things i feel passionately about

I’m sorry it’s just a small doodle but happy birthday dearest Olivia! 

A Doctor’s Log (Mass Effect: Andromeda)

Summary: Being a collection of impressions, observations, and ruminations, by one Dr. Lexi T’Perro, staff physician on the Tempest. 

Notes: Spoilers abound, but specifically for Liam’s armor request and part of Jaal’s loyalty mission (through the end of “Flesh and Blood”). Pre-romance (incipient Sis!Ryder/Jaal).

This is loose, this is messy, and hopefully, this is funny. There may be more to come, but we shall see! <3

Read on: Ao3

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Entry One:

Our young Pathfinder certainly has a talent for finding — well, talent, in the most unusual places. From what I understand, she found our resident krogan on Eos, slaughtering the local wildlife. I believe he’s wearing the bones of his kills.

And yet, he’s charming, but anyone’s standards. A little gruff, but that’s to be expected. He and Vetra seem to be getting along famously, if what I overhear from the crew’s quarters is any indication.

Cora is still dealing with residual frustration and resentment over the Pathfinder’s role passing from Alec to his daughter, but she is a consummate professional, and after an initial tense conversation with Ryder, has allowed herself to process and grieve in private. I’ve made a note to check in with her — something Cora will be astute enough to recognize — but I foresee no future issues in that quarter.

Sometimes it’s best simply to let time and distance do all the healing work. Harry, if you ever read this, know that I can hear you smirking.

Entry Seven:

Liam continues to impress me — his good humor and willingness to reach out to everyone has defused more than a few potential arguments. I’m rather amazed at how he dismantled what could have been a rather explosive argument over the last of the Fishdog Food Shack nuggets (I shudder to think what was in them, to have lasted so long in suspension!). His loyalty is unquestioned. He’d be an asset on any team, but I’m glad he’s with us.

Ryder stayed in her quarters for an extra forty-three minutes this morning. SAM assures me she was simply working out, but I’ve made a note to watch her stress levels a little more carefully. Excess exercise may be just one symptom of a larger problem.

I do hope they’re able to wake up her brother, soon. Her role is a lonely one.

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there are only two types of people adverse to the exploration of ‘consciousness’ in animals: those who benefit from the exploitation of said animals and those who still believe in that cartesian divide between human and nonhuman. you see both in anthropocentric circles of logic, but, anthropomorphism has a nearly identical method of thinking in that it equates nonhumans with humans to give them a supposed worth.

animal science and ethics is torn up by both sides of this black and white “animals are either machines or they are on par with humans” style of logic. it’s a classical horseshoe model.

studying something as abstract and lacking in substantial definition as ‘consciousness in nonhumans’ is tough, and it’s bound to get political because most people who delve into it already come with preexisting ideas. studying something with no definite methods for recording means that biases, strong or not, slant any possible data that could be collected in a way much stronger than in other fields because objectivity is impossible to hold onto when it comes to something like defining an concept lacking in definition through observed behaviour and neurochemical analysis.

and i’m not even gonna get started on what this entails when it comes to artificial intelligence.

I’m writing something and I remembered how passionate I am about a certain thing and I feel like I need to bring it up. 

Tanaka, Nishinoya and Kiyoko are friends. They are so friends, not just two hopeless flirty boys chasing after a girl. Despite their flirtatious nature, the two respect her so much, and would never do anything to go past her comfort zone. They know they don’t have a chance at dating her, but they’re fine with that, but they’re still going to be a little flirty, no matter what. Do you really think if Kiyoko was uncomfortable she’d let them continue? Hell no! Do you really think Tanaka Ryuunosuke, the kid raised by his older sister, would disrespect a girl? Do you think Nishinoya Yuu, no matter who they are, would ever intentionally make somebody uncomfortable? Hell no! The three of them get along as friends, and that’s why the boys flirtatious nature continues. Please stop characterizing the best boys out to be some disrespectful perverts. Thanks!

Soooo... this is probs gonna get me unfollowed...

I liked LeFou in the new BATB.

I liked that he was gay. 

I liked how he represented the community, especially represented the glossed over, unspoken side of the community, those who stick by someone who grossly abuses their feelings and their sexuality because society makes them feel rejected, makes them think the only way their sexuality would ever be accepted is if some bigwig, major player, hero, amazing name loved them.

And I liked that they showed that things can get better.

LeFou left that dark place, left behind the unaccepting, left behind his FUCKING abuser, and found love when he was with the heroes. When he went into the fight, he began to accept HIMSELF, and felt validated enough to find someone who actually loved him.

So his name means “the fool”? Well, he was a fool to stick by Gaston, and acted it. When he changed sides, when he accepted himself, he wasn’t portrayed as nearly as foolish.

So, y’know, I liked LeFou. I liked his representation. Was it the best? Nope. But did he die? Did he stay with his abuser? Did he stay a villian? Did he stay CODED, subtle, not official?

9 tips to get your s*%# together

1. Get more sleep! No more falling asleep reading, or messing around on my phone. I’ve picked up this bad habit, and it is hard to break. It seems like I cant fall asleep now without checking out new lists on listverse, reading the news, or scrolling through Tumblr. I am also WAY guilty of exercising zero self control when it comes to recreational reading “one more page…one more chapter…” until its 0300 and I have to get up in a couple hours. I need to turn those electric devices off by 2230. 

2. Snooze less. This one sort of goes hand in hand with #1. I have ALOT  to do, I am supposed to get up at 0500 everyday and walk my fur-babies for an hour, then get ready and go on with my day. Lately, I have been snoozing my alarm until it wont snooze anymore. If I went to sleep when I am supposed to, I would probably have no trouble getting going on time. 

3. Using a 24 hour weekly schedule to record what you are actually doing with all of your time can be VERY eye opening. I need to be better about following through with my plans. I know how to manage my time, but lately I have been quite lax with the execution. Being better about this would help reduce stress, and increase productivity- both things that most students care about. 

4. Less T.V. During the semester I try not to watch more than 3 hours of T.V. per week. It is SO easy to get sucked in…GOT anyone? 

5. After a 4 hr lecture, 2 hr lab, and 8 hr shift at work I feel like going home, falling into my bed and passing out so that I can repeat the process the following day. If you wear makeup, washing it off before bed is HUGE. No matter how tired you are, just do it.

6. Prep- all kinds of prep makes life easier. meal prep, prepping what youre wearing, or taking with you the following day, etc. 

7. Set aside time to do stuff around the house everyday- do not let things pile up until your day off! Make a daily task list and check it off everyday.

8. Exercise for you and your pets. I have 3 big dogs, they need structured exercise, not just running around the dog park or in my yard. They each have a pack they carry and we (normally) walk every morning. Some mornings I may not feel motivated to get up for that 3 mile walk for myself, but I will do anything for my dogs well-being, so I’ll get my butt up and go. (Kinda off topic- but let me throw this out there, if you have pets, they need you. They depend on you to take care of them, to give them what they need. They do not just need food! Dogs need affection, discipline, and exercise. If you’re stressed because your dog is misbehaving- look at your own behavior.What does your pet need that you are not giving them? Dogs are not born bad, humans make them what they become. ((Just saying no pit bull was ever born a killer)) unbalanced dogs are bound to do things you dont want them to do. Large, high strung breeds, or working breeds are going to need more than a dachsund. Dont just love on your pets, also give them what they need. If you cant make enough time, or muster up enough patience to give them what they NEED, then you need to rethink your priorities, or your status as a pet owner. Dont be selfish, pets are not put on this earth for human amusement.) 

I also need more exercise than a walk, so I do indoor cycling 3x a week, interval/strength training 2x a week, and yoga at least 2x a week. 

9. If you enjoy getting your hair and nails done (or if you enjoy doing your own) then make time to do this. If these little things  make you feel good about yourself, then it is important, and not frivolous. 

**Sorry about the weird timing of the pet rant- it’s just one of those things that I feel so passionately about, and I feel like too many people dont give it enough thought. It is not just a pit thing, its a pet thing. My dogs are all pit mixes, and they are all mixed with a working breed,  they were all abused and rescued. One of them was used as a bait dog in a fighting ring a few miles away in Tuskegee. They have helped me through some of the toughtest times in my life, and I owe them to give them the best lives. I feel painfully passionate about treating animals the right way. To be quite honest, I tend to like animals more than most people. 

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I get unhappy doing things that I’m not passionate about, because I feel like I’m squandering this incredible gift I’ve been given to finance films. As soon as my name alone was enough to make this happen, I vowed to myself that I was going to work with directors who were changing cinema, doing something important, you know? This goes back to when I was a teenager, feverishly watching movies like Taxi Driver and Apocalypse Now and saying to myself, someday, I’m going to be a part of films like this.

I’m so grossed out by Olicity/Stemily fans not understanding that a script isn’t written like prose fiction and doesn’t recount every little movement that happens on screen — so just because the script doesn’t say “Oliver touches Felicity’s ass” during their “sex scene” doesn’t mean its Stephen Amell’s “real feelings” for Emily Bett Rickards being shown. How are you guys this dumb and this disgusting? Stop tweeting him GIFs of Olicity sex scenes saying “was this scripted?” Stop mistaking fiction for reality. And stop treating his wife like shit because you can’t separate fact from fiction. Fucking enough already. 

I want to fall in love.
I want to feel the warmth of another person pulling me into an embrace. I want to share my secrets without any inhibitions. I want to hear about their day while eating thin crust pizza. I want to fangirl about Disney movies and anime and music and not be called a psycho at the end of the conversation because I’m passionate about supposedly silly things. I want to feel a connection without feeling guilty. I want to share this lonely existence with someone who feels as uncomfortable in their own skin as I do in mine. I want to kiss them till our jaws hurt. I want to call them mine. I want all of it.

I want to fall in love so terribly, I am willing to overlook all my unrealistic expectations and find someone as human as I am.

—  I am not afraid to live alone, but I don’t want to anymore.

léo’s 1k follower celebration. yaay. another celebration !! i just finished the last one omg. first off, it’s absolutely insane that there are 1k of you souls following me?? my mother is most definitely paying you fml instead of buying me friends she could be buying me food so i don’t starve buuut. on a more serious note (yes i’m capable thank you very much), i know that 1k (1,000 holy hell) doesn’t sound like much compared to some blogs, but to me that means that there are 1,000 people out there who think my blog is worth following. worth having on their dash every day. worth putting up with my shitposts for. and that… is really touching to me. it means a lot to me. siriusly. to those of you who i interact with often and those of you who i have never interacted with before, thank you for being on the journey of running this blog with me. from the bottom of my heart – sincerely – thank you. omh i’m getting sappy it’s time to move on. 

“so… 1k… léo, congrats and all, that’s great, but what are you going to do for us followers to celebrate it and show how much you appreciate us?” oh, i am so glad you asked. it involves confetti (ominous, right?). confetti? what does that mean? well… confetti, it’s obviously a… wedding ??  

as many of you know (or are very quickly about to learn), gregory goyle is the love of my life. the stars in my sky. the light of my universe. i love headcanons about him, i love aesthetics, i just love him. alright? alright. and i’d like to celebrate my (imaginary) wedding to gregory goyle with all of you followers! and also get to know you a bit better. so how am i sending out invitations to my wedding, you ask? well, through a birthday page, of course! name, birth month and day, and, of course, your guest (favorite harry potter character) are all i need to make the reservations !! so come on over and celebrate this joyous occasion with me !! let’s have fun with this, shall we ??

of course everyone is invited to the wedding, but the list of vips (friends) and special guests (link to blogroll) are below the read more!

RULES TO JOIN

  • must be following our lord and dragon savior
  • reblog this post (likes don’t count)
  • send me an ask with: your name + your birthday and month + your favorite harry potter character
  • also you better send me a congratulations on getting married or else i will be offended this is my wedding after all. jk. i’m kidding. though if you want to have fun with this please do. it’s literally a shitpost celebration but let’s have fun.
  • if this doesn’t get 20 notes then it never happened.

PERKS OF JOINING

  • on your birthday (or during the month of) i will make you one of the following related to the character you sent in: a moodboard, a playlist, a name aesthetic, an edit, a headcanon list, etc.
  • OR 
  • i will make you an url edit, url moodboard, name aesthetic, solo blog promo, or something of the sort. 
  • OR
  • if i get really swamped that month i will do group promos.
  • either way, you will get a surprise gift sometime during the month of your birthday if i can’t get it to you on the exact day.
  • PLEASE BE AWARE i know i’ve said this already but  these may not be published on your exact birthday date. something in life might come up and i may not be able to publish it exactly on the day, but i will post one of the above things sometime during your birthday month. as a full-time university student who also works two jobs, i do tend to get very busy.

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anonymous asked:

Hello, I was one of your students at some point, because of family problems and my own stupidity got kicked out of university. I can start again but it seems like just a waste at this point? time and monetary. The 2+ years I was in school where awful it just felt so wrong, the things I loved and where so passionate about started to feel dull, only reason I kept going was beacuse my dad cared so much about education. I'm 22 getting really close to 23 and I'm really scared and lost

Hmm. I’m not sure if you want me to answer this or not, it would seem more like you’re venting, which is totally fine too. 

In the off chance you’re looking for some form of advice, I would firstly say that if you’re one of my students you’re probably located in México. I know that University seems like a huge waste of time. I switched Universities more than once and even got suspended for failing subjects. Twice. I still finished the damn thing and while I agree it’s a mostly wasteful thing which sucks out the passion out of the things you love, I’d still advice you finish it.

Try and look at it this way: it’s a good place for networking, and you need a plan B. Always have a plan B. By all means follow your dreams, but always have a plan B. Another useful thing of a University degree: you can work overseas with it. Almost every creative field position in a foreign country will require at least a college/university degree. In case you don’t have your passport and visa set up: Now would be a good time. You can get a visa a lot easier if you’re studying. 

It’s hard for me to provide any more advice because I don’t know what were you studying and what do you want to do with your life, but I’ll say this: It’s ok to feel lost at your age. Most people do, to be quite honest. I didn’t start to get my shit together until I turned 27. It’s just how it is. And no, I’m not condescending just because I’m older, but I can try and tell you stuff I wish someone told me at your age. 

Feeling lost really sucks, and feeling like nothing is under your control contributes to that. It’s like you need to learn how to walk all over again. We live in a changing world in which the shit that used to be a given for our parents like job security, affordable housing, reliable healthcare and saving for retirement is simply not there anymore unless you’re rich or from a First World country, and even that second one depends on which First World country.  On top of that you’re faced with the reality that the thing you love, that thing you were so passionate about is becoming dull for you. I don’t know exactly why that is, but I’m gonna try to explore different scenarios and hopefully one of those will help:

• Your passion is full of morons.

That’s one thing you’re gonna have to get used to. If the thing you love becomes dull because you’re surrounded by assholes and incompetent people who don’t understand said thing and still claim they also love this thing you love, you’re the one fucking up. Your appreciation for your chosen discipline has to be beyond what you think of other people. Do you think if I based my appreciation of drawing and comics on the behavior and opinions of the industry these days I’d even be trying to pick up a pencil/stylus? Also, you always, always have to consider the possibility that you are being the asshole. Really look deep within yourself and pay attention to the behavior of those around you when you’re in the room, and think to yourself “am I the one making it difficult by being insufferable?” You could even (rarely) be right, and still be an asshole about it, rendering whatever insight you have useless. 

Assuming what you love to do is what you’re studying, the problem with it is also that your teachers may not coincide with your opinions on many subject matters. This is an issue I ran into a lot, especially because by my third semester I already had considerable work experience in illustration and graphic design, and some of my teachers hadn’t worked for years. Just swallow it. Seriously. Just smile, and say yes, and study on your own. Get tutorials, listen to the best on the field. The internet is a valuable resource. Get to know your teachers. Pay attention to the ones who are also working on the field while they teach. They’re usually the most savvy ones. Learn to listen to the good, knowledgeable people and learn how to use those who are idiots. Sounds a bit psychopathic, I know, but what I mean by that is, learn from their mistakes. Look at what they’re doing wrong and avoid it. You may need something from them at some point. Don’t get on their bad side. Don’t be an ass kisser either. Just treat them with respect, only appeal to their vanity if you need something from them and they’re playing hard to get. Sometimes you just need to be cold-blooded. Accept that. 


• Your passion is a job.

Your passion is a job. This is the reality of every craft, every discipline, as fun as they may seem. Even competitive eating is a fucking job. Look at Takeru Kobayashi. The second you decide you want to make comics, or music or food for a living, it becomes a job. It has deadlines, annoying clients, invoice disputes, etc. That’s just how it is. Guys like Report of the Week on youtube making money by reviewing fast food? That’s a job. They created that job. It’s fun, yeah. But it’s also their means of sustenance. That whole thing about “Do what you love and you’ll never work a day in your life?” Absolute fucking horseshit. It’s a bare-faced lie. Doing what you love for a living means you still have to deal with all the bullshit a job entails, but at least you feel fulfilled at the end of the day. There is no way you will avoid the business side of it. And I don’t think I know anyone who likes to deal with that shit. If the realities of your passion being full of assholes and also being a job are just too much, well…


• Maybe your passion isn’t your passion.

And it’s okay. Really. I know a lot of people who are really, really good at drawing and illustration and they love it, but they know themselves well enough to know that they just don’t love it enough to go through all of the shit you need to go through in order to make a living off it. When you really like a hobby you can make the mistake of thinking that it means it’s your passion, but maybe that hobby has a very important place in your life as the thing you use to relieve stress. Making it a job would take away your hobby, and now you need a new one to relieve stress. You have to understand that making something you really enjoy your job is to sacrifice the portion of it which relieves you of stress. You sacrifice that part for something greater though: Fulfillment. Of course, before fulfillment comes an avalanche of bullshit you have to wade through before you get there, and you need to really, really meditate on whether the fulfillment you’ll get after it will be enough to make that time, sweat and tears invested worth it. To be quite honest the reason I do what I do is not necessarily ‘cause I love drawing, even though I do. It’s because if I don’t create anything I die inside. I fucking rot. So honestly I don’t really have a choice. I could’ve easily become a musician, or a writer, just as long as I got to create something. The whole idea of “having a passion” sometimes strikes me as something the internet invented. The reality I’ve encountered in my personal life is that the stuff that fuels me to pursue the things I want to pursue are discipline, and the knowledge that not doing it just isn’t an option, it’s self-preservation. Maybe we need a new perspective on how to treat the things we love to do, I don’t know. 

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Let’s just summarize this overly long and unedited post: It’s okay to feel lost, and most people during their 20′s go through this. It gets better as long as you don’t do something really stupid (by really stupid I mean something that might land you in jail, shit like that). This is a good time to ponder on whether your passion is really your passion and if you’re ready to make the sacrifices needed to make that your job. 

One small thing you can do to work your way up from feeling lost: Clean your room. Seriously. Look for small problems in your immediate surroundings, and solve them. Make your bed. Organize your books. Organize your computer folders. This works for me. Hopefully it’ll work for you. 

And I think that’s all I have to say. I have no idea if any of this will help you, but I hope at least some of it will, I really do.   

*I have already added new points to this as I found something else on my dash*

Out of all of the communities I have been a part of on Tumblr in my time, I have to say this one gets to me the most. This one is definitely high on the list of “worst communities ever" for me.

There are tons of amazing people here, don’t get me wrong, I have made a lot of wonderful friends through Witchblr. And I do love sharing resources with you all, and seeing people’s spells and sigils. But the community itself is horribly toxic.

I’m putting a bunch of this under a “read more” for triggers, if you care to see.

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anonymous asked:

How did you become so emotionally stable and just happy with yourself? I look at the advice you give you it really does help people and seem like you have it all together. What did you do to get to that point? I've been trying to be positive and emotionally content but it's really hard because it seems like it's always something going on to break me down.

I’ve come such a long way. I suffered from deep depression and I was in a really dark space for a couple years. Honestly… my relationship with God saved my life. One day I was just tired of being tired. I felt like I was slowly killing myself. My spirit was broken. My soul was drained. My eyes were hallow. My heart was too heavy to carry. Something inside me told me I was worth it. I was worth having a happy life and that I was wasting it. so I just decided to get up out the quick sand I was sinking into. It was hard… not only did I have to find my way out… I had to learn how to walk on my own feet again. I started reading books, meditating, praying, writing, crying, healing. I started talking to God and developed a deep connection and love like I had never felt before. My mind was at war… I was sick. I was thinking so negative. I had to change my entire thought process. It was extremely difficult and time consuming. Some days I didn’t want to get out of bed, and others God rose my feet and got me going. I had to believe in something. I had to have faith. I had to imagine there was something greater than what I knew. I started thinking good things. I started dreaming and setting goals for myself. I started fighting for myself. Every time I’d have a bad thought I’d kick it to the side with a good thought. I let go of the past that once held me prisoner. I forgave those who wronged and hurt me. I stop picking at wounds and started finding ways to heal them. I started to love myself. Accept myself. Forgive myself. I started doing things I love and being apart of society. I started laughing more. I started getting excited over little things. I found passion in makeup and clothes. Things that made me feel good about myself. I find outlets through reading. I find outlets through prayer. I find peace in knowing the promised god has given me. It’s really a mind game though. Battlefield of the mind helped me! Try giving it a read. It’s spiritual and I don’t know if your into that, but the message is good. Watch what your thinking about… ✨ I still have my days. I’m mostly attacked with nightmares that leave me crying in the night. Some days I still feel the old depression friend knocking on my door but I never answer. Life is so beautiful man. Life is so great. Just look at it. Watch the moon, look at the beauty in the trees. Sometimes I watch the trees. How they can die but come right back life. How they never stop standing. How the sun never goes away. How the moon is always there. They never give up no matter how bad the world treats them, and neither will I! Have the same mindset my love ✨ life is worth living! Think positive! Gain control over your feelings. Never let someone have power of them! And just fight. Really hard.