this is so bad i forget how to do stuff

"What's the most fucked up thing you've ever seen?"

My brother asked me that question tonight while we were out having drinks.

And I’m not mad or upset with him. He doesn’t know. None of my family knows. He doesn’t know that’s not a question that you ask someone in EMS/the medical field.

And yes, I am literally a brand new paramedic. Before that though, I was a Navy Corpsman (no combat experience), and during my paramedic rotations/internship, I did see some stuff that still sticks with me.

So I told him a relatively easy one. A 17 year old who jumped off an 8 story building. It was tragic. He died. Whatever. That’s not that bad.
I also told him about how one time I was doing CPR on a man in cardiac arrest, and when I looked up I locked eyes with his daughter as she watched us from the front seat of the ambulance. The look in her eyes, I’ll never forget that.

What I didn’t tell him was about the four year old with cancer I saw while in the Navy. How his mother sadly wiped the green sputum he kept coughing up with a face that screamed “my child is dying and I can’t stop it”.
Or how we found a man who had been dead for at least a day, and how I stood there as my preceptor explained to the family that their loved one was dead.

Ever since he asked me that, I’ve been thinking about those calls, and others, that have stuck with me.

And I’ve done my equal best to process those emotions, deal with them, and then file those horrible experiences away in my mind to a place where I don’t have to think about them.
But not tonight.

“What’s the worst thing you’ve seen?”
That’s a question better left unanswered. Or rather, better left unasked.


pairing: shawn x reader

summary: after spending the night together at shawn’s apartment in downtown toronto, y/n was surprised when she found out that cute boy she met was actually her new teacher

words: 661

a/n: hi!! i know i said i was going to post a long time ago, but life just got in the way but i’m back! this is my first time writing something and i know it’s so, so, so bad and i truly apologize for it!! anyways, enjoy and don’t forget to leave some feedback if you wanna and hit me up anytime!!

part two

no one in this room had any idea of what happened almost two months ago. he was just another teacher, and she was just another person in the crowd.

the seventeen other people in the class had their minds on finishing the class work mr.mendes had asked them to do, but y/n and shawn couldn’t stop looking at each other. still wondering how this could possibly be happening.

a few minutes later, the bell rang. y/n quickly gathered her stuff, ready to leave the room when a voice called for her and asked her to stay. it would’ve been rude to decline his offer. so when there were only two people left between the four walls, shawn locked the door and walked over to her.

“y/n? is that really you?” he asked, looking for an answer in her eyes.

“yeah, i-i guess. since when do you work here?”

“it’s my first year. i-i had no clue you studied here, it’s just-”

“it’s okay. you didn’t know. neither of us did.”

after that, the air between them became silent, and awfully uncomfortable.

“i think it’s better, for the both of us, to forget what happened that night. we were drunk, and we shouldn’t have done that.” she looked down to her shoes, afraid to make eye contact with him. like he had some power over her. but at the same time, she couldn’t stop thinking about his hands. how and where he touched her like no one else has ever done.

her comment made his heart break a little. he had spent days, weeks, and even sleepless nights thinking about her. her, her, her, and her. but as the adult between the two, he knew he had to make the right decision.

“yeah. it didn’t mean anything. i am your teacher now, and it’s better if we forget about the past.”

oh, how beautiful those lies sounded coming from his pretty pink lips. the very same ones she couldn’t stop obsessing over.

a few uneventful weeks had gone by, and it seemed as if everything had gone back to normal. it has been already three months and two weeks since that night at downtown toronto. but it still crept every now and then at the back of shawn and y/n’s heads.

one warm thursday afternoon, y/n visited shawn’s classroom in hopes of getting some help in the topic they were seeing this week. nothing more, nothing less.

shawn was focused in the screen in front of him, trying to read and check ten 500-word essays in less than fifteen minutes. without a doubt, he failed miserably; noticing how those fifteen minutes turned into forty-three.

two knocks on the door distracted him from the work he was starting to get annoyed with. “come in,” he said, tiredness evident in his voice.

the door opened slowly, a teenage girl coming out of the big wooden rectangle. shawn’s eyes lit up once he saw her smile at him while she walked over to him, the door returning to its previous position.

“hi, mr.mendes. i hope i’m not interrupting something,” she told him, a smile plastered on her face.

“no, no. you’re fine. is there something i can help you with?”

“yeah, actually. i’m just having some trouble with this week’s topic.”

and so an hour went by, their bodies were way too close and shawn’s hands often explored her inner thighs and lower back, sometimes his hand sneaked way too low. but she didn’t even bother to take them away, his touches made her feel calm for the first time in weeks.

before they even noticed, the clock above the door marked 5:30 p.m. they decided it was time to say goodbye and agreed to do the same thing tomorrow.

but before y/n walked out the door, “wait, y/n,” shawn said, grabbing her wrist, her face meeting his stunning features before shawn crashed his hungry lips on hers.

Forever | 22: Exposed

Summary: You and Sebastian Stan became best friends years ago, on the set of the first Captain America movie, and you couldn’t be happier that you had found someone just as witty and caring as you - but will feelings wiggle their way in and get in between your friendship and happiness?

Word Count: 1337

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Reader

Warnings: (Throughout) Language, Gun Violence, Angst

Characters (in order of appearance): Reader, Anthony Mackie, Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans

A/N: Only 3 chapters left!!!! I’m gonna cry when this fic ends, but I hope y’all enjoy!!! Reader’s POV; flash backs indicated/separated by date, in order from oldest to most recent; // - indicates break in time in same flashback; ALSO PD means present day but y’all smart anyways please read and enjoy!!!


Forever | 21 // Forever | 23

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This was the shittiest finale ever and I have 1 million questions


Unanswered questions:
- What was the point of Yousef leaving?
- Who did Elias meet?
- Why was he drunk?
- why did Yousef kiss Noora?
- What happened between him and Even?

Bad stuff ( almost the whole clip )
don’t get me started on Mohnstad like wtf I am so disappointed.
- What the fuck
- Wtf
- w t f
- ????????
- what is the point
- of Building up a beautiful relationship for several years and then have it destroyed in seconds
- Emma x Chris ???????
- I don’t want this shit
- Why is Eva back with Jonas she literally had nothing to do with him until last week since Season 3
- also did you forget how toxic this relationship was

I am going to pretend that Yousana got their happy ending in Episode 9 and that the last 3 weeks never happened for Mohnstad and anyone else!

Because you know what I’d rather have my beautiful otp in the background doing their thing than THIS
This is fucking bullshit and god I have no words anymore


Good parts:
- Jonas speech , Skam coming to full circle : That was so beautiful and that is one of the few good things
Also Jonas has so much Potential
- Chris x Vilde: they are so pure i cried a lot
- Y O U S A N A
- Willhelm moving in at kollektiv
- Balloon squad on point as always

That’s it. So disappointed. No words. Adios I’m out.

October 2017 Photo Technique Digitial - Furihata Ai Interview

TL: Hoji

QC: Ramen, KuuRin

The location of today’s photoshoot is at Seibuen Amusement Park. Have you been to amusement parks privately before?

I used to frequently visit places like the gardens or Disneyland, but I haven’t visited these places recently. I finally got the chance to visit amusement parks again! It’s also my first time in Seibuen Amusement Park, so I am really happy. There is a swimming pool here, and the location is also very close to Seibu Dome!

Let’s put aside the live concert in Seibu Prince Dome on September 29 & 30… and focus on the outfits! In this photoshoot, the outfits used are the summer school uniforms from “Love Live! Sunshine!!” and the stage outfit for the song “Yume de Yozora wo Terashitai”. Furihata-san chose the yukata and the popular retro style attire herself.

I like all of the outfits mentioned very much. I wanted to change the colour and the impression from the last cover (April 2017), so I chose a retro style attire that has some casual feel to it.

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mishfortunes  asked:

Just out of curiosity, what did you hate (at the time) about 8x23? x

All thanks to @k-vichan :)

I HATED the codependency, how Sam was (imo) written as a bit of a dick all season, especially re: Benny but generally re:Dean (and obv that was the point I recognise!) but then how in the end it’s so freakingly, negatively, toxically codependent and how they decide not to shut the gates of hell cos it’ll kill Sam, even though he sacrificed himself in s5 to save the world, he’s had a flip of character in a negative way and it sucks?!!! Dragging Dean down with him too? Cas meanwhile also reverts back to old form in putting duty first before his desires / wants and family? And it all ends terribly for them all?

How then in 9x01 we get Dream!Dean telling Sam that there’s nothing he’d put before Sam (which isn’t real Dean, it’s Gadreel or even Sam’s own brain if anything! So I find it kinda hilarious that people use this as evidence for Dean loving Sam like it’s a good thing - it’s purposefully framed as TOXIC and it isn’t even Dean, when there so much canon to show he does love him elsewhere? same as the soulmates thing, it’s purposefully framed that they’re NOT soulmates but love each other deeply despite this, that’s the point! Anyway…) - so this is all SUPPOSED to expose the toxic codependency as a BAD thing cos it then leads to Sam nearly dying, the Gadreel arc, Kevin, metatron, the angels falling etc….

But the first time I watched as a casual viewer I was just so angry! Like why are my favourite characters who I love all acting so OFF? Why are they doing things that are so against where they were growing towards? Why are they regressing to negative last actions and emotions?!!

I understand now that of course it’s a part of the point of it, to EXPOSE these as negative to then invert them in order to be happy.

Which is why I do get kinda irritated when I see others shouting in season 12 that a character is badly written as OOC (like Dean riding Larry) or that writers don’t know canon when they are regressing in this way (12x14 Dean x cleanliness) or doing something that seems a little different to usual or that affects our core characters negatively (i.e. Mary) and they just want to hate it without delving deeper as to WHY when meta writers consistently say that this is on purpose and for a point - because that’s exactly what I thought in 8x23 - that Sam was written quite OOC all season in his jealousy/being a dick and then the climax of this in 8x23 - being selfish, enforcing the toxic codependency again and Dean of course in all this is a mess as well….

Because all this was to lead to this being subverted and it WAS in season 9-11! And now the toxic codependency is lifted like a great weight of all their shoulders. Hallelujah!

So yeah now when I see something seemingly OOC or if someone seems unlike themselves or like their old self way back when and it is clearly affecting them negatively (the most obvious being a death) I think WHY - might it be precisely to expose this as bad? In order for them to move forwards? Wasn’t that 4x22 and 8x23 for Sam? Wasnt that the Mark and Demon era for Dean? (And imo seasons 11/12 and particularly 12x19 and 12x23 for Cas?).

There’s a reason why it happens and now I understand I love it because the bad leads to the good - because the writers aren’t dicks, they don’t want to hurt us and the characters, they want the characters to evolve into what they’ve been written for over a decade to become and it’s just a case of seeing how they do it.

With a TV show this long it’s inevitable that people forget earlier stuff so they have to go over it again and make it more obvious hence the regressions before the big climax (that’s why some people are annoyed with Baelish’s story in GoT because they didn’t really give us a reason to remember what he’d done in the first season by the time it got to the last finale) - it’s just easier to get that emotional tug when you remind people and doing it in this way with a final regression / exposition of the bad side before they throw it off for GOOD really works, it’s used so often!.

advice for high school freshmen

I see a lot of advice posts for college freshmen, so here’s one for people starting high school. (Feel free to add stuff.)

  • BUY. EXTRA. PENS. AND. PENCILS. You may think 30 pencils and 10 pens is plenty. To that, I say, “Ha!”
  • SparkNotes is your new best friend, especially if you’re not good at English. However, teachers CAN tell if you didn’t read the book, so at least skim it.
  • You may not have anyone to eat lunch with at first. That’s alright! Try to find someone you have a class with, preferably someone that looks as terrified as you.
  • If you ride the schoolbus – a book and/or an iPod will be your savior, especially if there are a lot of annoying fuckboys on the bus. Trust me.
  • If you’re 14/15, and there’s a 17/18 year old hitting on you, something’s very wrong. Be cautious, and stick to people your own age.
  • People will find a reason to tease you no matter what you do, so fuck ‘em. You may as well do what makes you happy.
  • If you do something bad and get caught, just own up to it and apologize. The punishment will probably be a lot lighter.
  • If you’re like me, you’ll probably write stuff down in your planner, and then forget to check your planner. I recommend writing stuff down on your arm, or writing it down on a piece of paper and leaving said piece of paper in a place you know you’ll look later – i.e., shut inside a book or your wallet.
  • Girls: if he reduces you to your body or how many people you have (or haven’t) slept with, he’s not worth your time. 
  • Boys: don’t do that. And call out your friends for doing it. Change starts with you!
  • If you want to have sex, that’s your choice, but please, PLEASE be safe and be informed. Make sure you’re educated on safe sex and birth control.
  • If you DON’T want to have sex, that’s okay! You’re not less mature. If you’re not ready (or are just not interested in sex at all), that’s fine. You do you.
  • DO. NOT. TAKE. NUDES. That shit is illegal. Wait ‘til you’re 18, people!
  • Be polite to your teachers. They have enough shit to deal with. And besides, making friends with them means they’ll help you out, and be much easier to approach for help.
  • After you get your core classes, you’ll have some electives. Pick your classes based on what interests you, not where your friends are going. You may make new friends in the class, and even if you don’t, you can still have fun studying something you think is cool.
  • The sex ed is going to suck and likely be inaccurate. I’m sorry.
  • Google is your friend.
  • Eat breakfast every day if you can possibly swing it. 
  • Clubs and extracurricular activities are a lot of fun, and great for college applications, but don’t overwork yourself or get burned out. Clubs are supposed to be fun!
  • Please don’t tease people. Be kind. 
  • There probably won’t be a Regina George-like head of the school. Some people may be mean, but most of them are kids with their own issues. 
  • With that in mind, your crush is human, too. They’re probably just as scared to talk to people as you are.
  • Dances are fun for a lot of people, but they’re not everyone’s bag. If you don’t like them, that’s okay!
  • At this point in your life, you may realize (or may have already started to realize) that you’re not straight or cis. YOU ARE NORMAL, VALID, AND BEAUTIFUL no matter what anyone else says. If your school has a gay/straight alliance, maybe check that out, or reach out to other LGBT+ alliances in your area. If all else fails, the internet. You are not alone. You are never alone.
  • Shower and use deodorant. Trust me.
  • No one is inherently superior to anyone else because of their interests, clothes, intelligence, grades, or background. Don’t be a douchebag.
  • If you’re like me, a gifted child now evolving into an average teen and young adult, PLEASE take the steps to preserving your mental health that I didn’t. Talk to your parents or a teacher you trust if you feel like you’re doing too much. Remember that your grades don’t define you, and one failed test won’t be the end of the world. Don’t reduces yourself to an essay or a standardized test. Please, spare yourself the nervous breakdown.
  • Getting your heart broken is going to blow, but it happens to almost everyone. 
  • These likely WON’T be the best four years of your life, but that doesn’t mean you can’t make them great.
  • And, if nothing else, I can pretty much guarantee that this will suck less than middle school.

anonymous asked:

Do you know of any sigils or chants that will call a lost love back to you, or a make them contact you?

Hello, anon! Here are a few ideas for you:

Sweet Sugar Powder (doesn’t include a chant, but I like it because powders are easy and fun and did I mention easy)

  • Grind bay leaves, cinnamon, lavender, and star anise together and then blend the resulting powder with an equal amount of powdered sugar.
  • If they left behind personal belongings, especially clothing, sprinkle the powder over them, ideally onto socks, underwear, or intimate apparel.
  • If they removed all their belongings, then write a sweet, conciliatory love note, adding some of the sugar powder to the envelope before you seal it, and mail or otherwise deliver it to your beloved. 

A Spell for Those Who Change Their Minds

You will need:

  • A red candle
  • A handful of dried beans
  • A small, heat resistant bowl

Before you light the candle, recall how happy you and your ex-partner once were, and when you are full of a warm, nostalgic glow for the way you were, light the candle and see in its flame the feelings you and the other person had for each other. Clasp the beans in your hand and see them being filled with those feelings. Now put them in the bowl and move it clockwise above the flame (taking care not to burn yourself), seeing the beans as the catalyst that will bring you and your lover back together. As you do this, say these or similar words:
Love that was, please be recovered.
Let us be what we were to one another.
And let it be done, that it harm no one.
Later, take the beans and put them on the ground in a place that you know he or she walks regularly. 

To Beckon a Person

This is a very simple method of putting out a vibration which, if a relationship has a chance of succeeding, will make the other person aware of you. It does not force the other person to do anything, but simply paves the way.

Say the following:
Know I move to you
as you move to me.
As I think of you, 
Think also of me. 
As I call your name,
Call me to you.
Come to me in love. 

Say the person’s name three times. 
You may need to recite the whole spell several times in order to feel the proper effect. You may also need to remember that a loving friend is just as important as a friendly lover. 

Making Up

Items Needed:

  • Two Pink Candles
  • An egg

Even between the closest people, bad feelings can occur. This spell is designed to bring harmony back into the relationship and the home.

Set up a small altar and place on it two pink candles with an egg in between. Light the candles and say this prayer:

Great spirits, hear my prayer. Let all broken fences be mended and hearts be whole again. May all anger be dispelled and peace reign between (name) and myself. From this moment on, I banish all bad thoughts from my head and instead send only tidings of love and blessings.

Visualise the other person sitting on the opposite side of the altar, between the candles. Hold the egg up at arm’s length and at heart level. Imagine dark clouds coming out from both you and the other person. These represent the bad feelings between the both of you. See the clouds floating towards the egg and being absorbed by it. When you feel the everything has been taken in, put the egg down. Now “see” a pink mist coming from your heart and enveloping the other person in a cloud of love. Mentally bless them with love, health, and happiness. You will know by the happiness you feel in your own heart when this has been done. Blow out the candles and bury the egg in earth. (I’ve done this one in the past and the person I was thinking of contacted me that night.)

Come Back Sigil

Here’s a sigil I drew up that hopefully conveys your intent. I chose phrasing that is (maybe) a little bit less manipulative, however saying “you are open” to a, b, and c isn’t too far from saying “you will do” a, b, and c. Because of the way this sigil is addressed, it will be most potent to, after charging it (during which you will want to focus very strongly on your person of intent), place it amongst their belongings or even draw a small one on a tag of their clothing. If you can’t do this, that’s okay. Find a small item of yours that is special to you or holds a lot of good, loving energy (a rose quartz would work well!) and draw or affix the sigil onto it. You could even place it in a sachet with some rose buds and damiana leaves. Carry it on your person and do your best to forget about it. 

And now, finally:

Ok, so after giving you all this stuff, I’m going to lecture a little bit. Be very, very careful with this type of magic. I used the word “manipulative” earlier. That’s a pretty strong word, and how the first two spells could be interpreted, whereas the second two are simply opening a door, so to speak. Although I’m not labelling it as a good thing or a bad thing, make sure you’ll really alright with using magic towards someone without their consent. Each person can choose what is within the realm of possibility for their own lives (to a certain extent, of course). Meditating on whether or not it is the best thing for both of you to be together again is of utmost importance. If you worship gods or goddesses, ask them for guidance. Be absolutely certain that you truly believe you are acting in everyone’s best interests. If you don’t mind either way, then that’s fine, too. Like when performing curses—if you have even an inkling that you’ll do it and feel guilty, then it’s probably not a good idea to do it. Anyway, I just felt I should give full disclosure of the intricacies involved in this type of magic. Most importantly, don’t doubt that intuitive voice inside that knows what’s right or wrong for you personally. I wish you the best in your endeavours, and good luck! 

The Proposal Proposal

So. Big breath. I still feel odd. Last night I was positive at beginning and confused by the end. I woke up this morning and I hated it. I watched YS and rewatched for the 4th time and I am .. ok? With order:

Tweepadocks in the room (aka: the things I hated or disliked)
* * deepest breath * So, basically we waited months for hearing Amy’s answer to… not hear it? STEVE YOU HAD ONE JOB.
But really, all was so.. rushed?
* The whole dinner with colleagues. No. No. No. Have I said ‘no’? I get that you have to show Amy what is she putting into but damn, the same old plot again?!? Which definitely didn’t make sense because if he changed something, it has been in his respect for Amy. It reminded me of 9x23, when after months of beauty he acted like a jerk. Now again, it just doesn’t make sense after Gyroscope. Gah. At least this time he properly apologised (that was sweet, see later).
* I’m not saying they had to make a baby there, but a little more action in that kiss…. LOL
* Lenny forgetting their anniversary was kind of sad. Again, I felt they didn’t know what to do with them. Same for Raj. I feel bad for them. Please save them. Give them a purpose. 

Now the good stuff:
* Howardette!!! OMG That surprised me! I spent the summer wondering how they could cover Melissa’s pregnancy and they… they just will do in the most obvious way. This is really a nice move. It opens so many scenarios and be honest, Howard’s reaction is one of the best/funniest moment EVER. Simon and Melissa are so talented.
* My aesthetic today is Amy’s full heart happiness. How she yells to Mary they are engaged and jumps and spin and glows. How she proudly introduces her fiancé. How she enters the cafeteria showing off the ring. She’s so happy. Her happiness is so pure. Please, protect my baby girl, she’s so precious.
* The hugs. Sheldon holds her it’s always the best.
* The apology was really nice. The avenger thing was fun and cute. The admission that he may need a lifetime to learn (but nevertheless he’ll try) won me. 
* DADDY FOWLER EXISTS (and knows Sheldon already!). I had to listen multiple times. I was like ahjsjsksjkskksksks Even if those two lines destroyed years of headcanons and the premise of my pet story I thankfully didn’t write Ya know I’m obsessed with giving my gurl an actual family and aaaaah. NS promised in an interview that they are most likely going to bring him out… PLEASE.
* Amy confrontation with Ramona. It was so Amy. Sweet, naive, happy, compassionate Amy, who could have slapped her or punched and instead heartfelt thanks her for somehow pushing Sheldon to the next move. Cooper, do you understand what kind of woman you are marrying right???

Salon Etiquette

Okay so we have all had a client or experienced a client who happened to be so rude it took everything you had not to kick them out of your chair. So this is for everyone so they know WHAT NOT TO DO:

- Don’t Spin or move my chair

- Don’t tell me how to do my job

- Don’t ask to use, touch or mess with my “SHEARS“

- Don’t Ask me if I “Know what I’m doing” (I went to school passed my state boards and paid over $15,000 to know what I am doing!)

- Don’t be creepy and friend me of facebook after I cut your hair once

- Don’t tip in the form of mix tapes, old costume jewelry, ½ eaten sandwiches, or anything like that. We understand you don’t always have the money to tip, and that’s okay. But doing stuff like the above makes us feel bad as well as cheep and its like a slap in the face.

- Over all just DON’T be rude.

You have to remember we do our job because we love it, on average I see more that 5 clients a day so please don’t get upset if I ask you the same question twice or forget how you like your hair cut. My biggest goal in this industry is to be able to make you fee the best you can and its hard sometimes when clients forget that I am only human.

anonymous asked:

💛😊✨This is the dimple challenge!! When you get this, tag someone who makes you happy then send this anonymously to the first 3 people in your activity. The world needs more joy, hopefully this spreads some of it ✨😊💛

it says 1 but i wanna do more than one but idk how to do a read more on mobile so if it gets too long my bad! 😢💗 pls don’t get mad if i forget to mention u!
@rapmonstor i love youuuuuu so much with all my heart and i get so happy knowing you’ve found your other half and when you send me audios and it’s just the most random stuff i get so happy and when you trust me with serious stuff i feel honored and i love the way we don’t have to talk every single day to know we’re here for each other 😢💗
@43hy A D R E A N A you mean soooo much to me i love our little talks and i love how kind you are to me all the time and you’re always sharing jin posts you think i would like and it means so much you’re like such a close mutual of mine MI AMIGA DEL ALMA 💗
@moonkissedjimin i love u a lot samia you shine so brightly and spread so much love im so blessed to have gotten a chance to meet you I JUST LOV U 💗
@hobslesbian te quiero muchísimo JUST KNOW THAT eres una persona hermosa por dentro y por fuera!! 💗
@jiminspark ALYSSA FNDJSK ERES UN ÁNGEL, te quiero un montón even if we don’t talk that much just seeing you on my dash makes me happy you’re so amazing!
@illegirrl Sahian YOURE HONESTLY so sweet to me I don’t deserve i love our mutual i love when i see you in my notifs or when you just like my posts it means so much you’re such a nice person and INLOV U and i hope you smile a lot every day!
@usagijjk NIKKI CNDJKS MI prima de corazón because we really kinda grew up loving the same stuff and that’s so crazy??? i love how much stuff we have in common and i love getting the chance to interact with you i really, really appreciate u!!
@yoongimiel JENNY!! my longest, longest mutual who saw me go from like 1d to just a boring ass aesthetic blog to pretty much a kdrama blog to now- a bts blog skdndjdkel you’ve really seen it all and im so happy that we’re still mutuals and im even happier that u ended up loving bts too (and exo) im just happy we’re still around together 😢💗
@starprincejimin anna :( i love you so much you’re the kindest person the loveliest person!! you make the ppl around you so happy without even trying you have such a pretty way with words and i honestly still have the screenshot of the little date with jin u wrote for me in an ask akdndjsk i ADORE YOU
@jiminsmaingirl LIA MI HERMANA, my fellow dallas girl sknddjskks you’re honestly the best your tags are always so funny your love for jimin is admirable and each time we’ve talked you’ve been the best to me. im so happy knowing we’re from the same city like WOW… can u believe? wbdhekek te aprecio mucho!!
@jikooksgirl lina :( i would die for you i think being mutuals on twitter really brought us together you’re the cutest ever on there always hyping up your guys and bts and being such an overall beautiful person you mean a lot to me!
@bts420 STEPH KDNDJSK you’re so funny truthfully your posts always have me laughing, Mi otra Dallas girl!! i can’t even believe we’re mutuals bc you seem so much cooler but you’re also so sweet to everyone?? always so welcoming :( TE QUIERO
@softglowtae JISOO :( i really truly REALLY feel so touched when you tag me in stuff you do it all the time and even though i don’t tag u a lot because i suck you still do it!! that’s so thoughtful of you and just being your mutual makes my experience on here ten times better I LOV U 💕💓☁️💓
@loveskimseokjin ZOE THE CUTEST! every time we talk it always flows so easily you’re so precious and your song rec mean so much to me I can’t wait to listen to them! my other Texan sis!! 💕🐰☁️
@yoongihoneys GABY TE QUIERO MUCHO please know that I’m always here for you if you ever need anything at all don’t hesitate to come to me!
@plu1e MI LUPE LA PERSONA MAS DULCE, i love you so much you’re like a younger sibling to me and I want you to be happy every day and I hope that happiness comes to you and never leaves! 💕😢

I THINK THATS IT SORRY THIS IS LONG IM JUST SO HAPPY you don’t have to reblog this at all I know it’s long and it’ll ruin your blog flow (I’m really picky about my blog so I understand KFNDJDK) anyway I love you all so much and yeah!!! sorry if I forgot anyone please I didn’t mean to :(

So looking at MBTI biases is always funny because Extroverts and Sensors= low tier, while Introverts and Intuitives= god tier, according to such biases.

But introverted sensors exist, and extroverted intuitives exist.

Soooo… what does that mean? ISFPs, ISTJs, ISFJs, and ISTPs are like, people incapable of higher thinking because they’re sensors, but simultaneously capable of higher thinking because they’re introverts? Is it like they’re still beneath the introverted intiutives, but they’re allowed to eat the crumbs off the philosophical debate dinner table that the INXXs are having?

Which I guess is the same for ENFPs, ENTPs, ENTJs, and ENFJs. Like, they’re still “filthy” extroverts but every intuitive comes out the womb reciting Nietzsche or something so we can’t exclude them because they still have the intuitive exalt brand; can’t let them get completely tainted.

And of course the ESFPs, ESTPs, ESFJs, and ESTJs are basically considered “dumb” AND “boring” while INFJs, INTJs, INFPs, and INTPs have God on their side because they think they are God, with the INFJs being Jesus, and the INFPs being the holy spirit because everyone knows about them, but no one ever gets how they exist or function.

ironically the stereotype is that the INXXs contemplate life all day while the ESXXs are actually living it so who’s truly the boring one; the only ones actually doing stuff in this world are ESXXs while INXXs are forgetting to sleep and eat. i hate to be the bringer of bad news here but if INXXs are actually “rare”, then there’s a reason for that.

Like idk man, it’s wild that this:

God tier: INXXs

Top tier: ENXXs

Mid tier: ISXXs

Sh*t tier: ESXXs

…is actually taken seriously by some people lol….


Okay, so this little thing was inspired by a whole host of things. The fanon of dwarven women going as male when outside the mountain; the fact that if one out of every three dwarves is female, then, ignoring sexism, about four of the company should have been female; and the fact that given that the line of Durin are, to us, the most stereotypically attracitve dwarves, they’re probably quite ugly by dwarven standards. So, have some Fem!Fíli, dwarven gender politics, motherhen!Bilbo, and Bagginshield.

There was something infinitely soothing about Beorn’s house. Bilbo missed the Shire a great deal, and Beorn’s house reminded him of it in certain key ways that helped to sooth his homesickness. Even the dwarves seemed slightly less rowdy here, quieter, although that might have been down to the revelation they’d had on that horrible precipice. Óin and Bifur were spending hours out in the gardens, picking medicinal herbs – or edible flowers – with Beorn’s consent, hands flashing in Iglishmek, but their mouths firmly closed. Balin and Ori were both wrapped up in some kind of writing project – recording their quest, Bilbo supposed – and only talked in hushed whispers, even if their hissing did get quite fierce at times. Even Fíli and Kíli – the loudest of the group by far – were keeping their heads down.

Bilbo split his time between the beautiful garden Beorn maintained, and the kitchen where Bombur was happily learning the recipe for Beorn’s honeycakes. In Bilbo’s opinion, he had mastered the recipe yesterday, but Bombur still wasn’t satisfied, and Bilbo was more than happy to continue acting as his taste-tester. He was finally putting back on a little bit of weight after the gruelling trip through the Misty Mountains had stripped him of his plump tummy.

He was just on his way outside with an armful of Bombur’s latest batch of honeycakes, in the hopes of tempting Thorin out of his brooding with an impromptu picnic, when he heard a short, cut-off groan. He froze, one foot still in the air, listening hard over the sound of distant voices. Just as he convinced himself he must have been mistaken, there was a pained whimper followed by a crash of smashing pottery.

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warning no romantics feeling involved ok but theres a friend of mine i just gotta talk about how sweet and adorable he is honestly??? like another dude in my group friend is reaaaally starting to get on my nerves so its really nice having this ray of sunshine to just kinda, forget about annoying dude. i mean hes so adorably clumsy too like i just kinda mentionned having shitty grades and he went and patted me lmao also whenever he says something slightly mean as like a very obvious joke hes like “…..oh no, rocky im so sorry” AND IM LIKE DUDE LOOK @ ME IM LAUGHING IT WAS FUNNY DONT BE SORRY
anyway just wanted to share some good stuff bc otherwise my life is going to shit


Actors Relate Awareness # 1 Vinchelle = Vin & Michelle

“It met him on set of the first movie, actually. It was his fault I was in the movie. He saw my indie film “Girlfight,” and requested me to play his girlfriend in “The Fast and the Furious.” They read me in New York, and I got cast right away.“ –Michelle Rodriguez 

Vinchelle is at the top of my list when it comes to actor relationships that I admire. They first met through the first Fast and Furious movie and with the situation of Vin not only understanding but also standing up for her desires when it came to her character in the series they became quick friends despite her first impression of thinking he would be a dick. They’ve known each other more than ten years and that respect remains intact with how they treat and represent each other in the eye view of their audience and the media alike. I think no matter what it always come back to that first movie where you first get to see their chemistry. Its amazing to think of how far both of their careers and their own personal relationship has grown just from the development of these characters. Even though originally Michelle’s character Letty was supposed to leave Dom for Brian, its very difficult to not only imagine what that would be like but the ripple effects it would’ve had. Given these two actors chemistry which has impacted not only the story but its audience, that original storyline would have made everything totally different. 

“In the script, she was with the Dom character and she was trying to get with the Paul Walker character. I thought that was stupid. First of all, no girl would leave the toughest guy for a weaker one. In the eyes of the street, it doesn’t work like that. I didn’t want to be a slut. I felt like a lot of Latinas in Hollywood were doing that, and that’s not how I wanted to be viewed by millions of people around the world. I was crying on set, and I remember Rob [Cohen] thinking, “I’m trying to make a good movie with fast cars, what are you bitching about?” I remember Vin saying, “I got this. I’m going to take a bullet for you, kiddo.” “Vin was the first one to pull me to the side while I was crying,” she declared. “And he just looked at me and said, ‘I got your back. Chill out and let me handle this, and you’re right — it makes me look bad anyway.’ And there you go. That was beginning of the Letty fairytale.”Michelle Rodriguez

I love when actors who work together find that they have similar thoughts or outlooks that helps them bond and even sometimes helps their careers through this communication. I think Vinchelle is a prime example of this kind of partnership. It’s clear just from their interviews together that they are two people who actually have an open communication and who agree and see things from some of the same levels. I watched their Pico interview and what I saw take place can only be described as chemistry and a cosmic bond, it’s the language of two people who know each other and that takes form in different ways vocally and nonverbally. She knows what type of character he wishes to portray and after he ask her to describe the thought process behind that desire you can tell that they’ve had in depth conversations about it and that it’s a topic they are both passionate about because it’s something Michelle herself speaks on a lot. Music taste and such things that are cues to actually knowing a person are known between them and it’s just great to see a friendship that has bonded through a shared passion of creativity.

“I fought for that one too! I fought for the punch, because they didn’t think a girl would ever get involved,” she added. “It’s like, have you ever been to the ghetto, homie? If your boys are fighting and you don’t fight, they make fun of you, they crack on you, and they’d probably kick you out of the group.”Michelle Rodriguez

“Yeah I mean we have a very, very strong relationship. Uh, we’ve been (pause) friends for so long and there’s so much trust. When the pre-production phase happens I usually invite her in to the writing phase. That’s how much I respect her creativity and her brain. She’s actually, no one realizes, but she’s actually a brilliant screen writer. I have worked with her on that. She’s dedicated in a real refreshing way, a way that you don’t always see. She’s willing to do anything to make the film special.”Vin Diesel 

Michelle is a very vocal woman, she speaks her mind with a frankness that some might consider inappropriate, because the media only likes to talk about bad stuff most think she’s wild and not so serious. You forget that she has two cats, that she doesn’t like make-up that much unless shes working, that if you actually listen and comprehend what she’s trying to say instead of looking for fault, you’ll actually find that she’s actually very deep, conscious aware of the world today and history itself. As an actress she really has this integrity of thinking about the story than herself. And not every actor/actress can say that. Women, def women in a minority group has a smaller window so it’s easier to fall to temptation to get your name out there or to just have a job because the pickings are slim and even if you get past that there’s other elements to worry about. My favorite actresses I feel that they’re all conscious of not only their character but the story itself, that desire to be a part of a concrete piece of work. Often these actress still get disrespected, looked down upon, and often put into a box so others don’t have to think about their real worth and the struggle to get where they’ve gotten. Michelle is one of those actresses, people are okay with categorizing her as the wild party girl so they don’t have to acknowledge her work ethic. Everyone behind the scenes has been called a genius, but people forget to name Michelle – the vocal actress that’s stopped them from making quite a few plot mistakes. And that’s why I respect Vin so much not only because he stood for her at a time she needed him to but because advocates, never slow on the uptake to let people know about the facets of her they not yet know of.

“It’s like losing a limb. I can’t explain it any other way. It was hard. I could see it. He’s a quiet, reserved guy when it comes to emotion. For him to f—ing show how he feels. He’s old-school alpha male. I think the only time Vin was able to show his true emotions about everything that happened was when the movie was finally cut and they showed it to us. That was the first time Vin breathed and let go. He texted me right after and I had a long conversation with him.
I’m incredibly impressed with Universal and the entire “Fast” family. Everyone felt the weight of doing the best work they possibly could to make sure [Paul’s] legacy is something that can be revered. That was the biggest worry for me and Vin. How are they going to approach it? It’s not only a celebration. It’s also a goodbye. They could have been announcing other movies. That would have been an abomination. I’m so happy they were classy about it. I just feel like everybody came through 150 percent”
Michelle Rodriguez 

After Paul Walker’s death, there were people who seemed discontent with what they felt were lack of emotionalism of Vin’s part. It’s disrespectful to act like everyone shows emotions the same, and these people obviously know nothing about Vin Diesel. I like to call Vin Mr. Poker Face because you have to look deep for cues of his emotions, he’s very quiet and very reserved. Quite often in interviews, he looks down a lot, he shuffles and fidgets a lot or he’s very excitable. In interviews with Michelle he often ask her to speak when they have to go into detail about anything or when given the a option question he looks at her to go first (even though because of that laugh-laugh moment he usually ends up going first anyway). I personally see elements of the actors in their F&F characters and while the sunglasses is catered to by both Dom and Vin, Vin isn’t as wordy as Dom. When any emotion comes into play with Vin while speaking that emotion shines through, and sometimes his excitement or emotionalism causes him to lose words and such things, this is another reason he lets Michelle explain things on top of just liking how eloquently she puts things. You can tell Vin is always aware of the audience and he tries not to offend anyone. It was horrible to see people try to denounce that friendship he and Paul had, it’s great when people like Michelle who was around both men speak on how their relationship really was. 

“She’s very brave. Too brave. It scares me sometimes. Everything I feel for her is shown in the movie through Dom’s efforts. If it wasn’t for Michelle Rodriguez, there wouldn’t be any Fast & Furious 6. - Vin Diesel

“I love Vin because he’s got that gangsta ass street cred that you don’t get a lot with people who play tough. You know…he’s got this…it’s in his eyes you know. It’s like I grew up in the hood just like you kinda thing, so you know I vibe with that. I’m like yeeeaaaah homie. Started from the bottom now we’re hurr (laughs) I love that. So every time I look at him I think of it. I think of how we just came from…out of nowhere…into Hollywood and introduced to Hollywood with this franchise….”Michelle Rodriguez 

These are probably my favorite quotes they have about on another. It’s not just because of the descriptors they draw about each other, or the obvious emotion, but because their quotes reflect also on who they are themselves. The F&F franchise is ingrained in their friendship not only because its where they met and connect but because the series is symbol for their own journey. Like Michelle say’s ‘Started from the bottom no we’re here’ that’s both true for the series and them as individuals in their careers. You can tell that Michelle’s past is deeply a part of who she is, it plays part in how she views people and herself, it plays as both a motivation and an experience that she draws from to connect with work in her career. I think the ideal of being able to look at someone and see the reflection of how far you both have come is a flooring thing really. It’s also one of my favorite things about these two because they do reflect off each other a lot, rather from similarities or differences – either way it’s a combination they’ve used to balance out the odds, what one lacks the other may have. There’s that great balance of respect, and admiration. Although Michelle’s responses are funny when Vin starts to compliment her on any level, which I find interesting because she has no problem complimenting others. She’s very down to earth, with this openness about her work and her thoughts on societal issues, everything comes off more as a conversation instead of anything actually formal. 

“I didn’t do two or three because Vin wasn’t in them. And I knew he was my only rock. I don’t fight over action. I don’t care who is beating up who. I fight for integrity. Vin was my only back up. There were too many cooks in the kitchen. I didn’t want to deal with all the chaos.” –Michelle Rodriguez
“I would work with Vin any of day of the week outside of Fast, it’s just that when you have that connection like Letty and Dom do in the Fast and Furious franchise, it’s like we look at other projects and we’re like uhh…it’s kinda whack compared to what we already got going on (…) when I have something special, I like to keep it special. I don’t like to mess with it. But who knows, maybe there’s something really cool that will come down the line that Vin would wanna do and where we’d get to work together on the project. That’d be awesome. But so far it’s just that Dom and Letty relationship is just so awesome, I couldn’t compete with it.” -Michelle Rodriguez

I personally am all for them working together on another project. I’d kill to see them in something that reinvents their chemistry dynamic. Michelle hasn’t really played in any mystical fantasy type movies like Vin likes to do and while I’d love to see that happen Vin’s little love interest in those movies are either nonexistent or they die >.> I’m not here for that. I’d love to see them in a kickass type of action flick, I don’t mean like F&F because that’s a total different type of action, I mean something like Mr. & Mrs. Smith (but not that plot line cause I’m not talking about revamping the movie) I just want that type of partnership hand to hand action. The dynamic is so different. Playing Letty and Dom they never really got to play strangers even with the amnesia that past was still present in the movie. It would be interesting to see what that kind interaction would look like for them. I’m down for a modern type of Bonnie & Clyde rendition with their own flare, or something dark and edgy (they’d make a sexy B&C – But I’d like for them to not die…or end up in jail)…anything with stealing, some gun action, and a fight scene or two thrown in. Unfortunately, they haven’t found a script that moves them enough and honestly I think for them ever to really work together outside the factor of Letty and Dom its gonna have to be an idea they both collectively imagine and pitch. I keep my fingers crossed but truly that’s something only time can tell. But truly, I’m happy that we’ve been blessed with their pieces together that we already have.

“This chemical connection is something you can’t fake. Me and Vin got chemistry. And we’ve got a 13-year rapport with each other. You can’t buy that with other actors — either you got it or you don’t. It’s a special thing.” - Michelle Rodriguez

Note: As I promised here’s the Vinchelle piece I wanted to do, since I just finished the Dotty ship awareness I thought this would be a perfect way to sum all that up. Next I’ll probably do Dom & Brian as my first Brotp, then directly after follow that with the huge F&F Franchise break down I’ve been wanting to do.

My Other Vincelle / Dotty Post:

Dotty Ship Awareness Part 1 / Dotty Ship Awareness Part 2 / Dotty NonCasual /Future Wishes for F&F


Hey guys! I know I haven’t been online for a while and I truly apologize.

Especially to the people who I’ve promised to send gifs to for threads. I did not forget! I mean I literally dyed my hair brown because someone asked me to do Sirius Black and I didn’t have any good wigs for it ^^’

Things that have been going on recently include a new full-time job, my car being totalled, general anxiety stuff, and my lamp breaking. So the last one is a lighting issue with rping but still!

I was literally trying to record gifs of Helga Hufflepuff I promised someone and look how bad they are!!


Upcoming plans recording include buying a new lamp and trying to focus on my blog as much as I can in the upcoming months, especially now that I’m out of training at work.

To those I’ve promised to help I will be sending the gifs tomorrow night!! Finally!!

I will also be focusing more on a Werewolf!Lavender Brown thread that I want to flesh out so hit me up if you guys want in on that *finger guns* (may be multiple threads so I may need a lot of help hint hint)

While I’m working on that I’m gonna be bringing back some other characters and some new ones so let me know if there’s anyone you want to see! I do have brown hair now so I’ll feel more comfortable doing dark-haired characters now as well!

Thank you to everyone for sticking with this while I’ve been Awol for wayyy too long. I’m really excited to get back into this and grateful to my followers who haven’t seen me in forever and my friends who I haven’t talked to in forever ^^’


anonymous asked:

How did you start shipping Phiciaociao? Realistically, do you think Phiciaociao will ever become canon?

Hell how did this start?!?!?! 

I know I was probably in OWC Discord chat… I am sure @otayuriistheliteralbest, @rodiniaorzetalthepenquin @machinewithoutfeelings @theinsanefox @francowitch and @the-stoned-ranger had something to do with all this… one of us comes up with an idea and we either nix it or roll it so damn hard… fics happen! (Coffee Beans… Happy Feet… so many fics

I was doing another installment of Madam Lilia’s Peep show and made it Phiciaociao…. but WHY DID I PICK THEM?!?!? FUCK! I don’t remember! dammit! (my memory is so bad when it comes to stuff and why, especially after Ive written something, I forget it)

We had headconed them so hard in chat… and I went on long (very long) rants about how perfect they would be together… and well… 

Shit… how did this happen? Ladies? 

I was tagged by @eatsjins (your tags are like 300% more interesting than mine, mine are basically all i love jin)

rules: write down the last 15 tags u associated with your bias 🌟

1. man knows how to kill a girl !!!!

2. he always makes me feel happy wtf 

3. oh my holy fuck

4. he’s so adorable I love him a lot 

5. I hate watching people eat but when it’s Jin it’s like my heart has 20 levels of love and Jin sits on all of them scoffing down a whole steak

6. his legs I want them ****** ** dead no I wanna hug him and tell him good job well done for working your ass off boy you have me shook I love 

7. jin should wear tanks all the time 

8. what a rood person I dont liek him arall

9. hot as shit bby 

10. how fall in love with Kim Seokjin: a guide 

11. bitch you’re already in love check yourself 

12. he could dislocate my shoulder and I wouldn’t be mad honestly 

13. all the feels and all the hearts I love this man like I need to breathe 

14. his voice is like fucking syrup slather me right tf up boi 

15. fam the things you do to me

I tag: @breadloafksj | @gwangjuhope | @nnamkook | @mochislips | @je0n | @jinsasleep | @lovhani

(ofc you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to)

Doing this made me realise that I am like 150% mush around anything Kim Seokjin

anonymous asked:

maybe an odd concept but a concept: while yuuris skating, especially Eros, he gets super super focused on what he’s doing and forgets about stuff like his bladder, and when he gets out of that tunnel vision he’s screwed

I picture him in his ending pose, coming back to reality and realizing just how /full/ he is. He skates off to Victor but is too scared to tell him that he /really/ needs the toilet before the kiss and cry so he sits through it, squirming incessantly until Victor realizes something is wrong.

“Yuuri, are you uncomfortable?”

Yuuri blushes and whispers, “I need to go to the toilet, really bad.”

Victor puts two and two together, and makes an excuse to rush him away. They make it to the changing area, where there are bathrooms but Victor is having trouble getting Yuuri’s zipper down in the restroom. Yuuri is potty dancing like a pro, whimpering as he starts wetting himself, the zipper stuck halfway down his back.