this is a really accurate description of our relationship and all about us

An open call for episode transcripts from our Travelers, struggles in creating the Penumbra as a small team, and why we need your help

UPDATE: Some extremely generous fans have stepped up to organize @thepenumbrapodcasttranscripts , so please head over there if you would like to participate! We are deeply touched by the speedy response to this post.

Hey there Travelers,

Kevin here. Over the thirteen months since the Penumbra’s first episode, we’ve received a lot of requests from fans for access to episode transcripts. Many of you have contacted us with well-reasoned arguments about accessibility for those with hearing and processing disabilities. Many of you have expressed frustration about the $7 Patreon reward level, at which donating patrons get to look at the scripts the actors see.

We’ve stayed quiet on this so far, but we haven’t been ignoring you. We recognize your frustration. We apologize if the packaging of our show has made you feel like we don’t notice you, or listen to you, or care about you. We do. Internally we’ve been discussing this for months – and after debating it and trying a lot of things, we’ve come to what we think is the only conclusion that makes sense given our situation. I’ll tell you the conclusion first, and then move backward to our reasoning:

We are asking for help from you, the fans, in making these transcripts a reality. If fans create a tumblr or website that features fan-made transcripts of every episode, we will gladly post a link to it on our website and promote it whenever a new transcript has been completed.

We have asked for this from you all before, but it understandably got lost in the weeks and months that have passed since. As a result, should fans express interest in creating transcripts, we will be reblogging this post once every two weeks until all of the transcripts have been completed.

We recognize that it is frustrating not having the supports you need to access our show as others can. We recognize that asking fans to create those supports is also frustrating. Please know that we are frustrated, too. We are living a very uncomfortable, very difficult reality in creating this show, and up until now we’ve kept the details of that reality invisible to you all. But if I can ask for just a few minutes of your understanding, I hope I can communicate clearly about the obstacles in the way of us creating these transcripts, which are also, not coincidentally, the biggest threats to the Penumbra’s continued existence in general.

What follows is an in-depth look at my reasoning. If you’re satisfied with the above, hey, skip it! You can find the couple of transcripts we had time to make here (as well as one by a fan who asked to be credited as subtlepuns), so go for it, work together, create a platform for them, and feel free to use what we’ve made to get you started. If you’re still bothered, or you don’t understand why we can’t just make all the transcripts ourselves, I ask only that you read and think about our position, here. It is not one made hastily.

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Unbelievable

Sherlock x reader

Summary: If it’s already bad that John teases Sherlock endlessly about (Y/N), it’s even worse when Mycroft joins the game.

Warnings: Flustered Sherlock, mention about drugs.

Request: By @sherlockourhero

A/N: Good read everyone!

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anonymous asked:

Seeing both sides of the arguments, i think that is plausible that IH was endgame since the beginning, but we would always end in 2 scenarios. IH was planned since the beginning but poorly executed, for the detriment of boths characthers, or it wasn't and still count as detriment. I'm saying this as somebody that prefer IR because IH, legit does nothing for me. By the way, that anon, was being rude, your preferences are yours and nobody should tell you otherwise.

I’m seriously tired of the words “endgame” being thrown around in relation to Bleach. Bleach wasn’t planned. There were so many things that were raised and then dropped without leading anywhere, that were simply forgotten, or that were outright retconned out of existence. Kubo had, at best, a rough outline, and at worst, was largely making shit up as he went.

Examples:

  • Soul pills were originally introduced as having been designed to force spirits out of already-dead bodies. This means revenants are a serious problem Shinigami had to deal with. Really weird that we never saw any, huh? Forgotten.
  • The Quincy were retconned from being one particular tribe of many different kinds of magic users, who were spread all over the world, to some weird anti-Shinigami who somehow commune with the divine (whatever their “God” might’ve been). Kisuke, of all people, would’ve known what they really were and had no great reason to lie—he wasn’t trying to mislead Rukia, he legitimately didn’t know at that time, because neither did Kubo.
  • Akon originally speculated that the maker of Rukia’s gigai would’ve been thrown out of Soul Society because it was simply too good and accurate—we know from the fact that Kisuke was trying to make Rukia into a human that it was basically a complete human body. In other words, Kisuke had come up with something that could turn the dead into the living and produce more life. This was summarily forgotten because Kisuke was no longer (likely) the villain and just a shady guy, and much later the Visored story was introduced to explain why he was banished.
  • Literally everything to do with the Four Great Noble Houses and their artifacts or roles was dropped and forgotten, after the appearance of the various Shihouin artifacts during the Soul Society arc. We never even got the names of the other two houses. In TYBW, Yuushirou showed up with an enormous bag of stuff to help Yoruichi, only for it all to be forgotten again.
  • Kubo literally completely forgot about the Visored and Yoruichi during the LSS arc.
  • The entire Soul King plot had zero resolution. All of its plot hooks were discarded.
  • “I leave it up to you, Kurosaki and Kuchiki.”

And on, and on, and on. Certain things (like “Shirosaki” actually being Zangetsu, and “Zangetsu” being something else) were clearly planned from the start. Other things clearly weren’t, and IH is one of those things. You know how I know? Because it was completely unsubstantiated. 

Some IH is going to pop up and go “B—B—But Orihime confessed!” Yeah, to an unconscious Ichigo, and big fucking deal? The thing about relationships is they involve relations. There was, what? Orihime trying to hang out with Ichigo and getting turned down? Eating bread with Uryuu and Chad in his room? 

There were no civil tender moments (i.e., outside of combat). There were no martial tender moments (i.e., in combat). There were no dates. There was no confession from Ichigo. There was no hug. There was no kiss. There were no longing looks. There were no deep conversations looking at the moon. There was never any indication, in any fashion, that Ichigo reciprocated her feelings. They never hung out outside of the context of supernatural bullshit. They literally did not have a relationship. (“Hurr durr, IR didn’t have a lot of that either!” some mouthbreather will interject, and let me state that I’m not substantiating IR here, I’m deconstructing IH.)

You know how I know? IH will go out of their way to prattle on about how much Orihime deserved Ichigo’s affection, because they have nothing to point to to show that he felt that way, and they know it. It’s always only ever about her, never about him.

So explain to me how something that is literally never established, and never shown, is plausibly an “endgame.”

While you think about that, I want to share with you my favorite bad novel summary. It’s a book called “Out of the Dark” by David Weber. I haven’t read it, but the description alone makes the case for it being bad.

Have you read the plot outline? Good. Notice how it’s a book about an alien invasion until suddenly vampires pop up out of nowhere and save humanity in a convenient deus ex machina to cash in on Twilight? Would you call that “endgame?” It was how the book ended! But it doesn’t really follow from the premise, does it? It’s just kind of a thing that happens to wrap things up.

Since I keep making Twilight allusions: imagine if Breaking Dawn - Part 2 ended with Blade appearing, killing everyone but Bella Swan, and then having an OT3 with her and Selene. That would certainly be an ending! You could write that! It is a thing you could do! If that was how it had actually ended, would you call that “endgame?” No, you wouldn’t, because it was never established or built toward. It would’ve just happened.

Just like IH.

A bunch of one-sided bullshit from one party with no reciprocation isn’t establishing a relationship. It’s establishing a character, i.e., Orihime. Ichigo doesn’t even come into it. If Jack jerks off to Charlize Theron, or Jane touches herself to Chris Pine, would you say that Jack and Jane are in a relationship with Charlize and Chris? No, because that would be stupid. That’s not how relationships work. They require back and forth interaction.

Which is exactly what IH never had in any kind of romantic or even intimate fashion.

So if you show me hours and hours of Jack and Jane daydreaming about Charlize and Chris, and getting their autographs, and eventually hanging out with them now and again as acquaintances, and then you suddenly skip to ten years later and they’re married and have kids and are lovey-dovey, yeah, that’s a story, I guess? If you expect me to believe it was always “endgame” I’m going to laugh in your face.

IH was some bullshit that Kubo did off-screen and shoved in our faces to blow his franchise up. The general fandom knows it. IR knows it. And IH knows it too, which is why today, a year later, they still give a fuck about convincing us how “right” they were, and how “wrong” we are: because they have absolutely nothing, and it eats them up inside, like acid in their hearts and souls. It’s why they can’t make anything worth a damn, be it art or fic, because there’s nothing to make. They can’t even connect dots; there are no dots, they gotta make it up wholesale. Because. Ichigo. Never. Cared. About. Orihime.

It wasn’t “endgame.” It was an asspull. And that’s all there is to it.

Until somebody finds me some panels that demonstrate Ichigo gives two-shits about Orihime because he’s looking at her the way he did at Rukia in chapter 151, or 423, or 459, or innumerable other examples, I do not give a single fuck about what Orihime thinks, feels, says, or does.

Those panels don’t exist, so this topic is over. Case dismissed. Don’t bring this non-recyclable trash to my courtroom again.

anonymous asked:

Bellarke playlist?

Listen, all you had to do was type up two words but you are my favourite person right now.

I have sooooo many songs on my phone that remind me of Bellarke its absolutely ridiculous. I legit sent my friend like 30 Bellarke-y songs because she makes fanvids and wanted material. I got you covered nonny. ;)

I just want it to be noted that a lot of these songs I had in mind for Bellarke following the events of Season 2 or during Season 3, whereas some are specific to Season 4 and others just remind me of Bellarke’s dynamic in general. So I’ll try to point out which belongs where. 

I also did an analysis on certain songs that reminded me of characters/relationships of The 100 back when I first created my Tumblr so there are a few songs in this list that I literally have a full-length analysis of the lyrics and description as to why it reminds me of Bellarke, so I’ll link you in case you are interested why I chose those ones.

1. Run - RHODES (based on Clarke leaving after Season 2)

2. Where’s my love? - Syml (LISTEN I KNOW THIS IS A STYDIA SONG BUT I DON’T WATCH TEEN WOLF SO I HAVE NO CONTEXT FOR IT AND I HEARD IT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A BELLARKE FANVID SO IF YOU WATCH TEEN WOLF PLEASE TRY TO SEPARATE THIS SONG FROM STYDIA FOR A MOMENT BECAUSE LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE LYRIC IS BELLARKE AF AFTER CLARKE RAN AWAY IN 2X16 I KID YOU NOT)

3. All About You - Birdy

4. Home - RHODES (This one I found after following Season 2 so it is definitely related to Clarke leaving but it is more directly related to the “home theme” regarding Bellarke, so its still very accurate going into Season 4)

5. Armor - Landon Austin (lol i don’t even have this song in my phone but the lyrics make metaphors about war and stuff like that work quite nicely when you make them literal in the universe of The 100)

6. Right Here - Ashes Remain (this one isn’t on my phone either but Bellarke-y lyrics so *shrugs*)

7. Dark Doo Wop - MS MR (This song has a darker vibe but its incredibly fitting in the context of Season 4 - I really like it)

8. One Last Time - Jaymes Young (this song is gorgeous and one of my absolute favourites. It definitely reminds me very specifically of Clarke leaving in Season 2 but it can be related to any of their separations - or future separations - and would still be accurate)

9. You & I - RHODES (feat. the “Together” theme)

10. Shattered - Trading Yesterday (I die every time)

11. Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra (this song is so Bellarke it’s ridiculous like holy shit)

12. Fragments - Jaymes Young (this song is also so Bellarke it’s ridiculous holy shit)

13. Beautiful Crime - Tamer (I really love this song and its for Bellarke in Season 3A mostly. You can read my analysis on it here if you are interested in the more technical reasons why I believe this song is Bellarke.

14. Somebody - RHODES (this is for Bellarke in Season 3 again, and you can read the analysis I wrote a few months ago here. This song is Bellarke af I promise)

15. I Found - Amber Run (this is mostly based around Clarke and Bellamy separating mid-season two and Clarke’s gradual downward spiral - “and I’ll use you as a warning sign that if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind”. Again, I wrote an analysis on this one here as well.)

16. This Is What It Takes - Shawn Mendes (I think its funny that Shawn was on the show and that The 100 is his favourite show because I enjoy humouring myself with the prospect that he was slightly influenced by Bellarke ;) Anyway this song mainly reminds me of Bellarke a) because of a fanvideo but b) the lines that sa “you don’t have to do this on your own” and “let me be the one to bare your pain” remind me of Bellamy’s “you don’t have to do this alone” from 2x16.)

17. Raise Your Love - RHODES (I just really love RHODES, k?)

18. Neptune - Sleeping At Last (I have so much love for this song and it hurts me)

19. Waves (ACCOUSTIC VERSION) - Dean Lewis (I DON’T WATCH RIVERDALE BUT APPARENTLY THIS SONG IS FROM THERE? ANYWAY I LITERALLY DON’T CARE BECAUSE THIS SONG IS TOTALLY A BELLARKE SONG AND ITS SO BEAUTIFUL AND IT GENUINELY MAKES ME CRY SO PLEASE LISTEN AND THINK OF BELLARKE AND CRY TOO)

20. Pieces - Andrew Belle

21. Mars - Sleeping At Last

22. White Blood - Oh Wonder

23. When It’s All Over - RAIGN

24. Who Am I Living For? - Katy Perry (a very different mood than most of her songs and definitely one of my favourites of hers)

25. Cover Us - Natalie Taylor

26. Light - Sleeping At Last

Okay, nonny. That should be enough. I hope you enjoy!

And for anyone reading this, let me know which ones you liked and what your personal favourite Bellarke songs are because I’m always looking for new music. 

anonymous asked:

I know I shouldn't speak badly of the Theoi they r more than myths. I have realized that for all of them. But I am trying REALLY hard to avoid feeling dislike towards Zeus. I have always felt dislike since I learned the myths as a *child* which is why it's probably hard :\ I try to understand the ancient's marriages were different and genders were not equal , but Zeus just doesn't seem like a good husband, fatherly, or trustworthy, what can I do to try and fix this or learn better?

It is so important to remember that the myths don’t often reflect cultic practices and how the ancient Greeks actually viewed the Theoi. But even within the myths, there’s plenty of evidence for Zeus being a loving husband and father.

Pausanias, Description of Greece 2. 17. 4 (trans. Jones) (Greek travelogue C2nd A.D.) :
“The presence of a cuckoo seated on the sceptre [of Hera] they explain by the story that when Zeus was in love with Hera in her maidenhood he changed himself into this bird, and she caught it to be her pet [in order to seduce her].”

Pausanias, Description of Greece 2. 36. 1 :
“A mountain [near Halike in Argos], called in old days Thornax; but they say that the name was changed because, according to legend, it was here that the transformation of Zeus into a cuckoo took place. Even to the present day there are sanctuaries on the tops of the mountains : on Mount Kokkux (Cuckoo) one of Zeus, on Pron one of Hera.”

Zeus took the form of a bird in order to earn Hera’s trust. He acted as Her pet so She would come to trust Him and love Him. He willingly put himself into a harmless and subservient position to woo Her. And She did come to love Him.

Hesiod, Theogony 921 ff (trans. Evelyn-White) (Greek epic C8th or C7th B.C.) :
“Lastly, he [Zeus] made Hera his blooming wife : and she was joined in love with the king of gods and men, and brought forth Hebe and Ares and Eileithyia.”

As He loved Her.

Callimachus, Aetia Fragment 2. 3 (from Scholiast on Homer’s Iliad 1. 609) (trans. Trypanis) (Greek poet C3rd B.C.) :
“Zeus loved [Hera] passionately for three hundred years.” [N.B. This refers to the Hieros Gamos or secret marriage of Zeus and Hera.]

Their marriage wasn’t perfect, even the ancient Greeks admitted that, but within mythic evidence and cultic practices, we have a story of Zeus and Hera reconciling after They had fought.

Pausanias, Description of Greece 9. 3. 1 :
“Hera, they say, was for some reason or other angry with Zeus, and had retreated to Euboia. Zeus, failing to make her change her mind, visited Kithaeron, at that time despot in Plataia [or the mountain-god], who surpassed all men for his cleverness. So he ordered Zeus to make an image of wood, and to carry it, wrapped up, in a bullock wagon, and to say that he was celebrating his marriage with Plataia, the daughter of Asopos. So Zeus followed the advice of Kithairon. Hera heard the news at once, and at once appeared on the scene. But when she came near the wagon and tore away the dress from the image, she was pleased at the deceit, on finding it a wooden image and not a bride, and was reconciled to Zeus. To commemorate this reconciliation they celebrate a festival called Daidala.”

It may not be easy to see, especially when looking at the more popular myths, but there are repeated instances of Zeus acting simply to please Hera, to win Her over, to show His love for Her. And while there are a lot of myths where She’s shown to be jealous of His other lovers, She’s always shown to still love Him and to accept Him (even if She’s not fond of the other women).

He is also a considerably caring father. Even if you look at the myths written in ancient Greece. For example, when Artemis says She never wants to marry, Zeus promises Her that She won’t have to. 

Callimachus, Hymn 3 to Artemis 4 ff (trans. Mair) (Greek poet C3rd B.C.) :
“[Artemis] sitting on her father’s knees–still a little maid–she spake these words to her sire [Zeus] : ‘Give me to keep my maidenhood, Father, forever …’ And her father smiled and bowed assent.”

But one of the most important things n my opinion, is looking for cultic evidence, rather than the myths. The myths are sometimes highly inaccurate portrayals of the Theoi in comparison to how They were viewed and treated in worship. If Zeus weren’t a good father and husband, then the ancient Greeks wouldn’t have worshiped Him as the epitome of fatherhood and the standard for being a husband; they wouldn’t have built rituals and holidays that used His and Hera’s marriage as the guideline for marriages.

When we talk about the Theoi being more than just Their myths, and being different from Their myths, it’s important to talk about what the myths actual do and what they actually bring to our faith.

Some myths stand to explain cultic rites and worship, as well as cultural rituals. The Abduction of Persephone follows the Hellenic tradition for a wedding. Some myths (arguably all) serve to convey a lesson or moral, but that lesson is inherently tied to the culture writing the myth. That’s why looking as deeply as possible into the context of any given myth is so important, because it can give context to the morals being conveyed by the myth and help us to understand this vastly different culture. Some myths are simply stories, meant to entertain and tell a story. 

We need to keep in mind that the way the ancient Greeks wrote the Theoi is not necessarily an accurate portrayal of Their personalities and actions. These stories were written by mortals, who like modern mortals, wanted to see themselves in Their deities. We want our deities to reflect our own personal and cultural values, and authors writing stories can write Their deities in such a way that does reflect those values, regardless of what the actual actions of a deity may be. 

Look also at what makes an interesting story. If you want to write something with a lot of drama, what sells more: healthy open relationships, or affairs with jealous spouses learning of your main character’s deceit? As annoying as it is, and as cliche as it is, throwing in an affair to a story line is a quick and easy way to add drama, and there’s a reason why it is a cliche. It moves a story forward, it provides conflict, and it designates an antagonist.

@sir-celestyn shared a wonderful bit the other day that really serves to remind all of us to evaluate how much stock we put into the myths, from “Battling the Gods: Atheism in the Ancient World” by Tim Whitmarsh:

“Homer’s epic poems of human striving, journeying, and passion were ancient Greece’s only ‘sacred texts,’ but no ancient Greek thought twice about questioning or mocking his stories of the gods.”

ML Fan Fic Rec/Appreciation List

Hi! Hello! I thought this might be the best way to show love for my fellow fan fiction writers in the ML community on this the day of appreciation for such folks. I’ve posted about the majority of these authors before in a blog rec list, but I want to put out a formal review of each author and their fics because reviews are important. There are so many fic rec lists out already, but writer types NEVER tire of attention (trust me, I know) so here we go (in alphabetical order to keep things classy and neat): 

A Brand New Dawn by @whitebear-ofthe-watertribe 

A lovely university AU. I love the way she writes Adrien and Marinette’s rekindled friendship, it’s just so warm and comforting. There is drama and fluff and romance and it’s just such lovely story. Also, her description of high fashion clothing is just #writing goals 100%.

A Werecat in London by  @i-am-thornqueen

An exciting expanded magical world AU.  This world that Thorn has created is just so rich and detailed and could easily stand on its own entirely. Adrien, Marinette and the whole crew drop so easily right into the middle of it and meld perfectly. Her OCs are beautifully developed characters and stand wonderfully on their own two feet, I could honestly read a whole book just following them. It’s full of action, angst, hilarity and Sin™.

Bare Necessities by @reyxa

An adorable art school AU where Adrien ends up as a nude model in Mari’s figure drawing class. Need I say more? Hilarity and adorable drawing sessions and art lessons ensue. This fic is pure and unaltered cotton candy and Reyxa does a wonderful job spinning it while throwing some Sin™ on top for good measure.

Black Cats And Curtain Calls by @bullysquadess

An extremely accurate theatre AU.  The first,  but not the only, Bully fic on the list. (Honestly I had to stop myself from putting them all down.) This short and sweet fic is hilarious and if you were/are a Theatre kid you will appreciate ever inch of it. Bully will capture you every time with her tongue –in-cheek humor and spot on characterization and this little fic is no exception.

Chasing the C/h/atwalk by @runningoutofink

A perfectly done Project Runway AU. Bee just does an absolutely phenomenal job translating the classic reality competition TV show format into the written word which is no small task. One of the things that impressed me most about this writing is that I could visualize every single scene perfectly. It is clearly and beautifully written and honestly made me fall deeper in love with the cast of ML.

Heartstrings by @seiyakanie

The beginning of the end for me and ML fics. This fic took my ML fic virginity and I have never looked back. If there is one thing Taylor knows how to write its Sin™ and luckily for us she knows how to write more than that. I love, love Taylor’s descriptions of actions and the thoughts and feelings of characters while they’re in the middle of those actions. (I also have this fic to thank for plunging me into the depths of Taylor’s OC heaven. Seriously, the girl has an armory full of AMAZING OCs, go check them out.)

Inking Indigo by @matchaball

An exquisite tattoo/soul mate/flower shop AU. I just…I will never be able to stop talking about Matchaball’s writing. Her prose reads like poetry and in some spots like a song. It has rhythm and grace and leads you slowly and easily through the world she’s creating. It can be a hard feat to find an author who not only writes beautifully but also has the world building, plotting and characterizing skills. Matchaball has all of these and more. Reading her writing is just so lovely and relaxing. I just cannot get enough.

Lady and the Tom Cat by @skaylanphear

I think technically this would be a mating cycle AU? It doesn’t matter because it’s FANTASTIC and I am just so pumped to see where it goes. Written by the fantastic Kay, how could you go wrong?  I will expand more on how much I love Kay’s writing in a bit, but I’ll just say I’m so pumped to see her write some sexier things because I know it will be done RIGHT. Jump on this train, it’s going places.

Pick Up and Chase by @skaylanphear

If you’d like to see Adrien embarrassed and stuttering for once, this is the fic for you. I cannot even begin with the level of cheese that Kay has going on in this fic, but it is just an amazing amount. If you’re lactose intolerant steer clear. This is a purely fun, purely hilarious fic and its just so much fun. If you need to smile, this is the place you need to be.

Porte-Boner by @abadmeanman

This fic is so hilarious it altered my state of mind and caused me to write the most ridiculous and off topic comments on each and every chapter. It got so bad that the author was forced to message me to ask me to stop. Then he followed me on Tumblr just to make sure I would leave him alone. He messages me occasionally to make sure I’m not going to comment on his fic again. Jokes on him. We live in a free country and I CAN DO WHAT—

Okay, here’s what I have to say for real. Anyone can pop open a word doc and start writing a shit post meme fic and throw it up on AO3 and call it a day. But it takes a true writer to do it WELL. Humor does not come easily and written humor is often times one of the hardest forms to nail. Phil nails it (HEH HEH) perfectly. His comedic timing is spot on and the sheer amount of pop culture references are just staggering and I’m sure I’ve missed about half of them. On top of that he stays true to character while exploring edges we’ve not seen (and definitely WILL NOT see) in the show. Okay, now I’m done.  

Satisfaction Brought It Back by @siderealsandman

An extremely delicious, definitely NSFW BDSM/friends with benefits/fake dating AU. This fic is just so much more than it’s AU. It goes so far beyond its BDSM theme and I was just not prepared for it when I dived in. What you might think you’re getting: crazy kinky sex everywhere all the time – What you’re actually getting: deep and meaningful character development, ANGST, FLUFF,  lessons on safe and healthy sexual relationships, lessons on safe and healthy relationships in general, lessons on how NOT to pretend like you’re not in love with your partner. And all of it extremely well written. If you are not an Innocent Child you must go read this. It will save your soul and send it to hell in one fell swoop.

Serendipitous Fate by @skaylanphear

*DEEP BREATH* I am still not and never will be over this fic or Kay’s writing. It just cannot be done. Kay’s understanding of these characters and their world is so insanely in depth its mind boggling. She handles each and every one of them with such love that it takes my breath away. Nothing is done without out a cause and effect and everything is woven into an intricate web. I sometimes get so profoundly sad that this is not cannon because it’s just so authentic and accurate. I know I can’t really say that because we don’t know what will be “cannon” or authentic or accurate, but it just is. If you’re not reading SF or planning on reading it, you’re doing yourself a terrible disservice.

Squares, Triangles, and Other Shapes by @sadrien

DOUBLE. FAKE. DATING. AU. Holy hell, how Sadrien even got through the fic summary without getting vertigo I have no clue. This fic delivers something that I think the fandom required. A fake dating square to walk hand in hand with our love square. It’s still early on, but I can already tell it will be filled with a bunch of hilarious situations and shenanigans. I’m just so excited and you should be too!

Sugar, Sugar by @bullysquadess

Who else but Bully would/could deliver unto us a beautifully written…Sugar Daddy AU? Just the mere fact that she fully has me believing this could really happen between Adrien and Marinette is the achievement of the year. This fic is in the early stages, but has such a promising beginning and will surely be a hilarious ride.

The Ladybug and The Bees by @bullysquadess

Oh man. The infamous TLATB. So, this is the third Bully Fic™ on my list and I could talk about how it’s the flagship sin fic and all that, but I’m not. I want to talk about how much I love Bully’s writing and how great of a writer she is, really, truly. As I said in my little blurb about Porte-Boner, humor is a truly hard thing to write and get across the right way. Bully does this flawlessly, every. single. time. But there’s more than that, when TLATB started to take an unplanned off-road detour to angst-ville, Bully managed to keep her readers right with her. Folks, that is an extremely hard thing to do, to keep your readers with you, no matter what crazy shit you do. To keep them believing and to not jolt them out of the narrative. That’s the main job of the writer, to kidnap their readers and keep the believing all the way through to the last page. Bully, you’re a great writer, I know you’re having a rough and unpleasant time right now, but keep your chin up. You’re great.

The Luckiest Man In Paris by Ms. Sophie

The premise of this fic is just so undeniably adorable and everything that follows is undeniably adorable as well. I just love how Sophie writes the dynamic between Chat and Mari. It’s so true to their characters and so adorable. HAVE I SAID ADORABLE ENOUGH. I’ve actually probably said it too many times for the amount of sin happening (and will be happening) in this fic. Sophie captures my attention with lovely turns of phrase she uses and wonderful character interactions. It’s such a great read and you should GO READ IT NOW. Also because Sophie is a sweet little dumpling.

You Don’t Know Me by @ferisae

Okay. So, um…it’s like really hard to get me to actually cry, like blubbering tears and unattractive hiccups crying, during movies/shows/books. I can count on one hand the amount of times a book or movie or show has made me cry. You Don’t Know Me has DESTROYED me.  TWICE. While reading it. If you’re ready for a soul-crushing amount of angst Ferisae is your dealer. She delves deep, deep into Adrien’s character and pulls out everything that is sad and lonely and uses it to crush you in the best way. Even if you’re someone who actively avoids angsty fics (like me) you absolutely must give yourself the chance to read this. Just make sure you have a nice warm cup of something hot and a blanky and maybe some baby animal photos open in the next tab over.  

Okay this got super long, whoops. Sorry not sorry because all these author’s deserve all the love.

Thank you to each and every one of these lovely people and every fic author out there. Y’all are truly amazing for the amount of time, work and love you put into your writing. It shows a true passion and even if writing isn’t what you want to do with your life full time, the passion you have can easily be transferred to any aspect of your life. Passion is fuel to live and live happily. Thank you for sharing your passion with us.

sir-celestyn  asked:

Hello! I loved your post about polycentric polytheism - I had never heard of it before. You said you cut some info out about demiurge and I don't think I fully understood it. Do you plan to/could you make a detailed post explaining it More? In general some of the concepts in the post were hard for me to understand, but that the most of all. Thank you!

Sure thing! In the long post I gave this basic description of the demiurge::

The deity at the center of the henad we worship functions as what the Neoplatonists call a “demiurge”. The demiurge is what the One of Neoplatonism throws out and all existence is sent out and organized by the demiurge. Essentially, the center of our practice functions as a demiurge organizing our practice around it and through it.

For those just coming into this discussion, a ‘henad’ means a unity of gods. A unity of gods in its absolute most basic definition can be thought of as a group of gods. More accurately, a henad conveys the idea that these gods are in some way interconnected on a fundamental level. They remain individuals but they are still unified on their fundamental level. This unity is what allows for things like syncretization and mythic role-swapping and overlap to happen, basically. 

So for us, henads are the groups of gods we interact with. Some of them will be entire pantheons whereas others will  be smaller groups. Some will be solidly of one pantheon; others will be mixed. Due to the concept of gods being perfect (here in the mathematical sense of containing all items in a set), they are able to unify across pantheons. (However, again, they still remain individuals with cultural significance and this is in no way an excuse to go “this closed culture god is unified with Zeus so Imma worship this closed culture god”. It merely explains how we can have so many gods with similar roles and powers as well as how syncretization or squishing of gods is possible.) In these henads, we naturally end up having something at the center that the rest of the henad gather around and extend from. This center is the demiurge. This is the deity who acts as a director for our practice and organizes the way our practice is laid out.

I think the best way for me to really illustrate the concept of the demiurge is to demonstrate through my own practice so that’s what I’m going to do. (One reason I liked this essay personally is it gave me words for the way I ended up structuring my religious practice. So my practice makes for a good example.)

My practice is focused entirely around the trollish jotnar of Norse mythology. For me, this makes up my henad of gods. To make a list of the ones I really have some working with we would have Angrboda, Surtr, Jormungandr, Skoll, Hati, Fenrir, Hel, Nidhoggr, Hraesvelgr, Eggsther, and Ymir. Typically, my practice has been centered all around Angrboda. She would be the demiurge. Around her the rest go to the periphery of my practice to some degree. Some are naturally closer than others but they’re not the center like she is. As the demiurge, she naturally directs how my practice is organized and focused. I have noted to myself how my practice, even when I’m learning about one of her kids, I almost always end up coming back to also learning about her in the process. She is the center and acts like both northern star and black hole, guiding me forward but simultaneously drawing me back to her. 

However, this topic is /poly/centric polytheism. This means that the center and thus the demiurge can change and for me for now it has. Angrboda has left me for a while and put Surtr in charge. So now, he is the demiurge of my practice and the director of my spiritual shenanigans. 

As demiurge of my practice Angrboda has me focused on monstrosity and nonhumanity but in my service to her I also have a strong humanitarian task of helping the ‘monstrous’ and othered. That’s one way she directs my practice. However under Surtr as demiurge, while in the ways Angrboda is nonhuman he’s far more human, he has me focused much more on throwing off chains humanity has placed on me and wants me to focus on becoming more monstrous and comfortable in my otherness. They shape my life and practice in noticeably different ways.

My practice also serves to illustrate how by worshiping and focusing on the one I am also worshiping the rest. I was just remarking to friends last night how by getting to know Surtr I was also learning about Angrboda more. By exploring my relationship with him I was also able to explore my relationship with her and learn more about both at the same time. 

I hope all this helps explain the topics more. :>

The Magical, Misshapen Formula for Anti-Zumai

***Please note: this is not an argument or rebuttal. This is just a philosophy and observation (and also taking the piss)



Being in a fandom where the most of the fans prefer the ostentatious crack ship Zutara more than canon, I can’t grasp why I seem to find anti-Maiko within the realms of the Maiko tag, quite recently actually, though promptly removed.

Do you not have enough? Why must you steal the little joy we have? We are a small people, lacking in numbers despite what is canon. This negativity is not what I want when I ask for Maiko as a tag.

To be clear, I don’t dislike Zutara. My feelings for the ship are pretty neutral (I mean maybe once upon a time the cave scene seemed fantastic and drove my heart to palpitations) but I’ve wandered from those waters. I actually like all, or at least most of, the ships.

This random hate is unnecessary, unwanted, and ridiculous. At some point you must realize we are talking about fictional characters. But let’s delve into the slightly overhyped business of Shipping.

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Yuuri and Grief/Loss as it Applies to his Career (and Victor)

Following my Victor and Grief post, here is a look at Yuuri’s perspective to his feelings of grief and loss surrounding his own career. Unlike Victor whose perspective we didn’t get until later episodes, Yuuri’s has been laid bare for us since episode 1. We’ve gotten the chance to hear his thoughts in specific moments and watch his evolution throughout the course of the show.

So one thing that I think will come as a surprise to absolutely no one is that he has been grieving over the loss of his career since episode 1. And added to that is that he accepted this loss by the time episode 12’s hotel scene rolled around.

Let’s take a moment to quickly review what kinds of loss Yuuri has been working through.

In the interest of not repeating a huge chunk of text that I already described at the beginning of my Victor post, I’m going to point you to it here and only describe the portions here that apply to Yuuri.

The type of loss that Yuuri works through during the show would fall under the category of Anticipatory Loss. In short, this is the anticipation of loss, regardless of whether the loss will actually come to pass or not. Victor says “I’ll get you gold at the GPF” but never actually states during the entire show that his coaching and time with Yuuri will end there. That interpretation of his words is entirely on Yuuri’s end. Yuuri then spends a lot of time convincing himself that he is going to lose Victor when there’s been no confirmation on whether that will actually happen or not.

The impact of Yuuri’s loss very clearly falls under the category of Compound Loss. It’s easy enough to see that through losing his career he feels like he is going to lose a lot more (the future tense and focus on how he feels about it are important as his loss is about something he feels he is going to lose in the future). He would be losing his role, identity, direction, and more. But most importantly he’d be losing his relationships, both with his friends/fellow skaters (Phichit for example) as well as with Victor, both before he knew him (he’d lose his chance to ever get to know him in any capacity) and after (he’d lose the relationship he had grown with him as a person and not just a skater).

As you can see, none of that really comes as a surprise because Yuuri himself has basically told us as much. So let’s get into the 5 stages and see where they play in.

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Star of Discovery Tarot Spread

The Star of Discovery is a spread from the book Tarot Shadow Work by Christine Jette, and as you can imagine, it’s geared toward discovering your shadows. It is designed to be used with the twenty-two major arcana cards. The significance of the card positions are as follows:

Position One - Denial: What negatives or positives do people point out to me that I have trouble accepting? This is where you will discover denial. What does position one represent in your life? What problems or conditions would you rather avoid? What are you afraid of discovering? What might be your “blind spot” that blocks growth? What talents and abilities are you hesitant to develop? What are you holding back? What compliments make you uncomfortable? 

Position Two- Anxiety: When do I get nervous, anxious, touchy, or sensitive with others? Here you will discover your anxiety. What loss do you fear? 

Position Three - Inferiority: When do I most lack confidence? Here you will discover your inferiority. What does position three represent in your life? What event or situation from the past may have caused this shadow to grow? Did your parents play a role in this feeling?

Position Four - Anger: What qualities do I most dislike or have the most difficulty dealing with? The answer is the key to discovering your anger and/or rage. Anger is fear in disguise and you may find yourself most uncomfortable with position four. 

Position Five - Secrecy: What do I rarely talk about with others? What are my secrets and my family secrets? What do you fear people will find out about you? What is your deepest, darkest secret? Would your life change? What from your past are you trying to hide, if anything? What secret does your shadow reveal?

Position Six - Self-Loathing: When I am most dissatisfied with myself? What do I need to discover? Did anything in childhood teach you to dislike parts of yourself? How often do you think/speak of yourself in a negative manner? 

In the book, there is an appendix that lists the concepts associated with the shadow aspect of each card, but referring to the card’s reversed meaning offers very similar elaborations. 

Keep reading if you’d like to see how my spread went with the Animalis Os Fortuna deck, which did a wonderful job by the way.  

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gayflorona  asked:

Hey, so I read your post about how you identify, and I wanted to say that I totally support you in that and I'm glad you've found a label that makes you feel good! I don't understand though --- I and a number of other people feel the way about the word "queer" that you do about those other labels. And lesbian is the word I've chosen that makes me feel good. So... why should we use your label as an umbrella term even though it makes ppl uncomfortable, instead of something more inclusive??

Ok, so, basically the thing for me about it is…

When someone tells me that I can use ‘queer’ as a personal identity label, but not apply it to anyone else…

It feels like they are saying ‘it’s fine for YOU to be like that, but don’t try to go claiming solidarity, or a community, with anyone else, or act like anyone else shares your experiences!’

Which feels profoundly isolating, tbh.

Also, yeah, I don’t super love the word ‘gay’, BUT I wouldn’t presume to tell anyone they can’t use ‘gay’ as a term, just because I have a history of it being used as a slur against me.

Because if that is someone’s personal identity or they feel comfortable using it, then that is their right to use it, for themselves and for others that fit the generally accepted definition of the word.

And I would certainly never say you were unable to use lesbian as a personal identity. Go for it! I’m glad that it works for you. 

But literally EVERY WORD OR TERM we’ve got has been used as a slur, in a mocking context, to hurt.

It isn’t just ‘using a slur’ like ‘bitch’ when you could just say women, because none of the words we have are particularly neutral.

Despite ‘gay’ being used far, far, far more often as an insult & a slur in modern contexts, in both my own experience & that of research I have read on the subject….

I have never encountered a single person who has EVER objected to it’s use as a catch-all term on that grounds.

Not one.

If you genuinely believe you should object to the use of the word queer, it’s  doing the same for the word ‘gay’, but I’ve never seen that happen, not once.

So that doesn’t really feel like a useful argument, or at least, it feels very unevenly applied as one.

Which, again, is fine, because I’m not fond of policing the terms, I’m just pointing out that it feels hypocritical to tell people that one word is more harmful, so they aren’t allowed to use it, when both carry both good & bad with them.

HOWEVER…

What I would say, however, is that ‘gay’ & ‘lesbian’ used as a catch-all can erase all other women & people in the community who don’t fit that identity marker, and for that reason another more encompassing word perhaps, in general descriptions of ourselves as a group & how we are treated in media might be a better fit.

Because, yes, ‘gay’ can be used as a general community term, but the more common parlance that’s understood is ‘same-gender attraction only’, so it’s less useful as an encompassing term, anyway.

Like…

I’m looking at the media coverage of the “Xena’s sexuality is going to be explored canonically in the reboot’ thing going around, and I’m seeing a lot of ‘She’LL BE GAY’ or “SHE’ll BE A LESBIAN’ headlines…

When that wasn’t what was stated, that wasn’t confirmed, and Xena, to my knowledge, had relationships with men in the past during the original series, so calling her bi or pan or etc would probably be more accurate…

But people are seeing ‘not-straight’, & defaulting immediately to ‘welp, must be gay then’, which is limiting & smacks, to my mind, of bi-erasure type stuff.

Whereas, if those headlines said ‘queer’…

That, to me, would acknowledge that Xena will be liking ladies, but that no one has specifically mentioned an identity label for her, and her attraction to other gender could fall anywhere on a spectrum.

Because that’s what ‘queer’ means, to me.

It’s a personal identity label, sure, like ‘gay’, like ‘lesbian’, etc.

But it’s not strictly a substitute for those. It’s a larger category, like… Like taxonomic labels.

It doesn’t erase the individual identity a person has, it just acknowledges that they exist in a big complex messy overlapping group with a lot of other people.

 Me referring to you as part of a group & saying ‘queer’, to me doesn’t negate the fact that you’re a lesbian, any more than pointing at a bowl of bananas, pears, apples, oranges, etc, and saying ‘those are fruit’, stops the orange from being an orange. (It’s just acknowledging that… Oranges are not the only fruit, badum tshhh. I’m sorry. That was a terrible, terrible joke. I digress.)

It’s an umbrella term for all of the non-heteronormative identities, while also acknowledging the complicated nature of some of those identities.

To me, it seeks to encompass all of them in a singular word, to point out the fact that not everyone’s identity is set or defined. Some are, some aren’t, some are a work in progress.

To acknowledge that the gender binary is a construct, a strict binary of male/female, straight/gay, doesn’t work for everyone….

Like myself. What word easily states ‘attracted to women, for sure, some nonbinary people who lean more femme in their gender expression, definitely not men, haven’t worked out exactly where I’m at in terms of sexual attraction all the time, also autistic so figuring out how I feel about people is weird anyhow?

There isn’t one, and that paragraph makes for a darned mouthful & TMI in most conversations, anyway.

So… ‘Queer’.

Because coming up with a way to list every possible word for every possible combination thereof in terms of identity, outside than what is seem as ‘the default’ is a functionally impossible task.

Sure, you could list acronyms like WLW, or LPQB, or LGBT.

But often those they leave a lot of people out, like bi women currently loving men, for WLW, or for the other ones, ace spectrum people and others, and they are all awkward in verbal conversation, not super accessible to the uninformed, etc.

In terms of LGBT, it’s often used in circumstances that also conflate being trans as if it’s a sexuality, or to give the false impression that trans issues are being prioritized in a conversation they are absent from.

‘Sapphic’ just sounds a bit twee, in all honesty, and again, it codes very overly-specific to just women who exclusively like other women.

So that’s my case for queer, in terms of using it as a catch-all, because it’s both simpler, more complex, and broader than any of the other terms.

Queer is also more than just an identity category of categories, too, it has other context that make it appeal to me.

It specifically has the academic context of ‘queer studies’ & ‘queer theory’, and the academic discourses that, while wildly imperfect, have done a lot of good at studying our community, understanding it, legitimating us, etc.

It isn’t a term that’s just a slur, it’s a term used by the people looking at us, or looking at themselves, in understand, to gain context & knowledge & circumstance.

It has that weight behind it, for me. That lens.

I’m a sociology major in my undergrad, and if I could do any kind of research, it would be ideally from the lens of queer theory.

That’s also what I think of when I use the term. Of my gender studies classes & queer theory classes I’ve taken, the halls of universities carrying the term.

That’s why it’s used in media commentary, in aca-fandom, in terms like ‘queerbaiting’.

We aren’t pulling from it’s older history as a slur, we are pulling from its newer usage as a tool of critical commentary, to utilize the term as a line-of-best-fit catch-all for the issues that affect people who don’t fit the neat box of cis/straight.

And finally…

Yeah, queer has a history as a slur, and one in modern academic contexts, but it also has a history since at least the 1980s as a term used in by activists in our community to fight back against the idea that our identities are shameful.

It was specifically used, to my understanding, BECAUSE of its power as a slur, not merely in spite of it.

The reclamation of it has a lot of power to me.

It feels, to me, like saying ‘The world is saying that who we are is shameful, is disgusting, is crazy & terrible & wrong, & they’ve said it loud enough and long enough that we don’t have any words left but the ones that they’ve used to hurt us with.

But we’re tired of believing them.

This? This thing that they said we are?

Is beautiful. Is love, is pleasure, is happiness, is pride. We refuse to let it be ugly, because it never was.

Language evolves it shifts and grows and SO MANY people have grasped onto that word with joy & pride, and used it as a banner, a rallying cry, have formed academic language that calls our messy complexities out of the ether & into legitimated discourses of existence, of struggle, of love, of being.

We’re allowed to carry that word in more than just our aching hearts, let it echo in broad public halls, not just in the quiet spaces between the words we never let ourselves speak.

We can speak it.

We CAN use that word as if there is a community behind it, as if there is anyone else like us in the world for us to find peace or love or belonging with, because there is, we know there is.

We’re trying to move past the kind of thinking that told us different, thanks, and we have no reason to go back to it, we have no reason to grant that any power over who we are, who we choose to be. 

As the rallying cry states…

We’re queer, we’re here. Get used to it.

And The World Will Turn To SAND EVERYWHERE - Part 1

The night was cool and calm – silent, too. It made sense, of course, seeing as this resort was tucked off in a remote location in order to afford its patrons the ultimate privacy with which to relax. That was one of the reasons she and other leaders had chosen it for their vacation destination, after all, though the stillness was admittedly a bit unnerving after the oppressive noise of the city.

Candela sighed and adjusted her shawl, a small breeze ruffling her hair and bringing the smell of the sea with it. She was walking back to the main lobby after going for a stroll on the beach, her sandals held in one hand as the other attempted to keep the silk cloth from slipping off her shoulders. She wasn’t cold, of course, but the aesthetic was what was important. If she was lucky, maybe she’d be able to lure in some company for the evening.

Blanche had holed themselves up in their room the moment they’d arrived and Spark was off gallivanting with both his assistant and her own. She didn’t know what exactly a ‘Boys Night Out’ entailed with those three, and honestly, she’d probably sleep better if she never did.

She sighed wearily, the dull smack of her bare feet against the smooth concrete adding a soothing rhythm to her walk. A glimmer through the small line of tree that bordered her path caught her eye and she turned, peering through the leaves and trunks to try to make sense of it. A figure stood leaning against the railing for another path at overlooked the bay, completely in the shadows save the way the moonlight and distant resort lights bounced off the loose silver strands that fell down their back. Her lips curled into a pleased smile, straightening her spine and shifting her stride into a strut as she made her way toward the person.

“Fancy seeing you here, darling,” she cooed, plastering herself against their back.

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anonymous asked:

Hi!! I'm sorry to ask something like this, but aim really stuck. I'm a recovering binge eater. And I just started my fitness journey. But I've plateau'd already! At 333lbs! I exercise at least 4 times a week for an hour to an hour and half. And I eat under 1500 calories. I don't drink as much water as I should, but I still drink roughly 60oz a day (sometimes more). Do you have any tips from when you started your journey?

Hi, Anon! Sorry for the wait but your question was really important to me so I didn’t want to rush it during the whirlwind of getting ready for my road trip. 

1. Weight loss is often not linear. Sometimes all that’s needed is a little extra time for a “plateau” to clear up. I put plateau in quotations in this context because there is some research (though not strictly proven) that weight loss happens in “wooshes” instead of in a linear downward trajectory. The theory suggests that emptied fat cells might fill up with water before that water is then also expelled. While there needs to be more research to prove or solidify this possible phenomenon, there is a lot of anecdotal (which of course doesn’t supersede research methodology) evidence from people observing these stalls before they see a large drop on their home scales. If you are 100% positive your energy balance is correct, you may just want to wait it out for a week or two while continuing your regime.

2. Treat your binge-eating as a separate entity from your fitness journey. Both can definitely be worked on at the same time, but resisting the compulsions and engaging in proper self-care is its own victory. Even if your weight gets a bit stuck at times, relearning hunger-satiety cues, portion sizes, and identifying/avoiding binge-triggers are going to be far more paramount to recovering and maintaining a healthier relationship with food than the exact effect it’s having on the scale at the moment. I recently answered this anon, which may also be helpful for you as well.

Not all binge-eaters develop a severe weight problem, but many certainly do. Not all binge-eaters overeat outside of their binge episodes. That’s why I think binge-eating should be looked at separately from any resulting weight issue. I think a lot of people attempting recovery really relate with doing amazing with their compulsions for a few weeks before one really hits them upside the head. Intrinsically, it’s a bit different than many of the other over-feeding problems people might experience.

3. I’m saying this as a generality, not an assumption. I don’t know how far you are into recovery and I only have what you’ve written to base my thoughts on. At the height of my binge-eating, I could easily get through 5K calories in an episode and in the absolute worst of times could have split it over a longer period to do even more in total. Before I started to recover I could have 2-3 episodes of this size a week. During my “Hey! I’m getting a lot better!” phase I could still have an episode once or twice a month. I certainly can’t comment on the size or frequencies of your binge-eating, but If you’ve still been struggling with the compulsions even occasionally it can really knock out the amazing work you do throughout the week enough to cause a stall. A rogue binge can really gum up a weight loss effort when everything else was incredibly fine-tuned and it really sucks.

4. Consistency is more important than the size of your deficit. I don’t know your height or gender, so again I’m going on what is written and I only know your weight. Taking in less energy than you give out will result in weight loss, but–I’m a 5’3” and 145 lbs woman and even I will lose 1 lb a week on 1500 if I get my minimal level of activity in. What I’m saying is that is it is fucking murder to get used to eating smaller portions, especially if you have the mucked up hunger-satiety cues that typically come with binge-eating compulsions and if your brain is still jacked up on refined carbohydrates, sugar, and excessive salt.

If you’re not feeling completely satisfied on 1500 and as a result are having binge-eating episodes, excessive cheat days, or even just normal snack attacks it might be worth going for a less aggressive deficit to see if that makes you more consistent throughout the week. Sure. I could do an aggressive deficit–for maybe a day or two. Then Wednesday rolls around and I’m getting a three piece, two sides, and a box of coconut macaroons.

5. Again, this is only a general comment as I can only go based on what is written, but to build on #4 I do need to stress that you are making certain your intake is accurate. No need to be obsessive or overbearing about it, but food can be deceiving; especially the food we didn’t make ourselves. Especially, especially the food that comes in packages. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve gotten a sandwich and only found out afterward that the serving size was half the sandwich or ordered a dish only to discover it was a lot richer than the description sounded. Also–how many times I’ve plain forgotten what I’ve had to eat today. Everyone has respectable boundaries about how they like to keep themselves accountable but it’s very easy for things to slip through the cracks. 

Exercise is definitely amazing for our health, a helpful weight loss aid, and helps us make a little more of our happy brain juices. Drinking more water will also always make us healthier, but the real leg work in a weight loss effort comes from our nutrition.

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🔎🔎🔎 ***Want a better and deeper insight into compatibility? Do a synastry chart. A synastry chart takes you and your partners’ chart and overlays them together. Your planets will aspect theirs and your planets will fall into their houses & vice versa. These aspects and placements will tell you how you will interact, get along, and how you work together. You can calculate your synastry chart on astro-charts.com or astro.com or any astro site you trust. How do you read a synastry chart? It would be very hard for me to explain it step by step as I don’t do a lot of synastry. There are many resources online that tell you exactly what aspects and placements mean what. Have your venus sextile your partner’s mars? Type in “venus sextile mars synastry” into google and stuff will come up. You can still ask me about certain things in synastry, especially if you don’t understand something or want a second opinion.

-My crush smiled at me in the hall last year but hasn’t talked to me since. Do they love me or not? What are they thinking? 🤔❤️🔎
I don’t know. I do not know you or your crush personally. It’s important to remember that most crushes are just that, crushes. It’s best not to spend too much time worrying about them. For most people, crushes don’t last more than a few months, if that. As an air dom with a Scorpio venus, I hardly ever have crushes and so when I see a lot of people obsessing over them, I usually will give you an honest answer. That being said, it’s totally ok to ask for advice. I’m never going to chew you out or call you stupid for liking someone. It’s natural. It’s a part of life. I’m just saying, crushes are not going to make or break you. They’re not the end of the world. What will happen will happen. I only say this because I know how you feel and I try to tell you the things I wish someone told me when I was younger. In fact, most of the advice I give is based on what a younger me would need to hear.

-Is it ok to message you for advice? What do people message you about?📨📬
Sure, I get a few private messages about people wanting insights about crushes / situations / placements and I try my best to help.

-Are there any kinds of private messages you don’t like?📭💣
I generally respond to everything

-Do you answer some asks before others? 🔢🔝
Most of the time my inbox isn’t that full (RIP the blogs that have 50+ lol) so I try to answer them all as fast as I can. Usually I answer chronologically (first ask gets answered first). If a question is simpler, I’ll try to get those out of the way. Complex questions take longer because I need to think about them and look up info as needed. Lately, anon compatibility gets answered last. I am more likely to answer non-anon asks a little faster, especially if you’re following me @luxnovalibra (you don’t have to follow @askluxnovalibra). Why? Because I don’t like when anons copy and paste compatibility q’s into 20 astro blogs’ boxes. It’s a bit disheartening because usually it’s just people who don’t care enough to look into astrology at all, and send in their crush-of-the-week’s placements. But don’t worry sending anons is perfectly fine! I totally understand being shy, or even because you don’t your main blog to pop up or because you’re not a full-time astro blog or whatever the reason. I get it, and I send anons sometimes too. And don’t worry if you’ve sent multiple blogs the same ask to get another opinion. Usually we can tell who’s just copy and pasting and who wants to learn. Pro tip for sending asks to other blogs: it helps if you say hi and/or mention something specific you like about their blog not just 'compatibility xyz love ur blog.’ “Thank yous’ and polite feedback are nice too. Remember most of us are just teenagers that don’t get paid and genuinely want to help and learn together. To put it short, most asks get answered in 4 days or less

-Why do you add so many links?📚
I’m an air dominant lol I like to know things. It’s because I want to help and sometimes links are the best way to go. If I don’t know a lot about something off the top of my head, I’ll give you links and references. I get most of them from tumblr and a simple google search. Links aren’t mean to scare you, they’re there for deeper insight. I learn best with specific examples and links provide that. I give multiples because everyone has a different preference for writing style and multiples increases the chance of you understanding something and relating to something. Also, sometimes I’ll add them if the asker doesn’t specify if they want my personal opinion or a more general description.

-What if I ask about something you don’t know about? 🤷🏻‍♀️🕵🏻‍♀️
I will give you my best guess but admit that I don’t know a lot about that subject. I assume you don’t want a random answer and I don’t want to give one. Expect links or I’ll send you to someone who might be able to help

-What if I don’t agree with your opinion or your interpretation? 🙅🏻🙎🏻
That’s fine, I don’t expect you to agree with me all the time, that’s why it’s my opinion/interpretation. I’m still learning everyday. I’m not a professional. I’ll make mistakes. It’s all a part of the process.

//////////// Personal-ish Stuff:

-What are your placements? ☀️🌙💫
Libra sun, Libra moon, Taurus rising, Virgo mercury, Sag mars, Scorpio venus, Cap neptune, Aqua jupiter, Aqua uranus, Aries saturn, Virgo north node, Cap MC, Virgo lilith, Virgo juno

About Me My Chart My Placements

-What are your dominants? 👁
Libra, Virgo, Capricorn, Taurus, Sag, Scorpio, and Aqua. My planets differ based on the calculator but usually I go by Mercury, Venus, Uranus, Pluto, and moon. Air and earth. Cardinal.

-How long have you been studying astrology? ✏️📓
I just found out I made my blog on May 8, 2016, so since about then. I got into it because of the memes and stayed when I realized there was so much more than your sun sign. It’s more of a hobby for me than a full-time study. I mostly learn through tumblr and google. I never want to intimidate or scare anyone away from it. When I first started, I didn’t know all 12 signs let alone their order. Even now, I still have a lot to learn but I think I’ve come a long way 😊

-Do you use desktop or mobile? 🖥📱
I use mobile 99% of the time. That’s why I make a lot of typos lmao usually I answer asks on the iPad and it lags a lot so expect typos and weird wording. Trust me, it hurts my Virgo and air placements way more than it hurts you

-Is this your main blog?
Technically my main is @erinwriting so all likes, follows, replies, asks show up as that blog. The blog I use the most is my astro blog @luxnovalibra . I’m also @falling-for-the-winchesters and my tarot blog @queenofswordstarot

-Can we ask personal questions about you or your experience? 😁
Sure! It’s easier for me to talk about myself if someone asks rather than me coming right out and saying it (my air dom lol). If I don’t feel comfortable answering, I’ll say so, no hard feelings. Or if I can better answer you privately, I will

-Age/Gender/Name/Location 🎂🚺
19, Female, Erin, USA

-Are you in school? 🏫
I go to college for art

-Do you have any hobbies? 💡
Art & photography, reading, writing, astrology, tarot, camping, listening to music

Over the Garden Wall Review (Happy Halloween)

So, what with Halloween at our doorstep, I have taken it upon myself to do something in the spirit of the day of spirits. At first, I was going to do a review or perhaps a top ten episodes of Gravity Falls…but that show is, like, 40 episodes and I didn’t really feel like plunging back into and marathoning the whole shebang. Instead, I decided to take on the much more manageable task of viewing and reviewing Over the Garden Wall, at its less intimidating full running time of about a hundred minutes.

To preface this review, I’m probably going to be focusing largely on the positives of this series as opposed to the flaws, because, quite honestly, this is one of my favorite animated works of all time. It took basically only the first couple minutes of the first episode for me to realize that I was going to love this show. So rather than a fair review, this will probably feel more like me enumerating my many praises of the program. Just fair warning in case you were hoping that, I don’t know, I was going to be that one guy who would share your less-than-enamored feelings toward Wirt, Greg, Beatrice, and their many outlandish encounters.

Oh. Also.

OVER THE GARDEN WALL SPOILERS. OVER THE GARDEN WALL SPOILERS. OVER THE GARDEN WALL SPOILERS.

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anonymous asked:

What are your thoughts and speculations on Rhaegar and Lyanna's story? Do you think the fandom romanticizes it too much? Personally, I think they do, and I'm kind of hoping that it wasn't all love and flowers and more of a tragedy, because those events inadvertently caused a bloody war and thousands of deaths.

Unpopular Opinion:

Oh, I know the fandom romanticizes it. It’s not a question of whether or not they do, but by how much or to what degree? After all, when you simplify the relationship between the two to just great love apparently, you must be romanticizing it just because there are so many other different factors.

For starters, you’re ignoring some really basic things if you think that Rhaegar/Lyanna was basically a love story.

Rhaegar was already looking for a woman to fulfill his “three heads of the dragon” fixation. His wife, Elia Martell, was too sick to have a third child. He had become convinced that his kids would fulfill the prophecy and be the three heads of the dragon. He had two children by Elia, an Aegon and a Rhaenys, but he needed the third: Visenya.

“The dragon has three heads,” she sighed. “Do you know what that means, Jorah?”

“Your Grace? The sigil of House Targaryen is a three-headed dragon, red on black.”
“I know that. But there are no three-headed dragons.”
“The three heads were Aegon and his sisters.”
“Visenya and Rhaenys,” she recalled….

“I remember,” Dany said sadly. “They murdered Rhaegar’s daughter as well, the little princess. Rhaenys, she was named, like Aegon’s sister. There was no Visenya, but he said the dragon has three heads.” Dany, ACoK

We know, we see through Dany’s vision, that Rhaegar actively desired and sought to have a third child- though his wife was no longer capable- to be the Visenya of the three headed dragon trio. 

Visenya is a posthumous character with no flashbacks (unlike say Rhaegar and Lyanna,) so her personality is a little more open ended in just the books. But we do know she was passionate, temperamental, and a warrior. GRRM describes her as Aegon’s “warrior wife”. And we know she wielded a Valyrian steel sword, Dark Sister. Here’s some of what GRRM says:

Aegon’s eldest sister was a warrior more comfortable in ringmail than in silk. She wielded a Valyrian steel sword called Dark Sister. She was described as having a harsh beauty and was reputed to have dabbled in sorcery [source]

Harsh beauty? Perhaps something like this?

Lyanna Stark. The northern girl had a wild beauty, as he recalled.Kevan Lannister, ADWD

Ned, who is our best bet at an accurate description of her though still not sure, describes Lyanna as being

“You never knew Lyanna as I did, Robert,” Ned told him. “You saw her beauty, but not the iron underneath.” 

and

“Ah, Arya. You have a wildness in you, child. ‘The wolf blood,’ my father used to call it. Lyanna had a touch of it, and my brother Brandon more than a touch. It brought them both to an early grave.” Arya heard sadness in his voice; he did not often speak of his father, or of the brother and sister who had died before she was born. “Lyanna might have carried a sword, if my lord father had allowed it. You remind me of her sometimes. You even look like her.”

“Lyanna was beautiful,” Arya said, startled. Everybody said so. It was not a thing that was ever said of Arya.

“She was,” Eddard Stark agreed, “beautiful, and willful, and dead before her time.” 

So we have from a more unbiased source (Kevan) that Lyanna had a wild beauty- which seems rather similar to having a harsh beauty. It’s a nontypical attractiveness. Then we also know that Lyanna liked to carry swords and had “iron underneath” and was “willful”. 

All of this paints a picture of what was almost certainly the closest thing high nobility at the time had to a Visenya Targaryen. 

Rhaegar was definitely drawn to Lyanna because of that. He was searching for someone to give him a Visenya and found another atypically beautiful, high stature woman who was a warrior.

After all, all indications say that Rhaegar met Lyanna because she was the Knight of the Laughing Tree.

“The Knight of the Laughing Tree had vanished. The king was wroth, and even sent his son the dragon prince to seek the man, but all they ever found was his painted shield, hanging abandoned in a tree. it was the dragon prince who won that tourney in the end.” Meera in Bran, ASoS

So Rhaegar comes upon Lyanna, dressed in armor and having just beaten three men in a fight. She was the perfect choice for someone to give him a Visenya. 

Now, I didn’t mention love at all because if there was love on either or both sides, it played no part in how it started. Rhaegar wanted someone to give him a Visenya, that was why he was looking for any woman at all despite being married really. He was looking for someone- and Lyanna was who he found. It was what initially drew him to her. 

So people failing to account for how the desire for a child is what chiefly motivated Rhaegar (even if he did fall in love with her afterwards) makes it a romanticization of the tale. Of course, there are several other factors that people ignore as well in this.  

Lyanna gives no indications that she is a romantic. Ever. What we do get from her in our very few moments where we see her words/actions and not someone’s opinion on her is that she doesn’t believe that love is some panacea. 

“Robert will never keep to one bed,” Lyanna had told him at Winterfell, on the night long ago when their father had promised her hand to the young Lord of Storm’s End. “I hear he has gotten a child on some girl in the Vale.” Ned had held the babe in his arms; he could scarcely deny her, nor would he lie to his sister, but he had assured her that what Robert did before their betrothal was of no matter, that he was a good man and true who would love her with all his heart. Lyanna had only smiled. “Love is sweet, dearest Ned, but it cannot change a man’s nature.” 

What’s interesting about this beyond the obvious (that she’s practical about love’s impact on people and not romanticizing it) is that she is talking about how her fiancee won’t stay faithful is highly dismissive, negative terms…

which begs the wuestion of why she would then go runaway with a married man. It seems to be something that she doesn’t take lightly (even though as Ned points out, she and Robert hadn’t been betrothed yet.)

So why would she?

Well, there are many factors here that need to be remembered. 

  1. She is not keen on marrying Robert. We know she was sure he would never be faithful to her and was not overly positive on him in a general sense though she was likely not as hard on him and hateful as some fans believe. But overall, she doesn’t want to marry him.
  2. Rhaegar is the heir to the Iron Throne. He is in a position of power over her, and over everyone really, at this time. Lyanna’s considered willfull, so I doubt it’d be something of an order that she was hasty to obey because he was her prince. But if he were to say something like “If you come with me, I’ll make sure you never have to marry Robert or you can do x, y, z”, maybe she would. Lyanna probably felt stifled with her betrothal and her father’s rules (like what Ned implies when he says “Lyanna might have carried a sword, if my lord father had allowed it”.) But even not, the authority that Rhaegar has over Lyanna, chiefly the differences in their power (man vs. woman in patriarchal society, prince/royal family vs. lady, adult vs. child) all easily could/would have influenced her.
  3. Which brings me to something often forgotten: Lyanna was a child. Rhaegar was already 23, well into adulthood, when he approached the only 15 year old Lyanna. That’s why Ned describes Lyanna as a “child-woman” when she dies a year later. At the time of the kidnapping/running away/whatever, Lyanna was a child. I can’t stress this enough because people act like she was mature enough or in control enough to make decisions. Lyanna was a girl who just by nature of being a Stark and living in Winterfell (she wasn’t fostered) means that she was considerably sheltered and innocent. So the fact that she was so young definitely played a role in everything. Children are inclined to listen to their elders, even ones considered willful (think of how Arya’s first instinct was to follow the Lannister men when they tried to take her and only Syrio stopped her.) While the “willful” ones might make impulsive decisions (like the “wolf’s blood” characters,) they don’t just throw off authority all the time. 
There is so much we don’t know. Lyanna and Rhaegar are primarily posthumous and unseen characters. You can’t really trust people perceptions of them. Like of course Kevan would think Lyanna was less attractive than Cersei while Ned and Robert find her to be super beautiful. And of course Robert would paint Rhaegar as an evil rapist… while of course Jon Connington would praise him. And of course Dany’s opinion means less than nothing since she was neither alive at the time of Rhaegar’s life not unbiased. Plus, very few people, if any, would tell her the truth anyway- she didn’t even know that her father was called the Mad King for a long time. Point is that everyone’s biased and no one has the full story really, unless Lyanna told Ned everything as she was dying and likely giving birth (clearly preoccupied,) which is highly unlikely. And even then, except with character’s in POV, we don’t actually know the truth. Take Ned Stark (who is apparently a traitor to Robert according to the smallfolk and some nobility,) Tyrion Lannister (who supposedly was pure evil and corrupted/killed Joffrey,) Daenerys Targaryen (supposedly the next Mad King, evil killer or whatever,) ect. A lot of characters have reputations that aren’t deserved or exaggerated. You can’t trust everything or anything. Ned has interesting views on Rhaegar. People seem to think they’re positive for some reason, but they appear inconclusive. Here’s all of them:

This was the boy he had grown up with, he thought; this was the Robert Baratheon he’d known and loved. If he could prove that the Lannisters were behind the attack on Bran, prove that they had murdered Jon Arryn, this man would listen. Then Cersei would fall, and the Kingslayer with her, and if Lord Tywin dared to rouse the west, Robert would smash him as he had smashed Rhaegar Targaryen on the Trident. He could see it all so clearly. 

Here we have Ned glorifying Rhaegar’s death. When he’s thinking of the good, positive Robert, the “boy he had grown up with”, he’s fantasizing about Robert “smashing” the Lannisters (who he hates) the way he “smashed” Rhaegar. 

He’s not lamenting an innocent soul lost to war or unjustly murdered- though he thinks that many times of Rhaegar’s kids, not Rhaegar himself- he’s talking about Robert killing Rhaegar as something good. 

For the first time in years, he found himself remembering Rhaegar Targaryen. He wondered if Rhaegar had frequented brothels; somehow he thought not. 

This tells us little to nothing. Rhaegar not frequenting brothels could be something good and indicating Lyanna wasn’t taken forcefully… or it could be pointing out that Rhaegar was not the type to like whores. Lyanna was not a whore, and it’s basically saying that Ned assumes (because he’s not sure) that Rhaegar didn’t like brothels (not women, but lower class women you pay for.)

And the only other time that he thinks of Rhaegar really (he mostly focuses on the battles of Rhaegar’s children) is as he’s dying.

Yet when the jousting began, the day belonged to Rhaegar Targaryen. The crown prince wore the armor he would die in: gleaming black plate with the three-headed dragon of his House wrought in rubies on the breast. A plume of scarlet silk streamed behind him when he rode, and it seemed no lance could touch him. Brandon fell to him, and Bronze Yohn Royce, and even the splendid Ser Arthur Dayne, the Sword of the Morning.

Robert had been jesting with Jon and old Lord Hunter as the prince circled the field after unhorsing Ser Barristan in the final tilt to claim the champion’s crown. Ned remembered the moment when all the smiles died, when Prince Rhaegar Targaryen urged his horse past his own wife, the Dornish princess Elia Martell, to lay the queen of beauty’s laurel in Lyanna’s lap. He could see it still: a crown of winter roses, blue as frost.

Ned Stark reached out his hand to grasp the flowery crown, but beneath the pale blue petals the thorns lay hidden. He felt them clawing at his skin, sharp and cruel, saw the slow trickle of blood run down his fingers, and woke, trembling, in the dark.

Promise me, Ned, his sister had whispered from her bed of blood. She had loved the scent of winter roses.

I almost didn’t include this since it tells us nothing really, but I didn’t want to fail to share something. We see here that Ned thinks highly of Rhaegar’s fighting skills, but that means nothing in terms of his actual opinion on Rhaegar. But overall we get nothing on Rhaegar from Ned here, and we just learn that Ned is disturbed by the events- which makes sense- and that “all the smiles died” when Rhaegar gave Lyanna the crown. He describes the crown that Rhaegar gives Lyanna in his hallucinatory state as a “flowery crown, but beneath the pale blue petals the lorns lay hidden” and then goes on to call them “sharp and cruel.”

Metaphorically, this could be Ned actually describing Rhaegar (or what Rhaegar offered Lyanna) as appearing benign and “flowery” and giving a gift, but actually being “sharp”, “cruel”, “thorny”, “clawing at” the skin, and causing him/Lyanna to bleed.

I don’t want to assume that’s the right interpretation, however, since it could just be the fact that in the end, Rhaegar did cost Lyanna her life. So of course all he offered her led to blood. So it could have less to do with Rhaegar and more to do with the end result.

However, it’s clearly not a positive thing.

Ned seems ambivalent. He definitely doesn’t view Rhaegar’s death as a bad, undeserved thing (see the first quote about Ned’s feelings) but he also doesn’t hate Rhaegar like Robert, though his focus in his thoughts is that Robert’s hatred is extreme and too long lasting, not undeserved and wrong. In fact, he doesn’t think of Rhaegar at all really. When Robert talks about Rhaegar, Ned doesn’t think much of anything. 

That could easily be that Ned doesn’t want to think of the person that is connected to the death of his sister who he loved so much and is pained when he thinks of her. Everything about Rhaegar is connected to bad memories for Ned really.

The point is that people seem to assume that Ned not hating on Rhaegar overtly in his thoughts equates to him thinking positively of him, which is not the same thing. He could (and likely was) be repressing all the horrors of that. He’s clearly haunted by Lyanna. Also, more importantly, I think people highly overestimate what Ned knows. Until the ToJ, he definitely believed Lyanna was an unwilling captive. Afterwards, well, who knows what was said. Having someone’s kid does not mean that Lyanna wasn’t kidnapped, was willing, or wasn’t seduced/coerced in some way. Ned probably has mixed feelings on everything to be honest.

Regardless of all that, Ned thinks of Lyanna as a child when she died. So he certainly did not think highly of Rhaegar for taking her, it makes no matter if she came with him or not.

Oh, and people should stop making assumptions here:

Under Harren’s roof he ate and drank with the wolves, and many of their sworn swords besides, barrowdown men and moose and bears and mermen. The dragon prince sang a song so sad it made the wolf maid sniffle, but when her pup brother teased her for crying she poured wine over his head.” Bran, ASoS

It’s a “sad song” that Rhaegar apparently sung to everyone, not specifically Lyanna, and was likely not even a love song. It was something sad that’s all we know. Arya cried all the freaking time in books 1-3 (she’s lost some of it now though she still thinks of crying and cries occasionally.) No one made assumptions about that. And one of the arguably least romantic and idealistic female characters also cried over a song:

The whole war band was singing as they rode.

In stone halls they burn their great fires, in stone halls they forge their sharp spears. Whilst I walk alone in the mountains, with no true companion but tears.
They hunt me with dogs in the daylight, they hunt me with torches by night.
For these men who are small can never stand tall, whilst giants still walk in the light. Oooooooh, I am the LAST of the giants, so learn well the words of my song.

For when I am gone the singing will fade, and the silence shall last long and long.

There were tears on Ygritte’s cheeks when the song ended.
“Why are you weeping?” Jon asked. “It was only a song.”  Jon, ASoS

I don’t get why people make huge assumptions about that. If it were stated to be a love song, then maybe I’d get it. But a sad song makes a young child/girl sniffle is hardly indicative of anything to me. 

In fact, Lyanna isn’t even the only person to cry over his music.

Seventeen and new to knighthood, Rhaegar Targaryen had worn black plate over golden ringmail when he cantered onto the lists. Long streamers of red and gold and orange silk had floated behind his helm, like flames. Two of her uncles fell before his lance, along with a dozen of her father’s finest jousters, the flower of the west. By night the prince played his silver harp and made her weep. Cersei, AFFC

Cersei “weeps” (more than a “sniffle”) over Rhaegar’s music. Barristan also implies that Rhaegar was just a brilliant harpist who made most people cry.

"When you heard him play his high harp with the silver strings and sing of twilights and tears and the death of kings, you could not but feel that he was singing of himself and those he loved.”

“What of the Usurper? Did he play sad songs as well?” Dany, ASoS

He was by all accounts a beautiful musician who seemed to only play sad songs (ones that were having to do with “twilights and tears and the deaths of kings” but not necessarily love,) so obviously people cried over it.

Jon Connington also outright stated every woman cried.

At the welcoming feast, the prince had taken up his silver-stringed harp and played for them. A song of love and doom, Jon Connington recalled, and every woman in the hall was weeping when he put down the harp. ADWD

Lyanna “sniffling” (interesting considering weeping is the primarily used term for Cersei and “every woman in the hall” but whatever) over a song of his tells us nothing except that Lyanna was likely emotional. That seemed obvious considering we know she had “the wolf’s blood” which describes people who are temperamental. 

So the fandom 100% romanticizes the story. It wasn’t a good, loving story in the slightest. If there were love, which there might have been, it was not the cause or impetus for this. Rhaegar definitely used Lyanna. That’s not debatable. He wanted a child from her, he pursued her for it. If he came to love her and admire her (which we don’t know,) then he’s still an adult (of considerable more authority) using a child against the wishes of her family (her father/parents.)

People can do things, can go through the motions, but not have any control. After all, Sansa was 13 (only 2 years younger) and forced to go through with a wedding because of the crown. We know she didn’t want it, many people probably assumed the same (since Tyrion isn’t desirable,) but she swore her life and bound herself to Tyrion in front of people. She legally married him. She went through all the motions herself after attempting to run once in private. 

“You can’t make me.”

“Of course we can. You may come along quietly and say your vows as befits a lady, or you may struggle and scream and make a spectacle for the stableboys to titter over, but you will end up wedded and bedded all the same.” … 

The ceremony passed as in a dream. Sansa did all that was required of her. Sansa, ASoS

Now, who would say she really had a choice though? Differences in power matter, just because someone doesn’t drag you and hold a gun to your head to do something doesn’t mean you’re actually willing. And especially when children are dealing with adults.

Even if Lyanna thought she was making her own choices, it wasn’t an informed choice of someone in equal power. If Lyanna wanted to go with Rhaegar, she still wasn’t acting from a vantage point of someone with control, full knowledge, equal power (as a child vs. the heir of her kingdom who’s adult,) which is not something that should be overlooked but is. 

Their whole story was a tragedy. From Elia Martell and her kids to the war that was inadvertently sparked because of them (meaning that the Mad King and a lot of other factors meant this was building for a while, but it began with Lyanna/Rhaegar) to Lyanna’s death at such a young age in her brother’s arms. It was not a good, happy story. There may have been love, but there were many other factors at play (the three headed dragon and Lyanna not wanting to marry Robert.) In fact, Lyanna almost certainly didn’t realize what her actions (assuming that she actually left with Rhaegar, a big assumption,) may have believed she wasn’t leaving home for good, and was likely lied to by Rhaegar (he almost certainly didn’t tell her about the three headed dragon before whisking her away and about the political instability going on.)

The whole thing was tragic. The fandom romanticizes it a lot. The question of love (assuming it was there and both Rhaegar and Lyanna felt it for each other) does not equate to it be a loving, good story.

anonymous asked:

Prompt: A Breakfast club AU for bellarke? Thanks!

I’ve seen the Breakfast club too many times to count so I enjoyed this prompt a lot. Thanks for sending it, I hope you like it! 

A big thanks to theoriginalvintagepanda for beta reading this fanfic (and the previous ones) and making it legible! 


Title: SATURDAY 

She would rather be painting, looking for that elusive tone of blue for the sea waves.

Clarke looked at the library with a resigned expression. It was her first time in detention and she was surrounded by the most problematic students of Ark High School. Their silent company was actually better than her mother’s constant nagging, but she couldn’t stand the thought of a whole day wasted doing absolutely nothing. She was a practical girl with a lot of aspirations; a whole day without something to do was unthinkable.

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CAMISADO (LIVE IN DENVER) - PANIC! AT THE DISCO

“How many of you out there are in the mood to dance tonight? Very well then. This song is for you, it’s called Camisado.”

This is my favorite Panic! At The Disco song, and I think it is the one that best exemplifies the unique emotional strengths of Ryan as a writer, and particularly of Fever. It’s not the best song on the record, necessarily, but I think it is the most important, the one that deals best with the tension between the personal and the over-the-top performative.

As it’s introduced in the video above, this is a song for people who want to dance. It irks me to say “this song is about,” but. This is a song about abuse and it’s a song about being a song you can dance to, and it wants you to dance to it. More than the lyrical content is its relation to the music. This is all review, probably, but it’s so important here. This is a song for dancing to. 

I offer “Dance Music” here as a point of comparison, another narrative that offers a similar juxtaposition of quick, upbeat music (referencing the dance music that offers the young Darnielle a haven from his stepfather’s violence) with stark descriptions of everyday terror.

I’m in the living room watching the Watergate hearings while my stepfather yells at my mother
Launches a glass across the room straight at her head
And I dash upstairs to take cover
Lean in close to my little record player on the floor
So this is what the volume knob’s for
I listen to dance music

“Camisado” is more evasive, lyrically, but offers one of Panic’s plainest choruses, one Brendon’s voice wears out on in many early live performances.

Can’t take the kid from the fight
Take the fight from the kid

And isn’t that the most quietly devastating couplet? Yet it’s belted out, fast and unyielding, as though it’s not. It’s a dance song. “Camisado” doesn’t let you sit down, doesn’t give you a moment of quiet to absorb the weight of what’s just been confessed.

I call “Camisado” confessional deliberately because Ryan describes it as such. Much of this record is styled as anti-confessional, fictional and distant, a lofty and detached narrator who judges from above. “Camisado” and “Nails…” are important departures, points of rawness that describe Ryan’s relationship with his neglectful, abusive father and his alcoholism.

“I wasn’t staying at home for weeks at a time. I was staying with my girlfriend, staying with other guys in the band. There were times when I almost had to sleep at our rehearsal space, because I didnt have anywhere to go. Obviously, I loved him and I cared about him, but when you’re getting kind of abused by that person, at the same time its really hard to try to help him.”

When asked what his father thought of the songs about him, Ryan said, “We haven’t really talked about it directly. I’m sure that he knows they’re about him, and he hasn’t acted differently toward me, like he’s mad or disappointed. He plays the CD all the time – it’s kind of funny.”

I don’t mean to impose a strictly biographical reading on Fever. I resent the implication that everything I do as an artist is reactionary and involuntary as a response to being Raped and Crazy, even when that would sort of be an accurate reading. Whatever. The art/life problem is an ongoing dilemma in art history, particularly feminist approaches to art and to women artists. How do we make space for how our lives and traumas shape us without dismissing art as symptom?

For my part, I think that the life may inform the work, but the work is not the life and only the life, and we cannot assume to know the life entirely based on the work. Ryan admitted to struggling with the issue of relatability and meaning in these songs early-on:

Some of the stuff is really personal, and I felt like people didn’t understand what they were singing. There’s not much I can do about that. People take lines and they’ll ask me, “What does this mean?” I don’t really answer them – if it helps them relate to something, I don’t want to take that away.

Some solid reader-response theory, there. The listener has a reading of the song, but there is discomfort on the part of the author at a demand for access to “meaning” which is intensely personal. The later material Ryan wrote for Panic tends not to lay things bare like this–it is much harder to access a narrative about the songwriter on Pretty. Odd.

“Camisado” is easier to access, but not easy. It confesses, but it does so through a number of filters–and the filters are more or less the point. The way they play it is the point, constructing layers of performance and excess that more or less couch the vulnerability of the lyrics.

Brendon sings, first and foremost. (”If I was the singer, I wouldn’t be able to write some of the stuff I write. He’ll get the praise or he’ll take the heat for it. I wouldn’t be able to deliver that stuff. It’s not that I’m afraid of it, but I’m not confident enough.” Ryan’s growing desire to sing later on was purportedly one of the main sources of tension within the band that led to the split.) Brendon’s voice is athletic, soaring–it needs to be, to carry the barrage of lyrics, the frenetic pace of the song:

You’re a regular decorated emergency
The bruises and contusions will remind me what you did when you wake
You’ve earned your place atop the ICU’s hall of fame
Camera caught you causing a commotion on the gurney again

Is effectively in one breath. To sing it live, Ryan and Brendon have to trade lines. It’s frantic, alliterative and rushed. The demo version doesn’t have the same quality, featuring a couple of instrumental interludes that take away from the urgency. It feels different–more mournful, more intimate.

The final recorded and live versions of “Camisado” careen forward through its hospital settings until concluding where it began.

The IV and your hospital bed
This was no accident
This was a therapeutic chain of events.

There’s a thesis statement in there, somewhere. This was no accident. It’s not an accident this song sounds the way it does, packages its confessions just so so that parts are even impossible for one person to sing live. It’s not an accident that multiple dancers are on stage dressed as self-sufficient marionettes, drawing the audience’s eye away from the band themselves. It’s not an accident that the band explicitly instruct the audience to dance to it. 

It’s sort of funny, in a not-funny way, that this song was originally called “Relax/Relapse,” in that there’s no opportunity to relax until you shut the song off and think, what did I just listen to. While it’s happening, you gotta dance. You gotta live with it. Somehow, you have to learn how to deal.

It’s not so pleasant and it’s not so conventional
It sure as hell ain’t normal, but we deal, we deal

anonymous asked:

It seems like I'm always attracted to people who are Scorpio's, whether I know they are before I've met them or after, they're the only one's I seem to want to be with. I'm a Gemini female. Do you know why this might be?

Oh hon do I ever

this is already bringing out the sassy bi friend at the hair salon who’s just gotten some great gossip to spread in me, alright

The thing is…

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Geminis and Scorpios always, always, ALWAYS seem to attract. They are also the ultimate opposites of the zodiac (or one of them). If I had to make a post about signs being shipped with other signs in homestuck quadrants, I would put Gemini and Scorpio in the black quadrant.

Geminis are ferociously attracted to Scorpios for their obvious depth and intensity—that’s the first thing that draws us in. In our lives, we meet so many people, and talk to so many, and we know as well as anyone how difficult it is to find someone of genuine depth. We are, after all, the ultimate jack-of-all-trades sign. Try as we might, we can never seem to get as truly deep as others in life, though we have a multitude of knowledge and skills to make up for it.

So there we are, having normal conversations, small-talk with people who are just never as interesting as we wish they were, and then suddenly out of nowhere, BAM! Who is that mysterious stranger with that look of intensity about him/her, not talking much, but always contributing considerably when they do? We MUST go and talk to them. We know a veritable well of fascination when we see one.

And they are—they are always fascinating. They’re just so emotional, so perceptive, so serious, so erotic. They’re not just a well, they’re an ocean—mysterious, interesting, powerful. How could we not be attracted to them?

Likewise, from the Scorpio point of view, there they are, standing more or less alone in a crowd of people, wishing everyone wasn’t so dull and the conversation so meaningless, when all of a sudden, out of nowhere, BAM! Who is that fluttering stranger with that mouth like a motor but so much to say, quick-witted and clearly genuinely intelligent? And oh, now he/she is approaching them! The perfect opportunity to see just how worthy a match they really are.

And so, the dance begins, the Scorpio perplexed by the mercurial Gemini whom they just can’t seem to pin down and overpower, the Gemini perplexed by the endless mystery within the intense Scorpio whom they just can’t seem to truly figure out.

I just googled it to see if I could find other explanations to help articulate this relationship, and was not disappointed: 

“Scorpio is a water sign, but it’s fixed. How do you get fixed in water? That’s the key to Scorpio. Imagine someone staying upright in turbulent water. Intensity is the word that describes Scorpio. Gemini is Mutable Air. I heard an astrologer say over 20 years ago that Gemini completely perplexes Scorpio because they cannot grab them and control them. Take the intense Scorpio and imagine them dealing with the fairy flitting up and about, around and down.

The Scorpion’s attempt to acquire power can have many manifestations. Gemini, being the one with “multiple personalities” can make Scorpio arrest their intensity. They know that Gemini is much more complicated than the average observer might see. The strangely, almost “hinky” part of this is that Gemini is not particularly overwhelmed by Scorpio. And yet the Scorpion’s ability to see through Gemini does not disable the Twin. They are almost like a fast gun fighter - “Just because you know I am fast, doesn’t mean you can beat me.” 

These two are so basically different from one another; it is difficult to imagine their accidental meeting. Once this almost impossible meeting occurred, they would then have to start talking and discussing their divergent lives. Since this relationship could almost not occur, if it did occur, it would have to be honored as a happenstance of Fate. Attraction would probably be mutual, but positively speaking, the Scorpio would most likely find the Gemini enthralling and compelling. The Scorpio’s wisdom and penetrating insight could see in their Gemini what one might call a “divine mystery”.

The key to understand here is that Gemini would not need to defend itself. The conflict that could arise between these two would be somewhat like trying to nail down with a hammer, the wing of a fluttering Tinkerbelle. Gemini’s “not caring” ways have a stunning effect on souls who are coming with a checkmating certainty. Have you ever beaten someone at cards who did not care about cards? Have you ever been beaten by someone at cards who did not even want to play cards?”

An accurate description if ever I saw one. It’s basically a perfect analysis in every way.

These two signs can get into huge arguments, mostly over Gemini’s apparent coldness and uncaring, and Scorpio’s subjectivity and jealousy. What Gemini may be willing to start up as a healthy debate can quickly turn ugly when Scorpio’s stubbornness and subjectivity, In Gem’s mind, take away from the integrity of the conversation.

They make great, worthy opponents. It would be easy for them to get into a passionate rivalry of sorts.

Anyway, hope that was explanatory! I totally get it, I have issues with being attracted to/infuriated by Scorpios, also.

wei50-blog  asked:

A Hot Mess, Rachel & Hyo-Shin, Who Am I?, (tumbling at official mating/ performance coupling)

who am I? (sexy things warning)

“I don’t know why you’re nervous,” Rachel said as she nosed his throat so he would bend down and kiss her. It worked because his wolf was so very eager to give her everything she wanted. “Is your wolf still shy?”

Does she just not get how strong and beautiful she is?

Hyo-Shin welcomed any insight his wolf shared with him. Getting him back made him feel like a complete wolf. “That’s an accurate description of his feelings. He’s still in awe of you. We’re worried we won’t be able to mark you properly tonight.”

Rachel slowly draped her arms over his shoulders and curled her fingers in the hair at the nape of his neck. “We are not worried. My wolf adores you. She’s not put off by your size or how long it took for your wolf to come back to you. She knows you are the best potential mate she’s ever smelled. She’s excited to submit to you tonight.”

Why the fuck would she do that? Tell her no! Not in front of her brother. No, fucking, way.

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