this is moving so fast. crying

Okay, hi. I’m fucking salty and sad and annoyed so I’m gonna get that shit out of the way and we can move on to something that doesn’t make me want to punch a wall.

She flew home yesterday. She’s down for a week. She called me and told me she was coming home two weeks ago. She asked me if I wanted to meet up. She said to think about it. She said she wanted to. I want to. I’m not going to. I can’t. I am so not okay today. Time is moving unbelievably fast and also glacial and I just want to eat cheese and cry but my body can’t even muster tears anymore. I am just a fizzy drink being constantly agitated and the pressure will build and tears will soon explode and probably ruin someone’s blouse and also evening. The fun is in the mystery of when that will happen. I feel a pull to disengage with everyone and step back and shut down, and I feel an equal pull to continue seeking connection and to dive in and to be brave. Things feel too soon and I don’t want to wait and I feel self destructive and like I am being reckless with others and right now, it seems like there is no way I can win or feel like things are right or comfortable or safe. I hate the discomfort of it all. 

Also and this goes without saying but America can you get your life together and stop shitting all over human rights? Can I wake up any morning without wondering who isn’t considered a person today? Cool.

Let’s dig for some gratitude now. Last night I turned my brain off at the gym for 5k and charged my Garmin because the sun is starting to peek out. The sky is blue. My legs feel strong and they are getting stronger. My armpits are fuzzy. My room is clean and my bed is made. I can control that. I continue to move forward in whatever form of me this is. 

Okay, good talk.


9 months ago I started a relationship with a wonderful man, problem was he lived 900 miles away. We instantly clicked and I knew from the very start that he was my soulmate. We first got the chance to meet in July. That week went way too fast. We had a lot of amazing memories, but the first couple days were spent just being with each other. I remember we were crying the entire way to the airport because we were scared we would never get to hold each other again. My mom never understood until then how much we meant to each other so when we were driving back home she finally gave me permission to buy a ticket to go to Colorado. I flew out in August, another wonderful week that went by too fast. The goodbyes were always the hardest part, but this goodbye was a lot happier because he was moving to Minnesota 2 weeks later. Now we have been living with one another for 5 months. For 5 amazing months I have started my day right next to him and ended it right next to him. We aren’t perfect, we argue and fight but at the end of the day our love for each other overcomes all of the difficulties. We have grown so much together mentally and spiritually and I am so blessed to have him. In a few months we will both be moving back to Colorado and I am so excited.

Quagsire Sprites Review

Gold- A wonderful retro Quag, he’s still getting used to his new arms from evolving. Tail seems a bit thin but he’ll grow into it. A lovely shiny boy. 5/5

Silver- A lovable chubby QuagHe’s bending down to talk to smaller pokemon but he may be a bit overexcited and yelling. Still working on his manners. A very friendly boy. Adorable stripes and back ridges. 5/5

Crystal- Such a happy Quag! Now with movement! Look at him, he’s so excited to use his new arms! He’s practicing because he dreams of one day playing piano. He’s singing for you too! A wonderful quag with a bright future ahead of him. 5/5

Gen 3/FR/LG- A friendly dancing Quag! Such a cute and fun pose! Such good balance! But he’s also the most mysterious Quag. If you blink you’ll miss him change his pose and cry out. How does a Quag move so fast? A perplexing quag 5/5

Diamond/Pearl- This a very friendly Quag, he’s a bit more shy than the others but he’ll still wave to you. He’s got one enlarged nostril, but he’s still beautiful. Lovely big back ridges. lovely shade of blue. Be gentle with this Quag and give him all the hugs. 5/5

Platinum- A Quag with a lovely darker pallete! He’s a bit of a nightowl and goes for a lot of night swims. He’d love to hold your hand. Has a bit of a wonky foot and probably trips a lot, but he’ll still do his best for you. 5/5

HG/SS- The most loving Quag!! He wants a hug!! HUG THE QUAG!!! HUG HIM!!! So wonderfully chubby and such a sweet smile! Perfectly friend-shaped! I love him so much. The ideal Quag A+++ 1000000/5

B/W-  Just like the last but even MORE EXCITED! YOU JUST HAVE TO HUG HIM! He’s even dancing and reaching for you! A precious angel baby who deserves all the love in the world! HUG THE QUAG!! 10000000/5 spare my heart. 

XY/SM- The newest member of the Quag family. Beautifully rendered, the most lovely chubbiest belly, the friendliest face, even a precious neck roll. Probably 90% squish. He’s a little self-conscious but still a lil bouncy. Give him all the pats and beans in refresh. 5/5


Pokemon Conquest- The sleepiest, laziest Quag. I love how big and detailed this quag is. Look at those cute toes and fingers. Look at that chub. Look at that shading. Please though, let this poor boy rest. 5/5

Pokemon Trozei- The tiniest quag, just a happy ball. They still captured all his best features. This quag may lack limbs but he’ll still dance and smile for you, a good egg. 5/5

PMD Sky/Time/Darkness- A nicely shaded and pleasant Quag. Lovely bg gradient and colors. Looks like he’s spacing out though. Exploration team life can be hard on a simple quag. Buy this boy a drink at Spinda’s cafe pronto. 5/5

PMD Gates to Infinity: AN ANGEL SENT BY ARCEUS HIMSELF 999999999/5

In short, all Quags are good and deserving of love. <3 

ya’ll, just a heads up. if you’re like me and LOVE hair retextures, you probably have a ton in your game. hairs are extremely high poly though and can lag your game significantly. for the longest time i swore by missparaply retextures, but over time i found myself using them less and less. in a livestream xmiramira mentioned how hairs can lag your game. my game was so unplayable that i could not use wasd to move without it freezing and when i pressed play the game pretty much froze. however, i took out around 2gb+ of missparaply hair retextures, and voila! my game is so fast i might cry. and so, i urge you to pleaaaase take out unused s4 hair if you can! it will make your game so much smoother!

u know ever since i first started watching yoi i kept seeing posts like “at this rate they’ll be married by the end of the season” and i was like “nah they’ll prob be dating but marriage?? thats moving too fast lol” and here i am at episode 9 like “they love each other so much holy shit did he just basically propose??theyre so happy???holyshit??”
and now with all the development their relationship has gotten like??these fuckers could actually be married by the end of this?holy shit??my happy babies holyshitilovethisshow

The Chase!

This is just a really unfinished blurb that I had no idea what I was writing and was coughing up my lung in the doctor’s office while I wrote it on my phone. But I’m posting it anyway. @hikari-s-hrauno hope this is happy enough for you!! Enjoy, I’ll post more for valentines day later!!! Love you!!! xoxox

Ship: Otayuri

Rating: T


Yuri’s muscles ache and throb as he pushes his legs faster through the hotel hallway.

Fuck! Why are they so fast?

His fingers brush the floor as he takes a sharp turn scrambling to his feet only inches from the angels, screaming and crying their way over his sanity.

His heart thumps faster than his legs move, his lungs constrict as he tries to catch his breath.

He’s sprinting past the cross hall when he sees Otabek leaning against the wall, he rushes at him. Otabek only greets him momentarily before Yuri pulls Otabek over him and presses their lips together, pressing to the wall hoping to look normal. Otabek’s break hitched at the kiss at first but when he sees Yuri’s eyes wander to the other hall and the impending screams he moves his arm across Yuri’s line of sight covering his face from any passerby.

Thank god I wore all black today. Yuri thinks.

Otabek wraps his other arm around Yuri’s waist and pulls him up tighter deepening the kiss. Neither of them closes their eyes.

The angels scream past them in their mob driven by hormones and obsession. When they pass, Yuri pulls away.

He huffs at the stillness of his body, the oxygen not filling him fast enough. Otabek looks down at him and flicks his eyebrows.

“Hi.” He says, his smile curls up at the corner.

Yuri purses his lips, trying to hold back his smile and laughter, his blush speaking for itself.

“Why do was always meet like this?” Otabek teases narrowing his eyes. 

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Alec lightwood imagine

requested by anon:Hi can you do an Alec imagine with f!reader and reader comes to help alec like in the parabatai lost episode but it’s her instead of jace and it’s all cute and fluffy but super emotional at the same time x 

Sure anon! But i am changing it up a bit i am not doing exactly like it was in the episode but  kind of. ( the 100 refrence in the imagine for all the bellarkers out there :)

This is suuuuper short i am so sorry. XX

Originally posted by alec-is-life

Y/n ran as fast as she could to medic in the institute. Tears streaming down her cheeks as she ran. When she was in medic she could see Alec laying on a bed. He wasn’t moving, he was barely even breathing. Y/n sat by his side and the nurse left. “Alec. Please wake up.” Y/n said and her throat started to hurt because she was crying so much. “I can’t live without you. You might be a grumpy cat half of the time but i need you” Y/n sobbed. But Alec didn’t answer. She laid her head on his chest crying and holding on to him like he was going to disappear. “Excuse you. How many times do i have to tell you, i am not grumpy” A weak voice said and Y/n looked up. “Alec?” Y/n said and Alec had opened his eyes. He was coughing and Y/n help him sit up. “You’re alive?” Y/n said it more as a question than a statement. Alec smiled. “I am” He said and Y/n hugged him tightly. Alec winced. “Sorry, sorry” Y/n said and Alec laughed. “Don’t ever scare me like that again Alec okay” Y/n said. “You are not getting rid of me that easy angel” Alec said and placed a soft kiss on Y/n’s lips. Y/n was still crying. “Don’t cry, i am okay” Alec said and wiped away a tear from Y/n’s cheek. “It’s happy tears i promise” Y/n said and Alec laughed and kissed her again. 

A really short imagine! Xo

Pterodactylus, Joseph Sibal, 1964

Along the edge of the Tethys Sea, a smattering of islands lie strewn like crumbs. This is the archipelago home of Pterodactylus, Rhamphorynchus, and Archaeopteryx, Jurassic trio of odd, winged things.

Rhamphorynchus works at night, paddling in the water, chasing after bioluminescent squid and tiny, silver fish. Its long tail whips like a ice fisher’s flag when it ducks its jaws underwater.

Archaeopteryx patrols the beaches for anything. Snails, clams, dead fish, the occasional beached ichthyosaur. It’s an opportunist. Flocks of them, black as crows, look like proud ink stains strutting on the beach. Of the three species, it’s the most vocal, crying about every discovery, danger, and perceived injustice.

Pterodactylus is diurnal, likes the sun and acrobatics, careens through mangroves and marshy places, snapping at dragonflies and the fish that dare swim too close to the surface. It moves so fast, it’s a miracle its body holds together and doesn’t tear or crumple under the stresses of wild flight.

i know we all put the boys in high scool aus. but please. think about canon. wheres my shitty british secondary school aus

things to consider:

- whos the banter. u know the one. the one who makes all the shitty banter tweets ‘jacks voice cracked on the c sharp lmao #banter’ ‘the jesus kid needs jesus #banter’ ‘murdering small children #justsavagethings #thuglyf #banter’ theres always one 

- ngl its probably maurice. or ralph

- assembly. both ralph and jack are sports captain/head boy respectively and sit on raised chairs at the side bUT THERES NEVER ENOUGH AN D THEYRE ALWAYS LATE and its ended many a time where ralph gracefully shoves jack off so he can sit down while the entire school stares

- simon is that one kid who works the overhead projector. always getting the wrong sheet out. his fingers cover the words and he moVES IT TOO FAST AND SHEETS FALL OFF AND HES SO FLUSTERED HES ALMOST CRYING

- the uniforms. god . theyre so awful but ralph manages to glide into school everyday looking like a fuckin prince and jack is. so angry. someone destroy this boy and his upturned collar

- ralph is rugby captain. he comes home with a sprain/broken bone every other week and theres a rumour that several of his teeth are replacements. riVAL RUGB  Y  TEAMS AAHH HH HH H

- instead of a pigs head, its a single turkey twizzler sellotaped to a stick

- who is the one to draw a dick on the board in permanent marker the disguise it as a tree

-  what a levels do they take. holy fuck

- simons that one kid who writes ‘youre beautiful’ in the loos in marker and he comes back to find ‘i kno lol’ thanks jack

- the shit that goes down in the common room. not the nice hogwarts common room. the fuckin awful prefab box with like 3 chairs with stuffing falling out and dodgy heating. this is jacks territory. his choir rules it with a rod of iron

- ralph says hello to a bunsen burner


anonymous asked:

I'm going through a break up and it's the absolute worst. I'm tired of being sad about it. On top of that I'm depressed. He moved on and he's getting close with a girl. I accepted what happened and I let him go. After doing that I still feel sad about it. I keep crying about it. I don't feel like the same person and i feel sad all the time. I want all these feelings to go away instantly. I want to wake up one day knowing that I moved pass all of this. I miss the old me so much 😢

What you need is to GLO UP real fast, mentally and physically. Life has been hard on you but it’s in your hands to change your life for the better. There will be a day you wont even think about your ex, good days are waiting for you only if you’re willing to take it. So get yourself together and look in the mirror, tell yourself that you will get better because you’re worth it! What helped me is going to the gym, getting myself cute clothes, being with people I love x

annemonyk-g  asked:

I'm the only one that saw Robert blinking so fast to steady his tears when he huged Aaron outside the Woolpack in that last scene?And when the camera was pulling away,the way he moved his head,resting it on Aaron's back,probably crying his heart out?


okay so i see you’re back at it with the whole trying to destroy my soul thing - cute

noppppeeeee you were not the only one like honestly i think it’s safe to say that the whole day robert wanted to cry too, he wanted to let it all out but he didn’t want to start aaron off, he’s like that, he always puts aaron’s needs before his own but then this happened, aaron was breaking down and he couldn’t help himself

he was still trying, still trying his hardest not to crumble because aaron needed his support but then as soon as aaron leaned into him, as soon as robert could nestle into aaron’s back and not feel the pressure to keep his husband from breaking, he broke himself

idc what anyone says, robert sugden broke down on aaron right then, he was holding onto aaron so tightly and allowing himself to let all the pain and heartbreak out of himself, he was sobbing into aaron’s back so hard that aaron jolted out of his own misery and pulled away so that robert could properly fall into his chest and sob his heart out as aaron stroked his hair and let him

ah and there goes my heart 💔🙃

EXO REACTION: When you got in a minor car accident with your guy friend (Xiumin, Luhan, Baekhyun and Chanyeol)

I think that’s my first reaction of exo, so please forgive me for being unfunny.

  Xiumin: Even trying don’t show he’d so much worried and anxious, and seeing you with just a few scratches and nothing else he would be well relieved, but even so he’d take care of you.

And before you two could leave the hospital, your friend’d appear, saying he is worried with you. Xiumin’d try to be polite, but with his short phrases would make your friend move away of you.

“Jagi, I have spoken not walk with this kind of person”

Luhan: He would come to the hospital as fast as possible, after he’d known about the accident. Seeing you he’d hug you and cry of relief to have you in his arms.

But when he found out your friend was with you he’d be angry, and would only worsen when Luhan found out that he hadn’t even been hurt.

Baekhyun: He would arrive at the hospital in despair, expecting the worst and finding you, he’d almost cry because of lot of feelings in so little time.

But before you could talk about the accident your friend would appear and try to talk with Baekhyun that would be very angry with him.

Chanyeol: He would be with you all the time, literally! He would not let you do anything other than breathe during your hospital stay.

But when your friend had approached, he would be totally quiet and would make clear that he didn’t like him there.

~ADM Cherry~ (Translate by ADM Misso)

GIF credits to their original owners!

Through the Storm

Note: I just wanted to let you all know that this story is also being posted on archiveofourown. That is typically an easier reading platform than tumblr, so maybe some of you would prefer that? Just thought I’d put it out there! c:

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Chapter Six

Mom was in the middle of filing paperwork for the divorce when I called her, she sniffled frequently enough that I knew she had been crying beforehand. She laughed when I asked if she was okay and pointed out that it was honestly funny how fast it was moving.

She was still handling things eerily well, seemingly even better than I was at times. I hated to think she was hiding things from me, or from anyone… but according to Hau and Kukui - she was doing just fine.

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A customer and his SHITTY family made my employee cry and I’m five seconds away from kicking their fucking teeth in and throwing them out but my GM said not to because if they’re like that in the lobby god knows how they’d get if I interrupted the movie to kick them out SO instead I’m sitting here shaking and an employee short bc I wasn’t going to make her stay after they called her r*tarded and threw popcorn at her because she wasn’t ‘moving fast enough’ like they literally had children with them and this is how they treated people, this is how they acted I hope their entire family crashes on the way home

For Tiberius Stormwind

I sit at my computer for at least 10 minutes if not more.

I stand up, slowly.

I take the sweatshirt that has since only half dried with my tears off, slowly.

I turn off my computer, slowly.

I move the pile of unorganized clothes off of my bed and onto my computer chair, slowly.

I take my hair out of its slightly messy bun, slowly.

I turn off my lamp, slowly.

I sit in bed and think about what to write, slowly.

Time has stopped moving for me at this point. It always moves to fast, speeding away from me, and just as I think I have any sort of chance at catching it, it stops. It hits me like a truck. And only while writing this do I realize how much it impacts me.

Never have I EVER felt like I was going to throw up because I was crying so hard over a characters death. But tonight, I was proven wrong by Matthew Mercer once again.

Now, Tiberius was never my favorite, but he definetly was not my least favorite. How could you ever have a least favorite in that rag-tag bunch of good upstarts? But at times he could be, a little less easy to tolerate, one could say. But that’s all in his character; how he is, why we loved him, what made him Tiberius Stormwind of Draconia. Easily, he was one of the reasons I began making characters for d&d. He was part of the reason of why I am a part of this wonderful fandom/family of critters.

So, to Tiberius Stormwind of Draconia, of low wisdom, but many friends, I say one of the hardest goodbyes in my life.

(I’m really sorry if this sounds totally cheesy, but this is my coping mechanism, and I’m really not over the shock of what happened tonight. I probably won’t be over it for a while.)

(I’m gonna sleep now and hope for a better day tomorrow)

I left him and I will never go back
I miss him but he’s poison in my glass
. Every night I cry, I can’t stop loving him at all
I ease myself thinking that he’s moved on so fast. He’s not worth a glance
. He’s not worth a chance
Still he’s always on my mind,
 I’m always easily forgotten.
— (macsun)
  • silent panic attacks are so fucking bad like you arent crying or speaking or anything youre just sitting in bed and you feel like you cant move and your heart is beating so fast you want to throw up and youre feeling everything and nothing all at once and you cant call anyone so you just sit there and type out 14 paragraphs about how youre feeling but none of them make sense so you just delete them and stare at the roof and fall apart without a single tear falling from ur eye : )))