this is really bad but i didnt post anything for the weekend so here u go

bye (for now?)

i am really so annoyed right now i was already having the worst weekend ever then i thought “i should check my blog and reply some messages it always cheer me up” but no… there it was “the last drop” 

so apprently i am a racist yep after being on tumblr nearly 5 years finally i have been called f**** racist and because of the dumbest ( i am sorry i have to say that) reason ever!!  

I consider myself as a kind person  i try to keep my manners in any situation  i try not to be mean to anyone no matter what they told be, how they judge me i never broke anybody’s heart i always try to reply them as kind as possible and explain myself over and over again i never complained about anyone i never publicly reply any bad/rude messges (trust me i got tons of them you have no idea)   because i dont wanna  act like a victim and make someone else the target or humiliate them publicly but i dont let anyone call me a racist because this is the last thing i am i have been raised so much better than that noone have the right to make assumptions about me with the most idiotic reason ever!!!! 

so looks like this person (i wont give the name or url  i am still so much better than that) offended by  the title of one my posts and decided to message me and dare to  lecture about it. i was still planing to be calm and explain myself kindly because i thought maybe it is a  12-13 years old kid who doesnt know the difference so i shouldnt get angry but when i visit the blog i saw this person is an adult  22 yearold collage student and describe themselves as activist and saying things like “ dont come to my blog if you are like that if you believe this if you judge this etc etc… “  and i think it is the point i totally lost it what a hypocrite!!

ok so this is the post that mentioned, so i will show you my   reply  incase anyone else offended by the title of the photo and think i am a racist as this person…


“first of all “gypsophilia” is  the  title of the picture i posted which was given by the photgrapher not me and it is against the copyright laws to change it under any circumstances while sharing someoneelse’s work on my personal blog, the second and most important thing is “gypsophilia” is the scientific name of the flower on the photo The genus name is from the Greek gypsos (“gypsum”,”chalk”) and philios (“loving”), a reference to the gypsum-rich substrates on which species grow so  it has nothing to the with the “racial slur against romanii people” as u described so i hope next time you will check your facts before you go around and accuse people for being racist  and please try to read and learn something useful it is better than faking being an intellectual activist.

i am sorry my english is not great i hope i can make myself clear anyways,

thanks and i hope you’ll have a great weekend. :) ”


ok this is all i wanna say and i think i need a break from tumblr  there is so much thing going on with my life right now and i dont need the extra stress and hate  from tumblr

they already f****ed it up with new posting option - yeah i know i said i liked it just yesterday but i realised it sucks it wont let images seen on mobile devices and it doesnt even let them to be reblogged properly on computers so what is the point to post anything –  i write to tumblr staff about it so i think i wont post anything new other that what is already queued  till i get an answer even after that i am not sure  when or if i will be back   as i said i really need a break  

but before i just wanna say that 

i was a 14 year old kid when i made my first tumblr blog i knew nothingelse out of my small town and all this time i spent here i learnt about the rest of the world i realise how big and how small it is at the same time;  i met people from the countries i didnt even know exsist i learnt about their culture their believes i learnt how diffirent and how the same we are all at the same time, i iearnt how to be a “fan”  how to express my  “irrational love” on an actor or a movie or a book or  an animal or just anything without feeling weird about it because there were always other ones like me in tumblr fandoms so i felt accepted i learnt all that useless facts about anything you can name they are probably pointless but it made me feel smart to know them. i love  all our inner tumblr jokes,memes and weird discussions even others find them weird, just to knowing what a phase mean made me feel like i belong, most important of all, you make feel like my ideas are count they are important  because  there are 108340 people out there  from all around the world right now proved it by simply clicking that follow button because they care enough to listen what i say  and it is the best feeling ever

you all  ( at least most of you )  made me feel like i am part of a big, beautiful family and as all families you help me figure out who i am and you help me grow

just wanna thank you all  for everything,  

it was a great pleasure and the best adventure to meet every single one of  you .

thanks for reading <3
                                                            xxx, Heidi