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Late night anxieties (from a BPD point of view)

Is he thinking of me? Did he really fall asleep when he stopped texting me? Is he annoyed with me? Did I say something wrong? Did I make him mad? Should I apologize? Should I text him? But, will that wake him up?….but what if he’s not really sleeping? What if he was just sick of talking to me? What if he’s laying next to some other girl? What if she’s prettier than me? What if she treats him better than I do? What if she satisfies him more than I do? Fuck him. I’m not apologizing…
But if I don’t, he may never talk to me again. I don’t want that. I can’t lose him. I love him. I hope he doesn’t hate me. I just want to hear from him. I hate when he doesn’t respond to my texts…