It feels good - that I’ve stuck with it this time and didn’t give up. That I don’t really need some of the crutches I relied on at first, eating less and getting more exercise has just become a habit. I went on vacation and lost 4 pounds because I ordered whatever I wanted but stopped as soon as I felt the slightest bit full - and it was easy. I didn’t feel deprived or guilty or sad that I couldn’t eat more (well, only on the day we went to Son of a Gun…that chicken sandwich was AMAZING!).
But at the same time, it feels…not bad. I wouldn’t say bad. Just…strange. It hasn’t changed much, really. I still feel lonely and deeply, miserably ugly. I want people to notice but when they do I want to curl up in a ball and hide, because how can they not see all the things still wrong with me? It’s also a little embarrassing to admit, tbh…that I’ve been fat enough I could lose 100 pounds and still not be at my goal. I’m just…not in a very good place, mentally. I guess I thought losing weight would fix that but I need to work on both apparently.
Anyway…100 pounds. Wow. I really never thought I’d get here.
Marvel: we can’t make one of our film or show leads Asian. That would be…. against the original source material. That’s also why we can’t make them LGBTQ+.
Power Rangers (2017): hey what’s up. 4/5 of our leads are POC. One is autistic and one is confirmed LGBTQ+. We have the first Asian superhero in a big-budget film, the first autistic superhero in a big/budget film, and the first LGBTQ+ superhero in a big-budget film. None of this was really in the original source material, but representation matters and we specifically casted them with the intention of making a diverse film.
“We’ve got to start at the bottom and work up! And if we don’t earnestly cheer each other on… we’ll never be top heroes!” ✩ Creatie Hero ✩ | Yaoyorozu Momo | (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و ↳ requested by @mrgeekonthiswebsite ♥
What did you do with your Emmy? Where is it living now? Did you get it on a shelf or something like that? Hum, no. My parents came to visit me recently and they kind of like, fix my life when they come over and so they got all these plants, and the Emmy was in a box, and my mom didn’t know that was the Emmy, and so she has a plant beautifully presented on top of the Emmy, with the box. Yeah, it gives a nice blue box. Yeah, exactly. It’s like, supporting life, so it’s pretty… It’s like a worthy thing to do, the right thing. That’s nice. You ever gonna take it out and put it up? No? You’re not gonna put it up? I don’t know. Why?