this already brought me to tears

Day 01
I was born with the golden sun in my heart and the waves of the ocean between my ribs. My father was not gentle nor kind but he brought me to a garden, something rare and beautiful. There lived someone else already. His name was Adam and when he smiled, the sun was put to shame. I was in love before I realized what love even is.

Day 04
Adam gave me flowers and told me how beautiful I am. He kissed my cheeks and kept me warm at night.

Day 05
Adam put a hand between my legs and touched me. It felt good at first, but then it hurt. Adam didn’t stop.

Day 06
I wanted to tell my father, but I felt dirty and spent. That night I tasted tears for the first time. It’s a cruel taste.

Day 38
I told my father about what Adam did. He said ‘You were made to serve him. He is made in my own image. There is nothing wrong in what Adam did. You wanted it, don’t you?’ No I didn’t. But my father didn’t even listen to me.

Day 42
Adam does it all the time. The touching. Sometimes he pushes me down and takes greedily what he wants. I close my eyes and let it happen. I was born to serve him after all.

Day 103
I listened to the way my name sounds in Adam’s mouth. Servant. Slave. Brainless. Stupid. I am neither of these things.

Day 104
I will prove him wrong.

Day 301
I was not born to serve anyone than myself.

Day 332
My father made men in his own image. But he included his cruelty in me. His rage. The taste of dirt and blood behind my teeth. God is not on my lips anymore. I burn myself to the ground and rise shaking outside the garden.

Day 895
All the blood has buried my name.

- entries out of Lilith’s Diary | r.m

After rewatching ep 5 for the thousandth time, I noticed this moment and it legit brought me to tears because, as far as we know, ONLY Yuuri KNOWS THAT HE has already decided to retire after this season. But then this child, who is a fan of Yuuri’s, gives him a glimmer of reconsideration while also reaffirming Yuuri’s feelings that he is loved. 

And if you haven’t already found yourself adoring this child, you really need to start. Minami is but one of many encounters that Yuuri will keep on having that subtly let him know, “you are loved”! and who is he going up against next? His long time friend Phichit who will no doubt also leave Yuuri with a feeling that he is loved. 

Minami has sparked an even deeper feeling of love within Yuuri, for himself and how others view him, and I’m excited to watch it bloom even more as the series continues. 

“So Beacon’s got more students? Great, that’s great, more people for me to tear apart. It has been a while, the last team didn’t last as long as I thought, we’re already out. Come on Beacon, show me what kind of fresh meat you’ve brought us.” Ruby let out a feral roar, alerting her pack of her intentions, and scaring some of the first years. She had taken out a few, but there was no time to feed her pack or herself. The bodies were already taken to the hospital, maybe some were still alive. Who knows, her focus was on who would come to challenge her. Letting her tattered cape flap in a nonexistent wind, she ran with her pack closer to the temple.

My topology class had an exam last week. 

It was bad. 

We got the exams back today, but the grades had already been posted so we knew our (terrible) fates. Before class, I ran into one of my classmates. When I brought up the exam, she teared up a bit. I said, “If it helps at all, literally everyone who scored lower than I did on Exam 1 has dropped the class. That means I’m the reigning lowest score.” She immediately hugged me. I really needed a hug. 

I teared up, too, but not about the exam. She and I are two of four female students in the class. She explained that she had to get the tears out now, since there was no reality in which she’d let herself be seen crying about an exam in front of “all of those boys,” because she’d be damned if she’d give a male-dominated community one reason to enforce any stereotype about the fitness of women to be mathematicians. This is a person I’ve always liked and always respected, and in that moment, this moment of bravery and resolution and stubbornness and flat-out refusal to be defeated, I swear she was the most beautiful human being on the face of the Earth. I couldn’t help but be moved to tears. 

In class, our professor gave the most motivational speech imaginable in such a circumstance. He reminded us that success belongs not to those who struggle and achieve victory in the end. That’s math. It’s a fight to understand, and it’s worth every ounce of energy it demands. 

And all the while, I flatly refused to make eye contact with that classmate. Because if I did, there was no way I’d succeed in keeping it together in front of ‘all the boys.’ 

That’s the moral of today’s interaction: STEM is tough. We’re tougher. No one is quitting today. 

4

Request for: @depressedandoverexpressed

Pairing: Reader x Dean, Reader x Sam

Word count: 486

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The tight ropes left marks on your skin as you thrashed around, trying desperately to break free. Blood trickled down the side of your face, and one eye was nearly swelled shut. You felt sick to your stomach. Watching shapeshifters disguised as Sam and Dean Winchester inflict pain on you for the past few days destroyed your sanity.

“Y/N.” Dean’s green eyes glistened with mischief as he picked up the knife on the table. “Did you miss me, sweetheart?”

The tears fell down your face as the fake Dean began walking towards you, each step echoing throughout the abandoned sewer. He bent down, pressing the knife to your already cut cheek and applying pressure ever so slightly. You whimpered as you looked into the forest green eyes that once brought you so much happiness.

The shapeshifter jerked up at the sound of Sam’s screams. Dean’s face contorted into a scowl as he stood up and walked off, leaving you sitting alone in the dimly lit corner.

“Y/N!” You heard Sam scream, though you couldn’t tell if it was your Sam or the shapeshifter.

“Sammy?” Your voice cracked.

“We’re here!” Sam yelled back as his footsteps grew closer. Within a few seconds, he saw you cowering in the corner with Dean right behind him.

Dean.

You involuntarily shrunk back farther into the wall. Every time you closed your eyes you saw his menacing grin and heard his malicious laugh as he inflicted pain on you.

“You’re okay now.” Dean pulled you into his embrace. “I’ve got you.”

Tears clouded your sight as you flinched in his arms, attempting to move away.

“Y/N?” Dean’s voice cracked as he stared down at the girl he’s loved for years flinching away at his touch.

“How do I know you aren’t him?” You sobbed, “How do I know this isn’t a trap?”

Dean quickly pulled out a silver blade and cut his palm. “See? It’s me, Y/N. I promise, it’s me.” He cut off the ropes binding your wrists together and placed the cool blade in your hand. “If you don’t think that it’s really me then kill me. I’m not going to hurt you- I would never hurt you.”

You set the knife on the floor and jumped into Dean’s arms. His cologne engulfed your senses as his arms wound tightly around your waist, holding you as close to him as he possibly could. Dean dug his face in the crook of your neck, hiding the few tears that fell.

“Dean.” You whispered.

“I’m here, baby.” Dean told you, pressing a kiss on your forehead. “It’s me.”

Sam cleared his throat and held his arms open. “I’m here too, you know.”

You grinned, untangling yourself from Dean and giving Sam a hug. “Hey, Sammy.”

Dean grabbed your hand, pulling you back to his side. “Let’s go home.”

Leaning into Dean’s side you grinned. Home sounded good.

5

I respected the fact that my brother Stiles needed time away from home, but forgetting to pick his little sister from school is a little much. Especially if it is pouring rain outside. I wasn’t surprised though, he’s been forgetting about me a lot lately. I guess I’ll just have to deal with the fact that he doesn’t need his little sister anymore. Just the thought of that brought tears to my eyes. I sighed and decided that if it has already been 2 hours I should probably just walk home. So that’s what I did. It wasn’t too far just about 3 miles away. I started to walk in the direction of home. After 45 minutes of waling in the rain I finally got home. I saw dad’s car in the front so I decided to go in through the back door so I didn’t get Stiles in trouble. I walked over the backyard and into the back door. As silently as I possibly could I walked up the stairs. “Y/n is that you,” I heard my dad ask. “Yeah,” I answered hoping he won’t come over to me. “When did you get here,” he questioned walking to the staircase. He finally saw my soaking wet figure and sighed. “He forgot again didn’t he?” I sighed before nodding. “But it wasn’t his fault I just didn’t remind him enough,” I defended my brother. “Y/n, he shouldn’t have to be reminded to pick up his little sister from school.” “But-” “No he is going to be punished this is the third time this week and its only Thursday. Now go change out of those wet clothes.” I nodded my head and trudged up the stairs and into my room. I changed into some dry clothes and dried off my hair with a towel. I walked down the stairs and sat at the kitchen table. My dad came and sat next to me. “Does it bother you that Stiles has done this so many times?” “Of course it does dad. He’s my brother and he forgot about me three times in one week, he doesn’t talk to me, and during the time we used to spend together he’s now spending with his friends. I just need to accept the fact that he doesn’t need his little sister anymore,” I answered tears falling down my cheeks. “I’m gonna go upstairs,” I mumbled standing up. I walked upstairs and went into my room. I curled up on my bed and cried. I let out everything I had been holding in over the last few weeks.

Stiles pov:

I walked into my house and heard people talking in the kitchen. I got closer and realized it was Y/n and dad. Wait Y/n… I forgot to pick her up again and it was pouring rain outside. Damnit Stiles! You are such a horrible big brother! I got a little closer and listened to their conversation. “Does it bother you that Stiles has done this so many times,” I heard my dad ask. “Of course it does dad. He’s my brother and he forgot about me three times in one week, he doesn’t talk to me, and during the time we used to spend together he’s now spending with his friends. I just need to accept the fact that he doesn’t need his little sister anymore,” I heard her answer. At this point tears were falling down my face. “I’m gonna go upstairs,” I heard her mumble. She then disappeared up the stairs. “Shit,” I whispered. I walked up the stairs to go find her. I was about to knock on her door when I heard sobs. I sighed and walked in her room. I looked around and noticed a shaking figure under the covers of her bed. I laid down next to her and wrapped my arms around her. She turned her head to look at me. Her eyes were red and her cheeks were tear stained. I noticed that she was really cold. Probably from walking home in the rain. “Stiles?” “Yeah Y/n/n it’s me. Listen, I’m sorry I’ve been a crappy big brother lately and I want to make it up to you,” I said softly. “You haven’t been a crappy big brother you just like to be with your friends a lot,” she said her voice cracking at the mention of my friends. “Hey, it’s okay don’t cry your gonna make me start crying,” I said making her smile. I wrapped my arms around her once more and she buried her face in the crook of my neck. “I love you Y/n/n,” I whispered. “I love you too Stiles,” she whispered before falling asleep. I kissed her forehead and closed my eyes, darkness consuming me. 

Warning: Smut

Request: Could you please do lashton where you have to use the safe word and then he feels bad and fluff? Thanks hun!

Request: Could your please do a 4/4 or Ashton where he accidentally hurts you during ‘sexy time’ and you use the agreed safe word? Thank darling! You’re writings make me melt into a puddle of mush!

First of all, thank you both so much <3 I love you nuggets right back, and I know I always say that I appreciate your support, but I really do. It means so much to me. More than you guys would know. <3 Keep reading and keep requesting!


Luke:

“Fuck, Y/N.” Luke had your arms pinned above your head and was slamming into you at break neck speed. You had already cum twice underneath him, and it was getting to the point where it was almost painful as you were brought to a third orgasm.

“Oh my God, Luke. Yellow.” You whimpered, arching your back, tears pricking at the corner of your eyes. You had never used the safe word  before, but it was becomming unbearable.

“Shit.” Luke pulled out of you immediately and lifted you up. You both were panting and you rubbed your wrists where he had been holding them. “Are you okay?” He asked, concern evident in his face.

“Yeah, I just…I came a lot.” You chuckled softly. He smirked and kissed you gently.

“I’m sorry, love. I obviously wasn’t thinking about the overstimulation.” He muttered. You shrugged and started rubbing his length with your hand.

“Always and excuse to get a blow job though.” You smirked and he nodded, giving his famous crooked smile, biting his lip ring gently.


Ashton:

“That’s right, scream my name, princess.” Ashton was driving into you from behind and smacking your ass repeatedly. You whimpered softly as your ass became more and more sensitive, but he didn’t let up.

“Ashton…red.” You managed to get out. It was your agreed upon safeword, and you rarely used it, but the pain went past the point of pleasurable.

“Fuck, Y/N.” He muttered, pulling out of you. You fell down, exhausted and laid on your side. He looked at your ass and rubbed it very gently. “Shit, I went to far.” He said. You lay there panting as he got some aloe vera from the bathroom and rubbed it all over your raw buttocks, before slipping a pair of his oversized sweats over your legs. 

You smiled as he laid down in front of you, boxers over his previously naked hips. He pulled you to his chest and kissed your hair.

“I’m so sorry, princess.” He whispered in your hair. You reached up and kissed him.

“It’s fine. You just bang so hard on those drums you can’t help doing the same to me.” The two of you laughed and kissed again.

“So, you gonna blow me later or nah?” You smacked Ashton’s chest leaving a red mark in it’s wake.

“Karma!” You giggled at his pouty face.

3

Listen, I am so overwhelmed with the love already today! I almost tear up at every dang message I get. And then I get to work and someone put up a birthday banner which I didn’t expect and another co worker brought me a sweet treat and I just can’t believe how nice and lovely these people are.

I got myself a birthday donut this morning!
It’s Friday!
The weather is going to be pretty!
I’m very happy to be alive!

Here’s to 28, y'all!

2

Imagine Sam’s reaction when you tell him you sold your soul to save him.

“Y/N, tell me you didn’t,” Sam begged once you had stopped talking. The pain etched on his face was clear. Tears were already welling up in his eyes. You reached out for contact, but he gently pushed you away. This brought on tears of your own.

“Sam, I,” you started but he immediately cut you off.

“How on earth am I supposed to live with this Y/N? Knowing that you died so I should live. The person I love the most in this world giving her life for the least deserving person in existence. I’m going to get you out of this. I will find a way,” he said desperately as he ran his hands through his hair.

“Sam, you can’t,” you said gently, keeping your distance.

“The hell I can’t!” He shouted. “Watch me! Why on earth would you do this anyway? Huh? Because I’m certainly not worth it. Your life is more precious and important than mine.”

“Don’t you dare,” you managed before tears cut off your words. They flowed freely as you continued to speak. “Sam Winchester, I refuse to be here without you. That may be selfish, but I love you. You can’t just die on me like that and expect me to just be okay with it, damnit!” You screamed at him as the tears continued to fall.

He yelled in return, “and I’m just supposed to live without you? To be okay with what YOU did? Do you realize what that will be like for me? Do you? You might as well take the air from my lungs. I’ll be that lost and useless without you, Y/N.”

As he said that, you closed the gap between the two of you and Sam allowed it. Your lips crashed onto his, your tears mixing with his on your check. You put every unspoken word into that kiss. Sam’s hand held the back of your neck firmly, keeping you as close to him as possible. His kiss was deep and desperate. Your fingernails clawed at the back of his shirt, no doubt leaving marks on his back despite the fact that there was cloth between your nails and his skin.

You pulled away slowly, collapsing into his arms in utter exhaustion. “I didn’t know what else to do, Sam. I’m sorry, but I can’t loose you again, and I couldn’t let Dean go through that Hell again either. It’s my turn,” you said with resignation.

He pulled you away from his chest and grabbed your face in his hands. “Like hell it is,” he said as he stared into your eyes. “Dean and I will find a way to get you out of this. I promise. You have to let me try.” He kissed your forehead and pulled you into a tight hug.

You stayed there and let his scent consume you. For a moment you were able to escape your reality. What Sam didn’t know was he couldn’t save you, or it would mean the end of Dean. The Demon had been clear on that. Sam wouldn’t choose you over his brother, you wouldn’t let him.

2

It had just been a salt ‘n’ burn case. Something that you’d done a million times before and would only take an hour or less of your time. You and Sam were supposed to be at that café by now, relaxing after a hard day’s work.

This wasn’t supposed to happen. Not to you.

“Y/N, hey–hey, wake up,” Sam shook your motionless body. “Please, Y/N, open your eyes. You’re gonna be fine, I promise.” He frantically pressed his hand against your split forehead in an attempt to stop the abundant bleeding, but it was already too late. And he knew it.

Tears rolled down Sam’s face as he brought your body closer to plant trembling kisses on your face, smearing his lips with your blood. He gently scooped your broken figure and embraced it, keeping whatever heat was left from you before it slipped away forever.

“Please don’t leave me, Y/N.” Sam sobbed, “Not like this.”

A chill ran down Sam’s back. He couldn’t stay longer on that frigid basement with you like this. He slowly rose up and carried your body though the door, unaware of the cold air following him outside.

6

One year ago today I got to see my idol in the flesh for the first time after so many years of waiting and trying. I can hardly believe that it has been a year already, I still remember the buzz of excitement and the way that my heart beat out of my chest as we were approaching the arena. It was the most wonderful night of my life, getting to see my idol live, have her play my favourite song on the B-Stage and then as if it couldn’t have gotten any better, she brought out Ed Sheeran to play Lego House. There were a lot of tears that night, that’s for sure. Many things have happened this past year but these memories will never change and I shall carry them with me forever.. <3

Thank you Taylor for making my dream come true and making me feel as if I were the only one there among a sea of thousands <3 

IHYV Filming Fan Account

Source: DC
Translation note: Melted by the conversation part… decided to translate it. :)

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Proof photos:

So this student went to IHYV filming last year and finally posted her fan account. She went with her friend and the beginning part was them waiting for a long time for Jongsuk…

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When my friend suddenly said, “It’s Jongsuk!”

My brain couldn’t even process the words; tears just came to my eyes and my legs lead my body in that direction. I am originally a very cautious person, so when Jongsuk was reaching out his hand, I couldn’t even say a word and just stood there. However, my friend was already holding Jongsuk’s hand with both her hands and chatting with him… keke

Anyways, my feet finally brought me close to him. The manager-hyung said that Jongsuk was going to the bathroom and will have to go back to filming later. But Jongsuk had seen the way I was slowly walking towards him so he pulled himself away from manager-hyung’s grasp and came towards me.

Jongsuk: How old are you?

Me: XX years old… (I’m a student.)

Jongsuk: What time is it now?

Me: 11:30pm…

Jongsuk: Not going to school tomorrow?

Me: It’s Sunday tomorrow…

Jongsuk: Ah! Hehehe it’s very late now. Where’s your parents?

Me: At home…

Jongsuk: Did you get their permission [to come]?

Me: Yes…

Jongsuk: Even so, it’s so late now… (he made a sad face)

Me: I’m going home now!!

Jongsuk: Ooh that’s [my brand of] prawn crackers! (I was carrying an empty package of the snack since I was waiting for him.)

Me: Ah, here, there’s oppa on [the package]!!

Jongsuk: It’s me~ huhuhu

Me: What are yoou filming right now?

Jongsuk: ‘I Hear Your Voice’!!

Me: Ah, I have to look that up…

Jongsuk: Hehe, it’s very late now~ Your parents would be worried, just stay a little while longer then you should go~

Me: Is it ok if I stay a little while longer? (I was going crazy, I think.)

Jongsuk: (manager is calling him) If you keep being good…

Me: Yes…

Jongsuk: Annyeong~~

Then he went to the bathroom… even after he came back from the bathroom, he raised both his long arms high and waved towards me and my friend…

He really deserves the title of Captain Fan Service.

When we left, he waved at us while holding his script, memorizing his lines. Since it was my first time meeting him, I went home and just slept but this always comes back in my memories. These photos have been in my phone for so long…kekeke

Sorry for making you read a long passage, but I just wanted to say that him being called Captain Fan Service is really something I agree with very much. If there’s anything else you want to ask, please do so in the feedback section.

From his core, he is really really very warm.

But all us fans know that already.

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So his new name for me is 복지부 장관 (福利部長官) – Captain Fan Service.

CSOI MTL TIDBITS
  • tessa absolutely KILLED creep. she attacked the choreography and performed with so much passion. her movement was NOT robotic or wooden unlike some olympic gold medalists  it was instead so fluid, delicate, graceful but at the same time so INTENSE. her posture, lines, extensions is to DIE for i was literally on the verge of tears throughout the performance.

  • if you were at CSOI MTL and heard someone yell “YAAAAAAAS”, “YAAAAAS QUEEN” YAAAAAS QUEEN TESSA” it was probably me.
  • i think i broke an old dude’s hearing aid (bc i was yelling so loudly)
  • i stfg tessa nuzzled scott’s neck at the end of “into the mystic” i didnt film it because someone already had and my camera is shit so all the photos i took are literally shit.
  • TRY - no offense to W/P but they were eclipsed by tessa and scott in this exhibition. i felt that w/p were always trying to catch up. even my mom (yes i pulled a tessa virtue and brought my mom to csoi whatever man) said that tessa and scott are the better performers & that you cant compare the two and she knows jack shit about figure skating (i stg she called kurt browning “kirk brown”) tessa and scott’s performance was much more passionate and they just simply shone. try was just simply amazing i cant word. tessa and scott are irreplaceable im going to miss them so much :(
  • NO FUCKING JOKE AT THE END OF TRY AFTER TESSA AND SCOTT MOVE TO SEPERATE ENDS OF THE RINK A LITTLE BLONDE GIRL IN BLACK RAN UP TO TESSA. I HAVE IT ON FILM. COULD’VE JUST BEEN A LITTLE FAN WHO JUST WANTED TO SAY HI TO TESSA OR W/E BUT MY MOM AND I ARE CONVINCED IT WAS PART OF THE NUMBER.
  • JBUTT’S SMILE IS ABSOLUTELY HEAVENLY
  • THERE WERE SOO MANY CHIDDY FANGIRLS IN THE AUDIENCE
  • SHAWN FUCKING SAWYER. I WAS LITERALLY DANCING IN MY SEAT DURING MAGDALENA
  • I WAS ALSO DANCING IN MY SEAT DURING KURT’S “THE MASKE"
  • TOP HAT/HEAVEN IS SO MUCH MORE NUANCED THAN IT SEEMS. IM GLAD PCHIDS FINALLY GOT TO ICE DANCE TESSA. IM ALSO GLAD I FINALLY GOT TO WITNESS THEIR NtMiSt (or however you spell it) BECAUSE I WAS SUPPOSED TO WATCH THEM DEBUT THEIR SD LAST YR BUT FELL ILL.
  • DURING INTERMISSION I LITERALLY BOLTED TO THE WASHROOM BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MISS THE LINDT THING. WHEN I CAME OUT THERE WAS A FUCKING HUGE LINEUP HOLY SHIT. THE PLACE WAS PACKED AND THERE WAS TRAFFIC EVERYWHERE.
  • I HAVE THE LINDT THING ON FILM AND BASICALLY SCOTT SAID THAT HE’S EMBARRASSED THAT HE CANT SPEAK FRENCH AND HE DOESN’T FEEL CANADIAN BC OF IT OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. HE ALSO SAID SOMETHING ABOUT HOCKEY (YAAAAAAAS HABS SLAAAAAAAAY DNW BRUINS)
  • JOANNIE SKATED TO THE ENGLISH VERSION OF “DAAAAAAAANSE MON ESMERALDA” I STILL HATE THAT SONG EVEN THO JOANNIE MADE IT A LITTLE BETTER. STILL PREFER THE FRENCH VERSION TO THE ENGLISH. HER OTHER EXHBITION “BANG BANG” IS SO MUCH BETTER SPOILER ALERT: JBUTT GETS “SHOT” AT THE END.
  • EVERYTHING WENT BY SO FAST I HARDLY RMR IT
  • I TOOK A BUNCH OF PICTURES AND VIDEOS BUT MY HANDS WERE SHAKING AND I WAS YELLING SO MUCH I STG I YELLED LOUDER AND HARDER THAN SCOTT MOIR DID DURING THE GOLD MEDAL HOCKEY GAME (THANK BB JESUS I STILL HAVE MY VOICE)
  • LIKE I WAS SCREAMING SO MUCH I FELT SO BAD FOR THE PEOPLE SITTING IN FRONT AND IN BACK OF ME. THIS ONE LITTLE GIRL KEPT LOOKING AT ME BC I WAS SO LOUD BUT WHATEVER THIS IS THE BELL CENTRE NOT A MOVIE THEATRE IM P. SURE IT GETS LOUDER DURING HOCKEY GAMES.
  • scott is so much hotter in person. during the walker i was like “DAMN BOI”. i think i might’ve yelled “YOU’RE SEXY”
  • YOU GUYS IM SO JEALOUS OF EVERYONE GOING TO THE MEET AND GREET. FUCK BEING A POOR UNI STUDENT :(. I WAS GOING TO WAIT IT OUT & SEE IF I COULD CATCH THEM LATER ON BUT ITS RAINING PRETTY HARD HERE
  • i’ll upload the videos/photos later on perhaps tomorow because I have a massive headache BUT I WARN YOU IM TERRIBLY LOUD IN THOSE VIDEOS AND YOU CAN HEAR ME BANTERING AND THE VIDEO IS SHAKING OH GOD I WISH I HAD A STEADICAM. I HAVE LIKE VIDS FROM NATS THAT I HAVENT POSTED BECAUSE IM TOO EMBARRASSED.
  • brb taking an aspirin

I think I’ve been feeling a bit more of a personal connection to this community since It’s Always Monday. The togetherness has honestly brought me to tears, and I know that togetherness is gonna stick to us as we watch Jack play The Last Guardian. I’m gonna be honest: I didn’t understand the hype at first– until the beginning where he said that this was the spiritual successor to Shadow of the Colossus and that storyline! HOLY CRAP!! I already want to draw Trico and Jack with Trico and I love it so much

On a side note, congrats to you, Jackaboy, for going up FRICKIN +12 ON THE FANDOMETRICS THIS YEAR LIKE JESUS BUDDY SLOW DOWN

46th in North America! I was so happy when this picture was taken, words cannot describe. Nans2014 was my first nationals ever! I wasnt even expecting the recall, but standing sidestage during results and still standing there after 50th place was called brought me to tears.. Even injured I managed to place myself in the top 50😍😍 I miss it already! Good luck to everyone else competing! Now, bring on Oireachtas 2014!!! 😘

Credit to Shamrock Photography

4

[x x x]

You sat there with your mind going a mile a minute. Your gaze focused on your entangled fingers with Sam 

What will he think? What will he say? Will he be upset or annoyed?

“Y/N?… Come on, tell me what’s going on.” Sam sat next to you on the couch, his voice quiet and shaky, his hand gripping yours tighter, “Y/N please just—-”

“Sam, please… let me think..” you stressfully ran your free hand through your hair and down your neck

What if he makes me leave? What if he might want her…him? Just say it already!

“Y/N” Sam spoke with a trembling voice that ended with a crack. He wanted to listen to your words, to remain quiet, but he just couldn’t.

“I’m pregnant…” Your eyes brimmed with tears as you brought your gaze to meet his worried features that slowly faded to shock

Oh no… He doesn’t want the baby

“Y-Y/N… You’re Pr-Pre…” Sam couldn’t get the words out before his lips pulled into a ginormous grin of relief, “You’re pregnant” he spoke quietly, more to convince himself it’s true

“You’re not mad?” You asked, taking both his hands in  yours and squeezing tightly

Mad?… Y/N, I could never be mad about something like this. I’m going to be a father, and you’ll be the best mother to this child. I love you to the moon and back Y/N, and I promise I’ll love this baby just as much.”

Your tears fell down your flushed cheeks, but were now flowing with relief and joy. A smile grazed your face as you leaned in for a emotion filled kiss shared with your one and only true love.

He wants this. Us. He wants the baby just as much as I do

I love you, Sam Winchester

That day, you and Sam spent your hours cuddled together under the sheets. His nose rested against the bottom of your neck, feeling his breath in a rhythmic pattern. 

The heat radiated off of Sam’s chest all along your back while his arm wrapped around your waist. His fingers lightly grazed different shapes over your stomach as he planted gentle kisses across your shoulders.

He wants a family.

The Best Thing

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

My first post here! And actually my first fluff too! This was a request from an anonymous who wanted some domestic Bucky. Hope you enjoy it! Feel free to request for something too.
*FLUFF!*
Warnings: none, implied smut


    I was already awake, and the scent of coffee and bacon brought me to life. I sit up and rub my tired eyes. I glanced around my room to see that my husband, Bucky, was gone. Being married to him was something I could only dream about, he was gentle, considerate and the most caring person I’ve met. And no one expected the dangerous, mysterious, and cold Winter Soldier to shed a tear when he saw me walking down the aisle.

 I stood up and slowly walked to our open bedroom door to see what was happening in the kitchen. I saw Bucky standing in front of the counter, his back facing me, frying some bacon and humming to the theme song of one of the Disney movies we watched last night. I love that dork so much. As quietly as I could I snuck up to him and wrapped my arms around his muscular torso and leaned my head against his broad back. I feel the vibrations as he chuckles and places the bacon on a warm plate.

“Morning, beautiful.” He says as he turns around and hugs me back. “Thought I’d go on ahead and make breakfast.” What a darling.

“What did I do to deserve you?” I say, taking the plates of food and moving to the table.

He sat across me and looked at me softly. “You loved me when no one even wanted to be within 10 feet of me.” I giggled at his incredibly cheesy statement, but it was true. Steve and Sam used to be the only two people who liked to be in Bucky’s company.

“Wow Buck, you don’t usually get this cheesy. And you’re welcome, sweetie. Besides, I wouldn’t be here without you either.” I told him before taking a sip of my coffee.

“I love you, darlin’. Don’t forget it.” Bucky cooed, caressing my cheek gently.

“I don’t think that’s possible.”

 
***

“What a bitch.”

I turn my head towards Bucky who was sitting next to me on the couch. “Chill Buck.” I say to him.

“There’s no reason for her to bully Lilo like that.” He grumbled.

Yes, we were watching ‘Lilo & Stitch’ today. He really gets into most movies but I’ve never seen him rage at a fictional character like this before. I move towards him and snuggle into his chest, his metal arm embracing me.

“You do have a lot in common with Lilo though.” I mention. He turns to me, curious. “You both lost things you love. You often don’t get along with the people around you too. But, you both found someone who’s going to love you unconditionally and found a new family in the present.” I was stroking the soft hair on his nape. He closed his eyes, finding my ministrations relaxing.

“Yeah. Plus, I wouldn’t want our future kid to be bullied like that or be the bully themselves.” He raised his left eyebrow and looked at me. I tapped his nose and gave him a peck on the lips.

“You really wanna have kids don’t you?” I pressed my forehead against his and closed my eyes.

“Yeah, I really do.”

“Don’t worry, I do too.” 

He kissed me slowly and paused the movie. His lips moved smoothly and he drew me closer, allowing me to straddle him. His tongue began to move with mine, deliciously swiping across my tongue and my lower lip. I moan into him as he takes the back of my neck and deepens the kiss. He stands up and I wrap my legs around his waist as he takes us to our bedroom. Bucky lays me on the sheets and continues to kiss me. We go under the covers and he looks at me, looking for any sign that wants him to stop. “Are you sure you want this?” He whispers, lowering his head to my neck.

“Definitely.”

 
***

Bucky was out today. I was in our apartment waiting for him to come home. I had a surprise waiting for him as well: a positive pregnancy test. Yeah. I was pregnant. We’ve been trying for a few weeks now and I guess it finally worked. I was extremely excited but I wanted to play it cool until he came home to see his purest reaction. I’ve probably cleaned the apartment several times since I was so nervous.

I hear the door open. Okay, this is it. I smile to myself.

“Babe, I’m home!” It’s Bucky, holy shit this is happening. I see him at the door removing his jacket, gloves and shoes, leaving him in a dark tank top and his pants.

“Hi honey, how was the mission?” I walk to him and wrap my arms around his neck. I notice some bruises on his collarbone and neck. I run my hands over the deep purple bruises. He’s obviously tired.

“It was a success. Got roughed up a bit though but I’m fine.” He kisses me on my forehead and heads to the living room and sits on the couch. “How was your day?” He asks me.

I smile as I stand behind him, massaging his tense shoulders. “Just cleaned the whole day and went shopping for clothes.” What he didn’t know is that they were maternity clothes. He placed his hand on mine.

“Babe I don’t want you working all day. I just want you to relax.” Bucky tells me.

I lean down and kiss him on his cheek. “Don’t worry about me babe. Here, let me get you something to drink.” I say as I walk to the kitchen, knowingly leaving him with the box containing my pregnancy test.

In the kitchen I fill a glass with cold water when I hear Bucky’s voice.
“Babe, what’s in this box?” I didn’t reply. I  walk out of the kitchen without the glass now. I enter the living room and see Bucky standing still, his back facing me again. I was shaking a bit, preparing myself.

He turned around slowly, revealing the test in his hand. His mouth hung open and his eyes were trained on mine.

“Are… are you serious?” He whispers to me. I begin to tear up and began nodding quickly. I watch him carefully as he tears up too and covers his mouth with his hand.

“Really…? Y-you’re-“

“I’m pregnant Buck.” I say happily, tears already running down my cheeks. Before I knew it, I was surrounded in a tight hug. He laid his head on my shoulder, crying. Nothing at this point could ever compare to this moment right now. Bucky kept hugging me, stroking my back.

“Thank you… so much,” He cried happily leaning back and looking at me. “You’re so amazing, I’m so happy. You’re the best thing I’ve ever had.” From this moment, I was sure our lives were going to change for the better.

 
 For the rest of the night, we talked about our plans for the baby. We talked about the room, their possible name, the future aunts and uncles. It was the best night of my life. I could never forget the way Bucky’s eyes lit up when we talked about the baby. I knew he was going to be an amazing father, the way he talked about our baby brought tears to my eyes. We both fell asleep deep into the night, knowing that our lives would never be the same again.


(Requests are welcome!)

LUKE IMAGINE PART 3

PART 2: http://katt5sos.tumblr.com/post/78159274983/imagine-luke-part-2

sorrow washed over me. Questions trying to get in my head. I couldn’t function. I slowly turned my head to Calum as he grabbed my hand and ran down the stairs not even thinking about the elevator. As we got outside Calum called a taxi frantically. I looked at him crying which brought me back to reality. I just lost it

Calum got into the taxi and I followed after. I sat on his lap and nuzzled my head into his chest. We sat in silence as we arrived to the hospital.

Ash and Mikey were already there. I could see the tears on ash tons face but Michael just looked shocked.

We all made our way to the front desk. Michael asked the lady where he was and we were on our way. I couldn’t remember much after that seeing as all I wanted to do was curl up and die.

We arrived at the door to his room, my loves room.

We walked in only to be pushed right out again. All I could hear was yelling from the inside, Screaming things about him not being stabilized. I put my back up to the wall and slid down, I started to sob again. Ashton sat down next to me and slowly put his head on my shoulder. By now we were all sobbing so much the screams from inside were now inaudible. 

Someone had then tapped me on the shoulder. 

“Hello, Im doctor weltch. Do you know what happened to mr. Hemmings?” She asked seriously.

“N-n-no” I sobbed

“Would you like to know?” She said back a little calmer.

I nodded not being able to speak.

“Mr. Hemmings was found in a park by someone who had heard the gunshot 10 miles away, by a swing set, with a gun." 

We all started sobbing even more.

"W-who did it?” Michael quietly asked.

“The suspect is unknown. A possible scenario is suicide”

Luke committing suicide is unthinkable. my heart felt shattered.

“c-can we see him” ashton asked in-between sobs.

“No not right now, we almost lost him he just became stable before I came out and talked to you.” The doctor said

We all nodded. I sat down followed by the rest of the boys. Hours past and they were all asleep. I just sat there thinking about it being my fault. Is it my fault? Ugh. The doctor came out again and told Me we could see him. I jumped up waking the rest of the boys.

We all walked into the room. seeing a broken Luke. Not just physically, I could feel the pain as I walked into the room.

I turned around not being able to see him in this state thats when I saw that head of red hair.

PART 4: http://katt5sos.tumblr.com/post/78434582347/imagine-luke-part-4

A/N: OK SO PART 4????? IDK YET. BUT THIS TOOK A LONG TIME TO WRITE BC I HAD WRITERS BLOCK. MSG ME UR THOUGHTS ON THIS IMAGINE