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cozmicbutthole  asked:

Why do cancers feel they don't deserve a good life? I know many cancers who let themselves wallow in misery because they feel like they don't deserve success? My mother in law was a hoarder until recently & she shared her reasoning behind it like she didn't deserve to have a clean & happy home which is saying a lot since cancers LOVE being home. I've seen other cancers speak this way for themselves. I have cancer intercepted & I don't understand?

What…. Why!!! Gosh, now that you mention it, I know a Cancer friend just like that.

I think it’s because it’s the sign before Leo. I feel like Leo is definitely a sign that would try their best to get the best of everything because they feel like they’re good enough to get it. Cancer may not like to go out for success because true success is uncomfortable. Cancer is a sign that prefers to go for comfort than to get what they deserve. Capricorn is also the sister sign of Cancer, and they’re very, very ambitious… Cancer can struggle to be ambitious because their feelings constantly fluctuate, which can frequently change their goals - which can lead to difficulty achieving things. Capricorn as an Earth sign does not face fluctuations like Cancer does. Capricorn is also exalted in Mars… It’s a sign willing to go through conflict to get what it wants. Cancer? Maybe not. If they’re gonna have any conflict, it’s to be comfortable at the end of the day.

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Happy third birthday, baby boy. Yes, third. Not first. I hope today is a day full of magic and wonder and laughter and love for you. Daddy and I love you so much and today will always be a day that’s incredibly special to us because it’s the day you were welcomed into the world. Words cannot be used to describe just how full our hearts are when it comes to you. This is only the beginning of the love that people have for you, but I’m pretty confident in saying that ours will always be the biggest. #phillyturnsthree @keeoone @supitskeegs

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Super Sappy Lines Prompt List

Because sometimes you just want to write the sappiest shit you can handle.

  1. “I’m in love with you.”
  2. “Please don’t leave me.”
  3. “It’s always been you.”
  4. “Shut up and kiss me.”
  5. “I’ve wanted this for so long.”
  6. “I can’t wait any longer.”
  7. “Can I kiss you?”
  8. “Can I touch you?”
  9.  “I missed you so much.”
  10. “Stay with me forever.”
  11. “I thought you didn’t want me.”
  12. “I want you. Only you.”
  13. “The way I feel when I’m with you…”
  14. “I’ll always love you.”
  15. “Please marry me.”
  16. “Why haven’t you kissed me yet?”
  17. “Because I love you!”
  18. “You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”
  19. “I can’t stay away from you.”
  20. “I’ve been waiting all my life for you.”
  21. “I’m better when I’m with you.”
  22. “You make me so happy.”

PS if you write anything from this list, will you tag with #sappyprompts so I can see it? <3

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BS:  I think Max ends up with Liesel. I don’t think it happens right away, but as they grow up, I think he’s the only person that she’s got and she’s the only person that he’s got. Having gone through what the two of them went through, there’s a bond that’s unparalleled. It would be futile to look to establish something beyond t h a t between two human beings.

for dills

dear diary, today steve wrecked three motorcycles and a car. that’s still three less than last month
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what i’m loving the most about this scene is that, despite the non-existent history between these two, emori and clarke create this very big contrast between each other: the one who wasn’t loved (emori) vs. the one who was loved (clarke), and the one who thinks they have no choice “you think i have a choice?” (emori) vs. the one who has realized that they always have a choice (clarke).

i love that clarke gets this very close view into emori’s life, because i always found it to be necessary for her to talk to someone on this level - more as an individual who gets to have a heart-to-heart, rather than a leader. it’s not just emori truthfully opening up in this scene about her experiences, insecurities and rage and other types of emotions, but also clarke, who is pushed into a rather sincere communication (if you look at things from her pov) which she initiates.

the things she shares with the audience and emori are so terrifyingly honest - e.g from the things she’s done as a leader and the fact that she can never understand what it feels like to be emori, to be truly alone; the conclusion she shares “but i do know what it feels like”, which harkens back to her first scene with abby where her mother tells her that “no. we have to make a choice” when clarke thinks they have no other choice than to just go along with whatever they need to do; the courage to embrace that truth about herself in these tiny steps; how the narrative highlights how she feels; and how her emotions in regards to her actions don’t even line up with the image of “the commander of death” that emori now places upon herself, because that title has always been less a descriptor of something clarke inherently is and more as something she’s perceived as due to what she has done. the writers make such good use of the “wanheda” image in this scene by poking holes into it, its pretty great imo.

and don’t even get me started on emori, i’m so down for that girl; she’s so different from any other character we’ve seen on this show so far - especially when you think of the things she was forced to do in order to survive, and how her view drastically sets itself apart from all the others in connection to those actions. anyone want a front-row seat for the time i express my weirdly endearing love for her? it’s for free, i promise. it makes all the more sense why she is so desperate on making this work out the way she planned it (not that i didn’t consider it before to be honest, but emori’s emotional expression put more truth into everything imo), and the twist is mind-freezing because it’s emori who propels the story into a whole new dimension for me, and you’ve got to have some serious talents in order to do that with a viewer like me, just saying, lol.

anyway. essentially this moment is functioning as such a great worst-case scenario for two characters who put themselves out there. it’s really fascinating.

i mean, i don’t even know what the point of this post is anymore, i’m kinda drifting. but i really love that clarke just gets to be clarke in this scene by creating a contrast to emori, who just gets to be really hardcore emori in this moment. their interaction creates such a great conflict in which you understand both.

I just wanted to give a massive shout-out and thanks to @hawker-rawr of @ask-drunk-chara, because if it wasn’t for her not only would I not be the Charisk trash that I am today, but I probably would have never started usin my Tumblr as much as I have or gotten the courage to draw outside of my comfort zone and start my own AU comic. So seriously, thank you Hawk. You’re an amazin person and artist and you deserve all of the love you’ve got, and so much more.

if you’re closeted because you know that the people in your life won’t accept you, please know that i support you. i know that that’s not enough, i know i am just one person who doesn’t even know you…but at least i’m someone. i’m someone who loves you and accepts you and believes in you no matter what you are or who you choose to be.

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A sharp, unedged, medieval copper dagger used for delivering a final, fatal blow.             Also known as the “coup de grace.” I’m sorry, Bones.

I Know Everything

Summary: Just because you know someone’s secret, doesn’t mean they don’t know yours. 
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Word Count: 925
Warnings: Mentions of The Mark, angsty feels. I think that’s it?

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// I had no clue what an otaku was so I had to google it and just kinda went off the first few results, I guess it’s a person who’s addicted to anime and manga¿ Hopefully i’m right lmao

Also my absolutely /lovely/ mother is most likely going to take away my phone for the next few days because i’m not doing well in school :’) But I have a queue going so i’ll still basically be posting my usual once a day!

Zen:

- He’s never really been too into anime before, he prefers live action stuff.

- But he’ll watch some with you in his spare time, his personal favorite is Owari no Seraph and he could totally cosplay as Ferid Bathory if he wanted to.

- ( am I the only one who thinks they look alike¿ )

- But MC. You can’t stay home and watch anime all day. Go outside.

- He will /drag/ you outside to go on a walk with him you can’t live your life like this what are you doing

- Come see the real world stop crying over fictional characters

- He thinks it’s unhealthy and will try to get you to s t o p this lifestyle it’s not healthy MC

- He’ll quit drinking if you quit anime, that’s his negotiation. Take it or leave it ( ̄▽ ̄*)ゞ

Jumin:

- Eh he doesn’t like the stuff, never really picked it up.

- If you get him to watch some he’ll enjoy Tokyo Ghoul.

- But the way you binge on anime is too much he’s concerned.

- I mean whatever makes you happy but you’ll hurt your eyes staring at a screen all day.

- And crying, stop crying you’ll damage something in there with all of that.

- He’s okay with you being lowkey obsessed as long as you still spend time with him and you’re healthy he’s fine, even if it is a little odd. But then again everyone ragged on him about his cat addiction too so he doesn’t want to bother you too much about it.

Yoosung:

- He loves anime, watches some whenever he has free time from school or games.

- Haikyuu is his favorite! He took up volleyball for a little bit because of it, but he dropped it eventually due to not having any time.

- The way you watch anime kinda makes him jealous, you have so much time for it!

- But when he finds you crying in the dark after binge watching an anime that has 11 seasons straight through the week he knows it’s time for an intervention.

- MC.
- This needs to end.
- You can’t do this to yourself anymore.

- He’ll work with you to not fully stop your addiction but still limit it :’)

Seven:


- BOI HE LOVES ANIME HES A HUGE WEEB

- He has so many favorites but he likes Ouran host club a lot.

- kiss kiss fall in love ~

- He’s down with your lifestyle, it’s pretty unhealthy but he’s the embodiment of unhealthy that’s probably why he likes it so much.

- He WILL binge watch with you until the sun comes up

- But if you ever get sick from staying up so late or a headache from staring at a screen he’ll limit you

- Will even threaten to shut off the router to get you to stop pushing yourself so hard you don’t need to become sick from insomnia because of cute fictional boys what’s wrong with you (눈_눈)

V:

- He likes to watch anime in his free time sometimes, usually he’ll just put an episode on while he’s cooking or editing pictures.

- His favorite is Yuri on ice, I headcanon he’s amazing at ice skating so he’s excited there’s a show dedicated to it!!

- He is not down with how you sit and watch it all day long without doing anything productive or eating meals that’s no way to live life to the fullest MC!

- Tries to push you to go outside more and to not get so dependent on your shows, it’s not healthy. All good things in moderation.

Saeran:

- He’s okay with anime, he’s not like Seven but he’ll watch some in his spare time.

- Personal favorite is Corpse Party, it’s creepy yet still has a nice plot.

- But when you binge watch shows he gets so !! lonely!! You’re so invested in the screen and don’t even pay attention to him.

- He shuts off the router without even telling you, he knows it works when he hears you scream “ NO ” from the other room.

- Even though you’re upset at him he’s still getting attention so he’s happy.

- He will go as far as hacking into your computer and blocking the sites you watch your shows on to stop this addiction, he’s petty like that.
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Little Jehan Things
  • gives names to the spiders going around their apartment
  • loves reading by the window when there’s a big storm blowing outside
  • knits little hats for their cacti in winter
  • once cut their long hair to give it to charity
  • did i say once? I meant twice
  • handwrites their poems the old-fashioned way with a quill
  • believes in ladybug wishes
  • says “bless you” every time a piece of furniture cracks because you never know, it may be a ghost sneezing

i love how over more than a year later this scene still manages to ruin me

i’m not gonna do some long proper read of the moment, but the way it all starts out with such high tension that you end up feeling maya’s desperation is note-worthy. just, the way she stands there in the suit with her hands up in the air and a guard pointing a gun at her, it’s all pretty saddening and destabilizes everything even further, because now the delinquents are fighting against time.

and it’s bellamy’s reaction that gets me the most when he hears about maya and what cage plans to do with her, because these two have started to become friends - remember how he called her a “revolutionary” just minutes ago? ya.

so when he is on his way to get the guns like he and maya planned and it comes to his attention that she is in critical danger

he stops dead in his tracks, because “what…”.

the thing that emotionally ruins me is that he’s absolutely retaining his posture and finesse as a MW guard - he cannot afford to get caught so he doesn’t move in any way that would blow his cover up. but when you look at his face you can see all the emotions he feels (sry i cant gif), because it hits him deeply

then, instead of moving forward like he used to, he goes and grips his gun

and turns around

because no way in hell is he going to leave her alone and let her die.

and this is why i am emotionally compromised. he cares so much about her.

anonymous asked:

Hey, I have zero experience in drawing or any kind of manual art like that. But I've decided I want to try and learn even just the basics, but the resources online are sketchy and I have no knowledge to be able to decipher what's good and what's not. I really love your art, I know you probably get this a lot but where do you think I should start?

ALRIGHT alright alright I’m going to make this some sort of ”beginner artist” masterpost and include as many resources as I possibly can. I am going to assume you want to focus on the ”drawing” aspects of art since it can take many forms. Here are some pointers and resources I consider vital when learning how to draw, things I’ve learned from multiple art oriented courses. This is going to be a very quick and general thing and I’ll make some serious and properly drawn tutorials in the future (the drawings in this one are going to be embarrassing, try to only take the general idea from them) but to start off:

  • Before you jump into drawing in any particular style, learn your realism.

This is probably mistake #1 in many young art enthusiasts: they go straight into wanting to draw either anime, or a particular cartoon’s style because a stylized form of art is much more appealing to them than realistic things. Which is valid, but I’ll have you know in order to get any of those styles right, you have to learn the basics AND ONLY THEN proceed to use that knowledge to ”deform” said realism into any style you want. Be it learning from life drawing and observing, pictures online of real people or animals. When you look at a big household name in the artist world’s work, as flashy as their stuff might be, a trained eye is able to tell immediately if the person has proper anatomical knowledge or not, no matter how much they try to mask it with ”this is just my style.” Let me show you an example: 

(excuse the 5 minute sketches pls, note these are actually highly inaccurate (the knees should be placed lower on the second drawing and calves shouldn’t be as big as the thighs) but I wanted to demonstrate ”realistic proportions” in contrast to more of a stylized drawing in a really quick way, a google search for “human anatomy” will bring up much more accurate visual representations of all this so I highly recommend doing that)

But basically in order to play around with anatomy you first need to learn realistic proportions (you don’t need to absolutely master them or anything, but you need to know things like the distance between the forehead, eyes + nose and chin correlate, places where fat stores in comparison to where muscle stores, the size of the forearm until in reaches the wrist/arm are practically the same, arms + hands reach below the hipbone and halfway to the the upper thigh) and only then proceed to bend those rules to create your own stylized version of things, which means you get to play around with a lot of shapes like so: 

  • USE GUIDELINES

For the love of all that is holy make use of guidelines, whether with a light colored blue or red pencil if you’re drawing by hand or a sketch layer in Photoshop/SAI etc. They will help out so much when it comes to knowing where you should place each feature. Many people attempt to draw directly without them and while after a lot of practice it might work, to start off you really need to understand basic figure building.

(I’m literally drawing all these one drawing a minute excuse the shittiness I’m just trying to get the point across ahah gOD THESE ARE PISSPOOR)

  • Carry a little sketchbook with you if you can and draw strangers while riding the train, bus, etc. Just draw whatever you see.

It’s not only entertaining when you might be bored out of your mind but extremely productive to draw people, animals, scenery, anything you can see that you might want to sketch out for practice, you can. No better way to learn than real life. 

  • Take time to draw. And draw. And draw.

You will not learn or improve overnight, bettering yourself when it comes to art is an endless and ongoing lifelong process. But it won’t be due to osmosis, you gotta sit your ass down and draw as frequently as you can afford to (although excesses can be bad for you, learn to also take breaks and find comfortable positions because drawing CAN REALLY MESS UP YOUR BACK like badly and you don’t wanna end up hunched over because of it or with tendonitis) But believe me: practice makes perfect and if you learn to observe and understand why you’re drawing what you’re drawing, why are you placing that line where you’re placing it and start thinking in 3D, you will surely improve.

Now for the part you truly want to look out for -

RESOURCES

USEFUL BOOKS/AUTHORS

MATERIALS

BLOGS WITH AN INFINITY OF TUTORIALS

HELPFUL WEBSITES

Last but not least, some artists that inspire me beyond words and that might also inspire you.

I hope this helps!

It’s Quiet Uptown [Lin-Manuel Miranda x Reader]

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Request: None, this is part of my queue list for filler fics.

Summary: You are Lin’s wife and you’ve been expecting a baby. You’re Pippa’s understudy and you discover that you had a miscarriage. This takes place while you’re performing as Eliza.

A/N: I wanted to write some ‘angst’ because I need to brush up on my CrushingSoulsTM skills. As usual, feedback, requests, and questions are open! Thank you, love!

Disclaimer: Personally, I had never experience miscarriage and I do not intend of offending anyone i’m very sorry if I do offend you. Just know that I’m here for you

Warning: Angst & mentions of miscarriage

Word Count: 1,170

A sharp pain coursed through your veins and you yelped. It felt as if your stomach was being pelted with shards of glass. Lin woke up to your noises and held onto you. “Darling, what’s wrong?” Tears started streaming down your face from the pain and you couldn’t manage to get words out of your mouth. “Y/N! Say something!” Lin looked at you with fear coursing through his eyes. You knew he hated seeing you in pain. “D-doctor.” Lin rushed you into the car and drove as fast as he could to the hospital without breaking any speed limits.

After a few hours in the hospital, the doctor came back with a somber tone. “Mr. and Mrs. Miranda, I’m sorry but your baby is gone. You’ve experienced a miscarriage.” You felt ashamed and cried silently. Lin looked up to you and held your hand. News spread throughout the cast and the whole cast came over a few days later in efforts of cheering you up. You appreciated the effort, but you felt like a part of you was missing.

Pippa had a sore throat so she was resting at home and that led in you taking up the part of Eliza. You didn’t feel like performing that day, but you didn’t want to feel like a burden. During Schuyler Sisters and Helpless, you tried your best to look happy, but your singing said otherwise. You almost broke down during That Would Be Enough. Talking about a child that you had expected made you think about what would’ve been. Not to mention, Lin was performing as Alexander. During intermission, you let your tears slip. You tried not to let anyone see but you were showered in hugs and kisses from the cast.

Take a Break and Burn passed quickly and it was now time for your appearance in Stay Alive (Reprise) You let the remainder of your tears flow as your mourned Philip’s death. You completely forgot about It’s Quiet Uptown. That song hit you like a bus.

There are moments that the words don’t reach there is suffering too terrible to name. You hold your child as tight as you can and push away the unimaginable.

Today, the lyrics seemed to reflect your mood perfectly. Eliza’s blocking meant that you stood still and silent while mourning and that’s what you’d done. You remember creating a list of names for your child. It would have been Ariel for a girl and Sebastian for a boy. What stuck out is that Lin told everyone about the names. You had a permanent smile that day. Now it felt as if your happiness was sucked away.

The moments when you’re in so deep, it feels easier to just swim down. The Hamiltons move uptown and learn to live with the unimaginable.

You felt helpless. Even with Lin telling you constantly that it wasn’t your fault, you couldn’t help that it was.

I spend hours in the garden. I walk alone to the store and it’s quiet uptown. I never liked the quiet before.

It’s true, Lin couldn’t stand the quiet. He said that it ‘gives him a really eerie vibe.’ He knew that he shouldn’t distance himself from you especially at a time like this, but he had to. He didn’t want to leave you, he just needed time and you respected that.

I take the children to church on Sundays, a sign of the cross at the door and I pray. That never used to happen before. If you see him in the street, walking by himself, talking to himself, have pity. Philip, you would like it uptown. It’s quiet uptown.

You were lost in thought and memories. Your child would have loved it in Washington Heights. They would have had so much to see and take in. You knew that they would have. You wish they had the chance.

He is working through the unimaginable. His hair has gone grey he passes everyday taking in the sights of the city. You knock me out I fall apart.

You had flashbacks of when you first felt your child kick. You called Lin and he looked at you as if you were dying. “Lin the baby kicked.” He gasped and felt your stomach waiting for another kick. The baby kicked again and he was tearing up. You held his hand and he took a photo of you, your belly popping and captioned the photo:

@Lin_Manuel

If we lay a strong enough foundation..

Can you imagine? Look at where you are, look at where we started. I know I don’t deserve you, Eliza but hear me out. That would be enough.

You couldn’t help but hear Lin say it as an actual apology. It wasn’t his fault.

If I could spare his life. If I could trade his life for mine, he’d be standing here right now and you would smile, and that would be enough.

You knew Lin would do that for you. All he wanted was for you to be happy.

I don’t pretend to know the challenges we’re facing I know there’s no replacing what we’ve lost and you need time.

You remembered vaguely when you told Lin about your pregnancy. He hugged and kissed you like you were the only thing in the world even though you were surrounded by the rest of your Hamilton cast.

But I’m not afraid I know who I married just let me stay here by your side that would be enough.

No matter the situation, Lin knew that there would always be a beam of light after a horrendous storm. He stuck by you, knowing that you would get through it together.

If you see him in the street, walking by her side, talking by her side have pity. Eliza do you like it uptown, it’s quiet uptown. He trying to do the unimaginable. See them walking in the park long after dark taking in the sights of the city. Look around, look around, Eliza.

You were taken out of your flashbacks and you were put onto the stage. You didn’t remember tears streaming down both of your faces. Renee had tears as well, you knew why but you didn’t think any more of it.

They are trying to do the unimaginable. There are moments that the words don’t reach. There’s a grace too powerful to name. We push away what we can never understand, we push away the unimaginable. They are standing in the garden, Alexander by Eliza’s side. She takes his hand.

“It’s quiet uptown.” You tried not to sound too broken but you couldn’t help it. You looked at Lin and followed through the blocking hand in hand.

Forgiveness, can you imagine? Forgiveness, can you imagine? If you see him in the street, walking by her side, talking by her side have pity.

You hugged Lin and cried.

They are going through the unimaginable.

There it is. Was it alright? Was there emotion?