this is mostly for me tbqh

anonymous asked:

"Daenerys Targaryen. I do not seem to be able to separate my feelings towards her story and my feelings towards her." Can you talk more about your problems regarding her story, please?

Um, well, this is not a subject that I like to delve in tbqh. My frustration and aversion to the way GRRM write huge chunks of this story often trips me up and I find myself mostly unable to be as coherent as I’d like to be, and as the subject deserves. I’ll do my best with it but I’d recommend reading @valiantnedspreciouslittlegirl’s post on the subject because it puts into words a lot of what I dislike in Dany’s story.

My problem is that Martin employs a lot of racist tropes in constructing Dany’s story. We’re introduced to Dany as she goes into her marriage to Khal Drogo and experience Dothraki culture, making her the one to shape our view of said culture, aided by Jorah Mormont who serves as her advisor from the very beginning. Not only is there a problem in having our sole view of one of few prominently non-white societies filtered through the eyes of white characters, but the narrative sets Dany up as the white girl coming to civilize and gentle the savage POC, and oh aren’t the Dothraki so savage and uncultured, they do not even have a word for thank you!!!

While the Dothraki culture is definitely one that needs lots of reforms, Martin’s depiction of them in general is deeply racist. He falls back on stereotypes and dehumanizing portrayals to carry the story, reducing them to a monolithic society built on violence, subjugation and sexual submission. He never bothers to flesh them out, he never bothers to give distinction for different characters that isn’t built on brutality (can you tell me what differentiates Irri from Jhiqui, or Aggo from Rakharo from Jhogo, or any of the khals from each other?), he never bothers to give them substance. He stomps all over them because they are mainly set up to contrast Dany’s own views and beliefs, and to bring her to the point where she “births” her dragons. He leaves them undeveloped and then uses that to make them bow down to the white, western-coded, civilized girl that has earned their loyalty to the point of them going against their deeply-believed and upheld social norms because she walked out of a pyre unburned, even though the Dothraki loath witchcraft. Sure Jan.

From the start, Dany’s story relies heavily on the white savior trope which is fundamentally racist. It’s a trope that has a white person descending on a non-white society to reform it and force a societal change that the residents of the region can’t or won’t force . It often goes hand-in-hand with the implication that the white person is doing it ~for the good of the nation they have invaded~. The story of an external white force coming to correct the injustice or the wrong behavior that exists in a non-white society is racist, for it often implies that the non-white society is incapable of reform on its own, that they need the intelligent white person to teach them and show them how civilized people do it, and it’s something that has been frequently used in our real world by imperialist forces to justify their occupation of a region. (Which hits too close for me because Middle-Eastern history is rife with such attempts. When you’re constantly told you’re oppressed and the progressive white people are gonna help you be better, you tend to have a visceral reaction to any fictional work that builds upon the same idea.)

Whether with the Dothraki or in Slaver’s Bay, Dany is the white woman bringing humane reforms to the savage cultures she comes in contact with, she is the enlightenment movement coming to the backwards POC cultures to fix it. This isn’t a defense of either culture because both really need serious reforms, but for that force of change to be the teenage white girl saving the indigenous people has serious racist connotations, not made at all better by Martin infantilizing the slaves that Dany frees by literally having them call her Mother. Because why not.

And the problem is that Dany does not quite fit the trope, she is not an imperialist despite Martin using imperialist writing in her story. She does not fall upon Slaver’s Bay because she wants to take advantage of the resources of the region, neither does she employ empty rhetoric about helping people to mask her imperialist ambitions or starts from a place of believed superiority. She truly cares about the slaves she frees. She is motivated by how powerless she felt herself and wants to spare others that same powerlessness. She respects the cultures she encounters and isn’t out to replace it with her own (implied superior) culture; on the contrary, she tries to preserve it and work within it to make away with the dehumanizing aspects without forcing a complete cultural shift. For me, Dany is a victim of her story because it is the single most racist narrative in the whole series by virtue of how utterly racist the writing is. That’s on Martin, not Dany. But like I said, I deal with how deeply uncomfortable I am with the story by disassociating from it, which affects how I connect to Dany despite my best efforts :/



taejun’s outfits are primarily monochromatic, featuring mostly whites, blacks and greys, with the occasional splash of colour; he holds a preference for neutral tones, avoiding brightly coloured, garish items of clothing. simple black and white suits ( sometimes paired with a silk tie ) make up his typical work attire. he tends not to wear patterned clothing, and if so, doesn’t usually stray from striped ( or very rarely plaid, if on a flannel shirt ) patterns. 

his strong legs are usually clad in dark jeans, some tattered and worn from repeated washing, wool trousers, and slimline joggers or sweatpants for wear in the comfort of his own home, as well as when exercising. 

in terms of tops, taejun can often be seen in one of the following : an array of faded t-shirts, long-sleeved and sleeveless cotton shirts ( with or without printed designs on them, some striped ), plain coloured sweaters, raglan tees, and white, black or navy button-up shirts left unbuttoned at the top.

taejun is relatively simple in terms of his choice of footwear; when not working, he’ll usually wear casual low-tops for everyday wear ( common brands include adidas, air jordan, nike, vans and converse ), heavy-duty boots when motorcycle riding, or dr martens. otherwise, he’ll wear laced, black leather shoes ( typically derby-type dress shoes ) whilst working.

layered coats and jackets are a staple with his outfits, consisting of bomber jackets, leather jackets, winter overcoats and windbreakers amongst other outerwear ; his choice(s) will vary with weather / season. he owns multiple denim jackets, some of which are embellished with an array of sewn patches and slogans. a myriad of hoodies, branded activewear ( usually adidas ) and running shoes are amongst his gym attire

any accessories he wears tend to be silver and are normally limited to watches, sunglasses ( his choice brands include ray-ban, police and gentle monster ), belts and plain rings ( a couple worn at a time, at most ); only on occasion will he wear scarves, caps, beanie hats, bracelets or necklaces. 

Last Words

Cite the final line of five of your fics - your favorites, or the most recent ones. Tag five writers who should do this next.

Tagged by the lovely @punsbulletsandpointythings Thank you! Gonna tag @thebisexualmandalorian @itsybitsylemonsqueezy @cryingcryptids @wolveria and @sleepy-skittles no pressure if you don’t want to <3 (also i totally cheated and mostly did last paragraph for two. sorrynotsorry)

Wolffe’s Scars (one of my fave endings tbqh)

“The only thing that allowed me to live with myself after 66 went out,” Wolffe whispered into the quiet of the room, “was when I saw his ship go down, I could hear him in my head. Like he used the last of his strength to make sure I knew.”
“What did he say?” Gregor asked, genuinely curious.
Wolffe replied while hearing its echo rattle around in his head, “‘I forgive you, my son.’”

Sucker Punched 

Atin smiled at Sev as they walked off, “Fuckin’ ARCs, man.”
Sev just shook his head, “Fuckin’ ARCs.”

What is a name?

“Fives! Fives, brother.”
Rex’s voice sounded strange coming through through the ray shield. It was all warped and didn’t sound like Rex at all. Though, that may have been the ringing in his ears, and the pain radiating from his chest. Fives was glad that Rex was the last person he would ever hear say his name. Rex was a good brother. They had seen a lot together. Hopefully Rex would heed his warning. Hopefully Rex would remember him, and remember who he was. He was Fives.

Black Holes and Lost Time

After a moment Jesse moved his arm to wrap around Kix’s waist, and kissed his temple, “Come on, let’s see what we can do to be useful again.”
Kix shifted so he could put his arm around Jesse’s shoulders, “Yes, let’s.”

A Gentle Awakening

He stood there, at the edge of the field, until the last flame went out. Until the heavy black smoke cleared. Heavy and dark as he felt. He wished he could clear his mind as the smoke cleared the sky.
Rex turned from the field, the field of his brothers, and never came back.

anonymous asked:

might i ask why exactly you started losing interest in yuzu before? ik you still like him but im just curious,,, and where do your negative ish feelings come from?

a combination of not liking his programs/skating circa 2012-2014, and the fandom explosion which was…exhausting, though i was already mostly disconnected from it by the time sochi came around. i already talked about this at length before so i don’t really feel like rehashing it

tldr he was like my teenage platonic skating crush and then i broke up with him and now we’ve grown up and i like him just fine, i’m just not as invested in him as before. it’s normal for people’s feelings about a skater to change over time. i have no negative feelings left about him.

anonymous asked:

I loved Alex's coming out arc and the way it was portrayed but I never got into sanvers for a lot of reasons. Maybe bc I love Katie and her gay ass too much and supercorp hit me in the face with the gayness but mostly bc of the flo mess and the way they treated maggie's character. Even if I'm not a fan tho I can see how much they mean to many people and I'm sorry they are doing them so dirty. They shouldn't have made this wedding thing. This is only going to make things worse when they broke up

yeah! and tbqh we all have our preferences [for sanvers and supercorp] for different reasons. for me, alex was my favorite character in season 1, and the fact that sanvers is canon means a lot to me. it really just depends!

 did you know that in the UK that your social class is partially determined by what supermarkets you shop at? even though most supermarket’s stock costs about the same no matter where you go? 

here is an (incomplete) list so that you can increase the level of realism in your roleplays! remember to call any characters who shop at the bottom of the list a ‘dirty oik’ or ‘scaf’!

Upper Middle Class

Kate Middleton was ‘just like us’ when she shopped in Waitrose, however this was reported by the upper middle class media - which just goes to show just how upper middle class Waitrose truly is. Of all the supermarket chains, undoubtedly top. Dirty oiks will accuse you of being a posh wank and cooing parents will raise eyebrows in soft surprise and point out that ‘you’re doing well for yourself then, eh?’ should you choose to shop here.

Middle Class

Ah, M&S. Once, I went to get a birthday cake here because I was ‘splashing out’ and it turned out that you could get many cakes for but a few pounds. Much exclaiming of ‘my goodness, I cannot believe how cheap M&S is!’ passed between myself and my partner, which shows how socially ingrained it was in us that M&S was for people above our echelon. 

Sainsbury’s is still perceived by parents as being awfully expensive, but stocking only quality products. In truth, it’s pretty cheap, and even has its own basics range with patronizing slogans on the tins such as ‘Dinner is easy peasy, just a little less cheesy!’ on their own brand cheese & tomato pizzas. Sells a variety of fruits and vegetables, showing it clearly caters to those who will actively prepare and even make their own meals - a definite middle class red flag. Middle of the road and a safe option, you are unlikely to be mocked for using Sainsbury’s. And don’t forget to collect your nectar points for clicking on some random ad or remembering to wipe your arse! 

Working Class

TESCO, Ah, Tesco - the friend to all students. Sells bags of cookies* for like £1.50, and lunch time sandwiches can be purchased for as little as £1. Even their luxury salad range has massive reductions if you come in at the end of the day, and hey, just the other night - i got some reduced to clear Smirnoff gold vodka for £9. £9! Anyway, Tesco is the go-to shop for your bog standard anything you want. Once there was a scandal about their own brand peanut butter causing cancer - and I, who ate peanut butter sandwiches almost exclusively for lunch at Primary school, was the subject of much bullying and ominous health predictions for this reason. 

*Please do not assume I am not British for using the word ‘cookies’ here instead of biscuits. Cookie in British vernacular refers a very specific kind of biscuit - aka a round flat thing typically filled with chocolate chips. Sometimes smarties. 

Morrison’s is a dark horse, and I cannot say for certain that it actually belongs in this class category. A relatively new chain, the town I grew up in did not have one until I was around sixteen - and I can always remember my mother muttering that she ‘didn’t like Morrisons’. Why someone would dislike a supermarket chain, I cannot fathom why - but here we are. Sells a lot of cheap meat, I think? And has an offensively ugly logo as you can see above, giving me an deep sense of distrust and uncertainty. In retrospect, my mother was right. I do not like Morrisons. 

Asda… bought over by Walmart, and therefore familiar to the typical American audience. I believe Asda were the first to start this whole ‘smart-price’ thing - where it will match the price of products you buy in store with any of the other large chains. Price fixing? Some believe so. Others argue that it is simply the American way. I feel truly transnational shopping in this wonderful supermarket, although I have memories of a blue-jeaned mother slapping her behind causing a pleasant jingle of coins to resonate from her back pocket. This image haunts me and I have only just now realized how deeply scarred i have been by this. I realize now the meaning was both to put a bottom on the television screen and to make me feel jovial and have a little laugh as though I am an asinine child, and to convey that I can save pennies simply by shopping here. Thank you, Asda. 

Scrounger Class

& Farmfoods. Sell mostly frozen goods, but a little tip thats not so well known about? Booze. Booze and drinks are SO cheap here. I mean, I got three 5l bottles of coke for £5! £5!!!!!! It’s ridiculous. Seriously I don’t think anything in Iceland costs over a fiver tbqh, it’s just that kind of shop. Around Christmastime, Kerry Katona will resurge on the telebox to tell you that all mum’s go to Iceland. I don’t think my mum has ever gone to Iceland? Is she perhaps not a real mother? I’m not sure. 

& Lidl. Sell a tonne of imported brands, particularly Polish food. My Estonian friend loves it for this reason. Also, every brand will be some kind of cheap knock-off. You are a serious, utter scaf if you shop here. There is no getting around this. You will be mocked as a penny-pincher or poor af. All the meat is Horse Brains and also actually contains like 0.0001% meat. There is no redemption here, shopping at Adli or Lidl will condemn you to the life Channel 4 documentaries, in fact, I’m pretty sure Channel 4 producers sit around and hawk on anyone passing into these stores. I guarantee you that 80% of Benefits Britain’s footage comes from just following around Aldi shoppers. 

no one actually does all their shopping at poundland. Unless… you do? In which case, holy fuck, you could get better deals at Aldi probably? But hey listen, Poundland has changed the face of British supermarkets… forever. Many of the large chains had to reduce the prices of their products to just a £1, all because of poundland. Poundland is also the face of all evil, if one thinks about it, as most of their employees are there on a voluntary basis and aren’t paid at all. In fact, Poundland made it pretty in-vogue to not pay their employees and get away with it when no one would dare before (probably not true, but eyy.) 

And that is it, our tour through the wide range of British Supermarkets and what Social Class it Says About You. Go on, ask any British person on the validity of this list - and I guarantee you that they will acknowledge at least the sentiment of the truth in this. It should be noted that of course, shopping in any of these places doesn’t actually say anything about you - but hey, that’s classism and culture for you! 

tender--age--in--plume  asked:

Value me? (Mostly because, tbqh, the muse is lowkey worried Alena hates her these days. Please advise.)

Leave a “Value Me” in my ask, and I’ll write a drabble about my character telling yours how they feel about them.

(This might be an excuse to get in on this event going on right now because we all know Big Sis will do the same for her baby sister)


One long long night. Lockdown being lifted and Alena STILL hasn’t stepped out of her room or checked up on anyone. In the back of her mind she was curious about what happened and why people did what they did but…..knowing this info would only damage her mental psyche some more.

A pretty disappointing thought for people that saw her as strong. But she knew someone that would reassure her that thought. Plumeria.

Looking at her phone, her hand shook at the thoughts eating at her mind.

‘She’s in a mood. Maybe I shouldn’t call her. Maybe a text would be better. Maybe I should go see her. Maybe I can steal something quick for her. I hate seeing her this down….but what if she pushes me away. What if she-’

Before she knew it, her thumb hit the call button. As the phone rang, she was reminded of what information she had gathered from last night. A basic summary? Plumeria was hurt the most.

“We’re sorry, this current contact is unavailable….”

A sigh of relief escapes as it went to voice mail, if the woman picked up man Alena would of been a lot worse.

“Please leave your message after the tone.”

Here we go….she’s gonna have to wake up to this or make this ignored call count.


“Plumeria…..its Alena. I mean, you probs know that since you can read a contact name. Am I right? But uh….” Man, how does she word this? What should she say? Alena, remember. A reminder.

“Fuck. I’m sorry, we both know last night has been rough and now that everything had calmed down…I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate everything you do. I appreciate how you care for all of us, treat us more than just grunts and admins. You have a huge heart like….I tend to keep my big heart in because you know. Gang shit. Gangsters don’t love.” She chuckles. “But…” Alena just say it.

“You already know this but I see you as a mother to me. Legit. While I never had a broken family, I had a worried mother that was looking out for me….that mother doesn’t want to see my face anymore all because I’m here and will tell me “I told you so.” If I get arrested or come running back to her. But you….man, you’re more fun! You’re more personal. You’re you. Yes, we have our low moments but you power though them. I was so scared of you when I first got here but the more and more you approached me, the less scared I got. You taught me that…..well, shit happens and it makes us stronger than we were before. You AND Boss man had taught me that.“

She sniffs. Fuck…it’s too early to be crying. "M-More importantly….I love you. As a sibling, of course. If you want to….come visit me, knock on my door. You always offer the same to me….it’s time for me to return the gesture.

anonymous asked:

hhhhh this has been kinda bothering me for a while but like, idk i've seen that most of the v0ltron fan content found in youtube are mostly made by shallies/ppl who accept all ships and i just find it rly discomforting that there's few youtube content made by antis ig???? so i end up unknowingly watching (and even enjoying) a saladmen's vid which is so... ugh. I especially avoid those channels who promote vld amino as it's an absolute toxic hellhole, but that's another story lmfao

oh yeah yikes, i just avoid youtube altogether bc i never know what’s gonna pop up

so after taking like, the longest time to drop my tags (never let me put off tags for that long ever again), but it’s finally done except for a good few (other people that are my mains/exclusives, more verses I haven’t given tags for, and some chara tags).

anywho, for an explanation that no one probs care for, I had to like…organize ship/relationships tags because I’m weird like that. but basically:

  • s. shipname and b. chara name are for are mostly within fandom (s means ‘ship’ is romantic pairings b means ‘bonds’ is for platonic or familial relationships)
  • dyn. chara name counts for all musing posts in relation to the character, mostly on the dynamics (which is what the abbrieviation  means)
  • conn. blog name are for the people that are interested in being my mains/exclusives. also gonna be used in musings, fc posts (etc. etc.)

and yeah, that’s it. im free

anonymous asked:

How many places have you lived? Traveled to? Anywhere you want to go/live?

I have lived in two cities - three if you count the time I was in one city for like two weeks in one homeless shelter, only until I could go back to the other city to another youth home lol. I was in three different homeless shelters in six months tbh, one of which was for 24+ only when I was only 20. (2013 was a fucking chaotic year for me tbqh.)

I have travelled to quite a few places, mostly a lot of smaller towns in my area, never more than four hours away, and I’ve never left my corner of my province. Not anything really worth noting, besides maybe like Niagara Falls (panic attacks galore) or maybe the sweetass mall in Markham (Japanese movies galore there.)

I’d love to live in Japan or Ireland, tbh, but I have a paralyzing fear of air planes - and most other forms of transportation tbh - so I don’t think that’s gonna happen.

I don’t get to reblog a lot of images because the G/t community only seems to really like F/m….I’m more into M/f but it’s almost like that doesn’t exist anywhere on any G/t community. Which really sucks so all I can reblog are little gender neutral scenarios and very rare M/f images. I wish that community was larger but I can’t find a lot of blogs that are M/f and mostly SFW….it’s actually maddening for me tbqh.

tbqh… to me the unnecessary fear-mongering that happens when a fandom pulls a bad, particularly harmless, joke is more annoying than the joke itself like 

yes, tell the people who participated how to right the wrong, and why it is a detriment to the people and business who would be affected by it

no, don’t scream at all these (mostly) young teens that they are all horrible and that they’re going to get the show cancelled and the network is going to throw all the future merchandise of the show into the firey pits of cancellation 

like, that is so grossly unnecessary and probably going to trigger lots of people’s anxiety and start the whole “bad side” “good side” fandom elitist bs that usually ends up painting all younger and less mature fans as terrible people, they didn’t do this with the intention of ruining someones business they did this as a joke-tribute to something they like, something a ton of us as younger fans would have done as well

step back for a few seconds and actually think about how ridiculous it is to be proclaiming that leaving a fake google review is going to get mainstream cartoon show cancelled, yes it is annoying, the crew has asked everyone to stop, and they DO need to stop, but you don’t need to fly off the handle like that and start all the shouty bs

anonymous asked:

Do you prefer blondes with blue eyes or brunettes with dark eyes?

I like people that can keep up with my intellect, banter, comedy, and can give me a run for my money every now and then. I like competition. I like someone who is confident and knows not only are they lucky to have me but I’m lucky to have them. Someone who is self aware and knows who they are. Someone who is my equal. Those are people I like. Their eye color, hair color, skin color, size, expression, whatever else, is irrelevant to me. Attraction for me is mostly based off of the personality and less so on the appearance tbqh.

i know that chai is pronounced like “chi” and “chai tea” is redundant but if i’m somewhere and order a cup of masala “chi” (not bc i want to be pretentious or anything but there’s rlly no use in butchering a word when i know better) i get corrected or they ask me to repeat myself and i gotta tell them the wrong pronunciation bc it’s jst the norm… it’s a caffeinated ouroboros tbqh