things i cant change the story so far

jhopeismybutthole  asked:

Girl, do you ever go back through your stories and scenarios, read them, and think "damn I'm good" ??

Okay so i have a weird memory and when i go too far back, say…5 months back, and read something i wrote it doesnt feel like i wrote it at all, as i usually have no recollection of typing it, nor does it seem like something i would say.

But i always enjoy the stories with few exceptions.

Now…if i go back TOO far, the “this is enjoyable” changes to “holy shit this is terrible did i really used to write like this? Omg let me delete this entire thing from the blog gahhhhh”

So yeah…i cant go too far back because i cringe and actually become embarrassed of myself.

And i cant read things that i wrote too recently either because i read them several times when i write, and several times when i edit and i actually get a feeling similar to carsickness when i have read the same thing more than 10 times in too short of a period of time.

It makes me feel like puking. Literally. I literally want to puke because i feel carsick.

So….uhh….maybe if i go back 2-3 months ill be like ‘wow, this is nice. I like this.’ But at this point its such a small window i might as well just give up and write something new.

The story so far

State of mind/roam
The glass
Frame work
Mt diablo
things i cant change
Nerve
How you are
Small talk
Bad luck
680 south
Solo
Navy blue
Mock
Empty space
Heavy gloom
Clairvoyant

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ALRIGHTY MOTHERFUCKERS. YOU READY FOR SOME NEW FUCKIN MUSIC. I AM. not. i alreayd listen to all of this but. some of yall need new music. i always do. send me recs. i love music.

ALPHABETICAL ORDER CAUSE THATS HOW WE FUCKIN DO!!

a-

A DAY TO REMEMBER (youtube/download all i want, right back at it again, and homesick)

b-

BASTILLE (flaws, bad blood, laura palmer)

BLEACHERS (i wanna get better, wild heart, strange desire)

BRAND NEW (the boy who blocked his own shot, seventy times 7, millstone)

c-

THE CAB (one of those nights, angel with a shotgun, temporary bliss)

CITIZEN (figure you out, the night i drove alone, drawn out)

e-

ECHOSMITH (cool kids, come together, lets love)

f-

FIREWORKS (arrows, glowing crosses, flies on tape

THE FRONT BOTTOMS (twin sized mattress, the beers, peach)

h-

HAIM (forever, my song 5, honey and i)

HANDGUNS (early retirement, heart vs head, the loved ones who hate us)

j-

JOYCE MANOR (constant headache, leather jacket, if i needed you there)

l-

LA DISPUTE (king park, for mayor in splitsville, such small hands)

LETLIVE. (white america’s beautiful black market, banshee, 27 club)

m-

MAN OVERBOARD (dead end dreams, boy without batteries, atlas)

MARIANAS TRENCH (celebrity status, sing, toy soldier)

MODERN BASEBALL (charlie black, your graduation, broken cash machine)

MS MR (bones, salty sweet, hurricane) 

o-

OF MICE AND MEN (would you still be there, second and sebring, you’re not alone)

p-

PIANOS BECOME THE TEETH (cripples cant shiver, liquid courage, sleepshaker)

r-

REAL FRIENDS (i dont love you anymore, lost boy, late nights in my car)

s-

SAY ANYTHING (six six six, spidersong, burn a miracle)

SEAHAVEN (ghost, andreas, flesh)

STATE CHAMPS (hard to please, prepare to be noticed, deadly conversation)

THE STORY SO FAR (mt diablo, things i cant change, stifled)

t-

TIGERS JAW (chemicals, coil/recoil, jet alone)

TONIGHT ALIVE (lonely girl, dont wish, amelia)

w-

WE ARE THE IN CROWD (manners, best thing that never happened, rumor mill)

THE WONDER YEARS (a raindance in traffic, local man ruins everything, teenage parents)

y-

YOU BLEW IT (better to best, regional dialect, medal of honor)

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