When things get hard to deal with or unexpected semi-unpleasant things happen sometimes I panic. I wonder if life will be the same. The answer is no. Everything is always changing. All you can do is care for yourself and the ones who have your best interest and well being at heart.
I have come so far since 1994👅
I remember the way I used to be, and think, and the way I felt about myself sometimes. There were times where I was sure I was made to make a huge mark on the world. And then there were times where I could not even imagine tomorrow happening. Everything stood still. Nothing was really “real”, but bleak and lifeless and meaningless. It’s like a bad dream when I feel that way.
I am happy I have not succumbed to those thoughts and emotions yet. I have made it past so many dark points in my life. I think sometimes I make things a lot harder than they need to be and end up forgetting what is best for me.