Felicity Smoak 519
Okay so I’ve thought a lot about this scene because honestly what she says about all the times she’s had his back, didn’t make sense to me because it’s simply not true. In fact more often then not Felicity has actively tried to thwart every single one of Oliver’s self-sacrificing plans. She just always seemed to fail like Oliver did tonight. So thinking on it I realized this right here is Felicity pointing out to Oliver what she needs in a partner. She needs someone who back her up no matter what because for Felicity blind trust and support means you won’t abandon her. Which funny enough is exactly what Helix did tonight. They used her and then decided that after everything she was more trouble than she was worth and abandoned her.
They turned their backs on her after the lengths she went to for them. (Including turning her back on her own team. Her family.) So now here she is feeling alone and abandoned and angry and the one person she did all of this for wasn’t at all happy that she did.
He once again didn’t let her be his partner. Which is what all of this is about.
Oliver gives/has given so much of himself. He gave her love, support, protection, even the assurance that no matter what he will never abandon her. He’s proven time and time again that he is right there. Will always be right there. He’s not going anywhere from her life even if she walks away. He’ll be right there waiting. He gives EVERYTHING to everyone else. But the man refuses to take anything in return. He refuses to let anyone have his darkness. Refuses to let anyone carry even a tiny bit of the burden of his pain. Time and time again he refuses help.
So when Felicity says here you didn’t back my play she’s saying you didn’t let me support you. You won’t let me be your partner and all that entails-good and bad. And that is the crux of their issues. That is what went wrong in their relationship because all Felicity wants is to be his partner. Help him ease some of his pain so that when he goes out and gives the world his best, shares his light, he’s not left with nothing but darkness. Felicity needs that from Oliver for them to work. For her to know that he wouldn’t unintentionally leave her behind the way he did when he went to fight Ra’s Al Ghul. Because she knows Oliver will never abandon her, but if he’s always giving other’s hope. If he’s always the one to lift others and give them hope- taking on their sins at the same time- how long can Oliver actually stay alive? How long until he has nothing left to give?