“There were flower petals and candles and lights everywhere with a teepee with sparkling cider and pillows and blankets inside and a movie screen set up. Aaron pressed play to the movie he had worked on for hours, came and sat by me in the teepee, and started shaking and tearing up. That’s when I FINALLY had an idea that he might be proposing. The movie was so thoughtful, full of our favorite movie scenes, me singing our song, and pictures of all of our favorite moments together.”
The saddest word in the English language is ‘almost’.
We were almost something great. Came so close I could taste the promises of forever. Life was cruel to tempt me with something I could never have.
We were almost happy. Came so close that I couldn’t tell my laughter apart from yours. It was just me though, you heard silence in between the laughs.
We were almost in love. Came so close that I could envision our entire future laid out in front of us. Turns out it was a dream. Or a nightmare. They’re closer than you think.
We almost made it. Came so close that in the days and months after I kept replaying the story of us. Obsessed with the idea that I could have said or done something more so that our story would never end.
Gabriel might be canonically alive, now. In the AU at least.
IN THE CURRENT SPN UNIVERSE
GABE IS JUST FINE. and this season’s finale put the final nail in the coffin for me
i was going to do a comic about it, but it could be too much to shove into a comic anyway. SO–in regards to this:
he was literally drilling into their heads “GUESS. WHAT. CAN. KILL. ME. THAT. I. TOTALLY. HAVE.”
i don’t think gabriel brought an actual “archangel blade” at all. we find out in hammer of the gods that there’s a specific blade that looks like an angel blade that can kill an archangel, and it was confirmed in s12′s finale that a regular angel blade doesn’t do much to an archangel. so whatever luci stabbed him with, wasn’t actually something that could hurt gabe
if you think gabriel can literally warp reality but couldn’t recreate an angel death, i need you to sit down and reread that
NOT ONLY THAT
but we also learned that lucifer apparently thinks, even without incredible showmanship, “if i stab it, it’s dead.” crowley, a DEMON, just a demon, was able to slip out of his body into a rat, with lucifer none the wiser. this wasn’t premeditated on crowley’s part. i firmly believe gabriel went in with a plan for the worst
so when sam and dean watched the porn gabe gave them:
i FIRMLY believe this was actually gabriel that they were watching. he was alive. right there. and he just wanted an easy out of the drama. he never had the plan to be caught, he just got heated in changing channels and realized he was going to back himself into a corner if he stayed in the game. which is ALSO why i think this stunt was pulled in meta fiction:
this is genuinely just something he can do. and metatron had, more or less, the power of god. he probably suspected the same thing i did when he read chuck’s work. so metatron literally made gabriel pitch to cas what gabe was afraid would happen to him. he didn’t want to lead armies or head rallies. he wanted to spend the rest of eternity fucking with humans
ALSO. FROM THE FINALE. dean says to luci something along the lines of, “…so you’re just going to go around smashing all of his toys?” which,
and at the beginning of the season, cas crashes into the Mystery Spot sign.
so while he is alive in other universes, sure, i think he’s still just fine in this one. if anything, he’s the one archangel that chuck actually respected, just by leaving him alone. but with the new devil baby i think something might snap
I have no idea if this was already theorized but do you think the Scooby Doo episode will happen cause Gabriel came back to fuck shit up? Cause high and low key I’m hoping that happens
with rich being on set so much, it wouldn’t surprise me if this was the case! if this is what happens, they’ll think Oh They’re None The Wiser because of all of rich’s directing spots, both now and in the future. otherwise, it might just be a weird fever dream MOTW ep. FINGERS CROSSED, THO
“…but I was thinking, maybe we should-Hello, the earth is
calling Y/N. Anyone home?” Justin waved his hands in front of Y/N’s face. She
quickly focused her eyes on his face. “Mhm?” she mumbled.
“Where did I lose you?” he asked curiously, wondering what
was on her mind. They were discussing which movie they’re going to watch.
“Um, you were saying something about, um, the girl on the
train? You said you would like to watch it, since you liked the book so much.”
she spoke unsurely, wondering if he even spoke of that. She knows they had that
conversation few days ago, but did he mentioned it today, she wasn’t certain.
As a respond he giggled. She joined him, she loved when he
would giggle, his eyes would nearly shut, his smile would grow so big and the
sound was just like an angel was laughing.
“So I’ve lost you like three days ago. I didn’t even
mentioned it today. FYI I was telling you about this new movie “Don’t Breath”,
but now I’m very interested what was on your mind.” His smile grew even wider,
he looked like he caught her in some kind of embarrassing action, and he
actually did, without even knowing. She could feel hotness spreading around her
face, she knew she looked as red as a tomato. She buried her face into her
That made Justin giggle even more. “Oh don’t tell me that you
were picturing me naked?” he wiggled his eyebrows. He knew it would make her
blush even more, and he just couldn’t resist but tease her. “You know, you
could’ve just asked, I would even put a show for you.”
She immediately lifted her head up and yelled giggling “NO”
her cheeks were dark red. She once again covered her face.
“So you don’t want me to put on a show for you?” Justin
placed his left hand over his chest, pretending he’s hurt. “I am deeply offended,
He couldn’t keep a
straight face, not around her. She was just so embarrassed, it was the cutest
thing ever. He extended his arms to her. “Come”
She shyly moved from her place on the couch and sat onto his
lap. She buried her face into crotch of his neck. He chuckled once again, and
so did she. “Now will you tell me what you were thinking about, if it wasn’t me
She took a deep breath. She had some thoughts on this, and
how to explain it to him, without him getting hurt. She moved her face from his
neck and looked deeply into his eyes. By now, his face wasn’t all giggly and
happy anymore, it was rather serious.
“Y/N, what is it? You’re scaring me.” he looked concerned. She
placed her hands on his chest and started playing with the shirts fabric.
“No, no, it’s nothing that serious, you don’t have to be
worried. I just. Ugh, I don’t know how to say this. You know I’m not good at
this things.” His face lightened up a little bit.
“So you where picturing me naked.”
“No I was not.”
“Well then you were picturing us having sex.” Her cheeks
went red once again. “So you were. You know you don’t have to picture something
like that when I’m right there.” He got closer to her. She knew where this was
leading and she had nothing against it, but it was now or never.
She lightly pushed him back down, and he looked at her
confused. He wanted to say something but she cut him off.
“Technically, yes I was picturing us naked, but there was
more to it.” Her eyes once more focused on her hands rather than his eyes. He
could tell that he was very intrigued by now, and he wanted to know more than
“So what was that more?” his voice became lower. He’s words
came out like a little growl, which only sent shivers down her spine. He could
feel she tensed above him. “Tell me, baby, what was I doing?”
She was always so shy about this kind of things, and she
knew she won’t be able to tell him her fantasy, but she can avoid it by a
simple question which should clarify everything.
“What kinks do you have?” now for him, that question came
out of nowhere and it shocked him. Justin was staring at her, not sure why she
was changing the subject.
“Look, you know I suck at dirty talk. Stop giggling, I
wasn’t making a dirty joke.” She lightly punched his shoulder. “You’re not
“Oh come here my embarrassed baby.” He got closer once again
and their lips met for a quick peck. Once they separated she started again.
“You have to know one thing, by all of this I am not saying that our sex life
is bad, at least not for me. It’s amazing but I just feel like something is
missing. So I wanna know what gets you off, what do you like.”
He didn’t know what to say, she caught him off-guard. He
observed her and she just couldn’t take the silence anymore. “Fine I’ll start. Um,
I like rough sex, and by that I mean everything that goes with it, choking,
tying up, ass slapping, blindfolding, and usage of toys. I like it when a man
knows how to treat a woman, how to be a dominant but at the same time caring
He looked at her like she was someone else, he had no idea
where that came from. She was always so shy telling him about her sex dream or
simple dirty talk during sex, so it shook him up.
He cleaned his throat and shifted in his sat, he was getting
hot from her recent confession. “So that’s what you really like, baby girl? Is
that what you want me to do?” Justin got closer to her, she could feel her heart
beating faster. She bit her lip and simply nodded.
He placed his left hand on her back and twirled her around
so she was laying on the couch and he was hovering her. She separated her legs
and wrapped them around his waist. He brought his face closer to hers, but
never touching hers.
Suddenly he got up from her, she was confused. He offered
her his left arm and she took it. He pulled her of the couch. Their faces met
once again, but he didn’t make a move. “Since you like being tied up, I can’t
fuck the living shit out of you down here where I can’t tie you up to
He guided her up to their shared room, and with every step
was feeling more and more horny. Once they were inside,
Justin pushed her against the bedroom door. She gasped from sudden harshness,
but it only made her hornier.
“Tonight I don’t want to hear a sound from you, unless I
gave you permission. Understood?” Justin growled into her ear. She felt
unexpected heat spreading across her body. She nodded, she wasn’t able to
answer his question. But he wasn’t pleased with that.
His left hand found her neck and squeezed it, first, lightly,
then adding more force. “Understood?” he inquired loudly. “Yes” she mumbled.
“Yes, what?” he repeated after her.
He lighten his grip only to lock his lips with hers. She
expected it to be a rough and fast kiss, but he wasn’t hurrying anywhere. It
annoyed her, she wanted to feel him, and she wanted him to just take her,
without any foreplay. But she knew she wasn’t getting that.
His hands were moving up and down her body, but once hers
found the back of his head, he jacked the off and held them up, above her head.
It only made her moan into the kiss.
He freed her lips and placed kisses all over her chin. She
knew what he was doing, and he knew the exact effect he had on her. “Please,
All of the sudden he stopped, his grip became tighter. He
looked into her eyes, his voice was low and steady. “I don’t recall giving you
a permission to speak. Do that one more time and I will stop.” She bit her lip
and tried to hold in a moan.
He freed her hands only to rip her shirt off. She wouldn’t
be able to describe how hot and weak it made her when he ripped it, she wanted
to moan, all frustrated. He took what remained
of the shirt in one hand, while he used his other one to guide her to
the bed. When her legs hit the end of the bed, he demanded. “Bra off, lay on
your back, hands above your head.”
She listened, but she took the chance to tease him as much
as he was teasing her. She slowly reached behind her back, she pretended to be
struggling with her bra. He clenched his jaw and stepped closer. He didn’t even
warn her, he just ripped it off and pushed her onto bed. She crawled to the top
of the bed, she obediently laid on her back placing her hands above her head,
meeting the coldness of headboard.
Justin seemed pleased, as he got onto bed, placing his knees
on either side of her body, slowly making his way up to her, slowly rolling her
shirt in his hands. Once he reached her, his crotch was directly in front of
her and she couldn’t help but bite her lip.
“You like what you see?” he asked taking her hands in his
and wrapping her shirt around her hands. He continued, never stopping to look
down at her. “Now, this will have to work today, but next time, baby girl,
you’re gonna be properly handcuffed. I promise you that.” He tighten the knot,
making sure it was at the same time tight enough, but not way to tight.
He backed away a little bit, he lowered himself, so his face
was at the same height as hers. They looked at each other, and Y/N just
couldn’t take it anymore. She just wanted to feel his touch, his lips all over
her body, his hands working their way up and down her inner thigh, his tongue
circling around her clit, and lastly his dick inside of her.
She moved her head up but he was faster and backed away, only
a little bit but enough far so she couldn’t reach him. He smirked at her while
she let out a sigh. It seemed like he wasn’t hurrying anywhere, but Y/N was
just about to explode. “Ugh, please Justin. Stop teasing.” She whined out.
The sound of her voice made Justin back away. He wiggled his
left finger “That’s a no-no. What did I say? Speak one more time and I will
stop. Do you really want me to stop? No? Then I will have to get those pretty little
mouth occupied, won’t I?”
Justin got off the bed, still not hurrying anywhere. He stood
on the left side of the bed, slowly undoing his kaki jeans. He used the opportunity
to take his shirt off, shoes and Calvin Klein boxers. Y/N’s eyes never let his
out of sight, observing every inch of his body, memorizing the little stuff.
“Like what you see?” Justin inquired. As a respond, she let
out a loud moan. “Isn’t it funny that, when you have a permission to talk you don’t,
but when you don’t, you do? You like being bad? Trust me I can treat you like a
bad girl any time you want.” He growled, slowly getting onto bed, taking the
same position as before.
He took his dick into his hand and placed it in front of her
mouth. “Suck.” But he didn’t need to tell her twice. She took him into her
mouth, as much as she could and started sucking onto it. His mouth felt open, as
her eyes never left his eyes. “Fuck, just like that.”
She would gladly go
slow and tease him, but she wasn’t able to take it slow. She picked her pace,
sucking and licking. He grabbed her hair “So you wanna be a bad girl? Then, don’t
suck a dick like a good girl.” With those words he pushed her head all the way
to his pubic hair. She gaged at the sudden at the feeling of his whole dick in
“That’s right take it all.” He roughly pushed her head back
and forth, and every time she could feel the tip of his dick hitting the back
of her throat. She could feel her drool all over her neck and chest.
“How selfish of me. You’re here all hot and wet, and all I think
about is my pleasure.” He pulled out, heavy breathing.
“Are you wet for me? Or are you dripping?” he asked, slowly
backing away so he was placed in between her legs. “Well, let’s find out.”
He harshly pressed his right hand on her pussy, rubbing her
clit through her panties. She let out a loud moan of relief, finally feeling
his touch. “Ohhoho.” He said excitedly. “Someone is dripping wet.”
He pulled her panties off, lowering his head, and without a
warning connecting his lips with her clit. Y/N moaned loudly, throwing her head
into the pillow and pushing her hips up. Justin placed his hands around her
legs, separating them to get into better position.
“So delicious.” He growled against her, which send shiver
all over her body. He pushed his two fingers in, making her moan even louder. He
picked his pace with his tongue and fingers action, making her lose her mind.
She was feeling herself getting close, and she knew he felt
it to, because he suddenly stopped. She whined because of the sudden feeling of
emptiness. He got up and in a matter of second pushed himself into him.
The sudden change from his tongue to his dick made her
scream his name out loud. He let out a loud grown. “So Fucking. Tight.” He muttered
out with every thrust.
With his left hand he placed her left leg onto his shoulder,
lightly hovering over her, his right hand found her right nipple, harshly nibbling
She was close, she could feel her orgasm growing. “I can
feel you clenching around my dick. You wanna come? Well not yet.”
With those words he picked up his speed, and it made it even
hared for not to cum. She tugged her nails into the fabric of her shirt. She looked
up at Justin, her eyes begging him to let her cum. He moved his hand from her
nipple to her neck, griping it tightly.
“Cum for me, baby girl. Cum for daddy.” Nothing more was
needed to be say. She felt her walls clenching, and within the second she came
hard, all around him, tugging her nails now into her skin, screaming his name.
“Fuck. You look so hot when you cum.” He hissed out, not
slowing his pace, while she was still high from her previous longly waited orgasm.
He stopped only to flip her around. “On all fours.” He demanded,
and once again thrusted into her. She was feeling sore, but she didn’t mind, it
felt so good to feel him inside her, she wished they could stay like this
He tangled his left hand in her hair, tugging it back so he
could appreciate her pretty face. His right hand slapped her each ass cheek
twice, making her whimper after every slap.
He could feel himself getting close, so he picked his pace.
Y/N wasn’t far away, even though she just finished one orgasm. She pushed her
ass more up “Fucking hell Y/N, do that again.”
She pushed her ass up as much as she could, feeling
satisfied that she could please him like that. “Are you close baby girl? Yeah?
Cum with me, cum with your daddy.”
His thrust became sloppier as both of their orgasms hit
them, she could feel his hot seed feeling her inside, and she screamed his name
loudly. He growled loudly emptying himself into her.
As the rid their orgasm of, Y/N collapsed on the bed, and
Justin on top of her, never pulling his dick out of her. She moved her head so
she was facing him and she smiled. They were both breathing heavily.
“That was extraordinary.” Was all she could mumble into the pillow.
So this is a short Langst idea that came to me in a dream. It is very loosely based on and inspired by this post. There’s going to be two alternative endings to go with it. Both up by Monday (hopefully). Anyways hope you enjoy :D
What. The. Hell. That’s all they could seem to think as they realized they left Lance behind. How could they be so stupid? The Blue Lion had returned with a cockpit full of prisoners, so why wasn’t her paladin flying her. When they questioned the prisoners to find out his location all it did was increase their worries. He was still stuck on the Galra ship. You know, the one they had already wormhole away from.
“Oh, this is bad. This is really, really bad,” Hunk said as he begun pacing the infirmary after they delivered the rescued prisoners to the healing pods.
“Calm down buddy. We’re all worried about Lance right now. He’ll be fine.” Shiro was trying to soothe Hunk, but his words weren’t even working on himself. He of all people knew the horrors of being a captive of the Galra. He could only hope they wouldn’t put Lance to fight in the rings, not that their interrogation methods were much better.
“Lance is a quick thinker; he’ll find a way to keep himself safe until we find him. We just need to have faith.” Coran’s words were a little more encouraging, but there was still a problem.
“Exactly how long will that be exactly? None of us are in the condition to go back and fight, and who’s to say they’ll even be in the same system or have him on the same ship when we’re finally ready. I’ve already lost one brother to the Galra, I’m not about to lose another,” Pidge declared.
“I say we go back whether we’re physically ready or not. Pidge is right if we don’t go back now who knows when we’ll find him again. Not only does staying here extends the time he’s with the Galra, but it also leaves us down one paladin and unable to form Voltron.“ Keith was so mad at himself right now. He shouldn’t have listened when Lance told him to go on without him. That idiot was always sacrificing himself for others. He should’ve told Lance no, and stay to fight with him.
“Paladins I know you’re all worried, as am I. But we should consider the passengers we have on board. What if we go back and something goes wrong? We’ll be essentially handing them back over to the Galra after they just got a taste of freedom. Keith, I understand your point about Voltron, but like Pidge said, none of you are in the condition to fight right now. It’s better one Paladin than all five of you.”
Allura knew she must’ve sounded heartless now, but she felt she was making the right choice. As the leader, she must make the correct decisions, even if it’s not the popular one. The looks her crew was giving her proved that her choice was not the popular one indeed. Allura was only considering what was best for everyone that was here at the time. She wasn’t going to send them into another heavy battle injured and tired.
"You know princess, I understand what you’re saying, but when you were captured by the Galra a while back, Lance was ready to go get you, guns blazing. I guess I just supposed you’d do the same for him,” Hunk stated dejectedly. He turned to head out of the room, Pidge, and Keith on his heels.
None of them wanted to play the waiting game right now, but it’s all they can do. She doesn’t take Hunk’s words too personally because she understands he’s coming from a place of hurt. She wants nothing more than to go in “guns blazing”, as Hunk called it, to go rescue Lance. But that would be thinking like a friend, not a leader and certainly not a princess. With Coran on their side, it should take too long for the castle and everyone on it to be battle ready once more.
It took a week. And with every day that passed, the more tensed and worried everyone got. The prisoners the rescued were fully healed and sent back to their home planets or somewhere safer, and the castle was back at full operating power. Unfortunately, like most of them feared they had lost track of Lance. Pidge had her tech set to alert her to any transmissions that even slightly mentioned the blue paladin. Allura had sent word to their allies to keep an eye out, and the Blade of Marmora had their inside people looking out. They just have to play the waiting game a little longer.
Lance’s absence seemed to affect Hunk the most until eventually, he started spending time in Lance’s room. No one thought anything about it until one day he came to the common room crying.
“Guys, what if we find Lance and he doesn’t want to come back? What if they took him to Prince Lotor and he chooses to stay with him?”
“Hunk what are you talking about? Why would Lance want to stay with the Galra of all people,” Keith asked.
They didn’t receive an answer. Hunk just motioned for them to follow him as he leads them to Lance’s room. It was cleaner than they expected, but they suppose Hunk may have had something to do with that. The bed was unmade as evidence that Hunk was more than likely sleeping in here too. He stopped right in front of Lance’s desks where there were some scraps of papers as well as two jars. One was labeled “The Good” and had about two handfuls of colorful stars. The other was labeled “The Bad” and was nearly overflowing with black stars.
Shiro remembered this tradition from his childhood, but it appeared that Lance had a different way of doing things. He doesn’t understand why this would make Hunk think Lance doesn’t want to come back. Shiro picked up a purple star from the good jar and started to unfold it. And that’s why we bring our sharpshooter. -S
He remembered that moment. Lance had made an incredible, almost impossible, shot, and Shiro felt so proud at that moment. Not thinking anything much of it, he picked a star from “the bad” jar and unfold it. You are the worst pilot ever! -K
It was then Shiro got an idea where this was heading. He kept opening more of the black star and some of the things on them shocked him.
I hope I don’t need to remind you that the only reason you’re here is that the best pilot in your class had a discipline issue and flunked out. Don’t follow in his footsteps. -I
Aw, Lance, you just ruined it. -H
He’d be Sendak’s prisoner right now, if not for Pidge. -A
Well, you wouldn’t have survived the explosion if Hunk and Coran hadn’t gotten a new Crystal. -P
I’m taking Keith with me. -S
Shiro realized that these were all things they said that hurt Lance in some way. It also suddenly came back that none of them had told Lance thank you for that time Sendak almost took the castle. He’s sure at some point Coran did, but no one else. Not for waking up and shooting Sendak’s arm off, or anything else he did for them for that matter. They were always just distracted by Lance’s boisterous personality, they never considered how they spoke to him. And the jar was so full, who knew what other things were said that affected him negatively.
At this point, the others began reading the unfolded stars and were probably reaching the same conclusion as Shiro did. Hunk’s concern made sense as he unwrapped the colorful stars and realized most of them were things Lotor said. He probably realized the Blue Paladin’s insecurities and used them to his advantage. When were the two even alone enough for these things to be said?
If Lance didn’t come back they’d have no one to blame but themselves. They pushed him away with their words. They basically handed Lance over to the Galra.
A lot of you guys are always concerned about me because the more that I share, the more you realize I’m a real person with struggles and issues and I’m not 100% okay 100% of the time haha so I just wanna give an update and share some insight on how I’ve been doing and what I’ve been working on.
The hair cut is the visible part. The change is sooooo real. I look like a different person but I seriously FEEL like one. Surface changes: I live in Tennessee. I have short blonde hair. I’ve now dated two guys that I actually loved. I own a house and a car. Before, I lived in California, I had freaking long brown hair, I shared a mini van with four other people, I’d never been on a date and truly questioned whether I’d ever meet anyone that liked me for who I was, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life past like two years into the future and I felt like I would live with my parents forever. So a lot of big things have changed but honestly the biggest changes happened inside with less visible results. You can only see it in my smile and hear it in my words. But really you’ll see it in my actions over the next 12 months. It’s just the beginning.
I honestly don’t know where it came from. The last six years I have been so passive. My life has been happening to me. There have been some breakthrough moments where I learned a lot about myself and my confidence and self love, yes. I had some good times for sure. But as far as knowing what I want and where I wanna go, I was not good at that. I felt SO powerless and began to withdraw more and more, in my friendships, my career, our band, my family, everything. I shared so little each day, I had so few ideas, I didn’t create much, I only wrote when I was really upset or inspired (which wasn’t that often), I had no social life, no vision for myself, no confidence that anyone would ever love me and I just wasn’t living a rich life at all. I was an observer hoping that one day someone or something would come along and make my life actually enjoyable. I was constantly waiting. I journaled a lot and released a lot of emotion, that part was good. I just felt like I was living in a cave, stuck in the past, not doing much each day to actually experience life.
Then we moved across the country. *shock* *panic* *whoa*. That was the first time I was really shaken up.
Then I had my heart broken. Twice. I fell in love and both times it didn’t work out. I NEEDED that, to meet people who actually got me and appreciated my personality and loved all my quirks and my strange mind and how childlike I am. For the first time I felt understood. I wouldn’t change a thing. I was so closed off for so long and suddenly I was ripped open. Someone was asking for my time and attention and I had to give it to them. I was so scared but I really wanted to experience that side of life so I had to let those people see me and experience who I was. It was so good for me omg. I felt like my heart was shriveled and frozen before that, it had seen the sun maybe three times, but once that happened it absolutely bloomed. Not everyone has to fall in love to open their heart but for me that’s how it happened.
Anyway it was really intense and pushed me to the edge, dealing with that loss. I cut off all my hair. I just had enough. I was so drained. I had felt so vulnerable throughout my dating experiences, such a long period of trusting and hoping after so many years of doing the opposite, I guess I became a little over exposed. I pictured myself feeling tough and strong after a particularly intense weekend of fighting and I saw myself with no hair. It was kind of a crazy idea at first but it turned into a real desire. After a few days of thinking it over, I took the plunge.
What. A. Rush.
Suddenly I just wanted to feel alive. I went a little overboard but I did so many things. Concerts, road trips, bonfires, social plans nonstop, shopping, reinventing my style… I was really hurting during this time and I just wanted to feel better. I don’t regret doing so much but I’m glad I came down after a month and examined myself. I realized how much I was hurting and I faced it. I felt scared, hurt, abandoned, broken and vulnerable but it was comforting to identify that. Once you face it, you can feel it, release it and eventually let it go.
In October I realized I wanted more. I actually had dreams. Cutting my hair showed me I could have an idea, see it through and that it could actually go well! I wanted that on a bigger scale. I started writing again, all the time. I took an interest in my appearance again. Before, I just wanted people to think I’m pretty. Of course I still do but now it’s so much more than that. It actually is for me. When my outfit/makeup/overall look matches my mood, I feel so much more confident, comfortable with myself and ready to take on the day. Even in my work out clothes, I always try to coordinate them now and make them feel good because I know I just do more with my day when I feel confident and ready to put myself out there. You don’t need to look perfect AT ALL, in fact sometimes that can cause more stress because it puts more pressure on you. Just take the time to put yourself together and feel GOOD about what you’re wearing each day. It seriously makes a huge difference. And especially DO NOT wear anything that makes you feel bad. GET RID OF IT!!!! All your clothes should make you feel cute in some way.
Idk how this happened but I kind of just realized nothing is a big deal. The way I used to live, EVERYTHING was a HUGE deal. Texting a guy? Leaving the house? Spending 30 dollars? Calling someone first? All terrifying things I dreaded and avoided at all costs. I had to work through so much INTENSE anxiety when I first started dating, it was really sad how much that freaked me out and how much I had to work through just to get to a point where I felt comfortable going on one date or being the object of a man’s attention. I felt so incredibly unworthy.
Anyway, maybe it was the hair cut but sometime around then I just became really bold. Right now I feel like almost nothing scares me. My biggest fear is probably trusting people that have hurt me. That’s one thing I can think of that I’m struggling with and truly terrifies me, trying to rebuild broken relationships. I’m having help working through that. Other than that, there are so few things I won’t try, won’t pursue, won’t say to someone. I am becoming more bold, confident, comfortable in my own skin and sure of myself with each passing second. I just feel GOOD. Nothing is that big of a deal! Seriously force yourself to take more risks and you’ll quickly understand what I mean. You can spend weeks, months, even years fearing things and trying to predict what will happen but once you finally do them you’ll see just how unnecessary all that stress was. Nothing is that hard, that daunting, that permanent. Heck, even tattoos can be removed these days.
I think that was the biggest change of all so far: the removal of fear. Fear used to be the gas in my tank, it absolutely fueled me. Now it’s faith. I am so ON FIRE for my life!!!!!! I have so many exciting dreams I want to pursue, so much I want to create, so many places I want to go, things I want to experience, learn, master, people I want to meet and be around….. I love it all. I decide what I want and I go after it. I look at myself in the mirror and I smile. I’m starting to look as bold and unique as I feel. The long hair was beautiful and fun and maybe one day I’ll want it back but for now, it just feels too plain for how colorful and out of the box my mind is. I always used my mind a lot but I wasn’t exploring it much before. Now that I’m embracing my unconventional brain, I just want to express that openness and share it with the world.
Also I’ve noticed I’m getting disappointed comments from traditional, conformist men I never wanted to date anyway that used to love my hair 😂 so no offense but I was never interested in you anyway, there are soooooo many long haired women in the world you can comment on that you’ll probably never even meet but i’m just one less you need to worry about hahaha. All of the bold men that liked me before just like me more now. And I think it’s because I also like myself more! Confidence attracts confidence! I’m growing into the baller I was born to be and it’s just helping me attract more ballers 😂😂
BTW THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH HAVING LONG HAIR OR A MORE SIMPLE STYLE I FULLY SUPPORT IT. YOU DONT HAVE TO LOOK LIKE A CRAZY PERSON OR LIVE A WILD UNCONVENTIONAL LIFE TO BALL OUT ON EVERYONE THATS JUST HOW I CHOOSE TO DO IT HAHA. EVERYONE IS A BALLER IN THEIR OWN WAY I EMBRACE AVERAGE LOOKING PEOPLE AND WILD LOOKING PEOPLE, AS LONG AS YOURE LIVING A LIFE YOU LOVE AND CHOOSING WHAT TRULY FULFILLS YOU!!!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE JUST LIVE IT BECAUSE YOU LOVE IT 🙌🏼
Anyway, I feel so much more confident in myself, men or no men. It’s funny cuz I finally stopped worrying about guys and now I actually interact with them the way I always wanted to hahaha.
I no longer rely on the approval of others to get through the day. I no longer feel paralyzed by fear every morning and night. I no longer ponder whether I’m worthy of a date or not. I no longer look in the mirror and sigh. I no longer think of the future as a blurry grey blob filled with hopelessness, uncertainty and fear. I know it will be whatever I make it and I am going to make it freaking phenomenal.
That’s a huge key, putting YOURSELF in the drivers seat. Forget this message of victimization. You are the person holding yourself down but YOU can be the one to lift yourself up!!!! Wow I just got a huge craving for meat loaf and mashed potatoes. HAHAHA. Anyway, put yourself in control. Ask God for guidance. Trust that you are taken care of always because YOU ARE. Embrace yourself. Stop thinking you have to be perfect. Stop thinking you’re unlovable. Realize how cool you are and how much you have going for yourself. Jump in and try things. Stop thinking you have to be “ready”. THE LESSONS OF FAILURE ARE FAR MORE VALUABLE THAN THE PRIZES OF SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!
On that note, go kill it. Embrace yourself. Blossom. Live. Come alive. You got this 👊🏼💗
Cassie, I'm so sorry, but some 'fans' are sharing a lot of LoS spoilers and snippets here on Tumblr - and on Twitter, too. What do you think that we should do to avoid them?
This does happen, even with books that are embargoed. There’s always a bookstore or a website that doesn’t comply with the embargo and sends the book out early. After all these years I’ve come to accept this as inevitable.
I am against spoilers, as you know — I think they ruin the experience of reading a book. I think if you’re going to post spoilers, no one can stop you, but please — don’t tag your spoilers with anything that will bring unwary fans to your page (”TDA” “Lord of Shadows”) and please put the spoilers under a cut.
If you are trying to avoid spoilers (and I hope you are) — blacklist “los spoilers” and “lord of shadows spoilers” as tags. If you can’t blacklist and you see someone spoiling, ask them politely to put their spoilers under a tag. If you see someone spoiling on Twitter, mute them for the next week.
Some people like being spoiled — I never understand why because information about a book out of context can give you the completely opposite impression or idea of what actually happens in a book (say someone is reading the book and tells you Emma murders Julian*; maybe you if you read it, you’d find out a few paragraphs later that was all an illusion, or faked or a dream: but if you came across that as a spoiler you’ll never know and it may well influence you to never read the book.) Also, you’ll get their take on what happened, which wouldn’t necessarily be yours: I’ve already seen some spoilers that to me don’t seem to bear any resemblance to what happens in the book at all. :-(
Spoilers are part of the internet, and we’re all kind of stuck with them: all we can do is politely ask people who are spoiling to make sure they’re only spoiling people who want to be spoiled. I would be desperately unhappy if someone prevented me from experiencing a book (or movie) the way it’s supposed to be experienced by telling me beforehand what happened. There’s a reason they’re called spoilers, because they spoil/ruin the experience of reading for many, many people: please just do your best to make sure that in your eagerness to talk about a new book you’re not wrecking anyone else’s enjoyment of the experience.
Aquarius, who was pretty much in love with the world. She never really feared or had any uncertain doubts about the future, and it was always that attitude of her getting what she wanted, or die trying type. What ever you needed, she would. No questions asked. She was there at your every call. And yet, Aquarius didn’t hesitate to push me out of her life. The constant repitition of doing the same promises and telling her that I’ll change became an old tune to her that she had nothing else to do but lose it and throw profanities and leave. She deserves more than words. She needed actions.
Aries, who looked at the world with passion. Her favorite motto was: ‘Go big or get the fuck out’ Her emotions were huge defense in terms of protecting herself from unecessary vibes. She was also a strong and passionate love, and how she would always take the lead and make sure she has her way with you. And yet Aries cried to me, grabbing me by the throat, and gritted her teeth telling me how much I was the worst, how I was a big mistake. She said it as if it were poison, and I watched as she said it with strong hate only to find her later outside, holding herself and holding back tears.
Cancer, who loved to kiss her teeth when she was feeling some type of way. What I loved her the most was when she was feeling needy and she would come up from behind, all her hair would fall on my and she would kiss me the whole time. The laugh she does would echo through the room, and her emotions would flow out of her. She was like a child, she loved the attention. She craved our passion. And yet, Cancer threw a fit. Threw things at me and yelled at me. The pain in her voice, the laughter no longer heard. She left.
Capricorn, who loved the smell of cinnamon. The moment you stepped in her house, a cinnamon scented candle would greet you. She loved nothing more than to stay home after a long day and read nothing but books, I mean any philosophical ones. She would ask for my input about an idea, or a theory she would read. She scowls when I tell her “I don’t know..” and she’d tell me to open more and dive into her world. Explore every possibility and never question the outcome. To grow was her motto. And yet, I walked into an empty room. A letter by the table and there was a letter, written: Your beauty is transcendent, yes, but painfully abstract. - Plato.
Gemini, who loved the arts. If there was a performance in town she would pull me with her, drag me out of bed and bring her to the place. She loved movies the most, and she had collections of black and white movies, movies I have never heard of. Photography was her escape. A part of her room was covered of pictures of people, scenaries and things. She was amazing, but her personality was her flaw. She loved you today, and she wants to be free the next. But she always comes back, falling more and more each day.. and yet, as she grew to love me, she too grew to be distant. The time we spent were falling and finally she looked at me and said goodbye.
Leo, who was a perfectionist. She knew what she wanted and what she craved and her pride was her favorite thing. No meant nothing to her. Everybody knew her, and she was wild. She was free. She was fiesty. She was rough. She was life. And yet, because of her pride, she would not settle. She wanted more than just as it was, and I was not able to provide.
Libra, a long distance lover. Loved to call and text every chance she can to be with me, and it went on for months as we grew and loved one another. Her smile on our first video chat, and we slept for hours and we laughed when we woke. We talked about dreams, the future and the possibility of having a family and shared deep secrets, secrets untold. And yet, she picked up a video chat one day and she was with another. She frowned and stared at me. No words needed.
Pisces, loved the idea of love. She made our lives a beginning of a world of wonder and dreams. We were both stuck in lala land, and she showered and cared for our love like no other. And yet, as she loved and loved she slowly began to see the flaws and faults. The fighting and the arguements, non-stop anxiety and jealousy feelings came and she began to wonder if our love was more than a chapter than the whole book of love itself. And for that, she left.
Sagittarius, adored me so much that everything asked was given with no hesitation. She was never to quick to think it through, and she was eager to pull a plan through. And yet, she started to realize her worth. She knew what she was capable of and who she was, and admitted that she was lost before and found herself in the process of being with me. She thanked me for my purpose and we haven’t talked since.
Scorpio, who loved to be dominant. She meant every thing she says, and she expect me to keep myself in check. She wanted nothing more than just to be real and accept our flaws. To love it, respect it. She loved the fact that she was above me, and I succumbed to her. And yet, she later on confessed her true colors and she was not prepared to open up, and she needed time to explore more of herself in order for her to settle down.
Taurus, she was the kind of person that loved to create small things into adventures. Who loved taking trips to stores and various places that made her mind wander. I watched her grow and grow each time we’re together, that slowly she’s out of my reach. She was the epitome of a person that the universe gives you at a young age, and she blossoms into something you couldn’t handle yet.
Virgo, who valued love as much as I. The opposite of, and yet the same as me. She loved nothing more than to be loved, and loved we did. Her voice, her laugh, the moments we shared were the typical romantic scenes you see in movies. She would come home and slowly make her way to me, wrapping herself to me. And complain and talked about her day. She doesn’t even need to speak to me and it was a very strong connection we had that made us in sync with another. She was simple. She was the definition of love. She was mine. And yet, we slowly faded and stopped. The red thread disappeared and our time ended. She was gone. I became lost.
just a random idea that came to me in a fever dream earlier this week. rated E for explicit smutty smut smut. enjoy!
“You want me to do what?”
Peeta frowned at her foot, wielding the nail polish brush threateningly. “First, I want you to hold still.” Katniss wriggled her toes defiantly but then obliged, hardly daring to breathe when he swiped the coral nail polish onto her big toe in nice, even strokes. It looked perfect, of course. He could always paint better than she could, even nails.
“Seriously, though. You want me to go to a dinner party with you?” she asked. He glanced up at her with a crooked smile before he started painting her next toenail.
“You make it sound like I’ve asked you to strip naked and run around the block or something,” he said, focusing on her toes. She snorted, then clamped her lips shut when he shot her a warning look. Snorting made her foot jiggle, apparently. “It’s just a dinner party. Delly asked everyone to bring a guest–someone, and I quote, ‘interesting.’ So I’m asking you.”
Katniss stared at the top of his head, his blond curls falling across his forehead as he worked. “But I don’t really know her. And what a weird stipulation,” she said with a laugh.
Peeta shrugged. “Delly likes her theme parties,” he muttered, tongue poking out the corner of his mouth as he delicately painted her pinky toe. Satisfied with his work, he shot her a triumphant smile. “And you’re the most interesting person I know.”
She rolled her eyes. “Says the guy who paints nails better than any girl I know.”
He gave her a look of mock offense. “Are you questioning my masculinity? You know how I feel about rigid gender roles.” Then he held up his hand, palm flat, fingers spread. “And who’s got a steadier hand than me?” She kicked playfully at his hand, and he made a noise of protest, grabbing her ankle to place her foot down on the coffee table. “Don’t mess up my hard work.”
Katniss slumped down into the couch, chewing on her lip. “You know I don’t like people. How am I supposed to be interesting around a bunch of strangers?”
Screwing the nail polish bottle shut, Peeta sat back on his hands. “Just think of it as a challenge. See how often you can work into the conversation that dry wit and razor-sharp sarcasm of yours without them realizing you’re insulting them.”
“Do you want people to hate me?” she asked wryly, folding her arms over her chest. He grinned.
“Delly said interesting. She didn’t say anything about likable.” He laughed when she flipped him off, then pushed off the floor to stand up. “I should head home. But I swear, if you just be yourself, people will love you.” She didn’t think it was that simple. Peeta never had to worry about getting people to like him; it just came naturally to him. But she didn’t argue the point, letting him pull her up from the couch. With cotton balls stuffed between her toes, she wobbled after him to the front door. Grabbing his jacket from the coat rack, he turned to her. “So you’ll come?”
Thank you @dadd11e for your request! Sorry it took so long!
the reader has feelings for Dean but finds out that they are actually for him. Leads
to rough sex and them getting together.
followed the sway of Y/N’s hips as she danced over to Dean who was making
breakfast. My veins boiled with the jealousy pumping through me as Y/N leant
over Dean and giggled at whatever he was saying. As she bent forward the long
shirt she was wearing (either Dean’s or mine) rode up to reveal her blue
panties. She was obviously trying to show off to Dean as she always did, as she
had been doing for the past 5 years she had spent with us, and again all she
seemed to be succeeding in was getting me riled up. I eventually gave up trying
to keep myself under control and pushed away from the table roughly, storming
angrily out of the room.
Casting experience I met the manager when I was walking to the convenience store with friends, so I was street casted, and went to Korea. They asked me if I knew After School and Son Dambi-sunbaenim, we then shot some videos, and then I got in. At first I was only curious, but then it became increasingly interesting, so I wanted to continue.
All the facts are of my own mind (you are not required to agree).
I’m definitely not good with specific days/months/years.
My native language is not English… so… sorry about some mistakes!
Well…despite not being good with the timeline, let’s start! Let’s do this! Fasten your seat belts and stay comfortable.
Every-fucking-time I read questions and theories about Camren, everyone has the same impression: They had a relationship for almost ¾ years. We could all see that in all those years, the one who seemed most comfortable in giving us “hints” and talking a little more quietly about Camren, was Camila.
We have all seen that Lauren didn’t deal well with the situation about this relationship in the beginning. She always seemed to be in conflict with herself, with what she felt and what or whom she liked (boys/girls).
Starting from the assumption that Camren had a relationship for almost 4 years, I began to think about these facts that I will present below.
This theory doesn’t have much to do with Camila’s departure from the band, but some facts inevitably intertwine.
At the beginning of 2016, everything looked fine between Camren. The M&G pictures in Brazil showed that everything seemed to be okay. The concerts in Brazil were from 28/June to 05/July of 2016.
I believe they were together and happy at the time, but some conflict had already begun.
Camila already showed signs of tiredness, but not of sadness. Lauren looked very happy and comfortable nearby Camila.
Okay, another point I’d like to say, in that theory I’m not going to involve Lucy, because Laucy as a love relationship isn’t something I believe, so all the trips that Lauren made with Lucy, for me it was like “best friends time”.
Not only in Brazil, but throughout the beginning of the 7/27 Tour they were looking at each other at the concerts and seemed to be okay.
And the M&G things just seemed to be fine too…
At some point, things started to change. The soundcheck began to get increasingly weird, the girls increasingly separated from Camila. Camila was getting more and more depressed, sad and tired.
So what happened? Lauren betrayed Camila? Camila betrayed Lauren? Did they fight? Did they split up? Well… Several times we saw that Lauren was trying to remain happy while Camila had a miserable look of sadness. They were getting farther away in the soundchecks, Lauren disappeared and they said she was stuck in traffic and they did not interact anymore. They did not even sit together anymore.
Of everything I believe about Camren, it’s impossible for me to think about betrayal. At least the way I see this relationship. Pure, crazy, dependent, strong, intense and REAL! No, I don’t think there was betrayal, we know our girls, can you imagine Lauren doing that with her cute bow-girl? Can you imagine Camila doing that with her planet-green-eyes-girl? Well, call me naive or whatever, but I can not!
Camila had a problem with her anxiety and the problems began to be exposed. I think she began to feel the pressure of having to choose and decide about her future and their relationship.
It seems that things have gotten complicated and they have been moving away. Camila was the farthest.
Ok … here comes what I think happened. Camila expressed her willingness to leave the group, arguing perhaps that she needed more freedom to write, to show her art the way she always dreamed. I believe that all this, in a way, they already wanted her to be a solo artist because they acted to make it happen naturally (they could have double money with this). I also believe that part of the Fifth Harmony team didn’t want that. This includes the parents of the other girls. Of course, everyone knew that the band would be able to continue without Camila, but that would certainly shake a certain structure they already had.
I think Camila wanted and had enough courage to assume Camren, but when the idea of going out as a solo artist came along, I believe it has retreated in her mind. I think this was “offered” to the Camren couple, like “okay, you guys will have more freedom, you can get out of this fucking closet and be freer, but you have to stay in the band”.
I think Lauren accepted this agreement because we saw that along the Tour, she was getting out of the closet gradually and we saw that Camila was running away more and more.
Lauren seemed very happy, after all, had come to the possibility of getting Camren out the closet and finally be TOGETHER.
But she seemed to be always doing all this alone…
I believe there was a conversation where Lauren made it clear that she was going to jump out of the closet, but Camila backed off because somehow she was warned by her “solo team” that if she was really leaving the band, she couldn’t assume her sexuality. On the contrary, they would have to reaffirm and reinforce her sexuality as HETEROSEXUAL!
Lauren kept doing this on her own and obviously gained the support of the other girls. I think what turned the girls away from Camila might have been that. For years dating Lauren, giving hints all over the internet, making love statements and when it comes time to assume…she leaves the band and let Lauren all alone with this ship to pursue her own dreams.
I remember when Normani’s mom tweeted something about selfishness.
Well… and Clara seemed to be always posting things to defend Lauren and leave doubts in the air.
Camila’s parents no longer helped with the things about Fifth Harmony. Camila’s solo team was more active than ever and she was making it clear throughout the Tour that it would be the last one with the girls. She was making it clear in pictures, social media, reactions and trying to keep her image as straight as possible.
I think at the end of the day, Lauren still hoped that Camila would stay and assume Camren with her, and I even think Camila thought about it, but she has warned again, that if she assumed Camren, Goodbye solo career!
So I guess everyone remembers what happened when a fan asked her (Camila) if she identified herself with the sun or with the moon (Theory of the Sun & Moon) and she said that she identified herself with the MOON, BUT SHE DID NOT KNOW WHY SHE PERSONIFIES THE MOON AS “SHE”.
And I think everyone remembers Lauren’s reaction, right?
For me, Lauren’s reaction on that day was something like: “okay, I’ve already seen that I’m going to do it myself! No Camren for Camila today (or tomorrow)!!”
I really think Camila kept trying to make Camren continue hidden. I guess she didn’t want the relationship to end, but Lauren wanted to assume her sexuality. I think in a way, they initially reached an agreement, after much talk, including and especially between the two 5H X SOLO teams. Like: "she’s going to leave, Lauren can assume, but she can not put Camila on it.” … and for me, that’s how the idea of giving an “up” in Laucy showed up. I think Lucy knew everything and tried to help her best friend. I think Lauren and Camila came to some agreement between them. I think Lauren refused to continue dating and hiding the relationship and that’s what made Camila sad.
Pursue my dreams or give them up for love ???
She was practically between the cross and the sword and she had to choose.
They knew she would leave …
I think that after Lauren realized that Camila was not going to go back, she was not going to stay, she was not going to assume Camren, she started trying to get away for a bit … but I also think that Camila continued trying to make Camren survive inside the closet.
That’s when Lauren collapsed on stage…
But Lauren seemed strong after that day. She started going out, going to parties, traveling and also fulfilled her “part” in the “agreement” that was to increase Laucy’s popularity as a couple.
For me, it was something like: “Okay, Camila … you want to leave and you will not assume? I’ll make it easier on you! I will not speak about you and I’ll help you kill Camren if that’s what you need/want.”. I think Lauren was really angry and asked Lucy for help.
That’s why I think everyone started giving indirect through social media … especially the Jauregui family. I think they got mad with the feeling that: “then she says she loves my daughter, they live all this craziness and then my daughter gets alone in this whole shit and carry on her back?? As their daughter leaves the band to make her happy solo career??? What the fuck???”.
Call me crazy, or call me delusional, so we’re more accustomed to this term … but I really believe that’s how came from the drama of Clara unfollowing the Cabello family on social networks, Taylor leaving some twitts, Chris deleting his picture with Camila, Lucy unfollowing Camila, Vero no longer supporting Camila (and Camren) … anyway, summing up …
Camila and Lauren fell in love, even with everything a little confused, they started a relationship, they stayed together a long time, Camila wanted to assume, while not thinking about pursuing the solo career, Lauren trying to hide. Finally, Lauren wanted to assume, but Camila was introduced to the idea of having a career the way she had always dreamed, but for that, she would have to deny and kill Camren for good. Lauren tries to assume with Camila, who decides for her solo career. Jauregui family get extremely angry, the other girls upset (For having followed their relationship for all these years), Lauren’s friends gets upset and angry. Camila with just a little of support, always walking with her mom or with Ashlee Juno, who was practically her only “friend” at the end of the 7/27 Tour in 2016.
What do I think about the present time?
I think Camila keep all this time trying to get back with Lauren and trying to talk to try to keep Camren alive, but hidden from the audience. I really think she keeps trying.
Because of everything she posts on social media, for all the hints, for the way she’s been directed to talk more about boys, but at the same time, she still leaves roses on the way to certain "you” that we already know who it is!
No, I do not think Camila is the villain and Lauren the angel. Maybe in the heat of the moment, they hurt too much themselves the way this relationship went. For some time we could see Camila very sad and post things like:
Maybe Lauren hurt her before, maybe they ended up fighting because of jealousy … (Because if you believe Lauren betrayed Camila, what reason would her family have to ignore or “attack” the Cabello family? They could not “complain” if their own daughter had done this to Camila. They would not have the moral for it.)
Maybe Lauren is starting to give in, maybe not. Maybe she still thinks that Camila’s departure and the fact that she was “abandoned” with Camren in her arms was some kind of betrayal. Maybe she’s still hurt. Maybe the Laucy kiss was purposely like: “She does not want me to kill Camren? So that’s how I’m going to do it!” … maybe it was a way to hurt Camila how she felt hurt. I can not really tell what happened, but that’s all I believe in. Obviously, it should not be 100% that way, but this is just another theory, like so many others about Camren.
But Camila seems very happy lately … and Lauren is more beautiful and radiant than ever. Camila smiled again like she did before. Camren ship seems to be sailing again … and we stand strong in this (delusional/crazy) sea!
REQUEST by IMPOSSIBLYLUCKYVXI: Can I have one where Ro meets YN a
journalist at a press junket for Fastlane. He immediately wants her but she
runs from him because she thinks she isn’t good enough for him since she’s a
average girl. Months go by since their encounter & he still wants her &
she wants him too but can’t get over their career differences. One night she
has to go a live Raw show to right a story & she sees him again. He corners
her this time & gets mad possessive & sexy. End it how you’d like.
Warnings: Smut, language
(A/N): I’m so sorry it took so long guys. To make it up to y’all, I made it
longer than I planned it to be. I also loved writing this one, so I hope you
guys enjoy it! Feedback is always welcome😌
ready?’’ my best friend and colleague asked me, ‘’In a few minutes, you’ll be
interviewing Roman fucking Reigns.’’
down girl, as much as I adore the man, I have to stay professional,’’ I
chuckled as I took a sip of my water, ‘’I’m nervous though; he’s competing
against Braun Strowman and he’s a monster, I wonder what his strategy is for
I agree. I’m curious too now you mentioned it,’’ she turned around and smirked,
‘’Why don’t you ask him yourself?’’
what?’’ I looked at her confused as she walked off. I honestly had no idea what
she was talking about, so I turned to the paper with questions that was given
to me. Fastlane was tonight and I was chosen to interview few of the WWE
superstars who were having their matches. The perks or being an journalist is
that you get to see so many different places and people, situations that you’ll
is probably the first time someone hasn’t notice me sitting next to them,’’ a
low heavy voice said, making me look up surprisingly. ‘’There she is,’’ he
chuckled, ‘’you’re the one who’s interviewing me, am I right?’’
my god, I’m so sorry Mr. Reigns,’’ I said embarrassed, ‘’and that’s right, here
Roman, sugar,’’ He smiled, making me melt right away, ‘’Mr. Reigns sounds so
then, Roman, you ready for your interview?’’ I asked, trying hard to hide my
nerves. This man is gorgeous, how can anyone act normal around him?
more than ready,’’ he raised an eyebrow as he looked at my chest, ‘’y/n. Oh
don’t worry, I ain’t a man like that, I’m a decent guy.’’ He chuckled, making
good to know,’’ I smiled and stood up, ‘’Let’s get started then.’’
can’t talk some more?’’ He asked pouting his lips. ‘’I mean, we gotta do the
interview, but I’d like to get to know the beautiful woman who will be asking
bet you say that to every woman who is about to interview you,’’ I chuckled. He
stood up and walked over to where I was standing and took my hand in his.
only say it when I mean it, babygirl,’’ Roman smiled as his hand caressed my
cheek. Looking him in the eye, I felt butterflies. ‘’And actually, it’s the
first time I told someone.’’ He whispered, making me smile. ‘’So what do you
say? Wanna talk some more now, or after my match?’’
think we have to get started if you wanna be on time for your match,’’ I
hastily answered as I took the papers from the table and made my way to the interview
corner. ‘Did you really had to respond like that, you idiot?’ I thought to
myself. I could hear Roman chuckling from behind me.
then, but after my match, which I will win without a doubt, I insist you going
to grab something to eat with me.’’
that’s a bet?’’ I frowned, slightly smiling. He nodded, already convinced he
was going to win. Don’t get me wrong, I truly believe he will win, but Braun
doesn’t know what mercy is. I’ve seen how the man literally throws people
around and I can’t even imagine the agony that’s caused by that.
that’s what you wanna call it, then that’s a yes.’’ He smiled as he stood where
he had to stand.
not sure, we’ll see.’’ I answered him as I saw the camera man coming our way.
‘’Right now, let’s do this interview.’’
you say, love.’’
the interview, I kind of started to avoid Roman. Even though I desired to be
with him, I wasn’t going to give myself any form of false hope. He kept trying
to talk to me, but I pretended to be really busy with the aftercare of the
interview and my trip back. At some point, he went to prepare for his match,
leaving me alone.
really likes you,’’ A familiar male voice said, making me turn around. Seth was
standing there with his crutches and a big grin. ‘’You’re all he talks about at
to see you too, Seth.’’ I rolled my eyes and let out a small chuckle. ‘’I’m
only here for the interview, which we finished, so there’s no need for me to be
here anymore,’’ I lied.
be honest with me.’’ Seth said seriously as he sat down next to me. We’d known
each other for quite some time; I had to interview him for a magazine a while
ago and we kept in touch ever since.
being honest,’’ I said as I looked at the screen where Fastlane was going on.
‘’Shouldn’t you be backstage?’’
really no.’’ He chuckled as he signed to his knee.
yeah, you’re right, my bad.’’ I laughed.
why don’t you just tell me what’s the matter? I’ve seen how you’re cutting him
off, why was that?’’
wasn’t cutting him off, alright.’’ I sighed, looking at Roman who came out with
a whole new gear. New sneakers, the black and white logo, he looked incredible.
‘’Why is he interested in me while I’m average? There are so many beautiful
woman around him.’’ I thought out loud. Next to me, I could feel Seth frown.
‘’What I’m trying to say is, we’re just not meant to be.’’
and average? Y/n, please. You know damn well that that’s a lie, quite a big one
Seth,’’ I smiled as I stood up and grabbed my bag, ‘’But I gotta go. Tell Roman
I owe him a victory drink.’’ I gave him a hug and looked at his knee, chuckling,
‘’Take care of that and come back asap.’’
little more than a month has passed and I couldn’t get Roman out of my head for
some reason. Seth called me a couple of times, saying that Roman wanted to meet
up with me, but I said that I was busy. It was half of the truth, because I was
truly busy at some moments, but at other times, when I had nothing to do, I
still didn’t want to meet up with him. Not that I didn’twant to, I wanted it more than anything, but I just couldn’t. ‘He really likes you’, Seth’s words still
roamed through my mind, making it seem like more of a dream that I really met
Roman in the first place. How can he like a girl like me; average looking,
average personality, everything was average about me.
was sitting downstairs, I got a phone call of my boss, saying that I had to
attend RAW. My heart skipped a beat, knowing I would see Roman after all this
time. I have no idea how he’s gonna react on me not contacting him back, but I
was planning to just do what I came for and leave. I grabbed my stuff and left
the house, on my way to the arena. When I arrived, Seth welcomed me with open
arms, constantly telling me how happy he was to see me and that his knee was
doing so much better.
wanted to see you,’’ Seth began as we got backstage, ‘’I probably don’t have to
tell you who I’m talking about.’’
figured,’’ I sighed as I looked in my bag if I had everything with me; paper, pen and my phone, ‘’but I’m here to do
my job, same goes for you guys.’’
you say y/n,’’ he chuckled, ‘’I’m heading to the dressing rooms, you coming
have to go to the restroom first, I’ll find you eventually.’’ I answered as I
gave him a smile. Just as I was probably one meter away from where I was first
standing, someone pulled me aside. ‘’Jesus, what the hell-‘’
calm down,’’ Roman chuckled.
my god, I’m sorry.’’ I covered my face with my hands, totally embarrassed.
‘’How are you doing?’’ I asked, hoping he would answer my question normally.
now I have you for myself for a moment,’’ he murmured as he pushed me against
the wall, his body pressing against mine, ‘’you thought you could just ignore
didn’t mean to…’’ I stammered, completely caught off guard.
course you didn’t mean to,’’ his hand ran through my hair as the other found my
ass, squeezing it tightly, ‘’after my match tonight, you’re coming with me to
my hotel and I’ll show you what happens when you ignore me on purpose.’’ He
whispered next to my ear, making me shiver.
c-can’t Roman, there’s so much I…’’ I couldn’t finish my sentence as he pressed
his soft lips against mine. I kissed him back, not wanting him to stop.
assume that’s a yes?’’
guess so,’’ I whispered, making him smile.
209, I’ll be waiting for you baby,’’ Roman smirked as he walked away, leaving
me standing there; turned on and speechless. I took a deep breath and continued
my way to the restroom.
stood in front of Roman’s room, not knowing if I should knock on the door or
not. After what must’ve been two minutes, decided to just knock. Fuck it. He
opened it, looking relieved as he saw me. ‘’You came,’’ he said. I could make
up a sense of disbelieve in his voice, but I wasn’t questioning it further,
‘’come in.’’ he stepped aside, making room for me to walk inside his suite. It
was huge and everything looked beautiful. ‘’I can’t tell you how happy I am
that you showed up.’’
didn’t really have much of a choice,’’ I chuckled as I turned around, facing
always have a choice,’’ he replied, closing the door behind him. ‘’The moment I
realized you didn’t want to meet up kinda hurt me.’’
was not my intention, I’m sorry.’’ I said, feeling a sense of guilt flushing
over me. ‘’It was not that I didn’t want to, I wanted it so bad.’’
what stopped you?’’ He asked as he stepped closer to me and grabbed my bag,
throwing it in the chair next to the queen-size bed.
thoughts?’’ Roman asked as his hands caressed my cheek, moving down to my hips.
not being good enough for you.’’ I whispered. His eyes widened, grip on my
being good enough for me? Babygirl, look at you, you’re flawless.’’ He said,
making me bite down on my bottom lip. As I did, his whole body language
changed, so did his eyes and facial expression. Anger, need, want, lust was
what I could feel. ‘’So you thought you were getting away with this?’’
w-what?’’ I asked as he started to place sloppy kisses on the side of my neck. My
whole body tensed as he continued.
me,’’ he whispered. Roman lifted me up and his lips hungrily found mine. My
arms wrapped around his broad shoulders. ‘’You’re not getting away with it so
easily, babygirl.’’ He angrily, but seductively said as he roughly lied me down
on the bed. He got rid of his black t-shirt and towered over me. ‘’Take it all
off,’’ his dark eyes burning through me, making me obey him without saying a
word. While I took my clothes off, he did the same, leaving him only in his
boxers. My breathing became heavier as his hand found the thin material of my
panties, rubbing slowly. I let out a quiet moan, making Roman smile against my
neck. ‘’You’re soaked baby, all for me?’’
for you Roman,’’ I finally spoke
you’re such a goddess,’’ he mumbled as he looked at my naked body, his eyes
never left mine. I’ve never been more turned on in my life.
please,’’ I breathed, wanting to touch me more.
you to stay quiet, don’t say a word, or all of this will be over,’’ he
whispered sternly, ‘’You understand?’’
girl. Now lay still for me.’’ He started to nibble on my neck, index finger
slowly circling my clit. Two fingers pushed inside of me exaggeratingly slow,
making me arch my back. I gasped as he slowly picked up speed and placed sloppy
kisses on my collarbone. ‘’Feels good baby?’’ He whispered. The only thing I
could do was nod since he demanded me to stay quiet. He grinned against my
please,’’ I pleaded, breaking his rule. I just couldn’t stand staying muted any
longer even though it hasn’t been that long since he asked me to.
‘’I thought I told you to stay quiet,’’ he frowned and
as punishment, he slid his fingers deeper, keeping them there. I bit my lip
hard, trying not to make a sound. Suddenly, I felt something wet circling my
clit slowly. I looked down, finding Roman staring back at me, pure lust and
hunger in his eyes. He moaned against me, vibrations almost pushing me over the
edge. ‘’You’re not cumming until I say so,’’ he huffed as he pulled his fingers
out of me, taking one last lick at my pussy and licked his lips as he kissed
his way back up. ‘’I’ll show you what happens when you ignore me,’’ he growled
as he kissed me. Desperately kissing him back, my arms wrapped around his neck.
I felt the tip against my entrance but before I could savior the feeling, he
roughly pushed inside of me. At this point, I didn’t care if I made a sound, it
just felt too good. Roman seemed to forget about his own rule as he continued to
‘’Oh fuck Roman!’’ I cried out. He sped up, his large
hands wrapped around my waist.
‘’Tell me how good I’m making you feel,’’ he breathed.
The intense pleasure he was giving me, made me feel dizzy. I tried to answer
him, but I couldn’t collect the words to make a proper sentence. ‘’I’m waiting,’’
he rubbed my clit fast but gentle.
‘’You’re m-making me feel s-so good oh my god,’’ I
moaned into his mouth.
‘’Promise me you won’t ever ignore me again,’’ he
said, looking me straight into my eyes.
‘’I p-promise,’’ I shakily said.
‘’What do you promise?’’
‘’I promise n-not to i-ignore you a-again,’’ I
whimpered as he hit my g-spot.
‘’Good girl,’’ he smirked as he bit down my lower lip,
making me shiver. In a split second, I was lying on my stomach, his dick buried
inside of me again, hair in his tight grip. His thrust became rougher.
‘’Fucking hell Roman,’’ I let out a muffled moan as I
grabbed the silky sheets.
‘’You’re fucking beautiful,’’ he grunted. ‘’Ah damn
baby, that’s it.’’
‘’Please what huh?’’ He knew exactly what I wanted as
he stated to rub my clit again roughly. But he was passionate too; placing soft
kisses on my burning shoulders, rubbing my waist. ‘’You want me to make you
‘’Yes please,’’ I begged, ‘’Please Roman, can I cum?’’
The familiar heat began to pool in my lower abdomen. He chuckled and yanked me
up by my hair, my back glued to his sweaty chest.
‘’You can cum now babygirl, let me feel you soak my
dick,’’ his husky voice whispered in my ear, still rubbing my clit. My walls
started to clench around him, making him groan out loud. ‘’Christ y/n you feel
so good,’’ Roman moaned. As he licked my neck, I closed my eyes, moaning his
name. My orgasm washed over me and if he hadn’t hold me, I would’ve collapsed.
I felt him throb inside of me as he continued to thrust. ‘’Shittt,’’ he hissed
as I felt him release inside of me.
‘’I’m sorry if I was too rough,’’ Roman apologized. We
were lying under the covers, TV on but I don’t think either of us was actually
‘’I’m sorry for ignoring you,’’ I said, looking up at
him. He grinned as he wrapped his arm around me, kissing me on the head.
‘’You’re mine now y/n, there was a reason why the
universe brought us together again, Our love is just too strong,’’ he quietly
said, making me smile. I looked up, finding him half asleep.
‘’I’m not going anywhere Roman.’’ I kissed his lips
and put my head back on his chest.
Anon asked “can you do a seb x reader with him coming home from Atlanta and he finds you sleeping peacefully in bed and he slips into bed with you and he can’t fathom just how lucky he is that you’re with him and he realizes there that he wants you forever??”
A/N: Sorry this is late. Comments appreciated :) Message me if you want to be tagged in anything.
I need some mutual pining solangelo please? Thankss
“Hey, earth to Nico,” Jason waved his hand in front of Nico’s
face, and when he didn’t answer the son of Jupiter frowned. Nico had been so
lost in his own thoughts lately that Jason was getting worried he was going to
get himself hurt because he wasn’t paying attention to his surroundings. Something
big must have caught his interest for Nico to be so out of it, he was normally
so perceptive when it came to the world around him. It had to be something really
special to pull his mind onto just one track.
Of course, it was something special. It was Nico’s massive
crush on one Will Solace.
Nico was the worst love-sick puppy Jason had ever seen. Jason
could physically feel Nico pinning
over the son of Apollo, and that was saying something. Jason wasn’t always the
most perceptive when it came to feelings. “Why don’t you just go talk to him?”
Jason nudged Nico’s shoulder, who dropped his fork in surprise at being
startled. “I know it’s a crazy idea, but just sitting here watching him
creepily isn’t going to magically make him fall in love with you.”
Nico blushed a dark shade of red before turning back to the
food on his plate, grumbling under his breath. “It’s not that simple. Besides, a
bright son of Apollo like him would never even dream of being with a creepy son
of Hades like me.” He picked up his fork, nibbling on his salad.
Jason felt himself grin and snort with Nico’s statement. He wasn’t
so blind that he didn’t see the longing looks Will sent Nico’s way when he
thought Nico wasn’t looking. Honestly, it surprised Jason that Nico hadn’t
caught him staring before. “Ah, see, little cousin, that’s where you’d be
He simply smiled when Nico stared at him in confusion.
“That’s why there’s a spear tip in my thigh,” Jason spoke
rather lightly for someone who was bleeding from a mild stab wound in their
leg. Will looked dumbfounded, glancing between the leg that was in front of him
and Jason’s face, which showed no signs of hurt other then mild discomfort. Jason
resisted the urge to chuckle. It most definitely wasn’t anywhere near the worst
injury he’d ever gotten, but Will seemed to be having a hard time believing
“Can I get some bandages?” Will called over his shoulder as
he gently removed the tip from Jason’s thigh. Jason grinned when Nico appeared
behind Will, holding a roll of bandages that he offered to the son of Apollo.
Will spun his chair around and Jason caught the blush that rose up his neck
when his hand reached out instinctively and grabbed Nico’s. Jason grinned, but
it soon fell off his face when both Nico and Will quickly dropped their hands
as of they’d been burned, both blushing and looking anywhere but at each other.
Will sputtered out an apology before wrapping the bandage
around Jason’s leg, but Jason could still clearly make out the heat in Will’s
cheeks. He had it just as bad for Nico as Nico had for Will, how neither one of
them could see it was completely beyond Jason. He wanted nothing more than to
shout it at them, but he knew that would only make Nico crawl back into his
shell and probably never talk to Will again. Honestly though, if those two
still couldn’t tell that they were both into each other by now, Jason didn’t
know what would make them realize it.
Maybe he would have to resort to Percy’s plan after all and try
locking them in a closet together.
I was going to do this as half Nico’s POV and half Will’s, but Jason was more fun to write