things that happen

deancas, coda, 14.02

It’ll hurt, Cas tells him softly. It’s not easy doing this.

Dean nods. Dean nods, but his eyes are fierce with determination and Cas smiles fondly, because this is who Dean is. He isn’t surprised when he hears the words: 

“Cas…get in my head.”

Around them, Sam and Mary and Bobby crowd around the table, but when Cas places his hands on Dean, Sam coughs and excuses himself. We don’t need to see this, Sam says and the others agree and trickle out the door. Maybe they’re tired of seeing Dean in pain, like Cas is tired of it, or maybe because ever since Dean came back, Cas hasn’t had a moment alone with him and Sam understands that.

Either way, Cas is grateful.

Dean shifts in his chair, and Cas places his hands on Dean’s shoulders, lets his hands linger up his neck to his head. He rests his hand on Dean’s cheek, and Dean turns his face, seeking the touch as if starved, and presses a kiss to Cas’ palm.

I missed you, Dean says.

Cas says, “Me, too.”

Clutching Dean’s shoulder with one hand, Cas delves into Dean’s mind.

Dean doesn’t scream. Most do, but Cas is as gentle as he can be, and while a whimper escapes his lips, he stays quiet otherwise. Cas rushes through memories—of Dean’s childhood, of broken dreams and hopes, of hell. Cas is afraid to push on, doesn’t want to see Michael lurking among the trees in purgatory, in places where Dean prayed each night, places where Cas did not dare answer him. 

When it’s done, Dean pants and Cas places both hands on his head again, holds him steady, and Dean stays there a while, eyes closed.

“Your hand print,” he says and he looks down at his shoulder. It’s not the same side, Cas knows, but with relief nonetheless, Dean says, “You put it back.”

Cas nods, grits his teeth and feels his whole body buzzing.  

“If he is in there,” Cas growls, now he knows that he cannot have you.

(s14codas) 

oH BEFORE I FORGET

WHICH ONE YOU MAGIC BEANS BOUGHT A T-SHIRT???

whoever you are, when that shirt arrives, you are officially the ONLY HUMAN IN EXISTENCE to own almaasi Destiel-fic merch. congrats. and thanK YOU SO FREAKING MUCH.

this was the shirt in question:

it’s the t-shirt from Cas’ old punk band, which he gives to Dean to wear in my fic The House That Wanted to Be a Garden. the rabbit and the band both go by the name of Punchin’ Munchkin. and THERE IS NOW A T-SHIRT BEING MADE SOMEWHERE ON THIS PLANET WITH ART I DREW THAT REPS A BAND FROM A DESTIEL STORY I WROTE

HOW UNBELIEVABLY COOL IS THAT

dear t-shirt buying human: I hope you love your shirt and it fits perfectly and you can go around secretly wearing Destiel fanart and never have to explain it to anyone unless you want to. may you always feel confident and powerful while wearing this shirt, and may all the good things happen to you.

<3 <3 <3

fic link: The House That Wanted to Be a Garden (32k)

 t-shirts!!  or mugs or notebooks or stickers!!!!

(there’s also a collection of general SPN stickers I designed!!)

or support me on patreon / buy me coffee WHATEVER YOU LIKE!!! I LOVE YOU ALL REGARDLESS

here’s aLL MY DESTIEL FICS IN A TUMBLR FIC REC

HERE’S ALL MY FICS ON AO3

Y’ALL MAKE MY LIFE FEEL WILD SOMETIMES !!!

LIKE!!! TODAY I SOLD ONE (1) T-SHIRT

I’VE NEVER SOLD A T-SHIRT BEFORE THIS IS FLIPPIN GREAT 10/10 LIFE IS GOOD

Welp… that is kinda sad lol

Please, PLEASE I beg you if you like something, please reblog it and share it with people that may like it too

This like/reblog ratio,at least personally, is getting pretty bad but I have a feeling it isn’t just me

Share all of the art ٩(^ᴗ^)۶

why skamit wanna spoil ep3 so much when literally it’s when everything starts brewing and shit is starting to go down i know i sound like a hypocrite for saying this cause clearly i know what happens but them showing new clips takes away from the whole experience skam is known for and is just yikessss :((((

You know the painful thing about the ao3 discourse is that there could really be some valid good discussions to be had, but with all the passive aggressive sarcasm and kids who don’t even know what they’re on about it’s really fucking hard and honestly that’s just the case for every goddamn thing on this site I’m so tired

Teachers in school: When you go to law school, things aren’t going to be as easy and chill as they are now! The professors take their job’s very seriously.

My US common law professor: *with a paper plane in his hand* This is the airplane of knowledge. I am too lazy to pick one of you to answer, so whoever gets hit by the airplane of knowledge is going to answer the question.

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when the person you like doesn’t realize how gREaT ThEY ArE

I’m pretty sure he doesn’t have a Tumblr. Hopefully he never sees thissss

Here’s thing #1 of Taco and Corn, a stupid webcomic about random things that happen to me which I hope to do when I have no other things to do

Enjoy!

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I saw Venom yesterday and had to get these out of my system.