things i want but cannot have

to make a chaos notebook: 

  • one notebook. i have a preference for A5 but there’s no reason you couldn’t use a bigger size. i used to use moleskines until they became crap and i discovered rhodia (please rhodia never become crap), the important thing is that it have a pocket somewhere and that there be only one notebook
  • put everything in it. all things. you cannot have a second notebook. or i guess you can use an agenda or electronic calendar to supplement if you want, i don’t care
  • keep ephemera in the pocket til it’s too fat to close, never clean this out
  • that’s it that’s the system

nonexhaustive list of things that are in my last chaos notebook: personal diary entries, research notes, seminar notes, tarot spreads, every kind of list including for example a list of widely-acceptable foods at the szechuan restaurant in my former city so that we could establish a fucking standing order for post-seminar dinners because for fuck’s sake stop trying to get twelve academics to make a collective decision about a ten-page menu all over again every time, a number of transcribed train timetables, to-do lists large and small and in between, a full page of notes on the rhyme scheme and meter of edmund spenser’s ‘prothalamion’ which are the result of the time i had my first full-on cambridge-induced meltdown and the only thing i could think to do to assuage it was go to waterstones and buy a paperback edition of the shorter poems of edmund spenser and make a chart about rhyme and meter, a dandelion i took from the grave of sylvia plath, short- and long-term calendars, contact info for a number of people to do with work scattered throughout, lists of call numbers with no further information, a large-text wide-spaced transcription of ‘wild geese’ by mary oliver which is what i read at the wedding of a very close friend a year ago and i’d memorized it but i wanted a backup, and all of the ephemera in the back, postcards and ticket stubs and the like, and the one thing i always transfer to a new notebook and have thus been carrying around with me for almost ten years, which is a print-off of a page of advisor’s notes on my first seminar paper for her, which she corrected in pen and then signed because she felt bad it wasn’t in her handwriting, just in case you thought i wasn’t enough of a self-caricature

so. this is a system. it works.

Things I Love About You And IOL (Part 1/?)
I love your writing style!
I love how you give Patton even more depth.
I love how you have Roman teach Virgil that, yes, he is wanted.
I love how Virgil thinks people only want his body in the first place.
I love vent nights.
I love how liquor makes Logan talk. I love that Virgil knows that liquor makes him talk.  I love that Thomas nicknames Logan. I love that Valerie is lovable. I love that Virgil thinks Roman was rubbing his rejection in his face all along. I love that there’s an actual plot. I love that there’s an actual timeline. I love that EVERYONE HAS BACKSTORY. I love that Logan is the one working with the flowers. I love every time Logicality check eachother out. I love envisioning Logan sweaty in the sun. I love that you actually name your chapters. I love that you take your time. I love that you made a villain. I love that you made a believable villain. I love that you made a believable villain with a backstory. I love your attention to the little things, like eye color. I love that Logan cares so much. I love that Logan has so much depth. I love that there’s so much to love. I love that I’m complimenting you. I love that I have an opportunity to talk to you. I love that you’re so humble despite being a GODESS. I love your AUs. I love that you organize your tags so well. I love that you know how to use dialogue punctuation. I love that you accept compliments. I love that you make your chapter titles so memorable. I love that you’ve publish 50,425 words of pure masterpiece. I love this pure masterpiece. I love that Logan has a loving Mom. I love that you pay so much attention to the flowers. I love that you know about how the whole “flowering” thing works. I love that nothing’s rushed. I love “well, this is new.” I love ““I’m not blind or dead, Val.”” because it makes me scream internally. I love that Logan is a doctor. I love that Logan has friends other than the sides. I love that Virgil has friends other than the sides. I love that Patton has friends other than the sides. I love that Roman has friends other than the sides. I love jealous Roman. I love that Virgil is a believable character. I love that Virgil is a believable character with a backstory. I love that you made Patton clever. I love that Patton has known love before Logan. I love that Logan has known “love” before Patton. I love that you’ve expanded this little universe of ours to include something immersive. I love that your writing is immersive and it takes hours to fully compliment. I love how you balance exposition, dialogue, and backstory. I LOVE THAT THERE IS EXPOSITION, DIALOGUE, AND BACKSTORY. You are the damn best writer I have ever met. Holy shmokes @tormentist is this EVERY SINGLE DISCORD COMPLIMENT??? #dead #i am dead #you all have killed me

Two-part UPDATE!!!!

Well for Thanksgiving we didn’t go anywhere due to our situation we had a wonderful sandwich that our dearest Kimmy made for us and we went to sleep early. We didn’t do very much and it was a very emotional time for all of us.

We wanted to list a few things we were thankful for even though we are at a small stage in our life.

Eachother: with out one another we all would not have survived to see this years holiday season.

Stella and Nova: with out them our situation and things we went through would of been much worse, they have improved our lives probably just as much if not more than they benefited from it.

Our home/the Bus/Lilly: So many reasons I cannot account for. But for being there when we needed a home.
(Yes, we named her Lilly)

Our extended families: no matter how estranged and sometimes nonexistent

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What you as a community have done for us is beyond anything we could ever hope to give back, from emotional support to financial support. You all are amazing, wonderful, and full of surprises! We try to help as much as we can when we are able, and you guys have shown us, we are not alone in that endeavour.


I hate to ask especially on black Friday, but we currently need $360 to pay off Kimmys license ASAP so we can make sure the bus isn’t towed and drive/move to California for my job interview, by the first of December.

Kimmy has the cheapest license to reinstate and Gwen won’t be able to reinstate her license till after the 4th of December. Towards the end of December, we hope to be getting some money from a family member that should definitely help us fix the bus and get my license back.

I got a second interview for an assistant manager position in Santa Cruz county. Just near the water I might add!! It is looking to be a good thing and I am excited but as I said we need the temp tags for the bus, rv insurance, and Kimmy’s drivers license.

We have a plan, we just need the finances. Gwen’s next paycheck is the 1st of December. We are going to have to wait another 3 days past the typical 2 week pay period. So we are super strapped for Money till then and we really hope the police don’t bother us!!!

Please we need support and help, I know you all probably spent most of your savings and bank account on Christmas shopping, but please anything helps!! Our PayPal is!

Thank you all so much!! I hope this season of holiday celebrations and traditions is peaceful, safe, and full of those good warming feelings!!!

From our family to yours,
Kimmandra, Gwen, Ember
@spideygirl @gwennspacey, @emberbrekker

A simple request

Y'all, life is too short to be arguing with strangers on tumblr.

I have unfollowed people who have posted things I vehemently disagree with/find offensive so that I don’t have to see it. I continue to follow people whose content I usually enjoy. But I continue to see this shit because y'all cannot stop posting about it, reblogging stuff you disagree with, and answering anons about it. If I want to keep seeing awesome original content I have to wade through these garbage posts.

Is it possible to just….stop? You won’t see the rhetoric you don’t want to see if you stop engaging/replying. If you don’t think you will reason with the people you are arguing with, what is the point? Ignoring it is the real punishment.

anonymous asked:

Things that I want to see in NCIS Nola: Pride need to stop doing "rogue behavior", and we need our lovable dad cook to come back... and I do not want to see another member of nola team go rogue like him... Gregorio did like twice and I cannot bear to watch her becoming him. And I want to see Pride happy... and Pride/Gibbs interactions for future crossovers or Hetty and more Isler. God I missed him so much. I'm okay with any ships but I want Gregorio to have a stable relationship like Densi.

yes yes I was more Pride and Gibbs interactions like their relationship is interesting, how they go back all the way when Gibbs became an agent and like i wanna know more and i want their relationship to solidify

also YES i want Pride to meet Hetty i feel like that would be an amazing day

anonymous asked:

In regards to merch/ticket pricing: The people that work on the tour have to get paid too from Paul to the people designing the stages and lighting. The stadiums don’t get used for free. Also a lot of this merch is similar to an actual high fashion line. I completely agree with you. It’s sad that people can’t afford everything they want, but it isn’t just about Taylor wanting all the money to hoard for herself.

thank you this is precisely what I’m saying! none of these decisions were made as a personal attack against people who cannot afford things. i genuinely believe taylor did her best to make things as affordable as possible while still having a tour that is profitable for everyone. I’m not trying to diminish peoples feelings, but i hope people just look at the full picture before you start attacking everyone left and right (especially taylor/taylor nation)

anonymous asked:

I’ve seen a lot of messages about the interview and since I’m from NZ, I wanted to apologise about that game. It was invasive and inappropriate even I didn’t expect that :( That radio show tends to do some pretty extreme things but never anything like this. No excuses.

you do not need to apologise just because you’re from New Zealand!!!!!!!!! oh my god, do not feel like you have to do anything just because you’re from the place!!!!!

just saw someone complaining that a bunch of people are getting into dnd now “solely because of the adventure zone”

i honestly cannot even fathom having a problem with that. like why don’t you want more people to enjoy the thing you love? its not a secret club y’all. dnd is popular as hell. and the mcelroys aren’t the first people to bend the rules to suit their needs. 

let people like stuff. don’t try to keep people out of communities just because you feel like you’re above new fans that didn’t find the community the same way you did. chill. even if its just “a bunch of kids buying pretty dice and playing the game wrong.” get over yourselves.


I think I can deal with it, but I kept going through it. Until one day only a few years ago, I thought I cannot deal with it. This is holding me back in life. This is not how I’m supposed to be and I want to overcome it. So I looked back at my life, at the things that may have made me this way that I could change the baggage that I was holding on to and said, “I don’t need you anymore!

It’s so important to know you should be happy and proud of who you are. (x)

So let me tell you about this cat.

Anyone who knows me personally knows that in February of this year I was kicked out by my parents. This extremely nice family (the parents of an ex I dated almost 8 years ago who I’m still friends with. Go figure!) Took me in and I’ve been living with them ever since.

They have three dogs, which I’ve known for years. I only learned that they had a cat when I came to live with them.

“When did you get a cat?” I asked them.

“Oh, we’ve always had her. She’s just not very social.”

This is Snuggles (ironically named bc she was assumed to be the most un-snuggly cat).

I’ve never owned a cat. My mother was allergic so we always had dogs in the house. So, having a cat in the house was foreign and exciting for me. Whenever I would see her, I would try so very hard to interact with her. For the first few months I lived here, she avoided me.

The vacant bedroom that soon became mine used to be a storage room where she would prowl and sleep. So when I started to inhabit her space, she was kinda pissed. She would enter the room and find a place to chill, and just stare at me with these ‘this bitch’ eyes.

The family said she was just like that, so I tried not to let it get to me. The dogs liked me just fine.

Things slowly started to change. I first noticed it when I would come home from work, usually around 11 or 12 at night (I worked night shift at a fast food joint). Snuggles is an indoor/outdoor cat because she doesn’t like litter boxes and she knows how to use the dog door. She spends the day outside and comes in at night.

She began greeting me at my car when I would come home from work. She would come outside and sit halfway between the front door and the mailbox, and meow at me until I greeted her back. She wouldn’t let me pet her, but she would go inside the house with me.

Then, I would be cooking in the kitchen, and she would hop up on the counter and watch me. This is when she finally started to let me pet her. She has a jar of cat treats so I started to give her treats. She would meow and meow until I gave her treats.

After this, when she would greet me at my car, she would flop onto the cement and let me pet her outside. Only a little, though, because then she’d use her claws or nip at me.

Then, she began investigating me in my room.

She would hop up on the bed and wander around, smell my things, stick her head in my drinking glasses on the bedside table. I would come home from work and find her curled up in my blankets on my bed if I left my door even slightly open.

When I would close my door, she would meow or push herself against the door until I let her in. Then she’d jump up on my bed and make herself comfortable at the foot of my bed.

She didn’t start to actually snuggle with me until a month ago when I lost my job and my depression got really bad.

Every night she comes to my room and demands entrance so she can sleep with me. During the day or night she wants to be cuddled up with me in my room. She makes herself comfortable in my lap while I use my laptop or play with my 3DS. She’ll curl up behind my knees if she can’t get in my lap.

But just last week, she started doing something new.

When I sleep, I sleep on my side. I tuck a thin pillow between my legs for hip support, and I have a large, squishy, fluffy pillow I hug to my chest. I cannot sleep if I don’t have both of these things.

I was sound asleep one night, Snuggles curled up behind my knees, when I felt her climb up on top of me. She moved to the side of my belly, where it met my hugging-pillow, and she kneaded my side until she was content, and she curled up on top of me like I was a large cushion to sleep on.

Now, every night, she sleeps on top of me like so.

I’ve never owned a cat. I’m awkward with cats. This cat was previously unfriendly and aloof, but she knew that I needed her companionship. Knew that I needed a friend and love that I wasn’t getting elsewhere. This cat adopted me. This cat loves me. You can’t convince me otherwise.

Don’t Freak

Originally posted by kings-of-my-heart

Steve Harrington x Reader

Requests are OPEN



“You’re really trying to tell me that Low is David Bowie’s best album to date?” Jonathan nodded, opening the brown paper bag that held his lunch.

“That’s exactly what I’m telling you,” Y/N’s eyes widened, then shoved her lunch tray to the side. She leaned on her elbows, her hands in front of her.

“I could name five other Bowie albums, easily, that blow Low out of the water,” Jonathan took a bite of his sandwich, then motioned to Y/N.

“Go on then,”

Station to Station,” Y/N’s right index finger began to point to the fingers on her left hand to count. “Aladdin Sane, The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders From Mars -obviously-, Diamond Dogs, and my number one favorite Bowie album of all time,” Jonathan mimed exactly what Y/N was saying with her, “Hunky Dory.” Y/N took a deep breath as she finished, then shoved a french fry in her mouth. “It’s like I don’t even know you sometimes,” She shook her head and shrugged her shoulders jokingly, “But, I mean, Low is still a great album,” That made Jonathan chuckle. A body suddenly appeared on the bench next to Y/N, scaring the life out of her. She had one hand on her mouth and the other over her heart to stop herself from screaming. Y/N turned her head and saw Steve Harrington with a dumb grin on his face.

“Tonight?” He looked at Y/N expectantly.

“What?” Her pupils were still wide from the shock, and the word sounded pretty dumb coming from her.

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If you haven’t read this yet, you’re missing out on my new favourite AU

Ikemen Sengoku: Light Night Wear

Characters belong to Cybird


His outfit hasn’t been updated in website yet~ I also hope this could be updated too -

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Friendly reminder that Klaus’ letter was preceded by “that is the beginning of another story”, which is meant to highlight key components in the letter, such as Klaus wanting to thank Caroline in person. This suggests that they do eventually meet up, and that their meeting is not a mere fleeting chapter in their lives.

This isn’t a nod to their friendship. They’ve never been just friends. This is a promise of a romantic future. 

There is no doubt in my mind that if Caroline and Klaus were to ever reunite (and according to the finale they do) that Klaus would want something romantic from her. And if you believe otherwise, you’re kidding yourself. 

However long it takes is a throwback to a romantic scene. A romantic scene that suggests a promise of a romantic future between the characters. This isn’t mere banter between friends. Because Caroline has never been just a friend to Klaus. It’s a promise of a romantic future. 

“that is the beginning of another story”
“however long it takes” 

Eventually this story will be realized. And it isn’t a story about friendship. 


I have been cursed blessed with neuyako!Karma

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harringtonl  asked:

What if a Pearl cannot talk about their owner unless they have permission... could explain why she can't explain but wants to, she physically cannot

That could definitely explain why she can’t tell Steven. She physically cannot. As if there is some spell prohibiting her for letting her talk about it. Her hand voluntarily covering her mouth and the body shaking occurs specifically when she is trying to talk about it. It could have been a diamond or perhaps a gem with a high power who had done this to her. It could be a pearl thing. I could go darker and say maybe Rose or Pearl herself did this to assure these secrets they had are kept hidden because we all know Pearl would do anything for Rose. Honestly I don’t know but this is an interesting development and the writers are brilliant. I’m excited to see where this goes. 

Pearl Physically Cannot Talk About the Diamond’s: Theory Masterpost

Now at first glance, I figured that Pearl was just having a hard time with the issue at hand, but then realized. When if she means that she literally cannot physically tell Steven? As in she means it when she says she wants to but it’s impossible. She literally isn’t physically capable because something is stopping her from doing so.

Now even though this only lasted for a moment, and then we went on to Steven telling Pearl the truth about what he was upset about, there is a lot to analyze in those few seconds. Now the biggest thing to me that stuck out was that Pearl looks like she was trying to pry one hand away from her mouth so that she could continue speaking.


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