this is actually all i care about anymore

in my first lecture on shakespeare the lecturer opened with the words “Shakespeare is bisexual. Most literary evidence points towards this, and it is the most commonly accepted understanding of his sonnets in modern literature.

so if I have to read even ONE essay that comes to this ‘shocking’ conclusion this year, so help me god you will NOT pass this module”

anyway this is your reminder that shakespeare is bi, 100% bi, super bi, and laura jenkins wants people to shut up and focus on his fucking nature imagery thank you goodbye.

WHY I LOVE U

Venus in Aries: I heard your laughter before I saw you. And then I couldn’t take my eyes off you. And after everyone had gone home we were still running around, or you were running I was just trying to keep up. You work hard, play hard and love even harder, but you like to try on a couple of sizes before you find the right fit. It’s the way you make me laugh at the most ludicrous things, the way you know exactly what you want and are not afraid to go and get it. You make me feel like anything is possible. Our love was like a tickle war turned makeout session, and I still remember the heat when our skin touched. There will never be anyone like you. 

Venus in Taurus: Being with you is like coming home. Like a perfect dream. Like lavender candles and cuddling up to a marathon of our favourite show. You kissing me between every episode. You don’t like playing games and you don’t like being rushed when falling in love. You take your sweet time, worshipping my body and my mind so my heart can’t help but follow. I remember those lazy Sundays, strolling through the furniture store, your hand in mine and we would pretend to decorate our future house. But all we came out with were more lavender candles and a burning lust for each other. You turn the mundane into something truly magical. 

Venus in Gemini: You drive me crazy, I never know where we stand. We spend the most incredible nights together and then I don’t hear from you in forever. Maybe that’s your style, you wanna look me in the eyes and not read my words on your phone. We sit for hours and people watch, making up backstories for them. When I’m with you I have no sense of time, all I can think about is your mischievous smile and the way you play with my hair. Your love is all-consuming, like nothing in the world matters to you more. With you my sense of reason is completely clouded, I’m yours for the night and every other night. If you’ll have me. 

Venus in Cancer: My hero, my sensitive babe. Your heart on your sleeve, that look in your eyes and I was yours forever. When you kissed me I could see our lives flashing before my eyes. Sitting on opposite sides of the sofa. Your nose in a book but your hand on me, like you needed to be connected to me or else you’d die. Every time you catch me staring at you I can’t help the grin on my face. You are fragile and strong, creating this protective space around us where we can just be together. I love how you’re not afraid of your feelings, and how you already named our kids even though we need to discuss it lol. You make it feel so real, like you are the missing piece of the puzzle. 

Venus in Leo: I remember the first time I met you, it all happened so fast. At a party, my friend introducing you and before I knew it your arms were around me. I remember melting into your hug, and the electricity in the air when we finally let go. Everyone else thought it was weird but we both knew, there was no turning back. Being with you feels like running through a field of flowers, faster and faster. Your laughter and your moans echo in my head. My legs feel like giving out but your hand refuses to let go of mine. It’s that smile after you say something clever, and they way you make me feel like it’s just me and you versus the world. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this loved. 

Venus in Virgo: You make me feel whole. Driving down the freeway blasting our songs, I can’t sing but you don’t care. Your hand on the stick shift and for some reason I got all hot inside. It’s the way you wrap your arms around me at the checkout line, like I’m yours and you don’t care who knows. You’re thoughtful and observant, you make me feel like I matter to you. And it’s not an act, you are actually that kind. I’m trying so hard to describe you, but all I can think about is that night when my family fell apart. You drew a bath with bubbles and you held me until the water went cold. Then we ate raspberries (my favourite) and watched Modern Family. And then you loved me until I didn’t feel like I was falling apart anymore. I think that describes you more than words ever could. You’re the one I see sitting next to me on our porch doing a crossword puzzle, in our old bodies. But it doesn’t scare me because your spirit is forever young. 

Venus in Libra: Being in love with you is so easy. Our first date was to the movies. You gave me a red poppy and held my hand the entire time, gently playing with my fingers. My heart was about to beat out of my chest but somehow I was calm, because you were. I love the way you talk so easy, with that breezy confidence. Like you’d never tell me a lie. The way you were charming and kind to everyone from the bus driver to the server at the pizza shop. After talking to each other all night in the park, it was the only place that was still open. My mum still asks about you. I think she loved you more than I did, and that’s saying something. 

Venus in Scorpio: God, the way you tear me apart and then put me back together. Over and over again. You of all people know that life isn’t always chocolates and roses. You’re not afraid of the ugliness of human nature, instead you try to find the silver lining, the beauty in the madness. You demand that I’m honest with you, and in turn you trust me with your own secrets. It created a bond beyond love, or maybe it was love. It just felt different, like it was based in reality and not a love story. You’ve seen me at my worst and still think I’m beautiful, because you see people’s souls. Nobody can hide their true nature from you for you are an expert of reading between the lines. Your animalistic passion penetrates deep, and everything becomes a haze of lust and obsession. Because if you’re not obsessed it’s just not worth it. I would trust you with my life, because you would sacrifice your own for the one you love. 

Venus in Sagittarius: We had just gotten comfortable on the top of the mountain we climbed when you hit me with “Do you think out of seven billion that some people have the same personality?” And you packed my favourite sandwich, tomato, mozzarella and basil. A moment of breathless kisses and triumph. Your strength made me feel strong too, and your devotion made my heart swell. You never stand still but it doesn’t matter, because you take me with you and always make sure I’m alright. You make me feel included, showing me off and introducing me to all your friends. I’ve never felt more proud than when I’m standing next to you. When you told me how much you loved me I knew it was true. 

Venus in Capricorn: The true romantic. What drew me in was that calm stare, you looked like trouble I swear I was gonna faint on the spot. You could keep up with me, and when you took my hand and said “Trust me?” I somehow believed you. But what made me fall for you was how you kept all your promises. Your presence is honest and true, the way you make me feel like I would never be alone, like I would always have a friend. I love falling asleep in your arms to your heartbeat. You’re gentle with me, I can feel your love in every touch. Your love made me believe I could do anything, because I knew you would stick by my side. If I asked you to. 

Venus in Aquarius: Keep it cool, that’s how you roll. Almost untouchable, but you let me touch you. It was like the seasons changed in seconds. You finished that last drop of champagne and said “Let’s get wet”, then we jumped in the pool. And then you kissed me. It felt like breathing underwater, I don’t even think you live in the same world as the rest of us. I texted you at 2 a.m. and you didn’t hesitate. Trapped between your body and the wall, your lips on my neck and I was already in heaven. I never thought you loved me back, until you showed up on my doorstep, whiskey on your breath and tears in your eyes. After that I never doubted you, because I knew then that your love was more than words. 

Venus in Pisces: With you it’s all about the moment, and moments with you are plush and whimsical. Like sitting on a cloud. You are still the only person to ever write me a poem. And when you asked me if I liked it, how you let me see your vulnerable side even though the look in your eyes was sheer terror, you were brave. I was at loss for words so I just kissed you deeply. You see the beauty in the little things, like asking me about what I dreamt last night or giving me cupid earrings so they could whisper sweet nothings in my ear when you’re not around. Your love is poetic, you actually think of me and what makes me happy. Whenever you see something that reminds you of me you always let me know. I can’t help but think how lucky I am to be so cherished.

Drarry AU

My brain keeps returning to this idea – what if, in POA (movie universe), Harry never realizes that the crane Malfoy sent him was a note (because I mean, who would)?  Like he just stares at it, confused, then goes “okay” sets it down on his desk and goes back to ignoring Snape

I mean, Draco would be furious because how dare you not appreciate my bullying Potter and the next class they have together, he grabs another piece of paper, writes something along the lines of “You suck Potter”, folds another crane and blows it over – only for it to be left sitting on Harry’s desk again after the lesson, and Harry didn’t even look inside, he didn’t do anything with this damn crane, and Draco is absolutely seething from this lack of attention

So he does it again.  And again.  And again.  

First it’s insults (because of course he hates Potter, they’re archenemies, never mind the actual murderer stalking Harry at this very moment) – “I hope you die Potter” “I wish I met Sirius Black I’d help him” “Your glasses are appalling why do you still have the same ones from first year your prescription can’t possibly be the same you moron” “Eat a bag of dicks Potter” – but a month goes by and he’s running out of things to say and Potter never reads the notes anyway so Draco just starts ranting about everything else he finds annoying


Soon the cranes are just a way of venting – talk about your day, fold a beautiful crane, send it to the person you definitely hate the most.  He still tries to snark and generally antagonize every time he sees Potter, because it’s practically my duty to take the Golden Boy down a peg, Goyle – but he can’t do it the same way anymore, so he takes a step back – in everything except the cranes.  

Every day, every class, and sometimes at breakfast, a crane will land next to Harry Potter’s elbow.  Without fail.  Harry will pick it up, stare at it, and set it back down.  Or maybe slip it into his bag, and Draco’s stomach flips the first time he does that.  

It’s almost like they’re friends.  By now, Draco’s told him things he never even voiced to his friends – that he’s actually terrified of the Dementors, that he keeps feeling like he’s not good enough, because no matter what he tries, there’s always somebody better than him at it – that he still can’t understand why Harry didn’t want to be his friend that time on the train, seriously Potter what did I do?  you didn’t even know me! – and Potter didn’t crumple any of the cranes, so maybe he doesn’t hate him so much anymore?..  Draco knows Potter never reads these notes, but he likes to pretend that Harry knows all these things about him.  And maybe even cares a little.  

It’s stupid, and he really shouldn’t be putting any of such personal details in writing (honestly Lucius would be so disappointed, these cranes are perfect blackmail material and what the hell are you thinking Draco yells Draco’s inner voice) – but he can’t stop.  It’s become a habit, and Potter stared at him for fifteen minutes at lunch today, so he can’t stop.  Draco keeps talking, and making Harry little doodles, and trying not to smile too obviously when another crane ends up in Harry’s pocket.



And meanwhile, Harry’s going nuts.  He just doesn’t understand what Malfoy wants from him, or why he doesn’t run into him so often anymore – and the cranes really seem to be just paper (Ron why does Malfoy know origami is this a general wizard thing or is it just him), and they’re delicate and elegant, and he feels bad about destroying them – so he just leaves them.  

Until, of course, he absentmindedly shoves one in his bag one day – and finds it that evening.  Sighs and sets it on his bedside table, because what else can he do?..  Even if he throws it out, he’ll just get a new one tomorrow.  Or three.  

He’s confused, because Malfoy isn’t even so loud or dramatic anymore, it’s almost as if he’s trying not to attract attention – beyond the cranes – but Harry’s eyes are glued to him anyway.  He knows that Malfoy has to be up to something, because of course he is – but he just can’t tell what, there’s no way to know, and holy shit Ron he just smiled at me what the hell is he planning – and all this time, the pile of cranes on his bedside table keeps growing

He doesn’t lie awake at night, thinking of Malfoy’s smile.  He doesn’t.  Really.  

The next day, when he gets his morning crane, he flashes Malfoy a brilliant smile, and laughs at his stunned expression like ha, two can play at this game!  Gotcha now!  and he’s still thinking that Malfoy’s messing with his mind – except he can’t help but think that it would be nice if Draco was really like that.  If he really just sent the cranes over to brighten Harry’s day.  If there wasn’t something else behind this, because he’s starting to like it.  


All this goes on until Hermione barges into their dormitory again, in the ungodly hours of the morning, like she usually does – and stops dead, staring at the pile of cranes, Ron may have been complaining but she never imagined the true extent of this new, yet age-old obsession.  And of course, Harry tries to protest, that it’s all for science, Hermione, I have to find out what he’s up to and this is the only source of information – but the excuses run dry when she quizzes him a bit and finds out that none of the cranes are cursed, or charmed to yell insults, or anything, really 

So she’s like “well have you tried to unfold one” and no he didn’t, who the heck writes notes inside a crane anyway, isn’t it an artwork??  But hey, that’s an idea, and that night the trio gets together, sitting on Harry’s bed with the crane he just got in Charms, bated breath and all, waiting for it to unleash something nasty (Harry finds himself really really hoping it won’t) 

All kinds of security measures done, and they unfold it 

Hermione’s like “oh.  Oohh,” and Ron’s eyebrows fly away to roam the world

Because inside

there’s a shitty little drawing of Harry and Draco holding hands, with little hearts all around 

How I see kpop groups and their traits

Exo: referred to as gods by the future generation; they could release an album full of high pitched screaming and still would make the best selling kpop album; china line who?; we are 1 what?; korean members with chinese stage names; don’t let the satan near you; yehet, kkaebsong; give Sehun lines

Bts: from nowhere to everywhere; hyperactive kids making good music; kids with mental health issues doing vanalism; they look at you - you faint;  shit down, beach - bitch?, ikskjuz miii; zoo; give Jin lines

Ikon: B.I, Bobby and friends; favoritism by yg; “the next bigbang”, but yg seems to forget about them so does the crowd; being hyped up then ending up disappointed; capable of doing good music but refuses to; give chanwoo lines

Got7: no mvs in the future just videos of them dabbing; b side tracks always better than the titles; acrobatics until their neck breaks; not so creative fandom name; bamx2 is big; jaCSon, hard carry by Monsta x

Winner: searching for them - error404: nowhere to be found; somewhere in the yg building; Taehyun had enough shit, wants his own band, searching for members through tumblr; capable of being unique, yg aint letting them; let them break out   

Day6: now 5live, nope, day8, members: sungjin, wonpil, dowoon, youngk, jae, chicken little, brian, younghyun; the one who has a stage name but seems like everyone is forgetting about it; dancing king; hashtag king; let dowoon sing

Astro: too much sugar in my eyes i can’t see; too pure for you; won’t ever do other than cute concepts;  michael jackson; giant maknae; voice cracks for life; new generation of flower boys

Seventeen: too many; pledis has a thing for girly boys; pledis’ only income; leg breaking choreos; adore u remakes as title tracks; no dark concepts in the future; sebeuntin; carrots, mounteen; slipping here and there; dino nugu aegi; thughao, 10:10; divaboo; noone looks like suga; jeongcheol, meanie; give china line lines

Vixx: concept kings but kinda ran out of concepts; oldschool kpop feel; from vixx ravi to solo ravi - full upgrade; one of the prettiest fandom names; endless leader bullying; serial killer; let the maknae line sing

Shinee: going strong since 2008; people seem to pay less attention to them; taemin upgraded; weird fashion taste - key; cola cola; don’t sleep on them

Infinite: dope intros - give you chills; old kpop sound, unique sound; scorpion dance, live singing + synchronized choreos; dinosaur who’s laugh can be heard without a mic; endless leader and maknae bullying; saved woollim; give sungyeol and sungjong lines

Monsta x: future strippers; stuck between hiphop and sexy concepts; wtf is going on here mvs, gay mvs; cringiest fandom name; weird noises by the rapper; damn daniel; how to learn hungarian by changkyun; abs, memes; ten years later: waiting for their first win; mosta x, moista x, monster x;  give hyungwon lines; 

Bigbang: legends; noone can dance, too lazy to dance; fashionistas; min hyorin; yg = bigbang

B.a.p: started to rise - shit happened - nobody cares about them anymore; getting killed or killing others in mvs; unappreciated dancers and rappers; high notes for life; actual meaningful lyrics

Block b: zico and the boys; biggest weirdos of them all; no friendship just business; give jaehyo lines

Nct: taeyong and the boys; pouring salt at the wounds; mess of a noise music; rotating as much that i can already see the tornado; dozens of units; horrible fashion; unnecessary ps; damn hoverboard skills; great vocals being hidden; johnny somehow managed to get out; let hansol free; give lines to everyone

Pentagon: putting them through an unnecessary scripted survival show to make people foget about some disbanded groups (4minute); sm and yg let some gems slip out from their hands, at least they are not in the dungeon; giants and dwarfs; ugly crying; lame jokes; ultrasound screams; nudity; wooyu; yutoda; give shinwon lines

Btob: being forgotten by cube; weird, extra; slowly turning into a ballad group; is minhyuk a rapper?; give peniel lines

Beast: what is happening with u cube? shit happened; new name - bea5t?;  lost their spirit after shit happned; great lives 

Suju: waiting for ot15; shit still happening; growing out of kpop; concepts don’t match their age; still waiting for kibum; don’t forget about zhoumi & henry; diaries of a married man; being succesful in the military

Nu’est: best debut song ever; had the most potential as a rookie group; pledis messed up; now they’re popular anywhere besides korea; getting worse and worse title songs; aesthetic mvs; creative fandom name; again pledis has a thing for girly boys

Ft Island: hongki and the others; awesome dope music (let’s not count puppy here); people don’t appreciate quality music anymore; this gem is lost in the ocean of cute, badass & hiphop concepts; pretty fandom name

Cnblue: another gem; better japanese releases; boring new songs because they have to fit into the kpop standard; yonghwa’s unique teeth; visuals; let the others sing

SF9: another group coming from a survival show; covering their seniors’ songs so they can’t even recognize them; thumbs up for the K.O choreography; don’t go with them to amusement parks; deep af voice maknae; park jimin 2.0; hwiyoung got them lines in roar

KNK: a bunch of idiots - literally; tall af; models af; old school kpop feels; if you hear someone laugh hysterically from afar it’s probably them; falling dramatically to the floor while doing so; choking sounds; don’t let them feed you; horlolololo; astro x knk; bullying sanha

2PM: definition of men; hella hot bodies; starting to be unknown; when was their latest first win?; manly concepts; awesome vocals; the rap is still meh; go crazy is a jam y’all; great actors

U-Kiss: so many member changes; lit songs, but not getting appreciation; don’t complain about your faves not getting 1st place like 2 months after debut - it took for them years; the first kpop fathers; they need a comeback soon

B1A4: great vocals again; don’t let them being forgotten; cnu just rocks the short hair admit it; baby i’m sorry is one of the best kpop songs; but great ballads as well

Teen top: they need to go back to their previous style; cap rocking them tattoos; hilariously funny group - watch their weekly idol; promoting as five now - anticipate their comeback

Wanna One: what even is this name; salty af that Jonghyun and Samuel are NOT in the 11; Never is still my jam; i’m not lookung forward for cute concepts; god 10 year age gap between the oldest and youngest member; still salty some trainess weren’t even in top 20 *cough* hwanwoong *cough* taehyun *cough* gunhee* *cough*; some great inventors (round clap, jeojang, etc.) and psychos and a lot more.

Everyone please note that i dont mean to offend neither the groups neither the fans. its just for fun and me being 100% sarcastic by these statements. i love and respect these groups with all my heart!
sorry, its a bit long.

If you’ve had 4 glasses of wine and you keep checking your phone with that 1% of hope that he’s as drunk as you and he’s going to text you, you’re not over him.
If you find excuses to drive through his neighborhood, you’re not over him.
If he still crosses your mind every time you post a snapchat and you check to see if he watches it, you’re not over him.
When are you going to learn that telling yourself you don’t care won’t work?
Why is it so hard to accept the fact that something is over and grieve it then forget about it and move on?
What are you going to do when you get drunk and break down and tell him you miss him and he doesn’t respond?
You can pretend you’re over it as much as you want but you’re not actually over it until someone mentions his name and you can honestly say “wow I haven’t thought about him in a while, I wonder what he’s up to.” And until that point, it’s all acting. Just because you don’t talk to him anymore or you stopped throwing yourself at him, it doesn’t mean you don’t still want to. That’s the difference between pretending to be over him and actually being over him. You have to genuinely not want to care about this person anymore. And that’s the impossible part.
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PEARL NEEDS HELP. Please, read!

This is Pearl, a super crazyass yorkie who gets everyone’s love after 20 seconds spent with her. She’s gonna bark at you, she’s gonna make a ugly face and try to grab your hand, which will get you to think she dislikes you, but that’s actually a smile and once she gets to your hand she’s gonna lick everything and keep asking for your attention, & she keeps doing that, but with the running around replaced by a sad cry trying to get you closer. She’s 2 years old and has been with me for one year now. I may sound like a crazy person wanting help for a dog which people would pay a lot of money to get, but that’s not my case. I’m completely against buying pets, just so you know. Her previous owner is the one who got her and gave Pearl to me as she was about to move from where she lived and wasn’t able to take care of Pearl. My previous dog had died of old age a year before that and she knew I was missing company & would take good care of her dog, that’s why she gave Pearl to me. I know, this isn’t about me, but I just wanted to explain that I’m not a rich person with an “expensive” dog. I’m not. I’m just someone who was there when she needed, and I also needed her.

She was SUPER active. Like, really, SUPER. Jumping from here to there, running around like crazy, etc. Until one day I woke up and she wouldn’t put one of her paws on the ground. I got her to the vet for a consult and she explained to me everything and I’m gonna try to explain to you even though I’m not an expert:

She has patellar/kneecap dislocation on one of her back legs, which means her “kneecap is dislocated normal anatomic position in the groove of the thigh bone (femur). When the kneecap is dislocated from the groove of the thigh bone, it can only be returned to its normal position once the quadriceps muscles in the hind legs of the animal relax and lengthen. It is for this reason that most dogs with the condition will hold up their hind legs for a few minutes.”

But there are degrees of complications. At 1 the dog puts it in place on its own by stretching the leg, most people don’t even notice that, I guess I didn’t. With the “persistence of the condition, as well as the amount of degenerative arthritis that is involved. Typically, a dog with a dislocated kneecap will exhibit prolonged abnormal hindlimb movement, occasional skipping or hindlimb lameness, and sudden lameness.” The vet said this is actually kind of normal between small races, like Pearl.

The vet wasn’t able to put it in place (manually), it kept sliding/dislocating. Meaning: she’ll need surgery, which is going to open up space so the bones fit in place and don’t dislocate anymore - explained in my words, which are easier to understand, believe me.

I already “paid” (creditcard which I have no idea how I’m gonna pay) for the consult and the x-rays, which confirmed she’s gonna need surgery, but I don’t have conditions to pay for it all. The surgery itself costs at least R$5000,00 (about $1600) + postoperative care. I’m still researching about prices but that’s the least expensive I was able to find for now, and still gotta check every places’ backgrounds to see if they’re reliable. 

I’m completely devastated seeing little Pearl like this. She was this super happy and crazy dog and now she’s just… there. I want to help her, I need to help her, but I can’t… not alone. I’m currently unemployed, not because I want to, but because it’s really hard to get a job around here.

The vet just said she shouldn’t move that leg and for me to try to make her not to,as movement equals more conflict. But she didn’t say how, that’s all on me. On the pic you can see my attempt to make it still with a piece of cloth wrapped around her knee, not very effective so I’m accepting ideas.

I can’t seem to get a paypal button to work on a tumblr post, so I added to my tumblr HERE (under my description), if you can please go there and contribute, I’d really really really REALLY appreciate it.

If you can’t donate throgh that page, you can also transfer using my e-mail, which is: gabr3ux@gmail.com

If anyone can give something, even if it’s just $1 or $0.50, it will help. If you can’t, PLEASE reblog. It’ll mean the world to me and Pearl. Please, please, PLEASE help.

Thanks for your attention. Hope I come with good news soon. :(

updates:

(2017/07/16) $88.2 (R$280BRL) +  £ 10GBP (somewhat R$40BRL) + R$10 BRL, totalizing R$330BRL. I’m very thankful for all of your help, srsly <3 it pains me to have to ask for something like this, but it was the only way & place I could think of. I’m still far from what Pearl needs, but I’m positive I’ll get it. Her previous owner is trying to get help from her friends as well and for know was able to give R$100BRL, as this caught everyone by surprise. We’re doing this together, and now with y’all too ♥ Thank you ♥

(2017/07/24) got $55USD (R$173BRL) since last update. please help guys :( she needs to get this surgery as soon as possible! thank u for everything ♥

(2017/07/28) for anyone who’s wondering, she’s now on pain & anti-inflammatory meds and still w/ her leg immobilized so it won’t collide and irritate again. all is just preventing her to not feel any pain, she’s still gonna need surgery to put her patella in place and stay there. :<

(2017/08/21) guys, she needs to get this surgery as soon as possible. her leg is still paralized, which is also a problem as she should be moving it, just like people.I got $300 up to now, there’s still $1300 to go and I’m really desperate! It’s a lot of money and a lot of time has passed, I don’t know what to do! PLEASE REBLOG AND HELP! PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEAAAAAAASE!

(2017/08/30) since last update got 600BRL (189USD) from a ‘gig’ + 139USD (439BRL) from donations, totalizing 328USD! there’s still 972USD to go, tho. i’m very thankful for all your help! i’m trying to get a loan so pearl gets her surgery as soon as possible & still continue w/ the donations (as i wouldn’t be able to pay the loan by myself). guys, seriously, thank u! up to now i got 628USD, that’s a lot of money, so THANK you. i know i keep saying this, but i don’t know what else to say. SO THANK U.

The Truth Will Set You Free

I completely forgot to mention this in part 1 of my episode review so it gets its own post because I have to talk about this for a moment:

“My name is Dean Winchester. That big fella in there is my brother Sam. We kill monsters”

This is so significant. In an episode full of mind blowing meta lets just isolate this for a moment and consider just what we have witnessed. Dean has told the truth. To a Sheriff. In the middle of a case. Dean Winchester. Told. The. TRUTH.

When does this EVER happen?

(x)

Throughout Supernatural’s entire run there have been a few constants. Dean loves pie, Sam has l’oreal advert worthy hair, they will always use musical aliases and they ALWAYS LIE TO LAW ENFORCEMENT. The fact that Dean doesn’t even pause to consider his actions. He just comes right out and says it. It shows just how done he is, how much he doesn’t care anymore. His grief has literally consumed him at this point and he has no self-preservation instincts left.  

“So what are you some kind of Superhero?”

“I’m just a guy doing a job”

Right now, this IS Dean’s truth. But this specific line is heartbreaking when taken in the context of the below:

(x)

Because we know that in 12x11 Dean was stripped of his inhibitions and his memories to the point where he was really unable to lie. We know that him thinking they sound like heroes is Dean at his most pure, most truthful, without anything weighing on his shoulders. 

Yet the weight and pain of Castiel’s death has taken its toll. Dean believes a different truth now. How can he possibly be a hero when he isn’t even able to save the man he loves?

To reinforce that once again this is all about Castiel, is this:

(x)

Because not a second goes by in this episode that the audience isn’t supposed to in some way be reminded of Cas. His FACE when he says this line. I mean added up with all his other micro-expressions throughout the episode,  “Angels are real too” (specifically Castiel). it ties it all together. The way that Dean looks away there, reminds the audience that his grief for Cas is what’s causing this sudden truth telling. The heartbreak in saying the words “Angels are real” knowing that the only angel you actually care about isn’t anymore. He is gone, and you can’t bring him back. So the reason Dean is telling the truth, like the reason for ALL his actions in 13x01, is Cas. Because he doesn’t give a shit anymore. Because nothing else matters. Only Cas.

But the brilliant thing about this truth telling is that it works. It literally sets him free. The Sheriff removes his handcuffs and agrees to release Sam and Jack. The truth worked. In the first episode of the season, setting the tone for the entire season, the fact that the truth literally set Dean and Sam free is a hell of a set up for what’s coming. Telling the truth isn’t always easy, but it works.

Putting this all together, Dean’s current truth is that he has no hope. He has lost his “everything” and he no longer sees himself as the ‘hero’. He may have learned that telling the truth can set you free, but whats the point when you have no hope anyway? Might as well tell the truth because fuck the consequences now. He no longer cares. 

I only hope that once Dean regains his hope (in the form of Cas) that he keeps up the truth telling, because from a meta perspective this has set up the episode themes. 

The truth will set you free and nothing else matters but Castiel.

Where they take these themes? we will just have to wait and see.

PROMPT LIST #3

1. “For gods sake, guys! We’re NOT dating”
2. “You’re still the same guy I fell in love with”
3. “Gotcha!”
4. “Why would you prank me with something like that?!”
5. “There’s no way in hell i’m doing that”
6. “I literally don’t know how someone can be that stupid”
7. “Close your mouth, you’ll catch flies”
8. “What are you doing to me?”
9. “I’m not gonna lie, I’m really turned on by that”
10. “Give me my phone back!”
11. “YOU knew how important this was for me!”
12. “Oh shut the fuck up”
13. “You’re the one that labeled this as ‘just fun’ so I don’t own you shit”
14. “Don’t play with me, because you’re gonna lose”
15. “Forget it, you’re not even worth it”
16. “Say that one more time and you’re done”
17. “I’m no one’s property”
18. “I have a child?”
19. “I’m done with this bullshit”
20. “Why? Why did you leave?”
21. “How could you hide something like that from me!”
22. “I panicked, okay?!’
23. “I can’t believe I’m sitting in a mall jail with you of all people”
24. “Now you wanna talk? Well fuck you”
25. “How did this happened?”
26. “Just one drink”
27. “Hello? We’re in the middle of something”
28. “Oh how cute! You actually think I give a fuck”
29. “Mess with me and you’ll regret being born”
30. “I don’t fuck around”
31. “Let’s see if you can keep up”
32. “This means nothing”
33. “There’s the door. Feel free to get the fuck out”
34. “Put that down”
35. “Don’t do it, please”
36. “I’m not the same, I’m different”
37. “Nobody cares about me anymore, so why should I keep trying?”
38. “Listen to me, okay? We’re getting out of here, together”
39. “This is so stupid”
40. And yet, you’re still here”
41. “You think this is a joke? This is my life!”
42. “So this was all a lie?”
43. “We have nothing to talk about”
44. “Are you going to tell him?”
45. “Is better off this way”
46. “Hold up, you what?”
47. “You’re the worst roommate”
48. “Why are you fucking a stranger in my bed?!”
49. “Please go get herpes as far as you can from this house”
50. “Be my guest”
51. “I can do whatever I want, we’re not dating, remember?”
52. “You wanna get food at 2 am?”
53. “I will always protect you”
54. “You moved on, so did I”
55. “You’re not the same”
56. “Yeah, well, people change”
57. “You had no right to do that!”
58. “Why do you always convince me of doing the stupidest shit”
59. “How is it that your so stupid and so hot at the same time?”
60. “Call 911”
61. “This is the last time I’m letting you in my house”
62. “It was an accident!”
63. “You almost burn my house down!”
64. “I can’t keep doing this”
65. “Just be honest with me!”
66. I’m not gonna be here when she breaks your heart"
67. “Just one more night”
68. “Is this how it all ends?”
69. “You’re here!”
70. “I wanna go home”
71. “I’m not letting you go and we both know that you don’t want me to either”
72. “Keep talking all you want but you can’t deny that you want me as much as I want you”
73. “You broke my nose!”
74. “As if you were a fucking angel”
75. “Don’t make me laugh”
76. “Yeah… I don’t do relationships”
77. “Let’s face it! I’m just one of your many booty calls!”
78. “You’re nothing like them
79. “Did I actually mean something to you, ever?”
80. “I’m starting to think I’m actually going to hell”

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Alright, HERE we go! Awhile ago I had an idea for a MP100/Voltron crossover, and after mentioning it to @x-i-l-verify​ and loooots of brainstorming later, we have…*gestures vaguely* this. These are more or less screenshot redraws just to kind of get across who is who. :) More info, reasonings and musings under the cut, because well…it got long…

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(Fic) Come Back

THAT NEW VIDEO TORE MY HEART TO PIECES

SO I WROTE THIS

I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER BY MAKING EVERYTHING WORSE

(I’M A HORRIBLE PERSON I KNOW LEAVE ME BE)

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Fandom(s): Sanders Sides, Thomas Sanders, YouTube

Warnings: Self-hatred, Self-deprecation, emotional breakdown, panic attack (maybe?), and momentary loss of trust. 

Ship(s): Platonic Analogical


Oh, my God, he left me. What do I do? What do I do now? I can’t handle this on my own. I’m not a leader, I’m not a taskmaster. I don’t know what to do oh my god oh my god oh my god. Virgil was panicking, his mind racing as Thomas, Roman, and Patton began to dig through Thomas’ memories. Virgil could practically feel the weight of the future pressing down on his shoulders, threatening to crush him and suck all of the air out of his lungs. And Logan had just left him here. He closed his eyes and tried to control his breathing, tried to block out the bright light and the loud noise of Patton and Roman’s excited squealing. 

It’s too much it’s too much I can’t Logan please come back, Virgil thought, his train of thought all jumbled up and mushed together. He backed up against the wall, breathing shakily and fighting back tears as he slid down to the floor. Logan didn’t care about him. Virgil had been such an idiot to think that Logan actually cared that he was deteriorating. 

Come back come back come back please I can’t please. Virgil buried his head between his knees, tears leaking from his clenched eyelids and running down his face. The whole world was spinning and he felt like he was floating, felt like he wasn’t in his body anymore. He wanted to scream himself hoarse, to get the attention of the others and just get out of this mess because he couldn’t save himself, but he knew he couldn’t. 

Virgil faintly heard someone calling his name, but his head was spinning and he couldn't breathe and he could feel something wet running down his face. Someone grabbed his arm and he screamed, trying to pull away. 

DON’T TOUCH ME DON’T TOUCH ME DON’T TOUCH ME He felt the horrible sensation of his stomach twisting and churning and suddenly he wasn’t back up against the wall anymore. He was on his feet, leaning heavily against something soft, something warm. Virgil screamed again and pushed the thing away, scrambling backward breathing hard, trying to make sense of what was going on around him. 

“Virgil, look at me, it’s okay,” Logan said softly, getting down on his knees so he was at eye level with the panicking man. Virgil stared at Logan, eyes wide and panicked as he continued to cry, seeming bewildered. 

“Good Virgil, good. I’m here. I’m not going anywhere, I promise,” Logan said lowly, trying to smile as the other trait looked at him in pain and confusion. Logan had really screwed up this time, and he knew it. 

“W-Why did you g-go?” Virgil managed to choke out, bringing his knees up to his chest and shivering. “I tr-trusted to. You said you wouldn’t leave. You…you saw…and you just left.” Logan’s heart sunk as Virgil look of sorrow turned to one of anger and he gritted his teeth, his glare sending chills down Logan’s spine. 

“I was upset. It was foolish of me to leave you behind. I-I…I came back as soon as I realized, I assure you,” Logan said quietly, not wanting to startle Virgil by talking loudly. Virgil grimaced and Logan’s hands twitched, itching to scoop up the anxious man in his arms and hold him until he felt alright again. 

“No, you didn’t. You left me in there to…to….I don’t know what! Y-You don’t actually care! And why should you? You never did before!” Virgil’s voice was raised, cracking as if it hurt for him to speak. 

“Yes, I did. I’ve always cared, Virgil, I just didn’t realize how much you truly needed help, so I didn’t do anything. I’m sorry. But I’m here now, aren’t I?” Logan said, his own voice beginning to quiver. Virgil took in a shaky breath and looked Logan up and down, considering him. 

“Y-Yes…Yes, you’re here,” Virgil whispered, closing his eyes and chewing at his bottom lip. Logan smiled and fought back tears as he opened up his arms, welcoming the other to come towards him. Virgil cracked an eye open and let out a tiny sob as uptight, necktie wearing, feelings-hating, affection-avoiding Logan took him into his arms, a bit stiff at first, but eventually relaxing and holding Virgil in an embrace that could have rivaled Patton’s. Virgil hiccuped and buried his face in Logan’s chest, twisting his tie around his trembling fingers. 

“You’re here…a-and…you’re…staying?” Virgil said although it sounded more like a question. Logan swallowed the lump in his throat and nodded, hugging Virgil tighter and resting his head on top of his. 

“Yes, Virge. I’m staying.” 

Here’s the thing:

D&D made the Martells unlikable and unknowable as soon as Oberyn died. It was as if they pulled out all the stops and gave themselves the greenlight to do whatever the hell they want with the remaining characters. So they chose to:

1) Flip flop on Ellaria’s character, turning her from Oberyn’s likeminded partner into a mastermind of a plot to kill two children, one of them Oberyn’s nephew, and Doran
2) Make the Sand Snakes as bland and one-dimensional as possible, emphasizing that they are both Sexy and Deadly but still a little Incompetent
3) Kill off Doran and Trystane before the season ended, because they were just dead weight in the Dornish scorched earth storyline
4) Make sure Ellaria was painted as the Evil Bisexual Brown Woman and the Sand Snakes as her Evil Offspring
5) Oberyn’s influence just went POOF basically because killing Doran and Trystane has nothing to do with vengeance for Oberyn lol
6) Allowed them very little chracter development, kept them mysterious and frankly a little useless
7) Tried to make it seem believable that all of Dorne went like “lol okay sounds good” when Ellaria killed Doran and took over. Because brown people are treacherous and mindless anyways
8) Make the Dorne storyline the weakest point in their whole show
9) Oh, and cut Quentyn and Arianne because lol BORING, amiright? It’s more fun when the white folks angst over succession.

And that was just in season 6.

I can’t even muster any more rage over the treatment of show!Martells. Leave me to my wonderful book!Martells, the ones who actually care about the lives of children and innocents, who are more than sexy assassins, who are richer with the inclusion of Arianne and Quentyn (who make up all of the Martell POVs), and if/when they meet their doom there, I’ll get upset then.

But as for show!Martells? I can’t even force myself to give a shit anymore.

WHY I LOVE YOU

Venus in Aries: I heard your laughter before I saw you. And then I couldn’t take my eyes off you. And after everyone had gone home we were still running around, or you were running I was just trying to keep up. You work hard, play hard and love even harder, but you like to try on a couple of sizes before you find the right fit. It’s the way you make me laugh at the most ludicrous things, the way you know exactly what you want and are not afraid to go and get it. You make me feel like anything is possible. Our love was like a tickle war turned makeout session, and I still remember the heat when our skin touched. There will never be anyone like you.

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chimomo  asked:

Guys, who even cares about the Arnie/Mia or Arnie/Maisie drama anymore? Maisie's got MFCBTO now. I admit I disliked Arnie when the drama was actually happening, but I mean MFCBTO is 100 times more fun.

this entire generation is based solely on bowling so idk why people are still trying to take me so seriously

Imagine if the first one to find out Ladybug’s identity...

…is Chloé Bourgeois. 

I can easily picture Alya finding out; I swoon at the thought of Adrien finally knowing. thelastpilot has given us an extremely spot-on characterization of Nino finding out who LB is. 

But when it comes to Chloé knowing, a part of me hesitates. Because I honestly don’t know how she’d react to that. She LOVES her some Ladybug, but absolutely cannot STAND Marinette. How does a person reconcile that? Will she like Ladybug less? Or stop altogether? Or will she stop being awful to Marinette? It could go so many ways! 

Imagine Chloé realizing that the girl she was secretly jealous of, the kind Marinette who made friends without money or fame or threats, the girl that Adrien seemed to enjoy being around, THAT girl was ALSO Ladybug? Who was loved by all of Paris? Including herself? 

Would her jealousy just get worse? Would she hate Marinette more? Try to sabotage her because no way can she have it all. She can’t be this popular pretty girl in school and ALSO a super hero. She doesn’t get to be so close to Adrien in school AND have him gawk at her as Ladybug. It’s just so UNFAIR. 

But then imagine Chloé knowing that with all the YEARS of harassment and rude comments  she’d subjected Marinette to, LB STILL saved her life. Multiple times. Marinette let Chloé call her a friend when she was behind the mask, even knowing she’d got back to school the next day and hear the mayor’s daughter throw insults at her. 

Maybe that is what, once and for all, stops Chloé’s reign of terror. Kinda

Imagine the class’s reactions when Chloé starts asking after Marinette’s health. Suddenly feeling guilty and realizing the girl might be falling down a lot because she has bruises or broke something in a fight or GOD what if she has the flu? 

Imagine Marinette’s skeptical reaction to that, and Chloé’s nonchalant “Well don’t think I actually CARE or anything…just don’t want your nasty germs getting all over me Marinette Dupain-Cheng!” 

Imagine Tom and Sabine’s bakery suddenly getting it’s debts paid off, courtesy of the mayor. Imagine them getting invited to cater at high-profile events and galas in Paris. Suddenly business is booming even MORE than before. The Dupain-Cheng’s don’t have to worry about money anymore. 

Imagine Chloé suddenly asking Sabrina to do two sets of geography homework. “You know…just in case I lose one or something!” But she knows an akuma attacked late last night and there’s no way Mari had time to do hers. 

Imagine there’s an akuma attack, and all their classmates wonder where Marinette is, and Chloé distracts them with a “Who cares about her anyway? She probably tripped and got herself locked in a closet somewhere. Let’s just go!” 

Imagine her purposely being late for school (she makes Sabrina do it too) as well so that the teacher leaves Marinette alone. Because if Marinette is in trouble then so is Chloé, and who would dare give the mayor’s daughter a tardy, and “We’re not late, the rest of you are just early!” 

Imagine that Chloé Bourgeois still pretends to be the stuck up rich brat everyone knows her as just to keep Marinette’s secret safe. 

Imagine her actually wanting to be Marinette’s friend even MORE, but feeling super embarrassed about everything between them and not really knowing how else to be. This is all new for her, and she’s never been really good at making friends. ;) 

And she thinks maybe that’s what she deserves for treating Marinette so terribly. Maybe she doesn’t deserve to have her as a real friend. But she’s definitely going to do what she can to help.

She IS Ladybug’s number one fan after all. 

text me when you get home

Originally posted by laheys-girl

“don’t act like you don’t want me, sweetheart. this game is getting boring.” 

fuckboy!isaac ft. stiles, college au 


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@All Fellow Autistics

I’m curious to see what other autistic people do and don’t have in common with me, so let’s play a game of True or False!

You can use the tags or reblog and add your answers in a caption, specifying if each bullet point is True or False for you personally

•Hates loud noises to the point of breakdowns, but LOVES ear-burstingly loud music

•Allistic: “This song has no patterns or consistency? It’s just a mess??” Me, hearing every single note, beat, instrument and pattern in all music: “You’re entitled to your wrong opinion”

•Allistic: “use your words!!!” Me: *loud whining, groaning, growling, etc, trying to convey that I’m nonverbal at the moment and literally can’t “use my words”*

•"Is this actually my own opinion or did I just take what the people around me know and like/dislike?“

•"Mmmm I wanna eat that [inedible thing]”

•*Hits and roughly squeezes entire head to numb/distract from a headache*

•Cries at literally every super minor, “unimportant” thing, but feels no emotion/doesn’t express emotion towards most large-impact situations (Example; Cries after dropping a piece of candy, but doesn’t show any emotion listening to an emotional story from a family member)

•"THIS SONG IS THE STIMMIEST THING IN EXISTENCE AND IM GONNA LISTEN TO IT FOR 8 DAYS ON LOOP BECAUSE OF THE BEATS AND SOUNDS"

•*Presses all the little buttons down on a soda cup lid (all of them, so they aren’t uneven)* FREE STIM WITH THE PURCHASE OF ANY SOFT DRINK

•Rocking in bed when you feel negative feelings

•Rocking in bed when you feel positive feelings

•*Makes it -2000 degrees in bedroom, then proceeds to turn all the fans on so I can snuggle up with blankets and pillows and hot cocoa and feel like I’m being protected from the cold, bc that makes me feel safe and happy for some reason??*

•Has 100000+ special interests that come and go day to day (Some days I’m kinda meh about a special interest, other days I’m ALL OVER IT AND OBSESSED WITH IT)

•*makes a huge deal out of something, cries about it, yells about it, makes everybody else angry because of it* *10 minutes later* “Wow,, that was stupid,,,,, I don’t even care about that thing anymore why was I so upset,,,,”

[No DD/lg, CG/l(re), Kink, Aphobe, TERF, SWERF, Non-System Little, Gatekeepers, Exclusionists, Anti-kin, or etc interaction!!]

You Make Him Jealous

S. Coups

He would get upset and over react quite a bit until you told him that it was just to get his reaction. He might break a vase before finally laughing along with you, though.

“Wow, you really got me there. Now, never fucking do that again.”

Originally posted by bb-zelo

Jeonghan

He would just sit there, very tight-lipped, until you had finished your little flirt “fest”. He wouldn’t do anything at that moment except smile bitterly.

“And what was the point of upsetting me like that?”

Originally posted by visual-17

Joshua

He would immediately butt in as he knew what you were doing. There was no way you were going to trick him into being jealous.

“Better luck next time. Maybe pick a better target?”

Originally posted by kristian-do

Jun

He would make a game out of it once he found out you were purposely doing it. He would also begin doing it, hoping that you’d also notice.

“Oh, this can definitely be a two-player game. Literally!”

Originally posted by sunkissedhao

Hoshi

Usually he would just knock out who ever is speaking to you, because he has no filter. Sometimes, you would just flirt with people that you want knocked out.

“Either you really don’t like me, or you actually wanna hurt a lot of people.”

Originally posted by minghaon

Wonwoo

You would be flirting with someone in another corner of the room while he sat and sulked. He would only take action a day after, right before you planned to tell him it was for his reaction.

“Well, I guess you won’t be getting my reaction from that guy anymore.”

Originally posted by wonuflake

Woozi

Instinctively, he would throw a chair at whoever you were flirting with. He wouldn’t think about it at all, and not care about any possibilities.

“How the hell was I supposed to know? Maybe you shouldn’t wink at people you just met!”

Originally posted by imthatdiamond

The8

He would be nice about it and just question you after. He’d get a little upset knowing that you did it for a reaction, but he would be slightly relieved.

“Getting my reaction is pointless. Do I not show you enough love in other ways?”

Originally posted by kristian-do

Mingyu

Like Jun, he would figure out what you were doing and use it against you. He would put you through a fake kidnapping to ensure that you realized he wouldn’t tolerate your flirting.

“So, you thinking about doing that ever again?”

Originally posted by sunkissedhao

Dokyeom

He would become quite awkward  if he saw you flirting with someone. Normally, he dealt with his problems by gambling and then murdering them, but he couldn’t really do that with you.

“I know my job is gambling, but are you really trying to gamble other peoples lives?”

Originally posted by 17-gif

Seungkwan

He would make it very obvious that he was jealous. The moment where he was completely over it, he would just sigh and pull you away quickly.

“I don’t get why you even wanna talk to other people, you have me!”

Originally posted by strawberryboo

Vernon

He would just sit there with the most uncomfortable reaction, putting an end to your plans quickly. He still wouldn’t be very happy after you told him it was for his reaction.

“I’m in the mafia, but I don’t think I’ve ever felt this backstabbed.”

Originally posted by hanwooz

Dino

He would immediately get angry or start pouting. It ended up being quite funny, but you couldn’t stop him until he was done with his anger fit because you were laughing.

“This was all a joke? Seungcheol isn’t going to be happy that I wrecked his building because of a joke!”

Originally posted by dino-net

Do you guys ever wake up in the morning with an ocean of tears behind your eyes and all you want to do is cry for hours. Not because you’re sad or miserable; just because. For a reason unknown. Maybe it is because I’m depressed and miserable, I just don’t know what it feels like anymore to feel otherwise, besides, I’ve always had this condition. It is almost as if I have found peace in accepting my state of misery and loneliness. I’m just ranting here..

I hope you all are doing “ok”. I may just be a blogger but I genuinely care about all of you who follow me. You all sort of feel like family.. as if our condition creates a bond within us that keeps us together. Who knows the reason. Do we ever truly know anything for its actual reality? I don’t think so at least. After all, most truths seem to make sense when we are only speaking with ourselves..

I hope you all have a wonderful day. I love you all

- Promethean Dread 🥀💕