Now thinking back on all the things I had gone through because of Nate and for Nate, I realized that my feelings for him were deeper than I had thought.
So yeah, I didn’t feel the same things for Nate anymore, because my feelings were intensified by a million now that I fully realized what it was like to completely lose Nate.
I had been stupid enough to stay silent about my feelings for Nate before, but I wasn’t about to commit the same mistake again.
“Nate, I know it’s gonna take time to move on from what happened with Stella. I know you still love her. And I know that she meant a lot. So I don’t want you to rush into things or commit to me when you’re still thinking about her. I trust in you and I trust in what you’re saying to me, but like I said, we shouldn’t rush things. Just know that I waited this long for you to say this to me, and I waited this long to tell you that I love you the way no one has ever loved, and since I waited this long, then I can certainly wait just a little bit longer. I just need you to make sure this is what you want.”
Nate had been the only thing on my mind since day one, and so it hurt thinking that I had to wait even more before I would be able to call him rightfully mine, but I knew in the end, the wait would definitely be worth it.
“Y/N, I understand what you’re saying. And of course you’re right, like always. But I already know that this IS what I want. I know that you’re the one I’ve always wanted. And I know that no matter how much time passes by that I’m always gonna want you, and I’m always going to love you. But you have to realize that you could do so much better than me. That you could have anyone you want. I know Nash has a thing for you. Maybe you should consider him instead of me. He deserves you more.” Nate looked down at his hands as he played with his thumbs.
“Wow, you really don’t know Nate?”
“Know what?” He asked.
“Nash doesn’t have a thing for me. He has, or had, a thing for Stella. That’s why he kept her secret. That’s why he has been kinda acting hostile towards you. He was jealous that you were with Stella.”
“Wait, how do you know that?” He asked.
“Umm duh, female intuition. Well actually, I caught him staring at Stella while she was dancing at one of the parties we were all at, and I approached him. I asked him if he was enjoying the view, and he just blushed. He never outright said it, but you could tell. It was in his eyes.” I said for the first time. “I don’t know how those feelings stand at the moment, but anyways…”
“Wow, Nash just continues to surprise me.” Was all he said.
“But Nate, back to what you were saying. I don’t want anyone else. I waited too long to just be like, SIKE! See ya Nate, turns out I don’t like you after all. I love you Nate, and you’re not oficially mine yet, but you will be. I promise you that.”
“Now that’s a promise I can definitely keep.” Nate joked.
I looked down at Stella’s necklace one last time and handed it to Nate.
“Here I think this belongs to you.”
“This should have been yours Y/N.” He stated.
“That’s okay Nate, I’m more of a ring kind of girl anyways.”
He smiled so wide that it showcased his dimples in that adorable yet incredibly sexy way.
I couldn’t help myself.
I leaned in and placed a light, loving kiss on his lips. I caught him by surprise but soon enough he had his arms wrapped around my waist as he pulled me in closer.
“Whoa there cowboy. I don’t know what kind of lady you think I am but you need to take me to dinner first.” I smiled against his lips.
He laughed as he brought me in for a tight embrace.
“But in all seriousness, take your time Nate. I’m not going anywhere. You know where to find me when you’re ready.”
“Y/N….” Nate pulled me in for one more kiss before he reluctantly let me go again.
I stared into his eyes as I made my way out the door, but this time I knew we would be seeing each other again.
We had messed shit up, but I could feel like things would be better from now on.
And things really were better. Me and Nate obviously still saw each other and we would hang out like normal. Things were back to normal.
But neither one of us had said anything about what had gone down that one day.
In fact we never even acted like a couple or anything.
We didn’t need to.
We both could feel the connection that tied us together.
I loved him and he loved me.
It hadn’t been til two months later that we began to date officially. Nothing really changed. Except the fact that Nate and I now lived together.
And on one special Monday morning we had run into Stella at the furniture store. Me and Nate were there so we could replace his used up and dirty mattress. ( I refused to sleep in the same bed she did, and in the same bed where she had cheated on Nate).
And it was bittersweet to see that she looked noticeably different.
Her hair didn’t shine the same, her skin didn’t glow, she wasn’t the same old radiant, gorgeous Stella she once was. It was sweet to see her like this cause of all the shit she put me and Nate through. But it was bitter because no matter how much I disliked her, she just looked so defeated and weak.
But we didn’t share any words, in fact as soon as she had seen the two of us, she had run out the store but first she had stopped in front of me and said “Good for you.” With the most sincere look I have ever seen on her face. Nate didn’t comment on the situation, he simply pulled me closer to his side and whispered, “I love you” in my ear.
And that was the last I ever heard from her.
Right now, It was January 17th. It was Nate’s birthday. I knew cause I’m the perfect girlfriend and I never forgot Nate’s birthday unlike how he forgot mine. Something of which I jokingly reminded him off everyday.
I had gotten Nate tickets to a J.Cole concert since I knew he was Nate’s favorite rapper and today was all about him.
Me and Nate were just chilling backstage while we waited for the concert to start.
“Y/N, are you happy?” Nate asked me.
“What? Of course. What kind of question is that?” I asked. Me and him had been together for almost a whole year, and it had been the happiest year of my life.
“I just wanted to make sure I was doing things right for once in my life.” Nate hesitated as he nervously looked to the ground. He shoved his shaky hands into his pockets.
He looked me in the eyes, as he slowly dropped to the ground. And deja vu hit me like a truck. I had seen Nate kneel to the ground only one other time in my whole life. And it was a night I would rather forget.
He pulled his hand out of his pocket and pulled out a familiar small black box.
“Oh my…..Nate.” Tears sprung into my eyes, but this time they were tears of absolute joy and excitement.
“Y/N….I don’t know what to say, but will you please make me the happiest man on earth and accept this ring, and my love, and will you please marry me?”
I was rendered speechless….
But of course I was gonna accept.
I vigorously nodded my head as tears rolled dowm my face.
“Nate yes, yes! A million times yes!”
He sprung to his feet as a smile spread across his face. He shakily took my hand in his as he put the ring on my finger.
I hugged him tigher than ever before and kissed him deeper than ever.
Nate laughed into my ear as he said: “Phew, now the hard part is over. I thought you were gonna say no.” He joked as he slightly pulled away.
I playfully slapped his arm. “Actually the hard part is yet to come. Now we gotta figure out which one of the guys is gonna be the best man.” I laughed, but Nate’s face turned serious.