this had to exsist


Okay so writers wanted to do scene with Bellamy touching Clarke’s face. 






Careful what you Wish For - Peter Parker.

Warnings: Swears, like a couple i think. 

A/N: My first Peter Parker thing. I hope for it to be a small series if its liked? This is like the second thing on blog since i literally just started it. =) 

Words: 1,812 I think. thats kinda long. 


Y/N woke up with a bad feeling that day, a feeling in her stomach that said today just wouldn’t be her day. She got up out of bed and showered almost immediately after tearing herself from the warm comfy sheets, standing in the stream of hot water while brushing her teeth. 

As always, she looked at herself in the mirror after getting out the shower, her hands pawing at the skin of her stomach an thighs; making sure there wasn’t any stray hairs that may have left her head or soap that hadn’t washed off. 

It was a friday, a miserable looking one at that. The weatherman had said the weather would be nice today but the moment she left her home, the heavens opened to release the waters. 

Y/N walked into school sopping wet, meeting her friend at her locker as she always did. “I got a bit wet.” She told them, trying to look annoyed but the smile on his face was just contagious. 

“I can see that much. I keep telling you to change the station on your radio. That weatherman i never right.”

“Oh shut up, Peter. You and Ned still coming over tonight?” Peter parker was her nerd, the biggest dork she’d ever meet in her life and she loved him. He didn’t know this, but every time he smiled at her or laughed around her, her heart would actually physically melt. 

“Of Course, Wouldn’t miss for the world.”

“Or Stark?” Y/N asked, raising her eyebrows. She meant well by it, knowing that Tony Stark liked to whisk her friend away at certain moments, almost as if the man knew when she most wanted to hang out with Peter. 

Peter Stuttered his answer, the usual stuff “ Stark internship” “He texts when he needs me.” and her personal favourite is the amount of apologising Peter does to her; She’d get an apology at least ten times in one day. 

It was later that night that Y/N would finally get annoyed with Tony Stark and his stupid internship. Fridays had always been movie night and Peter incessent pushing of trying to have the Stars wars film on just so she could finally watch them had come to an end. 

She was finally gonna do it, finally gonna sit through a Star wars film for him and of course, It had to be the night that he bails. Y/N huffed as she turned everything off, Ned already having gone home realising that his friend wasnt turning up and Movie night was cancelled. 

Huffing again, Y/N went out, shouting to her mother that she was going down to the shop a few blocks away. That also happened to be the one night she decided to go out and almost get flattened to roadkill. 

The cars came towards her at an alarming speed and she knew, just knew that there was no way she was going to be able to dodge the cars heading in her direction. She slammed her eyelids together, not wanting to see the cars before they hit her, but as she expected pain, she instead got the sensation of being moved. 

Opening her eyes and there he was, an arm around her waist as the other was used to web them to safety. This was the first time she had actually needed to be saved by spiderman, Queen’s own little hero in red and blue. This was the first time he actually laid hands on her, or eyes for that matter. 

He placed her down on the ground and Y/N finally came bac kto her senses as her feet touched the ground. “Are you kidding me!?” She shouted to nothing in particular, startling the spider hero. 

“Today has just been terrible! Oh my god, First the rain this morning, then i spill my drink on myself, trip up in the hallway in front of everyone, get splashed by a passing car, peter doesn’t show up for movie night and now i literally almost just died! Can it get any worse!?’‘ 

Huffing and puffing after her small outburst, the silence around the two could have been cut with a knife. Finally, Y/N sighed and looked at her saviour ’'Sorry, it’s been one hell of day. Thank you.’' 

’'You seem stressed, perhaps a chill pill?” He realised his mistake the moment he said it, For our dear Spiderman - or Peter Parker - had said those exact words to Y/N earlier that day, after she had indeed tripped in front of virtually the whole school. 

It didn’t take long to pair the sentence with the voice and he knew, the moment her eyebrows relaxed and her shy smile dropped to an expressionless face. Y/N placed a hand to her face, thumb on her cheek, index finger sat next to her nose as her other fingers covered her mouth. 

Y/N shook her head, closing her eyes. “I don’t believe you.”
Peter knew that she had figured him out, his cat was out of its bag and there was no way it was going back in. “Y/N wait, I can exp-”

“I don’t need you to explain, Peter.” she interrupted him. “I need to go home and calm down before i lose my mind.” She walked onwards, turning her head to look at him before she left completely. “But do not think for a minute that i am not chewing out for this! I can not believe you didn’t tell me!”

Peter sighed as she turned the corner, leaving his line of sight. He knew he was well and truly in for the argument of his life, the moment she finds out that Ned knew and she didnt was going to put him right up shit creek without a paddle.

Y/N had stopped a couple of blocks away from where Spiderman - Peter - had dropped her. Trying to relax her mind before another voice stopped her. “Dear, you seem tired, come, take a seat.’' 

The old dear seemed to be homeless to Y/N, she wore black tattered clothes and seemed to be around the 70 mark. Seeing no harm in it, Y/N sat with the woman, giving her a few lose coins in her pocket so the woman could at least afford a hot drink. 

The woman thanked her, before asking what it was that had her so stressed out and tired. Thinking nothing of it, Y/N spilled the beans, all of them except the identity of Spiderman. ’'I just, I wish i could know what its like inside that head? Just be the one with these powers, trying to juggle normal life and a hero life, you know? How hard can it really be?’' 

’'You’d be surprised, deary.” The woman’s voice seemed different now, its tone taking on one that sounded rather uncomfortable in Y/N’s. The look on her face was a strange one too, almost sinister in fact. 

“I….should go.” Y/N said, standing up. “My mother and …..all that.” Y/N left before the woman could say another word, but if she had looked back, she would have she the widespread grin on the woman’s face. 

Dropping into her nice bed in warm pyjamas once she got home, Y/N knew she needed the longest sleep in the history of long sleeps. She needed a six month coma, thats what she needed. 

Once again, When she awoke, Y/N pulled back the duvet and with effort after her mother woke her for school, left the warm bed to go brush her teeth in the bathroom; taking today’s clothes with her. As she looked into the full body mirror, a shriek left her throat. 

What was once soft and wobbly was now hard and not so wobbly. Y/Ns stomach wasn’t smooth but bumpy as the she ran her fingers down the abs she now suddenly hand. Flexing her arms showed the muscle that now exsisted as if she had religously worked out for years. 

It was weird, so she changed clothes, opting more for skinny jeans and a baggy long sleeved shirt. Grabbing her back pack after breakfast, she left the house and made her way to school. 

Where normality lied, Peter once again was stood at her locker waiting for her, greeting her with that beautiful smile he always did. Though normality was short lived as she closed her arms around his neck, he no longer felt the same way as he did yesterday and his hug wasn’t as back breaking as it should have been. 

“'Are you okay, Y/N?” Peter asked, seemingly suspicious as his eyes roamed her face. It was just then that she realised, yesterday was friday….so why had her mother woken her up today? “Ready for Movie night?”

“Uh…” The sound left her throat as she tried to figure why Movie night friday was happening again. “Yeah?’' 

Peter laughed. ’'That sounded more like a question than it did a statement.” Y/N shut her locker after getting the desired items and the two walked towards where Peters Locker rested. “Not busy with the internship tonight?’' 

’'Internship?” Y/N repeated in confusion once more, both at the hoping tone of voice and the fact that she now had an internship, before her eyes widened at what Peter had just pulled from his pocket. “Woah, what the hell?”

“What?” Peter asked, placing the black rimmed glasses upon his face to see the numbers on the Locker’s dial. 

“Nothing. What internship?”

“Thats more like it!” Peter chuckled “Nothing come between three best friends and movie night!” Y/N gave Peter a hesitant chuckle. “You’re not with it today, Y/N. Better get your thoughts together before homecoming.’' 

The shock that flew through her head was astounding, Y/N pulled out her phone, an item she barely used unless it was to text Pete, Ned or her mother during the day. The date displayed on it was not what it should have been. 

Apologising to Peter, Y/N made up a lie that he seemed to believe and relay to Ned when the boy showed up before they all went to their classes upon the sound of bell. It was in class when she once again made a fool of herself. 

Peter and Ned sat together in front of her, Beside her was Michelle Jones, a beautiful girl who liked to observe everyone and everything.  Opening her bag, Y/N prepared to take out her book before another shriek left her throat and her butt left her backless chair. 

Inside her backpack, sitting all scrunched up, was a red and blue suit.

Why exactly did she have spiderman’s suit in her bag?

Girls final season: Hannah & Adam

With the final season of Girls here (a show that there isn’t typically a disk sitting in my Blue Ray player ready to go) I am very sad. As I listen to the music used in the show, certain songs remind me of favorite scenes. Seriously, I feel like openly crying. (I probably will a few times before I get over it.) I am going to REALLY miss seeing new episodes, but at the same time, thankful that I was able to discover this show and the brilliant mind that is Lena Dunham. To have a woman listed as Creator, Writer, Director, Producer, Actress…we need to see a lot more of this.

In a recent interview, Adam Driver assured us that season 6 is “ending on a note that they can control, that it seemed to make sense. It’s not just an arbitrary ending.” Lena recently said her and Jenni made “hard” decisions this season. I used to think that I wouldn’t be satisfied unless Hannah and Adam got back together. I mean, after all, the show did spend a hell of a lot of time with the ins and outs of these two, but now I am thinking a show like this will probably not end easy in many ways and not in a “happily ever after” way either. I think we will see the girls grow, but at the same time, I am not so sure that includes Hannah, or even Jessa, ending up with anyone. The show is ultimately about these girls and their friendships after all, and in the long run, they really don’t like anything getting in the way of that friendship…..including a man.

For some reason, in season 5, the egomaniacal Hannah is the biggest mess ever. As an aspiring writer, we know about her endless desire to pursue interests and different experiences for a good story. This has led her at times to be self-centered and self-destructive, however, it seems like lately, she has been trying extra hard to just test everything. Showing her crotch to her boss, trying to blow Ray, the ridiculous fights with Fran (“Oh, Hannah wants to do something rude, disruptive, and inappropriate. What a twist.”) and her talent to bring unprofessionalism in the work place to (an albeit hilarious) new high, are a few examples of the more, irrational ways Hannah has been acting out. It was all heading towards her growing and taking a big step forward in her life. Besides where she wants to go, what she wants to do as she gets older, one truth she has to face, I believe, is her lingering feelings for Adam.

Adam. In the first season, he starts out as sort of a creepy, “emotionally tone-deaf” sex addict that Hannah was in pursuit of. We wondered why she was bothering with him as he was not exactly “boyfriend material”. He was working on homemade “wood working” in his work shop which was his mess of an apartment. (Not so sure the genius even had a plan on how to get that boat out of the front door if he ever completed it!) He was just this non-committal guy that Hannah would have sex with when he felt like returning her text messages or answering his phone. (For the first 6 episodes, we weren’t even sure if he owned a shirt!) None of Hannah’s friends had ever met him, and the first proof of his exsistance to Marnie (besides the occasional bruise on Hannah’s ass) was a dick pic he accidentally sent to Hannah that wasn’t even meant for her!

As a couple, we get to see Adam grow more as a character we care about. He is still quirky and intense, but having Hannah to give advice to, share his interests with and love, helped make him a better person. A person we cared about and found intriguing as well. When he does do something as normal as eventually say “I love you” or suggest that they move in together, Hannah (after being conditioned to expect anything from him from bad treatment to extreme sweetness) reacts like it’s way too soon for either one of them. It was all moving too quickly for her and I don’t think she trusted him yet, or wanted the newness of the chase to be over. Adam had his mind made up with his tunnel vision and he was in it “for the long haul” so of course, he has a hard time with their first break up: “My desire for you cannot be repressed. And to quit my pursuit would be to shirk self-respect and abandon my own manhood, and that’s not going to happen.” He wrote and performed horrible (hilarious) songs which he sent her to watch and was kind of stalkerish for a bit. It proved to be very hard for him to let go. Not too sure if he ever really does. So we have Adam trying to feverishly move forward without totally letting Hannah heal from his past not-so-nice treatment, and we have Hannah kind of playing with his emotions and not really being too empathetic to his state of mind.

Regardless of Hannah’s self-absorption (all the Girls seem to have this issue from time to time) and Adam’s sometimes callousness, there still seems to be some kind of connection that thrives between them. (“Hannah is accepting of my brand of difficult.”) Adam cleaned up his act some and we get to see him at AA and learn more about what made him tick. While he was dating Natalia, and ran into Hannah in front of the bar, it really did something to him. (I love the way Driver’s voice got all raspy as he asked her to put on some pants.) He, the ex-alcoholic, went back in and after seeing her, had to order an alcoholic beverage, which led to one of the eventual reasons of that relationship coming to an end. The song playing was Fiona Apple’s “Valentine” and it surely wasn’t about Natalia. (Adam messing with his ear like a nervous habit, odd coincidence to what Hannah was going through?) We know now that if Hannah can affect him in this way, then he obviously must have feelings for her. He never stopped loving her in his own way, and he is there for her hard core. As he ran to her across the city during her most desperate time, when she felt the most lost, never fails to bring tears to my eyes. (the heavy mood is lightened a bit when while running, he has to suggest that a driver “go suck a fucking spikey one”) With the dramatic music playing while he runs to Hannah is just so emotional and it is beautiful and very romantic, the most romantic scene ever in Girls. He is there for her. He cares for her. He loves her. “I was always here”.

By season 3 end, Sackler’s acting career turned into his new addiction. Hannah panics at some people warning her of how Adam is going to change with his new career instead of just trusting him and seeing how it all works out. She always has had a knack for taking bad opinions and advice to heart instead of trusting a bit more in herself. She develops a codependency on Adam just when he wants some space to learn his lines and do this right. He just wants his first show on Broadway to be perfect. Of this he assured her. She has a hard time sharing Adam with his new endeavor, because not all of his attention can be on her. When she finally gets accepted into the Iowa Writers’ Workshop, Adam does berate her for telling him at the wrong time, by which he means the wrong time for him. (Although, letting him know minutes before he hits the stage of his opening night show was probably not the best.) Once again, he takes it hard, as did Jessa, which I felt was selfish of her, as she always had a knack of simply disappearing from time to time on her friends. I never really understood the whole guilt trip on Hannah for accepting school and attempting to better her career. It was at this point that I wondered why the girls even kept trying so hard to stay friends. They are not even very nice to each other. Adam and Hannah never officially break up, but seeing the sadness and loss in his eyes as she left was rough. The morning she was leaving, he couldn’t even face saying goodbye. He pretended to still be sleeping. We realized that part of him would always love her.

After trying Iowa, Hannah found she didn’t like the distance away from Adam, (not real sure why they seemed to have stopped communicating) among other factors at the school, and decided to come home, just a month later. Upon returning to her apartment, she shockingly found out that Adam had gotten a new girlfriend and Hannah didn’t even know they’d broken up! Yes, at the same time it was left sort of open ended, but it didn’t seem to have taken him anytime at all to move on. This was heart breaking, her surprise and desperation, truly a very rough episode to watch. We find that Jessa knew about it the whole time while Adam was putting Hannah’s belongings in storage. To make matters worse, she had selfishly worked at hooking Adam up with Mimi Rose simply because she wanted to get with Mimi’s ex, Ace. Some friend, eh? It was so hard watching him basically tell Hannah that he was not in love with her anymore (but we knew better) and he was “trying something out". What a nice surprise to come home to! Mimi Rose was the opposite of Hannah to the extreme, and really didn’t ‘need’ him, she liked having him around. It was a one-sided relationship for the most part, Adam’s side. It was a bad choice for him as he discovered that he does want a partner that loves and needs him a bit more than that. (But maybe not as needy as Hannah) A while after that relationship ended, Adam turns around and begs desperately with Hannah to come back to him. “I just think I was confused, and I think I made a mistake. I miss you so badly.” He tries to reach for her. With how he hurt her so deeply, the wound was still fresh. With her self-respect in full force for once, Hannah says, “I can’t do that” and stands her ground despite Adam’s pleas. He insists “yes, you can” like it should be an easy choice. Did he think she would just come running back to him? With tears in both their eyes, (and ours) it was still nice to see her hold her own and turn him down. Truly a moving scene.

I really enjoy everything about the show, it’s all brilliant, but Hannah and Adam’s relationship, is to me, quite a lot of what makes Girls the show that it is. I cried with Hannah like a baby as her bottom lip quivered in heartache and betrayal when she realized at the play that Adam and Jessa were together. When he made eye contact with her, his look said so much. There was some pain there and just so much not said. Hannah tells Tally she was probably just using Fran to get over Adam and that Adam is the only man she’s ever truly loved. (a bit of foreshadowing)  She was feeling left out and confused, “The worst part is, I miss them both. I love them both so much I don’t know who to warn about the other one.”

The end of season 5, Adam (who sure has come along way since we first met him) has like the biggest, most outrageous reaction anytime Hannah is mentioned, it’s like he is trying so, so hard to break that connection to her. He tries to turn it into hatred and blame. Then there is Jessa, who at the same time, got a guilty conscience, dredging everything back up to the surface when he is trying to forget Hannah. Jessa, who constantly over the seasons has a knack for telling other people to “grow up” but seems to not be capable of taking her own advice. She and Adam butt heads over everyday things and can’t even get through babysitting his niece. When Jessa cannot illicit his total attention away from the baby after it barfs on her and she wants Adam’s help to clean up, (in mid-season four he did call her out on being manipulative) asks her to stop, “You’re an adult. She’s a baby. Why do you need more help than a baby?“ With the tension thick, Jessa takes it out on Adam which leads to an unnecessary (but entertaining) blow-out between the two. She blames him for getting between her and Hannah (were they ever truly friends?) and basically spells out their doomed relationship: “I’m a hateable kind of person. I don’t know why, I can’t help it, but I know, I know that I have principles and one thing I don’t do is steal people’s boyfriends. But you ruin that. Don’t you see that?! I’ll never forgive you. I will NEVER forgive you for that. We could die in the same bed and I will never forgive you!” I really don’t think there is any coming back from that, at least nothing long term anyway.

Hannah did show some growth with her story at The Moth Story Slam. She admitted, “I’m Hannah forever. No matter what I do. No matter whether I start a nuclear crisis with my emotions or if just sit back and chill and give someone a fruit basket. I can only control the mayhem that I create around me.” she told the room, explaining the note she left outside of Jessa and Adam’s door that read, “Good luck. I mean that sincerely. In perpetuity, Hannah.” However, she heard them fighting and was relieved to not be inside there. “I heard screaming and I heard my name and I heard madness. And I knew that I was free. At least for tonight.” she says. Hard to keep a dry eye. This was a huge step for her. When it comes to Hannah and Adam, I don’t think I have cried or felt more emotionally attached to fictional characters in all my life. (and I don’t think Frankie Valli has ever made me cry before).

In the season 6 opener, we do see a more thoughtful Hannah. We learn that the New York Times had her write her story to be published in their Modern Love column. She appears to still not be holding a grudge, but the same cannot be said about Jessa, (for some reason) as she refuses to read Hannah’s column. Adam on the other hand, read it with deep interest with a bit of a hurt expression on his face. Seeing their story in print did mean something as I think he realized some truths. (It’s the only time we see him looking serious, about anything, in the episode.)

Hannah still doesn’t seem entirely satisfied with her life, but she is on a new assignment away from NYC, where she becomes open and more relaxed. She is still silly, entertaining, awkward Hannah getting drunk on the dance floor, spilling drinks all over herself, pointing at the surf instructor/rapper and proclaiming “I know him! He’s my surf teacher! I’m gonna fuck him!” (a favorite moment and why we love her) She was able to forgo some of her usual rage impulses even after Paul-Louis admitted to having an open-relationship girlfriend. This was really a change in attitude, she was not happy about it but I think she did learn from Paul-Louis maybe something to think about:  “It’s so much easier to love something than to hate it, don’t you think? Love is the easiest thing in the world. Hate takes energy, loves makes vibes.”

We find Adam in an opposite situation. It seems he and Jessa decided to stay together, even as that means that they have been seemingly estranged from the rest of the group of friends. They are holed up in the apartment not even having the decency to get dressed when Ray comes over, or to answer a text, and they are just being obnoxious. Ray said why he didn’t want to go in there: “its repulsive” and “smells like they are always reheating fish”. (Are they doing drugs?) Not quite sure what is wrong with them. Kind of seems like Adam took a few steps backward. So, I am guessing he still has some emotional growing to do, which I am sure, will work it’s way out over the season.

Lena recently said “The show’s never been about that traditional connection, where it’s four best friends who just can’t get enough of each other. So to do a traditional everybody-gets-their-happy-ending finale didn’t feel right. At the same time, we wanted people to have the satisfaction of closure. I think we found kind of a creative way to do that. We’ll see if other people feel the same way.”  If she did feel that Adam and Jessa could make it, then they will. (However, eventually they would kill each other and we all know it’s only a matter of time before the next battle) Maybe no one “ends up” with anyone. Maybe Hannah does find the right man for her and it is not Adam. Perhaps Hannah doesn’t need or want a boyfriend for right now. Hannah and Jessa could rekindle their friendship and it doesn’t include any man between them or maybe this time their friendship is beyond repair. Adam could land a killer theater gig or movie role out of the state or country. All I know is how I feel, and for myself, after all the emotions and all the tears I have shared with Hannah and Adam, and with all that build up, shared history, and connection they seem to have, it’s just a lot of time spent on their story if they don’t figure it out.

My husband recently pointed out that Hannah shouldn’t get back with Adam, she deserves better, “Adam has been a dick.” Yes, he has and yes, he can be. “They have been abusing the shit out of each other for years,” Lena has said of unexpected support of Hannah and Adam as an OTP. Its been messy, sure, but people grow. Maybe they give it a try and are forced to come to terms that they would be heading down the same path and eventually keep hurting each other, making the difficult, yet, adult decision that they can’t be together. I am really leaning towards the no one ends up with anyone route. If not as a couple, I like to think that they will at least remain something to each other.

Anyway, I am pretty confident the love is still there in some form or another. To me that is partly what this show has been about. After everything they have been through, deep down inside, I will always feel they should finally be together…and happily ever after.

Just listened to the last episode of TAZ

Originally posted by gemsingifs

God DAMN was it good.

I think when I heard “How does Magnus die?” came on, a part of me just like died as well. And tbh, I cried like the lil baby I am

Broskiz, I just wanna say, this entire campaign got me to see a lot of podcasts I had no idea exsisted. I spent hours and hours on end, binge listening to these episodes since this past… I wanna say early spring. And with the last episode coming on, I realized just how much there really is to staying alive.

I say that in the format to not be the most depressing but just,, how good it can be to be alive.

I’m not good with words but TAZ really had that aspect of it of staying alive will lead you to experiencing new things, good and bad, ups and downs, and alllll in between. And that’s good!!

Spoken from one of my idols

“ You are only on this planet as a living, breathing creature for a short amount of time to have experiences that no one else can have but you and no one else can live your life but you. You are here for the time that you are given to basically do whatever you want. Except you know,, pee outside.”

ANYWHO I hope the point gets across that there is more to living than what comes along. There will always be more to see, more to do, more to LIVE.

And I want to live for that.

This campaign was absolutely amazing and I hope to see more for the Mcleroys in the future.

Stay cool my friends. And taako is bae.

Originally posted by drulidoodles

anonymous asked:

i found ur youtube from googling coming out videos nd ur like so cute holy shit lmao i wish i had $$$$ i wld send u millions of dollars jst for exsisting buddy boy

Thank you baby

A lost time tracer appears owo


There was a light in Add’s eyes, one of malice and evil intent. His goal had always been to mind fuck everyone everywhere in every exsistence possible. Which is what he was trying to do here, in front of Gladio now, though rather unconsciously. His real goal was to get some help..

“I did some prodding and poking.. You were engaged before your journey, am I not mistaken? But your duties as the king of light’s shield.. And your departure caused a break up. She’s dead now anyway, gone with the Nifelheim attack.. In certain timelines you begin fancying Ignis…”
An insane grin took light to the Albino’s features. “It’s more amusing to toy with you when you are broken though. Aren’t human emotions the darndest things…”
Add stepped right up in front of Gladio, practically pressing his lean self against the shield’s broad chest. “You’re a man of many layers..” The tracer continued, almost like a low hiss. “You are indeed a very interesting person.”
Add was being risky now, getting much too close to the man who was frankly much taller and stronger, and could probably crush him in one blow, seeing as his dynamos had been badly damaged this time. Once too many times he’d hopped between timelines. His poor little drones of universe destruction were of not much use now. He needed parts. Which meant raiding those disgusting Magitechs for the needed machinery. Add had encountered the zombie like soldiers once before, and nearly puked in disgust at the blatant disrespect to science. Add could admit, he himself did some pretty bad shit. But cloning, mass de personification and demonification..? That’s where the tracer drew a line.
He had nothing to fight with. So that, in truth was why he was here, trying although failing to charm the strong man. To get help. But it was beyond Add to admit any of this. The stoop so low as to ask for another’s help..
And honestly, Add’s idea of charm wasn’t that fresh either. This detail, he didn’t know though. Add had never needed to charm people. He’d never been the one charmed. The versions of him going off and being swooned over by this shield’s prince… They were simply silly.
Or would he be the next victim, falling helplessly to the shield.
No, that couldn’t happen. He was being plain up stupid and silly with the thought.

I need some advice.

I want to be owned, and I want that man to only own one girl-me.
I’d be completely happy servicing another girl while he watched because I’d do anything to make my Daddy happy. But then I want her to leave. I’m needy and want all my Daddy’s attention and love. I have so much to give and need so much that I always feel unfulfilled.

Is that wrong? Am I wrong? Does this actually exsist? I’ve never had a Daddy that owned only me but I long for it.

anonymous asked:

Hi, I'm a non denominational Christian. Lately I've been feeling that God is telling me I need more direction in my faith. I feel a pull toward the Catholic church but at the same time I feel pulled toward the Lutheran church. I feel like you would understand what I'm going through and wondering if you have any advice?

Well, are you fully aware of who Martin Luther was? Martin Luther was raised in a relentlessly abusive house hold, by a father who was historically documented as being full of bubbling rage and anger, and a mother with severe mental issues who also abused him. He was completely deprived of a childhood, beaten for hours and hours until blooody, punished (historically documented) even up to 15 times a day.

Because of his childhood, strict, abusive, he was drawn towards the self sacrificial life as a monk, in which he was morbidly scrupulous, starving himself for days and performing horrendous acts of mortification for hours and hours, for so much as missing the readings of the Divine Office. This mortification led him serious mental health dissorders, dispair, depression, and insomnia that lasted weeks. Eventually he (recorded himself) grew to hate himself, wished he had not come into exsistance, and eventually grew to hate God (he recorded many blasphemous remarks).

You see, throughout his religious life his scrupulously drove him to hate the acts of love we give to God. His mental illnesses drove him to hate himself, seeing himself as a vile, and eventually God. He could not fathom that God was a God of mercy and forgiveness, only a God of wrath an punishment, because it was all he had known. Instead of finding healing in the mercy of Christ, his only escape was finding all acts invalid, since no human being could never apply himself perfectly. He eventually grew to believe that the religious life he lived was a “satanic delusion”. He grew in wrath towards himself, and this mental and physical suffering drove him to reject the Church teachings of good works.

In his anger he wrote of his hate for his parents, for those who did not submit to the Pope, and his hate for Jewish people. He wrote that he wished for thier murder, and they not be saved from Purgatory (that they should go to hell).

He preached that people were without free will, only capable of pure and deliberate evil, that only through faith alone can we be saved from our diabolical selves. He saw no one in the likeness of God, expecially himself.

If you haven’t read anything written by Martin Luther (besides his thesis), I suggest you should first, before considering a branch of Protestantism. I would read the letters to his father, and the biographies that were written in that time frame (1500s) by historians. It paints a very disturbing picture of the man who started the rejection of the Church, and his reasons behind it.

Myself, I believe Catholicism to be the truth, and I believe in the Sacraments of the Church. Luther himself mourned the loss of these Sacraments in his excommunication. He regretted very much the reformation, as what he called “Sodom and gamora” followed behind, and after his devoted wife (an ex benedictine nun) died, his temper and fury towards the results of the “reform” brought him isolation. His last few writings were anti semetic, against Jewish people (“Against Jews and thier lies”-read it, it’s horrific ), and his last one against the papacy.

All protestant theology exists as counter theology to Catholicism only. The very word “Protestant” means protest, and by protest they mean the Church. The Church founded by Christ himself. I recommend anyone who wants to be protestant, know what they are rejecting. Online, you can find free publications on the Catholic Catechism. I’d recommend that, and a website called

I hope that my words to not upset or offend you, I’m sure you understand we have a Christian duty to speak the truth when asked, and as you are a Christian too I know you would do the same for me. Pray for me! I will pray that God leads you in your conversion to the Truth, and you are enflamed with the love and faith in your journey! Very exciting!

Obsessions- Pt1

Pairing: Phan (Dan+Phil)

Warnings: Violence, Depression, Insults, Explict language

Summary: Dan has been the butt of his classmates jokes for years due to his alternate fashion style, with no close friends and a crippling fear of the future he feels alone. That is until he meets Phil Lester, a socially awkward punk who likes tattoos and bad movies. In a storm of final exams and teen angst they must learn to let others in.

Disclaimer: I don’t own Dan & Phil that’s illegal, and I don’t mean to infere that any of this happened in real life. The credit for the idea of this AU goes to llster​ bless them.

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He wasn’t sad.
That emotion was long gone, he didn’t even remember how sadness actually felt.
Shinsei had come to terms with his situation. It was resignation, that he radiated. All day he sat out here on the stairs to Yusei’s apartment and just stared into the blue sky.
He was glad that his big brother was taking care of him and he could live here, but something was missing. The Dark Signer lacked a someone to talk to.
But it was hard to find someone to talk to if you looked like a zombie and everyone besides Yuusei had chosen to ignore your exsistence.

“Jeez….this is so boring. Dying was funnier than this.”