this is bad why am i posting idk

multishipper problems: the thrilling sequel

‘why don’t you just ship an ot3?’

Here’s some things I do when I don’t have energy or forget to eat. This is what helps me, so please keep in mind that it might not work for you.

1) Set reminders! I forget lunch the most, so I have a reminder on my phone at around noon each day telling me to eat lunch. Add as many as you need.

2) For days when you can’t get out of bed, keep some nonperishable food in your room if you can. I have a plastic container near my bed so I can easily reach it without getting up.

  • Mine has granola bars, crackers, fruit snacks, fruit cups, trail mix, jerky, and bottled water. It’s not a “normal” meal, but much better than nothing and requires almost no energy.

3) Break down tasks into very small steps. Sometimes mine are as small as “Sit up in bed, move feet onto floor, stand up, walk out of room, walk down hallway, walk to kitchen”. I give myself time in between steps to build up motivation if I need to.

  • Make a checklist if you need to visualize it!

4) Congratulate yourself after completing a difficult step. Even if it’s a simple step, or after every step. It seemed silly to congratulate myself for getting out of bed, but it really helps motivate me to continue.

  • My internal dialogue for this is something like “Okay you did it! That wasn’t too bad. Now you can do the next step too” or “If that was the hardest part, I can do this”

5) I go to @lowspoonsgourmet when I don’t know what to make and they organize recipes by how many spoons it requires!

  • @no-more-ramen is another good one and separates recipes into categories like if there’s no chopping involved or if it makes leftovers

I think that’s it? I might add to this if I think of more. I hope this was helpful!

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Except for the heart-shaped hole where the hope runs out

It is just frustrating that lesbians not only can’t have our own terms to describe particular ways of experiencing lesbianism (eg butch and femme) but we can’t even have a word that roughly describes our sexual orientations. Somehow even saying “Lesbian as a term is reserved for people who do not experience attraction to men” is being mean and exclusionary. Identifying myself at all and people like me is somehow bad, but don’t worry that’s not homophobia at work obscuring the particular realities of being a gay woman. It’s wild. Of course many women are questioning or unsure and so on but if you send me an ask that starts with “I know for sure that I am attracted to men but -” asking if you’re idk allowed to call yourself a lesbian, why bother asking me when you obviously know the term doesn’t reference that experience ? I’ve made this post like four times now idgi.

  • someone talking to me, a person w a personality disorder: open up!! talk abt ur feelings!! i can't love u if I don't understand!! dw your feelings are valid I promise to love you even w ur disorder!!
  • me: *pushes past my crippling trust issues & opens up about my symptoms, tries to explain how my brain works and how Person can help me minimize my symptoms*
  • them, slowly backing away: okay!! :)) ur feelings are valid!! :) i have to go but dw!! some1 will love u one day dw ! :)))

Idk if its just my impression or if it’s something bad to say (I hope is not) but…
Have you guys noticed certain patterns on people’s favorite gems?

I mean like, Amefans are usually genderfluid and/or pansexual, Pearl fans are usually lesbians, Peridot fans are usually Asexual/Autistic, Lapis fans are usually Hypersexual/Non-binary.

I don’t mean to harm or like… stereotype and I could be wrong but its a pattern I found…

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I’m literally crying because I post this for like 4th time.

So I guess this is our last BFSN this year! I’m not happy about it, really.

So, I had very vad week and I didn’t have time to do a proper selfies but I found this two. The first one was made actually yesterday, when my city did the action called “Night at the Museum”. I look fat here but interior is beautiful so that’s why I post it.

The second one is from last week, took about two hours after episode 4x12 at 6 am (Warsaw time) and I was studying for my secondary school leaving exams (A Levels? Well, polish matura, idk how you name it), and I was so tired because I didn’t sleep that night. But you can barely see my face here so that’s fine.

As I said, my week was awful. I had a fight with my mom, my exams went bad (really), I have learned that I can’t go to Warsaw Comic Con to meet Nadia Hilker (btw it is my dreams but I guess dreams are not for me, this CC is organized for the first time but it can also mean that this might be the last time in my country, it’s kind of big deal that we are doing it, there never was an event like this before and my country have a problem with organising it well) because my dad can’t afford it and I don’t have any other family members. I also don’t know what I want to study at University and the clock is ticking.

Expectations for finale?

I hope that this episode will make me feel a little better. I didn’t read the leaked scripts so my mind is open for everythings.

Since I don’t have friend here I will tag my followers and some people I admire for their work: @bellarke @bell-clarke @bellamyblake @bellaarke @bellsqueen @ravensluna @fen-ha-fuck-you @starboybellamy @deadshotbellamy @fyeahbellarke @the-ships-to-rule-them-all @the-princess-and-the-king @merdok1993 @morleybell @bellarkelifestyle @bellsgirl  @bellsprincess @spacexualkids @bel-ami-blake @head-and-heart @bellarkekomlovekru @sylvias-plath @bellarke-stydia and omg I’m sorry if I missed someone

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They’re Trying To Catch You || [listen]

You are the last dragonlord now

You alone carry the ancient gift

basically the worst question any acquaintance can ask me is whether I liked a book because unless it was either utterly terrible in a way that makes sense to tell someone don’t read this book, or it was transformative in every way and perfectly crafted and hit every single note beautifully from start to finish with no sloppiness whatsoever, they’re gonna get an answer like “well, I thought one element of one character’s motivation wasn’t as believable as it could’ve been, and it made the ending fall a little flat, in that I wasn’t convinced that this was what this person truly wanted because the author didn’t flesh out that aspect of their personality enough, and overall it was good but there were also some weaknesses in the worldbuilding that were distracting and I don’t know if I’d recommend it necessarily but it was enjoyable so–”

….

I just know too much to be able to give an answer unless I know your personality/reading preferences in depth.

My phone vibrated and i was like yes! a friend possibly? I am not alone!…. turns out it was an email from tumblr saying congrats on a solid 10 posts on tumblr.