this is really shitty i know

I got stood up today, and it felt shitty.

Even more so because at 1pm he was like yassss, I’m excited to meet you!

At 4:30, at the very end of the time we were supposed to have hung out, he texted to say he couldn’t make it. At the end.

I said, why didn’t you text me in the last three hours?

He said he had stuff going on. He was in the garage and had lunch. Seriously. He’s really sorry.

I openly admit it made me feel shitty af. But he’ll never know what he missed out on.

It’ll All Be Okay

Pairing: Grayson Dolan x reader

Word Count: 438 words.

Warnings: Panic attack and a bit of swearing. 

Summary: Grayson gets a panic attack and you help him through it.

A/N: I re-watched their video “You’re Not Alone” and Grayson saying he gets panic attacks from time to time really stuck with me and I had to write this. 

Originally posted by thedolangifs

Grayson doesn’t know you’re at their apartment when he slams the door shut. It’s been a shitty day so you needed your boyfriend, but it turns out he needs you more. You wait for a second but he doesn’t come into the living room. Instead, you find him sunken down against the door with his eyes closed. 

“Gray?” you ask hearing his breathing slowly quicken. 

“I don’t feel good,” he whispers breathing in and out very quickly. 

“Breathe with me, okay?” you say sitting down in front of him. You breathe slowly but Grayson can’t do the same. You intertwine your fingers with his fingers and he squeezes tightly. 

“I can’t!” he gasps and you notice the panic in his voice. 

“You’re having a panic attack, Gray. You need to breathe,” you say keeping your voice gentle. The last thing you want to do is stress him more. You notice his forehead getting a bit sweaty and you get up to grab a wet cloth. You place it on his forehead offering him a smile. 

“I’m sorry,” he whispers still breathing way too quickly. You can literally hear his heartbeat. 

“Don’t be sorry. It’ll be okay. Just try to breathe,” you whisper kissing the top of his head. There are a couple of tears running down his cheeks that you catch with your thumb. Five minutes later Grayson manages to relax a little and his breathing slows down. 

“That’s it. Good,” you whisper hugging him tightly. He hugs you back hiding his face in the crook of your neck. For a while, you just sit there letting Grayson know that you’re there for him. 

“How long have you been getting these panic attacks?” you ask concerned. 

“A couple of weeks. I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to worry you,” he replies though his words a little muffled. 

“You can tell me these things. I’ll always be there when you need me, baby.” Some time later, you get up from the floor and head to his room. 

“Can I ask you something?” he says looking at you. Your limbs are tangled together and you’re lying so closely that you can feel his breath on your skin. 

“Sure,” you say pecking his lips quickly. 

“How did you get so good at handling panic attacks?” 

“I used to get them when I was younger. Mostly when my parents were arguing. It got better after the divorce,” you say with a sad smile. 

“I’m sorry,” Grayson whispers. 

“It’s not that big of a deal. Like it’s easy to say it’ll all be okay. But that’s always the way it goes.”

hey guys, it’s sam pottorff. another youtuber. everyone’s least favorite member of o2l. i really like arizona tea. my life is a try not to cringe challenge. my singing is really shitty and i thrive on doing stupid shit, obviously. if you feeling like talking or letting me know how trashy i am, message me on gh @ sundazeray

Goodbye. (Seungcheol Ficlet) [A]

THIS ANON REQUESTED THIS AND I A SEUNGCHEOL BIASED WAS BASICALLY KILLING MYSELF TOO. OMG SO OKAY. It took me a lot of guts before i posted this just so you know guys I am so NERVOUS mainly bcsI don’t want to ruin this blog reputation for writing good goods (shameless may it seem but i am a fan of the admins too so lol hahahaha) I’M SO SORRY BECAUSE THIS IS REALLY SHITTY AND this is just my second time posting a scenario (and it’s mah baby seungcheol again lol) and and and fck really i’m just really nervous and rlly not confident abt this so anw.

I was scrolling through the request box and I saw this and was feeling angst-y that night so why not try is what i thought. this is really short tho. (I’M SORRY) I wanted to post something as a thank you for you guys heh we love you~

Thanks to Admin Kate for editing this one and adding a lot of those dramatic shts that i really can’t express.Thank you btch love u ♥ And also the [words like these] are lyrics from I.O.I’s Downpour, credits yes. so here you go~~ i’m sorry for the grammar mistakes and my shtty writings.

-Admin Kenvy

Warnings: contains death and shitty writing..

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anonymous asked:

Yo ok so is Andromeda mostly shitty bc of bugs or is it just bad in general? Bc if it's just rly buggy I might hold off on buying it and wait for it to be patched

Don’t know about the story since I’m not far enough to really say something meaningful about that. So far it feels a bit rehashed but I’ll wait and see. Overall it’s fine, a lot of bugs and glitches are just massively annoying and kinda ruin gameplay and immersion from time to time. Which is a shame because they improved combat a lot. (They went back to the RPG roots of ME1 with a lot of things, luckily.) There’s way more options to customize your own fighting style.

Textures tend to load in slow often and animations are outdated as hell tho, but you can get used to it. Still doesn’t take away that a lot of what I’m seeing is pretty unacceptable for a AAA title in 2017. Characters so far are written well, random conversation throughout feels a lot more natural. The squad is fun. Environments are pretty and creative though they suffer from “wide world with just some things and basic side missions to do here and there” syndrome which happens sooo often with open worlds. It’s a bit like Dragon Age Inquisition in that regard. The character creator was horrible, you can barely shift away from the preset faces which was a huge letdown. But on most other fronts it’s just mass effect like it mostly should be. But just not on the next level that a later new title should be. Everything is pretty much one step forward on one area one step back in another. Also I would’ve liked to see more alien races than they’ve shown me so far.

anonymous asked:

You're definitely one of the first people I've seen be ok with the way we are getting info about Harry's music. Like I know everyone is use to shitty and shady ways about info when it comes to 1D but do we have to read into everything? Maybe this is how he wants it. Like take it with a grain of salt and see how it all plays out.

Right! I think I just don’t really see it as shady haha! Harry has always been a very humble person that likes to take a step back and just let things happen. He doesn’t really need to promo his stuff, and letting people buzz about it without being blatantly like HEY GUYS I HAVE MUSIC COMING OUT GET READY FOR MUSIC YAY I HAVE MUSIC is sometimes more effective anyway lol he knows we know he has an album ready, he chooses to focus on posting about charities and letting things just happen. I love that about him!

And let’s be honest, with the way this fandom is, if he was being overly promotional, people would be like “Omg this isn’t harry, that isn’t harry, someone is posting for him, this is so weird!!” LOL

I think it’s important that we don’t idolize people like the McElroys for caring about others. I don’t think that’s entirely productive. And let me reiterate that I love the work they put out and it is very refreshing to go into a comedic work with the knowledge that the people behind it really do care about their fans feelings, that there is a very very low chance of them saying something that hurts me.

but here’s the thing, that shouldn’t be refreshing. it should be the norm.

I also worry about how that idolization is making some fans defend them against genuine criticism. Like. You know they want us to speak up when they do something shitty, right? They’re grown men, they can handle someone saying “hey, that thing you said wasn’t cool”.

I have a handful of criticisms for them I could put in this post, but I think most of it comes from their older content + I don’t follow them closely enough to know whether it’s been addressed already.

also I just woke up and don’t feel like going much deeper into this than just “Let the McElroys’ response to criticism set the bar for other creators rather than treating them as exceptions to the rule.”

anonymous asked:

I wouldn't say Louis' team is "incompetent". They can be sufficiently competent for other clients but they purposefuly don't promo Louis and give him a bad image. What confuses me tho is why do they get offended when people call them out? If they actively try to make Louis fail then they should know they are going to be criticized and even be smug about it, like "yes, we are these hoes who destroyed Louis and you can't do anything about it haha". Why block people who notice that they are shitty?

Oh yes, I meant they’re incompetent for Louis. Because they’re great to promote JA and Elk, but Louis? Há. They’re doing because they know they’re wrong and if people search for their names they’ll see all those bad comment and start to wonder if they’re really good at all 

how shitty is it not to go to a baby shower for my sister that

1) is comprised entirely of people i don’t know
2) is in the company of my grandmother who has been stressing me out for the past almost two weeks (making comments about my appearance - yellow teeth, my weight, etc - and generally creating drama that pings my anxiety like no other)
3) my sister doesn’t really want me at anyway
4) i don’t have a gift for bc i am penniless

HAPPY BIRTHDAY @amazingphil!

he was a king.

this was the year he was going to die.

may or may not have spent my entire sunday finding obscure indie movies to steal clips from to make this video. idk, you can’t prove anything. 

“So what do you say, amiga?”

Can you say ‘unnecessary sexual tension’?

Sombra’s confronting Widowmaker for some reason idk you can fill in the gaps. All you need to know is that Widowmaker is #not in the mood right now and Sombra is in way over her head. Also, don’t let their position fool you. Widowmaker’s in complete control of the situation. You don’t get as far as she has without learning some tricks.

I’m chasing a ghost
A feeling that’s haunted me for years 
Every time I get close it’s gone

Am I living a lie?
Well, maybe I just expect too much
Maybe it’s time I try for more 

 I will tear my sky
To make it through the night
I will take back my pride
And live while I breathe, live while I breathe 

I will move the ground 
I will pull the curtains down 
Wear my fist on my sleeve
And live while I breathe, live while I breathe 

(x)

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just two guys….bonding… i can’t believe this is my first contribution to this amazing show…