this is just my reaction whenever i see sebastian on my dash


Warning(s): Surprise Pregnancy, Mentions of sex (extremely brief), Cursing
A/N: I just used my name (Katie) for your best friend’s name because I forgot that I could do the (Y/B/F/N) thing so… whoops. Also sorry for any inaccuracies, I’ve never been to a pregnancy center and I couldn’t find good research about what happens in them.
“Well, shit.” You said looking down at the pregnancy test in your hand. The two pink lines told you everything you needed to know.
“Okay,” you placed the pregnancy test back on the counter and placed your hands on your hips. “Okay.”
“What do we do?” You looked at yourself in the mirror almost as if you’re waiting for your reflection to respond back. “You are absolutely no help.”
“Okay, don’t panic. Let’s, uh… call Katie. Yeah, lets call Katie.” The air in the bathroom began to feel hot as you picked up your phone and called your best friend. The phone rang twice before she picked up.
“Hey, how are you, honey?”
“Uh, okay, I guess. Can we meet for lunch or something, I really need to talk to you.”
“Yeah, we can do that. Is everything okay?” She asked sounding concerned.
“Uh, yeah, I think, I just need to talk to you.”
“Okay, I’ll come pick you up in a few minutes.”
“Alright, see you then.” You hung up the phone and returned it to the counter. Despite living on your own, you still felt the need to hide the pregnancy test, so you wrapped it up in toilet paper tightly and threw it into the trash can placing a few squares in over top. For good measure you threw in some crumpled tissues and a cheap lip gloss that you’ve had for years. You took a few deep breaths before finally exiting the bathroom and going outside just as Katie pulled up.
As you climbed into the front seat of her car, you contemplated how exactly you were going to tell her.
“Where do you want to go?” She asked beginning to drive again.
“Uh, how does pizza sound?” You threw out the first thing that came to mind.
“Heavenly.” The two of you spoke about random topics the entirety of the way there.
The both of you walked into the restaurant seating yourselves as the waiter prepared your usual drinks and brought them to you before confirming you did indeed want your usual order.
“So, what’s up? You sounded really upset on the phone.”
“Well, I kind of was.” You paused for a moment.
“Are you going to tell me why or are we going to pretend it didn’t happen?”
“I, um, well, my period was late so I decided to take a pregnancy test today before I called.”
“No,” she gasped.
“Yeah.” You confirmed while chewing on your lip.
“Is it Sebastian’s?” She asked.
“Well, yeah, he is my boyfriend,” you paused for a moment. “God, we’ve only been dating for a few months, I don’t even know if he wants kids!” You covered your face with your hands and slouched forward, your elbows hitting the table.
“Okay, don’t panic… maybe you’re not even pregnant. It could have been a false positive. Have you been experiencing any other symptoms?”
“I’ve been kind of nauseous the past few weeks but nothing too bad… maybe you’re right.” You look up.
“I can take you to that crisis pregnancy center.”
“You’re the best.” You sigh.
“Do you want to go now?”
“Can it wait until after we eat? I’m starving.” You announce while she laughs.
“Okay, so I was wrong. Sue me.” Katie says looking at the charts the nurse gave you. There isn’t any question about it, you are pregnant.
“You know in seventh grade when the health teacher said not to have sex because of the pregnancy risk?” You inquire as you slid into the front seat of her car.
“Yeah.” She responded while putting her keys in the ignition.
“I should have listened.” You joked while the both of you laughed quietly.
“Your next step is telling Sebastian.” Katie reminded you after the two of you calmed down slightly.
“Yeah, I know. I just don’t know how I’m gonna do it.”
“I hear Instagram’s DM service is a great way to do it.” You laugh loudly and turn the air vent so it blew in your face.
“No, seriously.” You turn towards her as she turns out of the parking lot.
“I was being serious,” she looks at you, clearly trying to hide a smile. “I don’t know, man. When are you seeing him next?”
“I’m supposed to go over later tonight. We’re going to have dinner together.”
“My suggestion would be just coming right out with it, but I haven’t had a boyfriend since sophomore year of high school, my advice is pretty much void.”
The rest of the ride home, the two of you pulled your typical driving shenanigans including but not limited to singing way to loudly, dancing at stop lights, and passive aggressively yelling at other cars until you pulled up in front of your apartment building.
“Thank you for everything.” You smile at Katie.
“Hey, what are best friends for?” She takes her seatbelt off and leans toward you, capturing you in a large hug. She gives you a tight squeeze before letting you go. You take a deep breath in and get out of the car thinking about how the rest of your evening would go.
You placed your phone back into your purse after notifying your boyfriend of your arrival. As you walked from the car to his building, you became unexplainably calm. Sure, the news you were going to deliver was astronomical, but you had reached that point where you just couldn’t feel nervous anymore. You parked and sat in the car for a few extra seconds.
“Let’s do this shit.” You look down to your stomach and say as you got out of the car. The walk to the building was filled only by a silent pep talk playing in your head.
As you got to the door of the building, it opened to reveal your boyfriend. His hear was slightly disheveled and he had an apron on over his clothing.
“Hi babe,” He said pushing the door open for you as he kisses your cheek. The genuine smile on his face warmed your heart and made your stomach feel tingly.
“Hey!” You smiled widely and entered the building. He took your hand firmly in his and led you to his apartment.
The second you entered, the smell of spices filled your nose making your mouth water.
“Smells great!” You exclaim as he helps you take off your coat.
“Thank you, dear. Are you ready to eat?” He asked right before kissing your lips. It was casual, quick, but the emotion behind it was undeniable.
“Yes, whenever you are.” You said. He motioned for you to follow him away from the door and led you to his dining room table. Sebastian pulled out the chair for you and pushed it in. He kissed the top of your head and then dashed to the kitchen to retrieve your plates. When he left, your apprehensiveness grew. You knew you had to tell him, you were just afraid of his reaction. Like you’d mentioned before, you’d only been dating the guy a few months, there was still so much to figure out. He returned shortly after his original departure with two plates.
“Can I get you something to drink?” He asked you as he sat a plate down in front of you.
“Um, just water please.” You said looking back at him.
“Really? I have some wine in the-” He brings to say.
“I’m pregnant,” You blurt out. You cover your mouth with your hand. “I didn’t mean to tell you that way.”
“Are you serious? You are?” He asked you.
“Yeah. Yeah I am.” He began to stare at you, not saying a word.
“I totally get it if you’re upset. I-” You began to speak.
“I’m not upset. I’m not upset at all. If anything you should be mad at me! I’ll admit that the timing is not the best in the world but having a child isn’t always a bad thing.” He came closer to you and hugged you tightly.
“I was worried that you would be upset.” You told him as you hugged him back tightly.
“No, we’re in this together now. I love you.” He plants a kiss on your temple.
“I love you too.”

Fiend Follows FiveEver!!

There’s so many good feelings floating around, and even sickly I want to share to make anyone’s days a little brighter. :) (Although typing is a bit of a challenge, lol)

Let’s do this, shall we?

Can’t be that hard, can it?

(she said hopefully but with a withering, sinking feeling in her heart.)

This year has been pretty amazing. I’ve gained so many followers to my little corner of Dragon Age hell and I can’t even tell you how much you all mean to me, even the silent watchers like our lovely Scout Jim. :] I had…oh, I dunno, maybe 30 only a few months ago and suddenly I’m pushing 400. I was just writing for myself and suddenly I’ve got so many of you who hang on every word and it makes my little heart happy (I’m about to cry just typing this, no, Madison, stop!!).

To start this off properly, I must begin my thank yous where it all started.

Thank you to @eternalshiva, @fatally-procrastinating, @elfrooted, @carpe-cullen, @blustersquall, @eeveevie and @digital-goddess for inspiring me with their own fantastic fics to get me back into the writing game in the first place. :]

But an even bigger thank you to everyone who encouraged me to stay. :D

@demonicdivas You put up with my shit all the time and calm me down when Keram and Rylen just anger me to tears. It’s the least I can do to Beta for you. You deal with my shifting passions and general ranting and I couldn’t ask for a better friend to throw ideas. One of two things always happens: 1) we get excited, or 2) we cry. Funny, right?

@scumbag-solas For being my very worst instigator and smut compadre! When it comes to Cullen, I know where to go. We can throw art at each other, and be ridiculous and god damn, I value that so much. Em and M after dark is probably my favorite tag. Shenanigans happen there, and here’s to many more!

@slothquisitor I feel like you’re my number one fan, and your enthusiasm keeps me going, oh my god. I love you so much ship mate, and I’m glad I’ve got someone I can go crazy about it to! (Rylen and Keram 4EVA, put that on my grave, lol). I imagine you with like a foam finger, honestly, and even if I wrote for no one else, I would keep writing stories just for you. <3

@thesecondsealwrites Good friend, rock appreciator, and heartbreaker (Cullen and Essa? Oh lordy, go read it!), you’ve been so encouraging both as a reblogger and just a blogger. I’ve said it several times, I think, but I need to, just once more, I strive to be a writer like you. Great story, great imagery, always good about updates. Guys, Pony Seal over here is the writer you deserve. Haha. If you aren’t already, go follow her, like seriously. She’s a gem.

And to everyone else that reblogs my fics and leave such wonderful messages for me! You make my heart so happy!

Okay, now to some nittier, grittier, thank yous.

First of all, a thank you to all the “normal friends” who put up with my Dragon Age shit. These are the guys I know irl and for some reason they haven’t unfollowed me even though I flood their dashes with pictures of Cullen’s stupid face. I raise my glass to you guys!

@theteddylupinexperience The bestest cuz a gal could ask for!

@raven-of-ice-and-sword Awh lookit you, mah bby bruderrrrr!

@mckenna-corinne God, how many years has it been, Prongs? 15? 16??

@sir-alvin I see more of your stuff on Instagram, but I’m glad you’re doing so well! And with a beautiful fiance too! So happy for you. :D

@kikilicious-and-kitties She’s only here because she’s my brother’s girlfriend, but I try to give her fluffy cats to make the dash flooding better, lol.

@creepingdeath1992 I did in fact get your message, and I hope all is well. :]

A big thanks and I love yous to the Salt Squad Supreme, though nowadays we go by the Farquaad Star Squad. :D I love talking to you guys, and you give me a wonderful outlet to bitch about absolutely anything…or fangirl over art with Em, or SWTOR with Shau Shau. :]

@scumbag-solas | @nix-shiva (formerly known as dragonagesomethingsomething) | @stiria-shiva (formerly known as fuckboy-solas) | @shortchangeher0 (formerly known as thedreadwhitewolf) | @renatafortuna (you and I are the only ones that don’t have s names, yo. O.o) | Always and forever you guys. <3 Seriously, though! (RENI WE MISS YOUUUU)

A shout out and thanks to lovely people:

@dragon—-effect For spamming my blog almost every day! I get so excited and happy when I see you because you write the best tags and comments

@fenharels-thighs For tagging me in things and for being ever so friendly! You’re a laugh and I hope you carry on being awesome!

@xsnowfallx For being my Hawkeye buddy, cool art, and tagging and support and just commere let me love you!

@surlysara For ever thinking I was too scary to talk to? Like, what? And now we laugh about art and I think there was underwear in there somewhere? You support me and I love you for it and I like dropping by for a chat now and again. :D Gone are the days of the kinda horrible fanmail, but now we PM whenever we please. I love that.

@kikiauske For supporting my madness and not kinkshaming what was likely the most shameful smut I’ve ever written. Haha. You made me feel better about it.

@burn1ngpag3s the new Star Wars friend Ahh? Ahhhh?? *wiggles eyebrows*

@artsyfartsybells For being the person that gave me confidence in my smut!! Ever since that message, oh man, it made my day, my life, my year, and I still remember it. I might’ve cut that stuff out if it wasn’t for you. :] So thank you, ever so much for your support.

@jasnahkholin-elsecaller AKA @therutherfordwife (right? Oh, Maker, I hope I got that) For being so nice and happy and pleasant and grateful and oh my goodness, did you guys know that she likes my stories?? You were so excited when you won my giveaway and it just made me so unbelievably happy. I never would have believed I’d have a fan like you! You mean the world and I wish I could do more!

@cullenstairshenanigans You name says enough, I thank you for that, lol, but also your writing, your enthusiasm and good luck with your beautiful baby! Try to get plenty of sleep, but also, baby kisses. :] 

@more-aoe For posting such awesome fics and giving me interesting points of view and unique pairings to consider. Stay awesome, my friend.

@cantkeepmyeyesoff For being so nice and willing to give us amazing screenshots that noobs like me couldn’t get otherwise

@thegillyfox Fir being the sweetest thing, a pleasure to talk to (even if I’m just literally bad at responding) and for her awesome art!

@optimistic-jamie For sharing the love of a certain Starkhaven Templar. ;]

@rutherfart For cool art and fun times. Starkhaven Brigade, ho!

@farashe For tagging me in things and being a lovely person

@adriyelchan For your love on my stories! I just wanna squeeze you!

@hawkelings For being my place for Chantry Boys and rivalmancing Sebastian and loving Anders! ;D

@aletheaquihote For all the worst best ideas. (her giveaway fic is going to be a DELIGHT)

@maepricot For always having the sweetest things to say!

@thereluctantinquisitor For cool art, and an Inquisitor that’s too attractive for this world, like sheesh!

@bluvixen For supporting and feeding all my addictions whether its Dragon Age, Fallout 4 or Star Wars. I couldn’t ask for a better and more sinister friend

Shout out to fantastic artists! I am blessed with the things on my dash!

@darkspawndoodles | @feralise | @luluchenofdarnassus (also the sweetest!) | @triaelf9 | @cocotingo | @lilyrutherfordblog | @greendelle | @therealmcgee | @serenity-fails | @sometrashland | @hija-ck or @hijadraws (don’t know which to tag so, both?) | @sanzosin | @siriusdraws | @barelysirius (yes, both) | @artsyneurotic@izzlerizzle (my god you feed all my addictions when I need them) | @lyndraws | @mianzuart | @cheekywithcullen (where do I even PUT you?? You brighten my day with your reaction gifs, AND your art!!) | @cccrystalclear | @danji-doodle | @yamisnuffles | @greyallison | @theminttu | @razzmatash | @froschkuss | @frank-a-lank | @ellustration | @sload | @gemwillyart | @destinyapostasy | @kekecocoa | @slugette | @coffeependulum | @marllowe | @cute-ellyna | @askbroodyelf |

Thank you guys for always reblogging like literally everything, I love you guys!

@malice-dourden (oh nooo!! Y U NO TAG??) | @besides-fuckboi-broke-my-phone (I LOVE YOUR BLOG NAME ALSO) | @weskeriskewlio (I smile every time I see you!) |

And a big thank you to mutuals. I see you and I love you, like for real!

@rutherfordrogue | @freckled-apostate | @morlena | @shinyhill | @book-worm132 | @seksiebetch | @fen-ha-fuck-you | @firgolfin | @tweesmallmaggie | @kiwi-xeet | @rihouston | @oblivionscribe | @lilwyv | @gogohellgranny | @oddmints | @head-bitch-inquisitor | @replicajester |

And to the bestest followers that may end up being mutuals soon tbth

@ellana-will-kick-some-ass | @just-dread-wolfing | @sotocakes | @ksilverland | @harlotjohannsen | @booieann | @killing-lonliness88 | @apostatehoe | @zevainai | @missmaryxdd | @zombiefishgirl | @pandasaretubby | @siawrites | @apostate-hoe | @kyragrenev | @mysdrym | @xenianyx | @shiftylooking-cow | @cruderford | @miraamell | @melonbiskitqueen | @alleiradayne | @transfigurations12 | @hardforhardbacks | @christopherthejollyrobin | @theselittlethingsaremine | @bury-me-in-elven-glory | @serenityxgarrus | @infernaltuggins | @fantrashingovertrash | @multifandom4life | @commandersquishypants | @ember4lock | @candycanegamer | @sakuke |

And finally, to the lovely people that I follow and that I can’t imagine not being on my dash but they’re smart enough not to want me on theirs (and I’m not mad).

@optimisticphineas | @frozenmusings | @harrypotterhousequotes | @wonderlandiswhereitsatyo | @alostbluebox | @your-inquisitorial-ness | @fuckyeahcullen | @perrybearwaks | @fontofnothing | @arcanefeathers | @fyeahanders | @azuremosquito |@reellifejaneway2 |@r2smuse | @rellikart | @theprettynerdie | @spockoandjimjim | @queenmelisende | @queenly–dweeb | @pavusdorian | @commandercullen | @commandertemplartrash | @wandering-in-thedas | @fuckyeahanders | @cloud-strifed | @fuckyeahvarric | @ninablossom1 | @jimthescoutofficial | @harry-potterspotlight | @musicluver-9998 | @nethaca | @blackthor-n | @zutara | @cometeclipsewriting | @romancingcullen | @dragonageconfessions | @incorrectdragonage | @actualgreywarden | @the-lion-of-honnleath | @everythingdragonage | @thedasrutherford | @parksandraste (such a wonderful blog!! omg. You never knew you needed it!) | @theangrygeneral | @synthetnick | @inkygreatlyapproves | @ar-lath-ma-vhenan | @sagefic | @nerdy-bird125 | @dashingapostate | @anderfalling | @waywardapostate | @maebyrutherford | @romancinganders | @knight-captain-rylen | @love-captain-rylen | @dorkylaughter | @hotdadsofthedas | @ourinquisitorialness | @klc-journei | @commander-cullen |

And now that I’ve finished, I feel light-headed and dizzy. Oh man…help…?

If I missed anyone I am so sorry! But I adore all my followers and all those I follow!! You are all so special.

I hope your holidays were lovely, and you all have a happy New Year!

Okay, so I’ve been seeing a discussion on my dash lately revolving around basically like…who’s had it worse or which part of the fandom attacked the other first or worse or whatever the case may be

And let me just preface it with this…there’s been shitty behavior from every part of the fandom at some point. 


I know everyone wants to think like, “Oh, but my corner has been perfect, we’ve never done anything wrong, ever!” but that’s just not true. It isn’t. I’m sorry, but it isn’t and that’s shitty and I hate it because trust me, I wanted to be part of the fandom that was known for being chill and being more mature or whatever, but…that’s just how shit is. I contributed to it, I need to take ownership of it. 

But let’s just…travel back in time because it seems like a lot of people have forgotten how it really was. 

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