Jimin sighs happily as he signs the page before handing it back to Jungkook. “Come visit me again ok cutie?”
Jungkook eyes widen as his mind goes blank. Jimin looks heavenly in the lighting and voice is like velvet and he is calling him a cutie and so many emotions are going through him and Jimin is smiling at him and he just can’t!
“I love you!” Jungkook declares before he can stop it. Jimin looks a little shock by the sudden outburst before he starts giggling cutely. Jungkook face darkens to the shade of a lipstick while Jimin can’t stop giggling.
“Seriously, you’re way to cute.” Jimin leans forward as he pets Jungkook’s hair. “Come and confess to me again, ok?” Jungkook nods dumbly before staff shoos him away.
Jungkook hugs his album to his chest as he goes back to his seat. Jungkook watches as Jimin entertains other fans as his mind trys realize what happen. Seokjin takes pictures of his cousin who looks dumbfounded.
Jimin announces that the fan meeting is over 15 minutes later but doesn’t leave with out shooting Jungkook a wink. Jungkook blushes and Seokjin pats his back while laughing.