things that make me hate people

The misuse of astrology really goes to show how people will easily throw their common sense away to escape their problems. You’ve seen it all the time. Fatalistic and defeatist tendencies. Generalization of the signs. Generalizations of compatibility. It’s a natural thing for everyone really, and it makes me wonder about the workings of human nature.

Do humans really just hate to coexist with everything in the world around them because it’s so uncomfortable? It makes sense… We all have a Sun within us. An identity, an ego. Something that exists to highlight not only our beautiful uniqueness, but also our want to stay that way by refusing to coexist yet we create idealistic social norms and societies. It’s scary to express yourself with a possibility of consequence, so we create norms with the intention that we won’t express ourselves at all, but you’ve seen some manifestations of this. War. Conflict. Arguments… all with the purpose to maintain the self, which is why Aries and Scorpio, signs ruled by the combative Mars, is tied to identity.

anonymous asked:

i saw this today and i think it's so so true: "children on tumblr expecting me to present a 5k words essay on my mental health status, my queer card, and my abuse survivor membership as reasons why I’m allowed to like what to like tbh. I hate this mentality."

Yeah!!! I 100% agree as well.

It really pisses me off that people lowkey feel entitled to my life story just because I like a certain thing and, more than that even, it pisses me off that people think my “status” as a mentally ill queer abuse survivor gives me more of a right to consume certain types of content. Like… I don’t “ship to cope” or w/e people think makes me shipping SangBum or Thramsay etc is “permissible.” Idgaf if people do ship unhealthy pairings for that reason but I don’t think they’re the only people “allowed” to ship certain things and I honestly hate that there’s people who would think my voice “matters more” because I was abused and shit. Like yeah maybe I can speak to that experience in a way other people can’t, but I don’t think that means I’m the only person who is allowed to talk about the relative morality or whatever the fuck of shipping unhealthy relationships or consuming Problematic™ content.

Yeah idk as I’m writing this I’m realizing how much I really resent the implication that I MUST ship to cope or w/e because believe me I definitely Do Not. But anyway that’s the whole other story. Thanks for the ask! ❤

Hey guess what!! Families can be mixed !!! That’s a fucking thing that exists !!! Making my little brother uncomfortable isn’t okay!

Just because he’s darker than me doesn’t not make him my brother…. stop being an ignorant asshole. It’s because of people like YOU that make him feel ashamed and uncomfortable and out of place. Asking if he’s my “real” brother is NOT OKAY. The fact that someone asked me that IN FRONT of him is horrible and so heartbreaking.. he already has to deal with so much racism and ignorance already being a native boy with long hair in a town that hates indigenous people. Think before you say shit..

It really makes me sad to see so much hate in the Yuri on Ice fandom. It’s such an emotional yet lighthearted Anime, with down to earth characters and relationships.  It’s not a show that should produce hate.

We should be doing wonderful, creative things as a fandom, not tearing people apart with harassment. If anyone is harassing you for any reason, please document what has been said, block them and report the instance to Tumblr Staff. You don’t deserve their hatred and negativity. Some people just have nothing better to do with their lives, I guess.

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lmao how about that new banner? i deleted the original photo i used for the background and was too lazy to go looking for it, so i had to use my shitty fantastic photoshop skills to update my url. anyways! 

finally i am in a good place to get this thing going! thank you to everyone who applied (and subsequently followed me - that wasn’t a requirement but y’all are very kind). i really enjoyed reading through your submissions and lemme just say you guys are all 10/10 very relatable. 

below are the urls of everyone who’s now a part of the network! if you didn’t make the cut, the reason was probably your young age. i usually hate age limits/minimums; however, i had to take into consideration the topics that may be brought up here, and the fact that i am, as an adult, uncomfortable talking about those things with people who are significantly younger than me. please understand this doesn’t reflect on how awesome and talented you are! 

also!! this is not the only time i’ll be accepting members! so if you missed your chance this round, don’t worry!! somewhere down the line i’ll open up applications again :)

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anonymous asked:

I keep going from completely loving to hating my therapist and it sucks. He's so great, I love him so much. I don't want to hate him. But I can't tell him this fully, cause I can't say I hate/love him. That'd be weird and scare him. Man I hate having attachment issues. He always tells me he's proud of me, appreciates me sharing difficult things with him, likes talking to me, etc. He makes me feel safe. At the same time, I feel the complete opposite though. Has anyone had this experience before?

Hi there, you are certainly not alone! I don’t want to invalidate your experience of course, but I think this is fairly common amongst people in therapy. First of all, there’s a weird power balance - in which you know almost nothing about your therapist, yet they know the very intimate details of your life - and sessions are heavily comprised of vulnerable, uncomfortable moments. That’s not to say therapy is always draining; sometimes (hopefully often) there’s laughter and the wonderful feeling of relief that comes with finally getting something off your chest! Either way, it’s natural to feel intense emotions towards T  - and for them to vacillate between positive and negative.

Anyone else have thoughts?

anonymous asked:

Tbh the only thing people ever see me in is adidas joggers bc tHE POCKETS ON THOSE DAMN THINGS. also I hate wearing tight pants but I bought legging from adidas WITH POCKETS. Big ass pockets just make everything more comfortable I swear

FUCKING POCKETS YO.

Well hello hello I’m coming back with anotha get 2 know me post and I will focus on more personal thingz so let’s start!¡
•I HATE 2 smile because I have braces and it makes me feel insecure.
•I realized that I had depression when I was 9 years old, that was one of the worst years of my childhood, I was in a really dark place at that moment.
•I have a crush on a literal angel he is so gorgeous and a true gentleman wow I love him and the cool thing is that we are really good friends!
•People oftentimes think that I’m a super unfriendly person and I hoe but after they get 2 know me they are surprised how sweet and kind this potato can be.
•I feel so uncomfortable and sad when people are hurt or they are sad like I need 2 fix it let me hug u and love u.
•I once got a really bad grade from English class and I always panic when there’s a test coming and I want 2 cry.
•BUT I’m actually really good at English, Math, Physics and History class.
•My goals in life is 2 travel until I die because I fucking love traveling so so much.
•I looove drama, it just seems so stupid to me and worthless and I just love laughing when people spend their time on drama.
•I’m in love with fashion.
•I work out every single day and I loooove it.
•My favorite colors are black, white, beige and khaki.
•Deep inside I’m a true hoe and a princess but lets keep it real, most of us have that inner hoe/princess/bad ass bitch attitude.
•I’m allergic to mosquitoes(AND I HATE IT)
•I’m all about the Kardashians, they are so GORG even if they are fake I think they slay really hard.
•I used to sing when I was in forth grade but now my voice is so ugly ew.
•I have like 378272639202 crushes but as I mentioned that one boy has my heart.
•I hate my nose it’s super weird.
•But I like my eyes, they are really basic but cute.
•I love super hot and sunny days.
•I’m such a makeup junkie it’s not okay.
•THESE FACTS ARE SO RANDOM WTF OKAY I LOVE U ALL ANGELS BYEBYE HOPE U ENJOY THIS!!¡❤️

Sometimes I think things are going OK and sometimes I kind of know they’re not.

I wonder how I tell my boss that I can’t deal with being at work at the moment? He’ll be so disappointed in me. I don’t want to think about work, the constant low grade fogginess and dizziness and headache, I don’t feel I’m making safe decisions at work (and I hate that). I cant concentrate on anything (even things I might enjoy). Occasional random crying is fun too. It’s almost like when I manage something adult someone else is doing that, not me. I had a week off (annual leave) and it wasn’t enough, I didn’t feel better. I think I need more time and a rethink of how I approach my job and what is expected.

But other people deal with this, I’m just pathetic. I just need to get a grip but I’ve tried so hard for so long and I can’t make it happen and I can’t keep surviving day to day like this, waiting for one day to be over so I can survive the next one in an endless stream of days with brief interludes where I think it might be OK. But nothing to actually look forward to.

I don’t want to admit defeat, I will feel so guilty at letting people down, they will have to cover my job and they’ll hate me for it. On the outside it looks like I’m coping fine and inside I’m falling apart.

I need someone to talk to but I can’t speak to my parents and I don’t want to worry my brother further. I can’t speak to the GP until Tuesday at the earliest and I’m next seeing my psychologist on Tuesday anyway. We’re going to discuss me taking time off.

So I’m sorry tumblr, I’m just going to scream into the void for a virtual hug and keep holding on until next Tuesday. Work commitment tomorrow, family commitment Monday. Just hold on and then by the middle of next week I can collapse a bit psychologically.

I do not consent to this being my life any more. I need to work out how to change it and if all my energy is going into maintaining what I’ve got I will never escape and work out what might be possible. Something has to give and much as I hate to admit it I think that thing is work right now.

Tagged by the awesome @redeim

Five things you’ll find in my bag:

  1. Wallet
  2. Keys
  3. Makeup bag full of, at least, 10+ lipsticks
  4. Dental floss
  5. Earrings

Five things in my bedroom:

  1. Makeup
  2. Stuffed animals
  3. 500 mugs
  4. Sketchbooks
  5. Candy

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in life:

  1. Get a tattoo
  2. Bungee jump
  3. Release a novel
  4. Meet the Pope
  5. Ride a zebra like a horse

Five things that make me happy:

  1. Makeup
  2. Chocolate
  3. Tumbles
  4. Sleeping
  5. Writing

Five things I’m currently into:

  1. Lord of the Rings
  2. D.Gray-Man
  3. The Flash
  4. Learning a language
  5. Speaking my mind around my family

Five things on my to do list:

  1. Find apartment
  2. Pass Chem this semester
  3. Drop 15 pounds by the end of march
  4. Get a tattoo
  5. Release book

Five things people may not know about me:

  1. I am ambidextrous.
  2. I am allergic to cats.
  3. I went to Disney World last year in June.
  4. I can hold my alcohol.
  5. I hate doughnuts.

Tagging: @acetonystark / @arotonystark / @hanayoritae / @abrilawakens / @cyborgrhodey

I fucking hate MacDennis.

Hate it.

Garbage ship for garbage people on a garbage show for garbage people.

The only thing I ever wanted was for Mac to grow out of this stupid fucking idiotic garbage infatuation and get laid by Quality Lay Rex ™.

The only thing I ever thought could ever make me not hate it was if Mac stopped caring for Dennis and then Dennis had to be the one perusing. MAYBE. Not guaranteed. Probably not. Probably would still hate it. Yeah. Totally would.

And now this stupid fucking epically awful stupid garbage episode happened and I…

…I don’t mind MacDennis anymore.

?????????????????????????????

???????????????????????

I hate this show. Hate it. I hate everything about it so fucking much.

But….

I don’t?????

And this episode was great??????????????

And Dennis has……. human feelings?????????????????????

Is it possible… I loved it all along? Is it possible… that the twist wasn’t in the show. Is it possible…….. I WAS THE TWIST?????

“I must kill the MacDennis.” I shouted “No, Kirke. You are the MacDennis.”

And then John was a zombie.

I’ve seen people blaming Damon for saving Caroline and Tyler??? When he put himself in harms way to buy Elena some time??? And then put himself in direct danger of Tyler to save Caroline from being bitten??? I understand anti-Damon stans having legit reasons to hate him. But don’t hate him for the very same things you would have praised Stefan for doing. 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.