Hi. I wrote an angsty post-Golden Circle fic about Harry coming to terms with Merlin’s death. Check it out if you want.
Title: Good Enough
Pairing: Merlahad, kind of
Summary: After saving the world, Harry Hart reflects on those lost to him and realizes that perhaps he had been in love once- just a little too late.
For reading enhancement, listen to this version of my current song obsession, “Dink’s Song.” (Or just listen to all the versions- I picked the one that’s the most lyrically appropriate, but it’s not even close to being the most heart-rending.)
A lot has changed in my personal life since I was active on tumblr regularly and I think it’s fair enough to update everyone. I’m really happy about some changes that have happened and some have been pretty rough.
For now….yes. I do blog about the other boys occasionally but for the most part, I want to blog about what makes me happiest and that’s Harry.
I haven’t changed my core opinions as a larrie nor do I dislike Louis but most of my time as a 1d fan was filled with stress over this or that bit of drama and that peaked with Louis in 2015 and continued into 2016. There were times when I dreaded looking at my dash because some idiotic thing had likely happened and fandom was no longer fun. I still liked 1d but my experience here had become more about worrying about someone else’s drama to the point where I’d find myself feeling anxious (and getting actual headaches/stomachaches) about how Louis would handle this or that story. I’m already an anxious person but someone else’s life shouldn’t have THAT much of an effect on me. I put up with it last year because there was nothing else happening but now that Harry is releasing music and giving us A+ content almost completely free of drama, that’s much more appealing to me. It was especially helpful this year when my mental state was topsy turvy again over stuff going on irl. I’m still trying to fully cut out the thing that makes me anxious now but I can control my fandom experience a lot easier so if I have to focus primarily on one person then so be it.
If you like Louis (I’m specifically mentioning him and not the others because I feel like that’s who you’re talking about considering I never blogged a ton about Liam and Niall even though I love them and 1d as a whole) and you find being a fan of his is fun and rewarding then great! I don’t find it fun to be angry on someone else’s behalf though when I have other stuff to worry about. Should things change for the better, I’ll be back in a heartbeat but I’m happy with my fandom experience the way it is now.
Some photos of my kenku costume at Anthrocon 2016, taken by @adammillerstudio! Oh boy did I ever have a lot of fun! The other raven in these photos is @qawstume and the snowy owl we are mobbing is @crystumes, who made both of the blanks that we used for our masks.
I’m going to cover all of this mess in this post. It’s just what I think could be the truly amazing story behind this amazing video series.
There are LOTS of questions in my own head and I’m gonna try answering (hopefully) most of them! Here we go!
WHO KILLED HIM NOW?
The biggest question raised is, obviously, who killed Markiplier? From what we could gather throughout the series, demons are likely to exist in this scenario.
Even the newspaper gives a hint that the mayor might have been a “demon in disguise”. So there are spiritual, supernatural things happening here. I, for one, can not answer the biggest question out of all, how he died and who he was killed by. I can only make one assumption; here’s my theory.
We know that Mark’s body went missing at some point. Where exactly is never shown or hinted at, but I have a likely theory that Mark himself was the one to hide his own body in form of his spirit. Or just, behind all that was happening in general. However, what we do know is that Mark, I quote (Damien): “(He) trapped us here in this broken shell and we had no way out.”
It seems established that, during the time we were outside to talk to the gardener, Damien and Celine tried to reach out to Mark(’s ghost), hence she wanted to “talk to the dead”. During that time, Mark took the chance to inhabit Damien’s body and trap him inside his own, dead shell that could not be used anymore. Whilst doing so he either accidentally killed Celine by possessing her first, her not being able to hold the soul inside her body, OR Celine did not die and let Damien inside her body to save him from being thrown into the corpse, which would explain why she was red and blue in the end sequence of Chapter 3. She also appears to be having two pairs of eyes above her head at one point. Possibly a hint that she’s two in one at that point?
Either way, we know that Damien represents BLUE and Celine represents RED thanks to the ending of Chapter 4:
Which is why it could very well be that She kept Damien’s soul inside her body for a short while to save his life. And of course Damien was PISSED after that, betrayed by whom he cared for, who he fought Will for and whom he thought was a good, a childhood friend he could trust. That’s for the angry step towards us, the angry stare. He looks at us, knowingly. He chooses his victim that very moment.
We are told to run. The door closes and Celine does not come out. Her shell possibly broke and both souls were set free without a shell, or she kept it up and waited for the right moment to talk to us.
The right moment being the time Will shot us.
And here is the thing; We did NOT die. If you listen closely, you can hear a faint heartbeat in the background during this very scene. They both tell you to believe them, tell you stories to make you feel sorry for them. Which, of course, you do. Damien seems pissed and loses his temper once more, like he did with the Colonel before, and shouts angrily that Mark walks around in his body. Which is why I think that part is true. He couldn’t take his anger in. He can’t, he has a low temper, that’s just it.
But Celine reminds him that he “can’t do this right now”. Reminds us to believe them. What you’re told is that Mark trapped both of them inside his old, dead body and that they brought you there so you have a chance to survive. Damien tells you that you can’t survive on your own and Celine says she can bring you back the same way she brought you there. But what Damien says afterwards is the most important clue.
He says: “But you can’t survive on your own. You’re .. dead, after all. (…) I know this all sounds crazy. Honestly, I don’t know what the fuck is going on. But I know that I trust Celine. And if you trust us … let me in. We can fix this.”
Gathered: Damien lies to you after all this time of actually being genuine. He was betrayed by Mark, knows that you trust him, wants revenge and is angry. He lures you into a false sense of security, tells you you can fix this together. He makes you feel like a friend by telling you that he feels the same way about all of this. And then, he mentions that oh so beloved trust of his. That one thing he completely lost thanks to Mark.
Also important to note; It is ONLY DAMIEN that inhabits your body after all of this. Why is that? Celine states that she can send “you” back, not “us”. She says “you” have a choice. And Damien ends his sentence with “let me in.” Not let us in.
You trust Damien and he tells you that it will work, he promises.
And it does work! You wake up in your own body, get up, meet the Colonel who is completely out of it by now.
He does not recognize us as a “Dark” or “Damien” because we don’t look like Damien yet and Dark doesn’t exist yet either. Damien, at this point, is inside our body and trying to take over.
We listen to what Will says and see him, in desperation and utter confusion, try to find his dear friends he lost.
Once he’s away, only THEN do we walk over to the mirror. And here is where it gets interesting.
We take Damien’s cane: Take a look at the hands.
A thin, female and young looking hand (possibly Amy wee i love her), but then something happens.
The hand changes, transforms into a different one. Into a hand similar to Damien’s. Because Damien is inhabiting your body by himself. Celine is likely still in Mark’s body or, as I mentioned earlier, never died to begin with. It’s Damien who was so fed up, he had to use you to get what he wants. And he gets it alright:
A body. A shell to use as a puppet. He transformed your body into a copy of his own. Mark likely still uses actual Damien’s body, but Damien had to make you look like him to finish this with you.
Then this happens.
And sad music plays in the background all throughout this scene and it broke my heart - but why did it break my heart? Because that right there is a representation of broken trust, my friends. Damien threw us out of the body he stole from us and trapped us either behind our screens or in that mirror (hence the weird noise light inside the crack). He used us. He manipulated us. We were his first victim.
And he feels bad about it at first. Note how Dark’s look changes after he throws us out? Because now we can see what he truly is; a broken man. He had so much trust in Mark, in us. He was a genuine, good and kind hearted man. He neglected his other friends for Mark only to then find himself betrayed by Mark or whatever he had unleashed that day. He is troubled, his emotions are a whirlwind and all the while he has to keep his anger inside. After all, Damien has a short and low temper. Guilty about what happened, he looks up at you.
Reminds himself that he has a goal now; take revenge. Looks at you now with almost disgust to make you feel even worse. This is a reflection of his own emotions that very moment. We are supposed to feel exactly what Damien felt. Betrayal, fear, loneliness. An end. The mirror itself is a genius metaphor for this.
He then leaves us. Clearly guided by rage and hatred and you can FEEL that, I get goosebumps just thinking about this. (@markiplier frickin amazing acting, dude!) Anyway, here he makes up his mind to take back control over what is rightfully his. Mark; his own body.
We are then left in darkness, questioning and clueless, sad and quite literally broken.
Dark’s origin, ladies and gentlemen.
(just my take on this. It’s probably, like, super wrong lmao also sorry for the long post ilyall)
I can't get enough of your art! I love it so much. But, I'm super depressed, from some bad news, concerning my fiancé's health... could I maybe get something super cute? Anything haikyuu, or even an oc you might have. Please and thanks a bunch
Ahhh, I hope everything will get better soon, anon! Meanwhile have some sappy older bokuros~
uhh… i know there are rumors that the repack date is september 4th but umm… there’s literally gonna be a full moon on september 6th (09/06) which is eerily the same numbers as when the teasers were released on the day of the eclipse at 09:06:43 AM PDT so uhhh… just… keep that in mind i guess
probably gonna get slammed with anon hate for this but like…
much of the ableism towards Autistic people doesn’t happen “because we’re Autistic,” it happens because we’re weird.
now consider that… and now consider what some of the most common insults are here on tumblr.
weird, gross, embarrassing, cringeworthy… all insults based on that same idea of “you are different and we don’t like you.”
and now consider the constant mocking of “just trying to be special” and “Not Like Other Girls™” that is constantly seen on tumblr.
from early childhood, we are taught and conditioned to know that any deviation from the norm will be punished. for Autistic people, who make up a big portion of what is usually thought of as tumblr’s userbase, this conditioning is often increased tenfold by coercive “therapies” such as ABA and Social Thinking.
the fact that so much of tumblr’s culture is based on strict deviation from the norm– often citing “weird, embarrassing, cringeworthy, just trying to be special” as offenses– is regressive. and as an Autistic person, I would go so far as to say that it is at least somewhat rooted in ableism.
if you’re Autistic and you do this, especially if you’re a survivor of coercive behavioral and social treatments designed to make you “normal,” please think about why you take part in this treatment of others. I know you’ve been hurt, and overcoming internalized ableism is hard. I’m here to help.
if you’re allistic and you do this, please stop. just stop. we’ve already been through enough.
also yes, allistics can reblog this. please do, in fact.
Somewhere along the way, Derek’s pack keeps dying, one by one, and he loses the control he’s never really had. Stiles, turned true alpha in part thanks to his human pack - Scott, recently acquainted with magic, Lydia, genius and a specialist on all things supernatural and Allison, your friendly neighborhood werewolf hunter - knows that once the pack of Alphas is done with Derek’s pack, they will come after his and he won’t be able to protect them how he should.
Derek is not a fan of Stiles and his band of merry misfits, who keep appearing and helping him, saving him and the rest of his pack multiple times. The night Isaac and Cora almost die, Derek tries to tell Stiles that they can do without the help of humans and a boy turned werewolf (and then alpha) by accident.