I am very good at “dealing with” my anxiety in the sense that I can “function” “normally” whatever any of those words even mean but like ok so when I got my flu shot the nurse was like have you ever gotten one before and I was like no and she was like ok you have to sit here with me for 20 minutes to make sure you’re not allergic and I was immediately like haHA ok but I am a hypochondriac and this is torture? and after I’d been sitting there quietly on the floor for like ten minutes in the corner of the conference room where she was administering shots for all my coworkers she was like you’re handling it very well and I kind of chuckled but inside I was like “???? I have spent the last few minutes trying to tell if I am still breathing????” So like I joke a lot about it and don’t make a big thing of it because a not small part of me is afraid people will BELIEVE ME when I say honestly I feel like I’m losing my mind cause like when I text my friends at 10 to say “if I don’t text you to say I’m alive by 8am tomorrow please have my roommate check to make sure I didn’t have a stroke in my sleep” I KNOW it sounds crazy idk idk just like that fine line between needing people to know how not ok you are and worrying they’ll figure out how not ok you are?
Why has there been a sudden increase in "protect kihyun" posts? He does need to be protected from all the bullfuckery he gets but why the sudden increase in the need to protect?