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Message for Heather

During the weekend of Gallifrey One (February 17 - 19), my friend Heather had a bad seizure after Saturday’s events and was briefly hospitalized. It was there she discovered the breast cancer she was fighting in 2016 metastasized into her brain. I’ve known her husband, Stephan, for many years during my San Diego Comic Con days, and after hearing this horrible news, I wanted to do something nice for them both.

After Gallifrey One ended, I sent a request to Matt Lucas on Twitter to see if he and the other cast members could make a video for Heather. Matt responded and told me to email his agency, Troika Talent, to provide further information. Once I did all that, I only waited a few days. I received an email back on March 1st from his agent with this video attached. While working on the episode, World Enough and Time, Matt filmed himself, Pearl, Peter, and Michelle a get-well-soon message for Heather.

I’m only posting this because Series 10 is done filming and Heather wants to also post it online. Matt also said it was okay to share after the episode aired.

I’m very grateful they did this. It was one of the most thoughtful, kindest, and sweetest gestures the main Doctor Who cast ever did for my friends! 😊💕

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OHHHH MY GOD YOU GUYS!!! THIS,, IS THE BEST EARLY BIRTHDAY GIFT i’M cR y INg

GIVEAWAY TIME!

Alrighty, this starts a new section of milestones! and yes i’m cryinf in that picture bc i’m a baby like that,, SO! Here’s how it’s done.

1st place winner - full body of their Candy + guy/girl.

2nd place winner - waist up of their Candy + guy/girl.

3rd place winner - bust of their Candy + guy/girl.

1. Reblog this post with a picture of your Candy and your favorite girl/guy.

2. Tell me what the two of them would do together. Ice cream date, waterpark, whatever tbh.

3. annnd hope you end up being one of the three! <3 (re-blogging doubles your chances!)

yeah i doubt this’ll be re-blogged but yoo,, good luck!

bts voice meme thing
bts voice meme thing

re-uploading bc tumblr messed up the 1st time (why???)

i was tagged by @c-cygnus @jjeonguk and @tanktoptiger (twice… skjdks im so sorry) to do this and… haha here it finally is?? thanks for tagging, sorry abt my voice, the bg noise, my rambling (which i tried to minimise, ok 💕💕💕💕💕).

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REDOING THE ART RAFFLE

Okay, one last event before I plunge into internal darkness of my sad lonely attention and affection craving heart . For real this time, art raffle. You must be following me and reblog this. You’ll be given a random number to be drawn later.

1st Place : Full body drawing
2nd Place : Top torso drawing
3rd place : Head to shoulders drawing

Please do attend this :)
And no, I will not be abandoning Angsty. I love my angsty lil boi.

-Love, Mun Meow

Originally posted by catsandartistproblems

30 Questions Tag!

I was tagged by the lovely @reddieforyou (Thank you so much! I love your blog ^_^)

Rules: Answer thirty questions, then tag twenty blogs you would like to know better. 

1. Nicknames
Celie, Celia, CC, Yaya

2. Gender
Demigirl (they/them or she/her)

3. Star sign
Libra sun, moon, and rising

4. Height
5'6

5. Time
11:04 a.m.

6. Birthday
October 1st

7. Favorite bands
Simon and Garfunkel, Lord Huron, The Neighborhood, Queen, The Who

8. Favorite solo artists
Lorn, Donovan, Cat Stevens, Joan Baez, David Bowie

9. Song stuck in my head
Matt Maeson - Straight Razor 

10. Last movie watched
Doctor Strange

11. Last show watched
I forget what it’s called but it was one of the Magi animes on netflix ahaha

12. When did I create my blog
January 2014 I think? This used to be a superwholock blog xD

13. What do I post
Witchcraft, pagan stuff, art, nature, vegan stuff, etc. 

14. Last thing I googled
“what is showing at the melody drive in theatre” 

15. Do you have other blogs
Yup! I have a knitting/crochet blog called @fibrespace and a personal/meme blog called @magadh

16. Do you get asks
Yup, I get a few every day. Most are witchy questions or reading requests

17. Why did you choose your url
Because I like thyme and because I’m a witch… and lowkey because I like puns

18. Following 
468

19. Followers
4,451

20. Favorite colors
A pale sage green and a light lavender are beautiful together, but I also appreciate red and teal (my room is red/teal themed but my blog is green/purple so yeah)

21. Average hours of sleep
6-8 (I go to bed at like 2 a.m. and wake up at 8 or 9)

22. Lucky number
9

23. Instruments
I used to play the oboe in my school’s band but nothing rn

24. What am I wearing
A captain kirk t-shirt and some running shorts (never been used for their intended purpose bc I’m lazy xD)

25. How many blankets I sleep with
2

26. Dream job
Lab work at a national museum? Idk dude just give me something where I don’t have to deal with living humans very much haha

27. Dream trip
Wandering around Ireland and Scotland for a month in the summer

28. Favorite food
Rice with peanut butter, soy sauce, and sriracha… I know it sounds gross but hear me out, its poor man’s pad thai

29. Nationality
American, ethnically Irish and Dutch 

30. Favorite song now
Matt Maeson - Straight Razor 


I tag the following.

@fuck-you-im-magic

@runes-and-relics

@theblackarowana

@witch1e

@indicaflowergoddess

@lvminara

@grassywitch

@devotee-of-hecate

@herbs-and-stuff

@witchycottageowl

And anyone else that might want to do it! I feel like I’ve probably already tagged most of my followers in one of these so feel free to do it if I’ve missed you ^^’

So ,I’m a music teacher and every year we have what are called “walk through observations”. Basically, this means that 4 times a year the principal or vice principal comes into my class to assess my teaching. Fine. Sure. No problem.
Well, today I was doing an activity with my 1st graders called “Musical Groceries”. Basically, they make up a fake shopping list and then together we figure out what the rhythm of the words on the list is. To do that, a small group of students plays the beat on the conga drum while the rest of the students move around the room while chanting the word. It sounds weird but it’s a great way for the kids to figure out the relationship between syllables and rhythm.
They quickly get bored of walking the rhythm so I let them come up with their own ways of moving around the room.( skipping, hopping, etc) One student suggested they hop around the room like frogs, way down low to the ground. Okay fine.
Or it was fine until my vice principal walked in to do my observation only to find 20 seven year olds hopping around the room like a hoard of little hob-goblins, rhythmically chanting “BREAD! BREAD! BREAD!” while five other kids played ominous beats in a drum circle.
I have never seen anyone look so confused in my life and I really don’t want to know the rating I got on my observation.

how terrifying, to be aging and girl. at 18 i was told by men that i was “the perfect age,” and i still thought it was a compliment. is it because at 20 i figured out how sharp those words were. i felt old at 21, felt like if grey hairs came and my spine cracked i was done for. how scary. i am reminded constantly by “realistic” ideas in fantasy novels that i should have five kids.

my life feels short. like it is squeezed into my twenties. like at 30 i become ghost, just another mother or hard worker or both, just another background character. like if i am not settled and making a difference by 27 i should just give up already. is this something men feel? like a clock is painted on their back, one hand warning: your beauty is something you are valued for and it is something you cannot get back.

and why was i only beautiful, i wonder, at 18 on a riverbank. i’m told often my childish face is a blessing. that i shouldn’t want to look older. one told me i was a trap falling: “you look young but you’re not” he said to me, “it kind of led me on”. am i not young? 

maybe i am wrong. maybe it’s just how we all feel, getting old, like time is slipping from us. maybe men do worry that they will be alone forever if they don’t settle by thirty, maybe it’s even because they think they’ll turn ugly. maybe we all squish our lives into that incredibly young decade. what do i know. i’m still learning.

123. The houses all respond to a member coming out as LGBTQ+ differently:

Gryffindor:

  •  "Wait, you’re not straight" “Nope,” “Haha, nice”
  • Basically every month is pride month in the Gryffindor house
  • “THERE’S MY FAVORITE GAY!“
  • “Yo, do you know my aunt? She’s lesbian,” “Do-do you think everyone in the LGBTQ+ community know each other?” “Well, yeah that’s how it works right?” “I-no!”
  • A lot of the wizard-raised ones just kinda don’t get labels so whenever they introduce they also include identities
  • “This is Sarah, she is muggle born, from London, and she is like, super bi so there ya go,“
  • Always wanting to find out more about it
  • “So how do you like… like when you… you know… what’s it like?” “Stop asking.”
  • Are the first to say if they’re questioning

Hufflepuff: 

  • “I’m gay,“ “Well, I suppose we all are a little gay, am I right or am I right?” 
  • Lots of hugs and squeaks when they find out because they are so proud of you for coming out 
  • Rainbow pride flags all around the common room (With their other civil rights posters)
  • Sometimes they all wear rainbow stickers or rainbow glitter on their faces 
  • “I’m so happy you are pansexual,” “Why?” “Because!! You are being you!! And I love that and I love you and hell yeah for expressing yourself!!” 
  • While introducing the first years: “So here is the famous Hufflepuff common room. Here we have the Hufflegays,” 
  • This is followed by cheers from the LGBTQ+ students 

Ravenclaw:

  • “I’m not straight,” “Yeah, no kidding,” “Wait, you know?” “Yeah, we knew this whole time, it was pretty obvious.” 
  • No one dares say being LGBTQ+ is the new trend because last time someone said that to Ravenclaw, they threw down. 
  • “Oh really, Sharon? It’s a new trend? Well according to my resources in 1971, July 1st, the United Kingdom had a magazine called International Times that made personal ads for gay men. That same year, November 1st, Canada’s first gay rights magazine came out. It was called The Body Politic. So I am sorry, Sharon, that we, as a society, have progressed so that now more people can open about their sexuality. I really do apologize.“ 
  • This house actually has the most LGBTQ+ students. 
  • &
  • They always march in pride parades during the summer 
  • "GAY AND PROUD! QUEER AND LOUD!nbsp;
  • •Doesn’t treat you any differently because of your sexuality because really, who cares? 
  • Rewriting rewritten history

Slytherin:  

  • "I’m bisexual” “Aren’t we all?" 
  • God bless the person who insults a member of Slytherin for being LGBTQ+ because when it comes to revenge, Slytherin is ruthless. 
  • Things get real interesting with the hexes… 
  •  "I’m gay” “My dog’s gay,” “That’s cool how do you know?” He told me” “Nice,“ 
  • Has a "Queer Wizard Club” open to all 
  • Pureblood Grandparents: "I too was gay back in my day…“ 
  • I mean all your historic faves are 
  • Honestly, the LGBTQ+ members in Slytherin kick ass so the straight members don’t even care about the others sexuality, they just want to see how ambitious/cunning you are
  • "How much do you want to bet that Salazar Slytherin was gay?” “Yeah, gay for Gryffindor," 
  • If your parents are against your sexuality and emotionally or physically abuse you in any way, you are always welcome to stay at another Slytherin’s house over the break

requested by @hannahpanda04

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Today is Hourly Comics Day and I decided to participate! Hourly Comics Day happens every February 1st, and basically you just draw a comic of whatever you’re doing each hour of the day. I haven’t done it in years, mostly due to never having time, but I really wanted to do something dumb & fun & put it on the internet, so … here we are. :) Rather than posting these one at a time, I’m gonna post ‘em in batches. Here’s the first half of my day. 

  • Moon in the 1st house:
  • "I'm emotional. The sky must feel it and know it. I will make rain
  • Moon in the 2nd house:
  • "I'm emotional. I need to spend all my money on lipstick and dresses and anything on 'sale"'
  • Moon in the 3rd house:
  • "I'm emotional. I better make a long blog post or tell everybody"
  • Moon in the 4th house:
  • "I'm emotional. I need my bed. I need my home. I need my pillow. I need cuddles"
  • Moon in the 5th house:
  • "I'm emotional. It's time to perform!"
  • Moon in the 6th house:
  • "I'm emotional. But why do I have feelings at all when they are so disordered and vulgar. They should be better"
  • Moon in the 7th house:
  • "I'm emotional. And everyone around me has a sad face too. Look what I do to people"
  • Moon in the 8th house:
  • "I'm emotional. Voices from the unconscious are ridiculing me again"
  • Moon in the 9th house:
  • "I'm emotional. I need to run away. I need to be anywhere but here"
  • Moon in the 10th house:
  • "I'm emotional. Let's evaluate all the ways I have failed"
  • Moon in the 11th house:
  • "I'm emotional. I need to save the world"
  • Moon in the 12th house:
  • "I'm emotional. I better hide, I better get away from people, or it won't stop"

I saw some posts today that were claiming that Pearl never says “sorry” and i just had to do it to em you know?? So here’s a compilation of Pearl saying sorry! 

And fun fact–I used my script I wrote to look through the transcripts and found that if you rank the characters in terms of the number of lines in which they say “sorry”, this is the breakdown:

  • 1st place: Steven
  • 2nd/3rd place: Pearl and Greg (tie)
  • 4th place: Amethyst
  • 5th/6th place: Garnet and Peridot (tie)

So next time someone says “Pearl doesn’t apologize when she does something wrong”, whip out this video and remind them that Pearl actually apologizes more than anyone else other than the titular character–she makes mistakes and learns from them, which is why she is a well developed, multifaceted, complex character.

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6/100 Days of Productivity // wednesday 1st March 2017

Spending today doing some reading for my politics essay on Marx. The books I needed were only available in the Historical Seeley Library, so that is where I went!

I’m not feeling great today, after a few months that appeared to be relatively depression-less, the last week has been a bit of a struggle, since my workload has been more intense than usual, and thus I’ve been neglecting spending time with friends and looking after myself. Getting myself dressed and out of college was more of a struggle than usual, but I am pleased that I did it! Now that I have picked up on this however, I’m going to try and work on this, even if the workload doesn’t really let up for another few weeks.

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Yeah so this is kind of a funny story. 1st pic is Lars from the pilot episode of steven universe, around the time og picture two someone said on tumblr that i looked like Lars (this was from 2014 or something). I see that now. Yesterday i dyed my hair pastel pink, and tonight i watched the latest episodes of steven universe from season 5. I cried so many times. Buy especially when Lars turned pink!!! Lars has changed and so have I (lol) but I really can relate. I just had to do a low key cosplay of Lars because we are so similar!!! And lol I also have had Ginger hair like Lars what. Is. It. With. Me. Making. Patterns. Everywhere. Idk I just thought this was cute. And yeah who doesn’t love Steven Universe???

Self Care

It’s Mental Health Month. May 1st. The beginning of it. I just want to post some tips on what I find useful when I feel anxious, depressed or lonely. Some tips on how to care for yourself mixed in here too. I know what it’s like to feel like nothing is going to work out and you feel like there is no point anymore. I still get sad from time to time but here is what I try to do to lower those horrible feelings. 


  1. Music 
    When I feel down I put on my chill playlist and listen to the songs. Not just recognize that the song is playing. I listen to every word, every beat, every instrument that makes a sound. I listen so hard that I forget everything else around me and forget everything that is going on in my head for a while. This actually really helps and especially if it’s a slow song, something that matches my mood. 
  2. Reading 
    Reading is one of my favourite things to do. I’m in love with words. And getting deep into one of my favourite books helps me forget for a while. Grab something to drink and maybe a snack, find a quiet and comfy place to relax and let yourself fall into a book. 
  3. Eat 
    When I feel depressed my appetite can go away pretty quickly. But if you don’t eat, you’ll feel even more tired and low. And that’s not good. So eat. Not junk food. Maybe a treat every now and again but make sure to eat healthy too. Fruit or vegetables. Maybe make some type of sandwhich or maybe eat a bowl of porridge. Whatever you want to make. But remember, not always junk food. And drink lot’s and lot’s of water. 
  4. Shower or bath 
    If you feel all ugh, and ew take a long warm shower or a bath full of bubbles. Taking a shower or bath might help you feel more relaxed and feel more taken care of. And keeping yourself fresh and clean will help help boost your system. 
  5. Fresh air 
    When I’m down, I get lazy. So the whole ‘take a long walk’ thing doesn’t go with me. What I like to do instead is open a window and stand there or take a chair and sit near there. I’m getting fresh air into my lungs which is good and I don’t need to get up and go outside to do it. Now getting exercise is a good thing to do too because it’ll boost your system also. But when you really can’t get up and walk far, just go to a window and read or listen to music.
  6. Cry 
    Yes crying is on this list. When you really need to let those tears out, just do it. If you’re in a place you feel comfortable enough to do it. Let it all out, for however long you need to. Crying doesn’t make you weak or a loser or whatever you think it makes you. It helps you. Instead of holding all those feelings in, you can let them out by crying. So just do it because a cry every now and again, will make you feel a little better. Hopefully. 
  7. Decorate and change it up
    This may be an odd one but it helps me. When I’m sad I’ll look up some quotes that I really like, write them on some paper and decorate the paper and stick it on my wall. Or sometimes I sift things around. If I think something in my room would look better in a different position then I’ll move it. I’ll maybe take some things down and hang something new up instead. Tidy my room too if it needs it. This helps because I’m focusing on other things. Where will this go? Does this look good on this wall? Things like that. Try it and see. 
  8.  Breathe 
    When I feel like I can’t breathe, I remember that I just need to take a minute. Look at my surroundings. What’s the colour of the walls? Breathe. What’s in the room? Breathe. What’s the weather like outside? Breathe. What’s my favourite food? Breathe. Do I have any plans this week? Breathe. Ask yourself some questions. Answer them and breathe. Breathe, breathe and breathe. Don’t let you make yourself small. Think bigger than what that stupid annoying voice in your head is telling you. Breathe. Because you’re worth it.

I hope these tips helped. I really do. And please, please REMEMBER… you are beautiful. You are so amazing and this world needs you in it. Maybe you feel like no one cares. But I guarantee you there is somebody out there who thinks the world of you. You are somebody’s moon. You’re that person who lights up the darkness for them. Don’t let your light go out. Stay strong and remember to love yourself and take care of yourself. You guys are more than welcome to ask me something if you need any advice or have any questions. The door is open and you are welcome. 

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The way to your house is too short
I’ll see you, same time tomorrow 

♡ happy 1st birthday, Aju Nice !  ♡

Black Girl, NYC

Greetings people. I identify as a Black female who was born and raised in NYC. I am slowly progressing through my study of education and history in college. Other then that, I spend (probably) an unhealthy amount of time reading and writing sci fi and fantasy. But by high school, I got sick and tired of the same story featuring blonds and brunettes saving the day with their straight, lean male heroes so I turned to my librarian seeking something new. She pointed to Octavia Butler and the rest was history. I’ve been seeking diversity in media ever since.

Family life and Culture

I grew as the middle child of six siblings with my single mother and grandparents. Yes, my working-class household fits the stereotype. We even have an absent father *sighs* But, hey shit happens. And with the biological father turns out not to be the best father figure, shit had to go right out the door. Yup. But make no mistake that this is a norm. Most households on my block do have both parents involved in their children’s lives. Our circumstances called for us to have one. That’s all.

The house was full, loud and rambunctious. We made up a good portion of the children on the block (unsurprising) and basically ran it. There’s a whole novel that could be fleshed out of my childhood if I wanted to. Our neighborhood is very tight knit. Next door neighbors were treated like Aunts and Uncles. When summer came around, we were sometimes divided into groups as the parents who were off from work overlooked us while braiding our heads. Blackouts became an all night bbq and sleepover on each other’s porches. Crooklyn by Spike Lee was a good representation of what it was like in fact. Somewhat. Minus the brownstones, plus a couple more fights (lol).

My grandma was a nurse who’s pretty big on us knowing our family history. She made sure to talk a lot about our Gullah Geechee roots. We also had some Dominican culture influence since her closest friend and our Madrina was, well, Dominican. But she is fairly strict on gender norms and how my sisters and I should act especially with brothers. She antagonized me the most growing up because I continued to ignore this. We don’t get along but i can’t say i don’t get why she’s the way she is. She has a pretty dark past. My mother, a latchkey kid of the finest stock, is more laid back and gives all of us free range to make our own mistakes. Most times. Other times, she’d rather lecture us. Depends on our crime.

I don’t know what my grandpa used to do. He retired waaaaay before my grandmother. I also don’t know much about his culture. He’s 1st gen Jamaican who fully assimilated into American culture. Well, beside his food choices. Now, he gambles and goes to church. When I was younger, he used to teach us how to gamble too. And how to cheat and not get caught. We got a lot of free fast food while he taught us. He has gotten more frugal the older he got. And more isolated.

Dating and Relationships.

I don’t date. I have no interest. Well, no, that’s not exactly true. I’ve considered it but I rather have not seek out anything outside of platonic right now. I have a tight knit circle of friends and several other groups of friends I associate with depending on the activity. I’m realizing it seems like I’m using the term “friends” loosely but I swear I’m not. I’m a virgin and I feel nothing about being one until someone goes “*gasp* You’re a virgin really?” and then I end up on high defense saying “So?” Believe or not, that messed with me a lot.

My love life and lack of interest in having one has always been a struggle. In middle school, the group of friends I hung with were becoming more infatuated with love and sex. Yes, middle school, fifth through eighth grade, ages nine to thirteen. But, when they would talked about who’s hot or not, they would look at me funny when I didn’t join in the discussion. Instead of explaining myself, I simply copied other’s reactions and gushed along with them. This instinct followed me through High school til stopped out of annoyance. I became a listener and adviser in their relationships because I really do love stories in many shapes and forms. And I would never turn down hearing a story.

Language

My primary language is English and AAVE. I’ve been living in a neighborhood filled with Blacks and Latinx. Most of my friends are Black and Lantinx. I didn’t meet a white person my age until college. Okay that’s a partial lie. I’ve been in a summer camp that was made up of predominantly white children. But as the only black kid in my age range, I was sorta uncomfortable. I never made lasting friends there. After High School, I spent a year abroad in Tena, Ecuador where I learned Spanish and Kichwa. I still suck at both languages.

Clothing

Lots of my clothes when I was younger were borrowed or hand-me-downs. Half of them still are. It’s like thrift shopping without the hiked prices thanks to its popularity by rich white people (Thanks rich white people!) All my siblings’ taste varies. In my case, I’m fond of combining loose and tight clothing (tight jeans and a loose sweater/ baggy jeans and a tight top). No makeup. Silver accessories.

I used to have a short bob cut permed. I hated it. But I rather a perm then getting my hair straightened with a hot comb because the back of my neck and big ears would always get burned. It wasn’t until I made a friend with a natural afro that I realized my natural hair was even an option.

Academics

Lol I was a nerd with bad grades.

Religion

My family practices Santeria, which has historical roots in both Catholicism and Yoruba thanks to slavery (Yay slavery!). However, because the religion is not fully accepted or well-known, I tend to say I’m simply Catholic if asked. Apparently, a Black Catholic is hard to believe. It is assumed all Black folks are Baptists or some branch of Christianity. I have no idea where that stereotype came from. But I can give some guess. (*cough cough* Tyler Perry….).  

As I stated before, I love scifi and fantasy. I especially love urban fantasy involving witches. I blame this love on Practical Magic and Eve’s Bayou, my childhood faves. It’s because of this love that I wish to see more stories with witches of color. And no, I don’t mean that one evil/mysterious southern/Caribbean Voodoo/Hoodoo witch hollywood loves to portray so much. That always plays into the “Black is evil” trope. Give me some damn variety!

I would squeal so hard if the mythology involved in a story isn’t even Eurocentric. I’m not joking. This is serious. When my religion was simply hinted at in the Raven Boys series (It was also a great way of making even more obvious that the character was definitely not white.) and Kenya Wright’s Habitat series, I squealed. All the authors did was write the names of some of the Orishas and I couldn’t help but put my phone down for a moment and inwardly scream with glee. That being said, if a writer does decide to use afrocentric or any religion involving “witchcraft” as a basis, I would personally ask that they make sure is is not a closed religion.

Santeria is, in fact, a closed religion. And while I don’t mind mentions of it in fantasy and even a main character stating they practice it, do not go any further than that. Don’t even research the practices within the religion other than what is public knowledge (And if you don’t have any public knowledge, just ask) Respect that there’s a limit. Anything further spelunking  is consider rude, disgusting, disrespectful and dangerous. There’s things that I don’t even know because I haven’t been properly initiated. And the internet has a lot of these practices exposed when it shouldn’t be so please don’t look into it. Please.

Food

Most of the cooking in the house has been done by my grandmother. Because of her various relationships, our food has always been a mixture of Black American, Gullah, Lantinx and Caribbean influences. It is so good. So, so good!

The only thing I don’t eat of hers is her seafood gumbo because I don’t like shellfish. One of my sisters said I should have my “black card” taken for my distaste. I said she could take it if she can name more black movies than me. She still can’t take it. My other sister wishes we could switch places because she loves crab but is allergic. The crazy girl actually sends her husband to buy some benadryl so she can eat some if we ever have some on the table. Smh. Siblings.  

Holidays

My family on both sides are quite fond of reunions. On my grandpa’s side, the family uses Fourth of July and Christmas to get together. On my grandma’s side, they tend to host annual summer reunion and send out RSVP invitations complete with schedules of the whole two to three day event. I didn’t mention this under my family life, but both sides of my family are boujee to different degrees. Lots of black sorors and frats members on both sides. I can’t believe that slipped my mind typing.

I’m a little iffy with Christmas. It’s more of a holiday for the older generation and our niece and nephews. The younger generation, however, don’t particularly care for the holiday. For some of us, it’s because it’s not really Jesus’s Birthday and Santa was whitewashed. For others, it’s because we don’t care to feed into the corporate holiday. For most of us, it’s a combination of the two. But we do love getting together when we can. My older sister and I have conspired to celebrate kwanzaa instead for the past two years. So far, it hasn’t grasped the interest of anyone else in the family.

Struggles

  • Being nerds from a young age, my siblings and I have been called “Oreos” or“Not really black” by kids in school on more than one occasion. We shut them down by fighting. Probably not the best strategy but it was best one I could think of in middle school and below. Made it easier to go back to reading my manga.

  • I got compared to my sisters a lot. It was the absolutely most annoying thing ever. And a major source of my insecurities growing older.

  • Need I address colorism? My highschool was filled with it. #TeamLight v #TeamDark. I was on neither team, because in the region I live, skin color was a pretty long spectrum. I fell in the between. Who came up with this?

  • I’ll admit it. I hate my own tears. They make me feel weak. Which isn’t true…I know. But, it is a mentality I always had. I have depression and PTSD. This isn’t really a secret. I tell people if I’m asked. But have you ever had someone look at you and say, “Really? You don’t seem like the type.” ……

  • I am a black female. I’ve been labelled “Strong” and “Independent” the older I got. By my mother. By my siblings. By my peers. And I get those labels. Even from friends. I loved those labels. I call myself by those labels. I mean, who doesn’t want to be seen as strong and independent? Those are positive affirmations, right? I think they would be. If that wasn’t all the positive labels we could get. Somehow, society has decided we are beings that are incapable of being multifaceted. I was indirectly taught to hate my own tears because black girls don’t cry. You can’t cry and be strong. What a terrible mantra fed to black girl at a young age. So, instead you tell everyone “It’s fine.”

I told my therapist it was fine. Until she told me straight up it was not fine. And it was okay to cry. I don’t like to cry. But I still (involuntarily) did it.

Things I’d like to see less of/Things I’d like to see more of:

  • I’m sick and tired of seeing black and latinx folks being portrayed as only fantasy gangs members. We are not only gang members. That’s a terrible popular myth the media put out there and I hate it even more so when it’s portrayed in SFF genre..

  • I’m tired of having one black person in a novel being described as having skin the color of “midnight.” And he’s (it’s always a he) not even that important to the story

  • I hate how every time someone decides to add a person of color, they have to be ambiguous brown. I’m not saying ambiguously brown don’t exist and don’t need representation but is it really that had for a dark brown skin person to play a major role in a story that’s not about slavery? Speaking of which….

  • Why we always gotta be slaves? Or better yet….

  • Why don’t we exist at all in High fantasy stories? Urban fantasy? Brooklyn wasn’t always the gentrified white town it is now. Still isn’t. How are you erasing people of color from NYC??? We make up way too much of the population to be completely erased

  • Stop racial coding other creatures to surround your white human characters. Especially as the bad guys. That’s just shitty writing. Step up your game!

  • I love Black love

  • I love Gay love. I wish more would follow moonlight’s example and show poc are gay too and gay doesn’t always equal to stereotypical femininity.

  • I love interracial love HOWEVER, can we pair people of color with other people of color as well? I’m starting to hate seeing it always a white person paired with a Poc. Variety damnit!

  • Friendships between boys and girls that don’t transform into love.

  • Friendships between girls that didn’t start out as a rivalry.

  • Different body types besides the skinny and tall. Make a main character that’s fat for once. It’s not a problem.

  • Magical characters of color that aren’t “Noble Savages” or “Wise Monks” that used their magic for personal gain for once instead of waiting for the white hero to come.

  • Nerdy black characters who aren’t 100% competent and cries. One that isn’t in a five token band that always gonna be compare to the white main character. Make the nerd the main character!

That’s all I can think of at the top of my head. But my list really does go on. 

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【A.R.M.Y 1기 BTS MAGAZINE Vol.1】BTS interview

Q: What was your childhood dream job? You know people dreamt of becoming the President, policeman and teacher etc.

V: Doctor.

Jimin: I changed it a lot. I changed every day as I read manhwa. I wanted to become a chef when I was reading ‘Cooking Master Boy’.

Jungkook: Professional gamer.

Rap Monster: Everyone probably dreamt of being a professional gamer.

Suga: I wanted to become an architect.

Rap Monster: It doesn’t suit you at all!

All: (laughs)

Suga: I don’t know why I wanted to become an architect. I remember when I was in primary school and I said architect is my dream job. 

All: Why? What’s the reason?

Suga: I was properly wondering whether the word ‘architect’ exists or not (laughs) I still don’t know why that was my dream job. 

Jin: I wanted to become a farmer. When I was in middle school, I went to help in my uncle’s farm in the countryside. I fell in love with the atmosphere and the peacefulness of the countryside that I felt back then. 

J-Hope: Wow, this hyung is so pure. Is being a farmer still your dream?

Jin: If there’s a chance, I still want to farm.

V: I’m the same with Jin hyung. My uncle is also…

All: Oh~ Is he farming? 

V: He’s a doctor.

Rap Monster: How is doctor and farmer the same occupation?

V: I mean we were both influenced by our uncles.

All: (laughs)

V: Once I was sick and I went to see my hospital uncle.

Jin: What the heck is 'hospital uncle’, it should be doctor uncle (ㅋㅋㅋ)

Rap Monster: I have a plane uncle.

V: Anyway, I was in pain and crying. I went to see my uncle, he wore a mask, white gown and had gloves on, he looked so cool. That’s why I wanted to become a doctor. 

J-Hope: You guys probably don’t believe me but I wanted to become a tennis player. I played tennis in primary school. 

All: Stop. How long are you going to keep talking about (becoming a) tennis player (ㅋㅋㅋ).

J-Hope: Ah~ I haven’t participated in the ISAC games but I did sports when I was a child! 

Suga: Do you still remember when we went to Thailand and we played tennis there, you weren’t extremely that good (laughs).

J-Hope: Of course! I haven’t played for 7 years~ It’s just a dream, dream! My dream. Back then, I really wanted to become a tennis player, so I worked very hard. My wish was to be like Maria Yuryevna Sharapova, hitting the ball into the air while saying 'oh-i’. 

Suga: You suit to be like 'euhahaha’ while playing it. 

All: (laughs)

Rap Monster: My dream was to be the apartment’s security guard.

All: How come? What made you decide to be that?

Rap monster: One day, I came home from school and a young ahjussi asked me: “have you eaten yet?” It was so cool. 

Jin: So “have you eaten” was cool? 

Jimin: He fell for the uniform.

Rap Monster: I think that’s why (laughs).

J-Hope: My dream was the coolest!

V: Doctor is the coolest~

Jin: Do you know how cool a farmer is. 

Jimin: (suddenly) When I was in middle school, I wanted to become a policeman. 

Jimin: When I was watching the TV, it was so cool to see the policeman having a confrontation with the criminal.

Jungkook: I wanted to become a badminton player.

Jin: You just said you wanted to become a gamer.

Suga: Just say one.

Jungkook: When I was learning badminton, I was really into it.

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Q: What was the reason that made you want to become a singer? V: In my 6th year of elementary school… 

Suga: In my 5th year of elementary school… 

Jimin: Let’s speak one by one. 

Jungkook: For me it’s 1st year of middle school. 

Suga: It was around my 5th year of elementary school when Stony Skunk released their 2nd album. I wasn’t into music at that time but one day I was watching a music program and got totally amazed by Stony Skunk’s performance. They completely dominated the stage with a free spirit… I fell in love with that performance for a while and then after I listened to Epik High’s ‘Fly’, I thought “Ah, I have to rap.” I wanted to get into hip hop more so I started composing as well. It was like something I had to do. I think I have never changed my dream. 

Jin: When I was in 1st year of middle school, I was chatting with my friends and we just said “I’m gonna be a singer!” very vaguely. At that time I just thought of being a cool singer, without any plan. “I want to make this vague dream come true. It’s a cool dream.” 

J-hope: When I was younger I stood out quite peculiarly at school. At places like talent shows. 

Rap Monster: Yeah, there’s no way you can’t stand out. 

J-hope: Whenever I participate in things like talent shows, my friends would push me to the front to dance, it felt really good dancing in front of many people. 

Jimin: All~ stage 

J-hope: Those experiences made me think “Ah, I really have to learn dancing”, so I started searching for videos and learned dancing for real. I looked at singers who sing and dance at the same time and found them cool. So I wanted to become one myself. 

Jimin: I started my singer dream from dancing too. 

Rap Monster: Back in my 1st year of middle school, I really liked music so I just had this vague thought “I want to make music”. But around the 2nd year of middle school, I went to Hongdae and saw some hyungs rapping there, and they were really cool. I thought “I want to make music like that too” and started nurturing my music dream. 

Suga: (looking at V) And you? 

V: I’m like Hobi-hyung too. You know there are kids who always stay quiet at school but would stand out when there’s a festival around. 

Rap Monster: Seems like you were one of those kids. 

All: (approve) 

V: I would stand out whenever there’s a festival, but it’s thanks to Big Bang’s Daesung-sunbaenim’s ‘Look At Me Gwisoon’ that I gained my popularity in 6th year of elementary school. 

Rap Monster: That was your debut stage. 

V: Yeah, so I got quite big in Geochang. 

Rap Monster: Geochang’s specialty! 

J-hope: So it’s ‘Look At Me Taehyung’. 

V: After that I was praised as the ‘characters of festivals’. But my popularity started slowly slipping down from middle school, so I thought “Ah, what I can do well is standing on the stage!!” and told my dad. So my dad… 

Suga: I think I heard the next part over 100 times. 

J-hope: Does your saxophone story have no ending? 

V: Why do you say saxophone! I haven’t even mentioned saxophone yet! 

Suga: Next your father will say “Shouldn’t you know how to play at least one instrument?” and so you started learning saxophone. 

V: Ah yes… 

Jin: You just need to talk up until that part. 

Suga: That part is the reason why you wanted to become a singer. 

Rap Monster: You just need to talk about your determination of being a singer. 

Jin: Ah, saxophone! (laughs) 

V: But I haven’t! Even! Brought up the word “saxophone” yet. I haven’t brought up it yet. 

All: (laugh) 

J-hope: You can talk about why you learned saxophone in any question. 

Rap Monster: He suddenly went from talking about festivals to the instrument thing (ㅋㅋㅋ) What about Jungkook? 

Jungkook: I joined a B-boying club in middle school and started learning then. But my parents said I wasn’t tall and told me not to learn it. 

J-hope: That’s right, they said that a lot. 

Jungkook: So I stopped with B-boying and started on my own by searching for choreography videos, then I saw Big Bang’s G-dragon-sunbaenim and thought “Ah! This is it!”, after that I started dreaming of becoming a singer. 

Q: Do you come across the hip hop genre from the beginning? What got you start making music? 

Suga: My dream was “I want to make good music and let many people hear it” from the beginning, I listened to various kinds of music and took hip hop as my base. 

Rap Monster: I think I started with the mindset of “Let’s make my music” without caring about genres. Hip hop is good, but even if it’s not hip hop, I want to show Kim Namjoon’s sincerity with any genre. I hated making insincere music, you know. 

J-hope: Hmh… I started with dancing so I came across hip hop quite easily. I thought of hip hop from the beginning already, but after meeting Rap Monster and Suga-hyung, I was influenced directly and grew interest towards hip hop. 

V: I have been liking hip hop since I was little. 

Jin: I started having interest in hip hop after I became a trainee, every week Rapmon would give me a recommended song list, you remember that? (looking at Rap Monster) I listened to it every single day~ As I listened to it I started growing interest towards hip hop. 

Suga: Yeah, Rapmon had it hard. 

J-hope: Training time! 

Jimin: At first I just wanted to become a singer without any plan at all, but I got a lot of help from the hyungs. They told me about genres and recommended me songs so I could get it easily, I listened to it and found it fun. That’s why I could have interest in hip hop. 

Jungkook: I can talk about it now but honestly it was hard for me. 

J-hope: Yeah. It was really hard for Jungkook at first when he came across hip hop. 

Rap Monster: That’s right. Passion is not something that can be forced. 

J-hope: Yeah. 

Jungkook: At first I kept listening to it and kept trying, but it was hard. 

Jimin: Yeah, we talked about it a lot back then. 

Suga: Why was it? 

Jimin: One day Jungkook suddenly said “Hyung, I don’t know.” He said it was too difficult. 

Suga: So we recommended him other genres besides hip hop. We told him “Just listen to music”. 

V: That’s right. Hyungs picked a lot of lists for me. Especially Rapmon-hyung gave me a lot. 

Rap Monster: Listening to hip hop helped Jungkook a lot with doing his favorite kind of choreography, so at first I let him listen to R&B a lot as well so he could easily catch it. 

J-hope: The biggest thing as Jungkook slowly being introduced to music is his trip to America. (laughs) 

Jimin: Ow~ Good trip.

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