think about the bubbles

when I was younger and I wrote a lot, I used to bring a notebook with my everywhere I went.

I would sit in places that had a lot of people like parks, cafés, my school, the airport, and I’d just watch people

I’d write down little quirks that I saw and liked

like they way the boy across from me would take exactly 5 sips of his coffee before he’d put it down again

or the way the girl ordering her drink from the barista would tap her fingers against her thigh with each syllable she spoke

I’d watch for little things like that, things that someone who was in love would find endearing. just in case I ever wrote a story about someone falling in love.

I looked for all those things in other people and never stopped to think about little things I did.

I never found any of the little weird things I did cute or lovable. I just found them weird.

so I just wanna remind everyone, mostly myself, that if you’re always looking for good in others, make sure you look for the good in you as well

because there’s a lot of it but we don’t always see it

maybe there’s a random person at a coffee shop thinking that the way you trace your fingers over the pictures in the book you’re reading is cute and they’re writing it down. wanting to put a piece of you into a character they’re going to spend a lot of their love creating.

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Yeah, Rose “Always Did What She Wanted” Quartz wasn’t stubborn at all

Steven’s Mental Health in Season 4...

…and why he didn’t save the Rubies, unbubble Bismuth, or confront his feelings about Jasper.

Because there is a reason, brought to light by the events of I Am My Mom, and it fits rather well with Steven’s character as of late.

Throughout Mindful, he doesn’t want to think about what he’s gone through because his personal trauma from it is just too great. But then it all comes crashing down at the end, and he forces himself to confront it, right?

Well no, actually. At the end of the episode, Stevonnie just lands in the field and smiles at the sky. At the time, I criticized this for being a quick resolution, but now I realize that that was never a resolution at all: It was just Steven burying his emotional problems even deeper so that not even Stevonnie could be affected by them.

That’s why he doesn’t immediately go to make amends with Bismuth or Jasper or Eyeball: The traumatic stress he associates with their encounters override any sense of empathy he has towards them, and he subconsciously tries to forget so he doesn’t feel that guilt and can just go back to the way things were before (much like a certain singing Diamond he’s heard so much about…)

I think that once Steven’s mental state improves, he’ll consciously try to make amends.

Take a look at the next time Steven’s issues came to a boil, Steven’s Dream: This time, all it takes is a simple question from Steven and a panicked outburst from Garnet to drive Steven into an angry rant about “everyone lying” to him. The problems from Mindful were still eating away at Steven, he probably just didn’t realize it because he was pretty much avoiding those thoughts altogether, and for a while, it was working.

So, Steven goes to Korea, Greg gets kidnapped, and now Steven has a whole new set of things to be guilty over. No matter how justified his actions might have been, Steven’s biggest character flaw is his guilt complex, so he inherently feels responsibility for what happened. (And this isn’t recent, we saw a glimpse of it in Message Received when he blamed himself for Peridot’s supposed betrayal)

However, in the episode Steven’s just too busy worrying about his dad to hear “Oh Steven we’re so sorry” and he rushes them into space. They run into the Rubies and Steven does say “We’ll pick them up on the way back” but pay attention to his tone of voice: It doesn’t sound like he’s saying “Oh no they’re out here we have to save them,” he’s saying “Yeah yeah those guys yeah let’s get back to work and save dad okay” because Steven wasn’t exactly in the best emotional state at the time. I can completely understand his subconscious just NOT wanting to think about the Rubies at all because the events of Bubbled leaving a lingering negative connotation.

After Steven gets back, he’s forced to confront his demons yet again in Storm in the Room, but hey! Everything’s fine in the end because Greg got pizza and it’s all smiles…

Until we get to Lion 4 and he’s right back in the thick of an existential crisis. Sure, he gets a talk with Greg and this is resolved in the end…but is it?

Because by the end of that very week, Steven is giving himself up to be executed in his mother’s place. And all it took was a small mistake he made long ago, and a scenario in which there were no other immediate options.

So, to answer the question of why Steven supposedly let others suffer throughout season 4, it’s because he is suffering himself. He’s been wallowing in it all season, and he hasn’t done anything substantial about it because in his mind that’ll just make things worse and make himself a burden to others. I mean, look at what happened every time his true feelings rose to the surface:

- Mindful Education: Connie almost fell to her death.

- Steven’s Dream: Greg got kidnapped.

These were things that were resolved in the immediate, sure, but long-term? Steven doesn’t want anyone to get hurt, and he’s been indirectly led to believe that by confronting his problems, he’ll just cause others harm.

So we get to I Am My Mom, and he’s given a way out: Sure, he *thinks* he’s doing it to save the Earth and his friends, but subconsciously he’s doing it because it’s his ticket out of the mess he’s been stuck living in for the past four seasons.

The takeaway I get from Season 4 is that Steven’s emotional issues are much bigger than anyone could suspect, and that a million “Sorry’s,” “It’s not your fault’s,” fusion therapy sessions, and sweet words & smiles can only help him so far.

This isn’t the season of Steven letting people suffer for no reason; It’s the season of Steven suffering himself without anyone taking enough notice to do anything, to the point where he inadvertently lets people suffer out of his own desire to not make things worse.

“Don’t worry,” Greg & the Gems probably told themselves after Bubbled, Mindful Education, and the Zoo arc, “Steven’s fine now. See? He’s happy, he must be fine. We told him it was alright, he must be fine. If there was something wrong, we would know about it. He’s doing fine.”

Well he wasn’t.

Concept:

It’s mid afternoon. The tower of bubbles that Stiles has been constructing on Derek’s knee wobbles precariously as the werewolf shifts, water sluicing dangerously towards the lip of the bathtub. The room smells like lavender and bergamot essential oils, and Derek’s tanned skin is flushed with steam and the heat of the water. It’s barely big enough for the both of them in the tub, but Stiles would rather die than give any of this up– the bubbles, the perfumed air, and the soft smile on Derek’s face as he lays more fully against Stiles’ chest. He noses at the soft hair behind Derek’s ear and sighs happily. Life is good.

You Smiled by @taggiecb with art from @londonfoginacup

It’s 1758, and on the eve of a battle with the French, Captain Harry Styles of the British army has just begun his appointment as a prison warden in Louisbourgh, Nova Scotia. Harry prepares himself and his guards for their prisoners of war, but nothing could have prepared him for the sight of the most beautiful man he has ever seen–who is now his prisoner.

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Just then, the man looks up, and catches Harry’s eye. Harry freezes, feeling as though he’s the one trapped. The man doesn’t smile, just watches Harry watch him, until finally he lifts his eyebrows in question, and Harry somehow manages to release himself from the spell that he feels he’s under.

Coming soon to @1dreversebang.

cute flustered nerds

Bubblegum will never not be annoyed that Zigzag is so much taller than her lmao

I’VE WANTED TO DRAW THESE TWO TOGETHER FOR…. A LONG WHILE NOW. I mean, I’ve done it before, but now that they’ve actually interacted I have a BETTER GRIP ON IT I THINK. They’re just…. They’re cute ok…..

[Zigzag belongs to @alainaprana!!]
[Bubblegum belongs to me!!]

MOTEL AND SUMMER NIGHTS ੭ JUNGKOOK

Contains : enemies to lovers, writer!jungkook, reader being kind of a bitch ?, angst, SMUT !

Group :
BTS

Member :
Jungkook/Jeon Jungkook

Words : + 8,3k

Summary : After a highschool reunion where you got to see your old classmates in your hometown, a storm forces you to stop at the motel. You’re already wet and pretty pissed by the situation, but it gets worse when there’s only one room left for you, and your old enemie, Jeon Jungkook.

Originally posted by bestteamofsoulmates

A/N : guess who’s back ! a huge thank you to fairyflosseung for proofreading this, also the address is totally random, i have no idea if it’s real and where it is omg


“There’s no fucking way, no fucking way.”, you repeated, angrily running your hand in your wet hair. 

“I’m sorry, Miss. But that’s the only solution.”, quietly said the girl behind the counter, nervously biting her lip. And in another situation, you would probably feel so bad about making her so anxious but your anger was blinding you from feeling anything else than pure rage. Rubbing under your eyes to wipe away any mascara running down your face, you leaned on the counter, hands flat on the cold wood as you tried to stop them from trembling so much.

“Are you sure ?”, you asked, desperate eyes looking behind the rather young girl. She was wearing a blue button up, nothing indicating her name, her hair up in a tight ponytail. Maybe it was the fact that you were slightly screaming at her or the fact that it was already late, but she looked completely taken back by the situation. You sighed as you saw that they were only one key left hanging on the brown board, ready to ask her if she could find any other solution, but she spoke before you. 

“There’s nothing I can do, Miss.” 

You looked at her once again, desperate eyes silently begging her. 

“Fucking move already.”, a voice said, and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes as you immediately knew who the voice belonged to. You felt a rough hand push your shoulder, the force making you move a few steps to the side as the man took your place in front of the girl. An outraged gasp left your lips as you looked up, rage bubbling in your stomach, your jaw tight.

“I’ll take the room.”, he said, and you hated how his voice immediately changed, from an arrogant tone spitting poison to a sweet voice that he would use to get what he wanted. 

Pausing his credit card on the counter, the girl turned around to grab the black key before you started speaking again. 

“What the fuck, I’m sleeping in the last room.”, you spitted, quickly finding your wallet, slapping a few bills on the wood.

The blonde turned around, holding the key in her small hand, her eyes going from the man offering her a sweet smile and you, desperate eyes and gritted teeth.

“I’m not sleeping in my car.”, quietly said Jungkook, finally looking at you. Hair flat on his forehead, a few droplets falling on the floor, his clothes were as soaked as yours, his shirt tight against his body, sticking to the curves of his torso.

Looking at him, you asked yourself how miserable you looked, your dress wet with the rain, makeup running down your face, hair surely waving with the water. 
“I’m not sleeping in my car either.”, you breathed, looking at him up and down, before giving a look at the window. Water beating the glass, leaving the blurry image of the storm going on outside, the few trees outside arching their branches under the strong wind.

You really couldn’t sleep in your car, it was too dangerous. The wind and rain were only growing stronger, the water gathering in the small parking lot. If you didn’t want to sleep in the centre of this mess, you had to take the room. 

“If that’s the only solution.”, you breathed, giving up. You really didn’t want to sleep in the same room as Jungkook, but you had to. The man rolled his eyes, sliding his card towards the girl. 

“You’re paying for half of it.”, he indicated before quickly taping his password on the machine. 

“What a gentleman.”, you said, your eyes throwing daggers at him as you gave the girl the rest of the money for the room. 

“Because you thought that I would let you sleep in the room that I fully payed for ? I know it’s the apocalypse outside but I’m not an angel, even if I look like one.”, he said, the smile you hated so much stretching his lips. And god knew that if you could, you would take your car and find another motel, if only you could.

 

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Wings of Butterflies

A/N: Adele believes in trilogies, I believe in pentalogies. This is the fifth and final installment to Rotation (I mean it this time). 

// Another Man’s Treasure // Mind on a Mission // Take the Lead // Worth the Pain //


Who knew the South of France could be boring?

Neither the wine nor the men, either the beaches or the crystal clear water could interest you. Your family knew something was up with you, your brother even attempting a heart-to-heart one night to pry deep into the corners of your mind to understand why you weren’t your happy, bubbly self. Even Harry’s family had taken notice, his sister struggling to get more than three word answers from you, either via text or in person, over the last few months.

But you stayed mum. You hadn’t much to say anyway. You’d done a lot of growing, a lot of thinking, since Harry had left you all alone.

If life were divided into chapters, the night he came round and the morning he left made for a very distinct Ending and Beginning.

Harry hadn’t been able to ignore you for much longer than a week. Not because of your persistence—no, you hadn’t reached out to him again since the day he all but vanished from your bed—but because guilt kept gnawing at his conscious every time he looked at his phone. He’d read all the texts—and saved them, too—stared at the missed call notifications, but he hadn’t brought himself to listen to the voicemail you’d left late that evening. He hadn’t mustered up the courage, and he was disgusted with himself for it.

So, with a deep breath, he listened to the message. Better a week late than never, right?

You were crying; well, sobbing was more accurate. You didn’t say anything at first, probably not realizing the recording had clicked on as you choked in search of air. Once you settled down, you laid into him with a few choice words—all of which he agreed with—but it wasn’t the name calling that stuck with him or the way you hoped to never see him again that plagued him with regret. It was your final word, your final question, that haunted him.

Why?

Because there were a million reasons why and none of them excused him for being such a dickhead. And that made him angry, very angry, because there weren’t many situations he found himself completely lost in, unable to navigate the waters, yet here he was drowning in your tears without a buoy or damn life preserver in sight.

So he called.

And, despite being in the library studying for an exam, you answered. You hesitated at first, the stitches holding together your heart pulling at the seams with the sight of his name and his face across your screen, but answered nonetheless.

“Hello?”

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“Caught Up” (Yugyeom Smut)

Originally posted by wonshu

Title: Caught Up

Featuring: Yugyeom (GOT7) X Noona Reader

POV: 2nd

Rating: NC-17

Summary: After giving Yugyeom an eyeful of your slinky undergarments, you use the incident as fodder to tease him, but the tease might have gone too far this time.

Requested by anon! I don’t know why it took me so long to finish this, but here we go!


“Noooona.”

That sing-songy voice rang out across the room and sent a cringe through your body. You absolutely hated when Yugyeom called you that, even though it was accurate. You were older than him, sure, but he had a way of teasing you about it that dug at you. You wanted to wipe that stupid smirk off his face when he said it.

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What Dany wanted she could not begin to say, but Jorah’s kiss had woken something in her, something that had been sleeping since Khal Drogo died. Lying abed in her narrow bunk, she found herself wondering how it would be to have a man squeezed in beside her in place of her handmaid, and the thought was more exciting than it should have been. Sometimes she would close her eyes and dream of him, but it was never Jorah Mormont she dreamed of; her lover was always younger and more comely, though his face remained a shifting shadow.

do you ever think about how gay you are and then get this really bubbly happy feeling in your chest where it’s kind of hard to breathe because you’re just so happy that you get to like girls??

let your hair down [ Sirius Black x Ravenclaw!Reader]

request for a Sirius x Ravenclaw!Reader fic that involves Quidditch, parties, bickering, and a little somethin’-somethin’ at the end.

warnings: smut, cursing. likely nsfw.

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*ACOWAR SPOILERS*

Anyway Moriel shippers whining about Mor being gay can suck my dick lol.

Is it probably tokenism? Yes. Is it probably going to be lazy, last minute representation? Yes. Do any of you homophobes using these things for your complaints actually fucking give a shit about whether or not it’s tokenism? No! You’re just homophobic, so stop pretending like you actually care about the quality of gay representation!

I can’t believe some of you actually have the audacity to to say shit like “this is coming out of nowhere” and “Mor just doesn’t SEEM like she’s gay” and “but poor Azriel!” and “but I wanted Moriel to happen!” and “I’m not saying I don’t want representation, I just don’t think it should be Mor.”

First of all, if you’re straight (and most of the people complaining here are) how DARE you say anything about Mor “seeming gay” or not. How DARE you. What the actual fuck could you possibly know about it. Nothing. You could know nothing.

Second of all, of COURSE you don’t think it should be Mor. You CARE about Mor. Mor is beautiful, bubbly, funny, smart, outgoing. Her storyline is important to the main plot. She’s survived tragedy and emerged triumphant. You relate to her. And most of all, you want her to get together with a male character. And for her to be GAY? Oh no! Now this is ruined for you. Now she’s not perfect anymore. God forbid gay people have a gay character with positive traits they can look up to and relate to in a series. God forbid ONE character out of a TON of straights had to be made gay and now you can’t relate anymore.

I’ve seen multiple people say “I like the representation, but I thought Mor should be with Azriel and Amren should be gay. Why couldn’t it be Amren?” This. Is VERY telling. Amren is described as not overly beautiful, she has a more abrasive personality, and most importantly, she doesn’t seem interested in any kind of romantic relationship. At all. Her being gay would not get in the way of ANY of your straight romances/ships/plots. It probably would’t even be brought up a lot, because it’s doubtful she’d even be with someone. So people saying that Amren would have been a better candidate feels very much like “Ugh, the gays can HAVE that weird freak Amren, but it’s not fair they get that pretty girl! How can MOR be gay?? What about the boy I want as her boyfriend?”

So many people are shielding themselves from being called homophobic by saying “I want a character to be LGBT! I want there to be representation for LGBT! (Just not THIS character)” Well that’s bullshit, first of all because the way you say “LGBT” instead of “LGBT characters” or “gay characters” kinda reveals the way you view representation as some nebulous kind of check-the-box category to get over with instead something actually important, and second of all because the “LGBT representation” that you’re “all for” is a very specific kind of representation. It’s the kind that isn’t really representation at all.

You’re “all for LGBT rep,” but you never actually want characters you LIKE to be gay. You never want the characters you ship in straight relationships to turn out gay. You want the ugly characters, the evil characters (who are going to die anyway), the characters who never end up in relationships, (and the “smol bean xD” men who you fetishize and ship with other men, but that’s another issue) to turn out gay. That way you can pat yourself on the back for how good and diverse your series is while continuing to enjoy the main straight characters in their straight relationships. That way you’re never forced to invest in the humanity of gay people and their stories, because their “stories” are just a casual mention of their sexuality, or a side plot so tiny it might as well not exist (like in tog).

And as for “poor Azriel!” do I really have to tell you why that’s fucking dumb? I guess it’s not uncommon in this fandom to always prioritize men over women (re: “poor Rhysand when Feyre had to sleep with her abuser that must have been so hard for HIM!!”), but still. Listen to yourself.

On top of all of this, I find it pretty funny (I don’t. I don’t find it funny. At all. None of this is funny it makes me want to vomit) that straight people are throwing a tantrum and acting like it’s the worst thing ever that a ship they were passionate about couldn’t work out because of the characters’ sexualities. HAHAHAHAHAHA! The irony of it, honestly, and the fact that none of you realize it… wow. Do y’all. Have any idea. How many times that happens to gay readers? On a REGULAR basis?? The two characters are similar. Have good chemistry. Interact in a way that hints at a relationship. Would be perfect together. You care about them, you grow invested. And just when you think they might be endgame… oops! They’re straight, and they can’t be together. I don’t have an ounce of pity for people saying that they’re SO upset by this because they were in love with the ship and now it can’t happen because of sexuality. This is our LIFE. It happened to you one fucking time, and the relationship wasn’t even that developed; somehow I think you’ll be okay.

To sum it up, when I hear people complaining about Mor being gay because they thought she should be with Azriel, literally all I hear is “wait but gay people are fine only as long as they don’t get in the way of straight ships and characters :( why can’t they stay on the fringes of the plot where they belong and leave us straights alone :( we used to have 100% of the characters and plot and now we only have 99% :( life is so hard :(“

It’s honestly just really disheartening to see straight people responding so nastily to this, especially when this is just a tiny drop of real representation. Mor’s sexuality might not end up being well done in the book, but there are a lot of gay and bi girls who read these books and this could genuinely make a difference to them. And THAT will ALWAYS be more important than the success of a straight ship, especially in a series in which there is absolutely NO shortage of straight ships and characters. Go pick two of the other 10,000 straight characters to ship and leave us alone.