think of you

I don’t want to be alone tonight. We don’t have to do anything, and you don't even need to say a single word. But just for tonight…. I need you next to me. I just need you here.
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-If you’re next to me, it’ll be easier to get through.

-m.t.t.

You collect “I miss you” messages from people like trophies. This is why I’ll never send you one. But all the I miss yous trapped in me are bursting at the seams. So I write ‘I miss you’ on walls, type it on paper, say it to people I don’t care about and the words always come back to me knowing they belong only to you. The words angrily come back and wrap itself around my throat and my heart and it suffocates me.
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What I’ll never say to you.

I miss you.
You win again. You always win.