this is a bit weird tbh

baarish  asked:

Hi! Is it weird if I ask you how you learned the web design? I'm a CS student and I'm a bit stuck on where to start everything. I saw your posts in the web development pages and they were really cool! I want to make apps and websites but I'm clueless tbh

Hi! Sorry for the late reply, I haven’t been active over the summer.

It’s not weird at all! If it’s web development that you’re looking into, then I highly recommend learning HTML and CSS first before you learn any other languages. They are very basic languages in developing websites and anything else you learn will build off that. Codecademy has a good HTML & CSS course. Interneting is Hard is also a great resource to flick back to while developing websites. After learning HTML and CSS, it might be of use to also learn Responsive Design. After all, there are a lot of mobile users and it’s becoming extremely common for websites to be responsive for mobile devices.

After that, it would be useful to look into JavaScript. Even knowing basic things like variables, functions, iteration and selection can add a lot of interactivity to your website. Codeacademy has a course on JavaScript.

These are the three languages I recommend learning first because they are the backbone to web development and will then make it easier for you to move onto learning things such as jQuery and Angular, if you wish to.

Above all, I, personally, found Code School to be a fantastic resource. However, it’s not free and requires a subscription (there’s a discount if you’re a student). Nonetheless, I found it a worthwhile investment because it really helps to break down topics for absolute beginners and covers lessons which I haven’t seen free resources address, but that’s just my personal experience. Code School has a few free courses, so you might want to try those first and see for yourself if it’s worth spending some money on. They cover a variety of languages so it might be very useful to you as a Computer Science student.

If all else fails, Google, YouTube and StackOverflow are your best friends. 👍🏼

Period Struggles Compilation For No Particular Reason

giant blood diaper

the bathroom stinks to hell for a week

sneezing

coughing

laughing

yet somehow crying my eyes out doesn’t cause debilitating pain

speaking of - CRAMPS

ALL OF THE CRAMPS

SERIOUSLY IT FEELS LIKE THAT METAL HEAD-THINGY THAT GIRL WORE IN THE FIRST SAW MOVIE IS AROUND MY HIPS

googling ways to relieve cramps and seeing pictures of women all folded up like human pretzels like what human being can actually do that with a pad on wtf

saying “fuck” every three minutes 

it’s 3 in the morning and I’m standing here in my underwear washing blood out of my pajamas literally fuck everything 

wtf these aren’t my usual pads what’s this bullshit why do these even exist

then when I get my period in a hotel and they give me cheap, crappy pads with no goddamn wings what the fuck kind of customer service is this

*drops something* *tries to pick it up without bending over*

*in the shower* is that dust or blood clots

oh hey look there’s blood on the floor again

*wakes up in a panic* IS THERE BLOOD ON MY SHEETS

oh good there’s nothing

*wakes up again two minutes later* BUT IS THERE BL—

*lies awake in bed all night convinced I’ve got a leak*

*one time, just one time, has a peaceful night’s sleep* *wakes up with a leak*

that weird feeling like you’re being stabbed in the vagina by tiny people with tiny swords

that other weird feeling like a zombie bit you inside your uterus and now it’s slowly rotting from the inside out

no I’m not exaggerating that’s exactly what it feels like

crying for no reason

did i mention giant blood diaper

because it’s literally a giant blood diaper

maxi pads. fucking maxi pads. 

hey if i jump out that window will i die 

lying in bed, curled into a tight ball, praying for the sweet embrace of death

pink painkillers 

all of the hot water bottles 

but let’s be real that shit doesn’t work 

neither do the painkillers tbh 

so then I come home and collapse onto my bed and suddenly my dog is there sniffing my butt like seriously as if this wasn’t embarrassing enough already

“alright class today we’ll warm up by running around the field” *screams* 

every time you sit out during the swimming unit in pe and the pe teachers side-eye you the whole time

plus all the girl’s periods synch up so like half the class is sitting on the bleachers dying on the inside and the pe teachers think it’s all a big conspiracy 

“you know they have invented solutions for this exact problem”

^no lie, my science teacher told us this last month. everyone just stared at him in silence until he changed the topic. 

can I get a sick note for my period?

when you have to change in the middle of class and you try to discreetly take your bag with you and everyone looks up

“hey can you check if there’s blood on my pants” 

“if you hate pads so much why don’t you try a tampon” oh yes sure let me just shove a tiny cotton stick up my vagina that sounds pleasant

when you complain about your period to the squad and suddenly half of the boys have disappeared off the face of the earth 

*displays slightest hint of irritation after being provoked for a prolonged period of time*  “geez someone’s on their period”

“looks like someone bought the wrong tampon brand lol”

no

no don’t make jokes about that

that shit is the worst

To quote iiSuperwomanii: “My shedding uterus has standards.” 

trying to open your pad as quietly as possible but you know the other girls in the school bathroom can hear

then you come out of the stall and make eye contact in the mirror and tHeY KnOw

AND HOW THE FUCK

DOES MY PERIOD SOMEHOW ALWAYS KNOW

WHEN TO COME AT THE EXACT MOST INCONVENIENT TIME?? 

oh it’s your birthday? here’s a fun present!

oh it’s christmas? guess who’s not going sledding 

oh you’re being sent on a six-hour hike on your school trip in a mountain with no bathrooms? this seems like a good time for satan’s waterfall 

oh you were looking forward to a nice, relaxed half-term break? lol bitch not anymore

*cries internally*

*cries externally*

*cries eternally*


I hope this has been educational 

jared: hey
connor: in case you haven’t noticed, i’m weird. i’m a weirdo. i don’t “fit in,” and i don’t wanna fit in. have you ever seen me without this stupid jacket on? that’s weird.

The Signs as my Favourite Men in Literature

*Careful! Contains elements of sarcasm.

Rhett Butler, sexy and sarcastic twat with a heart of gold (literally, because he is that rich) who enjoys making fun of everything and everyone and watching dumb people being dumb // Aries

Originally posted by fitz-and-giggles

brutally honest, handsome, physically strong, sarcastic, selfish, self-confident, drawn by goodness, afraid of rejection, wild behaviour, rebellious, charming, “ungentlemanly”, often amused and seldom serious

Edmond Dantès (Count of Monte Christo), a very decent guy who is imprisoned without any logical reason but manages to break out, starts a spicy campaign to avenge himself upon all the dumbasses who turned him in, becomes rich and powerful, HOT! // Taurus

Originally posted by thesunofdorne

kind, honest, innocent, living by traditional codes, naturally intelligent, honorable, driven by duty, loving, forgiving, later bitter and vengeful, hateful, resourceful, imaginative, protective

Mr. Fitzwiliam Darcy, a snobbish and arrogant jackass who so mercifully decided to propose to Elizabeth “against his better judgement” when he obviously could’ve had every woman in England // Gemini

Originally posted by moreofmatthewmacfadyen

honest, self-confident, feels superior, prideful, arrogant, assuming, sensitive, later easygoing, introverted, great communicating skills, great at analysing and organizing, has own set of values, dismissive, aloof, brave and stubborn, protective, chivalrous

Jay Gatsby, a romantic and gentle flower that is ridiculously obsessed with the past and can’t get over himself, seemingly thinks he’s the nicest guy in the universe and a beast in bed, tbh why would Daisy even look at other men? // Cancer

Originally posted by intangibil

dreamer, restless, delusional, charming, gracious, enigmatic, kind-hearted, determined, wealthy, passionate, dedicated to love, optimistic, energetic, loving, lives in another world, giving, caring, nostalgic

Harry Potter, a dork who needs friends who save him from all the stupid bullshit he attempts to do, he wouldn’t even have managed to get through the first year of school without Hermione and Ron, being his companion includes being dragged into some seriously concerning and dangerous shit // Leo

Originally posted by little-flightlessbird

brave, strong, devoted to his beliefs, strong-willed, warm-hearted, hot-tempered, impulsive, lack of emotional control, moody, witty, curious, protective, loving, humble, loyal, forgiving, grateful, stubborn, modest

Sherlock Holmes, a mental trainwreck and annoying know-it-all, I really understand why Dr. Watson is the only one who can stand his company because there’s not enough patience in the world to deal with this one, but I guess masterminds have to be hoes with a god-complex // Virgo

Originally posted by dailysherlockholmes

high intelligence, perceptive to details, workaholic, concentrates strongly, energetic, perfectionist, possesses a genius mind, creative imagination, stubborn, narcissistic, understands and analyzes human behaviour, lacks empathy for others, supresses emotions, overthinker

Atticus Finch, tbh I don’t know if there is a bad thing I could say about this man, he is a great and loving father, he is a badass lawyer and he shoots like a young god, i mean look at him! who wouldn’t want to be Mrs. Finch? // Libra

Originally posted by frerodelavega

kind-hearted, fair, stern but loving, honest, consistent, fights for justice, calm, quiet, moral, open-minded, courageous, strong-minded, respectful, faithful, wise, empathetic, intelligent, omniscient, great guide/Mentor

Edward Fairfax Rochester, a rude and horny but romantic dude who totally forgot that he locked his wife in the basement and thinks bigamy is a perfectly legit thing // Scorpio

Originally posted by royallstorm

excessively passionate, guided by senses, good at reading other’s minds, wild, desires a new life, pompous, genuine, often incapable of restraining his desires, dark and brooding, seeks innocence and freshness in contrast to his troubled life, deeply loving

Enjolras, a super-handsome hunk who thinks about the Revolution 24/7, honestly so much wasted potential because where’s the romance?, but then again it is borderline sexy to fight for what you believe in // Sagittarius

Originally posted by lieselcats

believes in democracy and freedom, charming but also capable of being terrible, rebellious, determined, ambitious, stubborn,  passionate, wild, beautiful, has radical beliefs, stoic, unafraid, “gives more light”, typical leader

Macbeth, incredibly hot and brave warrior who has some trouble with his self-esteem and has to show his wife what a manly man he is, totally obsessed with power which is sexy at the beginning but then it just gets weird // Capricorn

Originally posted by spindle-berry

brave and capable warrior, consuming ambition, self-doubt, powerful, lonely, feels guilty, very manly, kind at the beginning, treacherous, imaginative, ruthless, gullible, loving towards his wife, loyal when not inflicted with his ambition, arrogant, respectful

Jean Valjean, a former prisoner with a giant heart and a helper syndrome, tbh it’s a little bit annoying how good he actually becomes, particularly because he has a shit ton of own problems including a cop whose only mission in life is to catch him // Aquarius

Originally posted by broadwayreprise

honest, hard-working, compassionate, loving, willing to discover goodness, helps others, has a giant heart, idealist, takes responsibility if necessary, brave, selfless, intelligent and perceptive, strong and agile, protective, soft-hearted

Heathcliff, a really sexy beast with the attitude of a bad boy, can’t get over his first and only love and obviously has to behave like the biggest jerk on earth, obsessed with Catherine to the point where it gets really creepy, anyway I guess sex with him takes you to paradise // Pisces

Originally posted by directriz

wild and natural, amoral, cruel, possesses stormy emotions, vengeful, hates and loves with the same intensity, cares for those he loves and desires, obsessive, loyal, passionate, powerful, adventurous but silent child, mysterious

{Special} College!AU Taeyong
  • major: medical laboratory science 
  • minor:  mathematics 
  • sports: tennis team 
  • clubs: was a part of math club and won a regional competition when he was only a freshman,,,,the math dept begged him to switch majors but he said he wouldn’t be able to handle a degree that made him a teacher,,,,,because schools can be,,,,,,,a mess  
  • taeyong is like the model student and everyone in his major thinks he’s a genius,,,,,,,,,,,,but in reality he just stays up three nights in a row neurotically drinking coffee and listening to edm remixes of like jazz songs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,like that is the Truth of his college life
  • was originally going to go into pre-med,,,,but when an emt came to visit and was like “sometimes blood just gets everywhere! and i mean EVERYWHERE” taeyong was like,,,,,,,,,,well he first got out his hand sanitizer and decided then and there that working with machines and in a lab was his aesthetic instead
  • having random people cough on you in the ER is not
  • like blood is cool in the study of hematology and taeyong will get enthusiastic over working with new specimens in his microbiology lab
  • but ,,,,,,, he’s a theory person,,,,,,he wants to help doctors figure out why someone is sick and then the doctors can treat them
  • taeyong is a-ok being behind the studying and lab work,,,,not on the front lines
  • which is baffling to most people because taeyong puts effort into going unnoticed but,,,,it’s Impossible to not notice him
  • even in his lab coat, thick framed glasses, and the usual perfectly bland outfit of black jeans and a button down,,,,,,someone might be like haha what nerd
  • but,,,,,,,one look at his face and it’s like WOAH WHAT 
  • and countless times on his way to his internship or when he’s out getting lunch wtih jaehyun and ten people will be like excuse me,,,are you a model? a site model? a idol? are u on some tv show?
  • and taeyong seriously doesn’t get why he gets asked this so many times,,,,every time humbly apologizing that he’s not the person they’re looking for and getting a little anxious when people are obviously taking photos of him
  • like the amount of times jaehyun has literally had to get up and sit in front of taeyong so people wouldn’t be noisy is insane
  • and the amount of times ten has started an argument on taeyong’s behave is even more because ten is always like taEYONG YOU HANDSOME FRIEND OF MINE I GeT THAT u R BEAUTiFUL but WhY DO peOPLE JusT DISREGARD UR prIVAC-
  • and taeyong always has to calm ten down but all of their friends agree that it’s super weird and gets out of hand
  • but taeyong is too nice to shut it down himself,,,,,so most of the time he slips on those glasses and a hat when he goes out and avoids looking people in the eyes
  • johnny once came over to his dorm and was like “bro i got you this wig. wear it if things get too creepy.” unfortunately the wig was the bright color red and mark was like hey johnny i know ur a senior and all but,,,,,,is ur head in the game,,,bro,,,please,,,
  • is the designated mom of his dorm’s floor because he has evERYTHING on hand from extra chargers, to a first aid kit, to pain killers
  • and every time someone comes into his room (taeyong begged for a single bed,,,,roommates can get a Bit) they’re always amazed at how a boy in college keeps his room sparkling clean
  • and i literally mean sparkling his bed sheets are white, his desk is completely free of everything except his laptop and a cup to hold pens in,,,,,his closet is organized by color: white, black, grey, and brown
  • and he has a little whiteboard where he writes due dates and everyone is like ur seriously a star student why cant i be clean and organized like u
  • except they don’t understand,,,anytime before finals the clean room turns into disarray,,,,,like taeyong literally pulls all his covers off the bed and takes power naps at his desk only to wake up with post-it notes stuck to his face
  • and when finals are over he goes on a cleaning spree in which he offers to do the laundry for everyone on his floor because it calms his nerves
  • he’s a sweet, polite, hard-working kid tbh with the face of an actual god which makes some people think he’s stuck up when he’s the absolute least from it
  • like taeyong is that kid that tutors his seniors for FREE in subjects they should be tutoring him in like what an angel?????/
  • anyway you’re taking organic chemistry with him this semester but the only problem is ,,,,,,you transferred in the middle of the year and therefore are completely falling behind
  • to the point where you don’t even care about saving your grade because no one wants to help and the teacher is super like “well,,,,,,,,,,do it urself im not doing it for u” kinda stick up their butt situation
  • so u start skipping class
  • because everything else ur doing fine in,,,,u have people sharing notes and teachers who get ur situation but organic chem????? the Devil
  • until one day as ur standing in line at the school cafe and u feel a tap on ur shoulder 
  • and u turn around to see this guy,,,,,who u know but ur not sure from where until he’s like “taeyong,,,,im in your organic chem class.” and you roll your eyes at the name of that class but then ur like sORRy,,,,,it’s just that class is so,,,,,
  • and he’s like “ive noticed you’ve stopped coming,,,,,is the material too hard?”
  • and you kind of are taken aback because this chem class isn’t ,,,,,,small it’s a lecture hall full of like 150 people and he noticed,,,,,,you?
  • but you shrug not wanting to come off like ,,,,, obvious and ur like “i transferred and a lot of things didn’t make sense,,,,so i gave up? ill just retake the class next semester.”
  • but taeyong frowns and for a moment you think to yourself: how does someone still look so attractive frowning wth
  • but ur like “it’s whatever, it can’t be helped.” but taeyong is like ,,,,,,,if,,,,if you still want help,,,,,,i can help you
  • and for a moment you’re gonna laugh because there’s like four weeks left of classes,,,,,,the only way to save your grade is to ace the big course final
  • but taeyong seems to fidget a bit when u don’t answer and he goes “b-but if it’s weird,,,,if i seem we,,weird,,,,,,im sor-”
  • and you’re like no no it’s not you,,,it’s just,,,how can u teach me so much in so little time ?? it’d be a lot of work on ur part and we don’t even know each other?
  • but taeyong seems unfazed by the amount of work,,,,tbh he smiles a little when u mention how it’ll take hard work and u dont know because ur new to the school but it’s because every1 always tells taeyong he does too much and works too hard,,,,,but to him it’s all fun like he has fun in his major
  • and he shakes his head and looks at you and again u catch urself sinking a little into his dark,,,pretty eyes and he’s like “im in ,,, if you’re in.”
  • and the line has moved up and the bored looking girl behind the register asks what you’d like to order and ur like ,,,,, one sec- and she’s like i don’t have time tell me so you say ur order,,,turn back to taeyong and ur like “ok,,,,let’s try.” and he’s like “meet me in the library at 8.”
  • and you watch him give a little bow and turn around and for a moment u cant be really sure that just happened,,,,,,,most people in college dont waltz up to others to offer to tutor them,,,,,
  • but as u pay the girl for ur coffee she goes “don’t try asking taeyong out. he never dates.” and ur like ????? what a guy like him definitely has a significant other????? right?????
  • so 8pm comes around and u bring a fresh notebook and the textbook u bought for the class and find that u dont even have to look for a seat because u can see taeyong already at one of the tables
  • and he’s got his lab coat over his chair,,,,his laptop open with some charts up and a heavy looking medical dictionary ,,,, he looks like a straight up doctor tbh 
  • and u sit down,,,startling taeyong who’s glasses slip down his nose just a bit until he’s chuckling and closing his laptop 
  • and u think how good of a tutor can he be to help someone as hopelessly lost as u,,,,,,,,,,,,but the minute taeyong begins to explain it’s like,,,,it’s like everything makes /sense/
  • nothing is complicated or abstract,,,,and u can’t help but be entranced by his smooth, slightly deep voice and the way he points out keywords and writes down formulas in near perfect handwriting 
  • like everything about him is so Professional he’s like,,,he’s like a professor,,,,
  • and it’s kind of super cute how when u ask him to repeat something he doesn’t get ticked off,,,no he gets excited because it’s obvious,,,,this is something taeyong loves
  • and at the end of ur first study session u feel so much better about everything
  • to the point that u even show up to ur class the next day and taeyong doesn’t look up from his notes,,,,,so u cant say hi but,,,,,suddenly it’s not like the teacher is talking nonsense
  • and every other day taeyong comes to the library to teach u,,,although he moves the time up to 10pm and ur not sure,,,maybe classes or clubs
  • and by the sixth time as ur packing up to leave taeyong goes “i see ur coming to class, that makes me happy.” and u don’t know why but,,,,,,,
  • just saying that,,,,,,,,it,,,,,it makes ur heart skip a beat
  • but u remember the words of the girl from the cafe about taeyong never dating and u itch to ask him,,,,but u don’t want to make this relationship more awkward
  • which is why the only time u do ask is when u end up in another class of urs partnered up with yuta and taeil,,,,two boys who immediately go “you’re the one taeyong is tutoring right?” and you’re like,,,yes??? and yuta scratches his head and is like “for organic chem or for immunology? or wait,,,,he’s giving someone tennis lessons too right taeil??” and ur like wow,,,taeyong sure helps a lot of people
  • and taeil nudges yuta but nods and is like “taeyong is really too nice for his own good,,,,,,,,,,” and u nod and try to focus on the project,,,but taeil gives u this like ???? knowing smile
  • and ur like ,,,, w-whats up and taeil is like “u want to know if taeyong is seeing someone?” and u straighten up because ur like ,,,,, UM,,, no-
  • and yuta laughs into his palm and is like “it’s ok,,,i know taeyong as a fellow pretty boy everyone always asks us that” and taeil rolls his eyes but he’s like “he’s not, he hasn’t dated anyone in college.” and from the shock on ur face yuta can only nod his head and go “i know,,,it shocks all of us,,,,,,hot girls and hot guys and everyone else all the hot people on campus have made moves on him but he just,,,,,,”
  • and yuta throws up his hands in defeat and taeil shrugs and for a second u think,,,,,,,,well what kind of chance to i stand,,,,,,,but u shake it off and ur like “maybe he’s just waiting!! he’s really nice i hope he finds someone.” 
  • and with that u leave after class,,,realizing that taeyong is helping u from the goodness of his heart,,,,,not because he might harbor something towards u,,,,and u need to accept that
  • but what u dont realize is that as u head toward ur dorm,,,,,taeyong is waiting in the library and when u don’t show up,,,,he goes into a panic
  • and the next day in organic chem he comes rushing up to
  • and for the first time his perfect face is scarred with worry and his hair is a mess and he looks like he hasn’t slept and he’s like,,,,,a,,,,are you ok?? and ur like yes wh- and he seems to calm down and even get embarrassed a bit as he steps back and is like “wi-will you come to the library tomorrow??” and ur like ofc omg 
  • and as ur trying to concentrate,,,u look over to see taeyong dozing off,,,,something he never does,,,,and u wonder why he didn’t sleep
  • and when u go for tutoring taeyong seems a little more reserved,,,,like usually if u make a joke he’ll laugh or if ur fingers brush it’s nothing
  • but now it seems like he’s keeping his distance,,,,,a bit more than usual and u want to ask if something is wrong,,,,,
  • so when ur done with the problem set he has and he gets up almost as if he’s in a hurry,,,,ur reach out and ask him if he’s ok and taeyong,,,looking down at your hand on his wrist ,,,, mumbles that u didn’t show up to tutoring so he thought he’d messed up but u explain that it just slipped ur mind,,,,,,taeyong could never do something wrong
  • and taeyong,,,,looks up at you and smiles just a bit and he’s like “if i do do something wrong,,,please tell me and ill fix it.”
  • and,,,,,,,like,,,,,,,,the pureness of his voice,,,,the way he’d gotten so worried over you,,,,,it makes your heart burst because where else could someone find such a damn near perfect boy
  • and before you can think and stop yourself from speaking you ask; “the final is in a week,,,,,after,,,,,would you want to go out?”
  • taeyong seems to need a moment to register what u mean,,,,but when he does,,,,it’s like all the heat in his body has rushed up into his face and he stutters over an answer until he just goes “im sorry,,,,,,,” and that’s enough for you to get the hint
  • you apologize at least ten times and ur like thIS is awkward,,,ill go and make a dash for the door as quickly as possible
  • because everything is so damn EMBARRASSING and ur like WHAT WERE U THINKING @ yourself the whole time u go to your dorm
  • and for a good hour u just lay down with ur head in ur pillow like gkhdlfjssdf whY DID I OPEN MY MOUTH
  • but taeyong,,,,,who also gets to his dorm just sets down his laptop and tries to think himself,,,why,,,,,,,why did he say im sorry?? when he wanted to say yes,,,,,
  • and the week goes by and the final comes and goes and at the end u want to ball ur eyes out because well one that final was hARD AS HELL but thanks to taeyongs help u feel like u did decently,,,,,but also the whole time u couldn’t help but look over at taeyong and not once,,,,,,did u guys cross eyes
  • and ur convincing urself that he’s forgotten about it,,,,,about you and helping you,,,and every night u spent in the library getting closer and god dammit if u hadnt gotten all worked up over him saying he was worried thiS wouldnt have happened
  • until you walk right into someone and they’re like “woah! watch yourself” and you look up to see the familiar face of taeil and ur like oh right whoops we got an A on our project did u get the email? and taeil nods but he’s like “more importantly,,,,,,,,hows taeyong?”
  • and ur like ?????????/ idk im not his frie-
  • and taeil is like ur not??? taeyong literally tutored u right after his internship for four weeks straight sacrificing his time for u and ur not even friends? doubt it
  • and ur like wait what
  • and taeyong is like yEAH why do u think u had to meet so damn late the poor guy had a class load + an internship in a lab + tutoring and believe me as kind as he is,,,,,,he wouldn’t go to such lengths for a stranger
  • and u can’t believe it,,,,like at all,,,,,,but u feel like such an asshole and ur like “do u know where-” and taeil is like “bus stop near the gym. he should be going there n-” and ur like thANKS SEE U LATER TELL YUTA WE GOT AN A BECAUSE HE NEVER CHECKS HIS EMAIL
  • and as u run u can see taeyong,,,holding his lab coat and his shoulder bag at the stop and u don’t know how much time u have till the bus comes
  • but when u show up in front of him,,,huffing and puffing taeyong immediately worries and tries to offer u his water and ur like no no listen to me 
  • and he’s lie ???? with wide eyes and ur like “im sorry. i never thanked u for tutoring me and we left of on an awkward note and it was sUPER embarrassing but if we could push it aside like i really like u,,,,,,,,but like i want to be ur friend first and foremost because i think ur great and u helped me pass that satanic class and i just didnt know u were staying up so late to tutor me and i just i have a lot more to say but most of all thank you so much taeyong. i appreciate what you did for me.”
  • and u cant believe u had enough breath for all that but taeyong,,,,taeyong is smiling,,,,,,,and it’s the smile that makes his usually stoic, handsome face turn somewhat childish and warm
  • and he puts his hand out to carefully take yours and he’s like 
  • “im happy i could help, but also i,,,,,,,,,”
  • and you think he’s holding ur hand in like ???A friendly way??? but taeyong is literally also shaking??? and ur like is he nervous???
  • but taeyong finally swallows the lump in his throat and goes “but also i don’t want to push what you asked me aside. i,,,,,,,i want to take you on a date,,,,,,,can i?”
  • and you can hear the bus approaching and you can see taeyong’s eyes flash between yours and the road and you know you need to answer
  • but ur like stuck and the bus doors open and taeyong is like “i need to let go but tell me-”
  • and he’s halfway up the steps when you get up into the bus with him and the driver is like ? and you lean up to kiss his cheek and you’re like 
  • “yes,,,,,,,please take me on a date. it would make me really happy.”
  • and the bus driver is like hello are u also getting on and taeyong turns cherry red but he tells u he’ll call - but wait ur number - and ur like oh !! message taeil he has it we were partners and taeyong is like ok!!
  • and the driver is like AHEM but this nice old lady is like “don’t ruin their moment”
  • and basically,,,,you get off the bus and wave to taeyong in the window as it leaves and practically skip back to school because oh my god the undateable taeyong,,,,,,just asked you on a dATE
  • and the date,,,,,,is so simple and sweet 
  • everyone thinks taeyong is some stuck up snob with high taste but nooooope in reality u two go to a cafe that specialize in board games and u guys play monoply on ur first damn date and then some connect four and when u beat him at jenga ur pretty sure he might cry
  • but ur like “taeyong,,,,,,top of ur major and yet,,,,,,,bad at jenga?” and he’s like !!!!!!!! im not rematch!!!!11
  • but u win again and poor taeyong has his head in his hands but he’s having fun and gladly does the penalty (which is buying u guys two more drinks)
  • and it’s like afterwords u learn that taeyong is not flashy,,,,,he takes so much happiness in just walking u to ur dorm afterwords and when u tease him about jenga he just bites his lip and mumbles that it just wasn’t his night tonight,,,,,,
  • and when you lean up to kiss him gently taeyong mumbles against your skin if it’s alright to take u out on a second date and u think how cute,,,,but completely agree
  • and two dates turn into more dates and before u know it u and taeyong are dating with matching couple rings to prove it 
  • which yuta thinks is cheesy but taeil just tells him to shut it and be happy for taeyong 
  • but on a real note taeyong takes dating as seriously as his studies,,,he puts his efforts into making you happy and learning more about you
  • and it’s so adorable when he’ll point something out and be like “it reminds me of you!” and,,,,it’s like,,,,,,,what an observant, caring boyfriend 
  • you tell taeyong once you don’t like this specific kind of fruit so when u guys get a fruit salad he asks if u want him to pick out the ones u dont like and u just laugh and go i can just not eat them!!! and he gets red,,,,but like it’s the sentiment that counts
  • taeyong works most of his week and studies super hard so u don’t get to go out a lot and taeyong apologizes for that
  • but you just hold his face in your hands and tell him that no. his studies come first because it’s his future
  • and once taeyong mumbled that he hopes ur his future too and it made ur heart,,,,,,,,,it literally made ur heart burst and you were like taeyong don’t say things like that and he was like im sorry,,,but why not
  • and u were like because it makes me want to kiss u and u have calculus homework right 
  • people that took pics of taeyong when u go out always just get super long glares from u and at one point u were like “that’s illegal i can sue on behave of my boyfriend”
  • and taeyong was like ,,,,angel it’s ok,,,,,,,but u were like anyone who wants to disrespect him come @ me i will prote-
  • u and ten get along really well just fyi
  • taeyong introduces u to mark and ur just like !!!!!! wow!!!!! so adorable and taeyong is like rIGHT he’s so cute he’s my son and mark is like ??? but both u and taeyong dote on him and sometimes he’s like guys,,,,please,,,,
  • but most of the time he likes it because u and taeyong will cook for him if he asks LOL
  • for someone who hides behind his glasses taeyong sends u selfies whenever he’s with mark because he’s like !!!!!! look how cute
  • but also sometimes he sends some of himself and he’s like ‘i look so bad ive been studying for 4 hours’ but in reality. he doesn’t look bad. he looks like a model. what the heck. what the actual heck
  • taeyong keeps his desk super clean but he’s recently let u put up some photos in frames,,,one of them is his sister ,,, another his parents,,, then one of him and his friends ,,,,,,,and then one of u guys,,,,shyly holding hands under fireworks and it’s cute
  • because before he used to keep everything completely in check but when u doodle a heart on his whiteboard he can’t erase it,,,,he just thinks of u and smiles
  • doesn’t share his hoodies but it’s ok because when u hug him his smell gets stuck in ur clothes and u love it
  • u taught taeyong how to use emojis the right way because when u sent him a bunch of hearts he was like ‘isn’t one enough’ and u were like taeyong no i love u much more than one heart emoji and he was like oh! i should sent more too because i love u so much and it was cORNY but so damn cute
  • his pda is kept to a minimum because taeyong sees intimacy as something very special and he always wants to make sure it’s shared between you and him 
  • and he’ll like it when u take control because taeyong wants to do anything to please u and sometimes u have to remind him that it’s ok for him to indulge
  • and he’ll just shyly hide into ur neck but it’s ok because when u run ur hands down his spine u can hear a low sound from him and it’s,,,,,,hot
  • also loves being kissed on the back of his neck like the nape it always makes him really soft and if he’s overworking himself 
  • ull like come up from behind while he’s hunched over a book and kiss his nape and he’ll completely kind of loosen up and let u drag him out for a snack so he doesn’t die in all his class notes
  • and taeyong tells u after sometime that dating,,,,,and being close to people always worried him because he didn’t know if he could make someone happy
  • but you tell him that he makes u the most happy,,,,even if he has quirks about him and gets excited over math,,,,,that’s so adorable to you
  • like you’re the one person that taeyong should never be scared of hurting,,,,,,because you know how much effort he puts into his work and u know he’d never do anything to harm u or his friends
  • and it’s cute,,,,,,u wait for him to get back to campus after his internship and taeyong is always like !!!!! it’s cold and dark dont 
  • but ur always there and when he gets off the bus he makes u wait till it leaves but then u guys kiss and it’s cute and u laugh against each others lips
  • and although taeyong doesnt like to share his clothes he’ll pull his lab coat over the two of u and be like “kiss me again” and ur like ooo someone is actually more into pda than we thought?? and he’s like shy,,,but also u do kiss him and it’s soft
  • my conclusion is college!taeyong is soft ok everyone please be nice to him

find:

college vixx (here) / college bts (here) / college seventeen (here)
college monsta x (here) / college got7 + amber + kard (here)

topaz-rabbit  asked:

You know how Mr Alan Ituriel joked about being Black Hat's dad. Okay, what if that were true, and Mr Ituriel was his dad and raised him since he was a barely sentient eldritch squid baby monster thing. How's that possible if BH is probably really fucking old. Easy Mr Ituriel would be some immortal that one day was like"yep, I'm going to raise this demon. Sounds fun." But he's the most suburban of dads ever, but never tried stifling BH's evil tendencies, he encouraged them even.

(Continued) Like Mr Ituriel has seen his son kill several men, and was just like ‘eh, kids will be kids.’ He is an immortal that gives no fucks. He is one of the few humans BH can say he’s ‘fond’ of (will never say it out loud) The one time he visited his son, because he’s a proud pop pop of his sons success and see how he’s doing because HE NEVER CALLS. So as a slight act of payback, he tells EMBARRASSING stories ‘Remember when your powers started to come in Hattie? You scared yourself silly!’

((I am torn between staying consistent with my personal theories and completely abandoning them for this great hc. So let’s just say I’m gonna be very contradictory with whatever the fuck I post, because oh man Normal Dad Alan Ituriel is a very good idea indeed.))

  • Alan, an immortal demi-human with abnormal morals who lives in the Mexican suburbs, is walking by an alleyway or something when he hears some kind of blood-curdling screech
  • naturally his first instinct is ‘oooh what the fuck is that let’s go find out.’ so he looks in a dumpster, and finds one dead-looking prostitute with some kind of Alien-franchise-esque parasite abomination thing crawling out of her chest cavity. It’s covered in blood, seems to be only made of wriggling black tentacles, and hissing.
  • “Aww, cute! Come on little guy, let’s get you cleaned up.” He kinda scoops him up with a shopping bag; he may be immortal, but fuck touching whatever fluids those are. Alan casually carries his writhing, screaming horrorterror baby home in a yellow plastic bag, and promptly throws it into the tub.
  • (Cue the insane bathtime montage where Alan locks it in the bathroom and sprays it with the showerhead until it’s clean enough to touch. BH tries to “kill” him (his hand) several times. Alan laughs.)
  • Once BH is thoroughly doused, he resembles a drenched eldritch cat, a soggy, angry bundle of wriggling flesh, multiple eyes, and gnashing teeth. He has not stopped trying to bite Alan.
  • Alan grabs him by the “scruff” and he immediately starts fighting back. He puts him in a cage until BH tires himself out from screaming and pounding at the bars. The two just stare at each other for a moment, silently regarding the other.
  • Alan sits in front of it and throws a small piece of raw meat into the cage. BH devours it in seconds. Alan unlocks the cage. BH instantly tries to attack him again. Alan puts him back in the cage. He waits a few minutes for the tantrum to end, then repeats the process.
  • eventually BH realizes he can get more food if he stays still for longer. so he stops fighting back and let’s Alan lure him closer, piece by piece. Eventually Alan has BH practically in his lap, literally eating out of the palm of his hand. With more food in him, he’s calmed down a bit. Alan smiles. Okay, this is pretty cute.
  • Only Alan would find BH eating cute tbh, it’s quite fucking disgusting how much raw meat has been spilled all over the place
  • Eventually BH is sated, becoming sleepy and much more complacent. He bites very, very weakly when Alan picks him up. Alan kind of cradles him like a baby, then pets him like a cat. The tentacles quiver. “Weird.” He thinks that means he likes it? BH falls asleep in Alan’s arms. “Cool.”
  • Fast forward a couple months, when BH exits the “larval stage.” That outer casing of tentacles is basically a cocoon, and BH eats and grows and eats and grows until he goes from small cat-sized to human-toddler sized. Then he stops fucking moving.
  • Alan freaks out thinking that he’s killed his adopted son after poking him with a stick for a day doesn’t do anything. Then, the outer casing splits open. BH re-emerges from his “pupal stage” as a fully-grown juvenile, basically a one-year old child. He looks like a miniature version of his current form, but without the dapper clothes or any teeth, and with two open eyes. Alan literally squeals and hugs him. BH tries to bite him again. Some things never change.
  • From there it’s basically like raising a baby, with a couple more eldritch aspects. BH grows twice as fast as an ordinary human. Alan dresses him in adorable baby clothes, not because he needs them, but because it makes him look “soooooo cuuuuute!!!”
  • BH’s teeth grow in, and Alan has to use metal teething rings when normal plastic doesn’t work. BH’s learns how to walk with Alan holding his hands. BH’s claws grow in and Alan files them down for him so he doesn’t hurt himself.
  • It takes about a month or so for BH to start talking. Normally he makes little eldritch blurbles that would make a human’s bones melt. Alan just repeats normal words that sound vaguely similar. Eventually BH gets the hang of it. (BH always claims that his first word was “evil”, but it’s his and Alan’s closest-kept secret that it was actually “papá”)
  • Black Hat’s powers come in during his “evil puberty.” He wakes up one morning feeling a little odd and… shimmery? It feels like his body isn’t quite there, like he’s almost floating outside of his flesh. Then he looks down, focusing on his arm. It solidifies more, feels less fuzzy. He focuses again, bringing the fuzziness back, and watches as it changes
  • “DAD HOLY FUCK”
  • Alan is kind of nervous as BH demonstrates how he can turn his arm into an actual, functioning snake. He gets even more nervous when BH starts sleep-teleporting. Alan wakes up with BH on the roof, BH in the garden, BH on the floor of his room, and BH a couple streets away. He always manages to find his son though, he just has to hurry before BH wakes up. (The first time Black Hat woke up after a sleep-teleport, he was confused and scared and started ripping dimensional holes trying to get home. Alan found him about a town over, but it had been quite the scare.)
  • Shortly after this, BH’s “edgy” phase started. (“MY NAME IS MR. WUT NOW DAD”) Alan never really tried to talk him out of it, instead just giving him the eldritch version of “The Talk.”
  • “Now I know that lately your body has been going through some… changes, and I know that might be scary. But any, uh, urges you feel are completely natural, and–” “DAD FOR FUCK’S SAKE I KNOW ALREADY, OKAY?? I’ve been murdering people for like, five months now.” “Oh, okay, if you ever need any, protection, or help hiding a body, you know you can always ask–” “GET OUT OF MY FUCKING ROOM!

It’s a great relationship they have. BH moves out a couple years later to start his business, and refuses to call Alan (out of pride? probably??) Alan doesn’t let him get away that easily, and each year he makes several unannounced visits. It almost always results in some kind of one-sided yelling match between the angry Black Hat and his cheerful dad, as his horrified employees listen on…

in light of recent events

here’s my great comet experience from 6/15/17
GREAT COMET NOTES (this is like a month after I saw it and I didn’t know it when I saw it so I prolly missed everything)

•the outside of the theatre before you go in looks like a war bunker there’s torn up posters and everything!!!
•we technically had the worst seats in the house and we got no interactions but it’s ok
•I think sumayya has our section but I’m not sure?
•no pierogis I was depressed
•they were playing korobeiniki it was lit
•gelsey was walking around pre show what a bean
•I forgot who came up to us for the safety announcement but whoever you are I love you!!
•"keep all things out of the aisles! bags, programs, children, i don’t know"
•"repeat offenders shall be sent to Siberia"
•THE FUCKING R A I D SIRENS TO START THE SHOW I HAD A HEART ATTACK
•you can’t rlly see pierre @ the beginning from my seats he’s blocked by the chandeliers
•speaking of lighting the lights on the end tables brighten and dim with the music it’s great
•during prologue everyone has a pose that’s usually “raise hand dramatically and take a shot” but dolokhov’s was fist pumping???
-azudi was in for nick and he was so good but very different from what I’ve seen of nick
-his voice lowkey reminds me of taye diggs tbh
•Josh’s pierre? Wow. you can see his facial expressions from the rear mezz legit
•the end aaaaaAAAAAAAAA at pierre? art
•grace McLean has SUCH stage presence
-she’s like lowkey mean to sonya????
•denee was a lil bit quiet but it was prolly a mic problem
•I forgot that sonya and natasha were cousins and proceeded to lowkey ship them for the majority of the show ngl
•ok bolkonsky is literally terrifying sorry guys
•people enjoy me though got laughs (he awkwardly stares at part of the banquettes it’s very weird i love it)
•the where are my glasses bit I almost had a fuckin panic attack
•also Paul pinto is bolkonskys servant here and it’s hilarious but also.
-when he’s singing he’s fuckin bent in half with like a serving tray in hand/on his back how does he do that
•like i feel u Mary your dad is legit SCARY
•"natasha is young… an WorthleSS and DUMB.“
•natasha and bolkonsky was lowkey funny tho
•HEllo. HEllo
•they grab chairs and sit around a table with some audience members and there’s an awkward 10 seconds of them shuffling around and making room for themselves
•CONSTRAAAAAAINED AND STRAAAAAINED
•says the mean old man in his underthings
•so I LOVE no one else!
•the fake snow!!!
•the light bulbs coming down to look like stars???!
-my entire aesthetic TBH
•the opera feels like a drug trip honestly
•THE OPERA THE OPERAAAAA
•Paul in a top hat(?)
•the opera singers
•just all of the opera
•the glitter falling down
•andrey(?) getting ‘killed’ and the way they do the ribbons. wow
•azudi has such prescense like damn
-like, wow. i was like. damn. he's… he’s fedya
•HELENE???? wow.
•helene and dolokhov arm in arm?more like helene and dolokhov tongue in mouth
•"no I am enjoying myself at home this evening” he says, sitting in the pit while reading a book
•ANATOLES ENTRANCE MMMMMMM FUCK
•like the comes in with the lights blaring, he lowkey looks like he’s been surrounded by paparazzi and he just snaps his fuckin head around by 90 degrees like “make sure to get my good angles oh wait they’re all good”
•like I love him but also me, a hardcore theatre person was pissed because WHO WALKS IN DURING THE MIDDLE OF THE ACT
•also this boy literally checked himself out every time he passed a mirror. without fail.
•BRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVOOOOOOOOOOOOAH !!
•natasha and anatole
•anatole fuckin peacocks up to the top of the stage where natasha is and leans against the balcony and very deliberately sticks out his ass
•the “you ought to come, please come"s are so adorable!!!! like wow Lucas despite being anatole the pompous asshole he doesn’t forget to remind people that anatole’s a child. he’s a literal child.
•the way denee says enraptured
•kiss me on the neck part is like OOOoooOoo
•on “give me this flower as a pledge” he takes Natasha’s flower from her hair and natasha gets a lil mad like ‘wtf did I say you cld do that”
•THE DUEL IS SO LIT
•anatole walks down to where Pierre is sitting and he looks so miffed
•there’s this little shoulder thing that Lucas does during “were off to the club!” And it is so adorable like again what I said about him being a child
•lend me fifty rubles?
•I don’t know if azudi did the weird nick choksi dance I didn’t check TBH
•the fuckin strobe lights wtf
•how do they move around
•there are light up shoes
•I don’t know if there was “oh yeah show me what you got girl” rip
•also during the really cool electric part right after the “feather in my hat” thing they did this awesome thing with the lights where they synced it up so that a spotlight hit for each note and idk how to explain it but they went along like little footsteps kinda?
•I believe josh downs a glass after “pouring several glasses.”
•I think dolokhov fills helenes drink but idk
•Paul pinto’s voice is so distorted during his part the duel bc the bass is So Much the entire theatre is Vibrating
•they advance slowly towards each other and when josh fires they both look so shocked
•pierre stands right at the barrier with his arms outstretched waiting for dolokhov to shoot him
•meanwhile dolokhov is only shooting with one arm bc his other arm is propping up the shooting arm which pierre just fucking shot
•the shot goes off
•there’s like 5 seconds of silence
•and then he just, looks up, pats himself over, and is just like “wait shit,,,, I’m ok????”
•anatole carries dolokhov off
•what can I say, it’s a Gift
•honestly what can I say about dust and ashes that hasn’t already been said
-like there is such a good energy build in that song dave malloy man what a genius
•the part with the mirror is lowkey adorable
-they do the candle thing. Natasha’s like “I see my face” and sonya just gives her a look like “you know that’s not what I meant”
•also correct me if I’m wrong but doesn’t anatole stand so that natasha sees him in the mirror
•also grace just fuckin yelling “sUNDAY MORNING TIME FOR C H U R CH”
•CHARMING W O W
•Helene just walks in on natasha in her underwear and she’s like sup girl
•she swishes her dress so much it’s beautiful
•definitely got some Gay Vibes from that
•natasha starts to swish her dress too !!
•she then like epically changes into another dress
•Helene takes off Natasha’s necklace and replaces it with her own
•the transition from charming to the ball is effortless i love it
•I don’t remember much about the ball tbh
•except for:
-thinking “dang I’d go with him too if he spoke to me like that”
-the kiss!!!!!!! wow
-the silent but collective 'oh shit’ after it happened was real
-like you just feel everything natasha is feeling just through the music WOW
-the HARMONIES!!!
-the I WILL LOVE YOU ANATOOOOOOLEs wow I had a heart attack
-I’ll do anythiiing for youuuuuuuuuuuuuu


***INTERMISSION***

ACT 2:
•MORE RAID SIRENS JFC
•SO letters is legit such a bop
•(didn’t get a letter tho rip me)
•FOR I V E BEEN STUDYING THE CABAL (I think this is the park where he slaps the book and dust flies out but I’m not sure)
•A LETTER WHICH *I* COMPOSED
•A LOVE LETTER A LOVE LETTER A LOVE LETTER A LOVE LETTER
•nATALIE NATALIE NATALIE
•also when the chorus joins in for the “NATALIE NATALIE NATALIE"s the lights sync up w them so they brighten when it happens it’s so COOL
•I WILL COME AND STEAL YOU
AAY EAL
TEAL W ST
aWWWWAY S YOU A

UT OF THE D
YOU OU A A
A
A
ARK
•the way he did the “just say yes"s was really funny for some reason?
-he gets down on his knees or at least crouched down so he’s shorter then denee
-he looks up with the puppy dog eyes of a practiced privileged white kid
-just say yeeeeeeeeessssssssss
-*pauses and awaits for natasha to respond. she does not*
-just saaaaaay yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessss
-*another pause. no response from natasha. audience laughs*

YEEEEEEEEEEEESS
-……… just saayyyyyyy
-when Natasha’s like "yes! yes!” Lucas dashed over to Helene hand he’s all smiley and he gives her fake punches like “!!! i did it!!!! i really did it!!!!!!”
•ps i love the irony of natasha and pierre and mary all saying “so alone in here” at the same time
•so sonya and natasha
•sonya, friend Protector extraordinaire
•Natasha’s “I HAAAAATE YOU SONYA"s were so convincing it hurt my heart
•Brittain legit started sobbing wow
•sonya alone
•oh my god
•OH MY GOD
•so as much as i love dust and ashes sonya alone is my absolute favorite solo
-she just stands alone on stage with a single lightbulb over her head
-and has this beautiful soliloquy
-i was crying. brittain was crying. everyone was crying
-the "and if i never sleep again” part is just so beautiful and heartbreaking ugh
•preparations was so good but it was like a lil bit weird to hear azudi bc he doesn’t sound At All like nick which isn’t a bad thing at all I’m just used to having a Very Clearly Midwestern 19th Century Russian Dolokhov™
•so in the beginning anatole comes up to pierre and he’s holding a bag and The Green Coat
•also shaving cream
-on the “lend me fifty rubles” Pierre gets out his wallet and takes out the money and holds it out for anatole to take and instead of taking the money anatole just takes his whole fuckin wallet
•azudi’s voice was just a lot more musical theatre-y i guess? idk
•but he still did amazing he did not miss a beat like Wow
•BALAGA
•sadly did not get a shaker rip
•but the whole theatre was so lit during this song
•the Green Coat in all its glory
•just as squishy and majestic in person
•Paul pintos energy was off the charts!!!!
•idk what happened with danatole ugh I wasn’t lookin
•they were all dancing it was so beautiful and chaotic
•when josh goes “wOOOOOAAAAAAAAAH” they pause for a few secs to catch their breath it’s real funny
•here's…… to……HAPPINESSFREEDOMANDLIFE
•anatole does these fun hand motions when the ensemble joins in for the next “WOAH OOAH
OOO O O OAH
O O
kinda like he’s conducting them
•The Abduction is possibly my new fav group number
•lucas’ wOAAAAAAAAAAAAH’ lasted forever oh geez
•THE VIOLIN HOLY SHIT GUYS
•he was finessing every man, woman, and nonbinary person in the fuckin room with that violin
•güd shit
•"smash your glasses on the floor” is the 19th century russian equivalent of “SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS”
•and then there’s a whole bunch of dancing
•and then The shut The door part
•i was a lil miffed bc you couldn’t see what he was doing to the person next to him from my seat but everyone laughed so /:
•azudi in the Abduction aka slay my life
•he looks legit so concerned for anatole
•but also he’s like take the cloak you stupid fuck
•i think he takes the cloak off of pearl but if not sure
•gelsey as the maidservant!!!!
•she fuckin slayed those high notes
•they were slewn
•MARYA MY GIRL JUST BURSTING IN LIKE HAH YOU THOUGHT BITCH
•in my house is a song of pure unfiltered RAGE
•props to grace because it’s very hard sometimes to like a character as aggressive as mama marya but she’s one of the best characters in the show honestly
•the part where the music which had been so chaotic and energetic for like half an hour almost starts to mellow out and marya does the whole “I covered her with two quilts” thing is the auditory version of a liminal space
•the last lyrics of in my house sung by natasha are pretty haunting not gonna lie
•I don’t remember anything from a call to pierre TBH except for marya tracking pierre down and all of pierre’s “whAAAt"s getting more and more loud and honestly that’s all I needed to remember
•also grace being terrifying but what’s new
•I feel like this is weird but I really love find anatole
•like Lucas and josh have a really fun chemistry I don’t know
•josh laps the entire stage "looking” for anatole
•he literally seizes Lucas by the collar and at the bash your head in line he picks up what I originally thought was a bottle but Is actually a bear paperweight and legit looks like he wants to murder him
•also at the part where it sounds like a computers breaking down that’s when natasha poisons herself
•i personally didn’t realize this bc i was too focused on Lucas ngl
•like he looks so terrified
•pierre rather unsubtly gestures to anatole’s crotch during the “besides your pleasure” bit
•when anatole goes “you could at least take back your words, eh?” pierre just. glares at him. he’s like “are you… are you fucking kidding me”
•"PETERSBUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURG!“
•he held that note forever i swear
•there was a long bit of applause after that
•anatole’s exit is just as dramatic as his entrance honestly
•natasha very ill is just so… sobering? like it’s been nonstop energy and anger and panic and manic energy for like half and hour and then the whole thing just slows down
•I don’t remember much of pierre + andrey but people usually read it as andrey being sarcastic but he seemed genuinely worried about natasha to me i don’t know tho
•pierre and natasha just. wow
•denee comes in in her dressing gown and braided hair and she’s just stripped raw it’s so beautiful and impactful
•and the way denee leans on the handrails for support, she was just so so good w o w
•Josh’s "if i were not myself” monologue is done I believe as Natasha’s about to leave, then as he starts talking she just stops and listens and at the end you see her physically regain some of her innocence •and when she touches his face!!!!!!! wowwwww
•like when I see any musical, i didn’t pay much attention to the last song because oH NO THE SHOW IS ALMOST OVER WHAT NO IT CANT BE OVER
•josh has the voice of an angel wow
•the strings at the end are very anxiety inducing
•as they get higher and higher the comet glows brighter and brighter it’s really mesmerizing
•just. wow.
THE BOWS!!!!
•i love the bows music wow it’s so amazing
•there was a standing o
•also so much applause for lucas and denee and josh

STAGE DOOR
•i don’t remember half of the people that came out in sorry
•here’s what i do remember
-we came out of the wrong side of the theatre and had to fucking bolt to the other side
-josh canfield came out for sure he was so nice!
-azudi came out and he saw the great comet hat i just bought and he was jokingly like “no way i have one just like it!”
-2 girls in all purple clothing and wigs i don’t remember who they were im sorry
-gelsey came out i was crying a little bit!!!
-josh came out but he didn’t go down as far as i was (the barricades didn’t stretch that far rip)
-I had a full conversation to pearl rhein about how she looks like lulu @melchixr and she was like! “no way! my name is pearl and lulu in swahili means pearl!” she was so nice
-cathryn wake addressed my playbill to me she was so lovely wow
-lucas came out last and he was wearing a pastel green baseball cap i was living
-i asked him for a picture he was literally so nice?????? w o w
-so the line was stretching way back like past the barricades and paul god bless him was trying to exit out of the doors in the back like the one with denee’s face on it
-little did he know the line stretched back so far that the end of the line was just around said door
-he opened the door and accidentally fuckin decked the person standing in front of it
-he apologized profusely and just kinda scampered off god love him
-when i left i stopped for a sec and lucas was walking out and he patted me on the back i absolutely started crying
-side note: andy mientus was at the show and i didn’t know and when i got home and found out i was like “wHAT? DID HE GO BACKSTAGE? COULD I HAVE S E EN HIM IF I WAS CLOSER UP??”

in summary, great comet was the single most amazing and unique theatre experience I’ve ever had and i would do almost anything to get to experience again

thefierceotaku  asked:

How does adhd affect you? If you don't mind me asking. My friend he adhd and I want to be there for him.

Pretty much in the ways you’d expect tbh–

  • Focusing on anything I’m not at-that-moment interested in is practically impossible.
  • ^Especially if it’s reading large paragraphs of text, even if I am interested in the topic that kinda focus is hard.
  • I have little to no perception of time 9 times outta 10.
  • Talking to authority figures or about myself generally is not a fun time due to RSD.
  • On focus again– on worse days I won’t be able to read/process the words I’m looking at on a page if someone’s talking in the room.
  • More recently, the nonverbal bouts I’ve mentioned due to brain overload for one reason or another.
  • My brain goes a mile a minute in a very roundabout and seemingly disconnected ways, so sometimes in conversation I’ll blurt out apparently totally unrelated things that I actually got to logically, just way too fast;
  • My memory is terrible - like, good lord.
  • It can be hard for me to focus on conversations / for people to get my attention if I see something interesting.
  • Sensory overload– personally I got it whenever I used to go to church, for example, ‘cause there were so many sounds and sights and smells and you have to stay still and quiet throughout it but my brain was just freaking out internally the whole time. But anywhere with a lot of sensory things going on can set it off.
  • Kind of sensory overload related (??)– sometimes my meter for conversation will hit rock bottom by the end of the day but somebody will still wanna talk and I’ll just be there flailing on the spot both physically and mentally ‘cause processing any more interactions just hurts.
  • Stimming: it’s not something I realize much until I think about it, but for example; personally, at work I feel weird without my lanyard cause I’m used to the weight of it and tend to play with the keychains on it or pop my nametag in my mouth while I’m walking around – idk it’s kind of a grounding thing – kinda like those totem things in Inception, haha.

there’s probably stuff I’ve forgotten tbh (like I said; memory problems, lmao) but that list looks long enough – all these things obviously differ in intensity from person to person, but hopefully that gives ya some insight on what might be up for if ever your pal seems a bit off at all

(Y’all feel free to reblog this too btw, might help spread some understanding)

so if you guys didn’t know, @deancasheadcanons has this wonderful fic called kvetch, a college au based on the university she went to, which i now go to. i found this fic a few weeks ago for the first time, after being a big fan of madd’s works for like at least a year. if you’ve read the fic you’ll know that dean works at the school newspaper, and dean and cas meet (sorta) through the ‘kvetching board’, a column specific to our paper. turns out, i have a good friend who also works at the school newspaper, and used to watch supernatural, and reads/writes fanfiction, so i sent her the link to the fic. we were both kinda freaking out, cuz like, apparently the setup of the rooms is the same or whatever, which isn’t that weird because like, madd /did/ work there, but it was kinda weird because oh my gosh internet is merging into real life where did that line between fanfiction and reality go??

anyways, yesterday someone handed me the paper and told me to look at the kvetches. i didn’t really think anything of it, tbh i thought it would be like a meme or something, but i open it up and the one at the very top was directed at ME. 

after a little bit of sleuthing (ok it didn’t take a lot of sleuthing), i figured out that the person who submitted the kvetch was the friend who i shared the fic with because newspaper. who probably didn’t even have to /submit/ the kvetch because like, she works there. and it’s based on a fic i shared with her and god it’s so cute.

so i guess we’re gonna go on a date now? all thanks to destiel fanfiction. follow your dreams, kids. #thanks madd

anonymous asked:

Mtl moon signs and why please? I love to read your opinions

Aw thank you!

  1. scorpio moon: the deepest emotions I’ve ever seen, once they open up to you is like a treasure only for you to see. Supportive even if they may not appear to be and understanding af. They just get me.
  2. libra moon: super sensitive but know how to control it. Charming and fun, can be a bit self centered but they mean well tho. They make you feel pretty. Very empathetic.
  3. gemini moon: funny af, the best at flirting and super quick thinkers. Can lack empathy sometimes and don’t even know what they are feeling rn. Soooo moody omg.
  4. virgo moon: gentle and sensitive but practical, they can play the victim sometimes tho. Great listeners and great at emotional support bc they come up with the best advice.
  5. aquarius moon: I love them. Gimme the space I need, have the emotional detached nature I need, they got everything. Super sensitive but never show it which pisses me off sometimes bc I want some human connection too yunno.
  6. aries moon: they get me (duh) but can be a lot meaner than me which I don’t like. Hide a softness inside, and when you get to see it it feels so nice. Lack empathy too at times lol.
  7. sagittarius moon: super chill, super funny, love memes and run from human emotions. Sometimes I wonder wtf is going on with them bc they go from asshole mood to nice and sweet mood which just sends mixed signals to me. Love them tho.
  8. cancer moon: a bit too sensitive for me but they are very understanding and gentle which I like a lot. Especially cancer moon men. Lack of dignity 100000% srry guys, it’s the truth.
  9. leo moon: awesome, classy and well liked without even trying. Nice style and have the weirdes occurences at times. Need attention like a flower needs the sun.
  10. taurus moon: not my cup of tea tbh, they need a stableness I can’t offer lmao. Seriously the most stable people you’ll ever meet, I’ve never seen them lose their shit tbh. Love food and use it as comfort, something I can relate to lol.
  11. capricorn moon: hermetic af, deal with emotions so bad, RIP. I’m not saying there aren’t some great cap moons out there lol, I just haven’t met them. My mom has this and she has sucked at times. She’s good now tho. Very mature!
  12. pisces moon: very nice and super attentive until they feel hurt and start making shit up and acting like you just kicked their puppy. Otherwise the sweetest people in earth. The girls are little angels in Earth tbh.
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you were born with a word on your tongue - Dialux - A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

My shamefully late @alternatesongs fic, written for fanetjuh.

Pairing: Jon Snow x Sansa Stark

Summary: Sansa leaves Winterfell to marry Prince Jon Targaryen, but the road south is treacherous beyond imagining; when Sansa is betrayed, she is all alone. Terrified, she assumes the personality of Alayne- a bastard from the Vale, who herds geese for the King.

[Goose Girl AU, where families have magic and Sansa is a princess in the North, but things get worse before getting better.]

Notes: Many thanks to @alittlestardustcaught for helping with information on geese, and many thanks to @subjunctivemood for allowing the submission past the deadline!

NCT 127 reaction to you calling them daddy

MASTERLIST

Anon: Do you do smut reactions? Can you do one with Nct U and 127 (Not including Mark and Haechan) react to you calling them daddy? It’s okay if you don’t want to do it. Btw I really love your blog. You’re amazing! :)

I literally cringed so hard whilst writing this because this whole daddy rage for me is a bit weird so it felt weird to write these lmao 

But anyway , I hope you like this! I can add Ten or Hansol or Kun if you want me too! Please enjoy and send in feedback if you do! Bisous, Flo xx

(its not that graphic tbh)

You can find TenKunSol’s (Ten, Kun, Hansol) reaction here:

Taeil: 

Would pull a face when you called him that. “Are you mocking my age?” He’d question you, raising an eyebrow. Secretly though he’d love it, despite his initial reaction. Next time you’d have sex, he’d ensure that you called him that again, loving the dominance the word gave him in bed. 

Johnny:

Like Johnny is daddy!af so like I have nothing to say 

jks 

Johnny would only enjoy it on rare occasions. The times where he’d get super rough with you and dominant. Usually if he was jealous or if you hadn’t seen each other for a long time. He’d get an instant boner, and would pick you up bridal style, carry you to the bedroom, before tying you to all four bedposts of the bed and having his way with you. 

Taeyong: 

Honestly, Taeyong would prefer to be called “sir” over “daddy” just because he found it weird to be called something a toddler calls their father. If you ever did, his eyes would darken and he’d grab your wrist, “you better correct yourself young lady/man. It’s “sir” to you”. This would only make the pair of you even hornier, and you’d defiantly be punished through overstimulation for calling him that. 

Yuta: 

This would make him feel like the man. Although he wouldn’t have a daddy kink, he wouldn’t mind sometimes, like if he was feeling low or self conscious, to be reminded of how much of a man he really was. He’d let you dominate him and would watch you intensely, telling you to do various things for him e.g. “open your legs for daddy”. It would really boost his self esteem. 

Doyoung: 

The first time you called him “daddy” he’d be confused. He’s probably very clueless about kinks and fetishes, so would have no idea what to do. Once you explained it to him, he’d want to the idea, but would need to put it in practice just to make sure. This would be the first time he’d ever get that dominant and sexy with you but it defiantly wouldn’t be the last time either. 

Jaehyun: 

He wouldn’t like to be called anything but his name in bed, but would get hard if you ever called him that in public. If you were horny and started teasing him, whispering rude things and calling his daddy seductively into his ear, he wouldn’t last long. “Daddy” was just a part of dirty talk for him, and dirty talk would really make him horny for you. Either through the phone, text, webcam or in person, any form of dirty talk would result in a 100% success rate of sex lol 

WinWin: 

Honestly, WinWin would be so vanilla in bed (which is not a bad thing, I think that’s good) He’d find it a bit weird and would be confused as to why people would ever find sexiness in such a normal word. But, if that was something you wanted to do or try, he’d defiantly let you. In bed, and in general, he’d just want to please you, so if that meant being called “daddy”, he’d do it for your sake 

(on a serious note though, if someone doesn’t like something in bed, don’t keep doing it because you like it - both people should enjoy it and like it ok)

Reigen Headcanons

lmao this is long overdue, but tbh i was stuck on him for a bit. (which is why i saved him and mob for last)

// Teru // Shou // Ritsu // Reigen // Mob // Serizawa //

  • Probably has like. barely any Casual Clothes. at least 70% of his wardrobe is suits and ties and slacks because he always is Dressed to Impress
    • but. that 30% is like old worn out shirts of bands that no one remembers and weird pajama pants with tacky designs on them
    • 70% classy 30% tacky
  • sometimes passes out on his desk at the office. not all the time, but often enough that he has a constant kink in his neck
    • gets woken up at 3am by Shou breaking a potted plant while crawling through the window
  • “ooh, god. My neck is absolutely killing me. I don’t even know what I did.” “Maybe its because you’re like fifty, old man.” “wh-aa I uhm– why you even here, Ritsu.” “….. I’m here for Shou…” “oooh I see. So that’s it, huh? Well–” “Oh my god, stop looking at me like that.”
  • has chronic back pain
    • the whole reason he actually learned how to give some killer massages was to try and work the pain out of his own back instead of ‘exorcising’ curses n whatnot, but hey, two birds one stone
  • has a mini fridge in his office
    • before he met mob it used to be full of mostly cheap beer that he could barely stomach. Now there’s always milk, coffee creamer, and whatever is left over from their lunches together
  • has to put a baby lock on said mini fridge
    • teru doesnt know how to unlock them
  • Reigen externally: “oh haha, that, uuh, that was a close one, eh Mob? That damn spirit almost h-had us, huh? good thing I was here.”
    Reigen internally: “holy fucking shit holy crap oh my god oh fu”
  • constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown
    • the only reason he isn’t freaking out 24/7 is because he is really good at just…. shoving all that deep, deep down. He has a killer calm and collected facade
      • the only time his fears, doubts and worries are shown is when he is drunk off his ass (and oh boy does he have a lot of those)
  • the words ‘daycare center’ were once written on the Spirits and Such sign for almost a month is scrawled, messy sharpie
    • Reigen actually did notice it, but Shou would start snickering and giggling whenever he walked past it without saying a thing, so he kept it up to humour him
  • Only remembers Shou and Teru’s name when it’s convenient to him
    • “Eh Mob, where’d that fire headed kid go? I think he took off with my coffee flavouring.” “…. do you mean Shou?” “yeah, that kid.”
    • Hey! Haystack! Get away from the fridge! Didn’t you read the damn sign?” “Sorry boss I don’t know how to read suddenly.”
  • Just as Mob starts telling Teru about how awesome and powerful of a psychic he is, Reigen trips over his own feet in the background and takes a bookshelf down with him
  • screws himself over quite a bit
    • drinks coffee at 9 at night
    • doesn’t readjust that rug near the front of his office, no matter how many times he trips over it
    • repeatedly locks himself out of his office, has to wait for Mob to drag Ritsu by so he can pick the lock
      • doesnt dare question why the fuck ritsu knows how to pick locks
  • will sometimes stay up late at night, staring up at his ceiling with dead eyes because he realized that he has four kids latching onto him
    • like, wtf??? He’s not Adulty enough to take care of this many kids?? why do they keep coming back?? is he supposed to be some sort of Role Model now? thats too much fucking responsibility he cant do that
  • has trouble coming to terms with change, time going past, that sort of thing
    • sometimes he remembers how young Mob was when he first met him, how much time has gone by since then, and his mood plummets instantly
  • he is completely aware of why Teru has been showing up at his office so often, why he sometimes even trails behind Mob like a shadow during some exorcism gigs, and he finds it hilarious
  • Is very, very Asexual