[PLS BEAR WITH ME, this is an OC drabble so you can ignore this POST IM SORRY, so yeah little drabble under the cut to go with this drawing, TL;DR: Jack is the one that finds Daniel in the abandoned Talon laboratory]
(Okay, this has no purpose at all, and I doubt you guys would even care, but I think you have a right to know what’s been going on with me)
So I’ve been saying in the author’s notes of my fanfiction that something was bad, but then it got better.
I’m here to tell you what was bad and how it got better.
So you know that sweepstakes that Smosh had, for tickets to the live show and all that?
Yeah, I entered that.
And I won.
But I was being an idiot and didn’t check until it was too late, and they had already contacted another potential winner.
For an entire day, I beat myself up. If I had checked literally six hours before I did, I would have won (I live far away from LA, and I doubt I will ever have the money to travel there).
If they didn’t even comment on my post saying I won, I would have been fine. But the fact that I had the chance but lost it, that’s what made it horrible. If I had won, I would have crossed three things off my bucket list.
But then, the day after I found out I had lost the chance, they emailed me saying that the other person they had contacted declined, and a few legal documents later, I can say…
I’M GOING TO LA!
I’M GOING TO THE LIVE SHOW!
I M G O I N G T O S E E M Y P R E C I O U S L I T T L E C U P C A K E S I N R E A L L I F E!!!
The trip is August 25-27, and I get tickets to the live show, a two night stay at a hotel, airplane tickets, and (possibly, this part was kind of unclear) a Smosh gift bag (and maybe a meet and greet with Ian and Anthony but that was also unclear).
I don’t want you to think I’m bragging or whatever, I’m just super excited, and wanted to share this with you!
I will take all of the pictures on this trip and share them with you guys.
tl;dr or tl;dc: I won a sweepstakes and I’m gonna go to the Smosh live show. I’m also freaking out. Yeah ok bye.
Based on hundreds of interviews and more than 3,500 previously classified government documents, this a compelling account of the shocking 20-year relationship between the United States and the Marcos regime of the Philippines. [Summary from: Google Books]
BOOKS OF THE TIMES By Christopher Lehmann-Haupt Published: May 14, 1987
“WHY?” asks Raymond Bonner at the end of “Waltzing With a Dictator,” his shocking and newsworthy report on America’s 20-year relationship with Ferdinand E. Marcos, the former President of the Philippines, and his wife, Imelda. He writes: “One word has propelled this book. Why? It became the question I asked over and over again, until it became monotonous to hear myself; it was the question that was etched in my mind as I wrote. Why? To expand: Why is it that the United States so often supports dictators?”
This seems an odd admission, because you would think that if there were a single word that motivated an investigative reporter of Mr. Bonner’s evident skill, that word would be what, not why. To dilate: What is it that happens in the relations between America and the third world leaders we choose to support?
Certainly in this book Mr. Bonner - a lawyer and former correspondent for The New York Times in Central America whose previous book was “Weakness and Deceit: U.S. Policy and El Salvador” - has answered the question “What happens?” with a thoroughness and conviction not often achieved in foreign reporting. Based on dozens of interviews, many of them, according to him, too sensitive to permit their sources to be identified, as well as a reading of more than 3,000 previously classified United States Government documents, “Waltzing With a Dictator” has already demonstrated the unusual nature of its information by attracting the attention of newspapers.
News stories have reported many of Mr. Bonner’s disclosures, most strikingly that, contrary to official assertions at the time, the United States Embassy in Manila knew that President Marcos was about to declare martial law in 1972 and did not act to stop him. Moreover, Mr. Marcos was informed by the United States Ambassador to the Philippines that Washington would back him if martial law was required to put down what was then a tiny Communist insurgency.
And gossip columns have divulged the book’s revelations of how Imelda Marcos courted and influenced the most powerful people in Washington, how she turned New York City into her own personal shopping mall and how, despite the Marcoses’ reported dependence on Washington for their power, Mrs. Marcos visited and praised such leaders as Aleksei N. Kosygin of the Soviet Union, Fidel Castro and Muammar el-Qaddafi of Libya.
Still, for all the extraordinary answers it provides to the question “What happened?” Mr. Bonner’s book does not have the tone of objective journalism. Its language conveys a sense of passionate outrage that clearly begs the questions “Why?” and “How could this have happened?”
“Democracy mugged, the stage was set for Ferdinand and Imelda Marcos, for their conjugal dictatorship,” the author writes after his opening account of how the Central Intelligence Agency received and passed on the news of Mr. Marcos’s impending declaration of martial law. “It was a stage they had calculatingly designed. They were driven by what seemed to be a modern-day third world version of the divine right of kings. He wanted the power to rule, forever and ever. She was obsessed with society and money, with accumulating - possessions and people.”
Indeed, the author’s passion is so obvious that it makes the reader suspicious of a hidden ideological agenda and ultimately makes all the more impressive the extent to which he overwhelms one with the detail of his evidence.
So why did the United States support Ferdinand and Imelda Marcos? How could we have done so if, as Mr. Bonner asserts, they were so blatantly corrupt and malign that they had to work against whatever hopes we could possibly invest in them?
Mr. Bonner proposes many answers to these questions. George F. Kennan “set the course for American policy toward” the Philippines when he argued in the early 1940’s that we should dispense with altruism and simply insure in the face of Communism’s threat that the Philippines “remain in hands we can control or rely on.” Later cold warriors saw Mr. Marcos as someone we could count as a bulwark against Communist insurgency.
The Pentagon, he argues, saw the Marcoses as assurance of military security in the South Pacific, a guarantee that we could cheaply maintain our bases in the Philippines. Businessmen saw them as a source of profit. People who needed flattery found in them balm for their egos.
But in the very process of proposing these answers, Mr. Bonner shoots them to pieces. Under Mr. Marcos’s presidency, he argues, the Communist threat grew from relative insignificance to a force that not even his eventual ouster could mitigate. Under Mr. Marcos, the author insists, the question of military bases deteriorated from a debatable strategic issue into an item of blackmail that we should have had the sense to ignore. Under Mr. Marcos, free enterprise declined into something less profitable and more corrupt even than Communist state capitalism. Under Mr. Marcos, he concludes, the Philippines became a grotesque parody of the nightmare that President Reagan has been trying to wake up from in Nicaragua.
So at the end of “Waltzing With a Dictator” we are still left wondering “Why?” and the power of Mr. Bonner’s portrait only serves to increase the mystery of the answer. How could we have been so blind to such massive corruption? Was it stupidity? Greed? Vanity? Conspiracy? An exercise in reverse bigotry? The inflexibility of our system? In the end, Mr. Bonner’s remarkable book fails to confront the most pressing question of all. Paradoxically, by so forcefully answering the question “What happened?” he only increases the mystery of “Why?”
Instead of describing his book as an attempt to answer the question “Why is it that the United States so often supports dictators?” perhaps he should have concluded: Now that I’ve shown how the United States supports dictators, it remains for political scientists, philosophers and wise men to answer the question “Why?”
1. What language, besides your native language, would you like to learn/be fluent in? I wish to be fluent in the languages, I used to learn in school, like French and Spanish - I forgot so much again. I too would love to speak better Japanese, since it’s very little and broken. Not least I’m also interested in the Scandinavian languages like Swedish or Danish - it wouldn’t be too hard to learn, since I already understand quite some words due to being German.
2. How many pairs of shoes do you have? Quite a lot I think, between 15 and 20. I have some heels, sneakers, winter shoes and also still two pairs of soccer shoes.
3. What’s the last compliment you got? That I’m pretty hardcore xD
4. What’s your favourite quote at the moment? ‘I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul.’
5. What does your name mean? ‘Butterfly’ if I’m not mistaken :3
6. Music taste? I feel very comfortable with everything rock, metal and all the genres inbetween, but I too like alternative music, even some pop a little - at the end of the day, it’s not about the genre, it’s simply about if I like it.
7. Do you have any other SM (social media) sites? If so, link them and what is your favourite? I have instagram, my twitter is dead so no need to link it and also a Facebook, that is not very much of importance either.
8. What is your favourite food? I couldn’t decide - food is life.
9. Age? 19
10. Birthday? July 29th (oh shit)
11. Favourite drink? I like all sorts of tea, may it be hot or cold. I too enjoy drinking a coke or soda every now and then, but mostly it’s just water.
12. How many siblings do you have? A brother, he’s almost 2 years older than me.
13. Current drama? I was really stressed out about things involving the apartment I will share with my best friend, but it has been solved until now. It’s just the usual stuff xD
14. If you were a pokemon, what would you be called and what would you look like? I would want to be a catlike pokémon or alternatively one that looks like a wolf - both is pretty cool. As for the name, I have no idea and it’s already a challenge for me to come up with a tumblr url or something.
15. Cats or dogs? I like both, but have a tendency to cats.
16. Do you have freckles? I have, on my nose and upper cheeks - they have gotten more <.<’.
17. Who is your style crush? Eh, I just know that I enjoy seeing her (x) on instagram and getting inspired.
18. Favourite candle scent or scent in general? I like light and fresh scents like apple or orange. I also have a candle at home that is a mix of lavender and vanilla - it’s surprisingly not too heavy. I just enjoy all sorts of scents: paper, freshly backed dough, flowers, cut grass, summer rain, …
19. Do you have any weird obsessions? If so, what and why? I Maybe my obsession with Ghost is a bit weird, because I never had so strong feelings about a band, haha.
20. Do you still watch cartoons? I’m always down for watching Spongebob (the old episodes at least), Avatar: The Last Airbender (you could almost call it an Anime tho), Simpsons,… so yes.
21. Do you like wearing slippers? I am in Japan, I have to like wearing them xD
22. Shark diving, bungee jumping, or sky diving? I prefer shark diving from these three. I am fascinated by them and it’s not fair how much they are demonized by the media.
23. What are your favourite clothing stores? Second hand shops are really cool - apart from that, it’s the usual like Forever 21 for example. I don’t like online shopping too much, though.
24. What is your favourite ice cream flavour? Well, if I dare to eat ice cream, I love yogurt, chocolate and coconut flavour.
25. Do you have any phobias? I definitely have a tendency to claustrophobia.
26. What is your wardrobe colour scheme? Black, white, green and blue - but generally quite dark.
27. Tea or coffee? Tea for sure.
28. Favourite clothing item? I love dresses.
29. What would your dream bedroom look like? A huge ass bed with a huge ass window on the opposite side, preferably with a nice view. I just want to have lots of space and that the whole atmosphere is comfy.
30. What were your best childhood TV shows? I watched Tom & Jerry, Spongebob, Jimmy Neutron, Drake & Josh (favvv), Avatar: The Last Airbender, all sorts of Animes like Pokémon, Digimon, Yu-Gi-Oh, Sailor Moon, Inuyash and I would watch pretty much all of them by given chance haha xD. Speaking of the best one with good memories would probably be Stan & Ollie: my family and I, we watched it a lot at New Years Eve before it was midnight. I really like to think back to that time.
31. What do you always have on you? Probably my phone and purse.
32. What is the current temperature outside right now? 29 degrees Celsius