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Literature for Bisexual/Lesbian Women of color

I’ve wanted to put together this list for a while, After taking a queer studies class in college I started actively looking for media to consume that would validate & help me learn more about myself/my identity. Being a South Asian woman loving woman I was skeptical at first and was so sure I wouldn’t find representations of myself anywhere. It’s out there, not much, but lesbians/bisexual women have been creating forever. 

Our bodies, spirits, and love are works of art themselves. Although we have been largely silent because our race and sexuality, there are still many beautiful works to be treasured. I myself am still new to my identity, I didn’t stop denying my sexuality until I was a sophomore in college, which was about 3 years ago. After having read these books my life/mentality was changed forever. I no longer felt as alone and could draw strength and courage from these women’s struggles, fears, hopes, and love. I’ve yet to find a community of women like me, but the closest I’ve come to that is bonding with the narratives and stories in these books. 

Many of the books here deal with race, gender, Diaspora pain, living as a brown body in a western society, feelings of isolation/alienation from our own communities, and sexuality. I got most of these books online used on Amazon, but also a good portion can be found in book stores. I have the freedom to have these books mailed to my house and keep them in my room safely, but if that may expose you to your family or harm you in any way I suggest trying to access digital copies or being extra cautious! I hope that after reading these books you too feel the kinship and bond with other women of color loving each other.

Disclaimer** I haven’t finished some of these books, and tend to start and skip around a lot, also some of the anthologies are a bit older but sadly the same issues are still present today so its still relevant. Also this list is not in order of importance or quality! not all of these involve gender/sexuality/race, some are one or the other. I will add a * to my top super favs tho!!

Anthologies

  • The Very Inside, An Anthology of writing by Asian and Pacific Islander lesbian and bisexual women - Sharon Lim-Hing 1994*
    • a collection of stories, poems, interviews, a few images, and writings by Asian/pacific islander women.
  •  The Woman that I am, the literature and culture of contemporary women of color - d. Soyini Madison 1994
    • stories, poems, plays, essays about gender / race.
  • Piece of my Heart, a lesbian of color anthology - Makeda silvera 1991
  • Good Girls Marry Doctors, South Asian American daughters on obedience and rebellion - Piyali Bhattacharya 2016
    • Being brown/a girl/ living as diaspora / breaking your familys heart to live happily
  • Does your mama know? An anthology of black lesbian coming out stories - Lisa C. Moore 1997*
    • These hit home really hard and have made me cry
  •  Spirited, affirming the soul and black gay/lesbian identity - G. Winston James and Lisa C. Moore, 2006
    • Spirituality/religion and sexuality, writings about being gay and religious/ feelings of guilt/ betrayal regarding your relationship to your faith and god (Christianity).

Education/Activism

  • Beyond Trans Does Gender Matter? - Heath Fogg Davis 2017
    • Gender identity/politics in U.S. context. Trans activism & rights. Discussion of institution oppression/ being discriminated against for your race/gender identity as a trans person of color. The narratives of the dangers trans people face in cities coupled with the discussion of legislation and how little has changed.
  •  Ain’t I a woman, black women and feminism - Bell hooks 1981
    • Race, gender, sexuality, class, feminism
  •  Women, Race & Class - Angela Y. Davis 1981
    • Title says it all

Race / Being brown in a western society

  • The Good Immigrant - Nikesh Shukla 2016
    • Narratives of being brown in a post 9/11 world by ppl in the UK
  •  Trust no Aunty - Maria Qamar 2017
    • Probably the most lighthearted and uplifting book on here, its funny n feels like an older sister giving you advice on how to be a south Asian girl/ pursue art/ deviate from your parents wishes and find happiness.

Short Stories

  • The Thing Around Your Neck - Adichie, Chimamanda Ngozi, 2009
    • On Monday of last week and arrangers of marriage are my favorites
  • Happiness, Like Water - Chinelo Okparanta 2013
  • All about Skin: Short Fiction by Women of Color - Jina Ortiz 2013

Lesbian/bisexual Fiction

  • When Fox is a thousand - Larissa Lai 2004
    • Supernatural/Chinese bisexual women, set in both modern day Canada and ancient china. I really enjoyed the writing style, also the book reminds me of fables/mythology elements.
  • Notes of a crocodile - Qiu Miaojin 1994*
    • I love this book so much and re-read parts of it often. Its depressing and really captures the coming of age lesbian loneliness/isolation/fear and anguish. I love this author’s writing so much, this is one of my most favorite books of all time.
  •  Speaking in whispers, African-american lesbian erotica - Kathleen E. Morris 1996
    • Black lesbian Smut & fluff, its beautiful
  • The red threads of fortune - Jy yang, 2017
    • adventure fantasy
  • Yabo - Alexis de veaux 2014
  • Last words from Montmartre - Qiu miaojin 1996/2006
    • Not actually published by her, though intended to as a sort of memoir before her suicide. Captures the pain/anguish/betrayal she experienced. Another one of my favorites, but this book is really depressing.
  •  Under the Udala Trees - Okparanta, Chinelo 2015
    • Another depressing book I enjoyed. African women loving each other/struggling in a homophobic/politically complex society.  religion/sexuality 

anonymous asked:

What do you think about Louis photoshoot?

I really liked it! overall I think the photos showcast how gorgeous he is and the photographer really worked with his natural photogenicity, which usually wouldn’t do it for me in bramell’s other work with male models but considering that we’ve never seen louis like this it works really well and it didn’t cross over to be too generic or commercial. 

I liked the styling too, they went for a palette of colors that suit him really well, and they didn’t step away from who he is in terms of clothes which goes along with his interview that was kind of a tell all. I liked the set they chose, and I really liked the props, it kinda told a story without trying too hard to actually place him somewhere - he is this laid-back guy who’s super rich and likes to wear athleisurewear and write music but isn’t tied to a specific place or time or people who’d then be used as his “influences”. he’s his own person opening up about his story and the photos go along with it, and I think it was done really well. 

EXO APPRECIATION POST

A/N: This was not planned and I should totally be studying now but I’m fed up with stuff I’m reading these days , coming from the inside of the fandom mostly and these type of situations just trigger my inner crazy EXO-L so I’M GONNA SPREAD LOVE TO ALL THE MEMBERS I DON’T CARE.

Originally posted by nikaiv

->Kim Junmyeon (Suho):

Originally posted by suhomysuho

-this boy trained for 7 years ok?

-i’m obv biased but one of the best kpop group leaders out there

-actually is thinking about EXO all the time

-sincere eyesmile

-takes care of all members

-big sense of responsibility

-probably blames himself if anything bad happens to EXO

-is prob very pressured by the company

-LOVES all the members, i’m sure of it

-also loves fans with all his being

-never dissapointed us

-defends EXO all the time

-precious

-learned to be more himself on camera

-is always improving

-one of the most handsome guys out there

-doesn’t care about fanwars

-carries everything on his shoulders

-tries to make EXO-L happy all the time

-comforts members  

-underrated talent

-dad jokes 

-but it comes from his heart

-is always teased af but everyone loves him too much

->Kim Minseok (Xiumin):

-has always been amazingly precious

-works hard

-cute af

-sexy af

-relatable

-amazing laugh

-great vocals

-everyone respects him

-is always teased by baek but secretly loves it

-Suho’s partner for dad jokes

-can have a lot of facial expressions

-is always the one chosen to talk by the other members

-is much more popular than SM expected him to be (suck it losers)

-looks good all the time

-is much more than just looks though

-performs af

-simple with a touch of too much

-mature guy with a fun side

->Zhang Yixing (Lay):

-someone hold me up while talking about this boy

-king

-cutie pie sweetie

-so talented

-underrated vocals

-cares SO much about EXO 

-works too hard 

-like all the time

-has an amazing soul

-look at this smile

-puts too much pressure on himself

-is the link between present ot9 and old ot12

-broke a bunch of records with his solo

-feels comfy around the members

-sometimes is shy

-can be straighforward

-is always trying to contact fans

-reads fan letters at airports

-husband material

-also sexy af

-look at those hips ok?

-literally never stops practicing

-because he always thinks he is not doing good enough

-musically gifted

-how can someone not like him??????????? i’ll never understand

->Byun Baekhyun (Baekhyun):

-popular line

-extra af

-expressive

-vocals that make me cry

-for real

-always tries to lighten up the mood

-can get angry

-it’s a light

-king of dance improvement

-knows what EXO-L think

-lowkey everyone’s bias

-don’t deny it

-flirty

-after you are too into EXO, you can just know what he’s thinking by observing his facial expressions

-little shit

-in a good way

-Yixing protection squad president

-doesn’t deserve all the shit he gets

-laughs and smiles 

-tease

-so talented

-he literally trained for like 6 months

-somehow still manages to always surprise us

->Kim Jongdae (Chen):

Originally posted by overnightprincess

-kind

-prob one of the best vocalists out there

-king of dance improvement part 2

-where’s his solo?

-admits to have a dirty mind

-and knows we all do too

-laughs a lot

-screams a lot

-whines a lot

-passes a lot of emotion through singing

-i don’t think i’ve ever seen this boy sad

-sometimes underrated talent

-has a good relationship with all members

-gets awkward sometimes

-gets annoyed 

-cuddly

-mature guy with a fun side part 2

-always gives his all

-veins

-high notes

-knows the limits when teasing

-helps others

-defends his members

-> Park Chanyeol (Chanyeol):

Originally posted by ohhsenshine

-musically gifted 

-can do anything basically

-works so hard

-is always putting pressure on himself

-but it is silent about it

-popular line 

-goes with the mood 

-best rapper of SM (sorry not sorry)

-appreciates everything fans do

-wants to be loved

-loves back

-can be really really cute

-even if he is a giant

-gets stressed easily

-ears

-underrated vocals

-seriously

-family oriented

-still reaction king

-supports everyone

-!!!

-tease

-very handsome

-is prob making music rn

-sleeps late

->Do Kyungsoo (D.O.):

Originally posted by tokyo-inn

-hold me up when talking about this boy part 2

-one of my favorite voices for real

-you can swim at his vocals

-is so genuine

-is friends’ with all the members

-very gifted actor

-maybe doesn’t express that much but you can see he appreciates everything fans do with all his heart

-smol 

-lethal

-wants to murder Chanyeol and Baekhyun

-but actually loves them too much to do so

-his smile>>>>>>>>>

-and laugh

-everyone loves him

-is actually really fun

-is naturally cute

-even if he doesn’t accept it

-gentleman

-cute eyes thing

-really really handsome

-generally doesn’t die his hair

-because he is superior

-kidding

-actually loves being EXO

-RnB/Soul king

->Kim Jongin (Kai) :

Originally posted by death-by-jongin

-I might get a little too ahead of myself rn so i’m sorry in advance

-overworks himself all the time

-is literally always practicing

-cries when he doesn’t get to perform

-literally just wants to dance and sing 

-is thankful

-is a baby 

-family oriented

-puppy lover

-underrated vocals

-genious dancer

-pouts

-best laugh ever

-looks good all the time

-really really cute

-king of facial expressions on stage

-has two personalities

-hip thrusts generally on point

-looks great in suits

-has the kindest soul

-well-manered

-observes a lot

-can be quiet

-thinks a lot

-gets nervous before performing

-puts too much pressure on himself

-100% potential to be sexy at any time

-king of smirks

-is always dramatic when dancing

-can be deep if you understand what he is saying

-boyfriend material

-is very soft 

-kim kai

-cuddly

-> Oh Sehun (Sehun):

Originally posted by channieschubbycake

-do i even have to do this? everyone knows i love him

-is always improving

-underrated actor

-honestly i laugh at all interviews he is in because he is so random i luv him

-is also a baby

-popular line

-needs company

-gets lonely

-loves Suho

-most loyal of them all

-quiet

-unique in his own way

-really good laugh

-has died his hair of every color ever

-likes to comunicate with fans

-is very fun when not on awkward interviews

-loves EXO

-lowkey king

-can be shy

-sometimes doesn’t know how to speak what he’s thinking

-ocassionally writes cute letters

-really really really handsome

-we all get proud when he gets his solo dancing shots

-sleeps late along with Chanyeol

-has a really soft heart

-lowkey makes fun of himself

-all the members are his brothers

-is precious af

BONUS: (i’m a hardcore ot12 stan, what did you expect?)

->Wu Yifan (Kris):

Originally posted by vvu-yi-fan

-very talented

-obv underrated

-looks cold

-is actually kind

-loves his mom

-hard worker

-international

-very very handsome

-doesn’t regret his time with EXO

-has a lot of opinions

-is a really nice guy for real

-appreciates his fans so much

-really great smile

-sexyyyyyyyyy

-says he gets all the girls

-is actually a dork

-clumsy

-speaks a bunch of languages

-boy is smart

-galaxy 

-> Luhan:

Originally posted by morningsdeer

-is an actual prince

-i’m not even kidding

-manly

-is shy on camera

-has been much more natural nowadays though

-is conquering the world

-defends himself

-loves soccer

-family oriented

-extroverted + introverted

-really shiny eyes

-great smile

-is awkward

-gets anxious while doing interviews

-is constantly improving

-underrated dancer

-probably the only one that still contacts every EXO member ever

-mature but fun guy part 3

-is willing to give his all

-has something to say to the paparazzi and stalkers

-still gets shy often

-you cannot not like him

-i’ll say it again, actual prince

-> Huang Zitao (Tao):

Originally posted by zitao-vevo

-is also a baby

-has grown up a lot though

-really sincere with the fans

-wants to tell us everything

-admits his mistakes

-wants to be loved

-appreciates the fans too much

-loves the members

-specially close to Sehun and Suho

-very talented

-underrated

-soft 

-martial arts king

-is happy now and that’s all that matters

-loves to perform

-has a burning passion for it

-is also always improving

-easy to know when he is tired or annoyed

-great laugh

-works hard

-precious part12

-is heartbreaking to watch him cry

-overcomes obstacles

-lowkey diva

-in a good way

-protect him

badboy!yuto

Originally posted by hsoeoks


  • adachi yuto, japanese exchange student and baseball player extraordinaire
  • his pitch is insane,,, latest record was 89.5 mph but he might’ve upped it (he did and he’s still aiming to surpass the best recorded speed of 105.1) since the school’s newspaper last interviewed him,,, nervously
  • he may be a well-known around school for being one of the top-ranking baseball players but he’s actually really intimidating 
  • equipped with a brooding look and an almost always resting bitch face a lot of people find him,,,, hard to approach and he likes that
  • being in a new country is tough - getting to know the language and the customs is like being a little kid in elementary school and it’s because of this very reason that he really hates people trying to belittle him or look down on him
  • it certainly doesn’t help that just by going there has made other people treat him like an actual child but if there’s yet another thing about yuto then it’s the fact that he has this need to prove others wrong about him
  • there was a kid in like fifth grade who totally ragged on him,, really made yuto feel like he wouldn’t amount to anything especially in baseball and ok sure he was a pretty scrawny kid at the time, a bit of a late bloomer in the puberty department but y’know everyone matures at their own pace physically and mentally
  • and anyway, it’s this very kid that has just driven yuto to do the very best that he can even if that means overworking himself and only really putting baseball first
  • because of that, his grades are pretty mediocre which is funny because he just about calculates and figure just how much he can get away with slacking over just to do the bare minimum
  • it works though,,, his teachers can’t complain since he is putting in effort and his coaches don’t mind so long as he’s getting the required gpa and coming to practice (which he does almost religiously)
  • and it’s just really remarkable that this sole drive just to prove someone wrong and get back at them for really doubting him drives him that much
  • his life has always been shrouded in doubt and insecurity and lots of belittlement and out of everything,,, baseball has always offered some kind of comfort to him
  • he’ll just stand on that field, whether it’s turf or actual grass, and finds peace in all the screaming because the moment he takes his pitcher’s stance it’s like there’s this silence and everything goes still even during his wind-up and suddenly all this power is thrown into a measly pitch and it has people roaring over him
  • they didn’t care if he was too foreign or too scrawny or too whatever, they were there and they appreciated his skill and i think that’s all he’s ever really wanted as he grew up into the man he is now
  • instead of sticking to japan, he decided to take up a full-ride scholarship to south korea and when they announced that at the sports banquet he couldn’t help but feel this swell of pride even if that one kid couldn’t see it happen
  • it’s a rare sight but it made him smile that day because for once he was acknowledged y’know?
  • anyway, coming to south korea was almost a culture shock (not by a grand scale but enough that it threw him off balance for a while)
  • it brought on a dry spell for him because he didn’t have friends or anyone to really be there for him to lean on because he was literally alone and not even with someone he could properly communicate with
  • it was frustrating on the largest scale and it made him feel even more hesitant and angry to deal with anyone other than his roommate, wooseok, who (bless his soul) is a sweetheart and always invites him to hang or play videogames,,,, sometimes he humors the giant
  • it took time for yuto to get acquainted with the other eight boys in wooseok’s friend circle but it worked out in weird ways
  • although yuto can’t exactly socialize in a huge gathering, he would spend one on one time with each of them and found comfortable niches with each so he does have a soft spot somewhere behind all his hostility
  • he won’t admit it a lot either but he’s more of a shower than a teller
  • but ok, anyway, even tho his first half of the year in south korea has been a huge struggle, he’s used it to push himself athletically and that’s why he’s getting noticed a lot more by others
  • they’re still intimidated as ever and rumors come flying in all directions about him killing someone with his pitch and none of the students in the journalism club want to interview him for the paper lmao
  • there was one brave soul but he’s still pretty,,, shaken from yuto’s rbf and you were actually out in this really cool study abroad in japan about tech culture and reported your findings and,,,,
  • basically you’re literally the only one who hasn’t heard of yuto aka the hardest person to interview on the baseball team so when you heard about a job that no one was willing to take because it was too scary you were just like “LMAO LEMME AT IT”
  • that and because he piqued your interest

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Interview: Fran

Today we’re joined by Fran. Fran is a phenomenal musician who plays a variety of instruments and also participates in her school’s marching band. When she’s not playing music, Fran enjoys doodling and is currently writing a novel, which sounds like a fun adventure (a superhero rom-com, how can you not love that). She has also written some poetry and short stories. It’s very clear that Fran is a dedicated and versatile artist, as you’ll soon read. My thanks to her for taking the time to participate in this interview.

WORK

Please, tell us about your art.

I just graduated high school and plan to attend university as a double major in music education and music performance. My primary instrument is flute, but I also play saxophone and a little bit of piano, ukulele, and clarinet. I really enjoy playing classical music, but a lot of my passion lies in jazz, and I am a member of my high school marching band and a future member of my college marching band. I also doodle a little bit, and I am writing a rom com superhero novel about a meteorite that wishes that she can become human and the stars grant her wish. It is a wlw romance, but mostly it consists of humor and superhero action. I also write poetry and short stories.

What inspires you?

My hero is Michael Giacchino and other movie soundtrack writers like him. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve loved getting inspiration for my music from soundtracks. Because of this wonderful music guiding my life, I plan on inspiring others to pursue music by teaching, and maybe even continue my talents into the professional field. For my visual art, I mostly get inspiration from my friends. We all draw together as a hobby so we get inspired by each other often. For my writing I am inspired by my favorite authors, J.K. Rowling, Brandon Sanderson, David Leviathan, and Rick Riordan. I love writing books with positive outlooks and messages about love and peace.

What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

I have loved music and art ever since I was a child. I started playing flute in 4th grade and I have been obsessed with band ever since. I loved watching movies and playing games almost solely for the excellent musical track. It was only a matter of time until I decided it would be my career. I’ve drawn and written for just as long. I wrote many short stories when I was young, and drew in that stereotypical 6th grade anime style that all artists cringe at later in life. My writing and drawing styles are a little bit better now, though I look back at my childhood doodles and stories with fondness.

Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in your work that you’d be willing to reveal?

Not really. My signature is just my name in cursive.

What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

If you want to be a musician, do it! Don’t let anyone tell you it’s a “phony career” and that you won’t be able to make a living with it. With hard work and a little thinking outside of the box, you can make a good career out of any art form. Follow your dream and don’t let the downers destroy your passion!

ASEXUALITY

Where on the spectrum do you identify?

I identify as an Asexual Lesbian. I experience no sexual attraction, but I am romantically attracted to girls exclusively.

Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

I’ve had people tell me that you can’t have a romantic relationship without sex and that I’ll “change my mind”. It used to bother me, but now I just let the words wash over me. I know that I’ll find someone who will understand and love that part about me. I can’t help it that their concept of relationships is so small-minded. I don’t experience that often, though. Most people in my field are very accepting.

What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

That I can’t experience a romantic relationship. Many people lump asexual and aromantic together without realizing that they are both different. You can be both, or just one or the other. There are also people who think I’m just innocent. It’s true that I’m a bit innocent in some areas, I don’t like to cuss, I don’t have a dirty mind, I would rather watch Disney movies than anything with too much sex or violence, but that has nothing to do with my orientation. I know how sex works. I just don’t want to have it.

What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

Don’t feel like you have to rush into a label. And your label can be fluid and change over time. I know that I may change my label in the future. Just like your favorite color changes over time, so can your label. Also, I know it’s hard living in a world where sex can be prioritized over a healthy and understanding relationship. Be who you are. Because “those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter won’t mind”. Your identity is a beautiful thing!

Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

I don’t really have a website or anything. Most of my work is just in my ensembles or in my community.

Thank you, Fran, for participating in this interview and this project. It’s very much appreciated.

holiday in the sun

Pairing: Bill x Reader

Summary: Bill being a singer of a punk rock band in the late 1970s. He falls for the colored reported giving him an interview. To my only follower @b-skarsgard

Words: 669

Warning: Language And mention of The S*x Pistols.

New York was always so mind numbingly cold during the winter. Your hands felt numb from the cold and three jackets weren’t saving you. You parked less than a mile away from the bar but it felt like you were walking for eons. The wind bothered your ears until they both felt numb, and you had to fight to walk through a thick blanket of snow. It was pitch black outside and you felt bitter before the ordeal began.

There were a bunch of kids crowded around the entrance. They were all dressed the same, thick eyeliner and leather jackets. Loud rock music was coming from inside and you could hear the sounds of laughter and cheers.

You pulled the black ballpoint pen from behind your ear and got your notepad from your purse. You titled a blank paper 12.14.1977 and prayed to God that this was the last band interview that you had to do. You simply hated talking to diluted white men that mumbled words and screamed. There had to better options.

The band onstage sounded like every other band that you encountered, a screaming lead singer and messy instrumentals. You weren’t very into punk and didn’t understand the anger. You had to step over a few bottles and bodies to get closer to the stage. You were basically choking on cigarette smoke.

The lead singer was tall and pale like he hadn’t seen the sun in at least a century. His green eyes were outlined in thick black eyeliner that looked like it was put on by a six-year-old. His leather jacket was oversized and his jeans were ripped at the knees. He was singing about a broken heart or something and you took notes of his description. It was so crowded that you felt like you couldn’t breathe.

“ They’re amazing aren’t they!” the girl next to you exclaimed. She had wild curly brown hair and a nose piercing. You gave her a small nod. You were told that the set was supposed to finish ten minutes ago. It was so smoky everywhere that you could barely see.

You decided to wait at the bar until the music stopped.

“ Can I get you anything?” The bartender asked. You shook your head and watched the rest of the song. What you wanted was to speak to the owner Hilly Kristal, you gave him specific instructions. The unintelligible screaming finally ended and everyone around you erupted in applause. The bartender looked at you with slight amusement.

“ I’m waiting for an interview,” you explained.

He nodded,”I’ll tell Hilly you’re here.” You doodles on the corner of your notepad. You always reminded yourself that this was just a stepping stone and you wouldn’t have to write the music sections of the magazine anymore. You often daydreamed about feeling just as successful as all your white counterparts who got to write for fashion and culture.

You turned around when you felt gentle tapping on your shoulder. He was covered in sweat and his eyeliner was smudged.

“ Are you from Interview Magazine?” he asked. He had big green eyes that swallowed you up whole. He smelled like old cigarettes, sweat, and fancy soap.

You nodded and clicked your pen.”It won’t take long.”

“ It’s really cool to have a colored interviewer,” he explained. You rolled your eyes and waited for the racist comments. You had worked so hard to get your job.

“ So, what brought you to CBGB?” you inquired. He was too busy asking the bartender for a drink to hear your question.

“ Hi, are you Bill Skarspsgard?” you asked.

“ Skarsgård,” he corrected. “And please let me get you something.” You shook your head.

“ Please, you look so cold and angelic,” he explained. His flattery meant nothing to you because ever lead singer felt like they were so sexy and enigmatic.

“ So, what brought you to CBGB?” you repeated.

He smiled,” Um, my friend Stiv told me this was a good place to expand my roots.” He nodded and took a sip from his beer. His hair was so teased that he looked like he belonged in the wild with wolves.

“ What do you describe your music as?” you inquired. This was probably one of your least favorite parts, actually interviewing. It all got very boring and tedious when you heard all of the same answers from similar personality types.

“ The fucking future. Everyone will hear The Trenches on the radio in the next 100 years.” He Iooked so proud that you didn’t want to let him down. You scribbled down his answer.

“ What about you? Do you like this?” he put his hand under his chin and awaited your answer.

You shook your head, “ No questions please.” He gasped before taking another gulp of beer.

“ I’m not answering anymore of these questions until I get to buy you a drink,” he challenged. He winked, which made you groan. You had so much to ask him and you only had a small time frame before the next band came on.

“ Alright,” you said stiffly.

He smiled,” What would you like?”

“ Club Soda.”

He laughed, “ One Club Soda for the beautiful lady please.” You watched the bartender pour the clear seltzer into a small clear glass.

“ You don’t have to hit on me anymore,” you said to Bill.

He shook his head, “ You’re really gorgeous. And if I randomly saw you on the street I would chat you up.” For some reason you didn’t feel the reassurance that he was trying to give you.

“ How do you feel about you young listeners?” you inquired. He played with the rim of his beer bottle and stared out of space.

“ The kids are so misunderstood and important. Fuck all the teachers and parents that said that they can’t be anything important,” he explained. You wonder if he had any experience with undermining authority.

“ The kids are important,” you whispered. You thought about your own son Alex, who had to grow up in a world where he had to be confined and controlled. The next band was tuning their instruments.

“ So, why did you want to be a reporter?” Bill had to shout over the noise.

You rolled your eyes, but decided that he genuinely wanted to know. “ It’s very hard for black single mothers to find good jobs, and this one was open.” He smiled at the mention of you being a single mother.

“ That’s so far out,” he replied. You sipped your Club Soda. You were greeted by bubbles and carbonation, you always disliked the unchanging flavor of it. You had at least two more questions to get through and you felt a glimmer of hope.

“ There’s a rumor that you punched Johnny Rotten and broke his nose, any comments?” you were actually looking forward to asking this question all day.

“ He’s very deserving of hatred,” he responded. He finished his beer in long anxious gulps.

“ You should go out with me tonight,”he said .

“ I-I why do you want that?” you stuttered.

“ Because you’re fit,” he explained. You hated the smug expression that he had on his face.

“ You’re such a fucking sell out,” you spat. You put all the things you were working on back into your purse. You put twenty dollars by your unfinished your drink and turned to leave. You walked past a fighting couple and felt your blood boil.

You were greeted by the freezing outside air. You felt angry for letting yourself by an egomaniac piece of shit. You hated the whole punk rock attitude and the way they treated people.

“ Hey! Hey, Y/N!” he called. You tried to walk faster but the snow was too hard to run over.

“ I’m sorry,” he said breathlessly.

“ It’s alright,I’ll just have your manager call me,” you murmured.

“ No, I.. Stop walking,” he demanded. You stared at his brown hair that went each and every direction. He was attractive in this weird and charismatic way.

“ I have to get home,” you sighed.

“ I just fucked up, okay?” his eyes were filled with concern.

“ Can we finish this interview?” you asked.

He nodded, “ But can I take you out?” He was persistent and annoying, but you weighed your options.

“ I have to be home by midnight and you have to answer all my questions,” you demanded.

He shook his head, “ They can pack up without me.” He turned back to CBGB And whistled. “ What a place,” he whispered.

“There’s a coffee place not to far from here, let’s go there,” you suggested.

“ Alright,” he said. It was blissful watching the snow fall all around you. You knew that Alex was probably tucked in bed fast asleep .

“ So, why did you come to New York?” you inquired.

“ To meet pretty girls,” he answered.

“ Has it worked?” you teased.

He laughed, “It honestly has worked out great.”

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Originally from the Northern Virginia/D.C Area, hair stylist Allison Varmette made the move to the City of Angels about 4 years ago to pursue her dreams. This 25 year old stunner has an inspirational sense of style and works around the clock to make all your hair dreams come to life! There’s no doubt she’s ambitious, and has big plans for the future… so we just had to meet up with Allison to talk about her life, future plans, and style.

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thedaywasnew  asked:

Hi guys! I recently marathoned Black Sails and i loved it! the only thing I'm sad about is that i didn't watch it in real time... I don't care if my ship is cannon, but I found that seeing it all at once means i know what happened to everyone, and I'm having a hard time shutting it off. I want to be into it, bc there are so many characters and ships i like in BS, but i don't know how to make the story feel open for exploration. any ideas or thoughts on how to incept myself into BS fandom?

Hello! Of course Elizabeth is answering this. This is a GREAT ASK, thank you, and not just because the entry point to this question is Black Sails ⚓⚓⚓. 

(I’ll have you know this is one of, like, three gifs of Flint smiling in the entire series. I also googled “Black Sails happy” and…no one looked happy.)

OK so it seems like there are a few things going on here. Apologies for taking what’s ostensibly about one show and turning it into something broader, but I think it gets at fundamental questions of fannish engagement, so I’M GOING IN.

1) Watching/reading a series all at once 

Flourish and I talk about this one a lot, because we (and many others) have observed that younger/newer Harry Potter fans approach characters and plot elements VERY differently than we do, and we chalk a lot of this up to reading the books as a complete text versus reading it with miserable long gaps in which to turn over every freakin detail only to have 75% of it jossed when the next book came out. In 2002 I legit read this one page of Dumbledore dialogue in GoF 100 times thinking there was a clue that was just…under…the surface.

I think that with some texts and with some fans, the serialized nature of TV and book series are the way in—we climb into those gaps and lingering there, waiting and obsessively turning things over and imagining all the branching possibilities, all the future reveals, all the resolutions, is part of the pleasure. I sure as hell wouldn’t have fallen for Sherlock if I hadn’t shown up to poke at the gaping emotional wound between s2 and s3. (Frankly if you showed me all four seasons at once I’m not sure I’d even like the show—my lingering emotional loyalty was the only thing that kept me saying anything nice about s4.) 

If I had not watched Black Sails all in one go it would have been LITERAL TORTURE FOR ME. I had to pause for a week while traveling and I started to read fic that actually spoiled parts of the fourth season WHOOPS. :-/// But I can also understand how watching it all in one go wouldn’t give you enough space. But then, we watched the same way and I am deep in it, plotting out fic and everything. So maybe… 

2) A complete text can stay with you but might not give you a way in

This happens to me with books *all the time*. I’ll read something that shakes me—I’ve often used the metaphor “knocks your world off its axis” when describing a really great book, like it can be the subtlest tilt and you’ll feel like everything’s changed. I think it’s pretty normal for texts to stay with you? If they’re good or if they touch you in some specific way? Especially if you’re fannish and really feel the media you’re consuming.

But one thing I often find about books is they’re more…complete. Even when television shows end properly, rather than being cancelled, they might stretch for longer than what was initially planned, for example, so it doesn’t feel like the arc of the plot was as carefully constructed—often it can’t be, especially with long-running American shows (and of course with classic episodic television, say, a monster-of-the-week show, it’s not even structurally designed to have the same sort of ~ABCDE structure as a novel might). 

Black Sails is not one of those shows—they knew they were bringing the story to a close, and the entire show rests on carefully-plotted narrative arcs. (Not to mention there was an actual ~canonical endpoint for all the Treasure Island characters, ie where the book begins (like, sort of). I mean, there were also canonical endpoints for Jack, Anne, Vane, Blackbeard, Hornigold, and every other historical figure, but…)

Over the years I’ve joined fandoms for WIPs as well as finished products, and often for me fandom’s been a way of trying to mend the wounds of a media property I found incomplete, either narratively (with bad writing) or literally (like, when a show ends abruptly). I think for some fans, this is a crucial piece—they say that when they find something too complete, there’s nothing to mend. 

3) Different modes of fannish engagement

So here’s another thing I’ve observed—different friends have different definitions of “fandom.” So people are like, “Oh yeah, I’m in the fandom, I love that show!” And I find out that means they enjoy the show and livetweet it and look at some gifs and that’s that. Which is totally fandom! And then there’s me, nodding nervously as I debate mentioning that, “Oh yeah, I’m in the fandom, I love that show!” for me means “THIS IS THE ONLY THING I WANT TO THINK ABOUT, HELP ME, I AM DROWNING.” It’s funny, sometimes I think about archetypal nerdboy fandom and its dick-measuring fact recitation, and then I think about all the times I tried to read the room to see if it was safe to let another person know how much I thought about something I loved, how much I felt about it. Even in totally fannish spaces, I still hesitate. :-/

There have been some things in the past few years that I’ve really enjoyed and toyed with checking out fandoms for, but what I’ve come to realize over the years is for me, it needs to be like falling in love. I think for some people, interest and obsession grows, and for others, you fall in head-first. And for others still, it depends on the thing. 

I understand this ask might have been specifically looking for resources or suggestions and while I’d just say if you’re not feeling it in this way, that’s cool, there are lots of different ways to fan, and you can keep thinking about something even if you aren’t drawn to, say, create transformative works about it? But maybe I should say something about Black Sails in particular…

4) Black Sails-specific: unreliable narrators and transformative works

If anyone hasn’t finished Black Sails, stop reading here, I’ll keep it vague but there’s only so much I can do. This is one thing that’s especially interesting to me about this ask: while I’m going on about how final and precisely plotted it all was, it’s not…that final. Because the entire point of the show is about narrative, right? Who gets to write them, who gets to own them, how they can be manipulated, how they shape “civilization.” Characters constantly talk—and constantly show—how both Flint and Silver (and, like, most of the characters, from Max to Thomas to Vane to Woodes Rogers) are these masterful shapers of narrative. Flint is the victim of clashing narratives: what’s actually happened to him, what he tells the world he’s doing, what he’s actually doing (note that explosive scene when Miranda calls him on this, ahhh I love Miranda). But the show’s choice to shift to Silver’s narration to wrap up events is a really fascinating one: the man who works so hard to obscure his past, laying out the narratives of the future. Should we believe him? 

I recommend this interview with creators Johnathan Steinberg and Robert Levine—the Flint section at the start is really delightful if you’re into artists being super into open-interpretation of their work. “Do we have a sense of what we imagine is happening?” Steinberg says when asked if we should believe Silver’s speech to Madi. “Yes, but if I was someone else, I wouldn’t want to watch it with my interpretation coloring it.” They talk about how this is essentially a transformative work (they don’t use that term)—a certain decision “made sense as a way to both acknowledge the book and spin it.”

So this is like the literal opposite of, say, JK Rowling, who seems intent on letting us know every freakin detail of canon and post-canon and seems genuinely unhappy at the idea that people will interpret things in ways that “aren’t true.” (At least in interviews I’ve seen/read of hers in the past few years.) Steinberg and Levine seem to be the ultimate “open to interpretation” guys, which really is like this big blank slate for fandom building on and playing with this world they’ve created. That being said, if oppositional fandom is your cup of tea—if you love fic and fandom as a corrective, as a way of wrestling a creator over the text—then the, “Go for it, interpret however you want” thing is probably not super appealing. 

This is the first time in my entire fandom life, going on two decades now, that I have simultaneously been really satisfied with a show’s ending and still wanted to write and read fic. And that seems…weird to me? So I don’t think it’s that weird that it wouldn’t work for someone. TL;DR: I’d just say if it happens, it happens. But it’s OK to love something and not find a way into the fandom. But if that changes for you, I’ll be there. :-)

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Wincestmas Day 1

Thanksgiving passes by without much notice from Dean,  but Christmas hits him hard, out of nowhere, an assault of colorful lights and too cheerful music that refuses to be ignored. Dad frowns when they’re wished “Merry Christmas” at diners or while interviewing witnesses, says people don’t realize how lucky they are, to not have any idea of what’s really out there.

“If they did know, they’d be less worried about gifts and more about surviving.“ 

For the most part, Dean’s inclined to agree with him. But then he thinks of Sam. Sam, who’s been gone a year now and is probably living it up at Stanford with his full-ride. Sam, who loved Christmas, and gave Dean the weird necklace Dean’s worn ever since. The cool metal of the talisman’s head rests against his chest, his heart; Dean never takes it off. 

I hope you’re enjoying the holidays, Sammy…

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How did you come up with the idea of using a violin bow on an electric guitar?
When I was a session musician, I would often play with string sections. For the most part, the string players would keep to themselves, except for a guy who one day asked me if I ever thought of playing my guitar with a bow. I said I didn’t think it would work because the bridge of the guitar isn’t arched like it is on a violin or cello. But he insisted that I give it a try, and he gave me his bow. And whatever squeaks I made sort of intrigued me. I didn’t really start developing the technique for quite some time later, but he was the guy that turned me onto the idea.

53. "You have a wall up. " Michael

WROTE THIS ON MEMO ON MY PHONE. HOPE IT’S OKAY.

Michael was on a high. Promotional interviews always ran the risk of going downhill fast. They either asked really pointless questions that caused all four of the boys to groan and internally roll their eyes or they pried and made the small studio feel even more miniscule due to awkward tension. However, today the radio show had been really enjoyable. Michael actually left the building feeling relaxed. Sometimes,  he actually had knots lining up in his shoulders after being interviewed, but all the questions had been focused on the new album and the acoustic set was nearly flawless except for one mix up that Calum assured him no one noticed.

Whistling, he climbed into the backseat of the black SUV, his lips growing out of their lowercase ‘o’ shape and into a full grin at the sight of you on his iPad, lurking on the homepage of a colorful website. He smacked a hard kiss on your cheek before buckling up beside you, glancing at the screen and realizing you were on a website for an American University. 

“When did you leave the station?” He had left you outside the sound booth with Luke’s girlfriend and one publicist. It had been a surprise when he came out and you were missing. He wanted your opinion on how the two songs they played sounded.

“You guys were just about to play a guessing game…” Radio interviews always came with games.

“Ah. You okay? Feeling ill? ” He checked as Calum and Ashton piled into the front seats, the car ready to take off and go to the venue’s sound check.

“No. I’m all fine.” Lightly, you told him, looking into his hunting eyes for only a moment before returning your attention to the screen. To Michael, it was obvious you were lying and he hated when you lied to him. It felt insulting and hurtful.

“Are you sure?” He gave you one more chance, but you answered again with a quick nod. “What’s wrong?” Like the kind of journalist he loathed, Michael pried.

“Now isn’t a good time, Mike…” You intended to whisper to your boyfriend of nearly a year, but instead you hissed at him with your eyes bouncing between the backs of Ashton and Calum’s heads. Even though the bassist had his headphones on and Ashton was laughing with the driver, you didn’t want them to hear anything that was supposed to be private between  yourself and Michael. You two had always been so open and noisy, a fun loving couple who didn’t know the word ‘silence’, but things were changing rapidly these days.

The car ride to the arena was silent between yourself and Michael. The only noise being made was his two hands constantly drumming on his legs and the small crack from your neck when you gently knocked it to the right. It wasn’t like you two at all and it caused those shoulder knots to return due to anxiety. He was always so scared you might change your mind about him one day. He never understood how he found a girl like you and convinced her to be with him in the first place. Michael knew you were too good to be true, but he tried every day, even when you two were apart due to his lifestyle, to remind you just how much you meant to him. Some days it was gifts showing up at your door, others it was just a quick ‘I love you’ text, but he always tried.

Once the car pulled into the back lot, Michael exhaled sharply. He was going to explode if you two didn’t talk soon. As soon as everyone was out of the car, he slid out and stopped you right at the fire door to the venue. 

“I’m not trying to be annoying, but I need to know what’s going on. You’ve been so quiet lately. You have a wall up and you have since we left L.A.” Michael swiped underneath the plastic band of his backwards baseball cap,  sweat naturally and nervously beginning to form in his wispy hairs. He was trying to keep it together, but his stomach was twisting about with doubts and menacing fears. “I can’t fix things if I don’t know what’s going on…” Sighing, he confessed while trying to earn contact from your terribly sad eyes.

“It’s just so hard to share you with the world.” Quietly, you whispered like it was a secret you didn’t want anyone to know about. You felt guilty and embarrassed and the way your bottom lip and chin quivered when you spoke exposed that. “You don’t feel like mine when you’re on the road.”

Michael’s heart stopped racing in order to drop as soon as water began to rise in your eyes, the ones he had fallen for as soon as they locked with his at a crowded party back in June.

“I’m trying, but I hate it.” You bit down as hard as you could on your bottom lip, hoping it would help you pull it together, but as soon as Michael brought you against his chest, nestled into a hug with his lips on top of your head, you lost it. He couldn’t hear your tears, but he felt them dye his shirt a darker shade of red and it made him want to jump in front of busy traffic. He hated how much you were hurting, but the worst part was he felt responsible. It was awful, the idea that you were better off anywhere else as long as you were without him. He wanted so badly to be the one for you.

“I promise I am yours though. ..” Michael whispered into your hair, knowing it probably wouldn’t help how you felt any.

ize interview teaser - woozi

because the team’s color is so bright, there must be requests of aegyo (being cute).
ah, i really didn’t think about this. although it is still very hard (laughs), i do it because fans ask me to. i’m usually not the kind who brightly does aegyo, but when i need it, i’m suddenly in the situation where i’m doing it. it’s like having good reflexes? because the fans love it so much. the fans don’t ask for aegyo to a member who’s already good at it. i think because i’m not good at it, they ask me. however, the fans like it because i work hard on doing it. being fully committed, i work very hard on it. (laughs)

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jimin's love for jungkook. (2)
  • {150106} MPD MISSION BTS Season Greeting Card Mission ─ Jimin: “Ah~ Hyung! Look at my picture! Jungkook took the picture really well”.
  • {150106} BANGTAN BOMB Finding Jungkook by Jimin PD (2) ─ Jimin: “Watching our Jungkook work hard on his interview over there makes me feel very proud. Jungkook, please give writer Jimin a kiss before you leave”.
  • {140203} BANGTAN Idol Show EP.02 ─ Jimin: “Jungkook-ah~ you look so handsome like that”.
  • {150307} BTS Idols True Color Radio ─ Jimin: “Like I said, the maknae is the most handsome”.
  • {150505} BTS Sukira Radio ─ RyeoWook: “Jimin really likes BTS's golden maknae, Jungkook. Why do you like him?”. Jimin: “There's something I don't like about him, but he's cute. It's because he's the maknae, he's quite like a man”.
  • {150710} BANGTAN BOMB J-hope & Jimin's 'DOPE' Music Video Reaction ─ Jimin: “Jungkookie is handsome. What I've felt the most while watching this is 'Ah, Jungkookie is really handsome'. This policeman... he's very handsome”.
  • {150802} V App Run BTS! EP.02 ─ Jimin: “Jeon Jungkookie will win! Even though I did my best, I predict Jungkookie will win”.
  • {150901} V App Happy Birthday Jungkook! ─ Jimin: “There's something I want to say to Jungkook. I'm going to say it while I'm sitting beside him. Come closer and give me a kiss”. V: “Jimin, what present are you giving Jungkook?”. Jimin: “I'm gonna give him a kiss”.
  • {151013} V App Run BTS! EP.06 ─ Jimin: “What brings you here, cutie? Do you know that you're handsome?”. Jungkook: “No, I don't”. Jimin: “Being handsome means that you're blessed”.
  • {151027} V App BTS Gayo Track EP.06 ─ Jungkook: “I wrote the right answer then changed it”. Jimin: “You should've trusted and followed hyung, just earlier we got the right answer together”.
  • {151121} BANGTAN BOMB Know-how For Making A Handsome Look ─ Jimin: “He puts on lip balm so well! He was putting on lip balm and... he's almost a real man!”.
  • {151208} BANGTAN EPISODE Making of Run MV ─ Jimin: “When you think running, you think Jeon Jungkook. A little while ago, I ran outside with Jungkook”.
  • {151214} BANGTAN BOMB Jimin's Self Camera (RUN 151204 ver.) ─ Jimin: “Please give Jungkook lots of love”.
  • {151215} V App Run BTS! EP.08 ─ Jimin: “I'll give one flag to Jungkook”. Rap Monster: “Why, why?”. Jimin: “Jungkook is too cute”.
Hunger Games AU

Title: Jimin’s interview
Fandom: BTS-fandom / A.R.M.Y.
Pairing: Jikook
Genre: Uhm… Holy cow idk… Maybe fluff and a tiny bit of angst? It’s just about an interview before the Games so there are no violence or things like that. ^^
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1 158
Summary: Jikook + Hunger Games. Basically that’s all. :D A short drabble about one tribute’s interview. I don’t know if I’ll continue it or not…
Author’s Note: Literally no one asked me to write this and I have exams this week but who cares hahahaha
Please enjoy! (❁´‿`❁)

Part 2 , Part 3 , Part 4 , Part 5 , Part 6 , Part 7 , Part 8 , Part 9

The announcer – the famous and popular Jackson Wang - is bouncing his left knee in excitement, while leaning closer to the tribute from the 12th District. He wears a wide, almost predatory smile what probably meant as an encouraging and nice one, while combs away the bleached blonde locks from his forehead and stares at the young, short male in front of him.

“Is… I-is Jimin-hyung going to be okay?” Jungkook asks as he bites his bottom lip, eyes don’t leave the screen for a single moment.

“Of course!” Kim Seokjin says while patting Jungkook’s broad shoulders lightly. The older man’s voice is so certain, Jungkook wants to trust him with his whole heart.

He wants to trust Seokjin with his whole heart but his heart has better things to do at this moment – for example, jumping against his ribcage with shattering force and pumping blood into his veins with incredible speed. Jungkook gulps, a drop of sweat rolls down his face, washing away the layers of thick make-up. His eyes are glued to the television.

On the screen, the boy with light brown hair – Jimin - is visibly shaking, muscles are tense under the suit, but his warm, dark eyes are dedicated. The reflectors make Jimin’s face glow and Jungkook feels anger squeezing his stomach – somebody this achingly beautiful should not stand there, in front of Jackson Wang. Because Jackson Wang means interviews, and interviews mean the Hunger Games. Somebody that nice and kind like Jimin should not even know what the Games means. Because—

Jungkook’s grip tightens around the necktie he’s nervously grabbing.

Because it means death.

“Relax, kid” Yoongi’s raspy voice cuts Jungkook out of his thoughts. The mentor’s long, bony fingers are around a glass with some golden liquid in it. It’s alcohol, Jungkook knows. “You are already over your interview, so chill. Anyway, it seems like Jimin has a plan in his mind.”

Jungkook sighs, voice trembling. His interview was pretty boring and average - at least Yoongi said that. Jimin’s most important job is to make them, the District 12 (or at least himself) unforgettable for the sake of many sponsors. Sponsors are the line between life and death in this sick game.

“Yeah.”

Jimin is going to be okay. He must to be okay.

“So… Park Jimin-ssi, let’s start with some introduction” Jackson Wang begins the last interview. “Please tell us a little about yourself. Our Capitol- no, I’m sure our whole country, Bangtan loves hearing stuff about new tributes!”

The audience enthusiastically agrees. Yoongi snorts and takes a sip from his drink. Jungkook’s fists are so tight, he feels the nails sinking into the skin of his palm.

“Oh, they certainly do” Jimin says with a small smile and the mocking tone is almost undiscoverable in his soft voice.

Jackson’s smirk widens as his eyes checking the tribute’s entire body out.

“Jimin-ssi, the reason why you are so different from the other tributes is-”, the air stiffens and Jungkook feels his throat scratching. “That you’ve volunteered for someone.“ Jimin blinks and nods a little. “Someone very special to you, I guess?“

Jimin nods again.

The audience doesn’t have to know that the reason why he volunteered for a girl he barely knows (well, in this situation it’s better to use knew) is not that he wanted to save her. Yes, of course Jimin did it partly because of that. But the main reason is that Jungkook was the other tribute and Jimin was not able to volunteer for him. After Seokjin picked the paper with the girl’s name out, Jimin decided in the twinkling of an eye that if he could die with Jungkook (or for Jungkook, like protecting, saving him) in that terrifying arena, then he’d wave goodbye to this cruel world happily than live without him. And that was the moment when Jimin’s body reacted without a second thought, and he shouted: “I volunteer!”

But the audience doesn’t have to know that. Not yet.

Jackson Wang crosses his legs and leans back in his chair. He found out that Jimin doesn’t want to talk about the Reaping nor answer his question. His fingers are lightly tapping on the handle and he quickly changes the topic.

“You look really handsome in that suit! And Seokjin’s team made wonders with your face!” Jackson lowers his voice and winks at Jimin. “Please tell me: is there a special lady at home waiting for you going back?”

Jimin doesn’t want to believe his ears. What a random question, but it played perfectly into his hands!

“No, not really” Jimin says lazily, licking his lips. His eyes teasingly fixed on the camera.

The audience boos in disappointment.

“C’mon, tell me the truth!” Jackson asks with a grin. “The Capitol likes romance stories, so don’t be shy~”

Jimin’s smile widens, his cheek flushes, and Jackson gives a final push. “There is a love interest for sure and we want to know who is it! Don’t make us wait, Jimin-ssi, the audience is impatient!”

„L-love interest, yeah… That’s more close” Jimin stutters, fingers fidgeting with the carpet of the chair. “Because… the one I love is not a lady.”

The united „oooohhh” sends chills down to Jimin’s spine. Well, it’s time to reveal the secret.

“Woah, that’s interesting news!” Jackson leans even closer, eyes wide with anticipation. The whole audience is one big lurry; loud and cheerful. “Then, tell me about him.”

“U-uhm, well… He’s kind of cute. Sometimes dorky, sometimes awkward – but always cute” he smiles fondly, looking into the camera. He knows that Jungkook is watching him right now.

“It seems you like him a lot. But does he like you back?”

“He’s not good at showing his emotions” Jimin giggles. “Well, I know that he doesn’t hate me but-”

“You are not sure that he likes you either” Jackson finishes the sentence. The audience expresses its sympathy, sad, pitying gazes narrowing towards Jimin.

“But you know what, Jimin-ssi? He’ll probably pay more attention to you if you win the Hunger Games, right? He sure will be a little more affectionate, right?”

“Hmmm. Unfortunately, I don’t think so.”

“Huh? Why?” Jackson seems surprised.

Jimin pauses as if he is hesitant to answer. The Capitol gasps and holds back its breath. Jungkook can feel the tension pounding in his chest like a hammer.

.

.

.

“Because he is right here with me.”

After a moment of silence, the studio explodes. Jungkook feels like his head is empty and spinning, his mouth is as dry as sand, and his body is on fire.

“He is not that dumb as he seems” Yoongi hums in amazement, almost impressed, pointing at Jimin’s figure with his chin. In the background Seokjin is white as a wall under his fancy, colorful make-up, and tries really hard not to faint.

Before Jackson could answer or even react to Jimin’s statement, the time-counter beeps – sign of that the interview ended.

Sakura Haruno minus the pink wig. (possibly might go as her for Fanime, but it’s still a work in progress)

That special jutsu sign is also mainly for Kishimoto. Dude worked hard to make an awesome story/characters for years don’t get me wrong, but then he really crashed and burned towards the end then decided to show his true colors in that interview about the ending. Honestly I’m not really surprised.   

an ode to you - ot5

~1.6k words, pg, bandverse. sappy/emotional ot5 fluff.

this is a small, onew-centric fic that i just came up with whilst very overcome with ot5 feels. this is also in celebration of shinee’s seventh anniversary. thank you so much, shinee, for existing. your bond is strength for so many, including myself. it is an honor to call myself your fan, to have been able to watch as you all grew together. you are strength, you are faith, you are inspiration. thank you for being our song. <3

Jinki’s chest hurts.

His throat is tight and he can barely breathe, can’t even risk blinking his eyes too hard else he’s bound to let out an onslaught of tears that have been building up since they set foot on that stage the first day. And now it’s day three, d-day as far as the comeback is concerned, and he’s sitting on the bench with his members around as they wait for Jonghyun to finish up with his show they just guested on.

He can do it. Hold it in, Leader.

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