this is actually really shitty my bad

  • Me: i'm in a really bad place right now, i really need to talk to someone
  • Someone: hey, how are you?
  • Me: I'M FINE! F I N E! NO NEED TO TALK HERE! MY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH HAS NEVER BEEN BETTER! what about you though?:)

Today was really really a shitty day. Got a super bad grade at one of my exams even though I revised for hours and hours. But hey, LIFE GOES ON. It happens to everyone. After all, we are all human.

So there you go, I got really inspired to write about failure because guess what? IT’S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.


1. CHANGE YOUR VISION OF FAILURE

Yes. Change it. Failure is, by definition, a lack of success. Well have you ever realized that failure can actually be a good thing

Ask yourself questions: What can I do to improve? What thing can I do differently next time? How can I avoid to make the same mistakes again?

Learn from your failures and this will lead you to success!


2. TRY AGAIN AND MOVE TO WORK HARDER

Failure is okay. But take this failure as a practice and work on it. Got a bad grade in vocabulary? Rewrite exercises, revise with different methods. Failure shouldn’t bring you down, it should help you to improve by showing your mistakes so as to not do them again! But if working on the thing you failed makes you too upset, just move on to another subject and try again the next day. 


3. IT’S OKAY TO LET IT ALL OUT

Upset, angry? Let your feelings out. It’s fine. Talk to friends/family, share it on social medias, write in your journal, listen to music, whatever will make you feel better. Once you’ve had your grieving time, just don’t go back on it. It’s the past right? And the past is behind. Now time to move on and focus on the future.


4. JUST A REMINDER: ANYONE WHO WANTS TO DO SOMETHING WITH THEIR LIFE WILL FAIL

How do you think singer or actress or anyone famous succeeded? Just like you, they had times when auditions went wrong, times when they didn’t get the role or didn’t get elected. It happens to everyone, even to the best of us!

And for the end, some famous quotes to remind you that you’re not a failure and I believe in you and so should you:

“Success is the ability to move from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm.” - Winston Churchill

“I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game-winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.” - Michael Jordan

“Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better.” - Samuel Beckett

Colleen Wing doesn't deserve any of this

I was trying to dissect Iron Fist episode by episode, but it is too painful. Here be spoilers:

Jessica Henwick is visibly struggling in some scenes where her character should punch DR in the throat for crossing her boundaries. Because it’s not in character for her to let him get away with stuff like this.

First meeting: Mangles Mandarin and polices her identity. He’s actually THAT GUY in that scene.

Second meeting: tries to get a job with her again even though she said no the first time and her dojo specialises in Japanese martial arts. Hey, she’s too poor to give him a job but she was nice enough to give him shoes.

Which is not an invitation for him to hide out at her place again when people are after him. 

Or mansplain martial arts to her in her dojo. They practice two different schools of martial arts

And it’s not an invitation for him to step into her class, interrupt the student leading the class and then hitting a teenager (from an abusive background) with a wooden practice sword for laughing at him. (This is already a major red flag.)

That’s at least two throat punches. But oddly enough, Colleen Wing, who does not take shit from other people in the show, does not punch him in the throat.

She also does not tell him off strongly for:

- Interrupting her training session with Claire Temple–that’s really unforgivable in general–interrupting a scene of Claire Temple being trained by Colleen Wing? Seriously? There goes any chance of passing the Mako Mori Test. (It looked like the actress was rather relieved when the script had Claire Temple stay for lunch so that she would not be alone with him.)

- Persuading her to back him up in a dangerous mission after Claire left by buying her building and becoming her landlord–that’s beyond overbearing, that’s some 50 Shades levels of controlling and rich man’s privilege. (She does not punch him for this–she just says “fix my sink”.)

- Rummaging through her stuff and taking her sword. He just forced her to go along with him to spy on dangerous people and he’s looking through her stuff? (She just says “you’re disrespecting my sword with your wuxia bs” and then they flirt awkwardly over swordplay. Ew.)

The writers try to hide how shitty all this was by having DR be Colleen’s enabler–because she actually wants to do dangerous stuff and he saw that in her. They are both secretly adrenaline junkies that like beating people up or something??? That’s some ridiculously far-fetched characterisation there just to give them some common ground (they don’t really have any common ground–the writers are forcing it beyond the bounds of belief).

All this bad writing in aid of trying to hook her up with DR. If anyone tried that first line with a biracial woman, it’s an instant bad first impression even if the guy was Asian. Everything else after that is worth of a restraining order–even if the guy was Asian (and should know better).



The worst part is, DR treats his other favourite-woman-to-stalk Joy better than Colleen, the one he’s allegedly attracted to. Because white women are fragile and much be protected–another trope that needs to die. Even though Joy is not very nice to him and will very likely turn on him in future.  This sort of thing would be less obvious if there were more women in this show or this entire series with lines–but it’s sort of glaring when Claire Temple was beaten up in Daredevil Season 1, Elektra was killed in Daredevil Season 2 and Colleen Wing gets her face smashed in and her fingers dislocated in cage fights with men twice her size (twice so far from episodes 1 to 5). 



That’s only episodes 1 to 5. I cannot stomach any more bad writing in the name of hooking DR up with Colleen Wing.

In summary: Even if they had cast a Chinese actor as DR, I would still root for Colleen Wing to punch him in the throat because the writing is that bad.

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thanks for this! the only thing I’d like to add is they also treat Karen the white woman better in Daredevil seasons 1 and 2. So while the Netflix defenders shows do have WoC they make sure to treat the WoC worse than the white women.  The only exception is Luke Cage where the WoC were respected and valued.

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daintylouis  asked:

You should share with the class what you wrote out in our conversation based off this picture 😊 68(.)media(.)tumblr(.)com/59059ad583ed9e79797d165821d8f528/tumblr_nn6de9lsiP1sb8cuko1_1280(.)jpg

i told you i’d only do it if you called me daddy but you didn’t but since i’m an amazing person whose generosity is unparalleled i’m gonna do it anyway

One of the worst things about being on tour is how exhausted everyone gets.

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I!JUST!WANT!NESTA! FUCKING!ARCHERON!AND!ELAIN!TO!APOLOGISE!TO!FEYRE!AND!ACTUALLY!MEAN!IT

because what they and their dickbag father did was really fucking shitty and i need to see them regret it and see my girl feyre get the apology she deserves for having to raise her family from the age of 14

addition: i NEVER said elain and nesta were to blame, or that they were ‘bad’ or not strong. what they did was all apart of their character, and it makes them complex! and interesting! and that’s allowed! and awesome! and like an actual human being! BUT, i would like to see them express whether or not they’re sorry, or regret, not helping feyre. just like i would expect a normal human being to apologise for some shitty thing they did. because people do that. that is all

kinda related to that last ask but also kinda not – just something i was thinking of the other day and wanted to share regarding tumblr fandoms…

waaaaaay back, when i was a tumblr baby in like 2010 or 2011 or something – new to the site, never interacting, mostly lurking – a popular blogger i followed reblogged a funny ask meme and i was like… “this is it… this is the moment… where i interact with someone…!”

so, as a tumblr baby who had never sent an ask before, i was nervous of messing up somehow… tumblr didn’t make this easy for me either, because when i went to this person’s blog i assumed the envelope button at the top of the page was for sending an ask – i had no idea that “fan mail” was a thing…

(so you can see where this story is going…)

after nervously sending my message to this blogger i respected, i got a response a few minutes later: “i would’ve answered this if it was an ask – i can’t answer a fan mail, ya dingus”

i felt SO embarrassed. i felt like i wronged this stranger on the internet. i honestly felt terrible for a long time over such a small thing. i understand that ‘ya dingus’ was probably not meant to be a serious or harsh insult, but it didn’t matter – the fact that someone i didn’t know would go out of their way to tell me that i fucked up like that made me feel really bad!! they could’ve just said “hey, could you resend that as an ask? i can’t answer fan mail” or something.

after that embarrassing experience i went back to lurking. i didn’t actually start using my account here until 2013 – it took me THAT LONG to feel confident enough to use this silly site – how sad is that?

anyway, that’s why i try really hard to respond to people on here sincerely and respectfully. i don’t want anyone feeling shitty like i did back then. if you want a positive fandom experience for yourself, you need to cultivate a positive fandom experience for others… if you think it’s even POSSIBLE that you could ACCIDENTALLY upset someone, rethink your words. i know it’s not always so simple but just… please… try not to be a dick…

May or may not of shed tears while typing this :/

The worse part about all this hate and negativity towards the show, is how bad it actually affects those who love shadowhunters. Not to bring in a sob story, but I have a pretty shitty life, and im surrounded by equally shitty people and this show is the only thing that really keeps me looking forward to something.

Shadowhunters has helped with my depression immensely, and allows me to have one night a week to forget about everything going on around me, and all this sudden hatred is honestly painful to see.

I care about this show, and I understand that it has its flaws, and im willing to acknowledge them, talk about them, and spread awareness, but this fandom has gotten out of control.

It used to be a nice place, and now its a fucking warzone.

I just wish people would understand that Shadowhunters is a low budget TV show, on a shitty network, and it does not owe anyone anything.

I also wish people would realize how important this show is for some people. Like please, just think for a second before deciding to feed the fire.


Im numb to the fact that it’ll probably get canceled due to the backlash.

But I don’t want to see that happen.

The actors put so much effort into their characters, and truly care about every single one of us.

Its one of the first shows Ive seen that has completely down to earth people both on, and off screen.

Yes they messed up, yes they will probably mess up again. Every show makes mistakes, but please just consider not watching it if you just want to pick it apart.

anonymous asked:

okay but, you have a nsfw acc ((which i just scrolled through, oops too young for that haha)) but youre like this super cute n innocent artist and it even reflects on your drawings and like youre always happy and using emojis and i have to protect you from the big bad world BUT THEN AGAIN YOU MAKE NSFW BUT ITS LIKE: "oh hey guys look at this kinky smut i made :D" AND GOD UR SO CUTE!! MUST PROTECT U

Hahaha XD
IT’S FUNNY BECAUSE I’M ACTUALLY A SHITTY TRASH PERSON
But online I think I’m nicer and stuff because I can’t be as sarcastic as I really am IRL XP
I do try my best to be positive though! :3
and it honestly helps when all the messages I’ve been getting have been so lovely and kind ;w;
And fufufufufu
Honestly, even as far as smut goes I’m pretty vanilla, so, ahaha XD
But yeah, stuff and things ^w^

anonymous asked:

Do you miss the time when Homestuck was alive? And if you do, would you want it to come back?

do you mean when it still updated? sure yes, I always got really hyped for the new updates. it was like the real ‘never ending story’ for me. and if you mean the fandom that has been declared dead by many. not really, I guess. sure it was awesome going to cons and just knowing that there would always be a big meetup or having the homestuck tag on tumblr filled with a gazillion posts each day. that’s what I do miss. but I go by the quote: if you love something, don’t let anyone’s opinion make you love it any less. in this case, I don’t care if everyone else stops loving it. if I still enjoy it then I don’t care if I have to enjoy it on my own. I don’t feel obligated to leave the fandom bc it’s finished now. I feel many people do feel obligated tho, as if it’s weird to like it now that it’s over. that’s kind of a shitty mindset tbh. like making people feel bad for liking it by posting texts like ‘just saw a homestuck cosplayer in the year of our lord 2017 omg why′. I know it’s mostly sarcastic and ‘tumblr humor’ but these jokes come with a hint of honesty, so some people actually do think like this. which is ridiculous bc really? do I have to stop cosplaying something bc the series now ended? this reminds me of the nonsense that fashion trends are. do I have to stop wearing this clothing item just bc everyone else stopped wearing it? so over-dramatically speaking, I don’t mind being the last homestuck. I’ll continue cosplaying it as long as I enjoy it and that’s it. my love for a series isn’t influenced by its audience or popularity.

Ranking the AOS Big Bads

1) AIDA / Madame HYDRA: Probably the closest the show has gotten to writing a villain that’s on Netflix Marvel’s level. I have to say, I’m honestly impressed with how good AIDA is as a Big Bad. One of the big things I love about her arc is that it’s not a sudden switch. We SEE all the moments that lead to her turn and it’s a natural, believable heel turn. From falling for Fitz, to discovering that she’s not unique, to meeting the Superior, AIDA’s journey to becoming the Big Bad feels earned. 

Also, speaking of Netflix Marvel, you know who she reminds me of the most? Kilgrave. Mind control issues aside, Kilgrave and AIDA are similar in that their goals aren’t that complex. In fact, they’re both coming from an innocent place. They both want to feel genuine love but they don’t understand that what they’re doing is horrible. There’s a certain immaturity when it comes to both villains and although it doesn’t excuse their actions at all, you can’t help but feel bad for them. 

Especially when it comes to AIDA. While Kilgrave’s a grown man who should know better, AIDA is technically two or three years old. Plus, she’s a program. She doesn’t fully understand what love is. But she wants to feel it and it makes sense that she chooses Fitz, the only one who treated her with respect. So when you think about it, this brainwashed version of Fitz isn’t her punishing him or Jemma. It’s all for her because she craves love, she wants to feel unique. She thinks she’s changing him for the better but doesn’t realize that what she’s doing is incredibly messed up.  

Honestly, I hate AIDA but I do feel a bit bad for her. None of what she’s doing is coming from a malicious place. But at the same time, what she’s doing IS wrong and needs to be stopped. 

Hmm…a villain that well’s developed and I can feel sympathy for but will still root against because they’re clearly in the wrong and the antagonist of the story. Gee, that sounds awfully familiar 

*coughcoughWilsonFiskcoughcoughKilgravecoughcoughCottonmouth*

2) John Garrett: So despite season one being an average season, I still think Garrett’s switch from SHIELD to HYDRA agent was fantastic. The whole HYDRA civil war arc was great in general but if I had to single out moments from the arc, I’d pick Garrett and Ward’s heel turns.

Honestly, that’s all I got to say about him. He was a great antagonist, Bill Paxton (R.I.P.) was amazing in the role, and he tied season one together. I wish I could go more in-depth with Garrett but really, that’s the general gist of it.  

3) Jiaying: Jiaying was originally going to be number two on this list but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense to put her here. I think it’s mainly because of the season she was in.

I don’t think I’ve said this before but I am NOT a fan of season two. To me, it was the most cluttered, disorganized season among the four. Say what you will about season one, at least there was a clear focus (Clairvoyant, HYDRA). Say what you will about season three, it may have been overly ambitious but there was a clear villain and end goal. 

But season two really felt like the writers were tossing in a bunch of storylines and hoping that they stuck. Oh, Ward’s still here and he’s doing his own side mission. Oh, there’s another SHIELD faction that opposes Coulson. Oh, Skye is actually Daisy Johnson (that’s not a criticism, that was actually awesome). Oh, here’s Daisy’s mom, she runs a community of Inhumans. Oh, here’s HYDRA…they’re here too. There were all these storylines and at times, you couldn’t tell what the point of the season was.

Jiaying was a great villain. She had a personal tie to one of the protagonists, you can understand where she’s coming from and can sympathize with her, and she had plenty of memorable villain moments (like killing Raina and Robert Gonzales). But as the Big Bad of the season as a whole, it’s hard to justify that because there were so many different story arcs that it wouldn’t make sense to place Jiaying as the center of them all. I mean, in the season finale, the whole group wasn’t focused on her. Part of the story was focused on Bobbi, Ward and Kara. 

Plus, her villain switch was a bit sudden. Like, the season was coming to an end and then all of a sudden, BAM, she’s killing SHIELD agents. It’s justified in the story but it felt a bit rushed. 

So really, Jiaying being number three isn’t me deeming her a shitty villain. She was a great villain in a not-so great season. 

4) The Hive: Hive was the most interesting concept among the Big Bads but, in my opinion, he was the most poorly executed. I don’t blame Brett for this, there was just a lot riding against him. One, you already knew he was gonna fail. The reason why Garrett, Jiaying, and AIDA are so effective as villains is that they’re all confined to the AOS side of the MCU. If Hive succeeded, that would actually affect the Avengers, the Defenders, and…well, basically, the whole MCU. No way in hell was Marvel Studios gonna let that fly. 

Two, he was overshadowed by Grant Ward’s legacy. Yeah, I know, I know, he’s an Inhuman overlord who founded HYDRA, yadda, yadda, yadda. But the audience has followed Brett as Grant Ward for three years. Suddenly turning him into a different character doesn’t automatically erase our memory. So instead of fully embracing this new villain, Hive was still riding on the ghost of Ward (did you see what I did there?).

And third, Hive was ruined as a threat. The Fallen Agent, ticking time bomb arc made the audience care more about which agent was gonna die instead of whether or not the Hive would succeed. Also, the fact that Will Daniels, a random dude with a single bullet, managed to survive for years alongside the Hive looked bad on the latter’s part. 

All around, Hive was a great concept but it was a shitty delivery. Maybe if they had more time or they took a different approach to the story, he would’ve been higher on the list.

That advice that I got from Jaxblade yesterday helped me a lot, but I’m a little worried it might have created a bad habit ^^; yesterday when I kept feeling bad I just went “harder” on my training (and by harder I mean I focused more and was better with my form and timing my rest) which actually sounds great, I’m exercising to not feel bad, but I’m not overdoing it at all nor harming myself, nevermind, this is great! healthy ways of coping with pain! \o/ Today I’m feeling shitty too so I’m really looking forward to my training.

okay real talk tho, my fave pics of Daehyun that surface on the internet are the pictures that show his bad skin. I can sit here and tell you he’s perfect and stunning and gorgeous and he is, like 100%. But when I see his bad skin every once and a while I remember that he’s an actual human that suffers like everyone else from shitty stuff but still can be so cute and still can find all the love in this world and honestly it’s just really important to me. 

The newest update of Check, Please! has me losing it, so here’s some fanfic to tide over everyone else who is currently freaking out. And if you’ve never read Check, Please! drop literally everything and go read it right now

Au pays qui te ressemble
Jack waits.

between the weight of family and the pull of gravity
5 times Jack’s father just didn’t get it, +1 time he absolutely did.

rake the springtime across your sheets
But maybe that is what love is, Eric thinks: You give people the power to spill your secrets to anyone and your guts out on the floor.

just to see that little smile
5 times Jack surprises Bitty, +1 time Bitty gets him first.

Just Take My Hand
Eric imagines Jack in his billet room, studying his ipod with his playbook face on and feels his mouth curl into a fond appalled shape, one that he hadn’t known it made before Jack Zimmerman. “Oh, honey.”
Jack toes at the ground. “I like that one about foxes and boxes.”
“I don’t remember giving you any Doctor Suess. Oh my god, wait, are you… Are you talking about Taylor Swift?”
Of course it is, of course Jack Zimmerman, Canada’s Prodigal Son, likes the song about feeling hunted, scrutinized, about escaping the huntsmen. Eric feels like he may have used up his oh honey too soon.

Like A Brick Wall
Bitty can’t have feelings for Jack and Jack has no idea he has feelings for Bitty and it’s a wonder Shitty hasn’t fallen off the roof yet.

You Never Said You Wouldn’t So Here I Am
Eric just wants to get past this crush, but Jack keeps getting in the way.

on the sidelines wishing for right now
Bitty resists the urge to let out a hysterical laugh because apparently this is just his life now. He tries to call his boyfriend and winds up getting hockey advice from a living legend.
5 times Bitty bonded with Bad Bob + 1 time Jack tries to bond with Coach Bittle.

I never saw the signs
Bitty gets asked out on a date, but he’s already spoken for. It wouldn’t be a problem, really, except he didn’t know he was already spoken for.

bold; over the worst of it
“Spring C,” Jack says, “is full of mystery.”

simmer
Hours later, after letting the pie cool and almost having it stolen by a hungry Nursey, Bitty cuts a slice and declares Jack’s work to be “almost as good as his great-aunt’s.” Jack smiles down at his plate.

if there’s anything on my face you put it there
“You don’t have to tell them it was me. I mean, you don’t have to do anything. I’ll stop leaving marks if you want me to. Just…“ He lifts up Jack’s shirt and touches one of the hickeys. When he looks back up, his eyes have gone dark. “I really, really like it. Do you mind?”

To Even Fall
Sometimes Bitty sleeps in Jack’s bed. It’s not a thing, until it is.

live through this and you won’t look back
The worst part about falling in love with a straight boy is definitely not watching him date girls. No, the worst part about falling in love with a straight boy is that you never even had a shot.

Make It If We Can
Jack opens a door he hasn’t walked through in a long time. Bitty holds his hand.

Hockeyed Up
There are many things on Jack’s mind. Namely: hockey, hockey, Bitty, hockey, anxiety, hockey, hockey, anxiety, Bitty, hockey, hockey, anxiety, and hockey.

Comfortable Territory
“Shit, man, you’ve got your eye on someone? Who is it? Do I know her? What’s the hold up?” Shitty asks.
Jack furrows his brow, confused. “Uh, what? Shitty, no, there’s no girl-”
“A guy?” Shitty interrupts, clearly having entirely missed the point. Jack opens his mouth to point his out, but Shitty beats him to it. “Oh, shit. Bitty?”

deets
The grainy cellphone photo on the cover of the magazine is of his own back, his red Samwell t-shirt. He’s got a forearm braced on the wall, his other hand holding the face of someone small and blond, mostly blocked from view, who has his hands on Jack’s chest and a blue hoodie tied around his waist. Emblazoned across the bottom of the cover are the words IS JACK ZIMMERMANN GAY? and it feels like someone just punched him in the stomach. 

of the nature of the wound
His first year in the NHL isn’t easy, but Jack has spent his entire life playing through the hurt.

Positive Feedback
Eric’s never had a postgame breakdown of sex before, but he’s not particularly surprised when, before they’ve even caught their breath, Jack says, “Tell me how I can do better.”

Phone, Please!
"Bits, you live tweeting this?” Shitty asks.

Don’t You Wait
Here’s the thing, in the seconds following that buzzer going off, the first thing that crossed Jack’s mind wasn’t grabbing a hold on the cup. It didn’t occur to him what exactly that first cup, only two years after he had been drafted, was going to mean and what it already meant. He didn’t even consider going in its direction.
Instead, as he’s slammed into and bodies piled around him, foghorns blaring and confetti littering everything in sight, he was thinking of exactly where Bittle might be in that very moment.
(Or, how Jack Zimmermann accidentally came out to the entire NHL a couple of seconds after winning his first Stanley Cup)

Man of Honor
Bitty has to live the rest of his life with the knowledge that yes, Jack Zimmermann cries at weddings, and looks good doing it.

Kent Parson is Not Getting Any Pie
The headline is there as soon as Eric turns on his computer in the morning
“Kent Parson Gay”
Eric puts down his coffee and opens the article, wide-eyed and breathing hard.
“Las Vegas Aces’ star and Art Ross winner, Kent Parson, was caught performing a sex act with an unidentified male at a New York bar last night. When asked for a comment, Parson’s publicist, Jose Flores, said the star wished to apologise to his team for the scandal and would make a statement later today at a press conference.”

Coming Out of My Cage
An unexpected phone call from Kent Parson at five AM doesn’t turn into the disaster Jack would’ve expected. He’s not going to thank him, though. Probably.

Strawberry
Without thinking too hard about anything, Eric gathers Jack’s other hand, places his wrists together, and, slowly, giving Jack time to pull away, pulls them up and over his head to pin them on the pillow.

make this house a home
With the prospect of an empty Haus for Thanksgiving, Jack invites Bitty over to his new place in Providence. As friends, of course.

Step One
Five times Jack Zimmermann came out of the closet.

An Abundance of Pies
Five times Bitty is told not to bake pies for professional NHL players and One time they ask him to.
Alternatively - The story of how Bitty’s pies become an NHL Urban Legend, start locker room fights and cause Patrick Kane to miss a perfectly good shot on goal.

cream and sugar like an optimist
Jack doesn’t actually pick where he wants to live because of proximity to a coffeeshop. Jack would never do that. That would be crazy.

Whistle Down the Moon
Bittle needs a date. A girl date. Lardo volunteers, and Jack isn’t pleased.

I hear symphonies in my head
Eric listens to a lot of music. Life is never so bad that it can’t be fixed with baked goods and the right soundtrack, and he’s really good at providing both, if he says so himself.

Best Laid Plans
“Dude,” said Holster, his eyes huge, “that’s so sad. We gotta get them together.”
“This isn’t a romcom, Holtzy, ” Ransom said, patting his arm. “I’m sure that’s not what Shitty had in mind.”
“Actually,” said Shitty, “that’s exactly what I had in mind. And I’ve got a plan.”

anonymous asked:

Okay here goes my rant, so last night I made a joke about how I have no money because o don't care about money right now since I'm focused on school but my friend decided to take that literally and started harassing me on how I should've stayed (at my really shitty) job and how I should go to school even though I have stated multiple times I'm starting in the summer and how I should have a job and school at the same time when I mentally can't. (Continued)

(Continued rant) He also tells me how I’m a shitty person cause I live with my parents still and I’m thinking like I’m only 19??? Let me get my degree first. And I’m not mentally ready to have a job plus school plus trying to have a social life and trying to actually get sleep. Like I have really bad mental problems consisting of depression, anxiety, paranoia, schizophrenia, insomnia and I think I’m starting to develop narcolepsy. Plus i have a bad learning disability continued more

Rant part 3) nobody actually considered my learning disability real because my state thinks having a learning disability means that I would be put in the special needs class where I can’t do anything on my own but it’s not that way it’s just I take just a little bit longer to process certain things. My friend also gets on me for having no friends other than this bot we have on discord and saying I talk to it all the time even though I don’t and he’s the one constantly conversating with it

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what the fuck that person is a shitty person pls kick them for me?????

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Here is my super derpy mouse, first time making an entire body so it looks really bad…but will keep improving >:0 Definitely need to get actual body wrapping materials and not try to carve shitty foam.

Ummmmm???? What???? I’m kinda shaken right now, i didn’t even realize I went past 300 followers???

Honestly, this is more than I could have ever imagined!!!! Thank you so much for following me and always looking forward to my (usually shitty) art??? I don’t deserve any of this, thank you so much 💓💓💓💓

I was actually out most of today, so I couldn’t really post anything today ;; and I promise I’ll update the ask blog list!! I’m on mobile so I can’t do it yet, and I feel really bad… but I will, lol, don’t worry.

Thank u!!!!! ❤

-Bea

I got fired today because I had to call out due to a serious doctor’s appointment for my child lol. Not upset at all, I’m actually really happy because now I can have any hair color I want as well as focus on the 3 companies I help manage. (That I get paid for WAY more than my shitty old job.)

Is it bad that I laughed in my store manager’s face? Hahahah.