this book change me really

general li mulan

okay so i LOVE mulan okay. as far as i’m concerned it’s a Perfect Movie and doesn’t need any fixing. but i was thinking today and -

- what if mulan didn’t go to war to save her father?

say her father is dead, okay, killed by the previous war. so she’s raised by her mother and grandmother, women who’s complacency and softness has been worn away by necessity. she needs to marry well, for her family’s sake, because her mother has refused the hand of every man who offered. but mulan is even more rough around the edges than before, is educated not only in books (her mother said men wouldn’t find smarts attractive and grandmother pointed out that men aren’t always around and off to school mulan went) but in the sword too, taught to her by her classmate, ping.

mulan is considered in the lower end of the upper class, coming from a family of military men and scholars and successful merchants. ping is near the top, the son or nephew of an advisor to the emperor. his family is very rich and very important, and the reason they become friends is because mulan manages to notice something about him that he’s been hiding from everyone else - he’s going blind.

not totally blind, enough to get around, but blind enough that reading is difficult and swordplay is even worse, although once he has it down he has it. ping is no fool, he’s not weak or bumbling. his eyes just don’t work. so mulan notices and confronts him about it. she promises to keep it a secret, and hey, she’ll even help him with his assignments by reading the books out loud and helping him study. but in return he must teach her the sword, must teach her about military and tactics. he agrees.

ping and mulan become very good friends and there’s some raised eyebrows about it but they are TOO far away in class for it to be inappropriate, so they make tutting sounds and disapproving faces and let it go.

then the draft happens. ping can’t go to war, he won’t survive it. not with his eyesight like it is. so mulan offers him a deal - she’ll go to war for him, in his place. in return, if she survives, he must marry her. if she dies he must take care of her family.

ping can’t make this kind of family decision on his own, so he goes to his mother and tells her everything, about the eyesight and how he’ll die if he goes and mulan’s offer. his mother says he must keep it a secret from his father, but agrees - if mulan fights in her son’s place and survives, a wedding will be arranged. either way, mulan’s family will be taken care of. ping will be sent to live with some cousins in the meanwhile.

“you’re not in love with me, are you?” ping asks, helping mulan saddle her horse in the middle of the night. she scoffs and rolls her eyes, “not even a little. but marrying you will make my family happy, and besides, you’re my best friend,” she says, smiling, “better you than some grabby old man.” he smiles and hugs her and says, “i’m not in love with you either. but don’t die out there. we have a wedding to plan.”

so mulan goes to the camp, pretending to be ping, and she’s a little bit less lost but things still go as they go. she’s educated and trained, so it’s not hard for her to pass as ping. shang is keeping a special eye on her, thinking that she’s the son of an advisor, one of his father’s friends. and he sees how easily she excels, how quick thinking and smart she is, and starts giving her more and more responsibilities. by the time they’re called out, shang considers ping ie mulan to be his right hand man, and possibly his best friend.

he’s also a little bit in love with ping, and he’s long known he’s attracted to both genders, so he watches ping laugh and smile and the crease between his eyes when he frowns and does his best to let his feelings chase away the best soldier he has. every time shang looks at ping his heart clenches and he things to himself: i wish i could have you, i wish this was a time and a place where one man could have another, i wish you were a girl, is wish i was a girl - i wish we could be together. he’s literally a step away from doodling ‘li ping’ with little hearts over his battle plans. 

so the battles happen. shang and ping lead their men together, respected and loved. they each get promoted, and promoted, and promoted. it’s been years, and it comes to a point where they’re both generals in their own right. they trust each other, care for each other. and are both secretly in love with the other.

mulan is so conflicted. because she wants this war to end and to go home and settle back into life and become ping’s wife, so she can have an easy life spent studying and learning with her family taken care of. that’s what she’d wanted. but now what she wants is shang, her best friend, her brother in arms, her fellow general. she wishes to be everything to him, aches to be the woman on his arm and in his bed, but knows it’s the one thing she can never be.

then that final battle happens. mulan’s quick thinking saves them all and ends the war - but she’s injured.

shang finds out the ping has been a girl all along. he demands explanations - so she tells him everything, that she traded places with ping to save him, to become his wife.

and the lies should sting the sharpest, but they don’t. she’s still the same person, after all. it’s that she’s promised to another man, for one second he’d thought he might have her, but no. so he agrees not to reveal her but he’s furious and furious at himself for being furious and they’re not the same now, broken and splintered and neither of them know what to do.

the war is over. they leave. mulan returns home, and thanks to her ping is now known as a respected general. she’s done her part and survived, and now she gets her reward - ping’s hand in marriage.

but she sees ping for the first time and flings herself into his arms and starts crying. she tells him everything, because he’s still her friend, her very best friend besides shang, the man whom she lied to and betrayed and loves. and ping listens and takes her by the shoulders and says - i’ll uphold our bargain, if that’s what you want. you can be my pampered wife, you’ve more than earned it. but if you want to go to shang, i won’t blame you. you deserve your happiness.

and mulan goes back and forth, but ultimately she decides she has to try. if shang rejects her she’ll return and marry ping and uphold her family honor. but if shang wants her - he’s not as high up as ping, but he’s high up enough to satisfy her family, and also she would love him and want him if he was no more than a farming peasant so it doesn’t matter much anyway.

she rides to the capitol. she finally meets ping’s father, running into him while looking for shang. “ah mulan,” says this man who was never supposed to know of her until she became his daughter-in-law, “i didn’t expect to see you here. how fortuitous. walk with me.” she does, wary, and that’s how she discovers - he and the emperor had discovered her deception a year in, but at that point she’d already proven herself too skilled and valuable to lose. he tells her that he will uphold his son and wife’s deal and gladly welcome her to his household - but that she’s earned her rank as general, and that he and the emperor have no problem with letting her keep it.

she says thank you, shocked and joyful, but that she has to talk to someone first. “ah, yes, young general li,” he says, eyes twinkling, “i do believe he’s around here somewhere.”

she has no idea how he seems to know everything, but she finally tracks down shang who’s ecstatic to see her and hates himself for it. she confesses - says she loves him, that she’s engaged to ping but willing and able to break this engagement for shang. who is dumbfounded and elated and says yes, of course, finally and forever.

and mulan accepts her rank and marries shang, and they become the literal power battle couple of the general li mulan and general li shang. ping becomes a scholar and marries a very nice young woman who loves reading and is happy to read aloud to her husband with his failing eyes.

and they all live happily ever after.

when hoseoks mixtape drop i dont know what ill do, ive been dying to see what goes on in his head on a deeper level + what beats hes whipped up like… this been in the works since like 2014 its gonna be monumental

People hold hands a lot in LOTR and it’s really nice? It’s not just Frodo and Sam, but I never noticed before this reread. Pippin just now took Gandalf’s hand, and earlier he’d taken I think Bergil’s, a kid (ten, so old enough to walk around without help) he just met, as they walked around the city. So it’s apparently not weird, it’s just a Normal Thing.

Vaguely of relevance as well is the fact that Frodo says “he is very dear to me” of Aragorn after, what, about a fortnight of knowing him. I’m not saying he doesn’t have cause; it was a very crowded and busy fortnight. I too would probably call someone very dear to me if they had saved me from dying from stabbery and guided my friends safely through the wilderness.

It’s just all those ‘my dear Sam’ and ‘I love him’ that he and Sam do, even though they’re a product of extreme circumstances, aren’t even out of line with the culture they live in. They’re still just as meaningful, and I don’t think their power is decreased by that. I just think it’s notable that this isn’t even beyond the bounds of “propriety” for really close friends in high stress situations.

This isn’t where I meant this post to go, but I think this is why this story resonated with me so hard specifically as an aro and why I still don’t ship anything romantically in the Tolkienverse, because the world of Middle Earth is one where loving your close platonic friends and companions to the point of being physically and verbally affectionate is a normal occurrence. It’s just how things are. There’s a lot to be said about the cultural implications of that vs here and now, but I’m not really in a position to say it. But I think even before I knew How I Was, I knew that friends were much more important to me than romance seemed to be. And I feel, with the preponderance of love interests in most adult fiction, like Lord of the Rings was the first Grown Up Story where I saw that aspect of myself reflected.

anonymous asked:

Which books/ movies/ articles would you recommend to someone who wants to learn about climate change?

Being a filmmaker I am always looking back at films that influenced me. Although it was made back in 2006, I still think “An Inconvenient Truth” is an important film in understanding climate change. May of Al Gore predictions are things we are living through right now. One of the best on-going series about climate change is, “Years of Living Dangerously” it is an up to date, account of climate change events around the world. There is no lack of literature on the subject either, and there have been some terrific articles published over the last few years by the NYT. One of the books that really made me think about the changes unfolding was Elizabeth Kolbert’s “The Sixth Extinction: An Unnatural History.” In a completely different style, I recently picked up a copy of Bill Nye’s “Unstoppable: Harnessing Science to Change the World” and it is an engaging read so far.

The best scientific information comes from the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change, the scientific organization that produces the definitive treatments of climate change and greenhouse gases that serve as the standard references for scientists and policymakers globally. See the IPCC Fifth Assessment Report at <http://www.ipcc.ch/report/ar5>. For people in the United States, the U.S. Global Change Research Program produces the definitive source for the country. See the third National Climate Assessment at <http://nca2014.globalchange.gov>.

cyan-sketches-things  asked:

Bby, what did they do to him?? Did they make the boi edgy??

Anonymous said: Spill the tea!! What happened in the trailer what arE THEY DOING TO AECH???

Anonymous said: please say this is not what they r doin to my aech,,, please n o

Anonymous said: Where is maybe possible Aech in the teaser?

UMMM SO APPARENTLY AECH IS THAT GIANT ORC DUDE?? Like there’s one frame where there’s a tag across his chest that reads “Aech” and I’m really upset if that’s his avatar because he’s supposed to be this tall Caucasian male with dark hair and dark eyes and broad shoulders and like?? Umm that’s not accurate at all

Like if it’s just a transformation sorta that’s fine. If it’s temporary…? But if the movie writers are like “Lol we’re gonna make Aech’s avatar a giant orc to be EDGY” I’m like UM NO. NO THANKS. ORCS ARE COOL BUT PLEASE DON’T

Normally I wouldn’t care but Aech is my favorite character and I really wanted to see his human avatar? Please? Don’t do this to me I–dammit

The Artemis Fowl books are really fun but do you think it ever occurred to Eoin Colfer that if he’d just made his protagonist a girl he wouldn’t have to keep explaining why a boy would have the name Artemis

anonymous asked:

What is your favorite book (series)? Is there anything that inspired you most?

Number one series is fablehaven!!!!!! It is my ULTIMATE fave book series ever. The main character is so sweet and i love her brother too.

2) PJO series
3) barmethieus (i forgot how to spell it about its about a dijinn and Nathaniel)
4) peter pan and the stardust catchers (i think) i never finished it tho :(
5) i used to like maximum ride because of how unique the idea was to me at the time but fucking HATED fang and the stupid ass romance. Max was too good for him. I loved ari. Fuckinh stupid ending

Theres more but i forgot them. These books i really remember and they honestly changed me and made me feel good for being different.

Give me a Ravenclaw who procrastinates because nothing is more challenging and exciting than seeing how fast you can write that paper and still get an A. Give me a Ravenclaw who loves to learn but started hating school when they realized the most important lessons are what they don’t teach you and that any institution who claims that Columbus was a hero of discovery isn’t worth their time. Give me a Ravenclaw who goes and tries anyway, because they constantly hope that things will be better in University, that this is just a step, but they still sometimes can’t force themselves to do that assignment, or study for that test. Give me a Ravenclaw who writes poems on their hands because people are poetry and skin is paper and god do they want a tattoo. Give me a Ravenclaw who sneaks out to go to human rights protests and cries over the fact that they can’t do anything when another refugee child washes up on the shore of the same country that refused to grant him asylum. Give me a Ravenclaw whose only true motivation is looking through an atlas and swearing to visit every page. Give me a Ravenclaw who is so scared to fail that they often forget to try at all. Give me “You have so much potential”. Give me “if only you would apply yourself”. Give me a Ravenclaw who buckles under the pressure of it, of the expectations they never wanted. Give me a Ravenclaw who stays up late because the sound of the quiet world broken by the typing at their keyboard is the only kind of music they know how to make. A Ravenclaw who reads history books because people are fascinating in that they never really change. Give me a Ravenclaw who learns things on their own because they want to prove they still can. It is reclaiming the power over their mind. But then they fall back in love with learning again and it is wonderful. Give me a Ravenclaw who just wants to argue until one of you cries because that means you are feeling something. A Ravenclaw who just wants to write poetry against your skin and read you books about discovery. A Ravenclaw who isn’t perfect. Who isn’t studious. A Ravenclaw who is simply in love with the world, and wants to explore, and feel, every inch of it.
Top 15 reads of 2014

2014 had been my breakthrough in ‘reading’, I personally denote that. Because I am really a lazy-ass reader as the 2014 enters, but I was amazed by myself that I had read If I Stay for like two days—which is not normal to me—then it was followed by Thirteen Reasons Why, then If I Stay’s sequel Where She Went. Then I know I’m latching on to books.

These books are the books that I had read in 2014, not the books published in 2014. Since I’m just making a debut in the world of books, I might read some books that were published a long time ago.

This list is order-sensitive. So what goes in the top is my most favorite read of 2014.

14. To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han

This book had sent me into a screeching level. I just shouted when I realized the things hadn’t turned out the way I thought they would be. I was hooked by the amazing and catchy premise of it so I picked it up for a read, and I didn’t really regretted it! Its sequel, PS, I Still Love You, is one of my anticipated releases of next year. I just can’t get enough of this thing! I had read books of Jenny Han, and for me, this is the greatest among them all.

14. Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick

I read this in the late 2014, so it has the tiniest chance of being included here in my favorite reads, and who knows? I loved Leonard Peacock, I love how the way he thinks, it’s just so inclined in the reality. I love how he stood up for his decisions, and how he changed the world. This book really made me stunned on the lowest level, and I loved this. LP will always be on my heart. The thing I hate the most about this is that the ending is badly abrupt. I hate abrupt endings. Real talk.

13. Every Day by David Levithan

David Levithan never fails to write amazing plotlines, connections, and characters. The contemporary world is not that diverse, but David Levithan makes a difference. His characters are diverse and profound that you need second guessing and reading in order to absorb what he is trying to say. I love A. I love Rhiannon. I love every one in this book. This book shows the different sides of the world we live in. Too bad I’d read so much greater books than this this year, but it would’ve topped the charts. Another Day, its sequel, will be coming out next year and is one of my most-anticipated books next year.

12. Scarlet by Marissa Meyer

Scarlet, the second installment of the Lunar Chronicles, is also included here. I loved Scarlet more than Cinder, the first in the series, because I think Scarlet had have much more feelings than Cinder. Scarlet is such a feels-wrecker. I never knew how can I contain my feelings. Real talk: I had read this I classes because I just couldn’t get enough of this. Wolf and Scarlet make a great love team! They’re one of mt OTP’s. Haha.

11. Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour by Morgan Matson

Amy and Roger had traveled America. And I loved it! It’s like I had also traveled with them. I knew the loneliest highway in America, and I knew so much about Yosemite Park, I loved this book so much. I was really doubtful at first because I think this wouldn’t cut my favorites, but I was wrong. I was just so much wrong. This is good. I think I have a thing in road tours by now. Looking forward for Second Chance Summer and Since You’ve Been Gone!

10. The DUFF by Kody Keplinger

This novel made me cry. Literally. Like it was brown out in our place and I decided to read it in my tablet and I cried. I also finished it on that one sitting because this is sooo good. Is that convincing? Haha. This has family, friendships, and everything in it. This is a total package. Too bad the movie was wrecked. Ugh. They really stirred a good novel badly. Hail, Kody Keplinger!

9. Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell

This is my first read of one of the leading queens of contemporary–Rainbow Rowell. And I find it cute and loveable. Eleanor and Park are like oil and water, that they aren’t made for together, but still find a way. But nooo…at the time I was deeply in love with the two of them and the story and everything, ugh. I don’t want to spoil you guys, even though I know you’ve read this already, But I was painfully hurt when I read the ending. They should be in ecstasy. But whatever, I love Rainbow and her loveable characters so much.

8. Looking for Alaska by John Green

I’ve read all of John Green’s books this year, but this is the only one who made the cut. I love the characters–Alaska, Miles, the Colonel, and Takumi, I love them all–their gang, their pranks, their hanging-outs, and I hated this book so much! The ‘before’ and 'after’ thing! It’s like 'ugh’. I was crying. But anyway, I love the book. I like how the characters developed. The story overall, and everything. Preach!

7. Dorothy Must Die by Danielle Paige

This is my first fantasy novel to be read this year and I was also doubtful in reading this. But hell yeah, I’ve finished this for two or three days! I was totally in love with this and Dorothy and no, I realized that you shouldn’t really be attached to a fictional character because you will cry a lot of tears and your heart will be wretched by the author. I just hate Paige. Hahahaha. She’s so awesome in writing these type of things. I was amazed how many debut novels were in here right now. Since maybe I was also a debutant in reading this year? Maybe. maybe not. Loved this.

6. Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins

Cute. Romance. Friendship. Family. Heartbreaks. CUTE again. This is so much of a roller-coaster ride! Shit. Shitshitshit. I cannot get enough of this book. But, sad to say, this is the best of the series. May or may not be, Lola and Isla isn’t that compelling to me unlike this one. I love Stephanie Perkins for writing this book!

5. Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver

This is one of the most compelling books I’ve ever read. I think this has changed some principles I had. I love this book. I love the characters, Sam? I think. Sorry if I forgot. I’d read this back in July or August so it’s really hard to wrap up characters. But this stands alone, and I love it. A powerful book, you guys better read this if you haven’t. This will change your view of the world. Seven days. Seven chapters. You’ll never regret reading it.

4. Wonder by RJ Palacio

I’ve read this just this December, I was late in being informed that this was an amazing book. Like, you just cannot dodge the message this wants to tell us. This will also change the way you view the world just like BIF, I love Auggie, his strength, his everything. I love how he thinks about not caring and giving a f*** to others. I love his courage. I want that one. This had struck me to my innermost self. I really, really and highly recommend this to everyone! No matter what your age, your genre, and your status. This has a general message. And I want you to read this to find it out.

3. The Realm of Possibility by David Levithan

I’ve read this on January and it had stayed for like seven or eight months being my favorite. It was then replaced by Falling Into Place so it ranked my second, then Falling Into Place was replaced by Cress, so it falls down in third. I just have this thing in charts so I keep track of my books’ reads, so I can handle my own chart. It was so good to have something like that. TROP is a novel about seventeen different students having different life problems and POV’s, it was so great. Especially that it was written in poetry or in verses, I really do have a thing in poems, you know. That’s why I’d loved it. Also, the connections were so much amazing and beautiful! This is a short read that I finished for just one sitting. I don’t know what pushed me to read this one morning–at 6AM, I started reading this and it was so much fun!

2. Falling Into Place by Amy Zhang

This is like a mash-up of all the books I ’d read this year–If I Stay, 13 Reasons Why, and Before I Fall (but the first two books didn’t made it to the cut). It was so awesome! Liz, and everyone in the gang is so much loveable. I love how the story was being told. 80+ chapters but it seems so much hanging. A wonderful debut from a teenager, and I loved it. I hope she make so much more novels like this. It is very compelling. I loved this. HOW MANY TIMES DID I SAY 'I LOVE THIS’? Ugh. 'Cause it’s real. It was hard not to love. Better read this guys. It will make you cry, laugh, shout, and everything.

1. Cress by Marissa Meyer

This is the third installment in the Lunar Chronicles and this is the best book by far, Meyer will release two more books–Fairest and Winter--next year which are two of my most anticipated releases of 2015. I didn’t expect that this will put me in a super roller coaster ride of emotions. Real talk: I CRIED IN THIS. It was like reading this after I woke up (straight from stretching then grabbing my copy and reading this) then I cried when ugh, I can’t say it. This also made me swoon because of the OTP’s in here. Thorne and Cress have a spark, guys. They really have. And Wolf. Shit. He’s more heroic and fantastic and awesome than ever! And Kai, it was so much amazing. And Scarlet and Winter’s appearance in the last few chapters, the whole book is awesome! Meyer, you have my vows. You topped my favorites list (and you have two entries), and I want to greet you–and myself–that we both made it! And please, don’t kill any of the six main characters, it’s just that I love them so much. Pleaaaase.

Happy 2015 guys! Keep track of your reads so that you can see who’s topping the charts! Hahaha. Have an awesome New Year!

Love these books!

Here is a list of books that I really love and had a part in changing me into what I am today. I think all of these books are awesome. Some of them I could not get into until a few years after I first picked them up and are totally worth the wait until I was ready for them. They all spoke to me and grabbed my attention at certain times and I am grateful for them :) If anyone has any other books they love that I have not listed, please let me know!

  • Wayne Dyer - “Power of Intention”, “Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life”, “Wishes Fulfilled”, “10 Secrets for Success & Inner Peace”, “Being in Balance”, “The Shift”, “Excuses Begone”
  • James Redfield - “The Celestine Prophecy”
  • Anita Moorjani - “Dying To Be Me”
  • Bob Proctor - “It’s Not About the Money”
  • Jack Canfield - “Sucess Principles”, “The Aladdin Factor”
  • Neale Donald Walsch - “Conversations With God” Series, “When Everything Changes, Change Everything”, “The Only Thing That Matters”
  • Esther & Jerry Hicks - “The Law of Attraction”, “Finding the Path to Joy Through Energy Balance”, “Living the Art of Allowing”
  • Napolean HIll - “Think and Grow Rich”
  • Wallace Wattles - “The Science of Getting Rich”
  • Charles Haanel - “The Master Key System”
  • Eckhart Tolle - “The Power of Now”, “A New Earth”
  • Harriet Braiker - “The Disease to Please”
  • Lao Tzu - “Tao Te Ching”
  • Nikos Kazantzakis - “Saint Francis”
  • Caroline Myss - “Anatomy of the Spirit”
  • Michael Newton - “Journey of Souls”, “Destiny of Souls”
  • Brian Weiss - “Many Lives, Many Masters”, “Sames Souls, Many Bodies”
  • Ted Andrews - “Animal Speak”, “Nature Speak”
  • Masaru Emoto - “The Hidden Messages in Water”

Happy Reading!!! :)

One year ago my book “You’re Never Weird on the Internet” was released! Ty to all who read!

Special thanks to everyone who came out to meet me on book tour, those interactions have really made me change a lot of what I’m doing in my life now, working on less but on things that mean more to me, devoting time to my personal life and growing as a creative person. You impacted me as much as I hope my book impacted you <3

Today has been a day of spring cleaning my wardrobe

Think I have probably halved my wardrobe and it’s finally finally finally at a reasonable size.

I can close all my dresser drawers again! And I have tons of space in my closet!!!

putmysoulintoatree  asked:

Hello, Is there any advice you can give to a beginner witch? Are there any books, websites, lifestyle changes, etc. that could help me on my journey? I'm really excited to start this chapter of my story, but I have no support or people to help me along the way. Thank you so much for anything you can offer me!

Hello!                                                                                                                     Some of my favorite books are The Element Encyclopedia of 1000 Spells and Encyclopedia of Witchcraft by Judika Illes.                                                           I love using Pinterest and Tumblr to find other Witches and different ideas I can incorporate into my craft.                                                                                     Starting a Book of Shadows or Grimoire is a great way to keep track of your path, your goals, and your accomplishments.                                                       Some things that you can do to get started are meditating and discovering your inner self, reading EVERYTHING you can about witchcraft, do lots of research, and ask lots of questions there are lots of helpful witches on here that would be willing to answer any of your questions.                                                       Good Luck!                                                                                                           ==Moonlight Academy==                                                                                                                                           

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make me choose
↳ hellowherearemypeople asked: Tyrion x Shae or Tyrion x Sansa

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Tidying: It’s Magic.

Out of my many flaws, there’s one that I will admit is probably the most ridiculous: I avoid hyped-up, popular things. Whether that be avoiding Harry Potter for almost a decade, shunning skinny jeans until they were almost out of style, refusing to say ‘on point’ and then when finally working ‘on point’ into my vocabulary, refusing to use ‘on fleek.’ While I don’t think this makes me a hipster, I do feel like I fall into the ‘too cool for school’ category, and not in a good way.

Forget the psychology of why I decide not to hop on certain bandwagons but then practically hijack and take over others (hello: Instagram stalking and hero worship). Maybe it’s a need to be different and stand out from the pack. Or perhaps it’s simply a case of “I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM AS AN INDIVIDUAL AND HAVE ZERO PERSONAL IDENTITY!”

Which brings me to the KonMari method and The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying by Marie Kondo.

I was hooked from page one.

I have always been notoriously organized. I’m sure if my mother ever reads this she will throw back her head in mock laughter until she pulls a muscle as she recalls a period in time - say from when I was 6 until 14 - when my room was so messy you could’ve easily convinced someone there wasn’t a floor. But I quickly grew out of this and organized the hell out of my life.

My school locker was meticulous. My college notebooks were an OCD dream. My handbag always cleaned out every Sunday for the upcoming work week. My kitchen cabinets were an organized wonder to behold.

Don’t even get me started on what I did to my friend’s closets. Many years ago I went hardcore tough love on @traceydanine and spent hours upon hours organizing, tidying and throwing away items in her closet. It was a truly magical evening. I remember holding her childhood in my hands (her Winnie-the-Pooh doll) and harshly examining why she needed it? (She kept it in the end, as she should have.)

So, you’d think, what in the world could I possibly need this book for if I (not-so-humbly) am proclaiming that I could’ve practically written it? Well, in a nutshell? I moved to England and promptly became a hoarder.

Every single item I owned suddenly became a life line back to America. That beautiful black dress I wore to a wedding in 2012 and would love to wear again? Brought it with me. That book I’ve been meaning to read because I loved the TV show? I brought it with me. Those amazing high heels that I lusted after and wore twice in America? I brought them with me. That expensive handbag I bought after I landed my first real grown up job post college? I brought it with me.  I’ve now lived in England for over a year and how many times have I touched/used/read the above? Not once.

And not only that, but my collection has grown. From handbags to make up to shoes to books, I just keep accumulating crap in the hopes that it’ll bring me some sort of happiness, or rather distract my homesickness and FOMO. That’s been my first mistake.

My second mistake and probably the most fatal of personality flaws and the hardest to admit is this: In addition to FOMO, I suffer from some sort of serious hero worship/envy. There are certain people out there that you know/watch on YouTube, read their blogs/are your friends that you think just have their shit together and life completely figured out. Their hair always looks effortlessly glossy, their handbags on point (On fleek? Groan. Stop. Please.) They seem to fall into the camp of those who wake up early, meditate, eat a healthy breakfast, have cool jobs, throw together perfect capsule wardrobes effortlessly, have a life trajectory in mind and slay it, marry the perfect man, pop out a few adorable children who never have stains on their clothes or act up or scream for no apparent reason. Those people. Think about for a second. We ALL have at least one person.

And in comes my fatal flaw, because I think, “Right. If I can just accumulate that handbag/watch/hair product/book she has, then surely my life will resemble theirs, right?”

W R O N G.

So wrong. Not only does my life not resemble theirs, it now looks like some sort of schizophrenic mashup that can’t decide who or what they are. It’s a buffet of life choices. Constant trips filling up my life plate to taste this career or that location. It ends in serious anxiety. And credit card debt. (Editors note: the author is happy to report to put a nip in this monetary bud in 2012 when she paid off her credit card debt. A ridiculous sum that most people could buy a new car with… and has since never been in debt. Small victories.)

I’m not sure when this all got out of hand. I’m sure middle school. Don’t all horrific things in life happen in middle school? But we can’t blame our short comings on middle school traumatics forever, right? We have to grow up some time.

One would hope at the ripe ol’ age of 34, I could finally add “grown up” to my life resume, but I hear most people feel like they’re faking the grown up thing until they’re practically on their deathbed. Even having a kid doesn’t make me feel like a grown up. In fact, there’s nothing that will make you feel more like a child crying for your mommy than having a child of your own. You can quote me on that.

One book really isn’t going to change my life. It might be ‘magical’ but it’s going to take a lot more soul searching to understand the WHY behind the BUY. (Oooooh, catchy. If that slogan ever catches on, I want at least half the profits.)

But it’s a start. A start that ended with several black bags being donated to the dumpster and local charity shops.

So, to end this rambling book review: to the four people still out there who haven’t read this book yet, please do. Go forth and tidy, my friends!

Thanks a lot to the ever amazing @igniscorde7112 for tagging me and here are my answers


1. What is your favorite animal?
My favorite animal is a wolf….. But in terms of fictional animals… I love dragons………


2. If you could enter any fictional world, what would it be?
This is a hard one for I love every book I read and in a way all of them are better than mine…. But I choose throne of glass because it is this book that changed me…. It is a really deep bond..


3. If you could move to another country, what would it be?
Oooooo I love this question….I would love to move to London…. It is my favorite place….


4. What is your favorite genre of music?
I love listening to all kinds of music but I love Neo-folk and trance music…


5. Have you ever broken a bone?
Nope never….. But if you are suggesting otherwise…. I have broken my cousin’s bone when she asked me to box with her…. I didn’t even know the maneuvers and that is how the day ended up


6. Who is your favorite author?
My favorite author without any doubt is Sarah J. Maas….oh!! How I love her books I cannot not love any of her books…


7. How long have you been on tumblr?
Truthfully February 2017…. I just joined..
….. Kind of recently


8. When was the last time you cried?
Okay so now the world wants to expose me as a crybaby…. Fine.. bring it on!!… I last cried I guess today?? Yes it was today…


9. Would you rather travel in a boat or a plane?
Boat.. I love the water but I love the clouds as well…. But a boat is better…


10. Cats or dogs or neither?
Dogs… Who can just not love those sweet souls….


11. Fanfiction or fan art?

Oh god I don’t know….. Fanfiction….. No fanart… Fine I won’t be a spoiled sport…. Fanart….


I tag @igniscorde7112, @deathgoddessnesta, @feyreashryvernight @rrhys and @feysandsmut , @arz28art
@annerozacat . My questions are:-

1. If you could change one thing in any book what would it be ??
2. The worst bookish villain…who you secretly admire.
3.Light or darkness??
4. If you could be any character for a day.. who would it be ??
5. what is your favorite serial and it’s favourite soundtrack??
6. What song will you choose if you have to listen to it for the rest of your life??
7. What is your zodiac sign and your birth date??
8. What is the one thing that you have to do before you die??
9. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change??
10. Where do you think you belong truly??
11. Who is that one person you never want to lose??