this is me over analyzing yet again

About the Grey's spinoff....

Now that I’m thinking about it, I think the spinoff is going to provide the writers a chance for Maggie to find a new love interest without breaking up or getting involved in yet ANOTHER love triangle. I am no fan of Maggie Pierce, but I do like Kelly and she deserves better than to be thrown into another triangle.

When I watched the final scene between April and Maggie, it made me very nervous and angry. Then I watched it again. And again. And again. I really think that April is a little jealous because of the earlier scene between Jackson, April and Maggie. I tend to over analyze things, but I didn’t really get the feeling that Maggie has feelings for Jackson and vice versa. When April said those words to Maggie, she was completely shocked. Maybe it was the tone that she used, and at the end she threw in a little sarcastic, “you know what, you should just tell him.” And April isn’t really known for that. She was speaking out of jealously and a little out of anger. Even after she found out that Jackson was seeing Stephanie she treated Stephanie kindly and helped her. It really doesn’t help that we have no clue what the heck has been going on between Jackson and April since they returned from Montana and so people are going crazy trying to come up with explanations on their own.

Like I said in my previous post, I am trusting in Jesse and Sarah to fight for their characters. I hope Krista comes in and cleans up the giant mess that was left for her. I know a lot of people are saying they are done with Grey’s, but I am still going to give next season a chance because I want to support Jesse and Sarah. I’m willing to bet they are just as upset as we are.

its not enough!!!!! after everything nothing ive done is Enough and i want to do MORE to make up for it but i dont know where to start and i feel like nobody cares that i keep falling so short like i almost wish somebody would get mad at me for failing the way i do at myself bc nobody is pushing me and its so hard to keep motivating myself when i cant live up to myself and theres nobody to push me to do better i just keep having to pick myself up AGAIN after failing every single time. i want to be better than the best and im so angry that i havent gotten there yet bc im sure i COULD, there were countless moments over the past four years and ive dissected them and analyzed them and i get Angry over them because if i had just pushed myself harder i couldve been close to perfect but i didnt. on top of everything else i failed at motivating myself and i will always regret it and im so MAD that i have regrets

Welcome Home (Part 2)

A/n: Here’s part 2! I know it’s probably not what you guys were expecting, but I needed the reader to talk some things out first, let you inside her head. Plus I really like this O/c.

You can find all other chapters here :

He doesn’t follow you as you walk away, and for this you’re thankful. You can still feel his lips as you walk towards the employee trailer and find it empty. Once inside, you finally fall to the floor and begin to cry. Every emotion, every memory and moment hit you full force and you can’t help yourself. It hurts so much to remember him leaving and you never expected to see him again, let alone for him to kiss you like that. It’s just too much to handle at the moment. You let out a strangled laugh as you realize that you almost just got eaten, but you’re more concerned about your ex-boyfriend.

It’s a few minutes before someone walks in and sees you on the floor. It’s a woman, slightly older than you and she comes to sit by your side.

“I’m guessing you know him?” but it comes out more like a question than a statement.

“Used to. We were…together, I guess.” You put your face in your hands. “I haven’t seen him in years. Never thought I would again.”

She just nods her head stays silent for a few minutes. “He’s a good guy, you know.” She says and looks back at you, “I’ve worked with him for two years and he’s never looked at anyone like he just looked at you.”

You scoff, “He was just surprised. Bet he didn’t expect to ever have to deal with me again.” You let out a harsh laugh, “I can’t wait to hear his excuse as to why he never came back.”

“Never came back?” she asks, fishing for information.

“He promised he’d come back after his time in the Navy. That we would be together.” You frown and your heart hurts, “But he never did.”

Next, she says something that shocks you. “He never finished his time.” She says it as if she’s surprised you don’t know. “InGen pulled him from the army to work with the raptors,” she starts sounding excited, “that’s why he didn’t come back.”

You just shake your head, “He has a phone. He could have called.”

She seems to accept this and nods her head again sadly. “Yeah, I suppose.” Her apparent sadness finally hits you.

“Why do you even care?” you ask, a little rudely.

She sighs, “I’ve spent almost every day with him for years and I’ve heard it all, really. But I promise you, he’s never looked at anyone the way he looked at you.” She looks a little embarrassed then, “Plus, he asked me to come check on you. He said he’s sorry about the kiss.” She looks at you apologetically but you just sigh in return.

“What was your name?” you ask.

“Anna, you?”

“My name’s Y/n,” you pause, trying to decide if you even want to know. “Does he have a girlfriend?”

She laughs at this then seems to think better of it. “No. Never has, really.” She looks sideways at you, almost afraid. “He is quite the charmer though, if you know what I mean.”

You nod again.

“Please don’t tell him I told you that, he would seriously kill me.” She says and that makes you laugh a little.

“Don’t worry; I don’t plan on ever talking to him again, so your secret’s safe with me.” Instead of smiling, she frowns at this.

“Y/n, I know you’re upset, I would be too. But please, for me– hell for yourself, just talk to him. At the least it could give you closure.” She finishes, shrugging her shoulders.

You contemplate her words for a moment, “I don’t think I have anything to say to him.”

“Well,” she smiles again, “You could always just slap him and call him a dickhead for not calling. It wouldn’t be the first time he’s heard that.” She looks to you, worried that she said the wrong thing but you laugh, picturing Owen taking a slap from a girl.

“That’s the best idea I’ve heard all day,” you say teasingly. “You know, Anna, I really like you.”

She smiles at this, “Good, I like you too! I hope you’ll stick around.” She raises her eyebrows as she says this more like a question.

You rub your neck, working out the tight muscles there, “I don’t know. It really depends on how it all goes.” You lower your voice, even though you’re the only two in the room. “I’m scared.”

You expect her to just nod or agree, but she surprises you when she actually  asks, “What exactly are you scared of?”

“Well, Mostly, I’m scared he will have a good reason. That he will say something and I’ll fall back in his arms like nothing ever happened. I’m not ready to forgive him. Not yet.”

“I can understand that,” she sympathizes. “How about this, you just listen to what he has to say. Don’t respond, don’t forgive, and don’t give him any reason to think he still deserves you. Just let him say what he has to say, and then you can go home and think about it. Hell, you can invite me over and we can analyze every word!” she says this excitedly again, like she’s planning a sleepover. You think about it and decide that you at least want to hear what he has to say.

“Yeah, Okay. I can do that.” You nod your head at her and begin to laugh, against your will, “So, how close was I to being eaten?” You ask.

“Well, when you started to stand up, I thought it was all over.” She responds, returning your giggles.

“Come on, let’s do this.” She stands up and reaches out her hand for yours.

You take a deep breath and think to yourself, I can do this.

‘We’ve come a long way from where we began’ cit. ( See You Again by WIZ KHALIFA. ) (X)

Because me & all of you have come a long way with our blogs. Of course sometimes it was difficult & others times we were ready to give up, but we didn’t. I know people who have a blog for over five years & not even for one day they got tired of roleplaying with their muse. I completely admire those people, as well as those who puts their hearts & efforts to relate to people of the community, not to mention the effort that each one takes in editing, writing & maintaining a blog, balancing the life in tumblr & their real life which, let’s face it, sometimes is pain in the ass :/ & so here we are, after a long & tiring journey, for what concerns me a year. One year of this blog, I still remember my first follower. I still remember how happy I was to start again, after a few years in a fandom full of people who had slowly ruined it bringing only superficial judgments, always based on the popularity of the characters without actually analyzing the personality & the psychology of them. Well today I can say I made the best decision of my life. The One Piece fandom made me discover what tumblr has yet to offer & God only knows how many wonderful people there are on this fandom & non.
Today more than ever I’m so proud to have over 1000 followers. By the way this doesn’t seem nothing in comparison with other blogs, but for me this is an important milestone. I think it’s a satisfaction, actually too big to explain in words but you must know that, with all my heart, I want to say thank you. Thanks for the fun times, for all the times when someone made me smile, for all the joys & tears & simply smiles that each of you offered to me every single day by opening up & talking like we were friends for a lifetime. Thank you so much.
You know many times I prefer to do this kind of speeches instead of posting a followers forever because frankly I think that each of you is important, & you know perfectly how much I care for all of you. However after this goal I feel compelled to write these words & to put on post each of my feelings, trying to let you get them in some way. Just as I feel compelled to tell you things with my heart in my hands & with all my honesty & respect.
& then after these words I hope you appreciate this & just let me give you a big kiss & a big damn hug, I hope I can spend more time with you all & to achieve ever higher goals, gaining your friendship & especially your respect.
& now without further ado we start this first followers forever by Black & his grumpy & stubborn boy called Toffy.

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anonymous asked:

Can you write an imagine where the reader is dating Steve. They both get into a small argument and he compares her to Peggy. Then to prove a point to Steve she secretly goes to Fury, joins the Avengers and goes on a dangerous mission with Nat?

“Has Fury asked you yet?”

You look up from the tablet to see Steve leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest.

“Only about a hundred times,”

He sighs, walking into the room and sits down across from you. “Then why don’t you accept? It’d be great to have you on the team.”

“The field isn’t really for me, you know?”

“Actually, no.” You raise your eyes from the screen to Steve. “I don’t know.”

“Who peed in your breakfast this morning?” You mutter, continuing to analyze their last missions report, but Steve scoffs and you look up again. “Is there something wrong?”

“How are you fine with this?” He stands, head shaking as. “How are you okay with being confined to this room?”

“It doesn’t bother me-”

“You know, Peggy would’ve never been able to sit still in here.” He lets out a breath through his nose. “She always had to be where the action was.”

You stare in shock as he exits the room, closing the door as he leaves. In the heat of the moment, you pick up your phone and dial Fury’s number.


“When do I start?”

It had been easy to set the mission up. Natasha had been scheduled to go in on a HYDRA base as a prisoner, quietly hacking into their system and frying their tech within a few days, but you insisted that you coming along would only take half of the time it’d take for her to go solo.

You and Natasha are already in separate cells on the base, but you had hidden comms in the seems of your shirts, so once the guards lock your doors and leave, you break them out and start the mission.

“(Y/n). You there?”

“Yeah. Everything okay on your end?”

“Well, my cell smells like urine. But yeah.”

You slip off your shoe and take the small memory chip in the hidden compartment, attaching it to the flexible laptop that you had stored in your jacket.

“Let’s just get this over with so we can go,” you mutter, begin the process is downloading a virus into their server.

She laughs quietly. “We’ve been here, what, a day and you’re already so eager to leave? I thought you were the one who begged Fury to let you on the mission.”

You remain quiet as you tap on the pad, eyes narrowing in confusion when a bright red ERROR sign pops up on the screen.

“Natasha? Something’s wrong-”

“(Y/n)! They’re coming to get us. Someone must’ve known we were here.”

You hurry to back away into the corner of the cell, grimacing when your shoes stick to the stone. “What do I do? What’s going to happen?”

“Don’t worry, I’ve sent the emergency signal to Fury, they should-” her comm suddenly cuts out as your cell doors slam open, and two men enter, one raising their gun and holds the tip inches from your face, but he brings it up and slams it against forehead.

You don’t really remember how you had come to waking up in a jet with Steve’s hand entangled in yours, but you remember getting caught and sit up quickly only for your head to spin.

“(Y/n).” Steve sounds so relieved as he lightly touches your cheek, but you push his hand away.

“Where’s Natasha?”

He looks hurt by your action, but you’re too tired to care as he points behind him. You see Clint running a hand through her hair as she rests her head on his lap, and he gives you a small smile which you return.

“What happened?”

“Our inside was killed before you two even got to camp. The whole thing was sabotaged from the start.”

“This is why I don’t like to be out in the field,” You mutter, hugging your knees to your chest.

“It’s okay, (Y/n). Action isn’t for everybody-”

“Peggy can handle it, though.” You say bitterly, shrugging off the hand he had out on your shoulder. “And I can’t. So, yeah.”

He sighs. “Look, I’m sorry about that. I was just getting nostalgic and I-”

“And you think that that means it’s okay to start comparing me to your military ex-girlfriend?”

“I’m sorry, really, I if I could take it back, I would.”

“Well, you can’t. I just need some time, okay?”

He sighs, stands and presses a kiss to your forehead before joining Tony at the nose of the jet.

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Tatsu Blog 01/21/2015: "Can't stop, won't stop."

“I’ve realized, yet once again, that people can’t seem to understand that this is a personal preference.

It’s getting to the point where I can’t laugh about it anymore.”


I don’t want to dwell on it too much, but a part of me is thinking maybe he is being heckled about his smoking habit. Coming in light of Kiiyan’s one year anniversary of being smoke free, I can see people and fans being like “See Kiiyan did it.  You should try it too!” since these two have been chummy of late…


Letter from a Virgo

Sometimes, my head won’t just be quiet, even when I beg it too. Analyzing this and that, over and over again until I fall into a stupor. You may see me as high strung, but would you do any better with these rigorous cycles in your head? No. I don’t think so. And I only critique because perfectionism is my middle name. Why not aim high? Then even higher than that?  If you just give me a chance I will bloom into a daisy chain, meticulously put together yet oh so politely done. 

Thank you, 

Vigorously Virgo. 

My Father Had a Heart Attack Last Year

My family was small and quiet, living in the quaint neighborhood we had always resided. Before, our town had the lowest crime rates of any other in the whole entire tri-state area. Last year, the police only reported one measly crime to be committed in the town. My mother, an old soul who was very serious and composed more time than not, never reminded us to lock the doors or close the windows. There wasn’t much need to.

My father had died of a heart attack last year just a few hours after my brother was born. It was tragic and destructive, leaving my mother a mess. She was acting so strangely for a woman who lost her husband of two decades. My mother was very enthusiastic about things that she would never have cared about before. I thought she would have been torn over the death, considering she was so close and loving to my father.

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Dirty Thoughts, Steve Rogers X Reader One-Shot

Title: Dirty Thoughts (I think I’m really funny because of this)

Pairing: Steve Rogers x Reader

Prompt: Reader loses a bet to Tony and is forced to wear a French Maid outfit for a week. Steve avoids the Reader, and they soon realize why. (Anonymous)

Word Count: 737

Warnings: Sexual themes? Very minimal.

Author’s Note: Thanks for the request! If anyone else has any my ask is open here! Check out my Steve/Female Reader series here. This was really fun to write! Hope you enjoy!

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Is Character Development Even Important Anymore?

I’ll be called, “A salty Lucaya&Riarkle shipper who can’t deal with the fact that their ship(s) are dead.”  But it’s so much more than about ships.

We don’t know what happened in Part 1, but from Part 2, I guess we can decipher that Maya must have decided that her feelings for Lucas were never real, and that the only guy she “loves” throughout the series is Josh.  And as for Lucas, as he gets jealous of Evan/Greg, he realizes that the only girl he “loves” throughout the series is Riley.

If Rucas and Joshaya were always the plan, then Rucas and Joshaya were always the plan. I can’t try to deny it if that’s how it is. But if that’s the case, I really wish the writers didn’t have all that God damn amazing development between Maya&Lucas and Riley&Farkle, and then decide to throw it out the window.

The cheering shippers will scoff, “There was never any development between Maya&Lucas and Riley&Farkle.  You all were just over-analyzing and searching for answers to help your ship when the real story was right in front of you all along!” Maybe the real story was in front of us all along, but I will never back down to the fact that the character development between Maya&Lucas and Riley&Farkle was damn real.

Maya and Lucas went from friends who went from planning how to make the other tick (“You actually put thought into our little game, don’t you?”), to being able to express how much they care about each other and want each other to succeed (“I want Maya to be happy!”, Maya’s complete fear of him riding Tombstone), to admitting feelings that seemed so incredibly real, (The entirety of the campfire scene, “You don’t need to be sorry Huckleberry, of course I like you. You’re a good guy.”), and we don’t even know how long Maya’s actually liked Lucas for (“You stepped back. I know you stepped back.”).  And this is only from the first two seasons.  This isn’t even counting what Lucas apparently says about Maya in Girl Meets Upstate or Girl Meets True Maya.

And these are only three examples in regards to an enormous amount. Everyone will argue that all the Lucaya fans were a, “fanservice because of all the obnoxious Lucaya fans complaining”, but I don’t think these writers are the type of people who would give into peer pressure.  But the thing is, if that is the case, I would have much rather have had seen Rucas and Joshaya go through growth together as a whole, instead of using Maya as a, “speed bump” into Rucas’ happily ever after. That completely degrades not just her character, but character development overall. And after everything, it turns out (from the rumors) that Maya never even liked Lucas in the first place?  That all those months and all that time and all those moments was just to make sure that Lucas was, “worthy” enough for Riley? And then when Riley&Lucas got together, she could go back to her “true love” Josh? And that, because Josh is older, Maya will just have to wait for him for years until she’s old enough for them to be together, longing for him&being alone?  How does that make any sense at all?

As for Riarkle? Maybe they didn’t have an official romantic plot as of yet, but God, the character development with them had me hoping for so much, especially with Riley. Again, it will be argued that everyone was “over-analyzing”, but watching Girl Meets Texas Part 3, Girl Meets the New Year, Girl Meets STEM. Dialogue is important (“I care so much about you” “I do (want you to get better). There’s no situation where I wouldn’t want that for you”). Direction is important (The incredibly long hugs in Texas Part 3 and Great Lady of NY-TWO of them).  Settings of a scene (physical and feeling (atmosphere)) are important (both for Riarkle&Lucaya). Everyone will argue, “It’s just a great friendship!” and I guess from Ski Lodge, that may be all the writers ever intended Riarkle to be.  

But Riarkle was a huge opportunity for enormous growth, especially for Riley. That it isn’t about being the “princess”, or living up to her parents “perfect, fairytale” relationship, or that love doesn’t happen at first sight. That she can be able to grow in a relationship, that she doesn’t have to live her parent’s lives, and that she doesn’t have to cling her childhood dreams (Bay Window: Lucas’ boots were in the bucket with Riley’s bear) to be happy.

Now, I don’t know what’s going to happen after Ski Lodge, or what’s going to be endgame.  Maybe Lucaya and Riarkle still have a chance, and maybe they very well don’t.  If the endgame is Rucas and Joshaya (as the cheers ring through the fandom that they are endgame), then that’s what it is. And, I do understand the reasoning of having Rucas&Joshaya.  The idea of having people believe you can end up with your first love, never giving up on your dreams, Riley and Lucas being the next Cory&Topanga (even though I remember Michael Jacobs saying specifically in a radio interview that they weren’t, but…).

But what angers me is that they brought in all of this character development for Maya&Lucas and Riley&Farkle, and if that wasn’t their plan, they should have left Maya and Farkle out of it and should have focused more on Riley and Lucas talking about their relationship earlier than waiting until now.  And if Maya was to end up with Josh, they should have planned to have him in more episodes or mention him more, not have him come in for one episode where Maya reveals after everything that’s happened that she never even liked Lucas in the first place.  And to have it decided that Maya is just going to cling onto the idea that she’s going to wait for him until she turns 17-18, without exploring other options is just awful and degrading for her character.

This isn’t me trying to bash Rucas and Joshaya. I just wish that if those ships were the plans all along, that the writers would have used different characters and situations as obstacles to their ultimate endgame, instead of using the other two main characters to build tension and development and then decide that none of it was important in the end.

ok but like clarke was kind of given all the credit for how she and bellamy saved their people at the end of season two

but when bellamy tells her, “you’re not acting like someone who just saved the world”, she responds with, “because we didn’t. not yet”

she knows she couldn’t have done it without him and that she can’t save the world (again) without him and I JUST


Jody - Hanscum’s good

Dean - Jody…..

Jody - I said, she’s good

So, while initially I freaked out along with everyone else about next week’s promo and Dean’s going dark-side again (and make no mistake, I will be dead this time next week), I have spent the past hour or so with pirrofarfalla combing through Hibbing 911 and reveling in all the imagery pointing towards Dean’s salvation. While Lexa has an amazing meta coming out which encompasses the bigger narrative surrounding this, my eye was caught by this little scene.

I have commented before, particularly about season 8, about how many times Dean is surrounded by Christ imagery. I have interpreted it in various ways, but of all of those I have seen I like this one the most.

On the surface level, it is a scene in which Dean looks to two people for help, Sam and Jody. They are the two obvious choices as he knows their value, knows they will come through for him. They always have in the past. However, they are unable to here and Dean ends up having to free himself. Moreover, the new hunter-kid on the block, Donna, ends up saving Jody. Simple as.

Except on a symbolic level, I think that so much more is going on. Throughout the episode there is an amazing amount of shots where Dean is captured with a halo-esque object behind him. Mostly in gold. But if we look at the bottom left gif, behind Dean’s head, it looks like a scorched halo, almost like angel wings after death. Season 9 ended with Dean giving his life dying, sacrificing himself. His halo was scorched. 

Season 10 has seen Dean struggling with all sides of himself, because he is struggling with the Mark. He is lost as to which face to present to the world, because he simply has no idea who he is right now. While, as I have meta-ed before, what we have seen are parts of Dean, they are not his true self. That true self is what he is looking for. 

Looking at this scene, I believe the story that is being told is that Dean’s salvation does not lie in the same place where it has been in the past. That Dean will have to find his new identity elsewhere. It is not with Sam, nor with Jody from Sioux Falls who dated his surrogate dad for a spell and represents the identity of his past self as much as Sam does. To truly find himself he will have to look inside. Dean’s salvation will lie in a different place.

In the same way he did not trust Donna, he is yet unable to trust in his own strength and with good cause. But the image of Dean freeing himself with a nail - the means of his crucifixtion becoming the instrument of his own salvation- that is an image that gives me hope.

anonymous asked:

I do not mean to be rude, im just curious about this. Why dont you watch the show just for the sake of watching it? What is the reason you analyze each episode to find hidden meanings instead of just enjoying it? Also im really sorry if this came off as rude or condescending, it was not my intention.

Because when I realize that writers are going above and beyond to create something special, I dig in. I analyzed the hell out of HIMYM & Breaking Bad too. Nobody ever questioned or criticized me for that. Not even once.

The point of art is to engage with it. And when I am presented with good art with a lot of depth and layers, I dive in. I ENJOY looking closely at the show and catching on to all the great stuff the writers have been doing. I did NOT enjoy GMW anywhere near as much back when I was taking it at face value—in fact I quit about halfway through S1 because I hadn’t caught on yet and I was deeply disappointed. (Oops. 😂)

If you prefer to watch casually and not engage on a deeper level, fine. You do you.

But I REALLY do not get why people think looking more deeply (especially when the creators of a work have instructed fans to do so over and over and over again both on show itself via the lessons and IRL on Twitter) is like…morally wrong or something. If analyzing a show isn’t enjoyable to you, cool. It is, however, VERY enjoyable for me. ☺️👍

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♫ No place for beginners or sensitive hearts. When sentiment is left to chance no place to be ending but somewhere to start.

The party was in full swing when you arrived dressed to the nine. Your hair was swept up and you donned the most fashionable of gowns for the evening. While you got ready, you vaguely wondered if you’d see him. Though it didn’t matter if you did—at least, that’s what you repeatedly told yourself.

As your eyes swept the room in search for a familiar face, you failed to see the pair of eyes that were drinking you in. His wine swished in his hands and all words that were spoken so seductively into his ear by a woman in red went unnoticed. His attention was on you—his prey.

You moved fluidly towards the balcony, fingers slipping around the stem of a champagne glass. Winking as thanks to the waiter you could not fight the chuckle that passed your lips lightly when the blush on his face spread. You loved this new sense of sureness you radiated. It was empowering and you couldn’t fathom living each day without it—a potential harnessed once your ex-lover and you parted ways.

The man, albeit broke your heart and left you bleeding, taught you something important. He taught you that you must never hand anyone the power to break you. They must never know your weakness and that is why you did not give yourself away in a relationship. Always you kept yourself a good distance and tore the heart you so willingly wore on your sleeve before.

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12x22 Japril Thoughts... and Theories

#1: Obviously, that Japril scene was precious. But while a lot of the comments and posts I’ve read were all happy about it…

#2: Am I the only one who thinks it was really sad at the same time? I mean, it was good that they were actually talking and compromising. And it’s always nice to see Jackson smiling that pretty little smile of his…

#3: But April looked so… guarded. Like she realized that that’s what it’s just going to be like with Jackson from here on out. Or that she was done hoping they’d get back together. I keep replaying that scene over and over again in my mind, and I can’t help but look back to that time they had dinner at that Italian restaurant - the time April thought was a date when Jackson actually wanted to talk about divorce. She was practically glowing, and they were just making small talk then. This time, she’s a lot more reserved and quiet.

#4: “We don’t fight.” When April said that line, I felt that it wasn’t said with the hope that they’d fix things between them, unlike Jackson when he repeated the words with a smile on his face. The way April said it, it was more like she just literally doesn’t want to fight with him anymore because she wouldn’t have the energy for that. She looked tired.

#5: Also, a lot of people are hoping that one of the two proposals happening in the next episode would be Japril, but, given my own thoughts about the Japril scene in this episode, I honestly don’t think that’ll be the case. I think a proposal for Omelia and Jolex (Jo will do the proposing) is more likely than for Japril.

#6: And honestly, I don’t want Japril to get back together… yet. They still have issues to deal with and a lot of heart-to-heart conversations to have before they can reconcile and stay reconciled.

#7: Now, as for the shocking hook-up… I’m pretty confident it’ll have something to do with Nathan (probably with Maggie), but there’s a little voice in my head telling me that it might actually involve Japril. Think of Sarah Drew’s Instagram post: “If she can’t have him, no one can.”

#8: But then again, maybe this is just me over-analyzing things. :)

Thank You Mark, Jack, Wade and Bob!

The reason why we all listen when Mark, Wade, Bob or Jack say we matter!

For the last several days I have been wondering why it is that when someone reblogged Mark’s instagram saying You matter it clicked to me.
I have heard those same words from my family and friends in the real world. I have heard those same words from my therapist a few years back.
However it never really struck home for me and I still didn’t believe them. Yet several years later some guy who I know only through a face on
a screen says those same words and they click in my head. Why was it Mark that made me realize what others have said to me?
It has baffled me for the past few days and I tend to over analyze a lot of things. I fully know that I do this but I won’t change that at all.
However for once it’s a good thing because it digs deeper into who I am.

Is it because Mark and the guys are “celebrities” and I’m a fan? That doesn’t make much sense becaue I grew up in the Backstreet Boys fandom. I
have heard these same words from those guys my whole life. Yet it never really touched me in the same way. Is it because I think they are
attractive the answer again would be no. I don’t see them that way while I do think they are adorable I don’t have those types of dreams about them.
I had dreams like that about Nick Carter and still the words never struck home for me.

After several days of pondering I realized why it is that not just me but millions of fans out there listen when Mark, Wade, Jack and Bob say
we matter. Now it might not be exactly the same way for everyone but for myself I understand it now. I see myself in them so much. Bob’s ability
to be quiet when needs to be and coming up with funny jokes when he can is something that I do. Wade’s ability to become the butt of the joke
in order to make people laugh. Jack’s love for all sweet foods and his sincere fear of disappointment. Mark’s love of making people laugh coupled
with his love of dick jokes. I see myself in these guys in a way I never saw myself in others. I can relate to them and they aren’t on some
pedastal that can never be reached. They are human in a way that nobody else that I have seen have been to me.

So when I hear any of them give out positive words telling us fans including me that we matter. It hits home not because THEY are saying it.
It might be thier mouths moviing and thier voices saying it but in a way it’s me saying it to myself. I see myself in them so much that when
they say stuff like that it’s like me saying it to myself. That is why it has hit home because I needed to hear myself say it. However I never
could until I started watching Mark, Bob, Jack and Wade! They opened my eyes and my mind making me see what others saw in me for so long but I never
saw in myself.

So thank you guys! Thanks to you for making me realize things that I refused to believe for so long! I salute each of you guys with a separate wing! 

Noteworthy - Part 3

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“Maybe I could say that I’m the one who gave me… I mean, the admirer… Dipper’s email address, and that’s how I was able to contact him,” Mabel muttered to herself, as she stared at her laptop screen. “No,” she said, dismissing her suggestion. “That won’t work. He’ll ask me who his secret admirer is. He’ll know that I’d know… not that I don’t know, because it’s me, but… ugh. This is makin’ my head hurt.”

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