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I wasn’t totally up for posting for the transvisibility thing, I’ll be 100% honest its hard to see people who can pass their gender when I feel like I’m stuck at stage 1 with 0 validation for who I am.
I want to kindly say; fuck validation. Fuck finding self worth in the eyes of others. And most sincerely, fuck every single person who tried to invalidate my identity because I present myself feminine. I present myself feminine for the social satisfaction; I’m a high school student and this shit is already hard without the outside criticism. I’ve been trans for 3+ years now, living in a household where my identity is something only I know. I wasn’t allowed to cut my hair, wear anything more masculine than neutral. I felt like barbed wire and garbage in a body, I think is the best way to describe it. Because it hurts and it fucking sucks. It took more guts than I thought I had to come out to my parents. And it’s so recent, I can’t say how things will go from here. But my parents are supportive and assured me hopefulness.
I think my biggest problem was I never saw much hope at all. I never saw someone I could look at with a glimmer of some sparkly fucking revelation that things will get better for me. But I did. I did in the people I meant. I was scared to death because the last thing I wanted was for my parents to disapprove the person I’ve been screaming for years to know. But they didn’t. And I don’t think enough people can see that, that in dark places it’s hard to find that bright sparkling eyesore revelation that things will be okay. I want people to find that. I want people to find happiness, and I want them to smile so big and shove that happiness down people’s throat like a hard pill to swallow, and I want it to be contagious as hell. I think hope passes on to people, because it’s hard to stay in a negative state of mind when you see someone in your same situation find happiness. You see yourself in the people who suffer but I want you to see yourself in the people who suffered and got the hell out of there. I want you to see yourself in the people who found happiness, because I did and now I’m here. And I have a long way to go but I’m so ready for that, and I’m so ready to turn around and say fuck you to everyone who told me otherwise.
I hesitated to post anything today because it’s far easier to sit back than take the risk of the hate I get the moment I seem happy with who I am. People hate that. But I’m happy with who I am, whether I look “too feminine” or not. Fuck that.
He/him || transgender || 16 ✌️

WCW

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i got really excited early and i love seeing all of these really cool trans people on my dash so i just took really quick selfies at lunch and posted them but now i’m home and i wanted to take more?? today is just such a good day and i love being trans and i love everything.

hey! my names jackal! i’ve been out as trans for abt two years now and yeah, soooo many people think I’m going through a phase, or I’m trans because boys don’t like me and i want to get their attention, or i’m doing it because one of my siblings is also trans. It really sucks??? Having to try to constantly validate yourself to people that won’t matter to me in a couple of years, and idk i just wanted to say that even if everyone doubts you there’s a huge community of trans people that are there for you and I think about that often when I’m upset about my gender and how some people in my family perceive me and i’m just really glad I have the privilege of knowing all of these amazing trans people, and man i just luv you all. I hope everyones having a good transgender day of visibility!

The smarty look is one of my favorite so far …

lina

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Selena Gomez Versace dresses pt I
Which one di you prefer ?

My name is Tori.

I’m not sure of my exact height but in a group photo I’m usually the tallest one.

I weight 200+ pounds.

I wear plus size clothing.

My hair is usually really frizzy. I have baby curls on the right side of my head that will never be tame.

My socks never match.

I have stretch marks.

I have freckles. A lot of them on my back.

I get hangry very easily and it affects my moods.

I use filters on my photos.

I tend to be reserved and quiet in big groups of people.

When I started this post I originally labeled the things above as “flaws” but it’s more things I tend to not flaunt about myself.

On this quest for balance I’m also on a journey for lasting self love. Not just love for when I’m eating perfect and losing weight but loving myself all the time.

I’ve seen a lot lately about not comparing yourself to others and even to others social media accounts. Behind a perfectly placed picture can be lots of stories you don’t see.

I try to be as positive as possible in my little blogging space. I found that there was a point in my life where I had become super negative and I was dreading getting out of bed every day. I heard once that if starting your day feels miserable from getting out of bed it tends to make your whole day feel like an uphill battle. Since hearing that I have tried really hard to see the positive in things. And in all that positivity there is still a girl who struggles from time to time with loving herself and all parts of herself.

I workout, I try to eat healthy, I smile a lot, I put on the cute outfits.

Some days I’d rather lay in bed all day, eat cupcakes for every meal, not have any human contact all day and go through at least 4 outfits before finally picking one I think looks okay.

But every day I choose to continue to do life and love myself is a win. I’m working on accepting every part of who I am and things that I can work on and some things that may never change. Either way, I will continue telling myself that I am enough, no matter what. Even on days when I don’t feel like hearing it.

Just throwing out some realness today.

Those brooklyn nights set us free !

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"Uhm… Could I just ask…? Which one can I drink?"

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and with our smiles
we outshine the sun

THIS IS OUR LAST DAY

after much consideration and introspection, i have decided that there is no way i can keep up with this blog and still manage my personal, academic, and professional lives. running this blog these past four years has been super great, and i am so happy to have been able to make so many of you laugh! unfortunately, this was the only april fools joke i could think of. this is not the last day. i’m sorry i did this to you. please don’t hate me.

-B.

Have you noticed guy’s fingers ?! 😱 They are so long 😂 !
Stay smart, stay classy !

im just waiting for a fantasy YA romantic interest to declare their passionate love for me so i won’t have to try to figure out if they’re flirting with me or just being friendly over text messages

anonymous asked:

Could you stop talking about school or at least readmore it? It's rude to trigger the rest of us who have anxiety/issues because of it.

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