C: i was watching my friends snapstory and it made me realize how truly shit i am at maintaining relationships. i’m the reason why they’re good friends now and the friend has unfollowed and unadded me on everything bc i suck at staying active. same thing happened with my ex best friends. ive called them my best friends on many occasions but little did i know they were having their own conversations and hanging out and now they work together and now they refer to each other as best friends. now we’re all acquaintances. it’s a shitty feeling and i beat myself up for it a lot. i’ve formed this box around me and it’s getting harder and harder for me to let people in. i’m surprised i still have friends, i mean i may seem outgoing, funny, and inviting but once they start getting close and start wanting to hang out outside of school, that’s when i freak out and start looking for excuses not to hang with them. it’s so hard to go with the flow when i start to get hit with a wave of “what-ifs”. at some points i want to get out and hang with friends but then i get these thoughts in my head that make me wanna stay home and watch netflix instead. i feel so helpless.
hello! is it possible for you to link to posts that explained the flipping of gifsets (the skam flippening, i think it was called?) in depth from that time period between s3 and s4? sorry if this is a confusing ask