he just wants her to remember the past that elluded her reincarnated mind.
Tail was—no, it still is—our home.”
wishes she could remember,” the girl told him, tugging the ribbon attached to
her school uniform. “But all Juvia really knows is growing up in an orphanage
he tell you about Fairy Tail?” Gray prodded.
supposes he mentioned it once or twice.” Juvia sighed. “Perhaps he stopped
because Juvia had no idea what he was talking about.”
“Fairy Tail was a guild in our past life in the other world.”
looked terribly confused, and Gray mentally cursed at Gajeel for not explaining
it as soon as the iron dragon slayer regained his memory. “It’s a shared memory
between all of us. Professor Makarov, Lucy, Erza, Natsu, Mirajane, Cana—everyone. It’s the life we led before we reincarnated into
ourselves again. Here. In a different world.”
is a different world from our past lives?”
nodded. “In our past life, there was magic. I was an ice mage. You were a water
She looked like she didn’t want to believe him, but when the
blue-haired girl’s eyes widened, Gray wondered if he had triggered some
sort of memory.
“Juvia is a swimmer,” she admitted. “She has always loved the
water, for some strange reason.”
you like the rain?”
loves the rain.”
flashed her a smile. “That’s good.”
light red dusted her pale cheeks. For a moment Juvia blinked at him, as if she
was trying to remember the memories taken away from her.
me more, Gray-sama.”
afternoon was spent in deep conversation. He told her about the rain that plagued her
entire life and their very first battle. He told her about Tenrou, the way she
had convinced Meredy to take their side. He told her about his Deliora, Ur, his
father, Avatar, Zeref, E.N.D..
listened with rapt attention.
was something familiar about the way she responded to his stories. It was as if
he was taken back in time, and he was sitting beside Juvia Lockser, recalling
his adventures with Team Natsu in the comfort of a cozy house they called
is sorry she doesn’t remember.”
a slow process,” Gray said, shaking his head. “Your memories will return soon.”
if Juvia can’t remember because her past self wanted to forget?”
I live for the ones I love!
what if she did, Gray-sama?” Her eyes looked pained as she looked at him. “What
if I did?”
stared at her then, unable to respond.
Noticing his discomfort, she shifted the conversation. “What was Juvia like, Gray-sama?”
“You were a strong mage who
loved your friends.” Who loved me.
Your love was a slow burn.
could almost see her eyes burst into flames whenever she had declared her love for
him, shining like the sun she had longed to see. At first, he didn’t understand
her wild proclamations, her gifts, her overflowing love for him, and in
laughed softly, locks of blue rolling off her shoulder as she shifted her
position. Tilting her head to the side, she stared at him in curiosity.
“Sorry, that must have been an awkward question.”
alright,” Gray replied, his eyes narrowing.
was eccentric in her own way. Juvia could fend off females who he couldn’t care
less about. Juvia could hide behind a pillar just so she could watch him from
afar. Juvia could make regular days anniversaries he’s never even heard of.
Juvia could also light up a room with her smile. Juvia could make him feel the
warmth he had craved ever since he was a child. Juvia could spread butterflies
in the inside of his stomach, making it lurch and churn whenever she was
is sorry she can’t remember.”
okay.” Because you’re alive.
remembered the way her flames began to lick the tips of the iceberg called his
heart. Which was ironic, because she was a mage who specialized in manipulating
memory forms in his mind. He had just been told that the water mage had
sacrificed herself in order to save Cana.
had taken a seat beside her in the hospital bed, dropping the flowers Lucy had
told him to give the water mage.
he said almost guiltily. Juvia was new to the guild, and here she was, lying on
one of their beds. “You alright?”
is doing great,” she told him. There wasn’t a hint of sarcasm or malice in
her tone. A smile was growing on her lips, and she beamed at him, as if the
pain she was feeling was non-existent. “Juvia is happy Gray-sama came to
was lying on the bed, her water body suffering because it was electrocuted and yet she still had the
audacity to grin just because he graced her with his presence. This selfless
girl who was willing to sacrifice herself just so her friends would survive—
short hair fanned out on the pillow in light waves. Her pale face was slowly
regaining its natural color (thanks to Wendy, no doubt). The blue in her eyes
stared at him, hoping to elicit a response.
still looked the same.
The current Juvia raised an eyebrow at him. “Gray-sama?”
he said dismissively. “I just remembered something.” Juvia nooded in understanding, and Gray continued, smirking, “You know, you used to call
me Gray-sama back then too.”
cheeks were once again dusted with red. “Perhaps some things never change.”
He fell silent before he decided to bypass his own defenses.
fell in love with me back then.”
own cheeks were starting to burn, but it was a detail he felt she should know of. Gray’s looked at her, watching
her face contort from confusion to realization. She looked away from his
He spoke before he could stop himself. “You died because you wanted to protect me.”
opened and closed her mouth, at a loss for words. He pushed on, recalling
memories stowed away in his mind. Memories that gave him nightmares. Memories that left him yearning for her in the middle of the night, eyes filled with tears, arms seeking the familiar warmth of the water mage.
was an ice wizard. His name was Invel.” Gray looked away, catching sight of Natsu
petting his cat, Happy (which he had been told numerous times not to bring to
school, but of course, Natsu was Natsu). “He conjured a spell called ‘Ice Lock’
that turned us against each other. ”
returned his gaze towards Juvia, and she motioned for him to continue.
was a chain that linked at a collar that was wrapped around our necks.” Gray
frowned. “It was either I kill you, or you kill me.”
was a haze of water and ice, and the ground was covered with their blood. Of
all the things Juvia didn’t want to do, Gray knew it was to hurt him.
attacked, you attacked. It was a mess.” He sighed. “I remember you shouting
that your body was far too small for the overflowing feelings to ever be
imprisoned in it.”
spoke. “Juvia didn’t know she was capable of having that kind of passion to a
person she loved.”
told me that words couldn’t express how thankful you were to have met me,” Gray
said, almost bitterly. “Then you killed yourself so I could live.”
a long time, none of them said a word.
She broke the silence. “Did you love Juvia, Gray-sama?”
Dark eyes met sapphire. Juvia was still hoping. Even in her new life. He broke their gaze.
“Gryffindor!” The hat bellowed and as the last syllabus echoed into
nothingness, there was silence in the hall, till Principal Minami started
clapping. Other applauses followed, but Eli took no notice of it, whipping off
the hat as she made her way towards the tables filled with colours that was
honestly too bright for her eyes.
Out of the corner of her eye, she spotted the girl from before, giving
her a gentle smile like when they first met in the carriage. Unsure with how to
respond, Eli corked her head away, stealing another glance after she passed by
the Slytherin’s tables. The smile on Nozomi’s face was gone, replaced with one
that was mildly hurt, before Yazawa took her attention away from the newly
“But the war had touched her. She’d changed, and she’d known she was changing. The war had revealed a hidden part of her soul. She alone, of all of us, she alone liked it. Loved it, even. She had enjoyed the fight.”
This was a really, really hard choice. When I was a kid, I loved Cassie’s books and Rachel’s books the most. Honestly, if I had a choice, I would go for one of theirs over the boys’, because I was a stupid kid who wanted more female narrators/warriors kicking ass and taking names. Now that I’m older and I’ve done a complete reread of the whole series, I just… there are so many reasons to love all of them, equally, and the best part is that the reasons are all different. I have so many feelings for each and every one of these characters; it’s actually ridiculous.