this came out very differently of what i had in mind

hey guys, I want to talk about an upcoming movie called Split.

it’s not coming out until 2017, but I feel it’s important to discuss it anyway, because its first trailer just came out…and frankly, I’m horrified.

here’s the synopsis of the movie: “When a young man with 23 different personalities is compelled to abduct three young girls, he strives to survive as the final and most dangerous one of all tries to take full control.”

….because there weren’t enough movies/shows out there demonizing people with DID as it is, of course.

a brief explanation of what dissociative identity disorder, or DID, is: it’s multiple personalities, formed by trauma, sharing one body.

very, very few of those personalities are aggressive, and I’ve never actually encountered any that were outright dangerous–and yet every movie and show that involves us makes us out to be killers and kidnappers.

Criminal Minds has had two episodes involving people with DID, and in one the man with DID kidnapped a federal agent and tortured him, on top of being a serial killer; the other man with DID was just a regular old serial killer. even a show that’s usually quite good about not demonizing mentally ill people demonizes us.

and now there’s this. a horror film about a person with DID, who presumably went through some serious trauma to get it, and how he’s a kidnapper and probably also a killer.

here’s the thing, though: we aren’t dangerous. we aren’t bad people. we aren’t killers and kidnappers fighting to stop our alters/systemmates from acting out. people with dissociative identity disorder are just typical groups of people who happen to all share a body! we aren’t dangerous to anyone; if anything, most of us tend to be more dangerous to ourselves than anyone else, thanks to self-destructive systemmates who want to hurt the body or other system members. but the bottom line is: we aren’t out to hurt anyone and we aren’t dangerous. the fact that every single movie and episode about us makes us out to be violent killers and kidnappers is appalling and horrendous and screams stigma.

DID has a serious stigma around it. and movies like this are only serving to add to that stigma, to demonize us more, to make more people afraid of us.

I refuse to stand for it.

please, if you can–boycott this movie. tell them you won’t stand for the demonization of your fellow mentally ill people anymore. tell them that we are not their props or toys to play with and create stigma against. tell them that just because it doesn’t affect them doesn’t mean it’s all right to hurt others with their bullshit. listen to systems and people with DID and OSDD who talk about this movie and how it’s bad, and don’t speak over them, but work with us to try and change things so this sort of thing is frowned upon and doesn’t happen so much. please.

TARTAROS: THE ARC IN WHICH GRAY REALIZES WHAT JUVIA IS TO HIM

So, perhaps this will feel like a bit of a stretch to a lot of you, but watching the small added scene today in the anime for some reason clicked everything into place for me.

We started Tartaros with Gruvia, and we ended it with Gruvia. However, it was a very different Gruvia that came out in the end of it.

What happened between Tartaros Prolouge and Tartaros End that took Gruvia from this:

To this:

And the answer i simple– through what Gray encountered and lost in this arc, he realized the one he can’t lose is Juvia. This is the arc Gray Fullbuster realized what Juvia Lockser meant to him.

In the beginning of Tartaros, we were just come in off a pretty bad knock back with the rejection; and much like Cana stated to Mirajane, it appeared Gray had either not meant what he said, or just simply did not dislike as much about Juvia as he made it appear.

In the back of Gray’s mind at the point of rejecting Juvia was his “death” that had been averted only by Ultear’s magic. I feel very strongly that Gray does indeed remember what happened when he pushed Juvia out of the way and died during the Dragon Festival. It frightened him. So he pushed her away. And yet, in her own way, Juvia has managed to overcome the rejection and continue on confidently in the direction she always has.

Gray falls for Juvia’s trap with the Gruvibread.

Then we get this:

Gray, clearly affected by the fact that Juvia has a bad feeling, and that she is distressed. Affected so much he initiates holding her hand and reminds her that she has him, because he is with her. 

With her. So much for the rejection. This scene shows that without much provocation, Gray is intimately aware and concerned enough about Juvia’s emotion that he makes a specific promise to her aside from the fact that Fairy Tail will win. They will win, because he is with her.

Because he’s not going to let anything happen. 

And Gray upholds that promise with this:

Appearing out of no where, he protects her. Because he’s with her. Because he can’t lose her. This is not an action of Gray protecting Lucy or just to have his comrades back; he’s there to save Juvia. His actions and the dramatic way in which he enters– and the fact that he responds to Silver’s threat directly– show that in this instance, his intention is solely to keep anyone from hurting Juvia. 

After this he is spirited away to battle Silver, knowing that at least the man has the face of his father and is claiming to be the demon who slew so many of the people he loved. Imagine Gray’s feelings at this point– Deliora, who destoryed his home village, killed his parents, and was the cause of his teacher Ur’s demise… just threatened the woman that Gray has already proven he is willing to die for in order to keep her safe. He is threatening his new family.

Gray is desperate. He has to win, somehow, because if he does not, he is allowing this demon to hurt what he loves a third time. And this time he knows what the means.

So he resorts to the only magic he can think of– Iced Shell.

And as he remembers everyone who he cares so strongly for, there is one person who garners his apology:

Juvia.

Juvia is the one he apologizes too, and I believe here that it is in this moment– when Gray is set on dying once again– that he has made the realization that Juvia is more than friend to him. This is not to discount that Gray thought about other members of Fairy Tail; Natsu also had a large panel, and was the first to come to mind. What is important is that Juvia’s panel was larger than Lyon or Ur’s, when he was about to cast magic that Ur used. Juvia’s panel was individual, and a strong representation of what Gray truly sees her as.

Beautiful, loving, and precious.

This is not to discount that the last person– and the one to remind him not to sacrifice his life– was Ultear.But it was to Juvia he apologized. Because it was Juvia he would be hurting the most and Gray is intimately aware of that fact, and feels accountable to her for that.

And Ultear did one major thing for Gray that reminded him to live– her sacrifice gave him a second chance and kept him from dying to protect Juvia. There is a reason Juvia is the one he apologized to and Ultear was remembered after the fact. Gray remembers what he did for Juvia before. Ultear did not give up her time so he could throw his life away again. He doesn’t want to see his friends cry. He doesn’t want to hurt Juvia.

How can he be with her… if he’s not with her?

Upon defeating Silver, Gray learns that his father is being controlled not by Deliora but by a necromancer. There is a sorrowful element in this, and broken as Gray is Silver reaches out to the one person he can entrust his son to.

Juvia. 

He saw enough of Gray during the Grand Magic Games telecasts and his reaction to his threat to put Juvia on ice, that Silver feels there is a very intimate relationship between the two. I wouldn’t be surprised if he saw the unison raid as well, which displays a close bond. He knows Juvia is important to Gray and that if anyone can do what needs to be done for the sake of his son, it is her.

And his faith in her is not wasted. I have written about the Juvia vs Keith fight in length and this post is intended to focus on Gray, so please click the link to read that analysis. Her fight in and of itself is a testament to her relationship with Gray.

At the conclusion of her fight, Silver then sews the seeds for what will become of their relationship and leaves them both with the same task:

He leaves the rest to them. He leaves Gray to Juvia, and leaves END to Gray. He has entrusted his son to the one person Gray cares the most deeply for, and who cares just as deeply for him in return.

When Gray and Juvia finally reconnect in Tartaros END, the atmosphere is very different and very desperate for them both. Juvia feels she no longer has the right to love the one person who took away her rain and has given her stomething to strive for and pushed her to become the person she is now. Gray is unaware of the weight Juvia lifted off his shoulders, and the fact that she was well aware of her actions. 

She explains in length that she is responsible for Silver’s death, that she does not have the right to love him– her dialogue is essentially a goodbye. She has given up, because she does not feel worthy. And went presented with this, Gray himself has a decision to make.

She has placed him in a position he probably never imagined he would be in– alive, but with the chance of losing Juvia without actually losing her. The one thing he has that he can take comfort in. The one person he has been trying all this time to protect. His weakness has forced her to carry a burden he feels he should be carrying himself. It has brought her into his brokenness.

Even so, he can’t lose her. So he grits his teeth against his anger at her for even suggesting she should leave, and instead directs it back at himself. 

He collapses on her, vulnerable and weak, and apologizes. 

He can’t explain it to her yet. He still has to defeat END. But he can’t lose her like this, and he can’t bear to lose her yet. This is a Gray who has made the conscious decision not to continue rejecting Juvia, but to instead let her in and keep her close. To let her see the broken parts of himself. To allow himself to receive her love.

But he can’t let her know that he cares too. So he apologizes instead, he thanks her… he says I love you in every other way possible.

Then we end the arc with them on a completely new road, Gray’s determination solid and Juvia at his side. He has made a decision throughout the arc, battling over exactly how he is to handle Juvia. In the end, he decided that keeping her with him was more important than pushing her away… 

… which means Gray is not only aware of how he feels, but he has accepted it and decided to move forward with it.

We know too that this is further reinforced by the fact that they lived together in the aftermath of Fairy Tail’s split. He decided to keep her close, and keep her close he did. 

Now we just wait for Gray to decide its time to let Juvia know what he feels. 

The summer of 1956.

It was the summer of 1956 when I met Justin. I had finally finished my second last year in high school so now my family and I were going on a vacation. We would be staying at a family resort, the same one as always, but I loved staying there. I knew the people that worked there, and I had friends that came there, too, but this year was different. To start off I was a year older than last year, but I had also gotten other interest than just sitting around and reading, I wanted to explore the outsides of this city, but unfortunately my dad wouldn’t let me, he was very protective.

It was the first day at the resort, and I was already bored out of my mind.

“Dad please” I begged my dad. “No Y/N, what if something happens to you?” he asked as he kept reading his paper. “But there won’t! Please just trust me” I said. I sat down beside him and folded my hands, then I started pouting. I knew he couldn’t stand my pout. “Okay, but you have to be back here before dinner. We are having dinner with Marc and Elisabeth and their son Eric” he said. I sprung up and then I embraced him in a hug. I hurried into my room and went over to my suitcase that I hadn’t unpacked yet. I decided to wear a floral skirt with a simple black shirt and a pink cardigan, then I also put on some white sneakers. I grabbed some money from my wallet and found a bag to go with my outfit.

I went out of my room and said bye to my mom and my dad, then also my little brother.

“I’ll see you guys soon” I yelled, then I left the house and went over to the main part of the resort. I wanted to take the bus into the center of town, but I had no idea when the next one would leave. “Hey, do you know when the next bus to the center of town comes?” I asked the woman behind the desk. “Of course, the next bus will be here in 10 minutes,” she told me. I thanked her, then I went out to the bus stop and waited for the bus. As minutes passed more and more people came over to the bus stop, but especially one person caught my eyes. He was dressed in tight black jeans, a black shirt, and a leather jacket. His hair was all greased and behind his ear, he had a cigarette. He must have felt me staring because a few seconds later he turned his head towards me. He looked me up and down and bit down on his lip. I wrapped my cardigan tighter around my body and looked the other way to see the bus coming.

I was the first one to get on the bus. I paid for my ticket, then I sat down in one of the seats and looked out of the windows. Soon after I felt someone sit down beside me, which made me turn my head to the left. It was the guy from before. “Hello beautiful, my name is Justin,” he said as he reached out his hand. I lightly shook it and smiled at him. “I’m Y/N,” I told him, then I turned my head towards the window and watched the cars as we drove by them. “Are you new here because I don’t think I have ever seen you before?” Justin asked. I shook my head and turned to look at him.

“I’m staying at the resort by the bus stop,” I told him. “Actually, I have been staying there the last 8 years,” I told him. Justin nodded his head and smiled at me. “Well, I’m really glad I got the pleasure of meeting you,” he told me. I smiled and thanked him. “Where are you going?” he asked. “I’m just going into town, I’ve never been there before,” I told him. Justin furrowed his eyebrows and chuckled. “So, you’ve been here the past 8 years, but you haven’t seen the town itself?” he asked me. I chuckled and rolled my eyes. “That’s about right, but it’s because of my dad,” I told him. Justin nodded his head, then he pulled out a box of cigarettes, he lit one, then he took a drag of the cigarette and blew out the smoke. I took myself in biting down on my lip because of how sexy he looked.

“Could I possibly have the pleasure of showing you around?” Justin asked me as we both got off the bus. “Oh, I’m sure you have something more relevant to do than showing me around,” I told him as he took another drag. “I actually don’t, I mean I was supposed to meet up with my friends, but I would rather show a beautiful girl around” he told me, then he wrapped an arm around my shoulders and dragged me with him over to cafe, where I could see some guys sitting, they looked Justin’s age, so I guessed it was his friends. “I’ll just tell them that I can’t hang out, then we’ll leave,” he told me. I nodded my head, then Justin left and walked over this friends. I looked around at the beautiful city as I waited for Justin to some back, but eventually, I ended up looking at Justin and his friends. There was something about Justin that made him stand out from all of his friends even though they practically all looked the same. Justin started laughing at a comment one of his friends made, which made me smile widely, he looked so good!

A minute later Justin came back and wrapped an arm around my shoulders again. “Where do you wanna go, beautiful?” Justin asked me as he looked down at me. “Wherever you wanna go,” I told him. Justin nodded his head, then he turned left and walked down a street until we reached a bowling center. I covered my mouth and giggled, I had never tried to bowl before. “Oh no!” I whispered to myself, but Justin heard me. “What’s wrong?” he asked me, which made me smile, he was so caring! “It’s just that I have never tried bowling before,” I told him as I looked down at the ground that suddenly seemed very interesting. Justin grabbed my chin and made me look at him. “It’s totally fine, we can do something else if you don’t want to try,” he told me. I shook my head, then I grabbed his hand and dragged him into the bowling center.

Justin turned out to be a real gentleman. He paid for our session and our shoes, even though I insisted on paying for myself. He also helped me tie my shoes, even though it wasn’t necessary.                        

I was the first one to bowl, so I grabbed a light ball and went close to the alley and threw the ball, but it immediately went to the brink, which made me pout. I grabbed another ball, and just as I was about to shoot, Justin wrapped his arms around me and held my hand. “Let me help you,” he told me. I looked up at him and nodded my head lightly. “Okay, you wanna focus on the pins, and then look at the triangle that is formed right in front of you” he continued, then he threw the ball and it went straight down the middle of the alley and hit all the pins, which created a strike. I squealed and turned around, then I jumped into his arms and hugged him tight. “Thank you so much for helping me,” I told him, then I kissed his cheek and let go of him. I sat down and watched Justin create another strike.

We finished the game, and of course, Justin won, but it didn’t bother me, I was proud of myself, and so was Justin. “Wanna grab something to eat? I know a great diner only a mile away” Justin said. I nodded my head and smiled at him. “Are you sure you still want to hang out with me, I mean you don’t have to?” I told him, Justin nodded his head, then he lit another cigarette. “How many do you smoke each day?” I asked him as he intertwined our fingers. “Probably about a pack, why are you asking?” he asked me. I nodded my head and shrugged my shoulders. “I was just curious,” I told him, then I smiled at him and looked down.

We arrived at the diner and found a booth in the corner. “Hello, and welcome to Mel’s diner,” a waitress said as she smiled at us. “What would you like to eat?” she continued. “I’ll take a cheeseburger with a strawberry milkshake,” Justin told the waitress. “Uh, that sounds good, I’ll take that, too,” I told her. The waitress nodded her head, then she left us alone.

As we waited for our food Justin and I just talked, we talked about everything and anything.

“So, you’re originally from Canada, but you moved here because you wanted to become a singer?” I asked Justin as he finished telling me about himself. “Yeah, I’m actually a really good singer,” he told me, which made me giggle. “Show me then,” I told him. Justin’s eyes got wide, but then he smirked and stood up. He went over to the jukebox and found a song, which happened to be “Rock around the clock” by Bill Haley. Justin came back and grabbed my hands, then we started dancing as he beautifully sang the song. “One, two, three o'clock, four o'clock rock, five, six, seven o'clock, eight o'clock rock, nine, ten, eleven o'clock, twelve o'clock rock. We’re gonna rock around the clock tonight.” he sang. He then twirled me around, which made me blush crazily. After the song finished we sat down. People around us started clapping, which made me hide my face in my hands. I had completely forgotten that people could see us, in my world, it was only Justin and me, it was absolutely perfect!

After lunch, Justin brought me to the beach. It was kind of chilly so we were practically there all by ourselves. We sat down on the breakwater and looked at the beautiful view. “Thank you for an amazing day, Justin, it had truly been amazing,” I told Justin. Justin found his comb and ran it through his hair, then he put it back in his pocket and wrapped an arm around me. I placed my head on his shoulder and sighed happily. “I’m glad you enjoyed it because I would really love to take you out on a real date someday,” he told me. I nodded my head and smiled at him. “I would love to,” I told him, then silent replaced our words. The waves had a calm effect on me, and I was about to fall asleep when I realized it was getting late. “What time is it?” I asked Justin as I looked up at him. Justin looked at his watch and then sighed. “It’s half past seven,” he told me. I immediately sat up straight as my eyes got wide. “Oh no, I was supposed to be home by six!” I told him, then I stood up and handed Justin his jacket. “Thank you for today, but I really need to go now,” I told him. Justin stood up, too and grabbed my hand. “Let me follow you back to the resort?” he asked me. I smiled and nodded my head. “That would be lovely,” I told him, then Justin intertwined our fingers and followed me back to the resort. “When do I get to see you again?” Justin asked me as we stood outside the resort. “I don’t know, I don’t think my dad will ever let me leave the resort again,” I told him as I pouted. “I’ll sneak you out then,” he told me, then he grabbed my face and connected our lips in a sweet and innocent kiss. “Sounds good, then I’ll see you soon,” I told him, I then went inside and turned around to see Justin looking after me. He stayed until I was out of sight, then he left. I went back to my family’s house in the resort and went into my room. I sighed happily as I laid down. This had to be the best summer, ever!    

∞ 

Hello guys! Guys who’s back? I am 😜 I hope you guys like this imagine?

Please be sure to tell me what you think 💕

Just to let you know, this imagine was inspired by Grease and Dirty Dancing ❤️

- Amalie xo

What Type of flower is flowey from Undertale?

Okay so @field-of-cats an I were discussing Undertale today when we came upon the topic of flowey as a character.I Myself have interested in finding out what type of Flower that flowey truly is when we happened upon this post by @undertale-science which is very interesting and informative, However there was something bothering me as i read through it. the post never mentions that whatever Flower that flowey is can be made into tea, Which can Presumably Change the thought on what he is completely, So @field-of-cats and I set about search through Flowers that can be used for tea making And just as it seemed like all hope was lost ,He brought up Marigolds.

At first i had ruled them out Completely because of their shape and floweys being completely different and then i looked into sub-species’ of marigolds(which mind you are a type of daisy ,which are in the family Asterceae((Aster/Gaster relation?)

We eventually found these Tagetes Lucida or sweetscented marigold.

A Type of Marigolds used in teas and medicine.They were also traditionally used as a part of a human sacrificial ritual


I think We’ve found flowey

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PigeonPortraits.com is 1!

The Pigeon Portraits project came into existence in the same way as my other projects, when I realised that I’d been repeatedly photographing the same subject for months!

I moved in the summer of 2013 into a 3rd floor flat along the West Sussex coast. Creatively, this turned out to be a defining moment for me. After 5 years of not making anything, I started to create again.

Photographing birds wasn’t difficult; pigeons regularly strutted up and down my window ledges and balcony. Being so close to them, in what is essentially, their space, I came to notice how different each bird was, how they all had very unique “personalities”.

One of the principal themes behind my work is expression. I challenge the viewer’s perception using anthropomorphism and humour as a gimmick to re-see my subjects.

One of my favourite quotes comes to mind whenever I think about how much my view of pigeons and birds in general has changed over the last 2 years. A quote by poet Louis Aragon; “I have thrown away my eyes to put in new ones.” And that really is what I hoped to achieve with Pigeon Portraits, for people to look, and look again and see a different side to this overlooked species which sadly many refer to as “rats with wings”.

My hope this time last year was to have around 1000 blog followers - Pigeon Portraits now has over 7000 followers (because spam accounts are “people” too right?!). The project will continue and I will try and post more - I know I’ve been a bit slack in recent months. I think, just as it started it will find a natural end at some point but for now I want to say thank you all for your support, re-blogs, shares and comments – here are some more recent photographs for you.

Keep on pidgin’!

Mel Ede x