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the posture theory

for @drownedpoet​ and the two anons who asked

  • neil has great posture
  • since he’s shorter than most adults, standing and sitting up straight always gave him a better vantage point to survey areas when he was on the run
  • it also helped when he was younger and had to appear older 
    • so people would stop asking so many questions about why “such a nice young boy was doing things he shouldn’t be"
    • it made things like buying cigarettes, driving, and carrying a gun so much simpler when he wasn’t being interrogated every five minutes
  • breathing was much easier as well in the bulletproof vests he always wore
    • wearing kevlar is a lot like wearing a chest binder, it’s restrictive and makes breathing a pain in the ass
    • sitting up straight was at least a partial solution to this problem
  • not to mention it gave him an intimidating look that kept people at a healthy distance and made sure he wasn’t bothered
  • it also made it easier to jump into a fighting stance in a seconds notice if necessary
  • sleeping back to back with his mother reinforced the habit 
    • neither of them could sleep if there was even the smallest gap between their bodies
    • life on the run from people constantly trying to kill you makes you rightfully cautious and a little bit paranoid, so it’s nice to have the grounding weight of someone you trust at your back
  • he also used to be a dancer, but that’s another au/headcanon
  • andrew, on the other hand, has terrible posture
  • his childhood was spent slouching down trying to disappear and look like less of a target
  • he would sleep curled into himself with his back against the wall so he would be harder to grab
    • it also made it harder for drake to take his clothes off
  • hiding was easier as well
    • getting used to being tucked into himself made squeezing into tight spaces for up to a couple of hours at a time to avoid drake much more comfortable
  • slipping away from being held is about 90% easier when you’re slouched as it allows for quicker movement
    • this didn’t take andrew more than twice to learn
  • andrew never really saw the point of good posture when his body never really belonged to him anyway
    • this is his depression talking, but he doesn’t care
  • i mean what’s the point of worrying about posture when you don’t plan on living long enough to be affected by it?

The store I work at part time sells African Dwarf Frogs in tiny little acrylic boxes. All my coworkers and I are against selling the live animals, but nothing we can do about it. I try to educate the customers who will listen.

Last night a woman was looking at the frogs and said, “excuse me, about the frogs…” I expected to be asked how long do they live or another common question.

This woman straight up asked me

“Do they need to eat?”

Things I can’t stop thinking about:

  • The way Sherlock says, “No, I know you’re not an experiment. You’re my friend, We’re friends”
  • The way Sherlock says, “Molly?….Molly please.”
  • The way Sherlock unbuttons his suit jacket before losing his shit
  • The way Sherlock fucking destroys the coffin
  • The way Sherlock sits on the floor looking defeated after losing his shit
  • Molly calling Sherlock a bastard
  • Molly’s little smile when Sherlock says I love you
  • THAT WHOLE FREAKING SCENE!!!!

anonymous asked:

The beating will be brutal and Aaron will have to pay. Is that how you interpreted what Danny said? I was not nervous now I am. How are you at talking people off of ledges. Cause I may need it. Biting nails now

Hey anon!!!

I can do my best.

Ok, a few things we know:

This storyline mostly exists to ramp up the drama before the wedding (and give us all premature heart failure hahaha thx ed…) - but also as an added bonus, to sort of help showcase their love for one another? In a weird, weird way lmao.

There’s a wedding, an actual wedding, with a reception and suits and cake toppers and legitimate dingle madness

There’s a Mill set. That’s something that will exist. It’s for Robron. They’re getting their own set. This is a real thing we’re getting in the future (and from Maxine'a twitter, it sounds like they’re working on it now/it could be up and ready to go around March?)

Robron are one of their most (if not their most? Idk?) popular couples.

I mean, obviously we don’t know what they’re planning but… we know that Rob and Aaron are moving into the mill. We know Danny’s not leaving, or going anywhere anytime soon. No matter how this plays out, the likelihood is that no matter what, Aaron is gonna be around? He’s not gonna go off to prison for 8 months or 3 months or whatever. I mean, damn, he may just end up with community service, who knows. Maybe the Dingles crack open some sort of harebrained illogical scheme and he gets off scott free, because Emmerdale Law is it’s own very special thing, with no basis in real world law.

I mean, I’m also sure we’re missing some vital plot twists as well, so it’s really difficult to predict, but at the end of it all… it will be ok? The show is so invested in Aaron and Robert’s relationship (and you can see that, i think, in how their stories always end up coming back to the two of them working it out somehow and having these wonderful scenes about their feelings and how it just sort of always comes down to the fact that although they literally attract drama, they’re made for each other and they make each other happy?)

(Also you just know Danny and Ryan are gonna kill all the big dramatic stuff and the deeply romantic stuff lbr)

Basically, tl;dr this ramble, I think the show is committed to telling an exciting but romantic story for them at the moment, so i think that ultimately, the outcome of this storyline will be one that we enjoy (whatever it might be).

I also think, in all honesty, that’s what they’re going to want, in terms of how the audience reacts? To sort of mirror that wonderful response they had from the SSW robron stuff (even to the extent of getting Maxine to write a large chunk of it), in a way? (That will work massively in their favour from a business sense, but u know, whatever)

(Also we know they’re moving into the mill. There’s a set. That’s a thing we know. Which means that ultimately, it’s unlikely to go all that badly haha - whatever big drama happens is just going to be part of the journey to end up there and in a new stage of their life)

(Really, much like teasing Aaron’s death in SSW, they just want to make us sweat lmao. Soap’s prerogative.)

Hey uhhhhhhh… if a fictive or other headmate feels like “they’re not real”, (and it’s because of the fact that they’re a fictive or headmate), it usually isn’t the same as singlet depersonalization

It’s more like the result of people telling you that you’re just a delusion and the same person as the host and you start believing it and you go “Oh my God my existence is just a lie”

I guess I kinda say this because when I’ve said “I don’t feel real”, people usually respond with the usual responses of “Try grounding yourself by counting objects” when really that makes me a bit more afraid because I feel just like a dissociated state

Like if I say this just tell me I’m real and/or show me evidence that I’m not the same person as the host

anonymous asked:

i've liked girls for as long as i can remember- but i was scared of what might happen if i came out so i concealed my feelings for many years. last year, i told my best friend about my sexuality because i trusted her and felt the need to vent. she outted me to the entire school. i moved away and now i'm in a completely new state. i have a fresh start. do you have tips on accepting your sexuality + being open about your sexuality after you've been treated harshly?

I’m so sorry for what happened, I’m glad you’re able to have a fresh start though and I hope you’ll make wonderful friends who will respect and support you!

I’m not really out to anybody so I don’t know if I can help… But to accept my sexuality I tell myself that it’s about me and that it’s nobody else’s business, if people can’t accept it then that’s not my problem because I won’t change for them. 

Actually I’m still trying to accept it, and I’m able to be open about it on tumblr because people on here have been very supportive every time I talked about it. I’m sorry, I don’t know how to be open about it irl, but I think that accepting your sexuality can help you feel more confident? So just remember that it’s about you, people don’t get to decide for you, they don’t get to say if it’s bad or wrong; your sexuality is valid, it’s part of you, it makes you who you are and you’re a wonderful person!

one of the reasons mental illness sucks so fucking much is because people around you can literally tell you again and again that they love you, that they think you’re cool and funny, that they support you in every way, that you’re talented or intelligent, and no matter how many times they say it you’ll always cringe and shake your head and say “no, no i’m not, really” but the SECOND someone says one bad thing about you, even just once. You believe it completely. 

 I’ve seen a few posts around saying that Andy was problematic or that the episode would have worked just fine without him. The thing to remember is that the crewniverse creates this show to be relatable not only in ways that have us singing from the mountain tops, but also in ways that are a little harder for us to face. Maybe in ways that make us uncomfortable, but are very much issues that we need to address as well. 

How many people were reminded of their own closed minded family members while watching Andy? My literal thoughts were ‘oh look, it’s my dad in an SU ep!’, before wanting to sink away from second hand embarrassment for the comments he made. Because man, have I been there before. 

Because who hasn’t had their sort of uncle freak out over the illegal hippy martian immigrant farmers your dad said could live in his barn? 

No but really. Especially that part about hearing about this on AM radio? Yeah, at least one writer has come up close and personal with this type of specimen. It may seem that given the timing of certain current events, the last thing anyone wants to see on SU is one of THOSE types. 

But here’s the thing: they exist. You can hide your head under a rock all you want, but they’re still there. So what do we do? We actually get two points of view on this. One: the gems as literal aliens. On a good day they really don’t understand even the most open minded of humans. So here they are running smack into one that’s mad about a world that’s changing even without the interference of the gems. And he’s upset that they’re not acting in the “traditional” roles he’s use to seeing human women in. Never mind that they’re not human, or technically speaking, women. They’re there in his barn, messing with his things, and really there’s no way this can end well. 

Until you bring in the nephew he never knew he had. Who just so happens to be very, very interested in learning about his human family.And who just wants everyone to get along. Because let’s face it, that’s Steven’s MO. He’s so focused on finding out that his family name is ‘Demayo’ that Andy’s comment to Greg ‘not even marrying an American’ floats right by him. But it was very much meant for the audience to hear. 

Not that any of that matters to Steven, he’s already planning the most awkward family reunion in the galaxy. 

And the Gems, bless their hearts, are eager to make Steven happy.

And honestly, for all his misgivings, so is Andy.

To a point anyway. Until he realizes that maybe, just maybe things are changing. That change is coming whether he likes it or not. And that change can never, ever be one sided. 

And at the first Thanksgiving, the gems and the humans gave thanks for polyamorous wedding cake, corn, this table, and traumatizing life events.

The thing about change is that it’s never simple. It never happens over night. Both sides are scared or angry, or very probably both. They’re also sure that their side is the right side. 

And even when it seems like everything is going right, you’re trying so hard include everyone in your new vision and it seems like you’re really getting through to them, they just… slip away. Because change is scary. Because they’re going through the motions without really understanding why. Because sometimes it’s easier to go along with things even if they don’t agree, even if their heart isn’t in it. So again, what do you do?

You listen. You hear their fears. You let them come to their own conclusions that maybe, just maybe, things HAVE to change. 

But that doesn’t mean being left behind. 

Now for reality: It’s never as simple as this. Bigotry isn’t faced and solved in 20 minutes. No one is saying it is. Sometimes it’s safer not to face it, and sometimes you just can’t. 

But I think overall its meant to be a message of hope- just like the overall message of Steven Universe is a positive one. People have opposing points of view. Talk. Listen. See that in the end you have more in common than you ever thought possible and go from there. Also: family is what you make of it. Even if it’s a dad, an estranged uncle, an alien hybrid child and his hippy illegal martian immigrant aunts. It can work, as long as you work together.

Why? Does he look more like a “Totalitarian Regime” to you?

First time I met Brendon, he was in a dressing room, and he was throwing a tray full of fruit into a shower. And I kind of stood there staring  at him for a minute, I was like, what is this little kid doing right now- he was so, so just like, intent on throwing all the fruit in the shower and smashing it. So I just asked him, I was like, ‘What are you doing right now?’ And he’s like, 'Well I wanted to throw the fruit somewhere, but I didn’t wanna make it a mess for whoever has to clean it up.’ So he was both being punk rock and very respectful, all at the same time.
—  Zack Hall, on his first time meeting Brendon Urie
“Am I at ninety-four yet?”

Neil asked.

He was not at ninety-four. Ninety-four was the whispered words, “Thank you. You were amazing.” They echoed inside Andrew’s head over and over, like they were an offering, a prayer, a goodbye, like they were pushed out of his body with his dying breath. It was irritating and he was going to bring it up on the bus. He was going to spell it out nice and slow how Neil needed to stop living like he was dying and start living like the exy junkie he was.

Ninety-five was turning around and seeing nothing. Not nothing in the sense that Neil was nothing, but nothing in the sense of panic, of worry, of standing on the edge of the rooftop looking down thinking “Would it hurt if I fell?” The space where Neil should have been filled with emotions that Andrew swore he would never feel again.

Ninety-six was finding his bag. It wasn’t the bag that held his entire life, that was locked away in the Fox Tower, safe. It was the bag that held his future. A future he knew Neil wanted in the way he clutched the key he gave him back in August. A key that was left in the God forsaken bag with Neil nowhere in sight.

For ninety-seven, Kevin was there. The other foxes were there too but the words Kevin formed with his breath passing over his voice box and the movements of his tongue and jaw, were the only things that mattered. Kevin’s mouth moved, sound traveled in vibrations through the air, hit Andrew’s eardrums, and then his hands were around Kevin’s neck. There were lies and half-truths and Andrew hated those. Again not in the sense he hated Neil but in the sense that he hated the word ‘please’ and ‘misunderstanding’. He hated how he didn’t hate Neil because of all the lies. And for that, ninety-seven.

Ninety-eight was the phone call that Neil had been found.

Ninety-nine was walking through the hotel door and seeing him crumple in agony. It was the hissed “Don’t” as he did his best sooth away the pain. It was the eyes that were Nathaniel’s with hints of Neil peeking out behind his irises. It was the look of a man staring helplessly as the executioner readied the guillotine. It was the words “I’m sorry” like he had something to be sorry for. It was his attitude that no matter how beat up he got, remained impeccably intact. And it was the question he still had the gall to ask: “Am I at ninety-four yet?”

“You are at one hundred.”

Okay but can we talk about the fact that even Victor has insecurities?

And this is huge because Victor knows that he’s beautiful, and he knows that he’s irresistible, and he knows that he’s extremely skilled and he knows that no one can hold a candle to his skating and we’d be ready to think he’s confident about literally every part of himself.

But then it turns out that even the great Victor himself has things he’s self-conscious about - his receding hairline, or more accurately, his age.

Because he may be only 27 but that’s old for figure skaters and he should really be retiring now. His body won’t be flexible for very long now and soon he just won’t be able to keep up the skating class and quality he had had for his entire life. And it very much seems like he doesn’t have much more in his life than skating and once that’s over, he’ll be nothing but an ex-figure skater with a dog and absolutely no plans for the rest of his life.

And his hair is a reminder of that fact. It’s a reminder that once he stops being the best, he’ll have to quit skating because the moment someone beats him on the podium he will become irrelevant because he’s just too old and it’s time for the next generation to shine. And remember that he’s surrounded by people who are younger than him and he’s the oldest (iirc) skater in the senior division. The pressure he’s facing is extreme.

Maybe I’m reading too far into this but keep reading if you think you might feel the same about what the show is trying to say.

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I get why you did it. Why you took it.