Shipping Issues (Simon Request)
“Alright is everybody ready?” You ask, looking to Simon and JJ who sat either side of you to begin the video.
Both of them nod and all of you turn to the camera to start.
“Hey guys and welcome back to my channel” You smile, “Today, as you can tell, I’m with JJ and Simon and we’re going to be filming the best friend vs boyfriend tag”
“Wow so original (y/n)” JJ jokes and you hit him in the arm.
“Now, I will point out we’ve all known each other for the same amount of time and we all live together so no excuses guys” You remind both of them.
After choosing their buzzers, the questions begin.
“What month last year did I hit 10 million subscribers?“ You ask.
JJ screams as his noise instantly, “September”
“Fuck I knew that” Simon groans as a point is awarded to your best friend.
“Not quick enough babe” You laugh, “Okay, where is my best place I’ve been to?”
Simon makes his noise quickly to answer, “New York”
“Well done” You chuckle.
“Bullshit!” JJ exclaims, “It’s California!”
“Nahh, thats like a close second” You shake your head.
“You mother fucker, you’re just lying so your boyfriend doesn’t lose” He jabs your side, making you squeal.
By 7pm the following night, your video with the boys is edited and uploaded for all of your viewers to watch.
“Babe you ready?” You ask, walking into the bedroom you shared with Simon.
“Urr… Yeah I’ll be down in a second” He nods, facing his screen though the sadness was still evident in the crack in his voice.
“What’s wrong?” You frown, undecided as to whether you should walk over to him or not.
“Nothing, nothing” He shakes his head, dragging a hand over his face, “I’ll meet you downstairs”
“Simon are you crying?” You question, you’d never seen him cry. Not because he wasn’t comfortable around you, but because he just never cried.
“Nahh of course not” He scoffs, “I’m fine”
“Its the tweets isn’t it?” You sigh.
Your viewers had a habit of ‘shipping’ you with Jide. He was just as big of a YouTuber as you were, you were best friends- it meant they loved you together. You and JJ had always just brushed it off but Simon was always affected by it.
He stops for a moment. You knew him too well.
“Babe, they’re all just ridiculous. And they mean nothing honestly” You start, “Its just stupid YouTube stuff, you just have to avoid it all”
“Its not just this one time though is it (y/n)?” He exclaims, “It’s everything! You have thirteen million subscribers and I’m pretty sure not one of them thinks I’m good enough for you”
“Who gives a fuck?” You question, “I chose to be with you and it’s the best decision I’ve ever fucking made!”
“And what about JJ? He got me into YouTube, I’ve always been his sidekick. That’s how all of this started. And now, it’s even getting into my relationship” Simon turns around, his eyes slightly red from where his tears had been.
“Simon, me and you have always been JJ’s sidekicks. It’s the way its always gone. And up until recently, its never affected you. None of it has. No tweets, comments, nothing would ever make you this upset. What’s different now?” You sigh.
“Because its about me and you” He admits, “I’ve always been the single one, the lonely one. And now I finally get this incredible, stunning girlfriend that I know is way out of my league and I can’t even make anyone believe that I’m good enough for her”
“Babe, I could be told a thousand, a million times that you’re not good enough for me by them” You walk over to him, “But hearing you say it” You jab his chest, “It kills me”
Simon looks down, tears building in his eyes again.
“You’re better than any guy I could even imagine myself with” You start, feeling yourself about to cry now, “ Your subscriber count, your best friend, my viewers opinion on you- it doesn’t mean shit. I love you and that’s all-” You stop. That was the first time you’d ever admitted that. You loved Simon. of course, you’d known it for some time but the words had never passed your lips.
Simon looks up in utter shock. His tears even seemed to freeze. His mouth was hung slightly open and his eyes didn’t leave yours.
"Wh-” He starts but can’t even finish one word.
“Guys are you ready or what?” JJ shouts as he walks upstairs, “I’m fucking starving!”
Simon still continues to look at you like the world around him was frozen.
“We’ll be down in a minute Jide” You reply, “My keys are on the side if you want to get in the car”
“Alright” He chuckles and heads back downstairs quickly, “Simon’s busy with his babygirl still,” He yells to the other guys.
Simon gets up and drags a hand over his face.
“Right we better go” You nod, checking yourself in the mirror and quickly wiping under your eyes so you looked presentable to go out with the guys.
“(Y/n) stop” Simon raises his voice slightly.
“Oh right I forgot my jacket” You shake your head, flustered at the thought that he wouldn’t love you back.
“Babe” He exclaims, holding your arm and spinning you round, “Of course I love you too”
Your worried face turns to a smile and you see his face match yours yet again.
And his lips are on yours. His insecurity fades for the moment and the tweets and comments don’t matter. JJ, your subscribers and his, they were all pushed aside. Because you loved him and he loved you.